#not really information that means anything i just thot it was fun as a fan of Busted - Year 3000 and a fan of Neon Genesis Evangelion

[kira-kui-n]

*tossing and turning in my sleep* no, ,,no youre wrong year 3000 isnt an original jonas brothers song, ,,no, ,,,no its a cover, ,,the original artist is busted, ,,

[cosmictapestry]

just finished prodigal son season 1 here’s some thots and feelings

yesssss unhinged women….. yessss deranged berserker women…. the father’s daughter and the mother’s son that’s the Good Shit!!!

the show’s not good. stylistically, aesthetically, ethically, or otherwise. objectively mediocre. the writing is clunky and contrived to the point of parody even for a procedural drama. extremely predictable and derivative. tries to be a “good show about cops” and succeeded only in making me absolutely certain these types of shows are more insidious than their less-liberal siblings. the dialogue sucks unless one of two things are happening: 1) malcolm decides his trauma and its lingering effects are best utilized as Jokes, and 2) jessica whitly is talking about her bitch-ass ex

now. i Love heavy psychological stuff. that was why someone recommended the show to me in the first place. did it deliver? not exactly. i adore the whitly family who run the Entertaining Mental Health Fuckery spectrum from utterly heartbreaking (malcolm bright) to The funniest shit i’ve ever seen (ainsley whitly). that being said it just didn’t lean into stuff the way it could have. it could have gone Heavier, it could have gone Deeper. and i don’t mean the thing where it kept like… heaping more trauma onto malcolm lmaoooooo poor kid. i mean we could have Stepped Back. WHY did the girl in the box affect malcolm this way. WHY was this SO damaging that it’s implied to be the main instigator for malcolm’s condition. even after recovering other traumatic childhood memories (ones which, as is common with cptsd, were lost. it’s not at all common for those memories to return) it is still the girl in the box who haunts malcolm. i would have loved to go on a deeper dive with that.

that being said. this show handles malcolm’s condition well. he expresses symptoms of his disorder constantly, often without the narrative calling them to attention, which was surprising to me. most obvious are malcolm’s issues with insecure attachment, manifesting as Colossal trust issues, somatization aka his hand tremor, and issues with self-perception. would have liked to see more emphasis on his issues with physical intimacy. i have a lot of Thoughts about his relationship with sex.

i’m willing to bet that ~90% of fic for this show is tagged some variation of #malcolm bright whump

best characters are jessica whitly and edrisa tanaka. jessica is the funniest human being to have ever lived and and edrisa is imo utterly unique. both of them should have killed someone and been utterly unrepentant.

idk if i find malcolm attractive? more than anything he activates my Twink Protection Protocol

i find dani fascinating and think she was completely underutilized. she’s introduced as someone who is stoic and competent and unflappable but who has a seemingly bottomless well of empathy and patience. I Am A Fan Of This. i am so very much a fan of this that i was excited to get like, a complete picture of her. maybe some flashbacks like we get with the whitly family. instead we get three tidbits of personal information: she’s from the bronx, she struggled with addiction, and her father died when she was young. i’m Thinking that she was sidelined on purpose, to keep her whole vibe intact? like, she plays things super close to the chest. but i wanted More. ): one does not just…… drive their new coworker home and help them strap themselves into bed. that’s not like,,,, normal. but she gave no indication she thought anything of it. if it’s JUST because she thinks he’s pretty i’ll accept that explanation because i think it’s funny.

michael sheen was of course delightful. by far the best actor in the show, really just a super fun character. he was obviously having a great time and i love that for him. i like when he was doing the surgery on the cameraman and talking all calm and educational-like :) very scary.

malcolm bright is actually incredibly refreshing for being a Good Boy. like just an all around nice guy. genuinely empathetic and friendly and sweet and kind. and this is from someone who likes when guys are Terrible. he loves his mother and his sister and his father (gil) and he Tries to take care of himself. he Tries not to worry the people who love him and he understands that the best way to do that is to really genuinely get better.

now GIL is attractive. THAT is a man.

eve getting fridged was so funny i’m sorryyyyyy

the slow progression of jt and malcolm’s friendship was sweet :) i want them to have to rely on one another in a life-or-death situation and i want the whole thing to be FRAUGHT with tension

malcolm was mentioned to have narcissistic tendencies at what point and that’s stuck with me because… literally where. being a cocky little asshole isn’t narcissistic. ainsley absolutely has narcissistic tendencies though which is fun.

i might be reading a bit too much into things because that’s what i am good at doing but i could Swear that the writing was nudging towards csa in malcolm’s childhood. i feel like that might even have been the original plan, but that it wouldn’t get green lit for the network, leaving the narrative with… disconcerting hints.

it’s copaganda and it’s not good. if you want a really excellent, well-written, satisfying show about childhood trauma and psychology, Please watch mr robot. i promise it’s everything you could possibly be looking for if prodigal son was the kind of thing that interested you. also it managed to finish its entire planned runtime, 4 seasons, so it’s a complete story and an incredibly thought-provoking narrative.

i'll be annoying about season 2 as well

[emeraldbabygirl]

Hanbin was accused, Hanbin was cleared

Wonho was accused, Wonho was cleared

Woojin was accused. Woojin is cleared

Illhoon was accused. I believe Illhoon too will be cleared.

I can finally speak out on of the things that has been bothering me since the news broke out. At the time it was very scary and stressful as we were dealing with the wildfires in our state at the same time so I was already having a hard time. Woojin was my bias and I never believed he would do something like that. I know everyone says to believe the victim but innocent until proven guilty is still valid and victims lie, it happens often and we all know how fans and antis get sometimes, just like Wonho and Hanbin people will do anything to throw idols under the bus.

The scariest thing for me to see was how quick everyone was in defending Hanbin and Wonho and how quick the same people threw Woojin away, immediately spreading hate and sending death threat and calling him fake and all these names and just obnoxious behaiver. I understand we were all upset but you can’t just believe someone right away with no evidence and so many holes in their story. And sometimes it’s best to wait it out and then make a decision.

It wasn’t just Woojin that was caught up in the whirlwind, Jungwoo, Chanwoo, Hongjoong, Seonghwa and a few more that I can’t remember were also names thrown out from so many people. Their biggest thing was when they claimed he was a member from the big three, had a w and two o’s in his name. This is not a good statement because for one thing Woojin left Stray Kids and JYP so not only was he out of the big 3 but he’s not the only one with those letters in his name. Jungwoo and Chanwoo are also under the big three and have a w and two o’s in their names.

Back when it was so big on Twitter the Jungwoo tags were all stating that Woojin was innocent but the Stray Kids tags were saying he was guilty. Even the supposed person themselves posted one last tweet before delete the account stating it was all fake but no one took that screenshot so people were led to believe it was all fake

And then on the bullying, I’ve seen a lot of videos saying ‘this idol bullying this group’ or ‘this group bullying this member for 8 minutes’ and multiple videos being taken out of context and people claiming that since Woojin doesn’t speak a lot in some videos it’s proof he doesn’t get along and the member don’t like him. Y’all that’s not how things work. Just because you aren’t fully engaged in an activity or if you aren’t getting along doesn’t make you a bully or a bad person, Woojin was going through his own shit and idols lives are hard enough, if they feel out of it sometimes it’s not okay for us to immediately accuse them of such things like ‘they don’t like their members, they don’t get along, they are bullies.’

Idols live together and are around each other often so what you might see as “bullying” might just be them goofing off I mean ffs there is a video titled ‘ATEEZ bullying Seonghwa’ and y’all fine with that because they are only goofing around and teasing each other but you automatically assume from any footage or out of context video of Woojin playing with and teasing the members that he’s a bully. Why are you putting double standards on this? Bullying is a very serious accusation and rumors and spreading false information or any information with no evidence can ruin an idols careers. Tara and Co-Ed School unfortunately we’re big examples of this. The Tara bullying scandal ruined those girls and all the rumors and accusations caused Co-Ed School to disband before anyone could say everything was false. You have to be careful with what you say and what you hear and see cause if it’s not true and everyone believes it is you ruined a whole idols career before it can even be fixed.

Ok so, yes I know everyone says “the victim is always right” and it’s okay if you want to believe that but remember there are two sides to every story and both parties are valid until further evidence or actual evidence and you are able to prove whether or not something actually happened. I had some other things to say but I’ll let those slide and it doesn’t matter not because Woojin is innocent and it’s great news. I’m so relieved because he was my bias and I was so heartbroken when he left and when I heard about the trouble he was going through. I was so afraid to even say Woojin because everyone was censering it, acting like it was a bad name and that’s not fair on Woojin himself and it’s also not fair on the other idols named Woojin because there are at least 5 Woojins so for people to be doing that is like, you’re invalidating the other Woojin’s just because you think one Woojin is bad. Seeing people tag Woojin like w***** or w**jin and woojail and tw woojin is really upsetting and that’s not okay, that’s like bullying, calling him woojail is not okay at all. Pretending his name is a trigger when it’s not and if his name was a trigger than all the idols named Woojin would have that and censoring his name, again you’re invalidating all the other woojins. And everyone that says “ot8 or get the fuck out” or “if you still support Woojin fuck off” like..he’s literally fucking innocent. It was a bunch of Brazilian antis that started all the lies and rumors and after all the stories that don’t make sense and people still think he’s guilty and they are still sending him hate and being absolute assholes towards him. If you don’t want to believe that he’s innocent, if you don’t want to like him fine. Don’t talk about him don’t make a bunch of woojail posts, don’t send him hate or death threats because you’re 1. Making things worse and 2. Care enough about him to make his life miserable which is exactly what antis do and what those antis did. It pisses me off and upsets me how fast everyone just turned on him and they continue to bully him and send him unnecessary hate. Also it’s ok to tag Stray kids and Woojin because he was a member of Stray Kids so don’t give people shit for tagging Stray Kids.

So I’m gonna end this posts educating y’all about the multiple Woojins and it’s okay to say and spell Woojin you guys. It’s alright, you won’t get in trouble. So Woojin, my boy who I miss so so much Kim Woojin who was in Stray Kids, there’s my Thot Woojin from Target, an amazing rapper btw, I do believe there is a Woojin in AB6IX and of course there is the hot Woojin from My.st who just has this whole vibe to him that is dead sexy. Also the Woojin from Teenteen/Ghost9 and also also your gurl found a sexy man, despite me not being into body builders, I found a man on Insta named Kim Woojin and he is definitely a fucking snaCC. So thanks and enjoy the Woojins. I can get back to making my memes again. I’m just sad that I believed and jumped to conclusions and deleted some Woojin posts. But I stopped myself before I deleted all of them

ALSO ALSO recently it’s been pointed out how did Woojin has been and someone described it as what Jonghyun looked like before he left us. Woojin is my boy and I’ve been worrying about him ever since he left Stray Kids and I swear on god Hui and my camera roll if he hurts himself in any way or we lose another wonderful person I will blame Bangchan. I will blame Felix, I will blame JYP and I will blame everyone that started the rumors, the lies, the people that sent Woojin mean messages, death threats, bullying him because you don’t need to like an idol no matter what they do but bullying them and sending unnecessary hate to them is not ok no matter what they did. Even if it’s bad just ignore it because you sending them mean comments doesn’t make you any better. I was already pissed off at fans and everyone else and Bangchan and Felix for all the mean comments and everything else they were doing and I’ll be even more pissed off if this whole situation was too much for him on top of his depression and he ended his life.

Ok you know what, I’m so fucking pissed off over these posts I’m seeing on tumblr and I’m upset and I’m still having thoughts on whether or not I should post this but you know what. I don’t care. It’s my blog, it’s my opinion and it’s my feelings that I need to get off my chest. Kim Woojin is innocent and if I get any hate of any kind my stomach will do flips but y’all should know better especially if you don’t agree with me so have fun I guess I’ll probably delete or block you so I don’t have to hear your meany-ness. It’s my opinion, my post and my blog and if you don’t like it then I have nothing to say to you.

[bigbrotherorre]

episode one: “TODAY WE LEARNED UNLESS BRYCE FEELS LIKE THE PRETTIEST GIRL AT THE DANCE EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY DAY, YOU'RE NOT DOING ENOUGH” - AUTUMN hoh: BRYCE evicted: ROXY - 13 to 3

Okay WOOOO. So hey, I'm here doing a DR pre-season, because? I am cracked, a mess and SOOO EXCITED. Also, I looked up fun words, to find something to use as my confessional codeword, and "brouhaha" means "a noisy and overexcited reaction or response to something" WHICH IS SO APPROPRIATE. So woo, enjoy the brouhaha that is my excitement for this season. I just wanna say a couple of things: 1) Nicholas and Julia posting those clock gifs is gonna make my head fall off, thats so scary. If it means past season twists like someone said in the VL, I'm NERVY. RoseGold POVs are my biggest fear, and I know there was a season where prejury was all about them so YIKES. Calling it now, I'm gonna get sent home by a rosegold PoV. 2) Emily and Lukas was such an iconic F2, no matter whomst the F2 is in Orre, we will never match them 3) I wanna make some pre-season picks of who I expect to see cast, that way if they win, I can take total credit. I'm feeling like Raffy, Sammy and Aren might be in the cast, based on literally nothing khajsdfla. Raffy as a player terrifies me (I was also the person who brought him into this community so whew), but he gets CRACKED so whew! Aren is a scorpio so we stan. ANYWHO. I'm so excited for this season, its gonna be a HOOOOOT.

Wooh so ready for the season to start!!!

Hola, did you miss me? This is going to be me reflecting back on my Johto experience and trying to point out the mistakes I made, and how this game will be different. (this is before cast reveal) The first mistake I did in Johto was go against the premade. I was wary of Connor and Ari, and I thought painting the target on the returnee wouldnt only be easy but would be successful. And then I found out that I couldn't, and then Connor made friends with everybody on my team and fucked me over in the long run. The second mistake I did in Johto was being messy. A prime example was making pseudo "alliance" chats in order to sway the vote for people to keep me. This proved to be unsuccessful. I also had a mental breakdown like every night, so that just buried me more. The third mistake I did in Johto was throw the veto the week I was nominated. I felt like I couldve won it but I decided to study for my test. I didnt compete in the pov that i  shouldve won. SO now its time to do what I need to do for my redemption is quite simple. The last 3 ORGs ive played for BB i have made 2nd, 4th, and 3rd. And I learned quite a lot To negate my first mistake I'm not going to publicly target anbody. I will join the mob mentality to ensure my safety in early weeks. To negate my second mistake I am going to keep all my alliances as 1on1s. No alliances bigger than 3 people, and make sure to keep whatever information I have to myself. I will not snake out any information. To negate my third mistake is to try in all competitions. I will not throw anything I will not submit for anything unless I really cant. If I give it my all and still leave I can't beat myself up that bad. I'm nervous, but I'm ready. These freaks aren't gonna know what hit them.

Okay one hour to premiere! The fact that I've made two DRs pre-season? thats wild. I am gonna give a go at predicting the cast, based on... borderline nothing, beyond paranoia: Veronica Constance Raffy Autumn Olivia Eddie Elmo Hals Sammy Aren Those are guesses I'm confident in, so I'm gonna stick to that! Lets see if I get anyone right ajlkdsfas

Okay this isn't as bad as i thought except i'm a hot ass mess and messaged a picture into the house chat and i'm about to DIE

wut in the FUCK is happening who the hell are these people theyre mental all of them. nice to see sammy and ali though i fucking love them but i am terrified of playing with ali i literally said to my host chat 3 hrs before the game started "please say its all newbies so im not playing with zeezo" AND SHES HERE WTF

omg this FREAKING CAST IS WILD and i'm not gonna lie i'm a little worried that i might fight over half of them before the second week is finished...

not gonna lie seeing ashvika and roxy made me wanna kill myself but also i'm totally dying at the sight of ZEEZO AND BRYCE <3 also THIS COMP FREAKING SUCKS i need to find a group of friends asap so i don't flop. i'm gonna try to bring together bryce, zeezo, sammy, kat, and maybe ricky.... either gonna be lit or bite me in the ass

Hi!!! Y'all casted way too many people but it's ok cause I really like everyone so far whew. Also I really will do my intro video I swear... first thing tomorrow lmao 

THIS SHIT IS OVERWHELMING AF! SOOOO MANY FREAKIN PPL IM TALKIN TOO! I LIKE MOST OF THEM but som im like k. then like the call i do not want to join bc shit they cracked af! hopefully its not my undoing but i feel like my social is pretty strong atm.  #BBgameEVER

i'm just happy that ashvika is willing to put our unnecessarily tragic rivalry behind us and play this game right this time around. hopefully we'll be able to keep up the "we hate each other" look in the house chat and such so we can actually WORK TOGETHER this time. obvi i love her, and i just want the backstabbing madness to stop. hopefully she really has put out past behind her bc i'm ready to move on. like we're both pretty, we need to stick together. also shook that i talked to blake the longest today in pms???? like???? okay??? bryce and i look like we're in this for the long haul, hopefully we aren't first and second boot!! bc i have a weird feeling imma be pre-jury for some reason dsgdf

Night 1 Thots: Short term goal? to be as pathetic as possible. Probaly shouldn't have told alivia so soon that I was johnchen from bbtc world as after watching her intro vid. the could come back to bite me. Ryan seems like someone who I can ride on his coat tails for a while to get my foot in this game. So short term I need to be as pathetic as possible and hope this julia/bryce/sammy thing from house of shade starts to erupt.

me at alivia

Really regretting making my code word tractor.. Not a fan.  But um me and alivia talked for like 4 hours and we're both legends. We have a cute google sheet bet ur all jealous. Her and ashvika are gonna pretend that they hate each other but they dont actually!! How fun. Hope i dont slip and blow their covers JKDFHKSJD. Everyone seems to know everyone which is scary. When i first saw Jela and Julia were cast I was scared that theyd target me b/c we had a rough introduction, but honestly theyre legends. Idk why i told jela i was missing a left toe.. but i did and now idk what to do about that whole thing. Maybe ill say i got drunk and dont remember saying that but it isnt true.. IDK WHAT TO DO. But um yaa happy to see zeezo here too but scared ppl will think we're a duo but honestly I dont think ppl will. Um I should do a cast first impression thing wooh! Ricky: Played my first tumblr game with him but dont really know him. Seemed nice but not much there Randy: seems like a legend. Poc king. Um talked to him and he wanted to know more about me but wouldnt talk about himself so!! Idk hope we talk more seems fun. Julia: Um called me out. Called me fat. Fun tho!! Seems untrustworthy but no bad blood. Roxy: Talked a bit, um shes fun?? Dont think she likes me Ashvika: how can one girl be so pretty??? Shes smart too. Like i want to hate how perfect she is. The type of girl to throw my game away for tho so I need to make sure I dont!! Alivia: how can one girl be so pretty??? Shes smart too. Like i want to hate how perfect she is. The type of girl to throw my game away for tho so I need to make sure I dont!!  Honestly want to go to the end with her tho so I just am gonna have to make sure I outplay her so we can be f2. Bryce: ugly cast pic. Is he even a poc??? Zeezo: THE LOML I LOVE HER SO MUCH. we both seem to be working together so im happy. Hope to work with her and have her carry me in comps. She will beat lachies record. #menareover Kat: wish she was jade ;(. JK!! Love her so much already. She is so nice and fun and like just seems like a great person. Honestly shes gonna mist me too. Jose: Epicmafia king. We never work together and always betray each other so... first chance for everything??? He seems fun tho love him hope he slays (less than me tho) Sammy: I literally love him hes so nice but i never pm him so thats awk KDSJFHDKSj hope that this game changes that!! Lynn: Legend. Loves hufflepuff, hates middle school. Like I think we click but i know her and blake are like super close so idk if shed ever be closer with me but i hope so b/c shes just like.. amazing!! Saxon: Talks a lot. About himself. Maybe itll change when i talk to him more. Likes super hero movies so wooh i guess. Jela: Thought she hated me but maybe now she doesnt. Shes really funny actually so hopefully we can be allies. Blake: know that hes super smart and good at the game but like he got rekt by queen tara so maybe ill do that to him. We talked but it was bland but guess ill push through it Dennis: So his name is annoying to spell so had to change that quick. Kind of hate him??? But hes fun!!! Didnt know carly rae jepsen made music still so like the stan in me wanted to hang up the call on him. BUT then he msged me asking for carly songs to listen to so like.. love him now. Cant believe he knew all the social game hed need with me was just pretending to like my queen Autumn: We talked about her past games and it was basically me fangirlling about her ENDING eddie LOL. think we can work together because we both like intersectional feminism John: Tried talking to him but didnt go anywhere. But im gonna make it work!! Ive decided we'll be close so wooh Olivia: took 2 hours to respond to me. like musicals tho. kept ignoring me tho. Alivia outsold. Ali: PURE KING. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. NO ONE IS BETTER. I COULD NEVER TURN AGAINST HIM. SO IM GONNA NEED OTHERS TO DO IT FOR ME. Love his dog even tho i misgendered her but it wont happen again. Think we'll be close. reptiles stick together!!

WHEWIE. Okay I tried filming a video confessional, but my thoughts are such a mess, so I've decided writing it out will be considerably more coherent. YIKES SO. This season is already so wild, like this cast.... is gonna be a lot. I already can tell this season is going to have lots of fights and I don't know... how ready I am for that eeeek. But otherwise, my illiteracy means I don't understand the lottery twist so I love that. The returnee twist is fun though, like I feel like at the start of games, I go into panic mode, so having returnees I can go to about that, might make them feel like I'm an easy number and that they want to work with me? The people I knew before this season (like I'd actually spoken to): Bryce, Julia, Ashvika, Autumn & Olivia (I loosely knew Ricky, Blake & Sammy too) Within the game itself, the people I've had the best conversations with are Jose, Kat, Olivia, Ashvika & John. Olivia is like one of my favourite people in the community, and also a super good player so I'd love to work with her. I also think the fact that we are friends is something nobody in the cast should know (I think) so thats fun. Jose was such a big threat/player last season, and the vibe I get from him this time is he wants to tone that down? I'm not good at working with super cracked people, so him being slightly in the middle between UTR and cracked, will make him a super good person to work with I think. He is also the only person I've like...talked game with, even though its super limited, just that I wanna work with him. I'm a weirdo and watched all the Alola cast assessment stuff, and it sounds like Kat was playing really well, but got stuck in a funky position and couldn't recover, so I think she is gonna be a major threat this time and I'd love to work with her too woooo. Ashvika is a queen. Just plain and simple. She is so wholesome and nice, and already seems loosely on the same page as me, so thats iconic. John scares me ajkhsdfaslf. i think he is a total newbie, and I also think he is gonna get super cracked, and thats.... scary asdkjflas Dennis I just started talking to properly, he is in my timezone-ish, so that will be good for my sleeping pattern if he ever wins HoH or anything, but I worry he may struggle to make connections, so I'm not sure how much he can help me as an ally? The others I'm gonna try and do more rapid fire, since this confessional is already massive hjkasdflsaf: Alivia: Really really nice! We haven't spoken all that much, but she seems super friendly and she was really loyal in Unova, which makes me feel good about maybe working with her? Also Ali in the name? we love legends Ricky: Ricky is.... an interesting one ljaksdfla. He is a fun personality to have around, so I hope he sticks around. I'm not sure how invested he will be in any of these games, but I hope he gives it a good go woo Randy: Randy is gonna be such a threat already I can tell sahkjfdla Also he lowkey scares me, because whenever I would start pm'ing people on call yesterday, he would run to my pms asking why I wasnt pm'ing him which freaked me out sjkadflas. He seems fun though, and Dom stans him so we stan Julia (The Witch): An icon. A legend. An inspiration. Also terrifying skjahdfla. She mentioned all stars on call yesterday and my heart stopped, because I hated how I was in that game and dont want it talked about. I think she is gonna fight people and I don't especially want to get on her bad side! Roxy: Havent spoken to her much, it might be tricky talking to her, since we are both in weird timezones, we will see Bryce: A SWEETHEART. I love Bryce soo much. We worked together in a mini once, and it was super fun, so I'd love to work with him more. Zeezo: She seems super nice! I don't really know her, beyond that she is POVzo and probably a comp threat, but I think she will be fun. I know her and Bryce are friends so we will see where that goes jahdfka Sammy: Super nice! I loosely know him, but he seems like he will be good fun. I havent spoken to him much, so I hope he is gonna be active rip Lynn: I know of her from Moheli, and I know her and Blake were ride or dies which I am wary off.... Otherwise, she has been super quiet and I could see her.... potentially going early rip a queen Saxon: FUDGE. I havent spoken to him at all which is scary, since I feel like he probably already knows a lot of this cast, so if he wins RIP me I guess. Otherwise, he seems like a fun personality so wooo Jelaminah: Ummm. She is wild. Like really wild. I think I stan her, but I also am like.... concious that she is a lot, and its sometimes too much for me. I'm a bit annoyed by her tbh, but its just because she was like laughing at people's sexualities, as if she didnt believe them, and thats super ugly, but I couldn't exactly say anything to her. I think she is gonna be a super dominant personality, but whew we will see. Blake: I know he was a big player in Moheli, but I think he also rubbed people the wrong way.... We will see how he does, he seems iconic Autumn: A QUEEN. She is the most inactive so far which is worrying. I don't want her to go early. I could really see her going up this week, but maybe us two havent talked much, since she is just comfortable in our relationship? AND WHEW. Thats everything, if anyone read this, I love you for that. Otherwise, wooo I'm super nervous, I love my DR guests Owen and Emily and eek. We will see!

ahhh okay so, I’m super excited about meeting new people....BUT...this cast is so huge and I’m so nervous. I like everyone for the most part and I’ve been trying to like talk to some people I’ve played with in the past to maybe smoothe over some bad relationships? The only person I’m still like nervous about is Julia because she kills the straight men and she hates Gemini’s. AND WHAT AM I? A STRAIGHT MALE GEMINI. I don’t think she’s very good at comps tho and I know she would go for Bryce before me. Anyway I seriously love Kat because she is so genuine and I just want to work with her. Also I want to work with alivia, roxy, zeezo, Olivia, randy, Jela, ricky, and autumn! There’s a few others as well but I’ll prob do like a video DR and talk about how I feel about everyone...who knows.

Jose is officially my showmance and we stan asjdkfaslf. He is so nice and my favourite new person I've met in the cast anyway, and he won lots of comps last season so I'm ready for him to drag me to the end dlakjfasfa.

bryce better not fucking put me up or i'm gonna SHOOT 

wow so happy bryce is HoH!!!! perfect week one :$

I am actually really happy that bryce won this HOH bc that means my ass hole is safe! PRaise BE. MY showmance that was made by ALIVIA has saved my ass and partly to me sorta already knowing him through tara! BITHCH TARA LOLOVE UR ASSSS. ANd shoot idk what these gays are lookin at but ppl be sayin they think im cute. maybe its like when i look at a potato or like  a waffle fry??  who knows ahaha but like some of these boys be good lookin like damn. hit me and my crocs up boys ;P

I am not a bottom. ya dumb bitch

Bryce is nomming me for not playing in the hoh. Gurl gurl im not a newb who would buy up that excuse

Just say we arent alligned and im good with the other players and id belive you why would i buy that you, a player whose played a few games by now, would nom someone for abstainimg

Okay SO. I filmed a video confessional earlier, but its already super out of date so its time for an update! I have spoken to lots of people that I hadn't talked to since premiere night which is good, Alivia & Kat are so nice! Jose is, as always a king, and I think (other than Olivia) he is my closest ally rn, so woo we stan. Otherwise, I spoke to Bryce, and it seems like (praise be), I'm not getting nominated, WOO! He says he is nominating Roxy/Autumn, with Julia getting the future shock thingie. Like I told him, the future shock is kind of like a curse and we know Julia loves a good curse, so its a good matchup aljdfkas. Otherwise, these nominations make sense. I LOVE Autumn, but she has been the quietest person in the cast, so I assume she is gonna go first rip. Roxy I have spoken to a fair bit, but I know she is in a funky timezone, which probably throws off her ability to be active. Bryce seemed like he was being pretty open with me, so I hope I'm not the backup plan if somebody comes off. I feel like my social game is pretty strong so I wouldnt have thought people in the house would push for me as a renom and eI'd be suprised if I get nominated! Last but not least, the unfortunate thing is how MENINIST these nominations are akjsdfla, we are really putting the orre in discriminatorrey.

First DR of the game. I'm not going to do first impressions because I'm not that dry. The game started when I was put in this bitch, so I'm here to go at full force. I'm going to play a strong balance of a great 1 on 1 social game while still being a great personality people love. As of right now I'm being constantly dragged and roasted, and I wouldn't want it any other way. (But this is before HOH so the claws are bound to come over) So my game has been very social as of right now. Before HoH I focused on making genuine connections. I'm good with all the returnees at this point. None of them have beef with me, and I made it clear that I want to work with all of them (while this is farther from the truth). I'm just being diplomatic because there's some tension between the returnees that will have to be released soon. With the returnees I connected automatically with Zeezo. Me and her didnt even small talk its was just game talk from moment one. Thats a great relationship to have, and I'm definitely maintaining it. Jose and Alivia have been talking to me more. Jose has been more open with working with me than Alivia so : \\. All the returnees from Kanto-Sinnoh are here because theyre entertaining, the bitches from Unova-Alola would be casted for redemption but don't meet the criteria. I made an alliance with Jelaminah and Ricky. This is mostly because I need to be on Jelaminah's good side because I know the bitch knows how to play. So i would rather be scheming with her than against her. Ricky is just a number. On housecalls I saw that Jela was talking to Julia a lot. So I started talking to Julia a lot more. I surprisingly trust her a lot more than I thought I would. So me and her aren't beefing, but her and Bryce are. HOS20 affects this game because Julia and Saxon are aligned in this game and they're against Bryce and Sammy as of right now. I know Julia can drop a vendetta, but Saxon is just horrible about it. And I hate Saxon so much. He just gives me second hand embarassment and i dont know why. Like I'm so happy I've trained myself to hold my tongue because the shit he wears on housecalls actually make me laugh. He posted a picture of him shirtless and it was literally looking at rotten spam meat. Its not cute, and he is just so prude in pms because he obviously doesnt want to talk to me. I can make a separate DR about Saxon because he brings out all the hate and all the angst I had when I was in Johto. But going back to the topic Julia fought Sammy and Bryce ig and Saxon thinks Julia is right because he's a kissass and is a savvy feminist. I love Julia so her having beef isnt good. I talked to her and she said she didnt have good relations with Olivia, Bryce, Sammy, and Autumn. And i was shocked that this game is so against her, but this is great information because its something I can utilize. But those are her problems, and they dont affect me. If she wants to play with me she's gonna have to fix amends or take them out 1 by 1First DR of the game. I'm not going to do first impressions because I'm not that dry. The game started when I was put in this bitch, so I'm here to go at full force. I'm going to play a strong balance of a great 1 on 1 social game while still being a great personality people love. As of right now I'm being constantly dragged and roasted, and I wouldn't want it any other way. (But this is before HOH so the claws are bound to come over) So my game has been very social as of right now. Before HoH I focused on making genuine connections. I'm good with all the returnees at this point. None of them have beef with me, and I made it clear that I want to work with all of them (while this is farther from the truth). I'm just being diplomatic because there's some tension between the returnees that will have to be released soon. With the returnees I connected automatically with Zeezo. Me and her didnt even small talk its was just game talk from moment one. Thats a great relationship to have, and I'm definitely maintaining it. Jose and Alivia have been talking to me more. Jose has been more open with working with me than Alivia so : \\. All the returnees from Kanto-Sinnoh are here because theyre entertaining, the bitches from Unova-Alola would be casted for redemption but don't meet the criteria. I made an alliance with Jelaminah and Ricky. This is mostly because I need to be on Jelaminah's good side because I know the bitch knows how to play. So i would rather be scheming with her than against her. Ricky is just a number. On housecalls I saw that Jela was talking to Julia a lot. So I started talking to Julia a lot more. I surprisingly trust her a lot more than I thought I would. So me and her aren't beefing, but her and Bryce are. HOS20 affects this game because Julia and Saxon are aligned in this game and they're against Bryce and Sammy as of right now. I know Julia can drop a vendetta, but Saxon is just horrible about it. And I hate Saxon so much. He just gives me second hand embarassment and i dont know why. Like I'm so happy I've trained myself to hold my tongue because the shit he wears on housecalls actually make me laugh. He posted a picture of him shirtless and it was literally like  looking at rotten spam meat. Its not cute, and he is just so prude in pms because he obviously doesnt want to talk to me. I can make a separate DR about Saxon because he brings out all the hate and all the angst I had when I was in Johto. But going back to the topic Julia fought Sammy and Bryce ig and Saxon thinks Julia is right because he's a kissass and is a savvy feminist. I love Julia so her having beef isnt good. I talked to her and she said she didnt have good relations with Olivia, Bryce, Sammy, and Autumn. And i was shocked that this game is so against her, but this is great information because its something I can utilize. But those are her problems, and they dont affect me. If she wants to play with me she's gonna have to fix amends or take them out 1 by 1. Until then I'm going to spend my time with investments that are bound to pay off. Which are with the newbies. I've been spending a lot of time on Blake because Blake lives 20 minutes away from me. I'm trying to hold this down as secret as possible. He likes me, and I want to work with him so I'm just going to continue our friendship and ensure that we're a duo. He doesn't talk a lot in the housechat which is concerning to me, but he does hold very strong one on one relations with most of the house. Lynn is also a south carolina native, and she is just so infectious. She is very intimidated by the large cast meaning that she hasnt bonded that well with a lot of people. So i put two and two together and made a South Carolina alliance. I know Blake is genuine about it. But the main purpose of this alliance is to keep Lynn under my sphere of influence. I can't have no newbies on my side. No ma'am Another newbie who stands out for me is John. John is just really active, and such a social threat. Meaning that his word has saying. So far my relationship with him has been "hey let literally help you with anything and expect nothing in return". With him im trying to show myself as a puppet, or somebody who is very very useful with him. And I actually showed that this week when Bryce won HOH. Won't lie I didnt want but also wanted HOH at the same time. When Bryce won it I was very wary of what was going to happen. Then John comes up to me saying that Bryce is thinking of nominating him. And since I had a decent bond with Bryce I know that I had to save John. So when Bryce talked to me he was dead set as Roxy as the initial nom and target, and Julia for safety this week.  Then he mentioned that he was on the fence because he didnt know if he wanted Autumn or John nominated. So I told him the truth that it would be silly to nominate somebody as active as John. And so John wasn't nominated. I stuck my neck out for John and was one of the reasons he isn't nominated this week. And these game things build genuine trust since I'm not just talking to talk. I'm walking to walk and this game isn't ready for Randyy.

Hello ladies and gentlemen you're looking at the first nominee of the season waysup

Imma get to the bottom of this so ain't even worried. I just feel bad y'all didn't even get one happy confessional from me. We just jumped straight into poppin off. That's ok though! Nice for what am i rite

Bryce is full of shit and I'm embarrassed for him. Like who makes an enemy out of me on Day fucking 3? Really my guy? That's the first thing you thought of when you had 19 people to pick from? Apparently I'm getting nominated because the other 18 people in the cast talked to Bryce yesterday and I didn't. Not only do I not buy that, but we just not gonna acknowledge the fact that I talked to him on 2 of the 3 days the game has been going on so far? K cool. Today we learned unless Bryce feels like the prettiest girl at the dance every minute of every day, you're not doing enough Also can we talk about how the "I'm so happy to play with you I always root for you" energy that Bryce was selling to me on day one didn't even last a round? Hiigghkey I feel like the people who know me in the cast are secretly happy cause they know I'm petty enough to take Bryce out and I'll have no problem taking the fall for it. Ali, Ashvika, Sammy, Julia, Olivia- they know I don't play that shit. Can you imagine being first HOH, using it on me, and then thinking I'm not mad at you because I "understand" that nominating me was "the easiest thing to do"?

SHIT YOUR BOI JUST DID THAT TONIGHT! IF U KNOW YOU KNOW. 😜😂

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woo I'm on call with Autumn, Sammy, Jela & Dennis. THEY ARE SO FUN. I am back on the Jela stan train, she is actually super nice! I think I want Autumn to stay this week (and I think she could too)! Roxy is super sweet, but Autumn is a queen and the queen stays queen! Oh, I'm not using the veto too, its way too early to make a move and I don't know who would go up instead. I'm still SHRIEKING that I won that veto somehow kjlasdfa

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[5/9/18, 2:45:32 PM] Blake Sanders: do you want money?? [5/9/18, 2:45:41 PM] Blake Sanders: BC THE MONEY WANTS YOU! [5/9/18, 2:45:43 PM] alivia: do you wanna be rich??? [5/9/18, 2:45:53 PM] Blake Sanders: ^^^^^^ RICH [5/9/18, 2:45:58 PM] Blake Sanders: not just driving nice car rich [5/9/18, 2:46:07 PM] Blake Sanders: I mean using cheeta fur as toilet paper rich! [5/9/18, 2:46:15 PM] alivia: 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 [5/9/18, 2:48:20 PM] alivia: YOUVE BEEN HAND SELECTED [5/9/18, 2:48:31 PM] alivia: BECAUSE WE THINK YOU HAVE WHAT IT TAKES [5/9/18, 3:07:19 PM] rixxy 🦄: Hi I just got off work [5/9/18, 3:07:23 PM] rixxy 🦄: what the FUCK is this? [5/9/18, 3:07:33 PM] alivia: DO YOU WANT MONEY??? [5/9/18, 3:07:52 PM] rixxy 🦄: i'm scared but absolutely [5/9/18, 3:07:58 PM] Blake Sanders: FUCK YA! [5/9/18, 3:07:58 PM] alivia: WE WANT YOUR HELP SCAMMING THIS HOUSE! [5/9/18, 3:08:09 PM] alivia: it’s good to be a little scared [5/9/18, 3:08:12 PM] rixxy 🦄: I definitely don't like where this is going. [5/9/18, 3:08:12 PM] Blake Sanders: MONEY WERE GOIN TO RULE THIS AND MAKE MONEY [5/9/18, 3:08:26 PM] Blake Sanders: BUT U WILL RIXXY [5/9/18, 3:08:31 PM] rixxy 🦄: god [5/9/18, 3:08:34 PM] Blake Sanders: <3 [5/9/18, 3:09:00 PM] lynnt: yes [5/9/18, 3:09:53 PM] alivia: you’re gonna be rich so you gotta live rich [5/9/18, 3:11:57 PM] Blake Sanders: There’s like a joining fee [5/9/18, 3:12:01 PM] alivia: yep [5/9/18, 3:12:09 PM] alivia: like scientology [5/9/18, 3:12:21 PM] alivia: but like this is real [5/9/18, 3:12:56 PM] rixxy 🦄: i'm not paying for this [5/9/18, 3:13:01 PM] rixxy 🦄: is this like a legit game thing? [5/9/18, 3:13:03 PM] rixxy 🦄: bc [5/9/18, 3:13:07 PM] lynnt: then imma opt out b/c this rich bitch is cheap and that’s why i’m rich [5/9/18, 3:13:55 PM] Blake Sanders: I mean we legit love u guys [5/9/18, 3:14:07 PM] rixxy 🦄: is this an alliance [5/9/18, 3:14:12 PM] rixxy 🦄: bc i'm uncomfortable and confused [5/9/18, 3:14:35 PM] alivia: woah woah woah [5/9/18, 3:14:41 PM] alivia: everyone calm down [5/9/18, 3:15:09 PM] alivia: don’t worry about the money. you can pay the joining fee AFTER we’re rich [5/9/18, 3:15:15 PM] alivia: don’t worry [5/9/18, 3:15:16 PM] rixxy 🦄: like i'm actually having an anxiety attack can you RATMEME.PNG literally..... WHAT???? blake and i were talking and started joking about being scammers bc sdfkal and then i was like "we should start a scammer alliance" and that's how it all started. we thought it would be SO funny if we just added them to a chat and started trolling them about scamming houseguests out of their money dljgdkfjg and i thought MAYBE lynn and ricky would be confused at first but ricky literally lost his mind like ooops my bad WE THOUGHT WE WERE FUNNY BUT I GAS NOT. [5/9/18, 3:16:08 PM] alivia: it’s a joke but kind of an alliance [5/9/18, 3:16:21 PM] alivia: but mostly a joke [5/9/18, 3:16:44 PM] rixxy 🦄: i literally thought i got dragged into some kind of game twist and i wouldn't play my own game god [5/9/18, 3:17:08 PM] alivia: omg WHAT [5/9/18, 3:17:19 PM] alivia: LITERALLY THE BIGGEST JOKE NOT SERIOUS [5/9/18, 3:17:25 PM] alivia: IMSORFY [5/9/18, 3:17:28 PM] rixxy 🦄: like i thought it was some saboteur/team america bullshit [5/9/18, 3:17:35 PM] alivia: omg noooo [5/9/18, 3:17:42 PM] rixxy 🦄: all i want to do is play the game and i literally thought that was snatched from me [5/9/18, 3:17:50 PM] alivia: HOW??? [5/9/18, 3:18:17 PM] rixxy 🦄: idk i thought y'all were a twist sdksksksksks sdfjsdl wow fuck me i gas??? my social game is really off to a great start!!! gotta get ricky outta here asap now

Right now i am on CAll with SAMMY SAM bc im bad at talking to multiple people at a time! SOOOOOO SAMMY is like wanting to be ym ally but like do i trust his ass??

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okayyyyy so this is definitely something different like bb is hard tbh. there's too many people to talk to and i just really don't care about continuing to keep up a convo with some of them but you have to or bye bye. i have definitely not been as social as most and that is def scary but the people that i have talked to and made connections are super nice. so that's why i was so glad when the people that won HOH and POV are people i talked to. uuhHHuh i have no fucking clue who i want to evict tonight so that's fun! ya know autumn is super nice and chill but she did go dark for a while and roxy is super fun and i still haven't heard ANY singing and i want to and she is campaigning really hard so she really wants to stay BUT since she's campaigning so hard to stay and kinda saying anything to EVERYONE who knows what she'll do to stay in the game later on. idk is it too early to be thinking about later in the game?? idkkk thanks for coming to my rambling ted talk. find out next time on if i've decided.

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OK SOOOO the eviction is coming up tonight and its either going to be Autumn or Roxy! NOw autumn is a super sweet queen but i feel like she will kill me if need be! but i still lvoe her! now roxy she is fighting for her life like she is making me promises i think she will not be able to keep. bc ive heard form other hosue guests she is making the same promises to them. NOW i love talkin to her about food and cooking but i feel awful that im most likely going to evict her! but o well it has to be done im glad its not me

i feel like i should give like a summary of like where i am with everyone and how i feel about them all before the first eviction! ALI: Well i first knew him because he reached out to me about a game he is gonna host. He like doesn't talk to me much which makes me nervous... I like him a lot but looks like we are just acquaintances atm. ALIVIA: OK I FREAKIN LOVE HER! SHE IS HILARIOUS! WE STARTED A ALLIANCE CHAT CALLED SCAMMERS R' US AND RICKY LEGIT FREAKED THE FUCK OUT AND WE WERE ALL LIKE WTF JUST HAPPENED HE IS INSANE! i hope i get to work with her a lot during this game and talk about ice cream! But i do see her stabbing me in the back later on so ill prob strike first. LOVE YA ASHVIKA: now this girl is a goddess she is beauty and she is grace! we talk like avg and stuff we have small chats nothing about gamewise. I see her as not being a threat as in targeting people or winning HOH i see her as a social threat. I think she will go far but not win she will def be jury. I think she is amazing tho and shes a model soo like i want to be her. AUTUMN: Now Autumn is a delight to be around so sweet and seems so pure but she will kill me i just know it. She's the beautiful flower in the garden that turns into a man eating plant <3 she is temptation and i may fall for it BLAKE: ive been told i was a certified good boy BRYCE: Now i knew him b4 this game bc of my friend TARA LOVE YOU BITCH <3 ! i think he will keep me around but idk if our bond is tight enough. i dont think he will choose to evict me yet. but other thsn that i want to work on having a closer bond with him for sure! DENNIS: I like dennis he just iidk theres not alot to say? me adn him talk about video games and stuff but whenever i talk to him i like forget like why im talkin to him lol! but he is super chill! JELAMINAH: THIS WOMAN <3 IS AMAZINGLY FUNNYY! SHE IS ONE PERSONALITY I WANT TO GET ON MY SIDE~! she is hilarious amd an amazing person i want to work with her sooo bad! i talk to her in oms sometimes but she is more of a on call person i believe or she just doesn't wanna talk to me ahah . O AND JELA I TAKE BACK TO WHO I THINK THE CUTEST BOY HERE IS ! JOHN : I love john! me and him talk trash about  random things and it is hilarious! i hope he feels as close to me as i am to him! i feel like we can work together in the long run. JOSE: Ive only talked to Jose just a little bit so im worried if he ever wins HOH bc i may be nominated! so i better get my ass into high gear and talk to him more. other than that i remebr him as the guy who someone hit his fence with a car. JULIA: NOW i have heard things about this girl! like that she is ana amzing player and i better watch out for her! IM SO SORRY JULIA BUT U R ON MY HITLIST! AND SADLY U NEVER U LEFT ME ON READ IN MY PMS RUDE~! KAT:I WAS SO WORRIED ABOUT KAT BUT WE JUST STARTED TALKING TODAY AND WE HELPED names each others plants! she is a precious person and i love her! she is so funny! i want to work with her for this game! LYNN: YALL THIS IS MY BITCH ! I LOVE YOU LYNN WE PLAYED IN MOHELI TOGETHER AND AFTER THAT IT WAS HISTORY WE BECAME BEST FRIENDS VISITING EACH OTHER AND STUFF! SHE ONLY LIED 2 HOURS FROM ME WHEN I WENT TO SCHOOL I SAW HER ALL THE TIME! I AM MOST DEF WORKING WITH HER! SHE IS MY BESTFRIEND! <3 LOVE U OLIVIA: OK WELL IDK MUCH bout her. ummmm i talked to her a little im ttrying to become her ally but its not really workign she wont talk to meee!! RANDY: omg i have not heard good things about him.... i shouldve been told these things sooner omg! i feel like he hates me he might! we live in the same city and live like 15 mins away! omg rip rip rip . he goes to my old highdchool! thats crazy af! im working wiht him rn but i i think im going to nom him in the middle of the game or try to get him out around then. sorry randy! also hes been giving me the cold shoulder and not talkin to me which is rude. adnwe r in an alliance chat bro. come on really... RICKY: TBh u annoy me. everything i like u say its dumb or u don't like it. i say goodmorning/afternoon to u adn u say its morning its not even close to afternoon whatre u doing. AND IM LIKE WTF HAV U NEVER HEARD OF TIMEZONES! LIKE HELLLLLO! damn just we are not compatible people and well if i ever win HOH ill prob nom him. ROXY: DAMN BITCH I CAUGHT U IN A LIE AND U DONT KNOW ABOUT IT! THIS IS THE REAOSN IM VOTIN TO EVICT U IM SORRY OMG IM GOIN TO MISS TALKIN TO U ABOUT FOOD! ur sooo sweet omg and u hav a lovely voice! SAMMY: I have been told not to trust him bc he is a snake. But shit he is one of my closest allies now! like we talked for hours on call and watched survivor it was such a cute little date! GOD i hope he doesnt betray me ill cry so much! i mean he might but like i dont wanna back stab him.... yet <3 SAXON: who r u?? talked like never. ur probably nice?? ZEEZO: Girl u be freakin lynn out with eveyrhting u saying to and about her! soo idk like aht to do wiht u ahahah prob get u nominated?? SORRY IM A LOSER AND DIDNT MAKE A VID I LOOK LIKE A THUMB ATM <3

what bitch Randy, 3:05 PM hola 3:05 PM you never sent me a pm Randy, 3:05 PM ur coll bc you aint never talk about interesting shit 3:05 PM uh huh Randy, 3:05 PM tf am i supposed to reply to "yea" 3:06 PM sorry I'm not your source of entertainment you twink I was busy with my life Randy, 3:06 PM wow this is something we can TALK ABOUT Randy, 3:06 PM what did you do I kinda snapped sorry Randy

Are u gonnaget ur tattoo coloured? :0 or will it be lines? Rn im hungry waiting for ma burger heh 9:21 PM It’s just lines henny 👑, 9:23 PM Sweet! What inspires the one u chose? 👑, 6:35 AM Hey saxon! I wanted to wait to speak to you in person but im tired and sorta not feeling well so i cant stay up. I wouls love it id you vote me to stay!! I really enjoy this game and im a p loyal ally! Im active and have jackbox too xd. Ill try be up at least 2 hours bfr eviction if you wanna chat about the vote! 👑, 3:03 PM Morning 3:03 PM Hiya 👑, 3:03 PM Hows it going? 3:04 PM fine busy 👑, 3:04 PM Ripp with what m? 3:05 PM a 5 page paper 👑, 3:06 PM Ew Wtf 3:06 PM ye 👑, 3:06 PM Just quit school. Death sound sbetter than that Hshsbs 3:10 PM i omg 👑, 3:11 PM Lmfao Man now my eviction worries seem meaningless 3:14 PM Why is that? 👑, 3:15 PM :o cause your   5 page thing is gross :o have you started on it or still got a ways to go? 3:20 PM I still got a ways to go 👑, 3:20 PM yikes 👑, 3:20 PM how are you feeling about this week? like hame wise Roxy I think you're a lovely person but holy fuck can you just please shut up sometimes when you know someone is busy

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I'd say it was an effective campaign xoxo Summer Shrek

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And He Fell Asleep. SL 7 with @MelzWithABite and @AWanderlustCur

Alexei: -I’d slept better last night than normal, still a little rough, but even getting up and opening the shop felt different. Better. I set the little purple penguin origami on her desk, where she would see it, and went about my business. There were a few cars from the day before left to finish up, interiors to be cleaned a bit, so I started on that. I wasn’t waiting for her to come in, really, just, watching the office. Like normal. The guys worked around me, the same as any other day, and I kept out of their way, did what they said, and...kind of made it easy. Not that I’d been an ass before, but maybe I as thinking a little more like if I could lighten her load by doing my best, I would. During a lull, since she wasn’t here yet, I found a few stray strands of the brook straw, long and thin, and began to braid them, waiting on something to do, and when I was done with the braided strand, I made it into a loop and tied it off, a small bracelet the outcome. I set it in the office, with the penguin, and walked out to greet a customer, taking their information and asking all the questions, trying to go about it all like it was just another day, when I knew, just knew, that something had changed.-

Melz:

*Goddamn it. I was running late. Last night's run, not to mention the emotional baggage I seemed to have, at least partially, unloaded had wiped me out by the time I kissed the top of Brie’s head as she slept, then collapsed, still dressed, across my bed. The pups bounding onto the bed woke me with a grunt, but after a nice hot shower, I was feeling great. Perks of being the boss? No one was going to yell at me for being late. I picked the casual cotton maxi dress because it was comfortable, not because it hugged my curves in all the right places, that was just an added bonus. I even threw a cardigan on to cover more of my ink and cleavage. Well, cover some of it. Okay, so I was in an eyeliner mood too, even though I rarely wore it to work. So what? And if I was wearing eyeliner, I had to wear lipstick or I'd look unfinished! Rolling my eyes at my own reflection as I tousled my hair around my shoulders, I hitched my bag to my shoulder and slipped into my sandals before heading to the kitchen. Brie and I had cereal and chatted for a while before Lark came to join us. It didn't matter how late I was, I had a lot of work to do to make up for my absence to Brie, so quality time was just the start of it, but it was a start. By the time I pulled into the garage parking lot it was after ten. Yikes. Cringing when I saw that Alexei was dealing with a customer, I mouthed an “I'm sorry” as I passed behind the customer filling out a form and gave a wave to him before moving into the office. Dropping my purse on a chair, I leaned over to start up my computer and stopped. Sitting smack dab in the middle of my planner was the most adorable little purple paper penguin I'd ever seen, sitting in the middle of a straw braided circle. Okay, now I'd look like an idiot with the goofy grin stretching my cheeks. Taking care to gently move my little gifts aside, I glanced through the glass door into the waiting room, nervously giddy and anxious for him to be finished with the customer.*

Alexei: -When she walked in, my heart did this weird stutter thing, and I immediately chalked it up to breakfast. Or the kiss. Or maybe it was her emotions I was picking up on. I didn’t know, but it was nice. It was...fun. The customer in front of me cleared their throat, and I apologized and got back to filling out their paperwork. When I was done, I gave them a copy, told them I’d have a mechanic look at it and give them a time frame, and pointed to a small room where they could wait. Then, I took a moment to gather my thoughts, handing the paper off to Bray and walking to the office. I caught her eye through the glass and grinned crookedly, holding her gaze as I approached and leaned against the door jam. I noticed she’d seen the gifts, the small tokens, not the usual fanfare I was used to getting women at all, but with the meager income and other things, it would have to do. From the look on her face, too, she liked it, and that meant everything. I stuffed my hands in my pockets and looked her over. God, she was beautiful. That dress...ah, that dress was something else. I let my eyes linger on her cleavage, briefly, then her lips, colored perfectly with her light hair and peach colored skin. I lingered on the feel of her beneath me, after the run. I could still feel her curves on my hands, still taste her lips, and I flicked my gaze to the blinds. In a few moments, I could have them closed and her against me again, on the desk, but it was too soon. For that. Instead, I stepped up and ran a finger down her arm, feather light, looking up into her eyes and grinning- I slept good too. Only one thing could have made it better… -I laughed a bit, not pushing, but not stepping back either- I was thinking we could get some coffee. Or I could make some coffee upstairs, we could watch some basketball. Just hang out. Yeah?

Melz: *He was far too good looking with that grin across his face, looking like that cat that ate the canary. If anything further happened between us, I'd be at a huge disadvantage. He'd always know what I was feeling before I could sent it...That would be interesting. But what was I thinking? Surely this affection between us was just the residual feelings left over from an incredible run. From feeling like, for once, my wolf and I were getting along. Meeting his insanely beautiful eyes when he approached, I swallowed past the lump of nerves the popped up, goosebumps rising on my arm in the wake of his touch.* The penguin is adorable. Did you know that purple was my favorite color? *Barely resisting the urge to lean into his touch, I nodded, because with the mixed vibes of happiness and arousal coming off of him, I'd pretty much agree to anything at this point.* Coffee in a little bit of lunch? I'm late, in case you haven't noticed, so I need to get some things off of my plate before I reward myself. Wait. Basketball? *Tilting my head curiously, my lips curled into a teasing grin, I couldn't help but poke at the random request.* You get a big basketball fan vibe from me?

Alexei: -She felt intoxicating. Everything was mixed and rushing between us, and even she couldn’t deny it. I wanted to push, but now wasn’t the time. Something told me she enjoyed the slow burn just like I did, that sweet pain of want and need, so I teased back- Late is relative. To me, you’ve been right on time. And...I wasn’t really thinking we’d watch much basketball, to be honest. -That last part I lowered my voice, caught her eye, and did that thing I’d done to the angry dude, except this time, I showed her the need I was feeling. It was stupid, and ballsy, but I knew she was strong enough not to be swayed by the likes of me. She was an alpha, of course, and it felt nice to be able to not have to hide what I could do. I picked up her hand, turned it over in mine, and played my fingertips lightly over her palm, tickling, sort of, looking down at her palm then raising my eyebrow with a hmmm- I see big things in your future. You know… -I flicked my gaze to hers, copping a slight grin- You know, I read palms. I’m quite good. And accurate. -I trace one line, the heart line, and nod, doing my best to act as if I’m seeing something interesting I didn’t already know. But this one I knew the first time I met her.- Your heart line curves upward to end between middle and index finger. See? -I trace it out for her- That means that you have a caring and understanding personality. And… -I trace where it dips off her hand at the side.- it’s even sometimes to a fault or your detriment.

Melz: I...hadn't caught that. *Pursing my lips as my cheeks warmed, in embarrassment and excitement, I didn't have to admit he was right. I knew there'd be no watching basketball if either of us had our way. When he unleashed that Omega juju on me, it hit me like a wave of euphoric lust, catching me completely off guard in a not at all bad way. Breath hitching, my hands flattened on the desk as I sucked in several deep breaths and kept myself from pinning him to the wall.* Jesus...warn a girl next time you pull that shit. *My laugh sounded husky in my own ears, betraying his effect on me further as I looked him over, showing the heat in my gaze as he lifted my hand. I wasn't sure what I expected, but a fortune telling wasn't it. Brow arched skeptically as he traced my palm, I didn't hide the snort or the roll of my eyes as he laid it on thick.* Oh I'm sure that line and that grin gets all the panties to drop for you. Nice try, pup. *Shaking my head, I pulled my hand back before plopping into my desk chair. Rude, probably, but it was such a line...and a really good reminder of what I had momentarily toyed with getting into and how wrong it would be on so many levels. I didn't need a relationship and I certainly wasn't going to play with a little boy, as charming as his little gifts might have been. I wasn't some thot at the bar he was going to schmooze his way into. Get your head straight, Melz.* Run along now. Time is money.

Alexei: -Well, that didn’t go as planned. I reached up and rubbed the back of my neck, chuckling a bit and nodding- You’re the boss. -I nodded and walked out, picking up the broom as I looked over and noticed both guys were working and didn’t need me in the front. I had to admit, though, it was a line. I’d stolen it from Austen. When she was a teen, she’d gone through a very odd phase of using tarrot and reading palms. One day, I saw her performing her little reading on a boy from the pack, and that kid...he had it so bad for her. He was eating it up. She, of course, as she’s always been, was oblivious, but I wasn’t. All it took was a little reading and a little studying to figure out what to say. And yeah, Melz was right. It worked. Usually. I looked back at the office, not intentionally, just...curiously, as I went about my work, but she didn’t even give me a glance. All I felt off her was a cool appreciation after that, and if I’d been a lesser man, I’d have called it quits, but that wasn’t me. I’d try again, something different. So all day, I thought, worked, did anything they asked and didn’t make a fuss. Not that I ever did. Melz had made herself clear the first time we met. At the end of the day, I was sore and sweaty, a bit tired and hungry, but I still wanted to spend the evening with her. I set the broom in the closet, made sure I had nothing left to clean up, then walked into her office, the light still on and watched a moment as she sat at the desk. She was different. I’d have to try something I’d never done: tell the truth. Then, I just laid it out.- So, I asked you over because I wanted to get to know you, really. Talk. True, letting off some steam would be nice, more than nice, but really...I just don’t want to be alone. I’ve gotten used to people, and nights are hard. So… -I lean against the door jam, patting my stomach, grinning a bit- wanna crack a few beers, make some ramen, and watch bad television? That’s about all I got.

Melz: *I hated keeping the books. It was a necessary evil and my OCD had me going over every transaction that had gone down while I was having my identity crisis in the woods. It wasn't that I didn't trust Bray and Jessy to do it right, hell, Bray probably did a better job with it than I did, but I just...needed the double check. Elbows on the desk, I dropped my head, rubbing the tension knot between my shoulders. I should be through it all by tomorrow. Giving myself an internal pep talk after the hours chained to my desk, trying to keep my head in the numbers game and not from drifting to the frustrating wolf in the other room, I didn't lift my head until I heard his voice. Rolling my head on my neck, I took my time looking in his direction, giving him a thorough and assessing once over before letting a hint of a smile tick at the corner of my lips.* As long as you're talking about root beer, I guess I can join you for a little while. But I have to get home to my niece before bedtime. But I have a few ramen tricks that I bet you've never used. I'll dazzle your taste buds while we watch shitty TV. *Flashing a grin, I saved my work with a few taps of my mouse then shut down the computer before pushing to my feet. Stretching my arms over my head, I twisted my torso left than right before letting out a sigh.* I hate the desk job part of this job.

Alexei: -I raised an eyebrow at her mention of ramen tips, and I put my hands together, asian style, and bowed deep- I relinquish my ramen to your capable hands.-I watched her stretch, nodding as I tried to relax, but nerves were starting to build.- I never could handle a desk job. I’m too high strung, I guess. I don’t know. I need to be moving. I don’t see how Austen does it at the shop… -And then it hit me.-  I’m...gonna go change, just...freshen up, you know, since I’m all sweaty, but you can come up and hang out while I do that. Right? -I pointed up at the stairs, canting my head that way, then walked backways teasingly before turning around and taking the stairs by two. I had underwear on the floor, probably, and...trash, maybe. I had to make sure, you know, good first impression and all. I opened the door to the small apartment and started to yank things up off the floor, depositing some in the trash, tossing some in the laundry basket in the bathroom, then spinning around toward the fridge as I opened it and looked in. Good thing I’d just gone shopping. I pulled out two of the six fancy root beers I’d bought, set them out, then raised my arm and smelled under it. Yup. Stank.- Hey, Melz? -I hollered, turning to see you at the door. I laughed awkwardly, rubbing the back of my neck.- I’m...gonna take a quick shower. Help yourself. Anything that’s mine is yours. I got you a rootbeer, and...yeah. It’ll only take me like, maybe ten minutes. I promise. I just...I really stink. -I laughed as I turned, padding to the bathroom and slipping my shirt off as I went. Why was I so nervous? I’d gotten some simple things, I had a nice television some guy off Craig’s List had traded me for some simple oil changes as some handyman work. I’d gotten my Playstation the same way. Things were coming together slowly. Granted, I had like four bowls and a few glasses, but...it was home, or...starting to feel that way. I showered as quick as I could, slicked my wet hair back and slipped into a loose pair of sweats, finally walking out, looking around.- Can I help?

Melz: *His nervous excitement as his eyes darted toward the stairs had me laughing. It was adorable really as I could tell he wasn't expecting me to accept the invitation, then the mild panic when I did. Nodding when he mentioned freshening up, I locked up the office then took my time ascending the stairs, letting him move through the place first before entering. My brows rose in surprise as I nodded. The place looked somehow bigger, more homey, from just the few little personal touches he added. The futon had throw pillows now, the place was dust free and smelled...good. Like guy and cologne. It masked the oil and gas garage scent well. Not to mention that I was liking Alexei’s scent more and more these days. Rolling my eyes at myself and walked to the small galley kitchen when he mentioned a quick shower.* Take your time. I can start the ramen magic. *Snickering to myself, I watched as he retreated, looking my fill of his leanly muscled back as he stripped off his t-shirt before disappearing into the bathroom. Damn. Moving to the fridge, I pulled it open to take inventory, relieved to see that his mention of beer had only been a slip of the tongue. There was only root beer and a couple other non alcoholic beverages in the fridge. Good. Not that I was judging, far from it, wine being one of my favorite escapes, and definitely not the healthiest, having struggled with my own overindulgence in the past. But he’d let on about his sobriety and I didn't want my bad habits testing him at all. Taking a carton of eggs from the fridge and a few condiments, I banged around in the cabinets until I found the biggest saute pan he had, some oil and some dry seasonings. This would do fine. I didn't really have a rhyme or reason to my concoction, but I knew flavor profiles, it turned out different every time but it was always delicious. In next to no time, I had the noodles softened and sauteeing with scrambled eggs, veggies, seasonings and a sauce that only included a pinch of the over salted, packet of MSG and heart attack that came with the ramen. Frozen peas and carrots worked as the veggie component, while I flipped the second grilled cheese in a small pan. Glancing over my shoulder when I heard him approach, only my teeth pinning my bottom lip kept my jaw from dropping open when he came into view, hair all wet and slicked back, shirtless with a few water droplets clinging for dear life to his fantastic body. Double dayum, I'd never wanted to be a water droplet more in my life. Clearing my suddenly dry throat, I really wanted to lick said droplets off, my thirst something no amount of root beer would satisfy.* I'm just about done if you wanna grab a couple of bowls and plates? And stay where I can see you because that's some view you're giving me and I have no shame. *Grinning, I backed up my claim, by giving him a very appreciative, very slow once over, very nearly whimpering when I spied the v-line peeking out at the top of his sweats. Mother Mary, I wanted my tongue all over him.*

Alexei: -I could smell the food so acutely, but above that, I could feel desire rolling off of her. For me. And she wasn’t even trying to hide it. The way she looked at me, the emotions she was feeding me, I was a glutton and it was like I couldn’t get enough. I wasn’t doing anything. That was all her. I didn’t bother with her directions, or the bowls, needing to sate one hunger before another. I took two large steps forward and slipped my arm around her back, drawing her flush and taking a kiss that sizzled so good inside, so good that I groaned into her mouth and lifted her more against me till only the tips of her feet touched the ground. It was heady, sweet and strong, her body against mine hard yet so soft in the right places, so before I bent her over the counter and ruined her fine dinner, I slowly let her down and forced myself to pull my lips from hers, breathing deep. When I felt like I could move, like the world wouldn’t end if there was some distance between us, I reached up behind her and grabbed the only two bowls and two plates I had, setting them beside her and clearing my throat. The first attempt to speak came out as a squeak, but I tried again, chuckling a bit- Ah, if you keep putting off that vibe, the one that says you want in my pants as bad as I want in yours, we won’t be eating dinner… -I laughed, stepped back a bit, and scrubbed my hands over my face- I’ll be eating you, does that count? -Oh god, that was a horrible thing to say, but...it was true. Her on her back, me between her legs...over...and over...I reached down and pressed the heel of my hand into my swelling cock, turning around to open the the drawer and get out a few forks from the drawer. I recited the lineup of the Yankees, the stats I knew, till finally my head wasn’t looking to my dick for direction- Can I do anything else? I got a few T.V. trays we can use, not much, but it works. -I turned, finally looking into the pot, smelling it more fully, my stomach beginning to rumble- You weren’t lying about the magic. I’m starving and my ramen has never looked this good.

Melz: *When he closed the distance between us, I moved willingly into his arms. Moaning against his lips, my arms snaked around his shoulders as my lashes fluttered closed. Pliantly moving my mouth with his, my chest to his bare flesh never felt so good. When he pulled me flush, like he couldn't get enough, I gave more, the sizzle between us spiking before the kiss ended far too soon. My exhale was shaky when he stepped back, my laugh husky as I shook my head at the mention of the vibe I was putting off. I was really going to have to get used to how intensely he could feel me, even if that thought had things low in my body awakening from a dormant slumber.* I'd apologize, but I try not to lie if I can help it, and after a kiss like that, I'm definitely not sorry. *Smirking as I watched him pull down dishes, I scooped noodles into bowls and put sandwiches on plates before facing him again.* TV trays totally work. I'm not fussy, I swear. And I've had my fair share of questionable places I've lived. *Dragging my gaze from all things Alexei, watching him adjust had me very nearly on my knees, I gestured back towards the small living area, attempting to change the subject.* You've really spruced up this place. Looks good. *Stepping into his personal space, I patted a hand over his sculpted abs, because I really wanted to, and met his eyes with an impish grin.* Let's get you fed...then maybe we can take turns with dessert. *My tongue sliding over my bottom lip, leaving no doubt about exactly what I wanted for dessert, knowing he wouldn't object, I picked up a plate and bowl, my ass sliding past his groin as I moved from the narrow kitchen and found a spot in front of the TV.*

Alexei: -I let out a hard groan, pressing against her ass as she eeked by, and I forgot about anything else she said for a moment. My head filled with the thought of...oh god, everything. And it took me a few long minutes to even remember that we were going to eat, or that she’d made food, or...what’s my name? Oh. Alright. I swallowed hard and turned, took my plate, and sat down beside her. I was hard. I couldn’t even try to hide it. I just hoped whatever was on television would help me out. I turned it on, found some sports commentary, and dug into the meal. It was fantastic. Beyond fantastic. Fresh, strong with flavor, and the grilled cheese? Perfect touch. I didn’t realize I was inhaling it till the I looked over at her and saw she still had over half hers left. Laughing lightly, I slowed myself down, getting up to get a few napkins and handing one to her- So, if you don’t like basketball, what do you like? Movies? Video games? I got a few things, and...if we’re going to be hanging out, I need something to entertain you between taking turns at dessert. -I sat down, pushed the heel of my palm against my aching dick, and took a sip of root beer, sitting back and picking at the few bites of sandwich I had left. Trying to make it last.- Me? Glad you asked. I like action movies, horror movies, any kind of sport except golf. I like 1st person shooter games, zombies, and the like. Aliens. Area 51. Fun times.

Melz: *The flutter in my belly subsided as I dug into my meal, which turned out pretty darn good for what it was, if I did say so myself. From the speed his fork worked, I  could tell he liked it...or hadn't eaten in a week. Either way, it made me happy to make him happy, which was a dangerous thought. I knew how this went, getting off on pleasing others. It never ended well for me...but I was getting way, /way/ ahead of myself. It was ramen and mindless TV, no need to let my truck load of baggage interfere just yet. He must of hit a wall, because after a handful of minutes he was up, across the room and back with napkins, talking so fast, it took me a minute to take in everything he said. He really did remind me of a pup sometimes, and I grinned at the thought. Taking the napkin, I nodded my thanks, hoping a didn't blush too red when I noticed the semi he was sporting and finishing the bite of sandwich I was working on before stringing together some semblance of an answer to the dozen questions or suggestions he'd made in a few speedy sentences.* Sports can hold my interest. Definitely no golf, unless I need a nap, but baseball, football, the Olympics when they come around. *Nodding, I took a sip of root beer, enjoying the fizz I rarely treated myself with.* I like all sorts of movies. Anything that holds my interest, really. World war II historical fiction is always good. Have you seen Band of Brothers? You need to. It's a phenomenal miniseries. But mostly my TV is on Disney or Nick Jr. *Laughing, I shook my head, glancing sideways.* I couldn't tell you the last time I played video games, but if you need an ego boost by beating me at probably all of them, I'd be a willing sacrifice.

Alexei: -I sat back down, listening while she spilled, and I cataloged it all in my head. Not really, but I’d remember it. I knew the summer olympics were coming up, so I made a mental note to try something fun to watch.- Do I hold your interest? -I just blurted it out, really, then grinned, going back to my food, taking my time this time- You don’t have to answer that. And, we’ll totally have to binge Band of Brothers. It sounds awesome. Only if you binge The Walking Dead with me. I’ve been dying to catch up since I le— -I didn’t want to think about it, but it seemed my mind kind of went in that direction. It was odd, not having a home anymore, not being able to reference a place you belonged. It made everything seem more difficult.- Since the new season started. And things have to hold my interest too. I was the spastic that everyone avoided growing up. -I shrugged, picking up my bowl and slurping down the last of the noodles, grinning as I put it down and wiped my face- You know, I can fix up that old barn. Some time and some supplies and I can make a nice little meeting house out of it. If you want. -I picked up my root beer, taking a long swig- Downtime kind of sucks. Mind goes where it wants and then I’m standing on a street corner with a wad of cash in my pocket and I’m talking myself off that ledge. -nodding, I stretched out my legs, glancing at the television.- My grandad taught me how to do woodwork, mom’s dad, not dad’s. He was a quiet man, hell of a craftsman. It never made sense to me why he’d let his daughter marry into the alpha’s family. He’d always just say, “The heart wants what it wants.” Guess that’s true. -I sat up, turning to look at Melz- We could redo the outside, slat it with pine, lay a subfloor and add hardwood. Sturdy up the stairs and put a big meeting table in there. It’d be sweet.

Melz: So far, so good, pup. *Lips pursed, I leaned sideways, bumping my shoulder to his teasingly before taking another bite of my sandwich. I caught his words hitch and could only guess at the rest of it in my head. The pain of being expelled from a pack would be excruciating for any home grown wolf...but for an Omega...I couldn't imagine the depths of hurt, but I ached for him just the same. No wonder he’d turned to numbing himself. Who could blame him? Surely not I. I'd done my fair share of lone wolfing it during the years I'd fled from home. It wasn't a good life for a pack animal. When he recovered smoothly and continued, I smiled, nodding as I swallowed.* You've got a deal. I've been meaning to watch The Walking Dead and see what all the hype was about. Don't get too cocky, but I don't watch zombies for just anyone. You should feel honored. *Flashing a grin, I scooped up another bite, really enjoying just chill and shooting the shit. It was such a nice, normal thing that I hadn't really had in my life for quite a while.* Barn? Gah, I mostly think of that thing as a glorified storage shed, left over from when the development went up. We're not exactly a pack that adheres to a lot of formality as I'm sure you've noticed. But hey, if you're looking for a pet project, you have my permission to do whatever you want with the place. But I gotta tell you, now I'm intrigued enough to want to see these woodworking skills you've got. Your grandad doesn't sound like he was the kind of guy that fit in with your pack either. *Smiling thoughtfully, I tucked a strand of hair behind one ear, leaning back against the couch, my stomach satisfied.* He sounds like a romantic.

Alexei: He was. -I’d already started putting together a list of materials in my head, and I was kinda excited to do it old school. Sure, I’d have liked the power tools, but a good hand saw, a hammer, and a square we’re all I really needed. I sat back too, getting comfortable, popping the last of my sandwich in my mouth- Him and my grams were married since they were in their early teens. Arranged, but they learned to love each other like no one else I’ve ever seen. He used to say anything worth having was worth working for, and to really bring it home, most all of our projects took months. -I shrugged, tugging down on my shorts, getting comfortable- He was too simple for my uncle. Didn’t want all the fancy things, wasn’t a climber, and he was satisfied with his life as it was. Kept to himself, mostly. -I nodded, looking over at the television- I knew he was different when I was young, but I realized it more the older I got. We were the same, reserved, you know? It was when he passed that I felt really alone. That’s when it was easier to be drunk and high than be present. -I reached for the remote, clicking around, landing on some cheesy SyFy movie- I swear I’ll make zombie watching worth your while. I have mad commentary skills. -I turned, flashing her an equally cheesy grin- You like SyFy movies? Like Octoshark and Sharknado? Oh god, those are my favorite. And when we watch zombies, I’ll make some brain food…. -I let the joke sit for a minute, but I couldn’t help myself- Get it? Brain food? -I laughed, slapping my thigh, stretching out my arms on the back of the couch, taking a lock of her hair and twirling it on my finger-

Melz: *I could tell he loved his grandparents by the way he talked about them, and although I had to hold back a cringe at the thought of anyone two people being married in their early teens, I was able to. I knew the antiquated laws of some Packs, especially those as formal as Austen’s and Alexei’s, but that didn't mean I liked hearing about it. Still, it seemed that, at least in this case, the arrangement had worked out for the best. Listening silently, I laid my hand on his arm, stroking soothingly as he talked about losing them and how much it affected him. This poor, open hearted, strong man. Wolf. It was a wonder he could find his smile let alone be so...cheesy. Eyes wide as he switched lanes with a suddenness I was starting to get the hand of, a short surprise laugh escaped as I shook my head. Who didn't love a cheesy joke? Didn't mean I wouldn't bust on him for it.* Oh my god...so bad! Brain food?! Seriously?! *Grinning again as my head kept shaking in disbelief, I decided to throw him a bone.* Sharknado is a guilty pleasure. I couldn't look away! But it was nice to see Tara Reid and Steve Sanders on screen. Took me back. *Laughing again, I let my head drop back to his touch, turning my head a little to meet his eyes.* I've never seen Octoshark. It sounds terrible. I'm a fan of the classic B movies though. The Blob, Pod people. Those so bad they're great ones? I can tell you know them.

Alexei: I know them. Classics. And I swear, cross my heart… -I made the cross on my heart, holding up two Boy Scout salute fingers- I’ll never utter a word of your guilty pleasure. But I will enable you to slack that need with me. Here. And we will watch Octoshark and Wereshark and Trailer Park Sharks. -laughing hard at your face at the last one, shaking my head- You can’t make this shit up. I swear it’s a real movie. -I wanted to wait, but let’s face it—I was impatient. I didn’t care what we were doing before. The only thing I could smell was her, and the way she turned to me instead of moving away gave me the courage to move closer, then closer still to drape my arm over her shoulder, sliding a hand over her hip and leaning in till our lips almost met. I was afraid if I said anything, it would ruin the moment. Or turn it into another ramble by me. I rambled a lot around her, but it felt nice. Like this. This felt more than nice. The television played in the background as I went for it, pressing my lips to hers, tucking her close to my body as I tilted into the kiss and firmly parted her lips with my tongue, aching to taste her. I squeezed her hip and let images of her on my lap play in my head, straddling me, deep inside her, and I groaned low into her mouth as I moved against her lips. Everywhere. I wanted my mouth everywhere. God, I was already hard and it was just a kiss. Before I got stupid turned on and she kicked my ass, I pulled back slightly for a breath, panting out the words as I looked her in the eyes- I used to have good lines, sometimes booze meant I didn’t need them. I’m sure this works the same way sober, maybe, but not if I don’t stop talking, right? Right. Okay. I just...I just want to say that I want...you. I want you. So fucking bad. -And I rambled anyways, so...I waited, nose to nose, and I licked my lips, tasting her still there, already aching again for more-

Melz: *He was going to...and before I could complete the thought, he was kissing me and it was just as wonderful, if not more so than the first time. I'd wondered as I went to bed last night, if it was just the Omega energy my wolf had responded to, or the adrenaline of the run...but this...his soft lips, firm touches, just the right amount of aggressive passion...this was all him and I. Moaning into the kiss, my tongue stroking against his, I could feel my body awake. Moving closer under his gentle coaxing, my breasts pressed to his hard chest, I knew my nipples were hard beneath my bra. That deep groan sounded really good too. When he broke the kiss, I was breathless in the best way. Panting to catch my breath, my grin was dopey as he barely took a breath before his mouth was moving again. Lifting a finger, I pressed it to his lips as eyes that might have been flecked with amber met his.* I don't want lines. I think you know that. And it feels good to be wanted…*Dropping my eyes to his lips, I licked my own, then ran my teeth over the bottom one, my other hand sliding over his thigh.* Because I want you too, Lexei. But I bet you already knew that too.

Alexei: I did… -and my lips were on hers again. Her touch burned, so good. I felt it all, her need, mine, all together, but it was raw. Unfiltered. I didn’t have to make it more than it was. I didn’t have to touch her emotions at all. That thought made my heart beat hard, my grip tighten, and before I knew it, she was under me and I slid my hand over her chest and palmed her breast, sucking in a soft breath and then settled between her legs. Her nipples stiff under my palm, I gripped firmly, tilting and going back for another taste of her mouth. I had to be respectful, she was a one in a million, my one in million, and this had to go perfect. I’d fucked up so many things, this couldn’t be one of them. There’d be time to rip things and bend her over, time for quickies and and long, long make-out sessions. But right now, I just wanted to feel her under my hand, my tongue, hear her, learn her. For now. I slid my hand under her dress and I nearly lost it when my fingers crept over bare skin, toned muscles, soft and hard, and I didn’t let her out of our kiss, not for a second. More. Slow, but more. I knew she could feel me, and I her, smell her now, and my wolf was compliant, patient, which was odd. But I didn’t have time for him. It was her. All her. Dragging my lips from hers and down her neck, I was vibrating with the need to hit my mark.-

Melz: *With each kiss, I was giving up more and more of myself, my body alive in ways that I hadn't allowed since...shutting down the thought, I gasped as he leveled over me, my body arching to rub against his hard, toned chest. Fingers exploring the muscles plains of his back as the give and take of our arousal bounced between us I let myself go. Moaning against his lips, my greedy hands groping, I was panting by the time his lips moved down my throat.* Christ, Lexei…*My mind wasn't functioning enough to form other words, so I didn't. Legs bracketing his hips, I rolled mine up to grind against him, groaning as I felt his arousal against my core. I was all feeling and excitement. Emotions and arousal crashing through me in waves and it was better than any high I'd ever felt. Pushing my hands beneath the elastic of his sweats, I gripped his ass firmly, hips grinding and rolling, his lips on the crook of my neck, making me bow off the couch, unbridled desire whirling in my belly.*

Alexei: -She was rocking, pushing me, and I loved every minute of it. Thank fuck for the dress,  the way it clung to her so perfectly, the way it was so easy to lift up. I pushed both hands up her torso and easily slipped the dress off, carefully setting it on the back of the couch and looking down at her. The thought that she ever felt unwanted seared into me, and I couldn’t imagine it. She was fierce, successful, beautiful, and smart. What idiot would give that up? It didn’t matter. They did, and now I was going to make her forget. No bra. No underwear. Fuck. Her tits were amazing, and before I could ramble on more about them, I leaned down and flicked the nipple, stiff and sensitive, with my tongue, then kiss just above the nipple, all the way around, grinning as I look up through lashes and move to the other breast- You’re so fucking gorgeous. -I repeat the same treatment, my free hand brushing over the underside of the neglected tit, and I could take all day and tease and taste her here. But I pull myself away, kissing down keeping my eyes on hers, already sliding my hands over the inside of her thighs, parting them as I make my way down- If you wear nothing under your clothes, I can’t be held responsible for how much I’m going to try to take them off of you at inappropriate times. Just saying. -I bit lightly at her hip bone, then the inside of her thigh- Just the smell of your arousal drives me out of my mind…

Melz: *I may have briefly, accidentally fantasized, when I got dressed this morning  opting to forego underwear, that something akin to this might happen, but it was just that. A far fetched fantasy that wouldn't never actually happen...except that here I was, naked with Alexei for the second time in two days, this time, with far different intentions than the first and oh gods, did I want him. The first flick of his tongue over my already peaked nipple had me moaning as I arched wantonly, lifting my breasts for him to do with as he pleases. The heat in his gaze as he descended my body sent a shiver down my spine, my bottom lip pinned as my hands slid down his well defined arms, then shoulders, my fingers then pushing through his hair the lower he got. The nip at my hip had them jerking up as I hissed. Holy shit, it had been so long, I'd likely cum the instant he kissed below my rose tattoo. My lower belly quivered as my thighs fell open. The idea of him bending me over the desk in the garage for a quickie blooming in my mind as he spoke. We hadn't even fucked yet, and I already couldn't get enough.* It gets really stuffy in that office on a hot day. Lots of windows so it holds the heat. I like to be as airy as possible...it's a hard choice, but worth it, I'd say. *Smirking as he hovered over the core of me, his blue eyes glowing, I licked my lips, my hips lifted and giving a little shake giving him a clear invitation to get to it. Nope. I had no shame left, just full blown desire for everything this wolf was teasing.*

Alexei: -I slid my thumbs over her slick lips, parting them, and there was nothing more to say. She was wet and her clit was swollen, and I knew this would be ecstasy for us both. I laid my tongue flat, lapping the length of her, and grabbed the inside of her thighs to hold her open to me. My grip was rough as I drew my tongue around that bundle of nerves, over and over, only when I felt generous did I duck my chin and flick the opening of her pussy, then slowly press my tongue inside. I could feel her tightening, taste her arousal, and with that I just fixed my lips over her and gave it everything I had. I was holding her hips to the couch, otherwise she’d be bucking into my face. I wanted her, but I wanted her slick with sweat and so wet she was running down my chin before I brought her to climax if I could help it. That made me eve harder to think that she’d be using me before this was done-

Melz: *That first lick...had me flying. I could feel each touch of his tongue as if every nerve in my body was focused on that point of blissful contact. His grip on my thighs, holding my hips down, bared me to him completely, using just enough rough strength to drive me wild. Still every swipe of his tongue had my hips trying to buck anyway, wanting so much more. Groaning as he went to work learning my pussy so thoroughly, one hand fisted in his hair, the other on the cushion of the couch as my arousal skyrocketed. Forcing my head, that I didn't remember dropping back, up to watch him, my chest heaved with each breath. Hooded eyes met his as my clit throbbed between his lips, the sight of him between my thighs was utter perfection.* Oh fuck, Lexei! *Jaw clenched as sweat dotted my lip, my belly quivering as ecstasy pooled just below the surface, I worked to hold off, not wanting the sensations to end as mindblowing pleasure threatened to do me in.*

Alexei: -I let one thigh go and placed my arm over her stomach, holding her down, just enough for her to know I was in control, then let the other hand free, trailing fingers down the back of her thigh, feeling the slickness of her skin. It was raised, hot, and I raked blunt nails just for affect, till my fingertips met the juncture of her legs, teasing where my tongue couldn’t be in two places. The second I touched her opening, felt how wet she was, how responsive she was to just my finger, I had to adjust my hips. My cock ached, more than ready, but this was enough. God, this was more than I could imagine. I circled the opening with the pad of my index finger, then slowly, excruciatingly so, I slid it in, all the while circling her clit with my tongue like I’d learned she liked. Out, then in, my breathing getting quicker, my heart pounding, and my pace of movement quicker, I went in for the whole of it, ready, needy for her release. I didn’t tire, nor bore, but savored the tension in her body, and releasing my tight hold on her a bit and readied for everything-

Melz: *This man was playing my body like a fiddle and all I could do was sing. The teasing touch down the back of my thigh sent shockwaves straight to my core. If I was thinking straight, I would have reached down to push his fingers in, giving me what I wanted, but I wasn't thinking. Only feeling as he touched and teased relentlessly, my body bucking against the strength of his hold as every pounding beat of my heart sent pleasure through every nerve ending, all focusing on the ever growing need at the center of me. As if he knew exactly what would send me over the edge, and he very likely was reading it from me, the push of his fingers through my slick folds, finally moving inside as his tongue worshipped my clit, I was gone. Crying out, my head falling back, neck straining as the sounds of my pleasure echoed in the room. Body shaking, I tried to fuck his finger as hard as I could, my pussy spasming around it as the ecstasy of my release crashed over me. I had to force my grip on his hair to lessen so I didn't rip it out as wave after wave washed through my pleasure bowed body, gasping through my moans. My breathing was shaking as the sensations began to ebb, little spasms of joy still pulsing as I pried my eyes open, unable to lift my head just yet, I stared at the ceiling.* Holy...fuck, Lexei… *Laughing breathlessly, I gave his hair a gentle tug, letting him know without the words I didn't have, that I wanted to see him. Kiss him. Thank him.*

Alexei: -My scalp tingled in the best way, and as I languidly crawls up her slick body, I was euphoric, locked into her emotions, experiencing the bone deep satisfaction with her. Women were amazing creatures, this one in particular. I kissed her chest, between her breasts, up her neck and slid my hands over her skin slowly, savoring the closeness, letting her taste herself on my lips. I was proud. I was sated. She was glorious in her release. Her cries still rang in my ear as I blanketed her with my body, finally meeting her lips, brushing back her damp hair, I grinned against her kiss and chuckled as the kiss deepened- I’ve never used...my mind thing...to read someone like I...did you. Holy fuck...you were beautiful. -I spoke between kisses, settling my weight atop her, and I had no other thought but her lips and her taste and her smell all around me. It was like I was drunk, but not, and all I wanted to do was bask in this feeling and stay close to her. I nudged her cheek, turning her head, I lay my lips on that tender part of her neck, purely on instinct. I nuzzled it, I growled a little, then I slid my cheek down between her tits and just rubbed my face all over them. My voice muffled- You have amazing tits…

Melz: *Still catching my breath as his lips seared a new path up my body, my nails and fingertips sought any inch of him I could touch. Moaning against his lips when I tasted myself there, my belly quivered again as his body slid against mine. Heavy legs wrapped around his hips as I bent my knees back, my toes settled on his lower back above the waistline of his sweats and began to nudge the elastic down. Is that what you were doing? I couldn't really tell if I was picking up something or you're just that good. I think it's both. I want it to be both. *Eyes still hooded, I knew the look on my face had to be ridiculous but there was nothing left to hide from him. That thought alone was more freeing than anything I'd ever experienced. Heart thumping as his lips and scruff kept my nipples peaked, another breathless laugh escaping.* Feel free to use them as a pillow whenever you want.

Alexei: I will…and for the record, I /am/ that good. -I yawned, settling down against her, mumbling- You feel good. Like, you feel good inside. Makes me happy. And a little giddy. -I slid my hand over her thigh, her abs, her arms, I just kind of revelled in her.- I only sleep a few hours a night. Before, I’d have to drink something or take something to sleep. Sometimes I still have withdrawals, but it’s better. A lot better. But you feel good, like I’ve had a few drinks or ecstasy. I feel -I yawn again, closing my eyes, then trying against to keep them open, but the harder I tried the more I failed. When I realize I’d probably nodded off, I looked up at her with a goofy, half-asleep grin, one that kind of mirrored hers, and yawned again- I don’t sleep with someone else, usually, cause its hard...when I sleep, you know, to keep it all to myself. One time, I accidently passed out, and the girl I was with, human…I woke up to her screaming and rocking in the bathtub. Just...don’t leave. Wake… -I reached up and rubbed my face, my body almost going limp, too tired to be embarrased. Too thankful. God, I hadn’t slept good in a long time.- Wake me up. Change the mood. -And I couldn’t stay awake any longer, letting sleep take me, reminding myself to say thank you later.-

Melz: *Welp. I came and he passed out. How do you like that? Me? I wasn't sure. I knew that my, “sex as a yard stick" mentality was not at all healthy, it had never worked for relationships in the past, but without it, I wasn't quite sure how to feel. A little stung that he wasn't still ravenous for me even after he'd gotten me off, which felt a little like rejection. Disappointed? Part of it was that. Without his release things felt sort of...one sided, and I was a fan of balance in the bedroom. But I shouldn't worry about those when his words and touches told me so much more than what didn't happen, right? The joy radiating off of him alone made me feel as though my orgasm was rebounding back at me. Then there was the peace that seemed to settle over him...I don't know what he'd done to me, but I could feel him as if he were pack, but...not. My mind didn't have the exact description, but my wolf liked it. Accepted the...Omega juju effect, for lack of proper terminology, and basically wanted to roll around in it. The traitorous bitch. Then I looked down at his head, nestled between my tits, his face so serene as he slept and the words he admitted really took root. He didn't sleep, really sleep, usually got fucked up until he could just pass out...gods, I could relate. So if I did this? How could I hold my own fucked up machinations against him? I couldn't. Letting out a long sigh, I combed my fingers through his insanely soft hair, I really did need to ask what products he used, and watched him get the rest he needed. Because even if we hadn't fuck and he hadn't cum, I'd given him this and that I would treasure more than any orgasm, no matter how mindblowing and how much I wanted another.*