#not very plesant to actually listen to

[sister-hawk]

The Downward Spiral is one of the rare few albums where the back half is better than the front half

i appreciate it as an art piece and for the narrative it’s trying to tell, but it lacks musicality to me

[localicecreambiter]

Zelda Main Theme/Title screen tier list

before we begin, this is my own opinion and preference in music! we all have different taste, so dont let mine invalidate yours!

im putting explinations for my choices below the cut, so if you wanna hear me yap about zelda music nows your chance

Triforce Heros: 10/10 i absolutely ADORE the triforce heros sound track! (actually listening to it as I type this) its such an underappreciated title (being the "bootleg" four swords lol) but has such good composition its hard not to love it. its similar to botw's rito songs in which acordians are found in a lot of the tracks- anyway back to the topic of the main theme: its great. a refreshing change from the main zelda theme (as was trend with the DS games) and has a lot of character to it. high energy too!! exactly what i want to hear! a straight vibe that id wait to start the game just to listen a little longer

Spirit Tracks: i think we all know why this is 10/10 spirit tracks is another one of those underrated titles, especially for its music! i love how the melody (extremely catchy by the way) is played by a flute here, corresponding to the instrument you get in game :) it feels like im about to embark on an epic cross country ride

Wind Waker: even without knowing the plot of the game it feels like a sailor tune that would be played at dinner on a ship. its simple, and cutesy like the games art style, but fun and catchy too! a classic, one that really gets you into that sea fairing mood

TOTK: The only reason this one isn't higher is because I don't like that beginning bit with all the weird whisper singing. it fits the game really well! its just not my favorite sound in the world, but the melody hits HARD and really plays with the emotion of the scene that accompanies it in game. its high energy, but not in the same way triforce heros was, rather in an epic way rather than bouncy (if that makes sense?) its composed SO well, AND THAT BIT WITH THE SMALL BIRST OF PICCOLO??? chefs kiss. favorite part. not to mention the small zelda's lullaby motif at the end?? THE BOTW MOTIF??????

Skyward Sword: ballad of the goddess is genuinely just SUCH a good song, and the way its composed for the main theme gets you in all the right ways. the deep brass makes it very dramatic, especially with the drums it uses (love me some boomy drums). I love the woodwinds playing with the brass too! scratches the itch just right

BOTW: another great theme! it manages to change up the format a bit, but still keeps that dramatic vibe a zelda theme should have (for the more serious games, I mean, triforce heros doesnt count-) the acordian returns!! the melody! oh my god the melody!!!! its definitely a breath of fresh air (hehe get it?) it manages to encapsulate what a plesant breeze blowing against your face feels like somehow, and im living for it. i love the use of the dragon instruments after the pause! it feels like all the different cultures of botw hyrule has been rolled into this song with the instruments and all that

hyrule warriors: bet you weren't expecting that one, huh? its the only semi-traditional zelda theme in the top tier, and why? im a bitch for motifs, okay? I wasn't diging it at first, because it just sounded like a recomp of the classic zelda theme just really damn epic, but then it hit me with that tiny twilight princess motif and I knew I was in for a ride. THE BALLAD OF THE GODDESS MOTIF GAVE ME CHILLS i was not expecting it at ALL! and tHEN IT TRANSITIONED INTO HYRULE FIELD FROM TP??? AND THEN IT DOES IT AGAIN LATER IN THE SONG? i love you hyrule warriors NOT TO MENTION THE OTHER MOTIFS IT SHOVES IN THERE?? OOT?? MORE TP????? i am unapologetically a motif lover and i will stand by my decision

Minish Cap: i was ranking the track "story" since the intro screen was just 8 seconds and not really a song. i love how peaceful it sounds, and really befitting for a legend. ironically, it reminds me of The Legend from deltarune in a way. the whole song feels like an exposition, and personally one of my favorites which is why it ranked so high

Age of Calamity: ah, hyrule warriors' more popular, edgy, younger sibling. i wont lie to you, the melody is killer! and i love how it goes from eriee to epic final battle-esk music half way through. it feels like a final stand, and my GOD is it good

Twilight Princess: its so empty and woeful sounding, yet oh so full of hope and light i can't help but love it. its so pretty, so SO pretty. it does so much with so little and thats one of the things i love about it. i think the best compliment you can recieve is "you look the way the twilight princess main theme sounds" plus the wolf howl at the end is so funny

Ocarina of Time: i love that OOT makes the ocarina the main melody player and started the trend of the main game instrument being featured in the title/main theme. this one is pretty in a different way than twilight princess, this one is peaceful which is so misleading from the actual game story that i love it even more

Links Awakening (2019 Switch Remake): I separated this one from LADX because its VERY different from the original opening. Obviously, this one isnt retro music and that kind of adds to it, but its also the different beginning bit that sets it apart. the small mabe village motif before the actual zelda theme plays? love it. i really liked how they composed this version with all the different koholint instruments, it was like giving the song a new coat of paint. i love the classic zelda theme, but once you hear it so many ways it can get a little old, so it was great to see them do it like this :)

Majora's Mask: this is really only ranked so high because clock town is an absolute killer song, and I listen to it on loop. the only other reason is because that sharp turn at the end? my god its so disruptive but so good at the same time. the way the background cello gets intruppted by an ominous bass that grows louder, and how the clock town melody abruptly stops? such an amazing and indirect way forebode the dark theming of the story. both MM and OOT have such peaceful themes for their story lines, its good to see mm actually show that in the theme music

The Legend of Zelda: a classic, and what started it all. its simplistic with a great, strong melody, and i like how its paced a lot slower than most of the other games. that opening bit and the transition with the bassline is my favorite part.

Four Swords Adventure: this was another one I wasn't digging at first, but once you got into the meat of the song it was really nice. It starts as one melody, but gains a trumpet echo and a violin. its somehow chaotic but cohesive? i like how that reflects on the game

Oracle of Ages/ Seasons: OOA/S has nearly the same exact theme as LADX and four swords, only composed slightly differently. It keeps things simple, yet its very effective and plesant to listen to. a bouncy rendition of the main loz theme, just like FS and LADX. the only reason this one is ranked higher is because i liked the lower tone of the ooa/s rendition compared to LADX

Four Swords: im going to be honest, the retro sounding bassline with what i think is a snare? it felt a little strange, but i liked the little bits of the higher sounds acompanying the melody here with it. it felt like it was trying to be grand, but didn't quite hit what it was aiming for all the way. it was the beginning that through me off, really-

Links Awakening DX: simple, effective, yet a little too simple compared to the previous two since its the same rendition just with different make ups (if thats the right term) i know it was literally the 4th game to come from the series, but the original zelda theme felt like it had a bit more going on. still a good rendition of the main theme though! i like its bounciness

A Link to the Past: iconic. but, this was difficult to categorize since theres not much of a title theme? theres the selection screen music, but that became the fairy theme so i dont know if that counts either? either way its an 18 second clip or the fairy theme, which both are good, but just not really a show stopper (dont come at me alttp fans i dont mean it like that!! spare me!! mercy!!!!)

Zelda II: The Adventure of Link: why are you so LOUD holy cow- i like the theme, its pretty, but its short so it gets repetative if ykwim. i like the part with what im assuming is supposed to be some sort of bassline :) its my favorite part

Phantom Hourglass: i know its a wind waker sequal and i guess it makes sense, but just reusing the great sea music and changing up a part slightly felt kind of lazy to me? i do like the parts they added though! i think they're great sounding! but still feels a little lazy :(

A Link Between Worlds: I know what you may be thinking: "why is it so low? you LOVE albw" and to that I have to say, you know me so well, dear reader. You will also know, that just like the game its made after, there isnt really a title/main theme. the intro bit is about the same length as alttp so it gives you little to work with in terms of song. plus after the opening bit, it just kinda repeates the same few notes. going through the playlist i was kind of disappointed getting to albw, because at least alttp had selection music. this game has some of my favorite tracks to come from the series in it too so the intro being as it was (outside of a music standpoint, the intro is absolutely epic, don't get me wrong) i was just sad

anywayy! that was all of them!! if you actually sat there and read all of that, im proud of you. thanks for reading my yappage

[dark-twist-fairytales]

Are you ready? No, no you're not. Kee and Ezhno as roommates! Here you go!

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A new recruit, the constant chatter about them, and even more so, there was some sort of rumor floating around that the well known loner was gaining this recruit as a roommate.

Well, that's what most were assuming anyways, by the tone of Reginald's voice anytime the topic came up of where this new recruit would be staying at, claaming it was 'undecided if he's staying on the station or going back to the Earth base'. Everyone knew at this point that this recruit was staying with Ezhno.

Everyone, except Ezhno, knew this.

But, today was the day he learned.

He had finally set off time to actually meet this new recruit, the heist planner already reading on the male and finding him pretty harmless so far. Tall, but harmless. Maybe it'll be like meeting Violin and Accordion? Shaking his head to clear his thoughts, he walked towards the leader's office, tapping on the door lightly with his claw before waiting for someone to open.

His hopes were answered, with the second in command, Right Hand Man, opening the door up. "Oi, Reg, it's Ezhno." He spoke, stepping out of the way for Ezhno. Once the heist planner was in the room, Right closed the door and the two walked further in, closer to Reginald's desk and to where the recruit sat, messing with a deep red top hat. Ezhno watched his actions for a moment, trying to comprehend what he was doing. Examining the top hat very closely, that's for sure, but specifically on the rim and the top, his thumb lightly grazing against the edge. His focus was hard on it, but Ezhno chalked it up to him being new and examining the hat.

"Hey, chief." Ezhno spoke, his attention turning to the leader of the clan. "I wasn't exactly coming in here for you, but it's still plesant to see you anyways." This gained a chuckle from the leader, Reginald shaking his head softly afterwards.

"I know, you're here to meet the recruit, but I think it's a goodd thing you're in here anyways. We have some discussing to do. Nothing bad, just sleeping arrengments." Reginald said, motioning for the recruit to come up. Now that the recruit was the main attention, he set his top hat on and walked towards the other three, Right now beside Reginald, while he was now stood beside Ezhno on the opposing side. He stopped with a small squeak, looking to Ezhno and having to glance downwards to actually see the shorter male.

"Ezhno, this is the new recruit, Keegan. Keegan, this is Ezhno, our heist planner." Ezhno moved his left hand, his human hand, upwards to wave at Keegan, the shorter male noiticing that his hands were together rather than apart. A few moments, Keegan moved his own left hand to wave back, his other palm tightly closed and facing towards his chest.

"Keegan will be your new roommate." Ezhno's face dropped.

"I'm sorry, sir?"

"I'm not taking any other answers, Ezhno. I've been here for as long as you have. Solitude isn't good, especially for how long you've been by yourself." Reginald spoke, the tone in his voice similar to one of a parent talking to a teenager. "If it doesn't work out, that's fine, but one shot. I think you might like it."

Ezhno could only stare in shock for a moment, but he knew Reginald: Once his mind was made, it would take the force to push a mountain to convince him otherwise, and Ezhno didn't have enough evidence to satisfy Reginald for his case against a roommate. A reluctant sigh, he nodded. "Fine. One shot, but that's it. If it doesn't work out, I get a room to myself again.." Stubborn force with another stubborn force. Reginald agreed to the terms, before sending them off.

Keegan grabbed his backpack and duffe bag of things, looking to Ezhno in await of following him. A few moments of staring between them, Ezhno finally began moving to lead the other towards his room, listening to make sure the other was still behind him. Light on his feet, that's for sure, barely any noise like humming or whistling left him, but there were small.. Chirps, that left him. They weren't full hums or whistles, or even whines, they were similar to quick bird chirps. Regardless, he was pactically invisible if you didn't know he was behind you.

It was only about a three minute walk to his room, but once they were in front of the door, Ezhno turned around to Keegan. "I'm gonna go ahead an apologize in advance. It's a little messy, and a little.. Crowded, I guess? Just, shit's everywhere. I haven't had time to clean it." With the brown-haired male nodding, Ezhno took that as his cue to open the door up.

It wasn't as messy as Ezhno made it seem, but Keegan understood why he thought it was crowded. With the bit of furniture that came in the room that he didn't use (the bedrooms made to fit two people at minimum), and the bit of clothes on the floor, it seemed a little crowded, but Keegan didn't care. He's seen way worst, and way more crowded rooms. Ezhno walked in first, with Keegan following shortly after. The recruit did notice a few more things, but it mentally made him happier with how the room was laid out.

An alarm broke Keegan's thoughts, turning to Ezhno, who looked to his phone and his eyes practically flew open. One tap, the alarm was off, and Ezhno was apologizing and rushing off. The only thing Keegan could hear was the small 'I'll clean when I get back', before the door shut and Keegan was left in the light blue room.

He set his bags down on the futon, giving a hum to himself and looking at everything. Mentally deviding up the time frames was easy for him, and as he thought, he was working on cleaning. 'Thirty minutes cleaning trash and clothes, another thirty on sweeping and dusting, but save another fifteen to thirty for the amount of small spaces there were, which creats an hour at least and an hour and a half at most to get the room to a clean base.' He clicked his tongue to give a 'pop' sound, which indicated to himself that that one segment was good for getting the room clean.

'Twenty minutes to set my clothes away, along with another ten to set up my consoles, a possible five more minutes in case Ezhno has an electronics.' Another 'pop', another segment noted in his mind. But, this time, he stopped for a moment and looked around the room to try and see somethinng he could do for Ezhno to make his life easier. That's when he spotted an arrange of writing utensils, along with something helpful for his prostethics. A smile grew on Keegan's face.

'Taking about ten minutes to organize his bedside table might be useful. Not the inside, but the outside, so he has somewhere to set his arm down, rather than the floor or sleeping with it.' Another 'pop', and he got to work.

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Hours had pssed, and Ezhno was making his way back to his room, sighing quietly as he was dreading the mess that was there. He didn't exactly want to deal with it, but he had a roommate now, he HAD to. Rubbing his eye with his flesh hand, he stood in front of the door to try and push past the sleepiness he felt. A few seconds, he opened the door up, looking up from the floor and seeing.. Clean? "Did.. Did you clean in here?" Ezhno asked, walking in completely and closing the door. Glancin over to his left, he saw Keegan sitting on the futon, a controller in his hand, and focus broken from the TV screen.

A chirp, along with Keegan nodding, Ezhno couldn't help but smile a bit. "I.. Thank you.." He said, with Keegan nodding again and motioning Ezhno over to him, rather quickly. Although confused, Ezhno walked over to him, before Keegan patted the couch right beside him. He took the spot that Keegan patted at, still very confused, before looking to the screen to watch him play. Super Mario 64, and the only reason Ezhno knew this was from stories his older friends used to tell him about. While Ezhno's mind wasn't able to fully stop running, there was a certain wave of relief, watching this funny little Italian man jump around the screen, hearing the little chirps and giggles from the taller male beside him.

The game eventually paused, with Ezhno glancing over to Keegan in a small bit of confusion. "Kee." Keegan said, holding his hand out to Ezhno, and making sure it was his left hand before he brought it out for a shake. Ezhno could only smile a bit, bringing his flesh hand out to Kee and shaking it. "Ezhno."

"Ez...no.. Ezh..no.. Ez-o!" Kee tried, giving a giggle at his own failure, before shaking his head. "Ez-o?" He said, as a way to try and confirm this nickname for Ezhno, and the male could only smile.

"Yeah, Ez-o works." Ezhno said, seeing Kee nod, before he whistled, twice in quick succession, the first one being higher and the second one being an pitch or two lower. Ezhno brushed this off, but definately made mental note of his expressive Kee was with his actions rather than words, and assuming he had difficulty speaking. He wasn't one to judge, leaning back on the futon and watching the other play the game again. Ezhno did pick up on a few 'wa-hoo!'s' and 'wa!'s' from Kee, copying after Mario shortly after he would say it.

Maybe Reginald was right...

[pocketfulofgalaxies]

His crimson, WHAT! Just what kind of nonsense was that. Wait was his face all flushed. Was it flustered? His cheeks did feel a little warm. Damn. Composure Ciel, keep your composure. Don't let everything, or anything Alois say make you a complete mess. "If you ever try to blow up my mansion, you will be sorely disappointed. As the servants who serve me will let nothing happen to my residence. They may seem like bumbling idiots most of the time, but you have no idea what they are capable of." It was not a subject Ciel wanted brought up. This mansion already has seen too much damage taken. And yes, Sebastian could rebuild it. Ciel saw it done when he returned home. Well, that had been his twins name not his. He stole it.

"So I ask you do not even dare joke about that in my presence! Understood?" As Ciel moved to press on towards the kitchen, he folded his arms over his chest trying to avoid any eye contact with Trancy. "Even if I had hidden rooms. I wouldn't tell you where they are, as they are hidden for a reason." If those were meant to be compliments, they weren't the best.

Finally he turned his gaze back to the blonde. "Driving your tutors crazy? What Claude can't teach you the simple things? You need actual tutors. Sebastian edcuates me. And not in the most plesant of ways mind you, he is very strict." Ciel got reminded of the hot tea being poured over his hands.

Ciel listened as Alois continued to talk, walking in silence until he was done. "I see. Good to hear that everything is going well. The incidents in question weren't about disappearances. They were about other matters, ones which I might share with you later once we have our tea and snacks. We both know sooner or later something urgent will come up. It is only a matter of time." And with that being said, they finally arrived at the kitchen. "Can I trust you to handle the tea while I find some suitable snacks?"

Almost  pretty  much  everyone  around  him  had  searched  to  manipulating  him  in  one  way  or  another,  so  naturally,  as  only  manner  to  survive  within  that  harsh  world,  he  came  to  manipulating  everyone  around  him  …  It  wasn't  what  he  had  been  planned  with  Phantomhive,  and  anyways,  as  much  some  of  his  behavior  could  be  considered  somewhere  manipulative  with  his  metaphoric  twin  (  having  consciousness  concerning  consequences  of  some  of  his  actions,  or  knowing  the  amount  of  pain  he  would  have  to  suffer  in  one  way  or  another,  and  yet,  keeping  the  illusion  alive,  protecting  his  naivity  for  understanding  be  experienced  as  a  whole  )  for  some  exceptions,  he  could  be  someone  else  ---  the  kind  of  his  little  brother,  the  kind  of  sweet  sunshine  who  desired  only  happiness  of  everyone  else  around  him,  an  beautiful  sunlight  …  Oh,  inside  these  moments,  he  playfully  remembered  over  an  lost  rabbit  who  crossed  the  road  of  Wonderland,  yet  remained  unaware  he  would  have  another  path  to  that  dreamy  dimension  !  At  least,  which  was  good  with  him,  he  wasn't  fooled  about  the  understanding  that  can  be  concluded.  At  notion  of  gratitude  when  it  concerned  him,  no  one  was  going  to  rush  !  He  shut  down  whatever  wonderful  insult  he  thought !

❝  Mind  my  hands,  are  you  kidding  me  ?  Your  crimson  face  is  a  gift  that  I  give  myself  on  specific  occasions,  protected  like  a  painting  to  be  looked  at  eternally,  in  which  loving  glances  will  be  lost  !  ❞  Immediate  theatrics  showing  up,  when  once  more,  he  used  term  of  I  for  treat  his  metaphoric  twin  and  not  especially  him  as  an  person  ---  these  were  the  subtleties  of  having  to  constantly  account  for  your  twin  even  during  his  physical  absence  at  the  time.  It  had  been  his  twin  who  crushed  on  Phantomhive.  He  remained  a  breakable  toy  for  his  taste,  in  which  his  personal  mission  was  to  make  it  interesting,  to  be  able  to  admire  how  he  could  transmit  this  same  dread  than  the  one  he  sought  to  continually  expose  in  his  presence  !  He  pouted  over  the  last  sentences.  He  was  already  heard  it  every  day  of  his  tutors,  so  it  was  good  opportunity  to  bring  some  reminder  about  authority  when  it  was  concerned.  ❝  Yes,  father,  if  you  say  so.  ❞  He  mocked  with  disdain,  as  he  still  attempted  an  effort  to  temporary  listen  to  such  things.  ❝  If  I  ever  want  to  blow  up  your  mansion  for  fun,  a  demon  will  rebuild  it  all,  that  will  be  his  expense.  ❞  He  finally  expressed  as  he  was  unable  to  not  contredict  whatever  authority  at  the  second  if  he  could  !  ❝  Oh,  do  you  have  a  hidden  room,  Phantomhive,  some  secrets  who  don't  want  to be  discover  ?  ❞  He  had  one  when  it  came  to  this  second  mansion  which  remained  well  hidden  from  everyone's  gaze, protecting this realm.

Following  comments  left  him  unsurprised.  ❝  Maybe  you  don't  recognize  an  compliment  when  I  say  one,  have  you  consider  that  ?  ❞  He  asked  quietly,  when  for  that  one,  he  was  speaking  for  himself  personally  and  his  beloved  little  brother.  ❝  Ooooooh,  but  I  want  to  be  surprised,  Phantomhive  !  I  always  want  to  give  you  the  best  of  compliments  !  ❞  It  was  his  best  manners  of  not  confessing  an  brutal  you're  boring  right  to  his  face.  He  learned  how  to  gain  fun  with  an  wonderful  asshole,  but  that  asshole  really  had  one  particular  manner  to  get  his  fun.  ❝  Driving  crazy  my  tutors,  expecting  to  break  one  or  two  of  them,  or  many,  or  all  of  them  if  I  can.  ❞  He  confessed  honestly  with  an  proud  smile  concerning  that  question,  then  paused  concerning  business  for  the  Queen.  ❝  I  always  busy  with  the  business  I'm  involved  with  !  ❞  It  was  certain  his  brother  will  talk  at  some  point  about  some  men  in  black  hanging  around  the  underground,  but  he  remained  pretty  much  discreete  with  them  on  his  concerns.  ❝  All  I  can  say  is  that  I  am  sure  of  complete  and  obscure  security  of  the  country,  that  Lau's  business  is  going  very  well  and  that  everything  is  well  monitored,  and  that  if  the  Queen  hasn't  asked  you  for  any  business  concerning  sudden  disappearances  not  worth  worrying  about,  everything  has  gone  well.  ❞  Pride  embraced  his  features  concerning  eternal  remembrance  he  was  the  Underground.

[handofmerope]

whoever softed me did it bc its valentines day and theyre jealous that im such an extremely hot bisexual goth and in a passionate relationship with my extremely hot leather jacket wearing skater bi boyfriend ... i hope you can find yourself a kin boyfriend soon

[sinfulredemptions]

It’s not the first time he’s seen the Prince visit IMP Headquarters. Hardly... Just like it’s not the first time he’s witnessed a frantic Blitzo scrambling out the back window to a ‘meeting’ or whatever lame excuse he cooked up for Moxxie to have to relay to the awaiting owl. Because as much as Moxxie chided him, apparently telling Stolas to ‘fuck off’, as Blitzo would oh-so-delicately put it, in person is not something his employer cares to waste time and/or breath on. So, yet again... It’s up to Moxxie to break the news that Blitzo’s- ‘prior engagement’ is going to be a smidge longer than anticipated. Hours in fact. The entire rest of the day.

Blitzo had pretty much said he’d see them in the morning... Sighing as he pours a steaming mug of tea (in the hope it may soften the blow), irritably muttering under his breath about how Blitzo could have at least called him about that sooner instead of allowing Stolas to wait for as long as he did, Moxxie carefully makes the drink. For some reason, his hands seem to move as if on instinct, adding and mixing ingredients like second nature to prepare the beverage to Stolas’s liking. If one didn’t know better, they’d assume he was the prince’s servant... But no, Moxxie is merely a good listener. Having overheard an offhand remark by the owl and tucking it away without realization.

With a soft sigh, he picks up the mug and a small container of homemade cookies he’d prepared yesterday— another happy accident —and sticks his head out of the break room, looking over at where Stolas sits, an uneasy smile on his face as he awkwardly clears his throat, “Um... Hello, your Highness.” Walking over, Moxxie politely offers the steaming mug, hopping onto the seat beside Stolas once it is accepted— feet dangling slightly off the ground and tail tip twitching anxiously —and then opening the tub of treats. With a small grunt and a sudden pop, fur bristling slightly at the surprise, the container is opened, Moxxie holding it out to Stolas with a sheepish smile.

“Soooooo... I’m afraid Blitzo’s prior engagement is running... longer than anticipated.” He says, tone sympathetic as he offers, “But maybe, I could leave him a message?” - (*YEETS a tiny boi*)

Stolas sighed softly, lost in his own thoughts as the minutes dragged on. What on earth was he doing here? He closed his eyes as a wash of emotion drifted over him and they were such a mess, he couldn't really pick out just one...but he did know that none of them were good. One part of him chirped that of -course- they were there to see Blitzy!

But lately that enthusiasm had grown softer and softer...the firm cool logic taking a lead and telling him what he knew and did not wish to acknowledge...the fact that he was wasting his time.

This was all a farce..a falacy...a nobleman's desperate attempt to try and grasp at something like love, to fill that ever yawning and widening chasm in his chest with something that felt real...even though it wasn't. Starlight drops welled at the corner of his eyes as his shoulders slumped.

He was tired of it...so very..very tired.

He was tired a lot these days...the only respite he had being his beloved daughter and...Blitzo. Now though, he was growing far to exhausted to run on the wheel, to seek emotion and warmth that...had never really been there in the first place.

The slight movement near the door drew his attention, a hand quickly brushing away those crystaline droplets as Moxxie spoke, the owl's eyes resting on him and the imp would probably see him looking...more his age. The endless immortal now weary from his prolonged existence..

He knew what was happening the moment Moxxie had appeared, it was nearly the same every time. The final nail in the coffin as it were...he had been hoping for a sign to tell him if he should continue this flight of fancy but now there was the answer plain as day.

Stolas took the mug with a murmured "Thank you~", cradling it and relishing in the heat that seeped through, the burning bracing pain serving the tether his emotions to the post as it were. He watched with some amusement as Moxxie perched next to him and offered the tin of cookies. His gaze studying them a moment before elegant talons plucked one and he nibbled it gently.

When asked if he could leave a message, Stolas spoke softly after finishing the treat. "Indeed. Let him know that we need to speak on our arrangement. I do believe we may have to come at it from a different angle, if we wish to continue being in business together.." The words were weighted with his emotions as he washed down the cookie, barely flinching at the heat that brushed down his throat.

The taste was rather plesant..just how he liked it and it actually took him aback a moment, looking down at the mug and then at the sympathetic imp at his side.

"Thank you Moxxie. You do always know how I take my tea.." a small amused laugh then, but none the less the sound rung...sad...almost hollow in a way.

[eldritchsurveys]

344.

When are you at your happiest? >> I don’t know. Happiness is a very fleeting feeling for me, and I’m usually on a more neutral plane. I like it that way, though. It suits me.

Do you find that you're attracted to people who aren't "right" for you? >> I don’t think that’s true for me, no. I’m attracted to people based on specific qualities, and the thing about that is that... people have other qualities aside from those things that I’m attracted to. And those other qualities might be completely wrong for me. But I don’t think that means I’m attracted to the wrong kind of people or anything. Luckily, I’m not attracted (in that sense) to any kind of people anymore unless they’re inworlders, so this isn’t even an issue now.

Is there anything you wish you did today? Why haven't you done it? >> Well, I was doing the “take a walk 3x weekly” thing and this is the first day since I started that I haven’t done it. But Can Calah said that if I make the decision to stay in, then I can’t beat myself up about it. I have to own that decision full stop. So, fuck it. It’s hot and taking walks around here is so fucking boring anyway.

Do you prefer to spend your time indoors or outdoors? >> Indoors is where the stuff is. Of course, if I have something specific to do outdoors, I’m happy to be outside. ...In the right weather.

What were you doing before you started this survey? >> A different survey.

Is there any exotic animal you'd like to have as a pet? If so, what is it? >> Hell no.

Do you think that deep down, everyone is good at heart? >> I don’t harbour any beliefs about what people are like “deep down”. I care about how people present themselves, because that’s the only data I can actually evaluate.

Can you honestly say that you love yourself? >> Yeah, I can honestly say that, based upon how I strive to treat myself no matter what bullshit my brain does.

How many people have you kissed? >> Enough, I’d say.

How many of those people are you still friends with? >> ---

Do you just feel awkward when you dance? >> Nah, dancing feels great. It’s the only exercise I enjoy, lmao.

When is the last time you felt absolutely happy? >> Argh, again with the happiness shit.

Where did you go, the last time you left your house? >> Took a walk.

Name someone that you love: >> Can Calah.

Is there something that you're looking forward to right now? If so, what? >> Not really.

What caused you to cry, the last time you did? >> I don’t remember. Probably overload (sensory or emotional). That’s usually why I end up crying, if I’m not getting maudlin about a movie or something, hah.

Do you think you spend too much time feeling upset? >> Nope.

Is there anywhere you would rather be right now? If so, where? >> Nah.

Do you like your singing voice? >> Sure. It’s a little creaky because I don’t practice much anymore, but it’s still serviceable. And I’m proud of the feats it’s performed in the past.

Do you think that you've ever actually been IN love with someone? >> I really don’t know.

If so, do you still feel the same way about them? >> ---

Have you ever done a psychedelic drug? If not, would you ever consider it? >> I’ve done a dissociative hallucinogenic, which functions kind of like a psychedelic at certain levels. But I’ve never done a classic psychedelic. I would consider it, yes, but after the harrowing experiences I had with DXM I would need a fair amount of support.

What's something that makes you feel uncomfortable? >> Being in wet clothing.

Are you bisexual? >> I’ve had sexual relations with both sexes (and a variety of genders), but I don’t consider myself bisexual.

Are you a good speller? >> Yes.

Are most silences awkward for you? >> No, most silences are comfortable for me.

Do you sing and dance? >> Sure.

Have you ever been to an amusment park? >> Yeah, as a teenager. Oh, and Luna Park (in Coney Island) is kind of an amusement park, I guess. I’ve been there quite a few times.

Name someone you wish you had never met. Why? >> It’s tempting to wish I’d never met certain people, but there’s really no point in that. 

Do you think some people are better than others? If so, why? >> No.

Do you have any "nerdy" hobbies? If so, name some: >> I mean, I don’t know? I guess any of my hobbies can be considered “nerdy” if you really want to do that.

Name a word that you just really do not like. Why don't you like it? >> “Wholesome”. I have no idea. Some words just hit that disgust button in the brain for some reason -- “moist” gets a lot of attention for doing that to people, for example -- and that’s one of mine. Too bad it’s a mildly popular word on the internet recently, lmao.

Do you still seriously make pinky promises? >> I never did, as far as I recall. 

Did you ever see the movie Good Burger when it came out? >> No.

Do you and your friends have a lot of inside jokes? >> ---

Do you like to party? >> I like to party in my own fashion.

What's your favorite aspect of your life? >> The freedom of it.

Do people tell you that you should smile more? (they're probably right.) >> No, I don’t usually have people telling me that. And it’s a good thing, because I don’t respond well to people telling me what to do with my face.

Do you prefer summer to winter? >> Yes.

Do you use swear words? If so, do you have a favorite one? >> Yeah. I don’t really have a favourite.

What's something you find utterly disgusting? >> Dirty bathrooms.

Are a free and active agent in the decisions you make? >> Yes!

Are you easily angered? >> No.

What's something someone could do to really piss you off? >> I’m not even sure. Like, there are a lot of things that people could do to aggravate me or drive me away, but to make me flat-out angry... that’d be difficult. I think you’d have to do a certain thing over a period of time and refuse to stop no matter what, so the irritation builds up and then turns into anger. Like how my ex kept doing certain shit and taking advantage of my patience and desire to be accommodating until I finally got too angry at being manipulated to keep it up.

What's your sexual preference? >> Inworlders.

Are you accepting of other's sexual preferences? >> Absolutely.

Do you spend a lot of time just thinking/daydreaming? >> No.

Name a song you've really been digging lately: >> Map Change by Every Time I Die.

If you were given a microphone and told you could yell anything, what would you yell out? >> I wouldn’t do that.

Are you a virgin? If yes, are you waiting until marriage? >> No.

Who has the nicest singing voice, that you know personally? >> I don’t know.

Say something nice about someone you really don't care for: >> ---

Do you think you're plesant to be around most of the time? >> I don’t know. I think if you’re a person who enjoys a person who is a decent listener and doesn’t dominate conversations, who often has a flat emotional affect, and who prefers quiet environments, then yes, I’m a pleasant person to be around. If you don’t like those things, then I’m not a pleasant person to be around. It’s all relative.

What are you gonna do now that you're done with this survey? >> Hmm.... I’m not sure. Watch another Borgias episode...?

[idjiyeon-blog]

hello hello hello everyone, this is lei and my daughter jiyeon (2.0) who as you can see went through a revamp, including a fc change. i’m excited to get back to the swing of things and write with all of you! my discord is hempstockss#0595 if you prefer to plot there! under the read more there’s a rundown of jiyeon and her basics, like this if you’d like to plot!

yoon jiyeon, 24, younger sister of famous actress yoon jungah, aurora’s lead dance and vocal

the gigi hadid of kpop, is 100% here for nepotism alone

listen, she can dance just fine and carry a tune, but she is not the most talented when it comes to that

joined midas at 15, debuted at 22 and was done with the idol life by 23 rip

was pushed by midas to acting bc hello famous last name and bc she was not talented on anything else to be a solo artist, is also not that interesting on varieties, so...

is actually a quite good actress and recently had her break through performance on goblin

will name drop gong yoo every five minutes

while she doesn’t like being an idol she loves the other aurora members so don’t mess with them

very sarcastic and not that plesant at first, takes some time to warm up to people

don’t ask her about her love life (ask her)

plans on bouncing the moment her contract is up and dreams of becoming a big hollywood actress

[lordendsavior]

Talking about 1975, how's it aging for you? I actually wasn't a fan but was happy for them others loved it. And Solange Album keeps growing on me. It's always funny to me that I read reviews but they don't seem to influence my taste or opinion. If they agree with me, I am like yup yup nailed it. And if they trashed an album I liked , I am cursing them and peacing out 😂����🏾‍♀️

that’s a very good approach i think lol. and speaking of ignoring reviews, i’m not feeling the solange reviews, like in a way i know it’s an album with a very ‘artistict’ vision but it’s just not doing it for me, there are too many things about the way it’s structured that annoy me, i feel like they have the exact opposite effect on me they were supposed to have. i really like a couple of songs, but as a whole it’s not a plesant listen for me, too irritating 😕 and re: 1975. i am LOVING their growth. like, i literally could not have imagined a better artistic path for them to follow lol. with every single album they’re getting better, more self-aware as both musicians and people. and i love that lol

[kazliin]

I love everything you write so much❤️ could you write about the first days after the wedding in the arranged marriage au from viktor's pov please?

I am in love with the arranged marriage au! If you have any more inspiration I would love more of viktor’s pov during the engagement or early marriage. Ooooh or the wedding!

[Arranged Marriage AU tag]

As soon as Viktor awoke the morning after his wedding, hisnerves returned in full force.

Part of his still couldn’t quite believe that he and Yuuriwere actually married. The process had been such a whirlwind, from their firstmagical night together at the Giacometti ball, to their parents arrangement, tothe wedding itself. And now a new day had dawned, his first as a married man.

Viktor dressed quickly and headed downstairs, the firstlight of dawn just beginning to spill through the windows. When he passed bythe door of the master bedroom he paused, listening for any signs of movement,but there were none to be heard. Yuuri must still be asleep, exhausted after the previousday’s events.

The sight of the closed door brought back all of Viktor’s memories from the night before. In particular, Yuuri’s surprised expression when Viktor didn’t join him in the bedroom still lingered in his mind. He hoped that he hadn’t offended Yuuri in any way, but he didn’tregret his decision. Yuuri had yet to bring up the night he swept Viktor offhis feet in a whirlwind of dancing and Viktor was unsure where Yuuri’s feelingsfor him truly lay. He knew his own heart and the fondness it held but forYuuri, their marriage could be one purely of convenience. Viktor had no desireto join Yuuri in his bed if he felt obligated as a husband, not because hetruly desired Viktor there. If Yuuri wanted him, Viktor would come when hecalled. And if he did not, Viktor would be content for them to simply be friends,no matter if he secretly wished for more.

Breaking himself out of his thoughts, Viktor moved away from the bedroom and down the main staircase. When he finally reached the entrance hall, Makkachinbounded up to meet him in a flurry of excited barks. Reaching down, Viktorrubbed behind the dog’s ears affectionately before opening the front door andallowing Makkachin outside. Many had often commented that it was beneath Viktorto take his dog out on his morning exercise instead of leaving it to one of thestable boys, but Viktor insisted. Makkachin had been with him since they wereboth young and their early morning walks together always helped calm Viktor’smind.

For several hours, he roamed around the edges of his estateas the sun rose behind him. Makkachin bounded along by his side, barkinghappily. The air was brisk and cold and snow lay thick on the ground but Viktorwas unbothered by the chill. It was only when the sun was fully risen in thesky that he began to make his way back, not wanting to neglect his newhusband on their first day together. He was an early riser but it was likelythat Yuuri would now be beginning to awaken.

When Viktor finally returned to the house, he was met instantly withthe alluring smell of freshly cooked food. Following the scent lead him to thedining room, where one of the servants was just beginning to set out the dishesof food on the table. Sitting at one of the chairs was Yuuri, looking radiantin the morning sun.

He glanced up as Viktor entered the room and immediately leapt upfrom the table, nearly knocking over the dishes in the process. One of hishands came up nervously to fidget with the hem of one his sleeves and Viktor notedwith pleasure that Yuuri was wearing one of the outfits that Viktor had commissionedspecially for him.

“Good morning,” Yuuri blurted out, then hesitated, as ifunsure what to say next.

“Good morning,” Viktor replied, trying to keep his voicecasual despite his roiling emotions inside. There was so much that he wanted tosay but, despite being married, he and Yuuri were still almost strangers to each other.It was hard to know where to begin.

“May I join you?” he asked as a start, indicating to thetable and the food laid out across it.

“Of course,” Yuuri replied, sitting back down with a relieved look on his face.

Pulling out a chair, Viktor sat down opposite, smiling as helooked over Yuuri again with an appreciative eye.

“I see that you approve of the clothes I had made for you,” heoffered, hoping to begin the conversation on a light note. In preparation for Yuuri’sarrival, he had commissioned Yuuri’s preferred tailor to make a wardrobe’s worthof clothes to fill his new husband’s room. While Yuuri never lookedanything less than stunning, the Katsuki’s financial issues were clear in hisclothes, several seasons out of style. Viktor wanted nothing more than to please Yuuri and providing for him had seemed like a good place to start. 

Yuuri blushed at the words, glancing down and back up toViktor again, fingers still playing nervously with his sleeves.

“They’re beautiful,” he admitted, a pleased note in his voice even as he continued to fidget. “But Viktor, they are far too much. I have clothes of my own and I shudder tothink how much you must have spent on ones as fine as these.”

“Please Yuuri, accept them for me,” Viktor insisted. “I amlucky enough to have you as my husband as it is. Please indulge me in my giftsso I may please you and attempt to show your fellows that I am a worthwhilematch.”

Yuuri’s expression turned confused at his statement, but Viktor couldn’t think why. It was clear that out of the two of them, he was the one who would have to prove that he was worth of Yuuri. There were many in the upper branches of society that would kill to havemarried into the prestigious Katsuki name, as he now had. There were many morewho had fallen for Yuuri’s quiet charms over the years who would have takenYuuri even if he had been a commoner without a penny to his name. But it was Viktor who now had his hand and many looked upon him with jealousy. 

In addition, no matter how wealthy Viktor’s family were, their history intrading would always be looked down upon to those who had been born into theirmoney. There was no great history behind the Nikiforov name, unlike the Katsuki’s.There would always be those who looked at his marriage to Yuuri as Yuurimarrying far beneath himself and the thought always made Viktor’s heart drop. DrapingYuuri in fine fabrics and jewels and lavishing him with presents might at least show those ofYuuri’s own station that marrying Viktor was not an unwise decision.

“If it pleases you, then I will wear them every day,” Yuurisaid. His expression was still slightly confused but there was warmth in hisvoice that had Viktor’s heart soaring.

After that, their conversation as they ate remained plesant. Viktorinquired into Yuuri’s night and was pleased to hear that he was content withhis lodgings. Yuuri in turn asked him about his morning stroll with Makkachin,looking eager, and Viktor filled him in on the details. Yuuri’s own dog Vicchanwas yet to be moved from his family home to their new estate and Yuuriconfessed that he missed him terribly. Viktor promised that they would taketheir morning walks together as soon as Vicchan arrived if Yuuri so wished andYuuri was quick to agree.

After their meal was over, they temporarily parted ways,both having duties to attend to for the morning. When Viktor finally finishedthe last of his most pressing tasks however, he sought Yuuri out again. His husband wasnowhere to be found in the house but when Viktor stepped outside, Yuuri wasstanding in one of the gardens, bundled up in a coat to protect himself fromthe chill.

It had started snowing again at some point during the dayand the snow clung to Yuuri’s hair and drifted through the air around him in aswirl of white. It made the him look almost ethereal, like something paintedby one of the great masters. When Yuuri turned, the snow was clinging to hiseyelashes too and melting on his hands. His fingers were buried in the sleeves of his coat, twisting theengagement ring that Viktor had gifted him absentmindedly, the tiny snowflakeengraved on the inside hidden from sight.

When he saw Viktor, Yuuri smiled, seeming far more relaxedthan he had that morning.

“I was at a loss as to what to do once I had finishedwriting to my family,” he explained as Viktor approached. “So I came out here to enjoy the snow. I confess, I have very little knowledge of what being a husband issupposed to entail and how we are expected to fill our days.”

“I am afraid I have the same lack of knowledge,” Viktorreassured him. “But we have plenty of time to learn together. And in themeantime, there seems to be no pressing matters at hand to be dealt with. Thereare many pleasant ways that we can spend the afternoon, if you wish.”

“What do you have in mind?” Yuuri asked, looking curious.

“Well,” Viktor smiled, holding out a hand in offering. “Thelake that borders our estate is frozen solid and your love of the ice is commonknowledge. We could skate, if it would please you?”

Yuuri’s nod was instantaneous.

“I would like that very much,” he replied, and Viktor’sheart soared.

TBC

[yourdlmatchmaker]

Dialovers Match up

I’m 5'1 dark skinned with a slim curvy figure That has soft dark brown long hair that is sensitive to touch.Also I wear black square glasses,I’m also a RAVENCLAW INFP aries. I take my relationships very seriously and hate being beytraded or lie too.I enjoy horror stories,creating characters,telling stories or making them and browse the internet. I mostly watch YouTube videos and be on quotev,I’m very quiet and nervous around steangers.But I’m very polite, displicned,sensitive and emotional.I’m afraid of abandonment too,I often daydream have huge mood swings I also get jealous easily and possessive.Though I can get a bit clingy have a very sour prissy mood,I’m also protective around my family.I love PDA and totally affectionate will be extra sweet to you plus romantic.I have a innocent mind and can be absent minded at times but is actually listening and observe people’s personalities. I can be very kinky and perverted get very playful when I want to.But my innocence takes over sometimes and act like I don’t know some things.I can be lazy at times yet I can be really intelligent if I want too,I don’t get mad that quickly and doesn’t like to show my mean side if I have too yet overall dislikes violence but I will if I have too.When annoyed or irritated I get snappy plus feisty.

Admin Abi~

Hello! Thank you for being so patience! I need to admit that you were an amazing challenge ^_^!

*finishing your match up*

Your romantic match is…

Kanato!

Believe it or not Kanato is the perfect match for you! Kanto’s first impression of you were that you certainly were very cute. You had a nice body and your hair was perfect! He had plans in case your blood was terrible, he could simply turned you into a doll ^_^! (creepy~). However, your quiet and shy nature made Kanato think that you were  adorable. He wanted to break you so you could be even more perfect! But your innocence was something that Kanato cherished the most! It was fairly diffcult at first, since both of you are a little sensitive. Also it was quite difficult since both of you had extrem mood swings (it was like a competence). But once the two of both you started to understand each other, things satrted to work nicely. You both had the same fears: being abandoned, lied and being betrayed, that helped your relationship to grew stronger. You will spend so much time together (be prepared) so you better say goodbye to your videos and so~ Not that you mind since you enjoy having tea parties! You are both so polite that is so adorable (≧ω≦). You both are so dedicated to one another that the jelousy and possesiveness is something of the past. I mean, yeas you are very possesive with one another, but you both don’t seem to mind xD. And if you still have that image of Kanato being/act as a little child...I recomend you to change your mind ^_^'. He’s a grown man and is very clingy when the intimacy we are talking about. Something that Kanato likes a lot is the fact that you are quite kinky and pervy yourself, but no matter how much you try your innocence wins over and he can’t get enough of your reactions. He likes pulling your hair or pass his fingers through it (depending if it’s a punishment or is in a loving way~). You have the same taste in movies (horror and so~) so you have a plesant time together or maybe you’ll tell him a story each time he’s unable to sleep. He’s very grateful to have found you and your incledibly patience and love you have to offer him. He’ll protect you and believe when I tell you he’ll be loyal to you as long as you do the same thing for him :3

Stay away from…

Shin!

Let’s just say he won’t tolerate a single mood swing of yours. He’s very explosive and demands for you to completly obey him! And if you dare to defy him...well, let’s say that you won’t have a chnce against him. He’s very violent and he’s also vey mean. He likes to tease you, but won’t like you to do the same thing to him. He doesn’t like you jelous and possesive nature and he’ll command you to get away from him. He’s annoying and he’s always bothering you. Is difficult for Shin to have patience or sensibility...^^'

How about you just stick with Kanato?? I think you two look adorable together woth so many things you have in common :3

Hoped you liked it!! And thanks once again for your patience!! ^_^

[suranflower]

Wings: a not very serious song-by-song review

These Bangtan Boys announced today that they will be releasing a follow up for Wings in February, so I really felt in the mood for doing this small not-exactly-review nobody asked for. Let’s go!

Intro: Boy Meets Evil. “I was an idiot addicted to sweetness / Yeah an idiot / I didn’t want to let go of the devil’s hand”. This song is the absolute perfect opening for this album. It sets the atmosphere for what’s to come. It has a dark tone that makes you wonder wether if they’re somewhat desparate or actually willing to fall. Anyway, it makes its function: put you in the right mood for the rest of the album with your eyes -and ears- wide open. Personally, there is nothing I don’t like about this song.

Blood, Sweat & Tears. “But your wings are wings of the devil / In front of your sweet is bitter bitter“. In my opinion, choosing it as the lead single was the right choice. Why? It’s a extremily catchy song, but not only that. It is, no doubt, one of the album’s highlights, but also the song that for its music and lyrics probably combines the essence of the album’s theme and concept the best.

Begin (Jungkook solo). “I can’t stand / you crying / I want to cry instead”. Here we have a somewhat bittersweet song. Just like coming of age. Jungkook proves once more his vocal abilities with sweet melodies while singing softly and, as always, with a lot of heart in the process. A song about friendship and enduring together through hardships while growing in the process, and who better than the maknae to deliver it.

Lie (Jimin solo). “Find the me that was innocent / I can’t free myself from this lie”. The fourth song in the album is one of those pieces capable of actually make you feel what they are about. Even if you don’t understand what he is saying, this music will take you down to a world that is crumbling down, to a world where everything is false and about to shatter. You actually feel the anguish in Lie, and I think that is why there’s no other word for it but masterpiece, one that shows us how much Jimin has grown as a musician.

Stigma (V solo). “ I’m sorry ma sister / Even if (I try to) hide it, or conceal it, it can’t be erased”. This is, in my opinion, the darkest song here. If we started our way down with “Boy Meets Evil”, continued falling with “Blood, Sweat & Tears” and knew we were already lost with “Lie”, “Stigma” is the point when we are already in the darkest pit of hell. Not only it fits the overall concept, but takes it to a whole new level. Musically, V shows all his vocal range, giving a performance full of emotion and power that would give you goosebumps.

First Love (Suga solo). “The corner of my memory / A brown piano settled on one side”. Story time here: when I first listened to this song, I didn’t knew very well who BTS were. But this immediately caught me. I thought “this has to be a tragic love story” knowing the title and how the music was. Turns out it’s not. When I finally read the lyrics I wanted to cry. This is such a touching, beautiful piece, performed with so, so much passion. Because this song is about love, but love for music and music only. And that can be more beautiful than any “romantic” love story you can think of.

Reflection (Rap Monster solo). “Everyone else knows where they’re supposed to be / But only I walk without purpose”. With this song, we slow down. The music gets a little more relaxed, less intense as does Namjoon’s voice. But the emotions are not less intense or relatable. It’s a song for the lonlelies, and the lost ones, for those who have ever felt insecure, a song for those who deeply want love of all kinds but at the same time need time by their own. It’s a relaxed, uplifting and beautiful song that is very personal, but at the same time is a song for you and for me, that connects with the coming of age temathic yet seems very mature.

MAMA (J-Hope solo). “You gave to me unconditionally / You were my support / Hey mama / Now trust your son, you can smile”. I can’t use other word for this but cute and sweet. This is an ode for someone, a song about unconditional love, but unlike “First Love”, it focus on an actual person. Although it follows the line of “Begin” in trusting and taking strength in others, it talks about other type of love. It’s a song full of hopes and dreams, a song that has a rythm that immediatly puts you in a good mood and makes you want to dance and don’t worry about anything, a song that fills you up with positive energy. It’s, actually, the Hoseok-est thing ever. However, it doesn’t sound “out of tune” with the rest of the album concept or music, it only adds some diversity.

Awake (Jin solo). “Maybe I, I can’t touch the sky / Still, I want to stretch my hand out / I want to run / Just a bit more”. This song impressed me, and still impresses me a lot, for many reasons. First, for personal reasons, it reaches something inside me. Now, musically, we have a song about dreams, about growing up, another of the central themes of the album. It’s about reaching dreams and just try and try, a continuing leimotiv in BTS’s discography. Musically, I just can praise it. The ballad-like tone and melodies are great for the lyrics and really appropiate for Jin’s voice, a voice that he displays in all its splendor, showing that not only he is a capable vocalist, but one that is able to thrill.

Lost. “To lose your path / Is the way to find that path”. Here we have a song where the four vocalists of the group perfectly mix their voices and recieve parts that suit them really well. Putting this song right after “Awake” was a good move in my opinion. It has a sort of follow in the lyrics, however, it also combines lyrical elements from other songs. Musically, it’s a more… electronic song, I’d say, but a very melodic one.

BTS Cypher pt. 4. “I like hate comments more than no comments / I don’t know you / But you know my name”. Time for the rapline. And here it is, by far, the most badass song in the album. A rap that gets blurry at times about conpsuming fame, dedicated to all haters, but that also talks about succeding more than anyone else. A good contrast to being/feeling lost that “I Love and know myself” thing, right? It is. But -low key theory time- I get the feeling this is what ultimately threw the character of our story (if there is truly a storyline here) into whatever dark thing they are right now…

Am I Wrong. “Where am I going / The world’s going crazy” When I heard this song for the first time I thought that it was a very dance-like song, with very good rythm that this song was a bit of a rarity in the album. When I looked at the lyrics I found that, in a sense they’re what I could classify as apocalyptic. I still believe it somehow.

21st Century Girls. “Whatever people say, you’re okay (Alright) / You are strong / You say yes or no yes or no”. First things first, as a feminist, I have to say that I find elements of these lyrics problematic. I won’t get into that now, but I needed to mention it. However I really like the particular lines I quoted earlier. Musically, however it’s an incredibly catchy song, and a very strong one, one that you can dance to and after all still manages to sound good in this collection of songs. 

Two! Three! (Still Wishing There WIll Be Better Days). “(So thanks) For becoming my light / For becoming the flower in the most beautiful moment in life”. Here we reach a very emotional point in the album -as if we hadn’t had enough-, but now it’s not only musically and lyrically. This song is, in many senses, aimed at fans. “Two! Three!” Sounds pretty much like an hymn, an hymn for youth, for hope, for BTS, for the fans and for keeping up together (again, the “grow up together” theme comes up) while refering to previous albums. With this song, BTS is ready to set the close to the album.

Interlude: Wings. “I go places they tell me not to / Do things they tell me not to do / Want things I shouldn’t / Get wounded again and again”. And all of a sudden, the album goes back to a certain urgency, to that tone that was starting to sound desperate at the begining with heavy violins and piano… Just to suddenly throw the listener into a point of small, yet plesant confusion because this closing was so fast. This “interlude”, as its title says, promises that more is to come as the music gets more and more and more electronic and Jungkook wishes to open up his wings to fly.

[All the lyrics I quoted were taken from this site]

[i-guess-i-should-know-blog]

18.12.17

00:24 I went to M.’s place on friday and came back home “today” (actually yesterday/sunday). We did nothing. Just ate and watched movies/her dramas/youtube videos. Her mom asked if I wanted to go with her to SP next month (january). M.’s gonna take the second fase of the USP test. She’s probably gonna make it. I don’t know if I’m going with them cause it’s a little expensive just for 3 days. I don’t know if my mom would pay it. Friday was also the graduation of my old classmates. It’s weird. At the same time that I’m happy for them, I feel bad. One way or another, that’s a part of my life that I’ve lost and can never take it back. I was not waiting for someone to invite me, but P. actually did. But only for the party. He knows it very well that I don’t like parties and that I would prefer to go on the graduation ceremony. Maybe it’s only my noisy head. Maybe that would’ve affected me more if I was still searching ways of maintaining some sort of frienship bonds with them, wich is not the case. Saturday was M.L.’s BDay (party/ her actual birthday was on the 17th). She invited me, but I wasn’t going anyway cause I’m still not ready for that. A lot of people (that I don’t know), drinks, drugs, far from my place, without anyone that I feel comfortable with near by. It was just not going to happen. L.G. even offered me a ride, but I waited until it was too late to give an answer, saying that I was far. So he gave up. Me and M. bought food (french fries, chocolate, popcorn and noodles) to eat wile watching tv. We ate it all, except for the popcorn, and watched The Incredibles. I slept well this weekend. I woke up a few times but nothing that matters. We went to the movies (Friday) to watch Star Wars: The Last Jedi wich was really good. Not counting the part that we bought tickets for the dubbed session and just found out about it when the trailers wre ending. We ended up going out and getting the tickets for the right session. We stayed inside the mall for 7 hours.  We went back home at 1:30 a.m.  But it was worth it. I went back home, now meaning “my place”, sunday afternoon and watched the movies/anime Kimi No Na Wa (Your Name). I was waiting to watch this since the beginning of the year. It’s a movie that tells the story of two teens that change bodies.

SPOILER ALERT In the end, we find out that fragments from the comet (that the girl talks about during the movie) had fallen in her town three years ago, killing everybody. They end up finding a way to redo everything saving, not only only the girl, but good part of the town’s population. It’s a story about desteny and haphazard, a love story above all.

It seems a little cliche saying with my words, but it’s indeed very good. I’ve listened to this movie’s soundtrack sometimes. Jungkook (from BTS) had some tracks on his spotify playlist a time ago and I use to listen to it a lot. But I did not knew that it was Your Name’s soundtrack. I’ve been feeling a little down these days. As if I was empty but almost overflowing. A bit (a lot) needy. I don’t know. Some times I just wanted to be normal. To have a life like other teens, to have friends and boyfriends. To go out and have fun... I don’t know. The only guy I feel attracted to these days (I mean months) It’s Yoongi ( also from BTS). But this is ridiculous, he’s a famous dude that I’ve never seen and it’s likely that I’ll never get even close to.  But I feel this weird thing, as if he was the only being that could ever understand me. The similarities in our lives are many and weird. But this is just a fan feeling (I guess). Anyway, I just wanted someone to have a relation ship with, someone that would not care that I’ve never kissed and I’m almost 19, someone that would acept my psychological disorders and everything... I know it’s impossible. I can hardly leave the house without being afraid that someone will look in my direction. My psychologist said that I’m doing better. I hope so. She also said that should take some singing classes. That she would talk with my mom and convince her to put me in A.M.’s classes. I don’t think that’s gonna happen cause A.M. is one of the best = really expencive. But my psychologist gave me a brake so, maybe, till we get back with the sessions, she’ll forget about it.

01:34 I forgot to say that J. is inviting me to bake vegan cookies, but I don’t think this is going anywhere. And I’ve been having a lot of dreams, very vivid. They don’t come to be nightmares as the ones I had before, but they’re not that plesant. They got a weird atmosphere. I just hope I won’t start to mistake dreams with reality again.