#not the pressure to perform or anything HHHHH

[tuituipupu]

i’m going to italy in 2 days after 4 yrs what tha helllllll 🫥 i’m gonna miss being a lil online gremlin w/ the kääryleet ngl :((

[shinayashipper]

The Crown Prince was taken to the Red-Light district by his noble friends to see the popular dancer. What intoxicated him was not the alcohol but...

The dancing girl like a falling teardrop was a flower fairy roaming through the night.

Lured by the sweet-scented nectar, the defined butterfly landed flutteringly...

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JMDNSNSDN WOWOWOWOWOW YES my part of the art trade with @alliebirb​ !!!!!! IT WAS A REVOLUTIONSHIPPING FANTASY AU!!! that’s based on a VOCALOID song:

Corrupted Flower ( 背徳の花 ) by Hitoshizuku_Yamasankakkei

It’s actually about a police officer who fall in love with a dancer at a bar, but me and Allie decided to make Atem a prince!!

Atem visited this bar and he watched Anzu performed there, he’s instantly IN LOVE!!

There will be LOTS OF PINING!! BUT NOT TO WORRY it ends with them GETTING MARRIED, as you can see from Allie’s part of the art trade IT’S THEIR WEDDING + CORONATION AS KING AND QUEEN YAASSSS

My part here is Anzu in her dancing dress, which supposed to resemble a blue rose HHHHH HOPE YOU LIKE ITTT

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I’m a shameless Rivalshipper so I actually added a Rivalship scenario in it (AND COOL ALLIE AGREED WITH IT THANK YOU) but they’re kinda the Bad Guys, so if you’re into that here some detail/ramble under cut:

Seto, Atem, and Yugi were childhood friends. With Seto and Atem as princes and Yugi the royal Magician or something, they live in the palace.

So Seto was Atem’s cousin and his father Aknadin was Thirsty for Power and he wanted Seto to take the throne. Seto was under a lot of pressure and Abused since he’s a kid (Mokuba is there too yes, this is pretty much just Gozaburo but it’s Aknadin and he’s plotting to dethrone Atem etc etc) and Yugi and Seto had always been in That kind of relationship and Yugi knows all about Seto’s struggles and all: He’s willing to do Anything for Seto.

SO ANYWAY AKNADIN found out that Atem the crown prince is having an affair with a lowly dancer at some bar and he’s plotting to take advantage of this weakness!!

Long story short, Aknadin wants Seto to kill Anzu, and everytime Seto was Overwhelmed and Desperate he came to Yugi: Seto came to Yugi one night, handing him a picture of Anzu, “Kill this woman for me Yugi” AND FUCK YUGI’S CONFLICTED!!!!! But he did make a poison anyway, but in the end he couldn’t Do It. LONG LONG STORY SHORT Aknadin’s plot got Discovered, and he’s Executed. Meanwhile Seto, Yugi, and Mokuba ran away, and kinda lived in the Nowhere. Sometimes they exchange letters with Atem and Anzu (now King and Queen). The letters got no names, but they just know who send them <3

[jinlias]

i never really notice when i outgrow stuff i just suddenly realize the stuff i do in the internet doesn't revolve around it anymore or smth haha but anyway old flames can still be rekindled it's just that itzy is coming to tour where i am by early next year so idk if i want to attend hhhhh blackpink is also coming here (and we're registering for presales rn) but i also want to attend that sb19 concert so... whew i dunno i dunnooo but yea that's smth im gonna have to solve esp bc i don't have a friend to attend sb19 with and my introverted shy self is.... oof

haha anyway!!! ur back which means midterms are over??? congratulations!!!! i'm new to ppop myself but if you're going to check them out maybe spare an update or two about it?? haha i'd love to know if you'd like it or not 😅 if you want some recommendations i have live performances that are going to blow you away !!! and also idk if bc sb19 are older (blackpink age) or if ppop is generally a little less conservative but the compilations of innuendos (and genuine skinship moments born out if rlly close friendships) are driving me insane i've been laughing for hours lmao

well, about the concerts, honestly, you’ll want to go even alone, (generally) its such an amazing experience and once in a lifetime that you’ll be okay to attend alone. its a little intimidating, of course, because i’m always scared i’ll get lost or anything, but like everything one gets around to it. last concert i went to, i bought a cheaper ticket because i was going w a friend that didn’t die to see the artist up close as i did, and while i don’t regret it because i now have an amazing memory with them, im open to going alone next time, also because i was embarrassed at how much i was fangirling hahqjwhwjw

BUT, about the tickets, i would say you’re always gonna regret going to x concert and not y, so i feel like you’ll still regret whichever concert u don’t go to, but we also don’t want you to buy a concert ticket out of peer pressure! do whatever feels right.

[mourntheantagonist]

billy hears about how steve can make guys cum untouched just with his fingers/dick. he gets keyed up, post s2 or s3 (whichever floats your boat) and goes to steve begging for him to finger billy open then make him cum untouched.

wHO TOLD YOU!!?

who exposed me??

coming untouched is my favorite thing hhhhh

I revealed this information to only a small number of people I’m coming for all of you 🔪

anyway... I hope you enjoy this because i sure did

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Billy approach’s Steve at his locker with both the bravado of a man on a mission and the nervousness of a twelve year old asking his crush to dance.

Billy had learned a very interesting rumor about his boyfriend from the pitcher for the baseball team. After several attempts of the guy trying to get into Steve’s pants, Billy was unleashed to put the kid into his proper place. Billy refrained from anything too physical, knowing if he left any marks on Saunders he would definitely be receiving the cold shoulder from Steve. And it’s not like he could blame the guy. If he had been on the receiving end of one of Steve’s magical blow jobs and had that taken away, he might have done the same thing.

Billy just shoves him around a bit. Makes a few veiled threats that he doesn’t need to know have zero merit. Steve has truly made him soft. But still, Billy’s reputation preceded him. Dixon Saunders easily submitted.

But before Billy could walk away he had to open his big mouth.

“Word of advice. Let Harrington in the backdoor. You’ll be fuckin’ seein’ stars I tell you. Doesn’t even have to touch.”

Billy allows himself to walk away. Manages to fight the urge to probe him with all his questions. But those words they fucking bore a hole into his brain and he’s gotta know. He’s gotta experience that first hand for himself.

“You free after school? I wanna test out a rumor.” He says, leant up against the locker in an attempt to seduce, while also masking the scared little kid inside him as he beats around the bush.

Steve and him have not progressed past hand jobs and blowjobs. Billy’s only ever had actual, back breaking, sex once. And he wasn’t on the receiving end. So this was uncharted territory for him. But his dick twitched every time those words echoed in his skull.

“Doesn’t even have to touch.”

“And what rumor would that be?” Steve asks as he shoves the remainder of his books into his locker.

And Billy can’t bring himself to ask for it. Not here where people can see Steve laugh in his face. No, he’d rather lose his dignity in private.

And it’s not that Billy thinks Steve will laugh at him for wanting it, but laugh at him for the clear desperation he has for it.

“I’ll tell you when we get to your place. Wouldn’t want it to spread around school.”

Steve just laughs it off and nudges Billy’s shoulder, but Billy’s already looking him up and down with a bit lip and hungry eyes. Because Steve is looking like an entire meal right now. Wrinkles next to his eyes and shiny white teeth exposed with his smile. Long fingers brushing through his hair.

He wants.

He needs.

He doesn’t know how he intends to make it through the last hour of the school day without popping a boner in history class. Having to come up with a reason why the assasination of Franz Ferdinand has him so aroused.

When they’ve finally made it to Steve’s house Steve is begging Billy to tell him the rumor, and billy is begging for something else entirely. Billy pushes Steve down onto the couch and gets into Steve’s lap. Facing towards him with a knee on either side of Steve’s legs. Steve wraps his arms around Billy’s back as Billy leans down to kiss him. Steve’s neck craning upwards to meet Billy’s lips.

“A little birdie told me you can make a boy come untouched. That true?”

And Billy was correct to assume Steve would laugh. But it isn’t a mocking laugh. More delighted and intrigued.

“Well if you want me to do that we’re gonna have to get you in another position.”

And suddenly Billy is flying off his lap and Steve is dragging Billy up the stairs and into his room. Bending Billy over against the bed, propped up by his hands until Steve knocks him down to his elbows. Billy let’s out a quiet chuckle at this amount of aggression and heat he’s not used to seeing out of Steve.

Steve reaches for his bedside table and pulls out a bottle of lube from one of the drawers, sparing no time at all before yanking Billy’s pants downs to his knees and squirting a bit of lube onto two fingers.

“You’re sure you’re ready for this?” He asks, and Billy is already spreading his legs. Bracing himself. Yeah. He’s fucking ready.

“If you don’t start right fucking now I’m going to scream.”

Steve laughs before sliding in one slicked finger. Billy’s fingered himself before, but this right here was an entirely different ball game. When he did it to himself he could never get the angle quite right. And the added fear that his father could walk in on him with fingers up his ass, he’d rather not entertain that.

The one finger felt good. Better than he could achieve himself. But he definitely wasn’t seeing stars.

By the time Steve added in a second finger he started to feel it. Not overwhelming pleasure, but the desperate need to touch himself. He was already leaking pre onto the bed sheets, gripping the cloth tightly and clenching his teeth to fight the urge to stroke his dick. His hard, red, throbbing dick.

Okay maybe he wasn’t entirely ready for that.

Steve’s fingers are now scissoring inside him spreading him apart slowly and teasingly. He’s slow and meticulous and he’s doing all the right things. Billy feels the need so bite down on something. His nails now digging into his palms, sure to leave marks. He’s sputtering nonsensical pleas to speed up. More more more.

Then there’s a third finger and Billy lets out and embarrassing moan.

He needs Steve inside of him. Now.

And apparently Steve agrees as he slowly removes his fingers from Billy’s hole, Billy letting out a deep breath as the pressure is released.

Suddenly Steve is flipping Billy onto his back, ripping his own shirt off, pulling Billy’s jeans the rest of the way down and over his ankles. Pulling Billy’s legs up to where they are now resting on his shoulders. Billy follows Steve’s lead and reveals his own bare chest. Unbuttoning the only two buttons that were ever fastened. His hands are too close to his dick for Steve’s liking. Billy’s so close to wrapping his hand around himself and holding on for dear life.

Steve grabs Billy by the wrists and pins them down to the bed just above Billy’s head.

“Hands off the merchandise. We’re testing the rumor aren’t we?”

And Billy just whimpers underneath the weight of Steve on top of him. He needs Steve inside of him. He wants so badly to come undone at just the feeling of Steve inside him. Tearing him apart. Destroying him until he’s a blubbering mess.

Steve releases one hand from Billy’s wrist hesitantly. Slowly to ensure Billy remains complaint and keeps the hand where it lies. Then he’s using the free hand to position himself, and it all feels like slow motion. Like time stops completely before Steve is complete filling Billy up. Then he’s pumping in and out at an agonizingly slow pace and Billy just wants to scream.

Steve is leaning over him, hands back on Billy’s wrists, kissing, sucking, biting on Billy’s neck and the show is almost over for him. Tears spilling out of his eyes. He’s desperately fighting against Steve’s grip on him.

“Come for me baby.” He whispers in his ear with a breathy moan. “I’m close too.”

It’s the combination of the hot breath against his ear and one final thrust that he feels all the way to his stomach that does it all for him. Almost instantaneously he’s shooting off onto Steve’s chest. He’s not seeing stars. He’s seeing the whole damn galaxy.

And he could easily get hard again at just the sight of Steve on top as he comes inside of him. Mouth agape as he releases a heavy and unsuppressed moan. Hair filling into his face, beads of sweat on his forehead. He looks fucking ethereal. Of course a boy who looked like that would live up to the rumor. But there was never really any doubt in Billy that Steve would deliver. And boy did he ever.

And then Steve’s aggressive performance from just a few minutes ago is flipped on it’s head. Slowly removing himself from inside, Billy feeling as Steve’s come slowly drips from his hole. Steve coming up to his face to gently push a hair out of his face before peppering gentle kisses to the space below his eyes where shedded tears came to rest.

“I would ask you if the rumors are true, but I think that’s kinda obvious don’t you think?” Steve says with a little smirk.

Billy scoffs before gently moving a now freed hand up to grab Steve by the chin. Angling his face to his eyes are locked straight on his own. “Shut up you cocky little bastard.” He says before pulling him down to meet his lips, wrapping his legs around him and locking his ankles together and pulling Steve down until Steve’s chest completely pressed up against his own.

“I’m still stronger than you. Don’t you ever forget it.”

[asunas-embers]

8 and 14!

8. Playlist for my muse:

Assuming we're talking about songs that represent Asuna / have her vibes and not the music she listens to:

- I Bet on Losing Dogs - Mitski

- Youth - Glass Animals

- Trying to Be Cool - Phoenix

- BOOGIE - Brockhampton

-Megitsune - Babymetal

- Goddess - Cepheid

(This playlist is everywhere but so is Asuna oops) 14. Recommend 5 movies:

- Tenshi no Koi - trying to think of movies you guys haven't already seen probably, tw for student-teacher relationships, cancer, suicide - but it really is a good movie. The soundtrack is good, the leads did amazing - lots of feelings to go around.

- Kinkyori Renai - another one with a tw for student-teacher relationships, but the ending??? Amazing. Plus it has not only Komatsu Nana but also Yamashita Tomohisa and any reason to look at that man for an hour plus is worth it :) Both did outstanding in their roles and I've seen this movie at least 10 times I'm sure

- Kimi no Na Wa. (Your Name.) - Literally one of the best animated films I have ever seen, every work by the author of the source material is gorgeous and amazing. Complex storyline, beautiful OST by Radwimps, a tear jerker. Romance across the span of time? Yess please.

- Mimi wo Sumaseba (Whisper of the Heart) - One of those Ghibli films that moves slow because it feels so real. Really captures the feeling of young love and the pressure of being a creatively oriented student with pressure to perform academically. The ending makes me so soft and the Japanese version of Country Roads as a motif through the movie always makes me feel things bc of some pleasant memories associated <3

- Hhhhh I don't actually watch a lot of anything so it's hard to think of anything else unique but I've been watching the 12 episode donghua/anime Heaven Official's Blessing recently and I will never not recommend that show - It's where my sweet bby Xie Lian comes from. Want some sick fight scenes? Ghosts? Cultivation? Gods? A mlm couple who are legitimately good for each other? Beautiful men and women around every corner? Pei Ming? We've got it all. It goes by fast, I basically watch it like a movie anyway.

[fallingin-like]

november 14

14. sleeping with ghosts by @boybeaulieu​ [requested by @fuzzballsheltiepants]

see which other fics i’m reviewing this month! / my review request post!

this fic is a super cool band!au that has andrew and gang playing placebo songs and neil as a solo singer. there has great use of a non-linear timeline. be prepared to feel all of the feelings

this fic is such an emotional rollercoaster, especially with the jumps between when andrew and neil are together and broken up. the juxtaposition of happy vs bad times made everything that much more impactful. i was reading so quickly just wanting to know what was going to happen next.

parts i enjoyed:

”being back to numbness is not exactly a revelation, more of a failure” oh oof i feel this. that feeling of ‘i had hoped this would not happen but i am not surprised, just disappointed/resigned’

”he can’t stop writing songs even in his own thoughts” woah i actually relate to this a bit. a couple years ago i was writing letters to someone and i found myself constantly drafting letters in my head, narrating my thoughts to them even though they weren’t around

”smiles andrew, sharp, all teeth and no joy whatsoever” oh nO andrew ;-;

”there is no way he is going anywhere neil josten might even breathe the same air he’s breathing. no way. no, nein, njet. fifteen minutes later, he’s signing a new contract” LOL i’m interested, is this due to pressure from the rest of the band or… maybe a little bit of andrew hoping to see neil?

”the anxiety that should come with that realisation is missing, this is a moment he will remember […] maybe what he means to say is that this is a moment he will want to remember” oh this is so soft. i’m so happy, but worried because i know this all goes wrong

hhhh andrew writing about neil!! very cute. also cute is “this is the first time andrew actively asks him about his album and it shows in a way neil looks taken aback, but hopeful”

honestly reading about andrew when he’s crazy high and numb is so hard

aaron going after that technician is a great moment. even though the twins have such a rocky relationship, at the end of the day, aaron will protect andrew and andrew will protect aaron and i love seeing that.

the conversation between andrew and renee is so interesting. they have such a complicated, yet simple relationship, always knowing how to communicate without saying things, when to push and when to back down. seeing andrew feel comfortable enough to finally talk about neil is a good example of how much he trusts her

PICTURES OF RIKO KISSING NEIL EXCUSE ME WHAT IS GOING ON (i secretly love this because i love angst)

this first meeting between andrew and neil is really interesting to read. it’s basically a one-sided conversation but we learn so much because even though he’s not speaking, we get to see andrew’s thoughts and how he reacts to everything  and oo i love seeing both their tempers coming out, they clash in a way that works so well because it almost balances each other out

and with that, he turns around and makes to leave. andrew… andrew is a bit star struck.” oh the irony here

soooo does neil watch andrew leave and follow him to the roof? or does he just happen to be there (because i really want to believe neil followed him, but also wanted to give him some space)

”his monsters (nobody should ever know he calls them his, in his mind)” cute! and also i was not surprised at all because this is very in character. andrew is so possessive and, in his own way, caring 

”for once, andrew wants to be selfish, he wants to think about himself and finally, finally let go of song to say goodbye. it will either kill him or free him. he hopes it’s the latter, he used to hope it’d be the first” oh this is so sad, andrew’s longing to do something for himself for once and the reminder of when he was suicidal

”this feels like discovering aaron’s addiction and locking him in that bathroom, like watching him go in and never come back out. like breaking the door open and blowing air into his lungs and hearing nicky frantically dialling 911” wait a second. so what happens in this universe?

”the reply said: i’m sorry, one day you’ll understand” oh my goodness there has to be something more going on. what is riko threatening/blackmailing neil with?

the way that you write the relationship between andrew and aaron is really interesting, there’s so much unresolved tension. love seeing aaron finally stand up for himself and share the song he wrote

interesting the timeline you’ve gone with, having betsy and andrew not that close to each other during aaron’s trial. the trial itself… it’s very painful and i hate to think that andrew has to share such a vulnerable part of himself to save his brother

”sometimes i think about how it would be if you were the one tilda chose, wish it, even.” woah this is something that would be cool to explore. how each twin would have turned out differently if faced with the opposite situation, because although they’re twins, they’re still so different. how would it affect everything that happens in the books? i wonder if andrew would have joined exy

”exit wounds, though, is a trump card. just like neil. it will either set him free or kill him, andrew has the uncanny suspicion it’ll be the last one” hhhhh how dare you do this to me

oH DANG WHAT DID YOU DO TO NEIL? i really like that you have this from andrew’s perspective, keeps everything so suspenseful. what the heck this scene is so intense.

hmm seth’s death is interesting. to have everyone present and seeing their reactions, especially aaron’s, makes it that much more impactful

”as all over the place and exuberant as nicky is, he’s also quite observant. if he weren’t his cousin, andrew would have to eliminate him” haha this is exactly something that andrew would think, with his odd sense of affection.

”andrew realises more and more with each word that if he were to sign this, he’d be stepping from a cell into a cage” love the way that you described this

i like that you had andrew meet with bee, it’s comforting to think that through this rough time andrew still has someone around that he trusts to share with. who won’t judge him and just wants the best for him

ahh seeing the events leading up to neil’s tour gives a lot more understanding of the thought process of neil’s decision and why andrew is reacting the way he is

i actually can’t believe kevin. first of all, it’s actually pretty impressive that he has been able to hide riko contacting him for so long (although i suppose that andrew hasn’t been as observant as usually since the call). to think that he knew for so long about who neil was but didn’t say anything?? 

andrew and neil’s march 2018 fight is a big oof.

”he is done being carved open like this, with no knife or pain or malice. with interest and intrigue and plain, simple curiosity. it should feel like being carved open, it’s more like being gently torn apart” woah the wording you used for this is so amazing, i love these lines

”if you could see yourself the way i see you on that stage, you wouldn’t even think about that. it’s a risk, but one that’s worth taking, i should know about that” oh neil, you always know where to hit and how to hit the hardest

”it’s been a very long time since andrew has felt fear outside his nightmares, this unease settling in his stomach is certainly not welcomed. it also isn’t anything new” ahHHHHHHHH

neil’s performance was great, i liked that he left stage immediately and just ran straight to andrew. how did neil free himself of riko? was it since nathan was killed?

this was a really interesting fic, the changes you made from canon made it unpredictable in a good way and kept me wanting to know more. i think i probably would have found it even better, had i been familiar with the songs that you reference throughout. either way, i think the ones that you chose fit well into the story that you were trying to tell because the lyrics that you included were great. i liked the way that you used different time jumps for each section to build suspense and also reflect and show how certain events were influenced. thanks for writing this!!

[bujo-ie]

Lmao! I honestly thought that senioritis was a joke, but that shit is too real! I literally haven’t done any work in three days and have three homework assignments and a project due. I’m feeling the pressure and I’m still just chilling in bed watching Grey’s Anatomy and waiting for the midnight panic to kick in.

big mood anon,,,,,,i had my long weekend (three days !) and i spent my last day having fun in school for a performance thing in my school which is great and all but not for my grades hah

anyway ya girl decided that junior year is the best year to start succumbing to senioritis, right at the peak of SATs and also the year i decided to join 3 academic clubs (aka u need to study) and also 2 performing arts-type clubs,,,, someone call 911 my schedule gives even my teachers aneurysms

anyway thank god i finally started studying but i left some hw undone which never happens,,,,,this is going to be a long week hennys

anyway gl anon ! hope the midnight panic is enough to get workin’ but not enough to, yknow, trigger anything else bad hhhhh

[zhujieqiong]

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HOGFOIGF PAŠKA THATS WAY TOO MANY OH MY GOD ill try my best to answer as many as i can pls i love u gyfiddshusodjf

i used to be really good @ french !!! if i just put more effort into it i could be great hhhhh

speaking of languages i want to be fluent in at least 5 !!!

i avoid high school parties on purpose bc i dont want to be pressured to drink hgfodifsjd

seeing bts in hamilton will be my very first concert ever and im so excited about it !!!

i’m pretty sure danny phantom was like...my first crush?? or maybe it was prince zuko or jake long (i think i had a thing for dante basco’s voice hfvdohdio) 

i’ve never broken a bone or had to go to the hospital for anything but my cousin broke her leg nd her arm (two different occasions not @ the same time) so i rlly wanted to know what that was like nd i think i tried to jump from really high off the stairs once but i still never broke my arm ghdofhsdiodgj

i love fruit SO MUCH!!!!!

i talk to myself a lot and make little random stories up in my head a lot and when i was little and didnt have dolls i would act them out w my fingers HOHDFISJJOD

i actually dont really like watching movies that much unless its at the theatre bc i get distracted easily nd hate sitting for a very long time at home

i always watch netflix w subtitles even tho people hate it hfgdofshijdfk

i wear glasses!! (im not sure if people know this...)

i have a lot of skirts but i dont think i’ve worn a skirt since like...grade 7 and even then i only wore it for choir/violin performances

oh my god okay also i have really tiny teeth??? it’s so weird like i didnt notice until i got braces but theyre like Lil Squares HVOGFDJFIOS so i have a gummy smile like mr yoongi 😌😌

okay this is getting too long i should stop now....

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