#nothing makes me happier than the beauty of upstate ny

[theicarusconstellation]

Are you Australian

nah i’m from upstate ny, united states!!

[eldritchsurveys]

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What is the most physically painful thing you have ever experienced? >> I assume it’s cramps because that’s the only painful experience I’ve had often enough to have a solid, semi-accurate memory of. Maybe, say, cutting my face (or getting my face stitched up) hurt a fuckton, but while I have a vague memory of it happening, I have no memory of the way it all actually felt. So it is for every possibly-painful event I can still recall... except for cramps.

What is the worst thing that's ever happened to you? >> *shrug*

What is the most beautiful landscape you have ever seen? >> In person? I don’t know, probably something in the mountains in Colorado. Or maybe in upstate New York.

How old were you the first time you encountered God? >> I have never encountered the God you speak of, but the first time I encountered a god I was in my mid-to-late 20s somewhere.

Do you believe in miracles? >> Not really. I believe that strange things happen, but the only reason we think they’re so strange is because they go against our admittedly-flawed predictive models of how the world works.

What is your favorite color? >> Gold.

List three attributes you inherited from your mom. >> ---

Have you ever given your life to Christ? >> I tried. He didn’t take it. Which is good, because it actually doesn’t belong to him anyway, no matter what a bunch of puffed-up holy rollers try to tell me.

What is the best thing that's ever happened to you? >> *shrug*

Have you ever given birth to a child? >> Gods, no.

What are your dreams? >> I don’t have any dreams.

Are you living your dream? >> I’m living something better, a whole-ass real life.

What are three things you have been a victim of? >> *shrug*

What is your passion? >> I don’t have any passions, I don’t think.

When was the last time you truly felt alive? >> I don’t know how else I would feel??? What’s the alternative?

How many siblings do you have? >> ---

Are you married? >> Not currently.

Are you dating someone? If not, do you wish you were dating someone? >> I’m not dating anyone and I have no desire to be dating.

What do you want the theme of your wedding to be? >> Theme? The theme is just... ravens and death and... absinthe? The theme is New Orleans in general, because that’s where it’s being held. Also, Wednesday. He’s a theme too.

Do you want an indoor or outdoor wedding? >> It’s going to be outdoors.

What do you want to name your kids if you have a girl and a boy? >> ---

Do you like to read? >> Sure.

What are your top three favorite books? >> The Fountainhead, The Phantom Tollbooth, idk what’s third.

What are three of your favorite scents? >> Peppermint/menthol is the only one I can remember off the top of my head.

Is your birthday in your favorite season? >> Yeah.

What kind of car do you drive? If you don't drive, do you want to a car? >> I am only a Driver inworld. I never learned how to drive outworld and it really doesn’t bother me (although I’d like to do it for fun a few times).

Where do you live (state or country)? >> Michigan, United States.

What states (or countries) have you lived in? >> NJ, NY, CO, NC, MI.

What is your name (first and middle)? >> Mordred Shadow.

Does your first crush know you liked them? >> ---

What is your favorite type of seafood? >> ALL OF IT

Do you wish on stars? >> No.

Have you ever wished on the moon? >> No.

What color was your first phone? >> Grey, I think. Probably.

When is your birthday? >> 28 May.

What is your favorite season? >> Spring.

Who was your first roommate? >> IDK

Are you happier now than you were 10 years ago? >> Overall, probably. But I can’t really say because I don’t truly remember how I felt about my life ten years ago. I just know I’m happy now.

Are you happier now than you were 5 years ago? If not, why not? If yes, why? >> See above.

Do you live in your dream house? >> I don’t have a dream house. Also, I live in an apartment.

What hurts your heart? >> Stuff.

What are three of your favorite colors to wear? >> Black, grey, olive.

What color are your eyes? >> Dark brown.

What are your top three favorite colors? >> Gold, purple, green.

Who was the last person who said something that warmed your heart? >> I’m not sure what that feeling is. I mean, I’m not saying I’ve never felt it, it’s just that if I did, I didn’t recognise it as “my heart being warmed”, I don’t use that kind of wording.

Who was the last person who hurt you? >> Someone who didn’t deserve that power, so it’s really me that hurt myself in that case. I shouldn’t have put myself in the position to be hurt by someone who wasn’t providing any real tangible benefit to my life, no matter how I thought I felt.

What are you allergic to? >> Nothing.

Do you have neat handwriting? >> Sometimes. I used to have very neat handwriting when I did more actual writing, instead of doing everything digitally like I do now.

What is the name of your youtube channel, if you have one? >> ---

What are three things you hope will be different about your life in 5 years? >> That’s not something I think about.

Do you want kids? >> Not particularly.

What is your dream job? >> ---

Are you working your dream job now? >> ---

What was your first job? Did you like it? >> Food service and hell no.

What other jobs have you had? >> I was a merch boy for local bands for a while. Only job I’ve had as an adult, but god, it was the best.

What is something people may not know about you? >> There’s probably a lot of things people don’t know about me, but I don’t feel like trying to think of something now.

Have you been bullied? >> Yeah.

Do you get bullied a lot? >> Currently? I don’t get bullied at all. I doubt I’m even capable of being bullied at this stage, because I can just leave a place now. Adulthood is underrated for that point alone: I can just fucking walk out of a place if I’m being mistreated. Couldn’t do that in, say, school as a minor.

What would you say to someone who is being bullied? >> I wouldn’t say anything to them. Not about that, anyway.

What is your favorite magazine? >> New Scientist is kind of cool. IDK.

Do you feel like you are making the most of this season? >> Sure.

What season are you in now? >> Summer.

Do you take selfies? >> Not anymore. I know what I look like. (I might take some on special occasions, if I’m wearing something I don’t usually wear, or something like that. But otherwise, there’s no real point.)

What kind of phone do you have? >> Moto g6 or something.

Do you like your computer? >> Sure.

What is your favorite dog breed? >> Pit bull.

Do people respect you? >> I mean, yes? Not everyone, obviously, but in general I am usually treated respectfully.

What do you wish people knew about you? >> ---

What health issues do you have? >> ---

What is one thing you hate? >> ---

What is one thing you miss? >> ---

Who is one person you miss (or two or three)? >> ---

Who do you wish you could just start over with? >> No one.

Who is pregnant right now? >> Someone, I’m sure.

Who do you wish you could spend more time with? >> ---

Who do you wish you could talk to right now? >> ---

Share something deep and personal--a secret or a wish. >> No?

What does your heart long for? >> Sigh.

Do you still cross paths with your first crush ever? >> ---

What is your favorite Bible verse, and why? >> I don’t have a favourite.

What has God been teaching you lately? >> I don’t know if Wednesday (or Sunday) is trying to teach me anything right now. I think they’re just chillin’.

Do you beat yourself up a lot? >> I try not to, but I don’t always succeed. It’s a hard habit to break, considering I learned it at such an early age and didn’t start trying to break it until recently.

Do you call yourself stupid? >> Sometimes, but like I said, I’m trying not to.

Do you have a secret nobody knows? >> Not, like, intentionally.

Who are some of the most selfish people you have ever met? >> Oh, I don’t know. Most people are some form of selfish, and I expect that. It doesn’t bother me, and I don’t really know why it bothers anyone else. We’re all the same way.

Have you ever been betrayed by a friend? >> Maybe, I don’t know.

Is there anyone you want back in your life? >> No.

What color was the house you grew up in? >> I don’t remember. Beige, maybe.

What was your favorite class in high school? >> ---

Where did you go to college? What was your major? What was your minor? >> ---

What do your parents do for a living? >> ---

What was the name of the first pet that you loved? >> ---

Are you double-jointed? >> No.

What's one secret talent that you have? >> I have no secret talents. Surveys need to stop asking about “secret” this and “secret” that, it defeats the meaning of the word “secret” if I’m just going to go blabbing about it on tumblr.

What's the best compliment you've ever received? >> I don’t know.

Do you receive more insults or compliments? >> I guess compliments. I rarely get insulted to my face.

Do you feel like social media enhances your life or takes away from it? >> It was subtracting from it, which is why the only social media I have now is tumblr, which I genuinely enjoy being on.

Do you meditate? >> No.

Do you meditate on Scripture? >> No.

Do you pray? >> No.

Does God speak to you? >> Some gods do.

Have you ever seen a spirit/ghost/shadowy figure, etc.? >> Yeah.

Have you ever hallucinated? >> Yeah.

How much do you weigh? >> 146lb at last count.

How tall are you? >> 5′4″ or 5′5″ or some shit.

Are you happy with your weight right now? >> Eh. I’m trying not to have any feelings about it at all. It’s all arbitrary bullshit.

Who are your celebrity look alikes? >> I don’t know, but I’ve been compared to both Grace Jones and Harold Perrineau.

If you had a twin, what would he or she be named? >> How would I know? It wouldn’t be my responsibility to name them.

Do you pray regularly? >> No.

What color is your keyboard? >> Black.

Do you use your phone for an alarm? >> Yeah, on the rare occasion that I have to.

What was your favorite childhood family vacation? >> ---

What states have you been to (that you remember)? >> Meh.

What countries have you been to (that you remember)? >> None.

What are some places you would like to visit? >> All of them.

Do you like to make lists? >> I used to, when I was a kid. I mean, it’s still fun now, but less so.

What are you going to be for Halloween this year? >> Probably nothing special.

Do you have any weird habits? >> I don’t know, do I?

Are you a daydreamer? >> No.

What is your personality type? >> ...???

Would you rather be able to fly or swim underwater? >> Swim underwater, since I can’t swim period.

What superpower do you want the most? >> Meh.

What would you ask a genie for, if you had three wishes? >> I wouldn’t. I’ve read and seen enough horror stories about wishmaking to know better.

What is your favorite quote? >> I don’t have one.

Do you think it's ok to call yourself stupid? >> Of course not, otherwise I wouldn’t be actively trying to undo the habit.

Have you ever thought someone was ugly, but never said it? >> Yeah. Why would I say it, that’s just rude.

Do you like your natural hair color? >> Sure.

What is your natural hair color? >> Dark brown.

What is your favorite Disney princess? >> Moana. ...She counts, right?

Do you have a best friend you can tell your secrets to? >> ---

Does your life seem magical? >> Sometimes.