#not to toot my own horn but im the greatest to ever do it..look at these

[samipekoe]

I have no Christmas drawing for you instead look at these commissions I did

[wandering-bitch]

Annotations on Falling in Love with Love (Again) pt 1

Falling in Love is my 3zun Cinderella/Qin Su Solidarity Fixit fic. It’s got some dumb angst, but i promise every ch with Angst (tm) has at least some soft gentle fluff with it. 

It’s structured like cinderella (servant gets surprised with the clothes + disguise for the ball, falls in love, runs away but leaves behind a trinket, gets found out later and happily ever after), but really it’s About recognizing the growth you’ve gone through, and uh. falling in love again. It’s also, to a lesser degree, about how important Qin Su is.

Notes on writing the first third of this below the cut

Every chapter title is a riff on a song lyric from Rogers and Hammerstein’s Cinderella (which you might remember as the Brandy and Whitney Houston movie from 1997). Title is “falling in love with love,” the BITCHIN ballad from the stepmother

i keep stumbling on cinderella aus from parts of 3zun and i never like them bc im picky so i started thinking about this and now im HERE, writing thousands of words and thinking about social shit

in this house we love qin su, by the way

Don’t Believe in Sensible Rules

this chapter was called “Enter the Fairy Godmother” in my outline

writing this fic made me like jin zixuan pfffff

look im not saying that qin su is fucking vital BUT

having qin su know that she’s meng yao’s sister means that he has someone who can empathize with wanting but hating jin guangshan’s attention, and so someone who can remind him that jin guangshan’s respect isn’t worth the effort

aka qin su being actively meng yao’s sister fucking stops him from making terrible choices aka this is my fixit.

originally i just was hand-waving away “it’s a good au bc i said so” but as i built the timeline more, i realized that it all comes down to qin su

which is valid!! because yeah, the middle and end of the fic are about qin su

anyway back to this first chapter

i know in canon qin su is probably younger than meng yao but counterpoint i wanted her to have more respect built into her role

what’s up with meng yao’s makeup? it’s a combination of opera + tang dynasty makeup!! 

you know that promo image of zzj playing an opera performer for a movie next year???  this one??? it’s basically this but on crack

if you’re not thinking about that promo image twice a week then i highly recommend u do it bc it certainly brings me joy and serotonin 

oh hmmm meng yao is wearing a fancy emotionally important accessory??? i wonder what might happen

You’ll Never Know a Finer Night

”a lovely night, a lovely night/ a finer night you know you’ll never see”

qin su + meng yao rights!!!

qin su + meng yao rights!!!

the mengyin han sect is something my spouse came up with for their Nie Parents fic that they’re never gonna write.

you should bug @isimplydonotvibewithjgy to write it. why???

it’s about happy healthy nie parent polyamory!!! 

nie huaisang is named in part after nie mingjue’s mother’s sword

meng yao is only a little bit kidding about stealing a baby for qin su. qin su, in turn, is only a little bit kidding about stealing a baby for meng yao

meng yao fucking with wangxian is very important to me, a bitch

Back In the Past, lan xichen wasn’t so much Jealous as he was frustrated with himself for not saying anything for so long (so long was barely a few months)

“second daughter of a third rate sect” is the type of dumb meng yao shit i love

qin!!!! su!!!! rights!!!!!!!

Most Entrancing Sight Of All

from “the greatest love,” the first song from the brandy version

i actually hate this song whoops

i lov every time i get to write meng yao being clever

it is very convenient for me that im writing the entire fic from his perspective

it’s sword content!!!! hooray!!!!

i looked up so much sword dancing for this it made me so happy

swords!!! good!!!

i do wish i had been better at figuring out ways meng yao could eat li bolin alive, but i wrote it, it’s done, im never editing it again

sword! content!!

The Sweet Invention of a Lover’s Dream

AWWW YEAH my favorite chapter because the xiyao troll showed up and said “oh so meng yao’s a selfish little slut now then” and i think about that every fucking day

the title is from “do i love you” 

the breakup was hard to write bc like. neither’s in the Wrong, sometimes u just don’t fit, and that sucks

like it wasn’t Hard emotionally, but it was hard to balance properly

“Eat Wen Xu Alive” -- meng yao

in my early draft, meng yao + qin su had an agreement to check on each other every hour. i scrapped that but u can see 

“time to meddle”

i had fun learning about azaleas + azalea poisoning

i spent SO LONG trying to decide who meng yao would pin the poisoning on but settled on the li sect being complicit in wen imperialism

nie mingjue is here because nie huaisang whined about it. lan xichen is here because he wants to date someone to move on from meng yao

what’s that? he’s dating nie mingjue? that’s not enough to move on? no, actually, it isn’t

sorry lan xichen the way to move on is just time, not dating

to be clear it’s not that lan xichen is greedy or nie mingjue Isn’t Enough, it’s just that there’s an ache still in lxc’s heart

(there’s an ache still in nmj’s heart)

we’ll actually go over all of this in an auxiliary chapter where nmj + lxc snuggle in the middle of the night

healthy polyamory rights

in case it’s somehow not Obvious, the song lxc is distracted by reminds him of meng yao. 

lxc is one hundred percent that friend who doesn’t let u say anything slightly mean about urself

my one ex specifically wouldn’t let me say i wasn’t smart enough to talk about a sociological issue/socialism thing. it was so sweet honestly

like she would let me not have an opinion but i couldn’t say i wasn’t smart enough

lxc is so proud of himself for that “tell me what this song is about” line and he SHOULD be. it WAS sexy it WAS polite it WAS a good line!!!

im not tooting my own horn im just talking about lxc being a polite, sexy hunk

never forget: so meng yao is just a selfish little slut then lol ok

come back next time for ch 5-8 where we see boys being cute and together and also where qin su gets many more rights

[blackhyena]

I was tagged to answer 18 questions about music by rory @and-so-are-you my sweet otherworldly alien prince whomst i love, he falsely claims that my music taste is better than his and is about to learn the hard way how wrong he is

1. Which bands/artist do you own the most albums by? probably still muse......cringe......i have some of the big vinyls as well including the knights of cydonia one with the horse which gemma got for me and im ngl its pretty fucking rad still

2. What was the last song you listened to? the smiths - panic . listen im from manchester im contractually obliged to listen to morrissey even though i hate him

3. What’s in your CD/Record player right now? i..... do not currently own an actual cd player other than my laptop but uhhh the nearest cd to me physically is chaleur humaine by christine and the queens!

4. What was the last show you attended? goddddd last summer when i saw Florence and the Machine at BST with Kristi and like. transcended

5. What was the greatest show you’ve been to? this is an, evil question to ask ., i mean possibly florence again because we got so close to the front. that said tlsp last year were also fucking amazing

6. What was the worst show you’ve ever been to? it wasn’t a bad show by her, but when i saw lana del rey the venue was so small and the fans so insane that i was just getting smothered and it was kind of horrible. also someone stood on my foot and i lost feeling in it for a few months lmao

7. What is the most musically involved you have ever been? i play the guitar and i sing!!! not to toot me own horn but i have a grade 8 in singing and ive been in lots of choirs etc. i also write my own music and i have a soundcloud which you could be forgiven for not knowing about cause i update like once a year at my current rate lmao

8. What show are you looking forward to? i don’t have any lined up!!! sad times :-( but i really wanna see marina and the diamonds, wolf alice, grimes... a lot tbh

9. What is your favorite band shirt? i only have a load of old muse ones, but i gotta admit i have a limited edition one from their origin of symmetry show at leeds and i still wear it around the house all of the time

10. What musician would you like to hang out with for a day? FLORENCE WELCH TAKE ME SHOPPING AND TAKE ME TO BOOKSTORES AND THEN JUST MARRY ME MAYBE

11. Who is one musician or group you wish would make a comeback? ....gotta steal rory’s idea for the bowie resurrection prayer circle

12. Who is one band/ artist you’ve never seen live but always wanted to? oh shit i kind of already answered this but i guess il throw in some more. susanne sundfor, st vincent, christine and the queens, postmodern jukebox!!

13. Flawless albums? how big how blue how beautiful because it was super important for my mental health at the time, also the bride by bat for lashes for similar reasons. plus BHAR yes even after all this time. i could sit here and talk about albums all day though

14. How many concerts have you been to, total? I can count 15 but it might be more??

15. Who have you seen the most live? M*se

16. What is your favorite movie soundtrack? I find myself listening to the soundtrack of Bram Stoker’s Dracula more than I care to admit

17. What was your last musical ‘phase’ before you wisened up? i have not wisened up i will remain in this state of musical stupidity forever

18. What is your ‘guilty pleasure’ that you hate to admit liking? im not even really that guilty about it but i fucking love ABBA if you want something cheesy

i tag @renfield, @iwillslapyouintheteeth, @haroldwrens, @aethelrad goooooooooooo

[markyishanthonymartinez]

3/10/17

haps haps haps.

good day yay. 

ye

okay so got up and ate a nice healthy breakfast cause growing boys need that kinda stuff ya’know. wait i take it back. not growing boy. never growing. they can't make me grow up if i’m in neverland. 

uh but yes food and got all dapper. 

Just for comparisons sake, I got up about an hour and a half before class to make sure I was completely ready to go to my interview straight after class. Bags got up about 15 minutes before class. 

Walked to class. I’d hate to say this, but paid very minimal attention in class. Just couldn't do it today. Took notes here and there, but I was pretty checked out and played pokemon on my phone lol. 

Then went to the ecc with poles, jeff, jt, bags, ya’know the usual. I printed out resumes and researched southwest gas and listened to the best of tunes. oh also i studied for our quiz in systems. 

quiz sucked.

i hate systems.

wait no i take that back. i wouldn't actually know if i hate systems because i don't really know what systems is because our teacher is a fucking jfapoiehgalkdhg;ajkr. one of those. 

but yes so v frustrating it makes me want to lay in a hole and not get out of that hole ever.

dipped tf outta there after the quiz. wanted to get on the way to carson. but poles said the last half our of class was a huge waste of time so i really didn't miss that much. 

walked to jeff’s, hopped in da whip, went to carson.

the drive was super lax, i had never made that drive before and really didn't know what to expect, but it was cakey wakey. buuuut, i could definitely imagine it being a headache if there was poopy weather, so hopefully that never happens ever when i make the drive. (it will duh)

got to carson pretty early, but that’s exactly what i was planning on. went to walmart, copped a padfolio cause i had been needing one anyways and this was the perfect excuse to finally get one. then was v hungry and i realized that i defs didn't want to tummy rumbling and grumbling during my interview so i hit up the yelp-mobile. decided on this chinese place across the street, went. it was super quiet and qt. got yummy food. probably ate too fast but i was nervous okay. sat in my car practicing interview questions and ya’know, just making sure i hadn't nervously forgotten the entire english language. 

i hadn't.

for the most part.

hit up yung linda, she let me in the front door. sat me down in the conference room and that was where i waited nervously. not that nervously tbh. the mountains looked rly prtty outside the window so i kinda just leaned back and took them in. 

then the ladies who were interviewing me came along.

(okay this is gonna sound kinda dickish, but i was immediately relieved when i found out it was two women who would be interviewing me cause idk i know i’m charming and clever and i think i’m most effective in those things with the opposite gender)

that wasn't really that dickish. just saying it gave me a bit more comfort/confidence. 

they had a lot of fucking questions

so many

sooooo many

like 12. but not like twelve little “oh hi, 1. what is ur name? 2. why are you dumb?” but like full multiple-part, open-ended, thought-inducing, questions. hellllla putting me on the spot. honestly i slipped up on when and kinda lied lmao. but other than that i was clutchhhhhh. idk they seemed to like me. i talked a lot but they seemed okay with it so why the heck not, i love talking about myself. 

LMAO NO THAT SOUNDS SO DICKISH. i mean i do, but idk. doesn't everyone love telling other people about things they’re passionate about? like that’s something i crave. not only to tell people and share my own passions, but to allow people to tell me their passions and have them shared with me. passion is a great thing. (i’m probably just saying that cause i’m 1000% the most overly passionate person on planet earth).

but yeah answered hellllla questions and did my thang. then they had me talk to another dude after them, cause i guess he wanted me to “stop by his office.” he asked me “those” questions. greatest strength. greatest weakness. why should we hire you?

those are pretty standard and i was ready for them, but, this goes back to what i was saying earlier, he was so much harder to manipulate with my language. like he wouldn't react to things i said in the way you’re supposed to.

“supposed to” lol

this totally isn't a sexist thing tbh. maybe it’s just that most guys suck at talking lol. 

like me

but yeah i thought it went really well and fingers crossed, i should know in a few weeks is what they said.

fingees crossed.

drove back, listened to a lot of angry music. i promise it wasn't me, shuffle was just feeling angry so i went with the flow. 

got back, played some video juegos, changed.

then i went to get hellllla unlimited steggs with poles. which really meant get one serving of eggs and just keep asking for more steak. 

at first we were just chilling, eating our steggs, watching that march madness action. 

but

then the boiiiiii, the one and only, the man the myth the legend, double b spots us from across the room and waves to poles.

lol not me, i swear he only waved to poles. dead serious. kinda sad

but then he came over to us and sat with us and we all started talkin’ it up, what we’ve been up to, how stuffs going, the usual.

but then that yung nevada game starts and we start talking about sports and you couldn't shut us up if you tried. i never realized brett was so into sports, but being able to have multiple conversations about different sports and different aspects of them and all encompassing ish was so clutch. he was our boy the whole night. then brian poles rolled up with his bae and one of his homies and we became the popular af table. met hella tke’s cause apparently everyone loves brett. 

nevada won, this puts them one game away from the automatic bid to the tourney and i am so hyyyyyyyyype. the comeback was too real. 

talked it up with a bunch of homies, came home, played some games with kyle, decided i was done, been sitting in my room alone typing this out for about an hour now. 

final thoughts: 

um im not trying to toot my own horn here, but sometimes i feel like my brain is hecka great. like idk how is it that i can develop well-thought ideas about math and the government and energy and sports and religion and politics and psychology and so so so so so many things that i am interested in, meanwhile there’s still people sharing obviously fake articles on facebook without reading them.

like idk yin yang i guess.

dab on em//stay beautiful

- mark gasthony martinez