#not saying you can't portay romantic relationships at one point

[joonebugg]

Hot take but there shouldn't be shipping in the mouthwashing fandom. Anyway goodnight

[ahundredtimesover]

Hello! I randomly found “I want you to stay”, while scrolling, and let me tell you, I could barely focus on something else for about 4 days. I love me a good Jungkook fic.

Besides being a Jk fic, this is such a good story! I love how you portay their thoughts and emotions so extensively. Both of them are so relatable. They made me realize how much I crave for someone that is ready to accept all the love in my heart and how afraid I actually am to open up to someone and accept their love. It’s so hard to do…I’ve been in a relationship for 10 years, that ended last year, and since then, I’ve been questioning myself and tried constantly to make sense of my emotions, of who I am, why haven’t I been enough for this person. Reading your story, I realized that I was enough, however, he did not know how to accept my love and I did not know how to express myself better. I’m thinking how important is to communicate and to be true to yourself, after reading the characters’ thoughts. I guess we’re all living in our heads most of the time, imagining how the other person will react if we say this of that and more often than not, we’re sabotaging ourselves. That’s why I am relating to both of them, I feel like I am sabotaging myself most of the times, as I’m living in my head a lot. It is weird tho, because with my friends I can be open and give and receive love, but when I’m thinking of a romantic relationship, I feel like it would be so hard for me to do that, because when I love, I do it with my everything and it’s consuming. And trusting that someone will not break you is even harder. I’m wondering often if it is wrong or if I am crazy for wanting to give someone everything and trust them with anything…

Until I find my breakthrough, like Ms. Cho and Mr. Jeon, I will redirect my love to other people, like Mr. Ri did.

I honestly cried with them and for them, and maybe for myself as well.

I guess what I want to say is, your story made me feel so much. It’s been a while since I was glued to my phone reading something.

Thank you for this wonderful story! 💜

Hope you’re having an amazing day, whenever you’ll be reading this! 😊💜

You have no idea how much of a sigh of relief this ask feels.

I think what drained me the most about this story was getting into the characters' hearts and minds in depth, and they don't even get themselves! Half the time, they didn't understand what they were feeling. And that was the point, I feel like - we're all complex, walking contradictions, with so many desires we're afraid to admit and so much love we're terrified of showing and accepting. We want things we need to be brave to have, but we want them too much that we don't want to risk our own hearts for them because of how much it'll hurt. That's how I wrote them, and you sharing your story validates this all.

Like you said, he did not know how to accept my love and I did not know how to express myself better (this thought will matter in s2 if I ever get to write it). OC is just like you - full of love for family and friends, but unable to express the romantic kind bc when she loves, she'll do it with everything and it’s consuming. And trusting that someone will not break you is even harder -> that's exactly her reasoning. It's everything she's scared of. And it's so human, so relatable bc these things aren't easy. But we figure it out somehow; we'll have to trust that things will make sense one day, like it did for them.

SO THANK YOU for sharing this and for dropping by 😊 I can't imagine what losing a decade-long relationship feels like but I hope you're feeling better. I'm sending you hugs. I hope this story was able to give you a bit of comfort and clarity. I wish you well always 💜