#not only comments but also grammer correction

[hayakaki]

bros the type to! - yuta okkotsu

pairing: yuta x f!reader

genre: fluff

warnings: none

bros the type to! crouch down and tie your shoelaces for you

bros the type to! hold the door open for you

bros the type to! have only one following on ig, tt, etc.. and thats you

bros the type to! listen carefully everytime you talk

bros the type to! drop everything that hes doing just for you

bros the type to! help you with anything whether its homework, fighting, etc..

bros the type to! like all your tiktoks and comment on them, especially if its the ones where you post yourself - ‘beautiful’ ‘gorgeous’ ‘i love you’ ‘this is my girlfriend btw’

bros the type to! rant about you to all his friends

bros the type to! stop talking and letting you interrupt him cause what youre saying is more important than his talking

bros the type to! have either you as his pfp or the ‘i love my girlfriend<3’

bros the type to! get excited whenever you ask if you want to match with him

bros the type to! cook for you; breakfast, desserts, sweets..

bros the type to! buy literally everything for you, even if you took a small glance at something he’ll take note of it and buy it for you

bros the type to! have his pinky locked with you whenever in public so he gets to feel you but also doesn’t get lost

bros the type to! take note of your favorite music artist(s) and buy their album for you (maybe also sharing earphones and listening to it together<3)

bros the type to! swap shoes with you whenever they hurt or bother your feet

bros the type to! get flustered everytime he sees you wear his clothes

masterlist !

©hayakaki - pls do not repost/copy my work !

pls correct me if i have any grammer mistakes!

[thechangeling4]

Fanfiction recommendation:

I just need to gush about a fic for a moment. I don't have a profile(yet) so I can't comment on it on ao3, but I've read this fic 8 times now since i found it in late august, and while it's far from unusual for me to read a fic more than once in the same month, 4 times in 1 month doesn't happen often. It's The Risk in the Kiss by NotEvenCloseToStraight, 50+k, harringrove, a/b/o, E-rated, but unless you hate one of these it should be considered a must-read

There're many good things about this fic

• main thing that made it stand out to me is the descriptivness and missing unnecessary filler words. i'm pretty sure it's not grammaticaly correct but i'm also pretty sure that sensory and emotional impressions don't use the same grammer as spoken/written language, which is why it's so damn hard to express them right that way. now, i've never had problems putting myself in a character's pov, but this fic made it easy;

"....Steve���s voice dropped a register commanding...."

"It was nice to feel red tinted angry for a change, instead of always blue shaded lonely miserable sick...."

"....could only take being pushed away, rejected, dismissed, unwanted for so long...."

"The Alpha’s scent crackled thrilled, cherry bright and bittersweet chocolate pleased...."

"....protectively comforting in a way that tinted his rose scent purple...."

"....Steve wrinkled his nose when the Alpha’s scent plummeted sympathetic...."

"....Billy cursed cursed cursed his way through the front door of the school...."

"....leaning in anxious and looming over protective and staring at him worried...."

• one of the advantege of tropes like a/b/o is that you don't just relay words and body language, you can also use smell ect. to communicate, but this fic doesn't just use it form smut, no no. people growl, show teeth, click and trill, they basicly behave like cats, and it's for everyday non-sexual interaction.

• animaniacs reference, in the 80's

• fangs

• everybody's bullshit being pointed and often called out.

• fluff. there's SO MUCH fluff and softness and cuddles in this fic and it is wonderful

• max and billy being siblings

• pining. SO MUCH PINING

• billy starting a foodfight because he can't deal with how much he's pining and that's after they get together

• steve threatning neil with the bat

• alphas having stretch marks from getting muscle fast

• semi grafic reference to omegas maiming alphas who enter their heat space uninvited or don't act corretly and isn't that just a refreshing take!

it's stated that billy's car, in the 80's, needs to be turned on in order for the windows to be rolled down and it's during a fairly serious scene but, apologies NotEvenCloseToStraight, but that always makes me laugh.

could have called nancy out harder, but i'm a die hard nancy critic, and the gorgeous happy ending skips right over s3 so there's a sad sad sad lack of robin, but those ARE my only critisisms of this fic.

@not-close-to-straight

[kpop-pick-me-up]

How to loosely gauge where you stand on the privilege scale.

Everybody has some sort of privilege over someone else. It doesn't make you a bad person to have privilege. What makes you a bad person, is not being aware that you have a privilege and criticizing those who have less privilege than you for calling you out on it. So here is a very loose way to find out how much privilege you have. Feel free to add more questions in the comments I'll add them in!

Create a small "staircase" by laying out 21 pieces of paper on the floor, or just 21 small objects to mark the steps. (Have extra in case you need to add as you go)

Start by standing by/on the middle one.

Ask yourself these questions:

Am I white? If yes, take two steps up the stairs. If not, take two steps back.

I am female. If not, take one step forward, if yes take one step back.

I am straight. If yes, take on step forward. If not, take one step back.

I am naturally thin/fit and have no difficulty finding my size in stores or seeing models and celebrities that have similar body types to mine. If true, take a step forward and if false, take one back.

I am christrian. If true, take one step up, if false take one step back.

I live, and always have lived, in a safe neighborhood where I felt no danger on a regular basis. If true, take one step forward. If false, take one step back.

I have never been discriminated against because of my race, religion, or sexuality. Discrimination meaning; in the workplace, school, unprompted on the streets etc. If true, take one step forward and if false, one step back.

I can walk down to the street during the day freely without fear of being called out or attacked. If true, take one step forward. If false, take one step back.

I have a caring and loving family. If yes, take one step forward. If not, take one step back.

I have access to fresh foods that aren't canned, bagged, or prepackaged regularly, and never had to wonder when my next meal would be. If true, take a step forward. If false, take a step back.

I have never been scared of/had my power, cable, water, or electricity turned off because of insufficient funds. If true, take one step forward. If false, take one step back.

My parents/grandparents offer to help/Currently help pay some of my bills or funding. If true, take a step forward. If not, take a step back.

I have never not had a warm bed to sleep in, or a roof over my head. If true, take a step forward and if false take a step back.

I have access to things like the internet regularly, and the ability to further and choose my education if I wished to. If yes, take a step forward, if not take a step back.

I am transgender. Of true, take a step back. If false, take a step forward.

The top of the staircase is success. The higher up you are the easier it's achievable, the less stairs you have to trudge up to get there. You should notice by now you're probably rotating between the same 3-4 steps. Or you're continuously moving forward, or continuously moving backwards. This is where you loosely stand on the privileged staircase. If you're at the top, you are very privileged. It doesn't mean life is perfect or you've never been sad, it just means society has no reason to hold you back, and true oppression will never happen. You have little to no steps to climb. If you're at the bottom you don't experience any privilege in today's society. You are forced to trudge up every step, through every barrier to even just see the top. If your still directly in the middle, you're more privileged than some, and less than others. You get the gist.

This is just to make you more self aware and understand that you don't have to have a perfect life to be privileged, that having privilege doesn't make you a bad person. It means you need to be aware of the privileges you have and how it effects those that DONT have the same ones. To grab their hands and say "you're a person like me, I'll support you in whatever you need to do. I understand I'm privileged and that somethings may be harder for you even if I don't understand it. So please lead the way so I know how to use my privilege to make this better for you. To be equals. You have the floor because I know nothing about what it's like. "

You do NOT put yourself on a pedestal and say "I'm more privileged I'll be their hero."

You do NOT treat them like a disease or that there is something wrong with them and they need help all the time.

You ask them what it's like, you LISTEN to what they have to say with all of your attention because in this time, you don't completely understand and you never will. They are strong, independent beautiful people who don't need saving. Many of them have climbed from the bottom of the steps to the top and deserve every fucking second of praise and reward they recieve. They just need support and friendship. They need RESPECT. They need you to gently grasp their hand as they pass you in the steps, give them a part on the back and say "you're so fucking strong keep pushing yourself." And by listening to their stories when they pause on your step to rest and sharing them as they are said to you word for word is the only way to ever even think of changing the staircase.

You can be angry with where you stand. I want you to be angry. I want you to scream and rage and cry and say "this isnt fair" and then SCREAM EVEN LOUDER. if youre at the top I want you to be angry. I want you to be so mad that you use what you have to understand those below you, o want you to be so mad that you jump off the fucking staircase and say "how the fuck do I break it?" If you're at the bottom I want you to say "SCREW this staircase" and climb the railing to your own success. I want you to find a way to climb without it. To say "Fuck the stair case" and soar because you have just as much potential as the person in front of you and deserve to live and be happy.

Maybe we can never change it. Maybe we are stuck on this stupid staircase, so you give up and ignore it all together. But if we do that we won't ever know if we can weaken the cement holding it together. We never will know if maybe part of the staircase gets cut off or someone gets a chance to hop up a step.

But the first step? (The most difficult for some) is to acknowledge where you stand, and do something about it.

Edit: since I got some feedback Id like to make a couple things clear.

This isn't an exact placement. It's a social exercise. It helps people humble themselves or become more self/socially aware. The act of taking a step forward while knowing someone has to take a step back or even WATCHING someone else take a step back is enough to make a person think. It simply gives you an idea that: "maybe this DOES negatively impact people" or "I take that for granted." It's not an exact place. Of course, if you wanted an exact place you'd need to be severely tested, create multiple staircases for individual topics and then do math to find the average of where you stand. That's not what this is about. It's the action itself.

I would also like to mention that this is just a very basic outline. You can take this game and alter it, use it for specific topics like jobs, mental health, lgbtq+ etc. It's all up to you the questions you ask. Whenever I play this game I always start asking random questions I've seen discussed in the media to see how things going on effect those around me. There will be a couple questions I add up there because they are good valid questions, you can also simply create more and ask yourself them in the moment. Just like how the real world is there are no set structures or rules, just a basic outline.

Also, someone decided to comment on my Grammer and how I worded the questions lmao. I really don't care because posts like these are just brain dumps. They're stuff I just write out quickly on my phone and document for my own sanity. I often don't have the time to sit an plan out brain dumps they just happen, and I have to post them within the time constraints I have. For example I had to write this in less than ten minutes. I also never reread brain dumps because then I end up deleting them. So trust me, I know the grammar isn't great for any of my brain dump posts but that's what they are, dumps. This is just something I do to help connect with people since I have a lot of communication issues and difficulty understanding people, thoughts etc. This game and my brain dumps are how I get through them.

Please, if you think of any good questions feel free to add them in the comments or reblog with more. Check for new questions in the comments.

Again, don't take this too seriously, it's a brain dump and very quickly written. I never expect any brain dumps to get attention, so I feel no need correct grammar or make sure everything is 100% perfect all the time. I just write and go so I can focus on my task at hand. It's that simple.

[azritesx3]

“A Devil’s Love” Chapter 6: I Believe In You

Description: Chloe’s best friend is back, and Lucifer’s charm can’t seem to affect her either. Is she also a miracle child? Or something…more? [Story starts during S2 Ep4, Female Reader Insert]

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AN: Updated March 15, 2020 - Grammer AN: Updated July 21, 2020 - Grammar

Rating: Mature Warning[s]: Swearing, Gore

Show Timeline: Season 2 episode 12 and 13

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A week has passed since you left your "nurse" to heal on your own.

Within the first two days, your body had completely healed. The rest of the five days you spent planning with Alice for the grand opening of the "Circle of Life Veterinary Clinic #2", and also helping out Chloe with any cases since it seems her partner was avoiding her.

When Chloe called you to say she couldn't find any evidence linking Charlotte Richards to the second bomb, thank God, she told you about her "talk" with Lucifer.

Apparently their talk consisted of Chloe explaining how she has been feeling and what made her kiss him, even after he declared all of his flaws to her. Lucifer said nothing, according to Chloe. He just listened intently, and when all was said and done he said he needed to think. Chloe agreed to give him time, but she started expressing her concerns to you after the third day of silence.

Honestly, you couldn't blame Lucifer. You hate talking about emotions too, and Lucifer didn't seem like the kind of guy who easily dealt with this kind of stuff. It's probably why he has a therapist.

However, Lucifer hadn't been completely silent this week. He did text you every day. First, it was just to make sure you were doing well healing, then it just became friendly chatter. You did question him on why he was giving Chloe the silent treatment. You expected him to ignore the question. Instead he shocked you by answering.

What if it's not real?

It looks real to me, Lucifer, and to others.

Yes, well, I'm starting to think that the Detective is no longer immune to me. She has been with me too much and now my charm is coming off on her. She might even be no longer immune to my power...It'll probably happen to you too.

...uh, what? :confusedemoji:

Ah. Never mind, darling. So, not missing my shower, yet? It sure misses you. :devilemoji:

And, that was that. You didn't dare tell Chloe about it, one because she'd be just as confused as you, and two she really didn't need to get the wrong idea about that shower comment.

Today's the day of the grand opening, and everything is going smoothly. Your new workers are happily greeting the pets as well as the owners while handing out coupons, pamphlets on the pet health care, and answering any questions. Alice sits at a booth with a couple of the receptionists taking down new client info and signing up those interested in the insurance. You stand in front of the big red ribbon, talking to the press and answering questions while you wait for the time to tick to 9 am.

Your phone starts ringing Chloe's tone. You excuse yourself and head inside your clinic to answer.

"What's up, Chlo?"

"Hey, Earth. I'm sorry to bother you, but I need you to do something."

You love your BFF, really you do, but you can't cancel this opening. Not only would it be embarrassing, but you were starting to run low on cash, "No problem, so long as I can do it over the phone."

"Don't worry, I know this opening is important to you." You hear her sigh, "This case I'm currently on is...it's bad, Earth. I'm thinking psychopathic bad. Premeditated murder."

Oh shit, "Damn, Chloe. Look if you need me I'll-"

"No no. Focus on your opening today. If I don't get this solved today maybe you can help me tomorrow."

"The opening isn't all day, Chloe. I'll help as soon as it's over."

"You're going to have a lot of first patient paperwork. Take this day for that. Look, I'm calling to ask you to talk to Lucifer."

"He still isn't talking to you?" Yes, you do agree with him needing time because emotions suck, but now it feels like he's stonewalling your friend.

"No. Ella's too busy with this case right now, and I know Lucifer won't even consider listening to Dan. I'm hoping he'll listen to you."

"Alright, Chlo. I'll get your partner back to you."

"Thank you, Earth." You can just feel the tension release from her over the phone, "Tell him to meet me at the Malibu State University so I can catch him up on the case."

"You got it." You hang up and see the time is 8:50 am. You sigh and click on Lucifer's contact number.

Time to come out of hiding you Devil.

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"Lucifer." Linda looks at her Devil patient like a stern mother rather than his therapist at the moment, "You're stalling."

Lucifer finishes his glass of water and leans back on the couch, "I don't know what you're talking about, Doctor."

"You do, Lucifer." Linda's voice becomes stern and matter of factly, "You and Chloe finally reach a point in your relationship where it can move romantically, but after the kiss, you left. After Chloe confesses to you, you push her away. You won't even talk to her, but instead, talk to someone else."

Lucifer shifts on the couch, slightly uncomfortable with where this conversation was going.

"Lucifer." Linda's able to get his eyes to stay on hers, "Who is Earth to you? How do you feel about her?"

"I don't know what you want me to say, Doctor." Lucifer is agitated now, "K9 is just a human who's fun to be around."

"She's also another human woman who is immune to your charms. Another human who you can't get to reveal their desires." Linda eyes her patient carefully.

Lucifer clearly fidgets on the couch. He doesn't speak. Instead, he looks to the window.

"I want you to tell me how you felt when you first met Chloe, to how you felt meeting Earth." Linda interlaces her fingers and rests them on her crossed knees. She waits patiently for his reply.

"Well, after the first day with the Detective I felt that she was a puzzle to solve." Lucifer looks at his therapist with a little smirk, "The first human woman to be completely immune to my charms and power. She's a puzzle and I feel a...a connection to her. A need to solve her, to watch her and be around her."

"Mhmm," Linda nods, "and Earth?"

"K9?" Lucifer's smirk forms into a smile. He gives a light chuckle, "From day one I thought of her as a sassy minx, didn't even care that she wasn't attracted to me. Truthfully, I would be too focused on making sure I had a comeback ready for whenever we'd pass each other in the precinct." His eyes start to look far away, lost in memories.

"That real estate case was the first time we talked more than just in passing. I found that we both enjoy many of the same things and we share common views on various topics. I just-" Lucifer stops.

Linda urges him on, "You have to continue, Lucifer. How do you feel around her?"

"I feel...comfortable with her. I have fun with her, enjoy spending time with her. She doesn't believe in me being the Devil either, but I feel like she tolerates it better." His mind drifts to how you reacted to seeing his scars.

"Maybe there's a reason as to why…" Lucifer whispers this thought to himself.

"Lucifer, I see these two types of romantic feelings often." Linda didn't hear his comment about you, "There's one where someone claims that they feel a connection with the other, which is usually referred to as 'soulmates'-" Lucifer laughs.

"And," Linda continues, "There's the 'normal'. When two people meet and feel nothing until they get to know each other more. Chloe is your 'connection' and Earth is your 'normal'."

"So, which one is the correct choice?" Lucifer's eyes plead to her, "I don't want to mess this up!"

Linda's heart breaks for him, "I can't answer that for you, Lucifer. What you need to do is find an answer to this question," Linda leans forward:

"If Earth never came back, had never entered the picture, would you still be giving Chloe the cold shoulder?"

Linda Martin has never seen a person look as lost as Lucifer Morningstar right now.

"I…" Lucifer's phone starts playing "Who Let The Dogs Out". It's the ringtone you set for yourself after you showed him how to give everyone their own personal alerts.

"It's K9, Doctor. She doesn't usually call-"

"It's ok, Lucifer." Linda gives him a knowing smile, "Our time is up anyways."

Lucifer nods a farewell to her and leaves her office, "K9! To what do I owe the pleasure of having a phone call from you?" Lucifer's smiling ear to ear as he walks out of the building and to his car.

"Chloe called me. Again." You sound annoyed.

His smile falls, "Oh…"

"Look, Lucifer. I get it ok? Feelings are a pain in the ass to deal with, but enough is enough. You're really starting to hurt my best friend and you know I won't stand for it."

Lucifer sighs, "I understand, K9. I just-"

"Lucifer, this call wasn't about you. Chloe needs her partner back."

Lucifer pauses in his walk hearing the worry in your voice. He stands a few feet away from his corvette, "What's wrong?"

"There's a new case and it," you sigh, "it doesn't sound good, Lucifer. This guy is bad, really bad. I can't be there for her today and I don't want her to get hurt." Lucifer doesn't reply right away, and that worries you.

"Lucifer. Chloe isn't going to ask you about anything, ok? She's too focused on stopping this guy. She can't do it without her partner."

Partner...that's right. I'm the Detective's partner, Lucifer thought.

"Well, I suppose I can't leave my partner hanging," Lucifer smirks and finishes the walk to his car.

"No, you can't." Lucifer can tell you are most likely smirking as well, "Not anymore anyway. It's really a dick move."

"Yes, yes." Lucifer sits in his car and starts it up, "Now, where does my partner need me?"

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The grand opening was a huge success! The clinic has plenty of clients to start off with, and more would surely come when people learned just how well of a veterinarian you are.

You sent your workers home to relax for the first official workday tomorrow. Currently, you and Alice are organizing all the new client paperwork in their respective folders for your receptionists.

But you're starting to have a really hard time focusing on the task. Chloe has been giving you hourly updates on the case, and each new piece of information was making you more and more concerned.

This is no ordinary killer.

Alice noticed you starting to slow down and told you she could handle the rest. Normally you would disagree with her, but this case was one a Captain of any department shouldn't avoid. You give her thanks in a hug then fly out the door and into your new car, courtesy of the police heads.

As you drive to the precinct you call Chloe to let her know you're free. She tells you that she and Lucifer are heading to a college party where the next poison victim, Ashley, was currently at. She gives you the address of the second victim, Dr. Gwendolyn Scott, and tells you Dan is currently there with her to make sure she doesn't do this guy's bidding.

When you arrive at the precinct you tell your second, Christopher Miller, to round up a small team and three K9's, and that one of the K9's has to be the new pup, Buster, along with his partner, Jessica Blanch. As he left to do as you ask you go into the female locker room and change into your K9 uniform. When you come out you tell your team the situation, and give them the address to Dr. Scott's house. You couldn't send any with Chloe as much as you wanted to. It would blow her cover at that party.

You arrive at the house and station your men and two of the K9's around the outside of the home. You tell Blanch that she and Buster are to guard the inside.

"Hey, Dan." You approach Detective Dan Espinoza, or as you liked to refer to Lucifer's nickname for him "Detective Douche".

"Hey, Earth! I'm glad you could join in. This guy is…"

"Yeah...it was hard for me to focus during the opening knowing that a person like this was out here." You cross your arms to hide the slight shiver that ran through you.

"That's right, your next clinic! Did everything go well?"

"Yup, better than I expected honestly."

"Well believe it or not, I've heard talk around here about the 'amazing Veterinarian Earth on the east coast'." He winks friendly at you.

"Oh really?" You give him a laugh and a sarcastic look.

"Yeah! I'd overhear convos from new K9 recruits about you. The look on their faces when I told them you used to work here was priceless."

"So that's why I got a whole lot of star-struck eyes when I came back." You and him both share light laughter, "So," you didn't want to, but this friendly chatter had to end, "where's Dr. Scott?"

Dan takes a sidestep and motions with his head behind him. You see a clear line of sight of the Doctor sitting in a formal living room. Blanch is introducing herself and asking permission to roam her home. You see Dr. Scott give a warm smile to her and a nod of approval while she scratches Buster's head.

"How's she doing?" You whisper to Dan.

"As good as one can be when they know they're in charge of someone's life." Dan sighs solemnly.

"Yeah…"

Dan's phone rings and he excuses himself. You walk over to Dr. Scott and introduce yourself, "Hello, Dr. Scott. I'm Earth, Captain of the K9 unit." You hold out your hand and she shakes it. Her palms are sweaty from nerves.

"Hello, Captain. One of your crew just told me how well you are at your job." She smiles at you.

"Aw, Blanch is just a suck-up." You give her a wink and she actually manages a laugh, "You doing alright Doc?"

She sighs, "Honestly, no. I just keep thinking...what if I don't do as this guy requests? Would I really be ok knowing that my decision to say no would end a young girl's life?"

"Do you mind if I watch the video ma'am?" She shakes her head and stands to walk to her desk. She pulls up the email with the video and plays it for you as she sits back in her chair.

This guy...with his dumb mask and "superior" tone of voice made your skin crawl. He was telling the Doctor that in order to receive the antidote to cure Miss. Ashley, she had to destroy her right hand.

God...Why do people like this exist?

The video ends as soon as Dan walks into the room, "Detective Decker called me ma'am." He's speaking to Dr. Scott, "Her and her partner found Ashley at the party, but unfortunately it looks as though she's already been poisoned."

You watch as the Doctor visibly slumps in distraught, "What should I do, Detective?"

"Don't do anything, Doctor. Ashley is at the hospital now and the doctors are working on an antidote. I'm sure they'll make it in time."

Dr. Scott forms a look on her face that mimics how you were feeling.

They won't be able to make it.

Dan leaves the room. You shut off the computer.

"Captain, what should I do? What would you do?"

You don't answer.

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A few hours pass before Dan receives another call from Chloe.

It's not good news.

"She doesn't have much time left, Dan. The Doctors at the hospital can't figure out the antidote."

"Then it is specially made," Dan replies, his face is grim. You stand next to him to hear the conversation.

Unfortunately, Dr. Scott is close enough as well. She heard.

While Dan is still on the phone you hear a rattling noise. You left his side to investigate, and are horrified by the display that's about to happen in the kitchen.

"GWENDOLYN!" You yell the Doctor's name and hold your hands up. When Dan hears you yell he hangs up on Chloe and runs to you, and holds his hands up.

Dr. Gwendolyn Scott stands in front of her kitchen sink. The garbage disposal is running and her right hand is hovering over the opening.

"Dr. Scott, don't do this." Dan pleads with her. You can't speak.

"If I don't do this, Detective, an innocent woman dies. How can I compare my hand to her life."

"Doctor-" Dan starts, but it's too late.

Doctor Gwendolyn Scott shoves her hand into the garbage disposal. You want to vomit as you hear her scream and see blood and bits of flesh erupt from the sink.

Doctor Gwendolyn Scott is a hero.

Dan runs to her, as well as Blanch who hears her screams. You stand still, but find your voice long enough to call for a medic dispatch and Chloe.

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Chloe and Lucifer arrive shortly after the medics have Dr. Scott on a gurney and finish bandaging her ruined hand. The two of them talk with her, Dan steps outside to get air after that gruesome scene, and you-

You're still standing in the same spot. Your focus entirely on the blood and bits of brown skin that cling to the countertop and sink.

This guy is a monster.

"And I thought you looked fit before, but now." You choke on air as your body jumps out of your skin. You whirl around and see Lucifer standing behind you with a hungry look.

"You look delicious in uniform, K9. You should wear it more often."

"I only wear this on important cases, and did you really have to use the word 'delicious' in this scenario?" You give him dagger eyes. You hold your chest to breathe evenly again.

"Hmm." Lucifer looks at the carnage behind you, "Good point." He smiles down at you, "But at least I got you to stop looking at it."

You look up at him, and can't help the tug at your heart. A corner of your mouth lifts slightly, "Yeah...thanks."

Lucifer just continues to smile at you, but now there's a twinkle in his eye.

"So," you cross your arms and smile fully at him, "How's it feel being back with your partner?"

"It was bloody weird." His sheer bluntness made both your eyebrows go up.

"Only at first though. Thankfully, the Detective seems to be back to her 'normal'." Lucifer plays with his cufflinks and side glances in Chloe's direction.

"What happened?"

"She slapped my bum, made inappropriate jokes over a dead body, and suggested making out in the library."

You burst into laughter.

"It's not funny! It was bloody terrifying!" Lucifer complains.

"She was just trying to be more like you, Lucifer." You manage to choke out in your laughter, "Are you saying you're not attracted to yourself?"

"Not if it's the Detective trying to roleplay as me." He visibly shivers and that makes you laugh even more.

The sound of your K9s barking outside the front door immediately cuts off your laughter. Captain mode takes over and you stride away from Lucifer and out the front door to see what was going on. As you pass by Chloe she rests her hand on her holstered gun and gives you a nod.

Miller has a delivery man stopped on the walkway. When you walk over the man says he has a delivery for Doctor Gwendolyn Scott. You question him on who gave him the package, but the man says it just showed up in his pile of runs.

You take the package from him and tell Miller to take him to the station to get an official statement. You go back inside and hand it over to Chloe.

You stand on the other side of the Doctor's gurney, and Lucifer chooses to stand next to you as Chloe unravels the contents.

She looks up and stares at the three of you.

"It's the antidote."

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Dan and Chloe drove to the hospital to give Ashley the antidote before it was too late. Lucifer decided to stay with you to "help" you clear out the Doctor's house and wait for the cleaning crew to finish in her kitchen. You noticed Chloe giving him a "look" when he chose to stay behind. You question him about it and he just shrugs saying, "Hospitals are dreadful places."

As soon as the cleaning crew finished Chloe called you saying to come to the precinct ASAP with Lucifer. Her and Dan were able to get a link between Ashley and the first poisoned victim.

"I had a feeling this case would be an all-nighter." You tell Lucifer as you hang up and you both walk to your car.

"No rest for the wicked, darling." Lucifer smiles devilishly at you. You smile back.

As you two walk into the precinct, you give Alice an early morning text update. You tell her you most likely won't be able to make it in the clinic for the first day. Surprising you, she texts back saying "Good thing there are no major surgeries :winkieface:".

You hate not being at your clinic for the first official day. You and Alice interviewed the workers and other veterinarians extensively, but you always like working the first couple of days with them to make sure they were good. Thank God you have Alice, who you trust wholeheartedly.

You and Lucifer walk into Ella's lab where Dan and Chloe are waiting. You notice that look again on Chloe when Lucifer stays near you while Ella explains the new information.

Dan and Chloe were able to find out from Ashley that she had received a flu shot earlier in the day. Ella was able to find out that the first victim also got the flu shot the same day he was poisoned. Thanks to the information Ashley gave and what Ella could dig up, both students received their shots by Dr. Jason Carlisle.

"Dr. Jason Carlisle?" Dan says in shock.

"You know him?" Chloe questions.

"I know of him. Here," Dan goes to the computer in the room and pulls up traffic security footage. You all watch as this Dr. Jason Carlisle crawls out of a turned over vehicle. In the footage, you can see the driver of the vehicle asking the Doctor for help, but instead the Doctor grabs his briefcase and runs away as the vehicle explodes, killing the driver.

"Hmph. Some doctor." You cross your arms and shake your head at the actions on the video.

"Yeah. After this was televised Dr. Carlise lost his medical license and all respect from his peers." Dan replies.

"He's probably the one responsible for creating these poisons and their unique antidotes." Ella points out.

"He's doing this to show people how he felt he had no choice," Chloe says.

Lucifer scoffs, "Everyone has a bloody choice."

"So, how do we find this guy?" You ask the room.

"Attack his ego." Lucifer says and everyone looks at him, "I know his type. Attack his precious ego and he'll make himself known."

"That's the stupidest thing-" Dan starts but Chloe leaves the lab in a flash and sits at her desk. Everyone, but Ella, follows the Detective and sees that she's pulled up an email and is writing to Dr. Carlise.

Dan is trying to get Chloe to stop, but you and Lucifer are encouraging her. Both of you tell her various ego-tripping things to write, and even though Dan tries to stop her, Chloe hits send.

In less than thirty seconds she receives a reply, and it's a video call. She opens it up and all four of you stare at the man with the mask. Chloe tells him we know who he really is and why he's doing this. The Doctor removes his mask and explains his experiment and how the police presence in Doctor Scott's household "made" her choose to destroy her hand.

You call him out on his bullshit, receiving a low high five from Lucifer, and how Dr. Scott was planning on destroying her hand from the start. Dr. Carlise doesn't believe you and pans the camera to show you all how he already has another "experiment" happening as we speak. He explains the circumstance and ends the call.

Chloe and Ella do quick work in tracing the call to a hospital that Dr. Carlise was rivals of. Chloe pulls Lucifer by the arm to get him to follow and after a look from you, he obliges.

She's your partner. Protect her.

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"This case is now top number one of the worst cases I've been on." Chloe flops down on her couch next to you with a full glass of wine in hand.

Chloe asked you to come to her place to unwind after the hell this case has been. You agreed because you could tell she needed to vent.

She starts talking about the situation that happened over at the hospital Dr. Carlise was holed up in. She talks about how she and Lucifer had to watch helplessly as the Doctor dropped poisonous gas onto the floor, making her and Lucifer unable to just break into the room to save the two students. She talks about her fear of leaving Lucifer alone in that situation in order to catch the Doctor.

She downs her drink quickly after talking about watching the Doctor slit his own throat in front of her. How she watched the life leave his eyes and neck.

But then, without the wine's help, she becomes giddy and warm. She tells you about how happy and relieved and thankful she was when she saw Lucifer step out of the building completely unharmed. She didn't even think to question him about it.

"I immediately hugged him and said how we do make an amazing team." She says with a far off gaze to her empty glass. She then looks at you with a smile and wet eyes, "He said 'This is real, isn't it?", and ...well."

"It's official now?"

"Yeah."

"That's wonderful, Chlo!" You pull your BFF into an immediate hug while ignoring whatever that feeling was in your chest. She laughs while holding back tears, and hugs you back. You two talk about other things for a while, then Chloe excuses herself to the bathroom.

You become concerned after ten minutes of her absence.

"Chloe? You ok?" You get up from the couch and go up to her room. You knock on the open door.

"I...I don't know…Earth!" You push into Chloe's room and into her bathroom at the sound of her voice. She's standing in front of her sink, which has piles of bloody tissues in it.

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"DETECTIVE!"

Lucifer Morningstar storms into Chloe Decker's apartment furiously. He looks around the kitchen and living room to see she wasn't there. A noise from above gives him a direction.

"DETECTIVE! DID YOU KNOW?!" Lucifer yells as he storms upstairs.

"THIS WHOLE BLOODY TIME, DID YOU KNOW?!" Lucifer stomps into her room and sees the bathroom door open.

"DETEC-" Lucifer stops when he sees you holding Chloe by the shoulders.

You look at him, wide-eyed and terrified, "Lucifer…"

"What-"

"Lucifer," Chloe speaks now in a garbled tone. You allow her to turn around to face her partner.

Lucifer immediately steps into Chloe's personal space at the sight of her red eyes and bloody nose.

Chloe cries, "It won't stop."

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You stand inside Ella's lab, waiting for the energetic little ball of happiness to come in. You feel bad asking Ella to come in this late at night and after just finishing the last case, but Ella told you not to worry. An emergency is an emergency and it's her job.

Your fingers tap rhythmically on the table in stress. Seeing your BFF being poisoned by something that no one can make an antidote for, except the guy who just committed suicide, really terrifies you. At least, with the help of Lucifer, you were able to convince Chloe to go to the hospital instead of here.

You hear the door open and look up expecting to see Ella. Instead, your heart drops at the sight of Lucifer and the woman who should be in the fucking hospital.

"Why the fuck-"

"Calm down, Earth." Chloe holds up her hands to you, "I told him to bring me here."

"Yes, much to my disapproval," Lucifer mutters.

"Chloe-"

"You know me, Earth! I can't just sit by and do nothing when I know I can help!" Chloe says.

"But for how long?!" You move to stand right in front of her, "Chloe, you exerting yourself could make this thing spread faster! We already only have twenty hours if that!"

"I know, Earth!" Chloe can feel Lucifer's hand on the small of her back. She takes deep breaths to calm herself, "I know. Look, I'll be careful, and if it gets too much I swear I'll go to the hospital. But, I need to do something."

You just cross your arms and head back to the table. Ella shows up and Chloe gives her a rundown on the situation without telling the poor girl who the real victim was. Ella explains how they did find some poison on the Doctor's body, but the antidote that went with it had been destroyed. Chloe, Lucifer, and you all share a look.

Then some man you've never seen before is calling Lucifer's name and Lucifer pulls the man into the interrogation room. Seeing as how Ella and Chloe didn't seem to question the strange commotion, you decide not to say anything. Lucifer is a strange guy after all.

Ella starts listing out all the beginning signs of the poison, which makes Chloe turn paler and paler. To derail the talk of it you ask if anyone else could have access to the antidote formula. Ella didn't believe so, but Chloe pops in with the hope that maybe the guy who smuggled the stuff might know something. She didn't believe the Doctor would trust that stuff to be handled by just anyone.

She leaves the room to get Lucifer, but when you offer your assistance she says she wants you to stay with Ella, and eventually Dan, to help think up an antidote. Your heart felt strange when you saw her and Lucifer leave the building, with him being closer to her than usual.

She's dying. They're together. You told him to protect her.

You wipe the feeling away and turn to Ella. This was Chloe who was dying, and you need everyone to be working at their best.

You tell Ella the truth.

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Lucifer and Chloe have been gone for about an hour and a half now. Dan showed up not too long after the two left and you, him, and Ella have been working together to try to at least figure out all the ingredients for the antidote.

Lucifer's ringtone starts playing on your phone and you answer it.

"Lucifer-"

"She fainted, K9." He sounds scared. You never imagined hearing Lucifer Morningstar sound scared, "I'm taking her to the hospital now."

"Alright, I'll be right there." You hang up and look up to Dan.

"Dan. Get Trixie."

He didn't even have to ask what for. He was out the door in a flash. Ella told you she'd keep working and to give Chloe her love. You nod and head out the door as fast as Dan did.

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The early morning sun has now risen. Chloe now only has about ten hours left.

You sit in Chloe's room chatting with her about the situation. When you see Lucifer standing at the window you get up and give Chloe a hug. You leave the room and watch from a distance the two of them talk.

You hear Dan and Trixie sign in at the desk behind you, and Lucifer leaves the room just as the ex-husband and daughter come to the door. You notice Dan give Lucifer a look of disapproval before entering the room, and one of your hand’s balls into a fist in your crossed arms.

One of the reasons I dislike that guy. He always puts the blame on someone else.

"I'm sorry." The sound of Lucifer's distress pulls you from your thoughts. You walk to stand in front of him, arms still crossed.

"What for?"

"I didn't protect her. Couldn't protect her. I thought I had by sending her after him, but-" Lucifer starts spilling out. You unfold your arms and place a strong hand on one of his arms, stopping him.

"Lucifer." You stare up at him, "This wasn't your fault. I don't blame you. I blame the bastard of a Doctor who stabbed her with the needle." You let go of him and step to his side so you could watch the tragic family scene through the window.

"I hope you're right about there being a Hell, and I hope he's being tortured as we speak."

"He is, darling. Trust me." Lucifer turns around to watch the scene with you.

"Good. Wish I was the one torturing him, though." You sigh, shoulders slumped, "I'm going to get one of my K9s and just chill here. If she…" you choke up but swallow it, "I'll be here if you need me." You give Lucifer a pat on the shoulder and turn to leave.

"K9."

You stop a few feet from the exit door. You turn your body to face him and your heart breaks at the emotion on his face.

"I promise you, I will get the antidote." Lucifer's tone was serious, but his eyes looked wet. Yet...you felt drawn to him. You could tell he meant what he said.

He always tells the truth.

Unable to contain it any more, tears fall down your face. You run to him and wrap your arms around his neck. You stand on your tiptoes in order to hug him fully.

You're surprised that he doesn't even hesitate to hug you back. He always hesitates when someone hugs him.

"I trust you, Lucifer." You pull him even closer, and only feel slightly ashamed for probably ruining his suit jacket, "I believe in you."

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Chloe Decker now only has about three hours left.

And you could do nothing.

Lucifer had promised to save her, to somehow get the antidote formula. You had no clue how he could get it, or why you seemed to trust him. You haven't seen him since you hugged him. You've tried texting him to find out how it was going, but he didn't reply. So now you were concerned for his safety because he always replied.

Dan and Ella were having a hell of a time just trying to get the ingredients. Ella texted you not too long ago saying that they're just missing one more, and she thinks she knows where to get it.

And what are you doing? You're standing outside the doors to the lobby area. If you sit in the lobby you'd be looking too much into Chloe's room window, and from the talk of the doctors that were walking by it didn't sound like she was doing too good.

You can't watch your best friend deteriorate so fast in front of your eyes. Besides that, you feel like you would get in Trixie's way. She hasn't left her mother's side since she arrived.

You hear Buster whine, and you scratch his head absentmindedly. When you left Lucifer you went to the precinct to grab the first K9 you saw. For protection for Chloe, and comfort for you. You love your dogs.

Buster nudges his nose into your palm. You look down at him.

"What is it, bud?"

He whines some more.

Sorry…out…

"It’s not a problem, bud. I could use some fresh air anyways."

You take Buster to the small green area across the street from the hospital. You lean up against a tree and look up to the sky. You take a deep breath in of city air, and can't help but imagine Chloe never taking a breath again. Never growing old or seeing Trixie grow into a wonderfully strong woman. Never playing with possible grandchildren. Never being happy with Lucifer--

You release the breath, "Well, if Heaven's real then she'll be with her dad at least."

You look back to find Buster, "Come on boy." He trots to you and you both walk back across the street and into the hospital.

"Captain!"

You see one of the hospital security guards run to you, "The patient, Chloe Decker, has to move to another room, but there's a man who's blocking the way! He's pushed aside every one of us!"

You nod to the guard and head for the stairwell. You and Buster run up four flights and push through the lobby door.

You watch as two more security guards get tossed aside like dolls back into the lobby. You stride forward, gun aimed and Buster between your legs, "HANDS UP, NOW!"

The man turns around. It's the same man that called for Lucifer in the precinct.

You squint at him suspiciously, "Who are you?!" Buster growls beneath you.

The man looks surprised, "So you're Earth, or well, I guess I should be saying K9."

You grip your gun harder. Buster feels you tense up and walks a bit closer to the man, teeth-baring, "Who the hell are you?!"

It's like he just realized now what kind of predicament he's in, "I'm sorry," he holds his hands up to you, "I'm Amenadiel, Lucifer's brother."

You snort.

"Captain! He won't let me get my patient to a more appropriate room!" The doctor yells from behind Amenadiel.

"Well, as Lucifer's supposed brother, you should know he wouldn't appreciate someone getting in the way of saving Chloe's life." You keep your aim trained on Amenadiel’s chest.

"I do know that, and that's why I can't let Chloe leave this room."

Now you're confused, "Why?"

"Lucifer is getting the formula as we speak, but Chloe needs to stay right here."

"Why?"

Amenadiel shakes his head, "You won't believe me. Look," he puts his hands down and takes a step towards you. You stand your ground and Buster barks at him in warning, "Do you trust Lucifer?"

You’re quiet for a beat. You carefully study this "brother", "I do."

"Then please, do not allow Chloe to leave here." You can hear the pleading in his voice. He wants you to believe him.

You look over his shoulder to see Chloe becoming paler in her bed. She starts to shake from a seizure and the doctor's nurses hold her down.

The doctor looks at you, "Please! She needs help!"

You look between her, Amenadiel, and Chloe.

I trust you, Lucifer. I believe in you.

You release air through your nose and holster your gun. You order Buster to guard the door and not let anyone in or out. You stand next to Amenadiel, "I know she does, Doctor." You cross your arms and stand firm.

Unbeknownst to you, Amenadiel looks at you with interest.

"Chloe Decker is not leaving this room until Lucifer Morningstar returns with the formula."

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You aren't a rogue cop for long.

You feel somebody grip your shoulder from behind. You whirl around ready to punch whoever it was that got past Buster, but your fists immediately turn into hands of support.

“Lucifer!”

He looks like he just came back from the dead. His clothes are completely disheveled and he's sweating profusely. He holds onto your shoulders tightly and you keep him upright by his underarms with the help of Amenadiel.

He mutters out the formula to the doctor and she runs off to make it with the ingredients Ella dropped off not too long ago. You and Amenadiel move him to a chair in the room, but he refuses to sit and instead leans against the wall. Amenadiel leaves quickly, and you’re left “alone” with Lucifer.

“Lucifer…” You start to choke up again. He looks so awful and it’s breaking you.

What did he do?

“Lucifer.” You can’t stop the tears again. You let them fall free while you use both hands to hold onto his face. You wipe the sweat from his brow and try to straighten his hair, “Are you ok?”

“She’ll be ok now,” he breathes out. He looks over at Chloe, “That’s all that matters.”

“No, Lucifer. That’s not all that matters.” He looks down at you, eyes filled with confusion.

He’s waiting for you to say something, but you’re too choked up on emotion.

I hate emotions, too.

You just wrap your arms around his neck like the first hug, except this one was different. Tighter, different emotions unspoken. He does hesitate on this hug, but eventually his arms find their way around your waist and he holds on tight.

He rests his head on your shoulder, “Earth…” he breathes on your neck.

You remove your head from his shoulder and he does the same from yours. You both stare into each other's eyes deeply. One of his arms snakes it’s way up your back so his hand can hold the back of your head. Your faces start to come closer together, but you can’t tell if he’s doing it or you, or maybe both.

“I have it!” You both blink at each other, seeming to wake up from whatever force was pulling you both. You both look to the side to see the doctor holding a syringe. A nurse puts a tube inside Chloe’s vein and the doctor rushes over. You twist around in Lucifer’s arms so that your back is to him.

You expected him to remove his hands, but instead he keeps one arm around your waist while the other hangs onto the wall. You feel him tug you closer as you two watch Chloe’s vital signs fall back to normal.

“It worked! She’s going to make it!” The doctor says happily. You smile at Chloe as new tears fall from your eyes.

You didn’t see Lucifer’s face turn grim.

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Lucifer was with Chloe when she first woke up. The two talk briefly before he leaves and tells everyone in the lobby that she’s awake now. He watches as Ella, Dan, Trixie, and you rush into the room. He looks from the window all of you smiling, laughing and hugging Chloe.

He puts his hands in his pockets and stands firm. After one last look at you, he leaves.

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Three days have passed since Chloe’s poisoning. She had to stay in the hospital for the rest of that day just to ease the doctor's mind that she really was cured. You stayed with her that day along with everyone else.

Except for Lucifer. After you greeted Chloe from waking up you left the room to look for him, but the receptionist said he had left. You thought nothing of it. He had looked to have a rough day after all.

But after twenty-four hours of zero response you started getting worried. Chloe kept asking for him and nobody, including yourself and Maze, seemed to be able to get a hold of him.

In present time you're at your clinic. It's past 9 pm and everyone went home for the day. You stayed behind to lock up and look at patient reports for the day. You finish putting the reports away and counting the money. Just as you lock the front door Chloe’s ringtone went off.

“Chloe, you alright?” You answer as you get into your car.

“He’s gone, Earth.” She’s trying to keep from crying, “I’m at his penthouse and he’s...everything’s covered in sheets.” Chloe can't hold the tears in any longer.

“He’s gone!”

[isobel-thorm]

2019 in Fic

Tagged by @starsandskies love you uwu

Favorite fic you wrote this year:  Blood Dragon 1 and a 1/2. Though the Formerly New Years fic with Grant, Nic and @amistrio‘s Matthew putting John on blast is shaping up to be a fun ride, and technically I wrote some of it on New Years Eve so it counts. 

Least favorite fic you wrote this year: The main one I can think of is Blood on My Name. It’s not bad/I don’t hate it, but I was already like... four chapters in before I realized that for bunker fics you absolutely need a solid plot and I... didn’t have one for the bunker/what’s supposed to be the main brunt of it, and that’s why its suffering now. 

Favorite line/scene you wrote this year:

Haven’t gotten that far in the published part, but in one Last Line Memes for the fake dating AU I have that bit where John’s dealing with Nic’s father for her and her mother and her dad asks him who he is:

 “Me? I’m the monster you should’ve been weaving stories about to your daughter at night instead of beating the shit out of her mother in the next room.”

Also, another Last Line meme thing whose fic didn’t get published yet: 

“Robin Hood and Maid Marian, he’s coming your way. Get ready to tail,” came Cameron Burke’s voice.

“Robin Hood and Maid Marian?” Nicolette Raylan muttered into her mic from her spot right beside him. “Do we really need the codenames? Is this your attempt at bonding again, Burke? Because you’re past the New Guy stage.”

“I don’t mind being called Robin Hood,” John cut in.

“She’s Robin Hood. You’re Marian,” Burke corrected.

John shut his mouth firmly and tried to drown out Nicolette’s answering cackle.

Total number of words you wrote this year:  ~140,000

Most popular fic this year: On AO3: My Way, though technically I published in 2018, most of it was in 2019. Not including that, Blood on My Name. On here: We’ll Meet Again, where me, the Anti Angst Queen, went and got angsty and y’all were very mad. 

Least popular fic this year:  On AO3:  Going off of AO3′s stats where it’s the least popular of the top 5: Helpless. Which personally makes no sense to me, but hey, that’s the style of digging I wanna do currently.  On here: Two little Johnnic ficlets were tied. One where he’s trying to convince her to stay in bed and not go to see Joseph, and John/Nic/Sharky where Sharky was off adventuring with Hurk and they welcome him home . Actually I’m sure the Mafia 3 ones were less popular but I have no idea how I tagged them.

Longest completed fic you wrote this year: My Way, though again, not counting that one, Home, at  4834 words. Because what is this “completed” of which they speak?

Shortest completed fic you wrote this year: That same little “John’s a needy lil shit and wants his wife’s attention focused all on him and not his brother” bit

Longest WIP of the year: Blood on My Name

Shortest WIP of the year: I’ve got an unpublished soulmate AU in the works at about ~700 words so far. 

Favorite character to write about this year: John Seed. Or lbr my gal Nic. Though Cal’s fun too. Is just saying “the Raylans” as a unit cheating? 

Favorite writing song/artist/album of this year: Andy Grammer still owns my ass and I’ve written to / had fics based on a good chunk of his discography. 

A fic you didn’t expect to write: Never thought I’d actually do a soulmate AU and yet here we are. Also, forgive the sudden fandom switch but I didn’t expect to EVER breathe life back into my Bitten fic from like... four or five years ago but then y’all finally discovered Jeremy Danvers. It only took y’all two years too long. 

Fic(s) you completed this year: My Way, random oneshots, We’ll Meet Again, Home, etc. I played it safe and kept a lot of stuff short and sweet and all my WIPs suffered, but that’s because I’m an idiot who bites off more than they can chew all the time. 

Fics you’ll continue next year: Blood on My Name, the Tremors AU, the Fake Dating AU, the Soulmate AU, Flu Season 2, that one... US Marshals AU. A L L  T H E   A U s

Current number of WIPs: I’m afraid to look tbh. 

Any new fics to start next year: I mean it’s not ‘start start’ but as mentioned there’s that soulmate AU I want to actively get going with instead of jotting a couple of things down. I wanna try my luck at more than one Gatthew fic but we’ll see. 

Most memorable comment/review:  Again, around the start of the Fandom Drama I Was Unknowingly Involved In That I Only Had an Inkling Was Going On, I had started to sense that people had started to hate Nic/the content I had for her and I was feeling super low about a lot and I threw one of the ficlets up on AO3 or whatever for shits and giggles, someone commented “Yay! Nic’s back!” and I honest to God cried happy tears. Also, general shouting in Discord/jokes about John not deserving Grant OR Matthew somehow giving birth to the Good Ship Gatthew and I love it to pieces. 

Events you participated in this year:  Far Cry 5 Week, and the Secret Santa my discord server is doing. 

Fics you wanted to write but didn’t: Christmas/New Years Eve Gatthew, the Johnnic wedding, and like... three different John/Nic/Sharky smut ideas. 

Favorite fic you read this year/ A fic you read this year you would recommend everyone read : The entire series of @amistrio‘s Let the Redeemed of the Father Tell Their Story. I will never shut up about this series, ever, because I love it so much. It’s basically New Divide’s soulmate because it’s the same concept, but gay and also with far superior writing, no, I don’t take criticism, don’t boo me, I’m right. And then comes the No Cult AU for them,   all these blessings shall come upon you (and overtake you). Then comes @chyrstis’  But if we go, we go together John/Hana/Sharky perfection, because solidarity. Hana’s perfect, and the other stuff with Hana in it is just as perfect. 

Number of favorites/bookmarks you made this year: See last again. I really don’t use the bookmark feature for anything. 

Favorite fanfic author of the year: (deep breath) @amistrio @chyrstis @seedlingsinner @seedsplease @geronimo-11 @josephseeds-rosary @jackalopestride @teamhawkeye @foofygoldfish I love you all and your work dearly and I would literally die without both. 

[alwaysspeakshermind]

Top 5 Anti-Varchie Arguments & Why They Make No Sense

#5: “Varchie’s so bland/there’s no chemistry between them at all.”

[Note: I would like to apologize in advance to anyone/everyone upon whose timelines I’m inflicting this series of semi-rant-y posts. Someone on Pinterest felt the urge to leave an outraged comment about why they hate Varchie on one of my pictures (clearly, they confused Pinterest with Twitter/Tumblr/Instagram), and it was so unnecessary and full of all the usual incorrect twaddle I see used on SM to discount A&V’s relationship that it annoyed me and made me decide to go ahead and start writing all the refutations I’ve been keeping to myself since S2 released its first trailer and the essay-length grumbles began. Because as much as I try to steer clear of entering this type of fight, I have trouble standing by when obviously-wrong conclusions are being drawn from obviously-misconstrued information and being presented as fact. And since it doesn’t take me long to write analysis-type posts, my usual ‘I don’t have time for this nonsense’ excuse is kind of removed.]

Right, so…chemistry. Two quick things:

Number one, on-screen chemistry is about rapport between actors, and just because a specific romantic pairing does not personally do it for you does not mean that they lack chemistry. 

Number two, in acting/performance art, chemistry is a tangible, quantifiable aspect necessary to any and all interactions between performers, so it is essentially false to state that any pairing that has made it to TV is utterly without chemistry. For writers to allow a couple to happen at all, for actors to even be cast in the first place, at least some chemistry must be present; it’s simply a matter of what kind of chemistry each pairing has, how much, and how well that chemistry translates onscreen.

Random example: Prior to Friends, Lisa Kudrow (Phoebe) was cast as Roz in Fraiser, but was subsequently replaced with Peri Gilpin because the latter’s onscreen chemistry was better with Kelsey Grammer (Fraiser). It was not a romantic chemistry issue. It was not a no chemistry, period between the actors issue. It was just that there wasn’t enough of the right kind of chemistry, which made the Kudrow/Grammar dynamic less compelling than desired.

Chemistry is, however, notoriously difficult to explain if you’re not familiar with most generally accepted forms of film-criticism, so I feel it’s useless to try proving anything with examples pulled directly from source material—for instance, anyone relatively adept at dissecting performance can see at once how the entire Riverdale pilot showcases the chemistry between Archie and Veronica so that the closet scene feels like a natural culmination of something that began the second they saw each other. If you can watch that episode from start to finish, pronounce “no chemistry” and actually believe it, providing textual evidence and defining terms is going to be a waste of time.

So instead, I’ll take the common sense route and just point out you may rest assured that with Riverdale, a show based in roughly half a century’s worth of comic history, everyone involved in the casting knew going into it that romantic chemistry between the actors playing Archie and Veronica was an absolute must. KJ Apa and Camila Mendes would not be playing the parts they are if they were unable to create any sort of romantic chemistry between them, and S1 would most certainly not have chosen to set up a Varchie relationship from the get-go—much less have continued to emphasize a budding Varchie relationship throughout—if that romantic chemistry had not translated onscreen. Ditto for S2 and S3.

Also, take my word for it: I’m here. It takes a *lot* of chemistry for me to get involved in a ship (to the point that nearly every ship I have ever shipped has involved actors who were married/dating at the time, or eventually married/began dating), and it really takes a lot of chemistry to get me involved with a teen ship because I didn’t like most teen shows back when I was a teen. Yet Varchie’s chemistry popped enough onscreen to reel me in. 

What does all this have to with anything?

Well, in short, claiming Archie and Veronica are “bland” or “without chemistry” is attempting to apply objective terms to a subjective opinion, so if you’re going to do that, it automatically opens your contention up to a couple of counter-arguments:

(1) You are objectively wrong, because by all acting terms/definitions/standards, Archie and Veronica have chemistry. 

(2) You are objectively wrong because you are in essence saying that you do not see/understand the verifiable evidence set before you. (In other words, you have metaphorically gazed upon the color red and announced “this is not red.”)

(3) You are subjectively wrong because you are stating your based-in-subjectivity opinion as fact which inherently implies that you believe subjectivity is allowable in an argument. And if you believe subjectivity is allowable in an argument, than you are essentially contending that someone else’s opposing opinion is just as valid as yours, meaning anyone who says “Varchie has the best chemistry” is just as correct as you are, and your entire point becomes moot. 

Although you may not like Varchie’s dynamic/prefer another dynamic over theirs, attempting to file your dislike under the headings of blandness or zero chemistry simply labels you as someone who either cannot grasp the concept of chemistry in relation to acting, or someone who is too stubborn to admit to its presence. (And to be frank, neither option paints your intelligence in a favorable light.)

Personally, I’d like to think this argument gets used so often because most people just don’t understand what onscreen chemistry truly is/how it can be platonic or sexual and what denotes platonic or sexual/how it can exist between actors who hate each other and not exist between actors who love each other/how it can be organic or crafted through sheer effort, etc. Or that it keeps recurring because people just don’t interact with enough different types of people to understand that certain actions mean different things depending on who’s doing them.

But while I get that people have different preferences when it comes to romantic dynamics and interpret certain actions differently, based on the always-solid-yet-consistently-underrated performances KJ Apa and Camila Mendes have been delivering since the pilot, I have trouble buying that the oft-repeated cry of “no chemistry” is due solely to a feeble understanding of what that term means. Based on the inconsistent scads of oddball scenes/out-of-context facial expressions I’ve seen cited as “proof,” it seems a lot more like this argument is a camouflaged complaint against storylines people would like to have for their favorite couple, or the fact that one romantic trope was chosen over another (both of which are other posts entirely).

So, yeah. Pro-tip: choosing an argument that puts you in the position of disputing readily-observable facts is never the way to go. 

If you hate the Varchie pairing and want to talk about how much you hate it, okay. It’d be a nice gesture if you didn’t do in the Varchie tags or on people’s pictures that were literally only tagged Archie/Veronica which means you had to search those terms to announce your dislike and who on earth deliberately goes looking for things they hate, seriously, go search happy puppies or something instead, I promise it’ll make you feel better. You’re allowed to hate things, and you’re absolutely allowed to irrationally hate things. Just don’t confuse your irrational hatred with reasonable dislike, because the two reactions are not at all interchangeable. 

Also? Maybe don’t try so hard to justify irrational hatred with the ‘Varchie has no chemistry’ argument, because any viewer with a working brain can see at once that the visible evidence simply doesn’t back you up. And citing a source (scenes from the show) that disproves your entire thesis doesn’t exactly lend credence to your assertion.

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Arrow - ‘Emerald Archer’ Review

“We knew what we were getting ourselves into when we agreed to this.”

By framing its 150th episode with a documentary, Arrow does what it does best. Focusing on the cost of being a hero and the damage created when you don’t succeed by revisiting the past and simultaneously resetting the stage for things to come.

From the first moment, we knew we were in for something different.  Gone was Oliver’s opening monologue followed by the requisite action scene.  Instead we open with Warner Bros. Pictures title card and a posthumous interview with Quentin Lance expounding on the need for vigilantes even as he admits they work outside the law.  The voiceover poses the age-old question – are vigilantes heroes or criminals.  

It is soon clear that Oliver’s commitment to transparency includes allowing a documentary crew full access to his home and at work.  His hope is to win back the city’s trust and become the hero he always wanted to be.  Towards that end, he candidly recounts the decisions he made and admits to his failures.

He’s not the only one.  Either the documentarian is an adept detective, which is not out of the realm of possibility given that she’s been working on this for years, or Oliver also offered up his friends and family to be interviewed.  Regardless of how she found her interviewees, it’s obviously Oliver did not coach them on what to say.

Barry claimed Oliver was unbelievably damaged before hastily backtracking in fear of harming Oliver’s reputation further or admitting to knowledge of his formerly secret identity.  Curtis called him flawed although stated he was a hero.  A season 1 Diggle claims there is no way Oliver could be a hero while the present-day version just said that Oliver has “grown.”  Thea, Sara, and Sin, discuss vigilantism without ever mentioning Oliver by name while Rory and Rene only mention their own exploits.  Laurel, forced to take on the mantle of her Earth-1 namesake is blunt when she claims that vigilantes cannot be law-abiding and they know it, which is probably one of the few things on which she and Ricardo Diaz can agree.  

And they’re right.  The reason the police come up short when faced with these criminals is not that they are incompetent, ignorant, or untrained.  It’s that they are obligated to work within the confines of the law.  Vigilantes are not.  How many times has Oliver and Company broken into random tech company #3 to steal the one gadget that can defeat this week’s villain or hacked into a government or military database to obtain someone’s personal information – warrant be damned.  If the police were allowed to use the vigilantes’ methods, they could have the vigilantes’ results.  We should be happy they can’t.

These questions are brought to a halt when the SCPD investigate a possible shooting and vigilante sighting only to discover a maskless and winded Rene.  Rene explains that the New Green Arrow has been captured and Oliver’s first response was to turn off the cameras.  He’s fine with the documentary digging into his own life but not his sister’s.  Or his son’s but we’ll get to that shortly.  

Giving Oliver the benefit of the doubt, I’ll say that these events provide him with an opportunity for a little transparency with his friends too.  Oliver comes clean to both Diggle and Dinah about his relationship with Star City’s newest vigilante.  While neither was particularly surprised by Ollie keeping a secret, they were shocked at the secret itself.  That doesn’t stop either of them backing his play.  Diggle uses A.R.G.U.S.’s super secret satellites to rescue Emiko and Dinah uses all of SCPD’s resources to locate her captor, not that they are successful.  

Which is when Diggle approaches Oliver with the idea of getting the Band back together.  Star City Police Department may not be able to handle the Chimera but Team Arrow can.  Diggle counters Oliver’s argument that Team Arrow no longer exists by saying it does. It’s just morphed into a different form.  Dig informs Oliver that Team Arrow is willing to go into the field with him even at the risk of violating the Anti-Vigilante law.  

This only makes sense if my previous argument is true considering that with the exception of Rene all of Team Arrow is involved in law enforcement of one stripe or another and could assist in that capacity.  By choosing to go out as vigilantes they are not hamstrung by those rules and regulations.  For whatever reason, Oliver agrees.  

Realizing Chimera will use the Mayor’s debate with Oliver as an opportunity to attack Oliver, Team Arrow lies in wait.  As expected, Team Arrow succeeds where the SCPD fails and is thanked for their help by being arrested.  All of which is captured on film.  This leaves Mayor Pollard in a bit of a quandary since the Anti-Vigilante law she wrote is still in effect.  Her solution is to deputize all of them.  

With that in mind, Oliver returns to the Bunker, film crew in tow, with the intent to rebuild.  We never get to see the documentary’s conclusion about the nature of vigilantes.  Although, if Maya is to be believed it must have shown them in a positive light.  However, given her comments regarding vigilantes being the death of Star City and getting what they deserved I doubt the Mayor’s solution was successful.

The B plot revolved around William’s return home.  He’s brimming with anger at being sent away to boarding school, at not being able to come home for the holidays, at Felicity’s newfound security consciousness and probably a little at himself.  William got expelled from school and apparently made an impressive effort to hide the fact.  The feat might have fooled just about anyone but Felicity.  We also get hints of the William yet to come – from his recognition of Felicity’s security measures to the budding friendship between him and Zoe and his reluctance to discuss his school crush.  Please, please, please let the reason for his dismissal be something other than his sexual orientation.  

Why William was expelled is just one of a multitude of questions I have.  Does the resurrection of Team Arrow mean Diggle and Curtis quit their day job?  And does it include Emiko?   And is Ollie in charge or Dinah?  And, and, and...

Other episodes may have more emotional heft but this was brilliantly crafted.  There was nothing I did not love.   However, given what we know of the future I’m left with one fervent hope.  That Nora West-Allen of this season’s Flash is correct and the timeline is malleable.

5 out of 5  Black Watch Satellites

Parting Thoughts:  

This episode was filled with Easter Eggs.  From Sin’s last name is the name of one of her co-creators to Kevin Meltzer being named after two of The Green Arrow’s more famous writers, Kevin Smith and Brad Meltzer.  The streets Nutter and Winter were none other than  Pilot Director extraordinaire David Nutter (Arrow, Sarah Connor Chronicles, Supernatural, Smallville, Dark Angel, Roswell, and the upcoming Batwoman just to name a few) and former Arrow Director of Photography and Producer Glen Winter.  And lest we forget the Documentarian was named after CW President Mark Pedowitz.

In case you missed it, the voice over was narrated by Kelsey Grammer.

Was Diggle going to tell Oliver about Diaz when Curtis interrupted?   The world may never know.

Rory and Helena are missing?   Helena’s no big loss considering she’s more villain than vigilante.  But Rory?  Say it ain’t so!

Connor was supposed to be Diggle’s son, right?  So what does that make Maya?  Her hatred of vigilantes has a distinctly personal tinge.  

Quotes:  

Dinah: “He just dresses in green leather and runs around with a bow and arrow. Which sounded a lot better in my head.  

Rene: “You have a cute shiny new badge (turns to Dinah). Thought about giving one to anyone else?

Mayor Pollard: “Your little stunt of deputizing Oliver Queen has set off a firestorm.” Dinah: “That’s funny. I actually think that’s a different superhero.”

Felicity: “It wasn’t so much a suggestion as it was one of those ‘mom’ things where if you don’t talk now, you’re grounded.  So...”

Diggle: “Who’d have known that wearing a hood and carrying a bow and arrow runs in the gene pool?”

Diggle: Oliver needs access to the Black Watch satellites." Curtis: “Does he know about those?  (To Oliver) You know about those?” Oliver: “You’ve met my wife, right, Curtis?

Curtis: “We gotta call him something.  I thought ‘Chimera’ sounded cool. Ok, do I look like Cisco?”

Rene: “Do your folks know you’re here.” William: “I’m not 7.”

Rene: “Sure, you guys can have the living room. I’ll be in the next room.  Cleaning my gun...”

Rene: “You are so stubborn.  You sure you and Oliver aren’t related?”

Dinah: “We have a new problem.” Oliver: “Don’t we always?”

Officer: “SCPD.  Don’t move! Freeze!” Curtis: Maybe you were all too busy being unconscious, but we just saved everyone in here."

Nick: “Fans have a strange way of showing their affection.”

Laurel: “Get that camera out of my face before I give you an enema with it.”

William: “Where’s Dad?” Felicity: “Oh, he just came across a very unexpected- completely expected setback.”

Pollard: “Oh, it’s a party.”

Shari loves sci-fi, fantasy, supernatural, and anything with a cape.  

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… so, let’s get this started. i am going to make this clear from the beginning: i don’t write smut/lemon! (mainly because I don’t know how). if you don’t like dark content (angst, pain …) in mangas, novels and other literature, don’t follow.

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Haters gonna hate (and thanks)

Hey guys!  So, I just wanted to pop up and say thank you! After I posted a respond to a hate comment a lot of you guys came up and stood up for me and sent me really sweet and supportive messages! I really, really appriciate that and it made me so happy to get this kind of feedback and people standing up for me. Not only today but since day one and up to today! I’m so thankful and so happy that you guys seem to enjoy my work! It really does inspire me to keep on writing! ANNDDD we actually just reached over 50.000 followers! Which is absolutely crazy so thank you! It’s funny because when I started this blog I never expected it to grow as fast as it did or at all! I just needed a place to get my thoughts out and to express my feelings without bothering my one friend I felt comfortable sharing my writing with.  That’s the other thing, I was never comfortable sharing my passion of writing with my friends and family, so I chose to share it here with you guys and I don’t regret it! So, I just wanted to thank every single one of you for reblogging, liking and messages me! It actually means a lot, I can’t even put words on it (oddly enough) 

Also, just want to remind you that I have my inbox open so if you need someone to talk to or just wanna have someone to talk to, I am here and I’ll try my best to respond and help! I’m all down to be ya friend!  Also feel free to ask me questions and I’ll also try and answer as good as I can! (Also wanna apologise if i have any spelling or grammer errors in any of my posts, english isn’t my first language. So feel free to (kindly) correct me) Again, thank you and I love you all! - R  

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As an American, US grammer pisses me off to. What in particular is bothering you?

Actually I have no problems with US grammar in general. (I’m sorry anon, but it’s not my grammar, and aside from the habit of removing inoffensive letters like ‘u’ from colour, it’s awesome). I mean if you’re raised a USian, it’s a perfectly fine set of grammar rules to follow and that’s the way it should be?

So there’s my short answer :D US grammar gets a thumbs up.

The longer answer is more complex. So that’s being shoved under a cut.

What bothers me is the culturally imperialistic attitudes that US grammar should be applied to english-speaking authors from the UK, Canada, Australia and other english-speaking countries. We all have our own grammar rules, they are also each perfectly fine sets of grammar rules to follow, and each have a lengthy history behind them. Not only that, but it‘s what we see in our published books (US folk may not know this, but books written by US authors are often re-’translated’ into Australian grammar (or UK grammar and so on) before being reprinted here under whichever publisher or imprint handles it - this, the job of localisation, is almost always the job of the in-house editors that a publisher hires), it’s what we see in our newspapers, in our dictionaries and thesaurses, and so on.

The internet clouded that a little, with globalisation you get the callous hammer of cultural imperialism. Suddenly most of the blog posts you’re seeing on the internet are in American English, for example. But that’s cool too, that happens - you’ll get marked down though, if you dare to let that slip into your essays or fictional writing at university or highschool or even primary school; so our localised grammar is very much taught strongly to us. It means that the inherent spellcheck for my browser flags words that I know are correct, like colour, globalisation and localised. I have to jump through some hoops to change that, but as long as it stays away from my word processor, I’m okay with it, lol.

So you have this thing called localisation editing. It is a process of editing something to fit local grammar - because if you open up to global english-language submissions (and most publishers do), you also open up to getting a whole bunch of texts following different (but perfectly sound) grammar rules. Usually you can stipulate a couple of rules yourself - times new font in pt 12, margins of whatever width, paragraph indents and not tabbing. Etc. Simple things that authors just about anywhere can generally follow fairly easily.

Localisation is not an easy process. Think about how long you spend learning the grammar of your country, and then think about how jarring it is sometimes to come across obvious differences. Then think about all the things that are invisible to you because you take them for granted. Think that there are huge, encyclopedic compendiums of grammar rules, that people can go to university and study for three years - just that one set of grammar rules, not for any other country - to become an editor, and still be considered a ‘newbie editor’ because there’s so much to learn and so many ways to apply it to texts.

What bothers me is when US publishers forego paying their editors by asking for authors to do this form of localisation editing labour for them for free. It takes money from people who have trained as editors to know how to do this. It forces authors into an uncomfortable position of trying to apply what they know of another country’s grammar rules to their own grammar - sometimes this is easy, a search replace for colour to color? Sure. But for punctuation, sentence structure, or even word differences, or the commonality of some cursewords over others for example, no. Is it an em-dash here or an en-dash? Is it a quote or a quotation or something else? Is this italics or underlined? 

That level of localisation is a job for the professionals. Professional authors are professional authors, but they are not professional editors.

So it bothers me when US publishers in the m/m industry in particular, offload this burden so they don’t need to hire as many editors, and foist it upon authors outside of their country.

Also, generally speaking, I just like writing in the grammar rules I was taught. I enjoy Australian grammar. I’m glad that I know our spoken dialogue in fiction is enclosed in these: ‘ ‘ instead of these “ “ and that the latter will get you marked down for ‘Americanisation.’ (The former will get 15 year old Americans coming into your AO3 comment box to explain how you’re ‘doing it wrong’ because of the ubiquity of US grammar rules lol). As far as I’m concerned, outside of arguments over the Oxford comma (for the record, I’m against, lol, even though I think the memes in favour of it are hilarious), I think they are a logical set of rules that help improve the readability of what I write, and they aren’t impenetrable to people who don’t live in Australia. This is proven by y’know, all the people who read my fics who aren’t in Australia. Which is pretty much almost all of you.

(Hi folks you’re all awesome).

So it’s not really US grammar on its own that’s the problem, on its own it’s just an innocuous set of grammar rules. There’s a great book on the subject of American language by the way, by Bill Bryson, called Made in America: An Informal History of the English Language in the United States which is awesome and very entertaining.

Also, there’s places where I do actually Americanise my writing a little. I use pants instead of trousers - that doesn’t come naturally to me and it jars me every time I do it. I tend to use yard instead of garden, I often use sweater instead of jumper, and I occasionally use trash instead of bin. These things - if I had used them as a kid - would have earned a disapproving glower from any adult nearby along with a sharp ‘you’re not an American, don’t use that language!’ Lol. There’s a few others that are probably so invisible to me now I don’t know what they are anymore. Needless to say were I submit that work to an Australian publisher all that stuff would get corrected back to appropriate Australian grammar.

Anyway, mostly, I find it frustrating that there are publishers in the insular m/m publishing bubble that place the burden of localisation editing on authors (which is inappropriate, and also a very incomplete process, and it shows - it’s why m/m editing often comes under fire; probably because they expect authors who haven’t been trained in formal editing to do so much of it for no compensation, while asking editors to do too much for little pay.) It’s also why a lot of m/m authors are turning to self-publishing. It’s not just me that finds this infuriating; I’m not alone. There’s editors and authors aplenty out there who hate it, and are often outraged to find that this is the way it’s done in this particular genre.

But hey, it’s no skin off my nose, self-publishing is a new and incredible frontier, and I know plenty of Australian editors who can look over my work before I publish it (and US betas who can go ‘um what’s a ute?’ - utility vehicle btw and help out on that side of things).

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XML Multiple Choice Questions :-

1. What does XML stand for? A. eXtra Modern Link B. eXtensible Markup Language C. Example Markup Language D. X-Markup Language Ans: B 2. What is the correct syntax of the declaration which defines the XML version?: A. B. C. D. None of the above Ans: B 3. Which statement is true? A. All the statements are true B. All XML elements must have a closing tag C. All XML elements must be lower case D. All XML documents must have a DTD Ans: B 4. Is it easier to process XML than HTML? A. Yes B. No C. Somtimes D. Cant say Ans: A 5. Which of the following programs support XML or XML applications?: A. Internet Explorer 5.5 B. Netscape D.7 C. RealPlayer. D. both A and B Ans: D 6. Kind of Parsers are A. well-formed B. well-documented C. non-validating and validating D. none of the above Ans: C 7. Well formed XML document means A. it contains a root element B. it contain an element C. it contains one or more elements D. must contain one or more elements and root element must contain all other elements Ans: D 8. Comment in XML document is given by A. B. C. D. Ans: B 13. What are the predefined attributes A. xml:lang B. xml:space C. both D. none. Ans: C 14. Kind of Parsers are A. well-formed B. validating C. non-validating D. Both B & C Ans: D 15. Valid XML document means (most appropriate) A. the document has root element B. the document contains atleast one or more root element C. the XML document has DTD associated with it & it complies with that DTD D. Each element must nest inside any enclosing element property Ans: C 16. XML uses the features of A. HTML B. XHTML C. VML D. SGML Ans: D 17. XML document can be viewed in A. IE C.0 B. IE B.0 C. IE 6.0 D. IE X.0 Ans: C 18. There is a way of describing XML data, how? A. XML uses a DTD to describe the data B. XML uses XSL to describe data C. XML uses a description node to describe data D. Both A and C Ans: D 19. What does DTD stand for? A. Direct Type Definition B. Document Type Definition C. Do The Dance D. Dynamic Type Definition Ans: B 20. DTD includes the specifications about the markup that can be used within the document, the specifications consists of all EXCEPT A. the browser name B. the size of element name C. entity declarations D. element declarations Ans: A 21. Which of the following XML documents are well-formed? A. some text goes here another text goes here B. some text goes here another text goes here C. some text goes here another text goes here D. some text goes here another text goes here Ans: B 22. Which of the following XML fragments are well-formed? A. B. C. D. value2"/> D. None of the above Ans: C 25. The use of a DTD in XML development is: A. required when validating XML documents B. no longer necessary after the XML editor has been customized C. used to direct conversion using an XSLT processor D. a good guide to populating a templates to be filled in when generating an XML document automatically Ans: A 26. Parameter entities can appear in A. xml file B. dtd file C. xsl file D. Both 1 and 2 Ans: B 27. Attribute standalone="no" should be included in XML declaration if a document: A. is linked to an external XSL stylesheet B. has external general references C. has processing instructions D. has an external DTD Ans: D 28. In XML A. the internal DTD subset is read before the external DTD B. the external DTD subset is read before the internal DTD C. there is no external type of DTD D. there is no internal type of DTD Ans: A 29. Disadvantages of DTD are (i)DTDs are not extensible (ii)DTDs are not in to support for namespaces (iii)there is no provision for inheritance from one DTDs to another A. (i) is correct B. (i),(ii) are correct C. (ii),(iii) are correct D. (i),(ii),(iii) are correct Ans: D 30. To use the external DTD we have the syntax A. B. (3 ) D. Ans: A 31. To add the attribute named Type to the tag the syntax will be A. B. C. D. Ans: D 32. The syntax for parameter entity is A. B. C. D. Ans: A 33. You can name the schema using the name attribute like A. B. C. D. Ans: D 34. The default model for complex type, in XML schemas for element is A. textOnly B. elementOnly C. no default type D. both 1 & 2 Ans: B 35. Microsoft XML Schema Data types for Hexadecimal digits representating octates A. UID B. UXID C. UUID D. XXID Ans: C 36. A schema describes (i) grammer (ii) vocabulary (iii) structure (iv) datatype of XML document A. (i) & (ii) are correct B. (i),(iii) ,(iv) are correct C. (i),(ii),(iv) are correct D. (i),(ii),(iii),(iv) are correct Ans: D 37. Microsoft XML Schema Data Type “ boolean” has values A. True ,False B. True ,False or 1,0 C. 1,0 D. any number other then zero and zero Ans: C 38. Simple type Built into Schema “ data’ represent a data in A. MM-DD-YY B. Dd-MM-YY C. YY-MM-DD D. YYYY-MM-DD Ans: D 39. In simple Type Built into XML schema Boolean type holds A. True, False B. 1,0 C. both A. & B. D. True/False and any number except 0 Ans: C 40. In simple type built into XML schema type flat has single precision of ________ floating point A. 16 bit B. 32 bit C. 8 bit D. 4 bit Ans: C 41. The XML DOM object is A. Entity B. Entity Reference C. Comment Reference D. Comment Data Ans: B 42.Attribute of the document interface in DOM is/are (i)doctype (ii)implementation (iii)documentElement which are read only attributes A. (i) only B. (ii) only C. (ii),(iii) only D. all Ans: D 43. The default model for complex type, in XML schemas for element is A. textOnly B. elementOnly C. no default type D. both a & b Ans: B 44. To create a choise in XML schemas, we use the A. element B. element C. element D. element Ans: C 45. The XML DOM object is A. Entity B. Entity Reference C. Comment Reference D. Comment Data Ans: B 46. To create a data island we use the _____________HTML element A. B. C. D. Ans: A 47. To Bind the HTML elements with DSO we use _________ attribute A. DATASOURCE B. DATAFIELD C. DATASRC D. DATAFLD Ans: A,C 48. To bind the HTML element Type in text with the datasource “ dsoCustomer” we use A. B. C. D. Ans: C 49. XML DSOs has the property for the number of pages of data the recordset contains A. count B. number C. pageCount D. pageNumber Ans: C 50. Whats so great about XML? A. Easy data exchange B. High speed on network C. Only B.is correct D. Both A. & B. Ans: D XML Objective type Questions with Answers 51. For XML document to be valid A. document need to be well formed also B. document need not to be well formed C. document need to be well formed & valid D. document validity has no relationship with well formedness Ans: C 52. A textual object is a well formed XML document if (i) Taken as a whole it matches the production labeled document. (ii) Each of the parsed entity which is referenced directly or indirectly within the document can be well formed A. (i) is correct B. (ii)is correct C. both are correct Ans: C 53. A. it shows that the version is A.0 B. shows thatit is standalone C. the standalone is wrong D. version attribute is not in XML Ans: C 54. The attribute used to define a new namespace is A. XMLNS B. XmlNameSpace C. Xmlns D. XmlNs Ans: C 55. To match the root node in XMLT transform the syntax will be A. B. C. D. Ans: D 56. To match the specific XML elements child like of parent element is the syntax will be A. B. C. D. Ans: B 57. PI in XML specification stands for A. C.14 B. priceless instruction C. processing instruction D. polymorphic inheritance Ans: C 58. A validating XML application should be used when: A. the design demands that all elements use both start and end tags B. missing or out-of-place elements could cause application errors C. attribute values cannot refer to external entity references D. High performance is an important architectural constraint Ans: B 59. A DSO operates like (a) data simulation object at server side (b) dynamic source object at client side (c) data source object at client side (d) data simulation object at client side Ans: C 60. The XSL formating object use to format a list is A. list-block B. list-item C. list-item-body D. list-item-label Ans: A 61. The attribute used to define a new namespace is A. XMLNS B. XmlNameSpace C. Xmlns D. XmlNs Ans: C 62. Identify the most accurate statement about the application of XML: A. XML must be used to produce XML and HTML output. B. XML cannot specify or contain presentation information. C. XML is used to describe hierarchically organized information. D. XML performs the conversion of information between different e-business applications. Ans: C 63. The XSl formatting object which formats the data and caption of a table is A. table B. table-content C. table-text D. none of the above Ans: D 64. The XSL formating object which holds the content of the table body A. table B. table-body C. table-content D. table-footer Ans: B 65. The XSL formatting object which formats the data in a table A. table B. table-body C. title D. table-content Ans: A 66. The XSL formating object use to hold the content of the label of a list item is A. list-block B. list item C. list-item-body D. list-item-label Ans: D 67. The XSL formating object use to hold the contents of the body of a list item is A. list-block B. list item C. list-item-body D. list-item-label Ans: C 68. XSL has formatting object “ block” A. is not supported in XSL B. generates a block level reference area C. create a display block D. groups global declarations for a style sheet Ans: B 69. XSL has “ block container” for formating the document A. to create a display block to format the titles B. to create a display block to format the paragraphes C. to create a display block to format the headlines & figures D. to create a block level reference area Ans: D 70. The syntax for writing the minimum occurrence for an element is A. B. C. D. Ans: D 71. The syntax for writing default values for element is A. B. C. D. Ans: C 72. To use XSLT in an XML system: A. the input and output of the XSLT processor must be unparsed XML documents B. the input and output of the XSLT processor must be a hierarchical tree representing an XML document C. the XSLT processor must be called from a web agent D. the XSLT processor must be given the DTD as well as the XML document instance Ans: B 73. What is the role of the XPath language in XSL processing? A. XPath identifies the order or path of processing to be followed as the XSL language is processed B. XPath identifies locations in XML data to be transformed in the source tree and the locations to be generated in output tree specified in XSL translation prescriptions C. XPath identifies the path to be followed in the execution of XSL translation prescriptions D. XPath specifies which XSL transform files are to be used in the translation of XML Ans: B 74. Which statement correctly describes the capabilities of the XSLT language? A. XSLT uses the DTD to determine how XML documents will be translated B. XSLT specifies how a hierarchical trees, representable by an XML document may be translated into non-hierarchical formats C. XSLT specifies how a hierarchical tree, representable by an XML document, may be translated into another hierarchical tree, also representable by an XML document D. XSLT specifies the formatting style to be used to render an XML document Ans: C 75. XSLT processors accept as input: A. an XML conforming document file and an XSLT specification file B. only an XML document C. only an XSLT specification D. either an XML document or an XSLT specification Ans: A 76. The transformation of XML document in to another type of document by XSLT can be done by (i)In the server (ii)In the client (iii)With a separate program A. only(i) & (ii) B. only (ii) & (iii) C. all are correct D. only (i) & (iii) Ans: C 77: To match the root node in XMLT transform the syntax will be A. B. C. D. Ans: D 78: To match the specific XML elements in XMLT the syntax for given name “ rootnode” is A. B. C. D. Ans: C 79. To match the specific XML elements child like of parent element is the syntax will be A. B. C. D. Ans: B 80. InXSLT style sheet we have syntax to match elements with id as (if id is “ change” ) A. B. C. D. Ans: A 81. To match the text node (in XSLT) the syntax will be A. B. C. D. Ans: D 82. An element declaration specifies A. a single markup element B. zmarkup elements C. markup data D. the document data Ans: A 83. Well formed XML document means(most appropriate) A. it contains a root element B. it contain an element C. it contains one or more elements D. must contain one or more elements and root element must contain all other elements Ans: D 84: Which of the following specify that the order and content of "membership" is not important A. B. C. D. Ans: D 85: Which of the following is used to specify the attribute list of an element A. ATTLIST B. ?ATTLIST C. !ATTLIST D. #ATTLIST Ans: C 86: Which of the following instruct the browser which stylesheet to use A. B. C. D. Ans: C 88: Which of the following XSLT Patterns is used to match any descendant nodes A. / B. // C. . D. .. Ans: B 89: Which of the following XSLT Patterns is used to match the parent node A. / B. // C. . D. .. Ans: D 90: Which of the following is a valid XSLT iteration command A. for B. for-all C. for-each D. in-turn Ans: C 91.What is an advantage of XML compared to HTML? A. XML works on more platforms. B. XML is suited to using Web pages as front ends to databases. C. XML was designed for portable phones. D. XML is simpler to learn than HTML. Ans: B 92.The following best describes the development of XML. A. XML developed from HTML because WEB browsers became more powerful. B. XML is designed as a replacement because SGML can not be used for document development. C. XML builds on HTMLs ability to provide content to virtually any audience by adding the power of intelligent content. D. XML is the modern replacement for HTML and SGML, taking the good points from each, making both of those languages obsolete. Ans: C 93. The correct priority for implementing XML based IETMs is : A. Develop DTD, conduct a pilot project, create a modular library, train staff. B. Train staff, convert legacy documents, develop DTD, create modular library. C. Conduct pilot program, train staff, create modular library, develop DTD D. Conduct pilot program, train staff, develop DTD, convert documents, purchace XML tools. Ans: C 94. Which of the following statements is true: A. XML is a direct subset of SGML B. SGML is an application of HTML C. XML is a kind of dynamic HTML D. XHTML is XML rewritten in HTML 5. SGML and XML are the same thing Ans: A 95. What is a qualified name? A. Any name conforming to the XML Names specification B. A name having prefix and local name separated by a colon C. A name applying only to qualified elements and attributes D. None of the above Ans: C 96. What is a NCName A. A Non-Common Name B. A Non-Conforming Name C. A Non-Colonized Name D. None of the above Ans: C 97. Which of the following statements about XML schemas is incorrect? A. All XML documents must have a schema B. Schemas can specify integer values C. Schemas are defined by XSD tag D. They offer more flexibility than DTDs E. Schemas provide data oriented data types Ans: A 98. What is the default namespace A. The namespace used by default when no namespace is declared B. The namespace used when two or more namespaces are referenced C. A namespace that is referenced with the xmlns attribute, but without a prefix D. None of the above Ans: C 99.What is an XML namespace? A. A set of names applied to specific spaces within an XML document, such as the head and body B. A set of names representing a specific XML vocabulary C. A set of names for XML documents pertaining to a particular vocabulary D. None of the above. Ans: B 100. From what set of names do NCNames derive? A. Any combination of characters allowable in XML B. Any names conforming to XML Names, minus the colon C. Any names for elements and attributes within the DTD to which the namespace refers D. None of the above. 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Sunday, February 12, 2017

10:10 a.m. a cold and rainy day - just put in 12 of you, one by one into Bcc - perhaps I should go to contacts, where I have noticed list is offered - who knows - I might even figure out how to do a list. Have been writing letters to some of you how horribly frustrating it is to be 84 and needing help for every small step - two year olds jiust do it - well I remember in Prague watching old women standing on top of an escalator not daring to use it - and the subways were built by Russian, very deep, very fast escalators - I never checked are there even stairs, or an elevator. In New York a group called I believe active disabled have achieved getting a lot of elevators - that I too prefer at Hudson Yards - on the New York West Side, West 34th Street where a millionaire paradise is going up - hundred of apartments costing millions - builders do not care if many stand empty, it's an investment for all the money they've made on our many wars - but a subway to get there was built at great cost, very deep, you need three fast escslators and especially at times when I reluctantly use a rolling suitcase - I am scared on these escalators. The reason I've been going there is to use Megabus to Amherst - that started out on 8th avenue, several buses a day, $10 for the ride, I was always offered a soap box to sit on, escorted first on the bus - then it went to 9th, then to 10th, now it's on 11th, almost in the river, nothing to sit on, no shelter from rain or sun, one or two buses a day - the 9 o'clock bus comes from Vermont and goes to 32nd and 7th ave to let passengers off and ast best is by 10 to take on waiting passengers who are urged to be 30 minutes early, so have been standing 90 minutes in rain, snow, hot sun - the young seem to love it - hardly made for a woman at 84 - and the cost now $20 plus - a very secret phone number to reserve, $5 extra - the young on their smart phones, reserve, csncel, reserve again, flash their cell phone - I am given on the phone about 20 numbers and the driver is hesitant to let me on - brace new world. Only for the most intrepid of the disabled in wheel chairs - but access they must be given, first, holds things up another 15 minutes - and it's only for the feisty - but - there are some some. In nyc indents for the disabled have been made at every side walk crossing - mostly used by zooming bicycles, now the silently motorized by battery, considered eco friendly - no bicycle in nyc ever has a bell, they zoom at top speed by you grazing you - many disabled scooters also go at some 25 miles an hour - buses travel at 5 miles an hour, terrible congestion - then of course there are the fast roller scaters, scate boards, also motorized by now - it is a pretty wild city - Steve W. assured me: they have better reflexes than you have - I hope so - terrorized jumping out of their way - which is said to be wrong. Almost every body I know has gotten hit - a miracle I have not been hit yet. Well. all my virtuous friends - good decent people who don't write horrible stuff - are in church at this moment, confessing to God they are sinners - I think in Latin something like mea culpa, mea grandissima culpa, in Polish - their churches are full - moje vyna, moje vyna, in English I have sinned, greatly sinned - in Germany I've most rarely been to church and then it was still Latin in the Catholic churches - well I guess it's a good idea to confess to your brothers and sisters whst a great sinner you are and asking God for forgiveness. When I was in Prague people still confessed to a priest - and when my Catholic childhood friends went to their first confession they were given a list of sins to confess and I puzzled with them what adultery meant - and a number of others sins helping them to figure out what they should confess. Still, I was envious of them, they were in the vast majority, I was alone, an outsider - and alone and an outsider I am to this day. A lonely sinner. I hope confessing on what now is a blog - though I still need Molly to help ignorant old me figure out how to tell people how to get to the blog, she sent me written instructionsd I cannot figure out - terribly frustrating. Our first two sessions were wonderfully long sessions and I learned so much talking to this wise far beyong her years 23 year old - and mistakingly believed she had more time than she does - volunteering, working three job, performing and time consuming travel from and to Brooklyn. I just wrote to her - yes, skeletal Ken was wonderful and we loved our long Thursday afternoons - he came at 12 and left at 7 - alas he was already deadly ill when he first came - and Molly is young and strong and brilliant. Ken, Ken - how many times did he show me to write this in word, to double space it, how to transfer from word to email - yes, the two year olds do it with ease - and I - well I love computers - but my senses alas are not really geared to them. In theory I know it all - practice is something else. Our Goethe also had something a bout grey theory and difficult practice. It's freezing here - I have a shawl my daughter in law knitted for me on my knees I am wearing a down jacket and still, my hands are cold. How could such a terrible heating system ever been constructed - I've long expected stupidity to become the end of mankind. Oh yes, and by the way, yesterday's blog ended in the middle of a word - C.B. m - because suddenly the weirdest images appeared, I had no idea how to get rid of them and reminded me of a woman called Susie, she has died, who believed the computer actually being God and giving her important mussages - well I was about to write something possibly nasty about C.B.and the wise computer put a fasrt end to it and I quickly sent what was there before that might disappear altogether - I was much calmer writing on my wonderful Olivetti Lettera - what I had written was there on paper, reliably - and then I would go to the the copy shop and make 50 copies and then I had 50 labels and always bought interesting stamps - and one German friend ? would return the letter, grammer corrected, underlined in red and in big letters: do not send any more of these horrible mass mailings - send a letter addressed to me. Well, at least I heard from her - two or three might respond - yet often much later I would meet one in the street, enthusiastically embracing me and telling me how wonderful my letter had been and please send more - and so - when Ken came into my life and at least learned email I loved with a click to be able to send it to hundreds - and now that it is a blog, that Ken warned me of - Ken, I promise to be careful My hands are freezing. Many of you even if you started probably have long stopped reading. I should be in church. But with no one to talk to - and when I love talking, I do love talking and have many times been told to shut up - and please, either get depressed again or take pills that will make you shut up - have you no shame - do you ever listen to anyone  else - and as it happens, I do. I am aware I am loved for listening, not for talking. This has been made amply clear to me by the virtuous - who love to hear their own important voices - they are saying something of meaning and importance - not babble by an old biddy - and if I may so, I have a lot more kind interest in people than I do. What still went through my mind - using initials rather than names, to be cautious as Ken recommended - this is turning into something like a roman a clef - there is a key as to who C.B. is, who M.H. is - and many I won't even mention by initial - those whose friend I want to remain. I will not give you the key - that is what the tedious students of literature will - should any of my writing ever become seen as literature. Well, some of what I have written so far already would be labelled subversive under a dictator - and Krugman in the NYT yesterday obliquely sufggested how easy for governments it is to orgsanize a terrorist attack and then declare a state of emergency - he called it "a power grab" he suggested will happen - and all I can say: be prepared. Perhaps not the best of times to go public with my writing - but then again luckily I'm still the tiniest of fish - even though not long ago cops stopped me on an empty road in New Hampshire - emptied by the bypass that was made - and when ignorant me began to open the door of my rented car with Massachusetts plated - two jumped out of their cars guns drawn, yelling - do not move - when I produced my driver's licence they sneered: New York driver, no wonder she csnnot drive - caution stopped them from commenting on the Jewish name - then I was interrogsted, where was I coming from, what was I doing on this road, where I was going, my answers producing sneers, then the disappeared into their car to study me on their computer, ordering me not to move - some 30 or more minutes later returned: we are bering kind to you and letting you go away with a warning - I much thanked them and as humbly as I could muster asked what sin I had commited: you made an illegal turn. I had been on a small road only used by locals, had passed some bored high school kids, they had called the cops - all of them totally bored - enjoying to find a danferous old woman with an accent - and being so wonderfully kind and professional - keeping America safe! Yes, you can be white, Protestant, I was baptized Lutheran as a precaution in 1943 - an American - but this is a country of xenophobis and I had another very unpleasant incident of that sort on a train heading for New York - where I was tsken for a German tourist - I always have my passport on me - when I produced it, great suspicion it was fake. Well, I was still going to comment on those in church - they have told me I am too loud, too self centered, too overbearing, a nasty maniac - she writes!!!! - yes I write, and with no one to talk to I also write about how insulting they are, how heartless, how hurtful - even in nyc - my "friends" are xenophobes, anti-Semites - and what is the word for people who cannot stand old people = there must be some word too. My s5 iPhone rang, 508 - what could that be - Eastern Mass as it turns out - a person who does not want to mentioned in this here blog - and so it goes  - it's noon - I am hungry, but my decoration teeth have fallen out - hopefully tomorrow at 9 either Maggie of the dentist will be there - I can barely drink coffee - all this would never have happened - had I had a good doctor who would have warned me of the side effects of those beta blocker pills whose name I keep forgetting - it seems they keep my veins open to allow the blood to flow to prevent a stroke - but it seems they also acidified my saliva - my dentist told me long ago - three women doctors, all the nurses gave me dire warnings of going off these pills and now I'cve taken them 7 years and and my veins must be used to them - but my teeth are history - until now I've had a bridge - but he said I would havce to go to denture - not a happy prospect - but these keep falling out - not very happy either two Chinese just arrived, speaking this mysterious language  - now a good doctor would have warned me of side effects - also loss of balance, falls - and suggested weight loss, exercise and checking my blood pressure - and I would be in much better shape today - good doctors - a privilege of the rich - who then can boast in what great shape they are at 105. Marianne