#notesappandmoms

[pinesolfumes]

my mother is a person too.

i don’t look up at the stars that often, now that i’ve moved. tip toe through places ive danced. i dont know how we birth sunshine from sorrow, why we break those we say we love.

when my seas wash over the room, soothe your achey chest, i do not know how to hold you. hold space for love i havent had, broken fingers in my palm. i’ll wash your hair and make your breakfast because i dont know how, to speak words i haven’t heard.

and i ask myself how i became the savior. swimming in shoes i never wanted to wear. a special feeling. so far from my body at my mothers touch. my mother is a person too. a stranger to me.