#nothing intended to be speculation on real mr jash

[peachphernalia]

thoughts... on the soul/whole dynamic... i feel like whole would be simultaneously flattered and creeped out that soul treats him like he's sacred. he just wants soul to understand he's Just Some Guy, and soul is like "you're so humble, it's incredible, how can you be so perfect?" because to soul, meeting whole is having a personal meeting with god Himself. meanwhile whole is just like "why is he looking at me like that. please just have a normal human conversation with me" while soul is following him like a loyal puppy

-sainteclectic {if you know that name, mostly this is so i don't forget my own ask lol}

hey sorry this took me 1 million years to respond to i was trying not to completely fly off the handle

cut because this got long Sorry

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deep breath . ok WELL.

i agree with much of what you said i definitely think whole is a wet cat of a man who doesn’t know how to cope with being loved in any substantial capacity much less Whatever This Is but i think it gets even more complicated because . well quite simply i think he’s not actually sure what a normal self image is supposed to be . he doesn’t know what he’s Supposed to have with soul . i mean it’s uncomfortable definitely it’s offputting for him [both because being worshipped like this is Unsettling & also just because the idea that he has any love in him is uncomfortable] but he thinks Maybe this is what it’s supposed to look like maybe self is just an uncomfortable concept . maybe it’s supposed to make him feel. like . This (?????)

i ALSO think he is a bit selfish . which i of course say with love & affection because i think that is a perfectly fine thing to be . the level of fanaticism he receives from soul is definitely more than he Wants & definitively more than he feels safe with but it’s like coming home freezing cold & then showering in the absolute hottest water possible to warm yourself up . very odd analogy but he’s sort of been starving himself of self love for so long that he will still rather gladly take Too Much by the handfuls

all this to say my interpretation of whole . i think would kind of never tell soul to stop ? sighh soul loves him & it is certainly too much but hes torn between [this should not be happening nobody should care about me this much there cannot be any piece of me that loves this wholly] & the part of him that doesn’t ever ever want soul to stop . so it sort of just ends up with him being weird & aloof & trying to be distant so he doesn’t have to keep feeling weird about it without ever actually asking soul to back off

he is certainly creeped out by the religious aspects of it though . absolutely . >^-^<

idk if Any of this ended up making sense deepest apologies if i am onto Nothing . explaining the way my whole interpretation works gets complicated because he jumps through like 5million psychological hoops to reach somehow the most inconclusive set of ideals the world has ever seen . & he’s horrifically hypocritical which makes things even more tricky

will perhaps elaborate further on soul’s half of things [the half i actually have more developed thoughts on] later but this post is getting longgggg

thank youfor the ask to my blog >^-^<