#not my sona but the sentiment holds true anyway

[meltymoth]

you cannot kill my desire to be my self

[yakaimarii]

Ahri’s Lost memories

Life as a human is very hard. But after joining the League, life in general became a lot easier. The Summoners even explained why I felt guilty about killing other humans in order to stay like a human. They told me I’ve been developing human emotions as I grew up and consumed people’s souls. Having to fight  in the league isn’t this bad either. Most of the times, we don’t have to do anything, Actually we just have to give some informations about ourselves, so they can cast images of the champions in dolls for battles. And being a champion gives opportunity to do and expirience things I’ve never imagine before. But better than this,I was able to make friends. When joined the League I was really scared of everybody else. At first I got to avoid everyone, but in time my fear started to fade as more and more I saw the true color of the souls around me. Most of the older champions are really nice and new champions jarrive quite often. After some time I spent traveling and going around Valoran, I made some close friends. Syndra is my best friend, and despite her apperences she is really kind and sweet, specially after Zed and her began a relationship which I helped to start. She always helps me when I need, to me she is like an older sister who I can rely on. She helped me grow my magic power and Zed tought me a little about self defense. Those two are my closest friends right now. However lately after living with the two of them, I started to notice my human side growing and wanting to know what it is like to be in love. This sensation of curiosity just grew stranger since it began, and now I find myself spacing out a lot. When I'm alone it isn't a problem, however when I'm with any company, I end up losing myself from who I'm with or doing any kind of mistake i normally wouldn't. And today was no different. Syndra invited me for shopping, and if she didn't held my hand I would've lost myself again. Now we are spending the night at her place. Zed is solving things with Shen about what happened in the past, trying to figure what was really the truth. -Syndra: Hey Ahri! Are you even listening!? -angry- As she says that, she throws cold water on my back, making me squeak -Ahri: Eep! Hey! You don't need to throw water! -angry- -Syndra: Gezz. You are spacing out a lot lately, you know? -worry- -Ahri: I can't help it. It isn't like I'm doing it on purpose. -Syndra: Is something I can help? I'm starting to worry about you. -Ahri I'm sorry, I didn't mean to worry you... and this isn't something serious, but I... -feeling selfconscious I stop in the middle-. -Syndra: Could it be... did you fell in love with someone? -Ahri: I'd be happier if that was the case... -Syndra: I was sure that was it... -Ahri: Actually, you aren't a hundred percent wrong. She looks at me with puzzled eyes -Ahri: I want to know... how does one feels when in love? -Syndra: So you never fell in love before!? -surprise- -Ahri: Why the suprised look on your face? Is that hard to belive ? -Syndra: I mean... you helped others in their love lifes including mine! You looked so experienced when helping and giving advices too! Not to mention your flirting. -Ahri: This was all because of my animal insticts mixing with my human side. -Syndra: Do animals know how to flirt and stuff? -Ahri: Flirting "we" know, but in other ways. But love and other types of sentiments "we" don't really feel it. -Syndra: So, how do you even choose a partner, if it isn't for love? -Ahri: Females choose the strongest partner, in order to survive. And dispite this, I'm still young and fairly new to this stuff. -Syndra: Wait a sec, now that you mention it... What is your age again? -Ahri: In human years I'm turning seventeen... I guess. Didn't I told you before? -Syndra: No... I don't think so... But how the league even let you be a champion if you aren't considerated an adult yet!? -Ahri: Maybe because I've lived longer than most of the champions? -Syndra: Now you got me confused. -Ahri: My body and soul are turning seventeen, But, I've been around here around hundreds of years for now. -Syndra: I don't know if I feel old or young now... -Ahri: Tecnically, I'm still younger than you now. -Syndra: Anyway, let oneesan here help you with your love problem-flirty voice-. I'll support you with whatever I can! After that, we chatted all night like normal. She cheers me up whenever I feel bad, like if she was really my sister. The next day she had to return to Zed, as he needed help. And now I am walking around the city trying to distract myself. Not being able to understand my feelings and curiosity only growing stronger. This won't help if I don't clear my head first. As Syndra said, this feeling comes with time and I'll probably notice when I start feeling it. For now I should focus on what I came here for, I need to buy a present for Sona! Although I have no idea of what she wants for her birthday... From store to store, I couldn't find anything that looked right to give her, or nothing that could be special. At least I knew what everyone bought to Sona before coming here. But I don't really know what she likes or dislikes either. Ever since I joined, I never got to really know Sona. It's like she has been avoiding me all this time. But I still want to be friends with her, so this time I'm going to find something for sure!

Few days later at Syndra's place...

-Ahri: Onee-chan! Help meee! -Syndra: Wait, onee-chan? Since when you call me that!? -Ahri: The other day you said you were going to help me when I had problems and you called yourself... -murmuring- THAT ISN'T THE POINT! -Syndra: Calm down first Ahri! You are way to nervous now. I'll prepare some tea for you. Sit and relax a little. Minutes later. -Syndra: More calm now? -Ahri: Yes, sorry... -Syndra: No worrys. Now, what happened? It's about your feelings? -Ahri: No... Actually it's about tomorrow... -Syndra: Tomorrow? You mean... -Ahri: I couldn't find anything to buy for Sona... -Syndra: She still avoiding you? -Ahri: Yes... -small voice- -Syndra: I'd really like to know why she does that. She doesn't chat much, but you are the only one she does that. Don't you remenber doing anything to her? -Ahri: Not as a human at least. But when I was a fox, I don't remenber ever having much contact with humans, or memories at all to say the truth. -Syndra: Well, what did you planned to buy? -Ahri: That is the thing, I have no idea of what to buy! -Syndra: And you want it to be special so you can get closer to her... -Ahri: Something in mind? -Syndra: Yep! You can leave everything to me. Just go normally tomorrow. -Ahri: You got everything? I don't have to help with anything? -Syndra: I already knew what to do. Just leave it to Syndra-oneechan here! -Ahri: Arigatou Onee-chan!! With that I leave. Syndra had to do some stuff, so i left early. On the way home, I spot a store that sells little charms. As I enter, one of the charms gets my attention. Once staring at the charm, an old lady who is the storekeeper, approachs me. -Keeper: Looking for something dear? -Ahri: Actually I'm looking for a present for someonde special. But I don't know what to buy for her. -Keeper: Then why not buy this charm you are looking at? -Ahri: This one? Something special about it? -Keeper: The charm you hold was blessed by a fox spirit. It is said that this fox was the most kind and loving one of the spirits, but she rarely had contact with humans because she only could be seen by those with a pure heart. -Ahri: And, this charm is supposed to bring luck? -Keeper: Yes, luck in finding something precious. -Ahri: I think I'd like to buy this one then. Could you pack it? -Keeper: Of course, I'll do it. Oh, take this one with you too. It's a simple good luck charm for you from this old lady. -Ahri: Arigatou! She wrap the one I choose for Sona, and the other I keep it with me. -Keeper: Best of luck with the present! -Ahri: Good bye obasan! I'll be sure to come back! At least I got something that I can give to Sona and say "I chose this one for you". I know my gift is kind of lame but, it's something. I just hope tomorrow Syndra is able to cover me. Next day, at the party: (Sona's perspective) I wonder if she came... I've been avoiding her all this time because I was shy and nervous, but today I'll finally try and talk to her. I just hope she isn't mad at me because of that. -Syndra: Ahri, wait! -shouting in a distance- As I hear Syndra, I turn just to see Ahri running away. Worried, I ask Syndra what happened. -Syndra: So sorry Sona-sobbing-. Ahri asked me for help with your present but... -Zed: Syndra, you went to far this time. You knew she was serious when she sought help. You know her better than anyone here. Weren't you happy when she opened up to you and started seing you as her big sister few days ago? As I've been avoiding her, I don't know much. But I ask if Zed is not going too far. -Syndra: No he is right. In all this time, it was the first time she opened up and asked help. Especially considering she still a little new to her emotions... New to her emotions? Confused I ask to syndra explain. -Syndra: I think you know she wasn't originally a human before joining the league, right? I heard about it so i nod in response. -Syndra: To say the truth, she was a fox spirit from what i heard from the head masters and "higher ups" of the league, although Ahri herself don't have any memories of it. A fox spirit... is she... -Syndra: Sona, I need you to do something for me... Wait... me!? -Syndra: If I go she'll just run away and hide. But if you go maybe she'll listen. She really wanted to be friends with you all this time, dispite you avoiding her all and all. I don't know the reason why you did this but, please try to talk with Ahri. You are the only one who can get close to her without her noticing. So please.... Syndra is tearing up. If i didn't avoided her, this wouldn't have happened... -Zed: Will you go Sona? Syndra is asking you as a worried sister. I nod again confirming that I'll go. -Zed: I think she is on the roof, I can sense her shadow there. I'll calm Syndra down. I came here to the roof, but now what do I do... As I enter the roof I see ahri sitting with her head low. Now that I think, what Syndra did to make Ahri so mad at her? -Ahri: I'm sorry Sona -sobbing- -Sona Huh? Is she thinking out loud or she noticed me already? -surprised- -Ahri: Is easy to notice someone when you came here talking. -Sona: Wait, you can hear me? -Ahri: I'm not deaf you know, I can hear you... -Sona: But I can't talk! Just summoners and some of the staff from the league can hear me, because I don't have a voice. -Ahri: So that explains you writing everything you said... but, I'm sorry for making you worry about me. It's just, my feelings still kind of new to me... -Sona: Don't worry. I think this is actually my fault for avoiding you in the first place, if I wasn't so shy this wouldn't had happened. -Ahri: Shy? So you don't hate me or anything? -Sona: Of course not! I just felt shy about talking to you. As I say Ahri's face lights up and hugs me in the waist and just like a puppy, she rubs her face against my body and her tails go back in foward making me gigle. -Ahri: What's so funny? -Sona: You look like a puppy acting this way... -Ahri: I think I still young enough to act like that... I'm still not considered an adult in human age. -Sona: Wait how old are you? -Ahri: I'm going to turn seventeen. -Sona: Oh... I thought you were my age. I put my hand in her head, and stroke her hair. As I do it she rests her head in my legs, using it as a pillow. -Ahri: Can we stay like this for a little? Just until I calm down a bit more. -Sona: As long as you want. Ahri's perspective. As I rest my head, her warm and gentle hand goes through my hair. A soft voice begins a melody as bright as the sun, yet as calming as the moon. In this moment, my heart begins to race; a felling I had long forgotten returns to fill an empty space in my chest, as if once more, I'm able to fly in the blue sky. Flustered, I hide my face although I can't control my tails. I think she does not notice, but to be sure I sit back up. -Sona: Are you ok now? -Ahri: Yes, arigatou. And sorry for being so selfish in your birthday. -Sona: It's fine, especially now that I can really talk to someone. But I still don't get how you're able to hear me. -Ahri: I can't guess neither. -Sona: Well anyway, let's go back? -Ahri Before that, I want to give you this. I get the little pack with the charm and give it to her. -Sona: It's a little charm! How cute! Thank you! -Ahri: The owner of the store where I get it said this one was blessed by an fox spirit, so this would be a charm of maybe some sibling. -Sona: No, you're the one who is giving me this, so I'll think that you were the one who blessed it. -Ahri: Ok... I guess. -Sona: Do you know what it is written here? As I look in the back of the charm, I recognize the characters, but I feel my body going numb as my head begins to spin. -Ahri: Sona... -Sona: What's wrong? You are not looking good... -Ahri: Sorry in advance... As I say everything goes black, last thing I heard was a faint voice of someone I can't remenber