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This is swinging at a hornets nest but my cotl hot take is that the bishops either should have stayed dead or we got a choice to not bring them back to the cult after releasing them from purgatory
#I tried to like them I rlly did#but no matter how sympathetic they fact they perpetrated a genocide makes me physically unable to like them#they’re good characters don’t get me wrong#but i hate hate hate that mystic seller forces you to release them#and you have to cleanse them for 100% / to get Narinders Claw#it feels so gross#not saying ppl can’t not like them either#but ugh#it’s just rlly fucking hard to care abt them#and don’t think I see Narinder as innocent in all of this bc he is part of the reason the genocide even happened#and he was very very willing to be complicit in it#also I stg if ppl try to use some moral purity thing on me I’m gonna lose it#not liking literal genociders despite me saying multiple times they’re good characters in terms of writing#but not likability isn’t me not being able to handle dark themes#cosmic chatz#cosmic rantz#cult of the lamb#cult of the lamb critical
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Ok I’m full on Blue Beetle hype rn because I’ve never felt so seen in a superhero movie, the family interaction was literally flawless:
• The family withholding important information from Jaime because they didn’t want him to worry
• General distrust of the police
• Literally el tío chairo and his inventions being made out of necessity
• Siblings being passive aggressive in a way of showing affection/worry because we’re not taught how to be vulnerable
• Abuela giving Jaime a blessing
• The family being daring and playful
• Jaime feeling like it’s his responsibility to support his whole family and give them a better life (this one literally made me cry)
#blue beetle spoilers#blue beetle#spoilers#zeri screams#also abuela being part of the mexican revolution apparently????#if they’re from the north (Rudy mentioning they’re from Sonora)#literally hope she kicked some villistas’ assess man#also not saying all of this is good stuff that mexican families do but it’s absolutely 100% stuff mexican families do#and I’m talking about the miscommunication stuff
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why is hoyo forgetting that trailblazer is the mc of this game
#march 7th stans look away this ain’t about you#but the way they’re giving that girl mc treatment lowkey throws me off#what the fuck does she need a new outfit for every season? and suddenly being able to change paths?#you are NOT the hero of the universe fuck outta here#there are lowkey just small grievances but good god#in amphoreus they really cranked it up to 100#making HER the character shown on those tutorial screens when it was always tb is crazy as hell#also mentioning her dumbass every four seconds like cmon this meta is exciting BECAUSE we don’t have to hear her say the most obvious shit#not in spite of it. hoyoverse get your fucking head in the game#if she ends up having crazy lore and a 5* form i’m saying dan heng did it first#and dan heng wasn’t treated like this btw he shows up in the luofu a moderate amount#it would’ve made sense for us to talk abt him with jing yuan but why the hell am i talking abt that girl with PHAINON#phainon doesn’t even know her?? what is this#OH or that scene where we put her camera on the scales to show ‘more important than amphoreus’ fate’#fuck her and fuck that camera on god#i don’t care that it has to do with the remembrance!! they already told you to move on!! fawk#like she didn’t take us on a wild goose chase because ‘hehe i wanna look into my past :3’#jing yuan thank you for smacking the polaroids out her <3#free my man he did all of it but i don’t care#hsr#i’m not even gonna tag this lmaooo#they’re gonna find me and hate me for hating one female character in this game#unfortunately march has already given me more than 10 reasons to hate her sooooo#sucks to suck#i’ve hated male characters for a fraction of this don’t be dramatic
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I’m finishing White Collar a decade later and it’s ruining my life
#every single part of season five is ripping me to shreds#Neal ruined his life. I mean he absolutely did what he had to and did the right thing but making that deal w Mark Sheppard is 100% going#to get him caught. AND HE KNOWS IT. he knew it was over when he did it!!! 😭😭😭😭😭#but he did it to save Peter bc he had literally no other way to get him free /and/ preserve his current life. so of course he did it#but it’s going to end with him#back in JAIL. I’m gnawing the walls. and Peter doesn’t trust him TuT. he still doesn’t. wtf. and he’s going to find out Neal did this and#Neal isn’t going to be able to tell him why bc Peter is so lawful good that if he realizes he was released on false evidence he’s going to#overturn that and fuck his own life over. so Neal can’t even say what happened. and THEN this psychiatrist who is drugging her patients and#getting them to commit crimes tells him he’s a sociopath and he just had his dad who abandoned him as a kid show up#long con him into believing he was a decent man. then abandon him steal shit ruin his life ruin Peter’s life AND threaten to kill him#and he’s always felt like knowing who his dad is could tell him who he is. and his fucking dad does that. then Peter doesn’t trust him so#much he gets a new handler. Mozzie loses everything and Neal is under maximum pressure to do illegal shit to help Moz#he gets friendly w his new handler just in time for him to be MURDERED. he’s being blackmailed into continued crimes by the Dutchman#and he absolutely knows it’s just a matter of time before that blows up. Peter told him who he really is is a criminal (sort of. it’s what#Neal heard 100% and kinda what he said). and then this psychiatrist tells him he’s a sociopath and always going to be a criminal while he’s#drugged out of his mind. and NOW Neal’s decided they’re all right and he’s going to never be able to change so he might as well be a#criminal—something he hasn’t been since SEASON 2 BEGAN. he’s going back to being bad 😭 and he’s having 18 mental crisis and he literally can#not talk to anyone but Mozzie and he won’t talk abo hot this#and Peter fumbled him so bad twice in a row and now they’re both going to have their lives ruined eventually by Neal getting caught and#their relationship exploding and if either Neal would just go to Elizabeth for therapy (she would be like ‘I also would have broken the law#for Peter actually it’s fine) OR Peter would get his shit together and leap of faith and words or affirmation Neal enough to make up for the#last 3 seasons—it would all work out#but it won’t so I’m dead#white collar
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❗️NEWGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSAN-
#glass animals#honestly i wore out dreamland sm my brain took a lonnng break from expecting anything from them?? idk i’m just huh????#like….. when i say wore out#i cannot describe how much i listened to it#i usually have some vague idea even if it’s a ridiculous number#like 52 times in a month for an album or something (has happened)#i cannot recall w this#gonna say bc 2020 & they were Literally the last band i saw live. next morning everyone found out about everything annd lockdown. no joke#so it was big dreamland time when it dropped and revisiting their past albums when i broke out of its spell lmao#(pretty sure before that like january was when i listened to déjà vu 100+ times in a row tho so oop. it was a tough day lol)#anyway seeing this aww man. i really have had this band with me for a long long time. 🥹 i remember hearing gooey on the radio one night#driving home from work late @ night in 2014. the drive was so short i couldn’t be arsed to fish out my ipod & plug it in#sometimes so just popped on a good station i had preset. started the car and heard this *voice* and i was like who????#had to check the station bc it was an alt station and i thought i had it on another one which was fine i was just v confused#it was in the middle of the song & i was immediately anxious to know the name hoping i’d hear it & it wouldn't just flow into the next song#then the dj would pile the names together after x number of songs played bc i was tiired (but woulda stayed in the car ngl). got lucky &#ran inside to find it then yelled at my roommate the next day that she HAD to listen to it during a smoke session after work#(i was right & it blew her miiind)#god. what a fucking time. what a fucking band. idk what the disc horse is surrounding them now since they blew up via tiktok#i’m sure people are v quick to say they’re overrated bc of that but idk & i’m glad i don’t know. they’ll always be this#highly inventive incredible band i stumbled upon for the perfect night drive home after a long long shift#a band that came back from a Horrible accident that should have ended 1 of their lives & somehow didn’t & should have ended them#as a band (like still cannot believe Joe was drumming in 2020 & i saw it with my own eyes like how tf???!?)#a band deserving of all of its successes. glass animals forever
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Every fucking time I watch a dark pictures vod I lose my shit
#they keep saying they’re gonna kill all their characters but they’re actually doing really really good#they’re so funny#‘as an influencer. I’ve gotta say. this is all about mr beast’ ‘laughing’ ‘locked in a hotel for 100 days’ ahead of their time#watching thing
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i am a big fan of using real world philosophies to analyse fictional worlds on the watsonian level, they’re a particularly good way to make abstract theories more concrete, but if you look at things like actual literal deities that do have inherent power compared to other beings and uncritically say how they’re just like the one percent or some shit, i beg you to crack open a book and review what the hell reification is or move on to other hobbies.
#sorry i’m in pretentious era but i haven’t had to suffer through hegel and marx and adorno and lukacs#for weirdos on the internet — particularly certain parts of the cr fandom — to fail their reading comprehension test#sees something that is literally more powerful or dangerous and goes This Is Injustice Like Our World. open a book#like no actually the theorists who criticize capitalism are saying the opposite . they’re saying no one is inherently anything#and we’re all made into fools when we are convinced by capitalism to believe that anyone is inherently better or worse or more dangerous#which is . not the same as when a fictional world has beings where they have gone Hi These Things Are Actually Literally Inherently 100%#Different/More Dangerous/Powerful. not everything is a critique of capitalism#further. not everything is a good critique of capitalism and it’s products (oppression) looking at you mutants .#philosophy tag#on fandom#cr fandom
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Itty bitty vent
#I don’t really watch any movies I don’t watch new movies old movies I just don’t care about watching them#I’ll watch animated movies if i hear they’re good enough but only then#I haven’t watched any live action shows since like highschool and I don’t even watch new popular cartoons#and it fucking sucks how frequently I feel distant from other people when they start talking about media together#or when someone says ‘omg you haven’t seen —‘ like no. fucking. what do you want me to do#serious movies or shows are fucking boring to me I have enough serious shit happening irl#media is 100% escapism for me that’s all it ever is for me I can only hold interest in funny or romantic things#like fucking hell mate#I watch anime but infrequently so I don’t even know about popular ones#I just wish it wasn’t as common of a topic. or that at least it was more acceptable for people not to indulge in it#I don’t have Netflix or cable like what do you want me to do#like when I feel like watching something 80% of the time I’m going to rewatch some fuckin. markiplier video. that’s it that’s all I watch#either him or some youtuber#but I don’t even know that many YouTubers so I can’t say it makes up for not being into pop media#the only thing I’m decently knowledgable about is games but no one ever talks about games ffs#fuckin hell. always feel so fuckin distant#anyway#vent#maybe some people want this tag filtered idk#weasel speaks
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ik literally no one but me cares about this, but i’d just like to make it known that in my main canon, reilley and alistair r actually Not shit people who victim blame, they’re basically america’s dads, I’m just really bad at writing fluff LMFAO
#raise ur hand if u can only write horrific angst because writing about good family bonds makes it real and causes too many emotions for you!#like main canon ire and scotland believed her 100% and went hunting for that guy’s blood#they dont fuck around about their baby!!!!!#well HMM ok this is getting too socially consciousy but i don’t wanna say they wouldn’t do this for or believe women outside of the family#but its kinda a hard truth that people—especially in the 17 1800s—don’t really extend their anger or sympathy or support to victims or#women in general if they’re not part of their intimate circle—social or family#and its another kinda hard truth that one of the reasons people like that are only able to extend these feelings to family members or#intimates is because they have extended contact with them and are able to actually view them as human which is something they’re not able#to do with people they don’t interact with#lack of empathy? lack of necessity? superiority complex? who knows im not a scientist!#BUT ALL THIS TO SAY#finally getting back on track#i dont wanna say scotland and ireland arent like. decent guys—because they are!!—but they are definitely a reflection of the time and thus#don’t really Support women in a modern sense#its more of a possessive sense ig#you messed with Our family so we’ll mess you up
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*finds out who trapped and injured my cat*
my mom: shows up at his door with a bat
#i’m being 100% serious and the day it happened she walked through the neighborhood with the bat looking for traps to smash#it ended up being the worst neighbor everyone in the neighborhood hates him he’s the neighbor that calls the cops on everyone#he filed a restraining order against his nextdoor neighbor bc that neighbor was sick of his shit bc he called the cops on them bc#their daughter came over one day and brought her dog and it wasn’t a big dog but like dogs do when they’re outside they bark so he called#the cops on a barking dog and the good neighbor got in face and yelled at him as he should then that fucker called the cops#i posted about toddy getting hurt with a pic of his face all bloody and swollen and random people i never knew lived in my neighborhood were#like yo i live by this guy he’s fucking crazy#when he called the cops bc of my mom his other nextdoor neighbor came out and talked to the cops just to tell them what a nut case that guy#anyway the cops were on our side bc it’s fucking ridiculous and what he’s#doing shouldn’t be legal (intentionally baiting and trapping cats) but it’s not up to them it’s up to animal control and animal control#says he’s allowed to intentionally hurt cats#like i have ptsd my cat is what makes me feel safe and this has been so fucking traumatizing#like i want that guy dead tbh he also abuses his elderly mother#my mom is going full on harley quinn with her fucking bat
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Idk exactly how to explain this but the softness of real wool and real linen is very different from the artificial softness of polyester “sherpa”, fuzzy faux-fur, spongey acrylic knits and people have gotten too used to the soft plastics and now associate wool with “itchy” and linen with rough and cotton with “too heavy” and then go and wear 100% polyester fleecy sweatshirts and say it’s so warm and cozy but actually they’re just staticky cooking in their sweat locked inside a plastic membrane and you are paying too much to be wearing filaments of petroleum products and the money isn’t going to the people sewing them either. I’m saying you all need to touch grass and the grass in this situation is good quality textiles made of natural fibres.
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Twenty years ago, February 15th, 2004, I got married for the first time.
It was twenty years earlier than I ever expected to.
To celebrate/comemorate the date, I'm sitting down to write out everything I remember as I remember it. No checking all the pictures I took or all the times I've written about this before. I'm not going to turn to my husband (of twenty years, how the f'ing hell) to remember a detail for me.
This is not a 100% accurate recounting of that first wild weekend in San Francisco. But it -is- a 100% accurate recounting of how I remember it today, twenty years after the fact.
Join me below, if you would.
2004 was an election year, and much like conservatives are whipping up anti-trans hysteria and anti-trans bills and propositions to drive out the vote today, in 2004 it was all anti-gay stuff. Specifically, preventing the evil scourge of same-sex marriage from destroying everything good and decent in the world.
Enter Gavin Newstrom. At the time, he was the newly elected mayor of San Francisco. Despite living next door to the city all my life, I hadn’t even heard of the man until Valentines Day 2004 when he announced that gay marriage was legal in San Francisco and started marrying people at city hall.
It was a political stunt. It was very obviously a political stunt. That shit was illegal, after all. But it was a very sweet political stunt. I still remember the front page photo of two ancient women hugging each other forehead to forehead and crying happy tears.
But it was only going to last for as long as it took for the California legal system to come in and make them knock it off.
The next day, we’re on the phone with an acquaintance, and she casually mentions that she’s surprised the two of us aren’t up at San Francisco getting married with everyone else.
“Everyone else?” Goes I, “I thought they would’ve shut that down already?”
“Oh no!” goes she, “The courts aren’t open until Tuesday. Presidents Day on Monday and all. They’re doing them all weekend long!”
We didn’t know because social media wasn’t a thing yet. I only knew as much about it as I’d read on CNN, and most of the blogs I was following were more focused on what bullshit President George W Bush was up to that day.
"Well shit", me and my man go, "do you wanna?" I mean, it’s a political stunt, it wont really mean anything, but we’re not going to get another chance like this for at least 20 years. Why not?
The next day, Sunday, we get up early. We drive north to the southern-most BART station. We load onto Bay Area Rapid Transit, and rattle back and forth all the way to the San Francisco City Hall stop.
We had slightly miscalculated.
Apparently, demand for marriages was far outstripping the staff they had on hand to process them. Who knew. Everyone who’d gotten turned away Saturday had been given tickets with times to show up Sunday to get their marriages done. My babe and I, we could either wait to see if there was a space that opened up, or come back the next day, Monday.
“Isn’t City Hall closed on Monday?” I asked. “It’s a holiday”
“Oh sure,” they reply, “but people are allowed to volunteer their time to come in and work on stuff anyways. And we have a lot of people who want to volunteer their time to have the marriage licensing offices open tomorrow.”
“Oh cool,” we go, “Backup.”
“Make sure you’re here if you do,” they say, “because the California Supreme Court is back in session Tuesday, and will be reviewing the motion that got filed to shut us down.”
And all this shit is super not-legal, so they’ll totally be shutting us down goes unsaid.
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We don’t get in Saturday. We wind up hanging out most of the day, though.
It’s… incredible. I can say, without hyperbole, that I have never experienced so much concentrated joy and happiness and celebration of others’ joy and happiness in all my life before or since. My face literally ached from grinning. Every other minute, a new couple was coming out of City Hall, waving their paperwork to the crowd and cheering and leaping and skipping. Two glorious Latina women in full Mariachi band outfits came out, one in the arms of another. A pair of Jewish boys with their families and Rabbi. One couple managed to get a Just Married convertible arranged complete with tin-cans tied to the bumper to drive off in. More than once I was giving some rice to throw at whoever was coming out next.
At some point in the mid-afternoon, there was a sudden wave of extra cheering from the several hundred of us gathered at the steps, even though no one was coming out. There was a group going up the steps to head inside, with some generic black-haired shiny guy at the front. My not-yet-husband nudged me, “That’s Newsom.” He said, because he knew I was hopeless about matching names and people.
Ooooooh, I go. That explains it. Then I joined in the cheers. He waved and ducked inside.
So dusk is starting to fall. It’s February, so it’s only six or so, but it’s getting dark.
“Should we just try getting in line for tomorrow -now-?” we ask.
“Yeah, I’m afraid that’s not going to be possible.” One of the volunteers tells us. “We’re not allowed to have people hang out overnight like this unless there are facilities for them and security. We’d need Porta-Poties for a thousand people and police patrols and the whole lot, and no one had time to get all that organized. Your best bet is to get home, sleep, and then catch the first BART train up at 5am and keep your fingers crossed.
Monday is the last day to do this, after all.
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So we go home. We crash out early. We wake up at 4:00. We drive an hour to hit the BART station. We get the first train up. We arrive at City Hall at 6:30AM.
The line stretches around the entirety of San Francisco City Hall. You could toss a can of Coke from the end of the line to the people who’re up to be first through the doors and not have to worry about cracking it open after.
“Uh.” We go. “What the fuck is -this-?”
So.
Remember why they weren’t going to be able to have people hang out overnight?
Turns out, enough SF cops were willing to volunteer unpaid time to do patrols to cover security. And some anonymous person delivered over a dozen Porta-Poties that’d gotten dropped off around 8 the night before.
It’s 6:30 am, there are almost a thousand people in front of us in line to get this literal once in a lifetime marriage, the last chance we expect to have for at least 15 more years (it was 2004, gay rights were getting shoved back on every front. It was not looking good. We were just happy we lived in California were we at least weren’t likely to loose job protections any time soon.).
Then it starts to rain.
We had not dressed for rain.
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Here is how the next six hours go.
We’re in line. Once the doors open at 7am, it will creep forward at a slow crawl. It’s around 7 when someone shows up with garbage bags for everyone. Cut holes for the head and arms and you’ve got a makeshift raincoat! So you’ve got hundreds of gays and lesbians decked out in the nicest shit they could get on short notice wearing trashbags over it.
Everyone is so happy.
Everyone is so nervous/scared/frantic that we wont be able to get through the doors before they close for the day.
People online start making delivery orders.
Coffee and bagels are ordered in bulk and delivered to City Hall for whoever needs it. We get pizza. We get roses. Random people come by who just want to give hugs to people in line because they’re just so happy for us. The tour busses make detours to go past the lines. Chinese tourists lean out with their cameras and shout GOOD LUCK while car horns honk.
A single sad man holding a Bible tries to talk people out of doing this, tells us all we’re sinning and to please don’t. He gives up after an hour. A nun replaces him with a small sign about how this is against God’s will. She leaves after it disintegrates in the rain.
The day before, when it was sunny, there had been a lot of protestors. Including a large Muslim group with their signs about how “Not even DOGS do such things!” Which… Yes they do.
A lot of snide words are said (by me) about how the fact that we’re willing to come out in the rain to do this while they’re not willing to come out in the rain to protest it proves who actually gives an actual shit about the topic.
Time passes. I measure it based on which side of City Hall we’re on. The doors face East. We start on Northside. Coffee and trashbags are delivered when we’re on the North Side. Pizza first starts showing up when we’re on Westside, which is also where I see Bible Man and Nun. Roses are delivered on Southside. And so forth.
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We have Line Neighbors.
Ahead of us are a gay couple a decade or two older than us. They’ve been together for eight years. The older one is a school teacher. He has his coat collar up and turns away from any news cameras that come near while we reposition ourselves between the lenses and him. He’s worried about the parents of one of his students seeing him on the news and getting him fired. The younger one will step away to get interviewed on his own later on. They drove down for the weekend once they heard what was going on. They’d started around the same time we did, coming from the Northeast, and are parked in a nearby garage.
The most perky energetic joyful woman I’ve ever met shows up right after we turned the corner to Southside to tackle the younger of the two into a hug. She’s their local friend who’d just gotten their message about what they’re doing and she will NOT be missing this. She is -so- happy for them. Her friends cry on her shoulders at her unconditional joy.
Behind us are a lesbian couple who’d been up in San Francisco to celebrate their 12th anniversary together. “We met here Valentines Day weekend! We live down in San Diego, now, but we like to come up for the weekend because it’s our first love city.”
“Then they announced -this-,” the other one says, “and we can’t leave until we get married. I called work Sunday and told them I calling in sick until Wednesday.”
“I told them why,” her partner says, “I don’t care if they want to give me trouble for it. This is worth it. Fuck them.”
My husband-to-be and I look at each other. We’ve been together for not even two years at this point. Less than two years. Is it right for us to be here? We’re potentially taking a spot from another couple that’d been together longer, who needed it more, who deserved it more.”
“Don’t you fucking dare.” Says the 40-something gay couple in front of us.
“This is as much for you as it is for us!” says the lesbian couple who’ve been together for over a decade behind us.
“You kids are too cute together,” says the gay couple’s friend. “you -have- to. Someday -you’re- going to be the old gay couple that’s been together for years and years, and you deserve to have been married by then.”
We stay in line.
It’s while we’re on the Southside of City Hall, just about to turn the corner to Eastside at long last that we pick up our own companions. A white woman who reminds me an awful lot of my aunt with a four year old black boy riding on her shoulders. “Can we say we’re with you? His uncles are already inside and they’re not letting anyone in who isn’t with a couple right there.” “Of course!” we say.
The kid is so very confused about what all the big deal is, but there’s free pizza and the busses keep driving by and honking, so he’s having a great time.
We pass by a statue of Lincoln with ‘Marriage for All!’ and "Gay Rights are Human Rights!" flags tucked in the crooks of his arms and hanging off his hat.
It’s about noon, noon-thirty when we finally make it through the doors and out of the rain.
They’ve promised that anyone who’s inside when the doors shut will get married. We made it. We’re safe.
We still have a -long- way to go.
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They’re trying to fit as many people into City Hall as possible. Partially to get people out of the rain, mostly to get as many people indoors as possible. The line now stretches down into the basement and up side stairs and through hallways I’m not entirely sure the public should ever be given access to. We crawl along slowly but surely.
It’s after we’ve gone through the low-ceiling basement hallways past offices and storage and back up another set of staircases and are going through a back hallway of low-ranked functionary offices that someone comes along handing out the paperwork. “It’s an hour or so until you hit the office, but take the time to fill these out so you don’t have to do it there!”
We spend our time filling out the paperwork against walls, against backs, on stone floors, on books.
We enter one of the public areas, filled with displays and photos of City Hall Demonstrations of years past.
I take pictures of the big black and white photo of the Abraham Lincoln statue holding banners and signs against segregation and for civil rights.
The four year old boy we helped get inside runs past us around this time, chased by a blond haired girl about his own age, both perused by an exhausted looking teenager helplessly begging them to stop running.
Everyone is wet and exhausted and vibrating with anticipation and the building-wide aura of happiness that infuses everything.
The line goes into the marriage office. A dozen people are at the desk, shoulder to shoulder, far more than it was built to have working it at once.
A Sister of Perpetual Indulgence is directing people to city officials the moment they open up. She’s done up in her nun getup with all her makeup on and her beard is fluffed and be-glittered and on point. “Oh, I was here yesterday getting married myself, but today I’m acting as your guide. Number 4 sweeties, and -Congradulatiooooons!-“
The guy behind the counter has been there since six. It’s now 1:30. He’s still giddy with joy. He counts our money. He takes our paperwork, reviews it, stamps it, sends off the parts he needs to, and hands the rest back to us. “Alright, go to the Rotunda, they’ll direct you to someone who’ll do the ceremony. Then, if you want the certificate, they’ll direct you to -that- line.” “Can’t you just mail it to us?” “Normally, yeah, but the moment the courts shut us down, we’re not going to be allowed to.”
We take our paperwork and join the line to the Rotunda.
If you’ve seen James Bond: A View to a Kill, you’ve seen the San Francisco City Hall Rotunda. There are literally a dozen spots set up along the balconies that overlook the open area where marriage officials and witnesses are gathered and are just processing people through as fast as they can.
That’s for the people who didn’t bring their own wedding officials.
There’s a Catholic-adjacent couple there who seem to have brought their entire families -and- the priest on the main steps. They’re doing the whole damn thing. There’s at least one more Rabbi at work, I can’t remember what else. Just that there was a -lot-.
We get directed to the second story, northside. The San Francisco City Treasurer is one of our two witnesses. Our marriage officient is some other elected official I cannot remember for the life of me (and I'm only writing down what I can actively remember, so I can't turn to my husband next to me and ask, but he'll have remembered because that's what he does.)
I have a wilting lily flower tucked into my shirt pocket. My pants have water stains up to the knees. My hair is still wet from the rain, I am blubbering, and I can’t get the ring on my husband’s finger. The picture is a treat, I tell you.
There really isn’t a word for the mix of emotions I had at that time. Complete disbelief that this was reality and was happening. Relief that we’d made it. Awe at how many dozens of people had personally cheered for us along the way and the hundreds to thousands who’d cheered for us generally.
Then we're married.
Then we get in line to get our license.
It’s another hour. This time, the line goes through the higher stories. Then snakes around and goes past the doorway to the mayor’s office.
Mayor Newsom is not in today. And will be having trouble getting into his office on Tuesday because of the absolute barricade of letters and flowers and folded up notes and stuffed animals and City Hall maps with black marked “THANK YOU!”s that have been piled up against it.
We make it to the marriage records office.
I take a picture of my now husband standing in front of a case of the marriage records for 1902-1912. Numerous kids are curled up in corners sleeping. My own memory is spotty. I just know we got the papers, and then we’re done with lines. We get out, we head to the front entrance, and we walk out onto the City Hall steps.
It's almost 3PM.
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There are cheers, there’s rice thrown at us, there are hundreds of people celebrating us with unconditional love and joy and I had never before felt the goodness that exists in humanity to such an extent. It’s no longer raining, just a light sprinkle, but there are still no protestors. There’s barely even any news vans.
We make our way through the gauntlet, we get hands shaked, people with signs reading ”Congratulations!” jump up and down for us. We hit the sidewalks, and we begin to limp our way back to the BART station.
I’m at the BART station, we’re waiting for our train back south, and I’m sitting on the ground leaning against a pillar and in danger of falling asleep when a nondescript young man stops in front of me and shuffles his feet nervously. “Hey. I just- I saw you guys, down at City Hall, and I just… I’m so happy for you. I’m so proud of what you could do. I’m- I’m just really glad, glad you could get to do this.”
He shakes my hand, clasps it with both of his and shakes it. I thank him and he smiles and then hurries away as fast as he can without running.
Our train arrives and the trip south passes in a semilucid blur.
We get back to our car and climb in.
It’s 4:30 and we are starving.
There’s a Carls Jr near the station that we stop off at and have our first official meal as a married couple. We sit by the window and watch people walking past and pick out others who are returning from San Francisco. We're all easy to pick out, what with the combination of giddiness and water damage.
We get home about 6-7. We take the dog out for a good long walk after being left alone for two days in a row. We shower. We bundle ourselves up. We bury ourselves in blankets and curl up and just sort of sit adrift in the surrealness of what we’d just done.
We wake up the next day, Tuesday, to read that the California State Supreme Court has rejected the petition to shut down the San Francisco weddings because the paperwork had a misplaced comma that made the meaning of one phrase unclear.
The State Supreme Court would proceed to play similar bureaucratic tricks to drag the process out for nearly a full month before they have nothing left and finally shut down Mayor Newsom’s marriages.
My parents had been out of state at the time at a convention. They were flying into SFO about the same moment we were walking out of City Hall. I apologized to them later for not waiting and my mom all but shook me by the shoulders. “No! No one knew that they’d go on for so long! You did what you needed to do! I’ll just be there for the next one!”
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It was just a piece of paper. Legally, it didn’t even hold any weight thirty days later. My philosophy at the time was “marriage really isn’t that important, aside from the legal benefits. It’s just confirming what you already have.”
But maybe it’s just societal weight, or ingrained culture, or something, but it was different after. The way I described it at the time, and I’ve never really come up with a better metaphor is, “It’s like we were both holding onto each other in the middle of the ocean in the middle of a storm. We were keeping each other above water, we were each other’s support. But then we got this piece of paper. And it was like the ground rose up to meet our feet. We were still in an ocean, still in the middle of a storm, but there was a solid foundation beneath our feet. We still supported each other, but there was this other thing that was also keeping our heads above the water.
It was different. It was better. It made things more solid and real.
I am forever grateful for all the forces and all the people who came together to make it possible. It’s been twenty years and we’re still together and still married.
We did a domestic partnership a year later to get the legal paperwork. We’d done a private ceremony with proper rings (not just ones grabbed out of the husband’s collection hours before) before then. And in 2008, we did a legal marriage again.
Rushed. In a hurry. Because there was Proposition 13 to be voted on which would make them all illegal again if it passed.
It did, but we were already married at that point, and they couldn’t negate it that time.
Another few years after that, the Supreme Court finally threw up their hands and said "Fine! It's been legal in places and nothing's caught on fire or been devoured by locusts. It's legal everywhere. Shut up about it!"
And that was that.
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When I was in highschool, in the late 90s, I didn’t expect to see legal gay marriage until I was in my 50s. I just couldn’t see how the American public as it was would ever be okay with it.
I never expected to be getting married within five years. I never expected it to be legal nationwide before I’d barely started by 30s. I never thought I’d be in my 40s and it’d be such a non-issue that the conservative rabble rousers would’ve had to move onto other wedge issues altogether.
I never thought that I could introduce another man as my husband and absolutely no one involved would so much as blink.
I never thought I’d live in this world.
And it’s twenty years later today. I wonder how our line buddies are doing. Those babies who were running around the wide open rooms playing tag will have graduated college by now. The kids whose parents the one line-buddy was worried would see him are probably married too now. Some of them to others of the same gender.
I don’t have some greater message to make with all this. Other then, culture can shift suddenly in ways you can’t predict. For good or ill. Mainly this is just me remembering the craziest fucking 36 hours of my life twenty years after the fact and sharing them with all of you.
The future we’re resigned to doesn’t have to be the one we live in. Society can shift faster than you think. The unimaginable of twenty years ago is the baseline reality of today.
And always remember that the people who want to get married will show up by the thousands in rain that none of those who’re against it will brave.
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they just don’t make t-shirts like they used to.
#why are they all flimsy and soft. even when they say they’re 100% cotton.#i used to be able to get pretty good quality gildan shirts for like 3 dollars at michaels but even the michaels shirts suck now!#and it’s still the same brand! it’s just worse!#literally the only shirts i can buy now are secondhand
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@s1nn0hh THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN FOR THE UNWELL TAGS I WILL NOW ELABORATE ON IN MY OWN TAGS
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#there is a lot to be said about how genuine Dusknoir was to those two. and that’s because he was.#not all the time; no. but he did care.#and the fact he uses that to tell them that none of it mattered would mess Ribbons and Aimilios up#any new Pokémon they meet they’re weary of and trying to get a good read on them after the events of main game#it’s ESPECIALLY hard for Ribbons. because truthfully? Aimilios had it easy. he has a built in lie-detector.#Ribbons? She doesn’t get that. She doubts her gut feelings/instincts/trust in new Pokémon for a loooong time.#and she has Dusknoir to thank for that! teaching her that every new person she’ll meet might be out to get her ☺️☺️ isn’t it so nice of him#he knows she’s just as stubborn and resilient as her older brother.#So he does anything and everything in his power to rip her emotionally. get into her head#Aimilios might have a chance to fight back so he’s extra cruel with his attacks towards the Riolu; but Ribbons?#She’s just an Eevee. a small; stupid Eevee. That never meant anything to him#Like. I KNOOOW PARTNER CANONICALLY LOOKS UP TO DUSKNOIR#BUT HE ABSOLUTELY RIPPED INTO HERO DURING THAT ONE SCENE WHERE HE AMBUSHED THEM THE FIRST TIME#AND PARTNER/AIMILIOS’S DIALOUGE OF ‘Grovyle! Ribbons! Don’t give up!’#REAAAAALLY IMPLIES HERO GAVE UP IN THAT MOMENT TOO. god I can just Imagine the 100 yard empty stare Ribbons is giving Dusknoir#just slowly disassociating. detached from everything that’s happening around her.#and The Stoneship fight is where Dusknoir seals his fate by telling her just how worthless she was. and how easy it was to gain her trust.#he didn’t even have to lift a finger; they came to him.#And that in turn becomes the reason why she takes so much longer to trust him.#and Dusknoir has to sit there and watch as this once; bright Eevee. is now just a former husk of herself around him.#ANYWAYS SINNOH YOU ABSOLUTELY UNDERSTAND. I KNOW I KEEP SAYING THIS BUT YOU FUCKING DO.
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Finally finished ffx-2 obvs didn’t get the good ending but I watched it on yt
Yuna and tidus are so cute it was such a feel good ending and the way the ending scene with yuna standing in zanarkand paralleled the opening scene of tidus standing there was just perfect. Also the way yuna said that she’s going home in that ending, and tidus says that he’s home in the good ending help I’m dying
A quick Google search told me that last mission is a roguelike with barely any story so I’ll prob just look up the cutscenes I’m not a fan of roguelikes 😅
#I will say that I do see why some ppl don’t like the good ending bc x-2 is all abt yuna moving on#I think the other ending is p good too with yuna living up her life#while they’re not my favorite cast I rlly do appreciate all the characters in both x and x-2#playing x-2 made me realize how much I missed tidus and auron lmao#anyway x-2 was def more character driven but all the characters were enjoyable so i had fun#again not sure if I’ll replay it anytime soon esp since 100% seems like a slog#misu.txt
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ICE raids are happening.
Any immigrants, no matter how long you have been a citizen of the USA, is at risk of being deported either out of the country as a whole or into what are basically concentration camps. Raids starting in Chicago, Illinois. and spreading to other major cities with high POC and Hispanic populations. The US Immigrations and Customs Enforcement (ICE) and Customs and Border Patrol (CBP) have started raiding homes and families in California.
There are no "protected locations" as of January 21, 2025. Hospitals, schools, and churches are all at risk of being raided, where before these places were deemed safe and off limits to raids.
When it comes to spotting an ICE agent, look for these:
Weirdly neat/well kept hair (shaved heads, side parts, military burs for men; low buns, high ponytails, close cropped bobs for women)
Oversized jacket (long and bulky outerwear makes it easier to hide tools/equipment without being suspicious)
Both hands in pockets
Many undercover agents/cops buy cheap plain clothes off the racks so they aren’t seen in their own clothes. This can make their outfit seem awkward
Sweatshirts with the hood up
Sports apparel (warm up jacket, sweats, etc) with non-sports clothes (jeans, cargo shorts)
Cargo pants/shorts (usually full of items like their badge, flashlight, taser, pepper spray, backup handcuffs, zip ties)
Military or hiking style boots, sometimes chunky sneakers (extra points if none of it matches anything in their outfit)
Outline of a gun in their pants/shirt (easy to see when bending, leaning, or raising arms) (NO NOT SAY ANYTHING)
Overly friendly
Overly inquisitive
“How old are you” and “what do you know about this happening” are both red flags, along with generally odd and personal questions
Don’t fit in
Mismatched pairs in public spaces (usually cops do these things in pairs. They don’t talk to each other or acknowledge each other much, if at all)
DO NOT SAY ANYTHING UNTIL YOU ARE 100% SURE
YOUR BEST BET IS NOT TO SAY ANYTHING UNTIL THE SUSPECT STARTS ACTING OFF AND GETTING PUSHY
COPS ARE NOT OBLIGATED TO TELL YOU THAT THEY ARE UNDERCOVER
COPS CAN AND WILL LIE TO YOU
SCREAM “LA MIGRA” AT THE TOP OF YOUR LUNGS
For protesting:
N95 masks
Respirator/gas mask if you have access to one
Water water water water water (I hate to say it, but disposable one use bottles are best here. If it comes to it, you need to be able to drop and run.) Use for flushing wounds, flushing eyes of tear gas, and of course drinking.
Snacks! You'll be doing a lot of walking and/or running and need to keep that energy up. Trail mix, dried fruit, nuts, granola bars, crackers, jerky/meat sticks, fruit snacks, candy, etc. Think of it like packing your lunchbox for a field trip.
Eyedrops (teargas is a bitch)
Goggles (I bring my old snowboarding goggles)
If you are wearing a t-shirt or have exposed skin, put on fake/temporary tattoos. If you are brought into something and they say you were there, showing a picture of you with the tattoos, show them where that tattoo would be and how there’s nothing there. How would you get rid of a giant flower on your forearm in 2 days anyways?
Wigs fall under the same category as tattoos. The person they're claiming to be you has a blonde bob and you have green hair past your shoulders.It also makes it possible to go with a completely different color without the use of hair dye. This means if they try to arrest you later and try to prove it was you by taking your hair and testing for dye, it won't come back the way they hope. (Thank you @violetrosepetals for this addition!)
Hide your hair. I tuck my hair into my beanie since it’s short. If you have longer hair, try to do the same or tuck it into your shirt. Balaclavas are also a good choice, as they cover both your face and hair.
Power bank
Chargers
Helmet. Any is fine, my personal choice is a skating helmet since they’re rounder and can take more damage, but tactical is also good
Hand sanitizer
Gloves with hard knuckles (tactical gloves). These pack a good punch even if you don't have the correct form. Don't have those? Wrist guards for roller skating/skateboarding work kinda like that too. More of a slapping motion, but still hurt like a bitch. Extra points if they're all scuffed up from use and falls.
Bandanas. Somebody might need one for their face or hair, maybe you need to get dirt off somebody’s face, maybe somebody got injured. They’re great for anything and everything.
Cash (try to stick to cash, your card can be tracked)
Medications if you take them. If you get arrested or happen to somehow be away for longer than expected after the protest, it’s always good to have emergency meds
FIRST AID ALL THE FIRST AID (Tourniquet, Quikclot, chest seal, trauma shears, gauze, bandages, duct tape, and all the usual stuff you’d have in there)
Good shoes. Boots and sneakers are your best choices. Not heels, not platforms, not sandals. Good boots or shoes that won't come off your feet too easily when you run. Steel toed shoes are a great option. Your toes won't be squashed, but also it'll hurt someone a lot more if you start kicking.
Spare socks. Trust me. You can use them to stop bleeding if it comes to it, but also you can put rocks in there and boom weapon. Also if the socks you're wearing get wet.
As much covering clothing as you can handle. Plain jeans, plain hoodie, plain t-shirt, keep yourself as anonymous as possible. Black and baggy is best.
Photocopy of your ID, not your real one.
Sunscreen!
Make sure your clothes have pockets, even if you have a bag. You want everything to be easily accessible.
Do not wear contact lenses. If tear gas is used, that will make everything so much worse. Wear your glasses or go blind. If you have overly unique or identifiable frames, goggles are your friend here. Get some goggles that will fit over your frames, preferably ones that are tinted.
If you use mobility aids, cover defining features. Logos, brand names, colors, stickers, all of it. Take some old plain t-shirt and tie it around your wheelchair’s backrest. Wrap your wheelchair frame in cling wrap, then duct tape, or plain black self adhering medical tape. Cover stickers on your cane or crutches the same way. Electric chair? You have a little more work, but you can do it. Wrap it up. Same idea. Walker? Same thing. Cover. It. All.
If you are bringing a bag, make sure that bag is as plain as possible. No pins. No patches. No keychains. Except maybe a pride flag so people know which team you're playing on.
Scarf or keffiyeh if you have one. They have many uses!
Write a reliable phone number (of someone who is not at the protest with you) on your body. On the off chance you get arrested, that is your emergency contact.
Pocket knife.
Pepper spray/mace/bear spray
if you get tear gassed, shake around first before using water. Most tear gas is more of a powder and water has a high likelihood of just spreading it around. (Thank you @actually-a-bread-loaf for this addition!)
Tennis rackets also work wonderfully for chucking tear gas canisters back at those throwing them. Anybody asks, you're going out to play tennis with friends later. Baseball bats also work! (Thank you @azul-nova-24 for this addition!)
Anything you can throw. Soup for my family.
IF YOU CAN, LEAVE YOUR PHONE AT HOME
IF YOU HAVE TO TAKE IT WITH YOU, TURN OFF LOCATION SERVICES ON ALL APPS AND TURN OFF BIOMETRICS (FACE ID AND FINGERPRINT) SO YOU CAN ONLY UNLOCK YOUR PHONE WITH YOUR PASSWORD
COPS CAN FORCE YOU TO OPEN YOUR PHONE WITH YOUR FINGERPRINT OR FACE ID
MAKE SURE SOMEBODY KNOWS GENERALLY WHERE YOU ARE
If you see a potential or active raid, take pictures and note the time and location. Post online if you can, as well.
You have the right to remain silent. State that you wish to remain silent. Avoid giving information about anybody's immigration status. You have the right to refuse to sign anything before speaking to an attorney. You have the right to refuse searches of your car, your home, and yourself. Schools do not collect a child's immigration status.
I do not want to scare anybody, but this is what life is right now. That man does not care how long you have been a citizen of this country. If you are not a white, cisgender, heterosexual, Christian male, you are seen as less than by men in power. You are not less than. You are a threat to them, and they are scared. Keep it that way.
Even if you're not currently protesting, it's good to know this just in case. Things are happening very quickly, and there is a very high chance of it changing very quickly within the next four years.
Here's the link to my post on what to bring in terms of first aid.
If you cannot attend protests, that’s fine. Do what’s best for you. Even just reposting information helps.
This is an updated version of this post,
Updated January 27, 2025.
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