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laianely · 5 months ago

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I apologize for making a mess of your floors and for well.....breaking into your house. The chimney was wide open and the fire put out- a lovely glass of milk perched on the table top. My Santa senses were tingling- i knew you had great taste but that only left me with more questions. If Santa may ask..

1. What are your favorite songs?

2. Whats your favorite Christmas activity or tradition?

3. Whats your favorite Christmas classic (book movie or tale)?

4. What's your favorite color?

5. What's your favorite trope? (ex:enemies to lovers)

6. What are things you do not want in your gift (things you dislike)?

Santa has been cooking up some ideas for some potential fic idea. I would like to ask you which one you like the most and if you'd like me to change anything or include anything. After all Santa wants to give you a gift you'll truly enjoy (I think my Santa impressions are starting to get too creepy now-oops).

Idea 1. Reverse Isekai- "I accidentally summoned a pirate into my room instead of the demon I was trying to make a deal with" This could be a play on season 5 in an alternate universe where Killian kills rumplestiltskin and becomes the dark one. Emma "accidentally" summons him instead and he's not happy about it. But in trying to find a way to get him back to his world....they grow on each other and he decides to stay or leave (depends on the ending- they could find a way to make him mortal or he could stay with her until she dies or there's a time limit on how long killian could stay and he ends up disappearing and she spends ages trying to find him.

Idea 2. That darned book- "Classic! I got consumed by a book of fairytales and I'm now a gaurdian angel for a self destructive pirate. How do I prevent him from doing anything drastic without revealing my identity". There could be a fun spin on things where Emma posses items near him causing him to think the Jolly Roger is haunted....captain floor who? We could have angst and misunderstandings with killian thinking Emma is working for rumple. We could have messups where Emma tries to do something good but it backfires. We could have a blue fairy and tinkerbell moment with Emma returning back to the real world and Killian realizing life isn't the same without her so he trades his ship and travels all the way too find her + some groveling and a happy go lucky ending.

Idea 3. A play on real life- Emma and killian are in college and they hate each other guts. They're both theater kids and have secured the lead roles in the college play much to their distress acting as a captive prince and a cutthroat pirate captain. Unfortunately for them their dislike for each other is so strong the fairytale gods decide to intervene and transmigrate them onto blackbeards ship as lovely deckhands. Will they be able to work together and find a way to escape or will they continue to bicker their way to doom? Basically over time they'll grow to trust and open up to each other which is the key to their escape.

4. Ghost of the Christmas past present and future for both Emma and Killian. Haven't thought much about this one.

Do let me know which one you like the best and feel free to offer suggestions and I could even refine or write a few more blurbs out. Hope you've been doing well and taking care of yourself!

PS: I apologize if this is a mess and filled with typos lol (its 3 am and I'm so exhausted from rehearsals 😭)

Hey Santa!

I suppose next time I should prepare not only milk for you but also a bed so you could rest, 'cause omg, 3am!

I think I have a lot of favorite songs) It's really hard to choose but I'll try... "I'm yours" by Isabel LaRosa "Too sweet" by Hozier "Touch" by July Talk "Ruby with the sharpest lies" by Des Rocs "Come with me now" by Kongos "Particles" by Nothing But Thieves "Valkyrie" by Battle Tapes "Breathe" by Window to the Abbey "Royalty" by Neoni

Exchange gifts 🤭 Also I like Christmas decorations with all those beautiful lights.

I'm not sure if it's classic but I love "Love Actually".

Blue is on top and purple is second favorite.

Well, I've searched what things considered a trope, so the things that popped up in my mind Enemies to lovers (obviously 🙃), friends to lovers, fake dating, Hurt/Comfort, Happy Ending

A/B/O, gore and body horror aren't my things absolutely. Also I usually don't like bad endings.

As for your ideas, they all sounds really interesting! But my favorite two is 1 and 2. And... I think I like the first one more) But if you'll have some difficulties with it, the second one is still an option.

I don't have any particular requirements or ideas for it, but I can't wait to see what you come up with!

Have fun! And please take care of yourself!

#csss #cssecretsanta2024 #cssecretsanta

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razeluxe · 5 years ago

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Razeluxe’s Top Ten Female Characters

Yep. It’s here. A list of my all time favorite ladies in anime/video games. This list was way harder for me than the male version, after compiling my favorites I had like 20 characters so I had to cut it down... I will shout them out somewhere further down towards the end...warning you right now that this is long...I have a lot of thoughts about these characters and I did my utmost to avoid outright posting spoilers - enjoy!

10) Bianchi (Katekyo Hitman Reborn!)

Once again someone from Reborn makes the list. What can I say, they have great characters and omg Bianchi is incredible. She’s Gokudera’s sister that I was harping about on the male list...she develops from this hyper focused girl to a true mother figure who helps care for her group as well as being a mother figure to some of the younger girls. Later on in the series she’s very attentive and always knows the right things to say...she gave some advice to some of the girls about men, especially in one particular episode that I will not mention but if you know it you know it - I was floored with on the nose she is about things...she can read people and situations extremely well and she serves as like this backbone to her group...there’s stuff between her and her brother that are extremely interesting too - this girl despite being there for others has this considerable weight on her that she tells her brother about at the end of the series - Bianchi is a complicated character who really deserves more love - she doesn’t fight often in this anime but she has proven time and time again that you don’t always have to be out on the front lines in an shounen anime to be a great character and also...she’s hot.

9) Emma Millstein (Trails of Cold Steel)

Emma in ways is similar to Bianchi here, being a mother figure as well as President of Class VII but what I find interesting about her character is what she’s hiding, as well as her insecurities. She spends a really long time hiding things because reasons I will not mention because you need to play the series - when she comes out with what she needs to say she really grapples with her feelings as well as her inferiority complex when she compares herself to her sister. She grows though..man does she grow...she starts to believe in who she is and stops doubting herself as hard and she really shines later on in the series. When you see what she can do... Like I said in the other list I have yet to play the fourth game in the series which is coming soon and I know she plays a major part. I also think she’s a great fit for Rean.

8) Velvet Crowe (Tales of Berseria)

Velvet is a character that has an extremely strong drive, comparable to someone that is yet to come on this list. Velvet is betrayed by someone who has raised her and her heart turns cold and she is motivated by hatred and vengeance for the sake of those who were massacred by this person. Velvet is a raw character whose type is rarely explored in this way, the way her personality shifted from being more upbeat and chipper initially to, post hell breakout, using people to get forward in her goals without giving an fudge. There comes a time when her resolution to revenge falters once something happens, anger and sorrow come together and she makes some interesting decisions...Velvet is a morally gray person whom showcases real struggles and real feelings that I’m able to relate to on a personal level...Velvet knows grief and in a world of black and white, she makes mistakes as a result of her PTSD, some more fatal than others and eventually, she learns. It’s ugly to see, but she learns. Her development is unpleasant to watch compared to a lot of characters, however as a result in my opinion she’s one of the most raw/realistic characters in the Tales of Series currently. I said it. Also she’s hot.

7) Rise Kujikawa (Persona 4)

Here’s a girl I wasn’t expecting to put here. Rise is a girl who is also known as Risette and decides to take a break from showbiz by moving to a small town, going to school, working at her family’s business, you know, doing what she considered to be normal girl things. She is very upfront when it comes to her flirting which I like to think is because of her position as a famous idol. She’s really bubbly and animated, but what made me interested in Rise was her voice and her eyes when you first meet her. She looked and sounded empty...and you learn it’s because she sick and tired of portraying this ‘Risette’ character and not being herself. What I like about Rise is after running away from this persona for so long she eventually acknowledges Risette is also her and she makes the choice to only bring her true self to the public. She’s sassy and just has this ability to brighten an entire room. Originally I favored Yukiko in P4 and while I still do like her a lot, after going through Rise’s social link, well...the rest is history.

6) Milla Maxwell & ‘Fractured’ Milla (Tales of Xillia)

Yep. Both of them. I know they’re different characters however I acknowledge both of them equally and they’re both deserving of this spot on this list.

Starting with Milla Maxwell, what I love about her is her drive. She knows who she is and is willing push herself to fufill her duty. She’s not unlike Velvet who turns away from her emotions to do what she sets out to do, considering emotions to be a distraction from her mission. Made her instantly relatable to me. It makes her come off as uncaring towards other people but her mission is strictly to protect the people in the world. I’ve always imagined Milla as this literal pillar of strength, like when she loses mobility in her legs, she pushes herself even further, nearly killing herself in the process. Heck if you thought Velvet was crazy determined, I mean she is but Milla in my opinion is on a whole other level. What I love about Milla is that she isn’t portrayed as a character who has to second guess or experience things before resolving herself to a choice, she is born with this innately and she does not waver no matter what. She’s not a conventional Tales character who bonds super well with everyone. She has her mission and she’s out to do it. Milla isn’t perfect and her opinion on people is for lack of better word, immature, but she grows to understand people throughout her journey.

Fractured Milla...this character is rife with pain and guilt. This Milla is basically an Alternate Universe version of the actual Milla...on the surface level she’s very aggressive but she carries a different weight compared to the original Milla...she bares a guilt about what happened to another character and her world...she also bears a guilt when it comes to her comparing herself to the original Milla and.. inhibiting the original Milla Maxwell from existing... What I love about Fractured Milla is that she’s a completely different take on a character that I already greatly enjoy, she has her development and her vulnerabilities which the OG Milla didn’t need as much because spoilers, Maxwell stuff. I love her relationship with Elle and Ludger and definitely approve of the LudgerxFractured Milla ship.

Holy Crap this list is getting long, if you need to take a break please do! I’ll wait...you good? Okie doke! Continuing on...

5) Estelle Bright (Trails in the Sky)

I love Estelle so dang much. She’s such a glowing character and a breath of fresh air. She’s tomboyish, she collects sneakers, she’s incredibly headstrong and boy does this girl have a mouth on her lol. Like look at all my Estelle stuff on my tags lol. Oh, I should mention she’s Joshua’s ‘brother’ so you can imagine all sorts of interactions with her hotheadedness and his calm and collectedness. Estelle is such a caring character though, like out of everyone I know in the Trails series, I think Estelle ranks the highest in terms of kindess alone. She doesn’t hide crap for the most part, until...well...oh I’m just gonna say it: she develops and hides her feelings for Joshua. She knows it isn’t right but she can’t help herself...anyway Estelle has this naive outlook when it comes to the world, but when certain heavy things happen Estelle kind of...wakes to the realities of the world and she changes her line of thinking. She becomes more considering of her options during situations for starters and she really starts to become the Bracer she wants to be. I was kind of floored how she allowed her pain and her source of affection (Joshua) to empower her to become a stronger person without being simply lovestruck like how people tend to write ladies. She umm...has this scene with Joshua in SC...and I’m not saying anything more but it to me it’s probably one of her highest signs of development. I’m truly happy with what Falcom has done with this character and I think she’s probably the most developed character in the entire Trails series.

4) Rem (Re: Zero)

I never in my thought I would put a character I only just met this high on my list but wow this character blows me away. Rem is a character who has a major inferiority complex to her sister alongside guilt, yet as a maid she performs her duties and speaks very...proper even though that’s typically not how she truly feels. She’s also a very wary person...one reason she’s so high on this list is because of episode 18 how Subaru gives her a reason to live and fought to save her from herself literally. She becomes this incredibly devoted character towards this goofball Subaru with such tenacity that I have seldom seen. She also falls in love with him and not just because he saved her. Eventually she confesses her feelings at one of Subaru’s lowest points but not due to selfishness. She encourages him through her confession because he failed to stop to realize how much he’s worth to her. She displays a lot of strength in her confession and I think this is one of the most well done confession scenes I’ve ever seen period, even with her insert song playing in the background. That said I’ve only seen up to episode 18 because I honestly don’t know how much better Re: Zero can get from this point. I mean I’ll watch it eventually but I’m in love with these first dozen episodes so much I need an emotional break with all the heartache and the darkness .-. (Also please listen to her insert song omg its so precious https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fV3Fu5csdcA )

Before I list the top three, like my male list I want to at least some other ladies that also did not get into Smash but are still worth mentioning as characters I really like and enjoy, no order here except for the first character because she is hot. Literally. No pictures or additional text here sadly, I mean look how long this post is I don’t even know if all of this will fit ;__;

Lal Mirch (Katekyo Hitman Reborn!)

Athena Cykes (Phoenix Wright Ace Attorney: Dual Destinies)

Primrose (Octopath Traveler)

Midna (Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess

Winry Rockbell (Full Metal Alchemist Brotherhood)

Makoto (Persona 5)

Sinon (Sword Art Online)

Akane Tsunemori (Psycho Pass)

Rikku (Final Fantasy X)

Ruiko Saten (A Certain Scientific Railgun)

Alisa Reinford (Legend of Heroes: Trails of Cold Steel)

Senna (Bleach Memories of Nobody)

Alright, moving on...

3) Sara Valestein (Trails of Cold Steel)

Sara leads off the top three. She’s initially Rean’s instructor. She has a sense of humor, loves all things drinking, and is lax on her instructor duties...for the most part. There’s a lot of backstory involving this character that I won’t pile on here but I will say that despite her goofy nature Sara is ridiculously strong and it always amazes me how someone like Sara be so silly and not only be so stupid strong but also have her own moniker known around the world as ‘The Purple Lightning’. She was initially a top ranked Bracer before becoming a teacher. You eventually learn about her past through Rean and how it isn’t always all as happy go lucky as her personality...what I really like about Sara is how her strength is the culmination of all the things she went through. There’s one scene in CS1 where she tells some of her students that if they don’t like her assignments for a school trip, they’re free to team up and beat her to get her to change her mind. Needless to say they got their butts handed to them.

2) Garnet Til Alexandros (Final Fantasy IX)

Zidane’s other half. Considering I write Zidane I’d like to call her Dagger from this point on if you don’t mind .-. (Dagger is her own decided alias based on Zidane’s weapon) I really love how she can break the norms of your stereotypical princess. When Zidane firsts meets her she’s chasing her down in her castle and she’s trying to leave her castle, something she mentioned had actively trained to do. And she’s leaving because she’s trying to resolve an issue with her mother... Dagger is a very strong character who has no issue taking matters into her own hands when it comes to issues. Holy crap what she does to Zidane at one point...she’s a bold one. She feels really strongly and she goes through a lot of crap, but she comes out stronger for it. She wasn’t one with much experience for the outside world but she takes to it at levels that the well traveled Zidane did not expect...I don’t want say much because of spoilers but she really finds herself as she journeys and goes from strength to strength, really owning her responsibilities. She’s also the main person who helps Zidane in one of his lowest moments... In my opinion these are just some of the many reasons Zidane falls for her more than any other girl...she’s also a Summoner and I love me some Summoners. She and Zidane also go great together and their relationship builds properly in a way that makes sense. Definitely one of my favorite ladies period.

1) Aurica Nestmile (Ar Tonelico: Melodies of Elemia)

Number one is this lovely lady. Aurica is a Reyvateil, Reyvateils are people who have the ability to convert sounds into energy...all Reyvateils are assigned a rank according to how powerful their ability is. Aurica had it rough, being out of her hometown when it was attacked and destroyed, and she took the blame herself, believing she could have made a difference, being a Reyvateil and all...because of all of this she became very withdrawn and her abilties suffered...she was ranked ‘D’ which is one of the lowest classes of Reyvateils. She was picked on and treated like garbage because of her rank...she did make a friend though, a friend that was also a Revytail, one that everyone liked and one Aurica looked up to, which only made her look like more of a shadow than anything else...which did not help her already lacking confidence and low esteem. She has a literal hole in her heart and is emotionally dependent.

I mention all of that because this character for me is extremely relatable to me, she’s had it pretty rough however in terms of development you see her grow like crazy...before she was so deathly scared of people she would instantly shut herself down and repress herself but with some help from her partner Lyner she gets better and starts to believe in herself more...it’s not easy for her though, as she gets stronger and Lyner trusts her with more responsibility she gets attacked through the hole in her heart and her newly built confidence gets shattered and she starts believing she’s defective, that only defective Revytail have these holes in their heart...what I love about Aurica’s story is how real her issues with building up confidence are, she starts from practically ground zero and over time, through a repeat of this vicious cycle I described, goes from being considered one of the weakest Revytail to the strongest 3rd generation Revytail all because someone believed in her.

I think out of both my male and female lists, Aurica was the only one to make me burst into tears at random points. (not gonna lie Rem came close but she’s not number one here :P) This girl here is one of the firsts ladies I ever connected to in my earlier naive years and back then I didn’t even think it was possible for me to relate to a female this much...

If you got to the end, you deserve a cookie. -offers chocolate chip cookie- This took a lot of thought to write out, there’s so many great characters and I look forward to encountering even more down the road. I may eventually do a list for couples...here’s hoping I won’t have to edit this...

RIP 10/25/2020 I HAD TO EDIT TO ADD SATEN TO HONORABLE MENTIONS ;_;

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ficdirectory · 8 years ago

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The Fosters: Our Thoughts on Episode 5x03 “Contact”

Time for another twin recap of The Fosters. As always, check out @tarajean621‘s thoughts on Jesus and brain injury representation in italics below:

You Could Have Told Me You Were Out on a Date/It’s Not a Date. Sorry/This Isn’t a Date?! Hahaha! How awkward. Mariana, just along with Callie and Aaron to watch Ximena roller derbying...

Maybe We Could Go Out Sometime Without Your Sister? What Do You Wanna Do?/Anything/Okay. I’ll Make the Plan: Callie, maybe you want to be a bit more specific with Aaron here.

It’s Not Like I’m Asking You to Get Someone Out of Prison or Prostitution. Or Maybe You Just Don’t Care ‘Cause You’re Graduating Soon: Mariana! Settle down. Callie can’t help you distribute the underground school paper. She can’t get in more trouble. Find someone who can.

Thanks for Helping Out/Unlike Some People... Mariana. Just because Moms are thanking Aaron for helping doesn’t mean you need to get all unnecessary with Jesus. Seems like there’s a lot going on in the kitchen, and sometimes, when that’s happening it’s easier (and safer) for us to just stay put.

I’m Sure They Miss You/I’m Sure They Don’t/I’m Sorry. What Was That? Oh, I love how Mariana’s comment to Jesus went unchallenged but his jab at her was immediately called out... <-- Sarcasm

Jude. Jude. Jude!/What? Hahaha! One of my favorite parts. Also I love how Jesus is waving to get Jude’s attention.

I Have to Do a Self-Portrait/How About We Take Candid Photos of You and You Can Decide Which Looks the Most Like You/That’s Actually a Great Idea/Thank You. I’m Full of Great Ideas: Of course you are, Mariana.

I Have an Idea, Too. What If Everyone Writes My History Paper, and Then I Pick Which One Will Get Me the Best Grade: Hahaha! I miss your hilarity, Jude.

Five Hours Chained to a Deep Fryer/At Least You Weren’t Chained to the House All Day/I’m Sorry. Were You Actually Talking to Me Just Now? That’s Amazing: Oh my God, Brandon, LOL. Also Moms, please tune into this portion of the conversation...Jesus is really over being at home all day every day.

Moms? Can I Go Back to School? ...Seriously. When Can I Go Back? I’m Bored and I’m Missing Out on Everything/We Understand, Honey, But.../Honey, Let Us Talk to Your Doctor, Okay? Okay but Moms seriously need to stop dodging this conversation. Jesus is entitled to an education. (Seriously. It’s the law.) A brain injury does not preclude him from that. And to have Lena in particular, who is an educator, not already on the ball about this just seems out of character and irresponsible. I would think she would be all over this, and his biggest advocate, having experience within the school system for so many years. Can we stop with the educational neglect, please?

Stef and Lena have been back at work for weeks now, leaving Jesus essentially unsupervised all day at home. (Unless you count Gabe, but I do not think Moms do.) The fact that they deem Jesus stable enough to not warrant constant supervision from a health standpoint along with the strides he has made in all areas of his recovery should at least mean that school should be seriously considered and discussed.

We Invited the New Neighbors Over for Dinner/You Invited: Ooh, Stef and Lena. A little tension?

You Bought the Tickets? You Didn’t Ask Me What I Wanted to See/’Cause You Told Me to Plan Everything/So, What Are We Seeing?/You’ll Find Out Tomorrow: To me, it’s just common courtesy to run things by your date, even if you’re the one planning it. It’s not just a date for one. I’m totally with Callie here. If she’s asking, point blank, what the movie is, the polite thing would be to tell her.

Why Are We Inviting the New Neighbors Over? We Never Did That With the Old Ones/Well...Mom Went to High School with Tess. [She] Was Mom’s First Girlfriend: Wow, Lena, TMI for the children...

Maybe We Could Talk to His Doctor But After What He Did to Brandon’s Room?/We’re Going to Keep Him HOME Until We’re Sure He Can Handle School: Mothers. What even is this conversation? An education is not a privilege. It’s a right. (Not just for the rich and white and nondisabled!) Jesus shouldn’t be denied the opportunity to go to school because he destroyed Brandon’s room.

I would understand, “Jesus doesn’t get to do [something he enjoys] until he helps pick up the mess in Brandon’s room.” But to withhold school? Literally makes zero sense. Give him consequences that make sense, Moms!

For the record? Cutting off a person’s social interactions, activities and education as an attempt to control their behavior? That’s abusive. Also, this is not 1974. Being disabled in public is no longer a crime, and disabled students are afforded a free and appropriate public education as of 1975.

He’s Still Not Talking to Brandon. What Are We Gonna Do About That? Um, Lena, were you not present at family dinner where Jesus did speak to Brandon?

Gabe Is Entertaining. How Do We Feel About That?/I Borrowed the Garage for 30 Minutes: Well, let’s consider this. Gabe lives in the garage. You let him live there. Was this with the understanding that he would never have people over? (Also, how are you gonna feel when you realize it’s Mariana and Jude in their secret newspaper meeting, and not Gabe at all?)

Wide-Wise or Long-Wise/Do You Mean Vertical or Horizontal? Are You Stoned? Noah. Seriously. But I am glad to see that Jude seems to be over his desire to get high.

Don’t Have Much to Compare It To, But I Liked It: Brandon, your love life so does not interest me. But it was interesting to see a girl (who’s a bit older) on TV without a ton of sexual experience.

Jesus is Having Trouble with His TBI. He Gets Angry and Kind Of Explodes/Are You Still Playing For Him? Okay, what universe am I even in right now? First of all. Jesus is having trouble with you, Brandon. You guys need to stop blaming every legitimate reaction that you don’t like on his TBI. And secondly, I don’t even know what to say about Grace asking if Brandon’s still playing for him. Music can do a lot of things for people, but it cannot magically heal brain injuries.

Sounds to me, Brandon, like you do not want to own up to the actions you took that led to Jesus “exploding.”

You’re Installing Security Cameras in the School?/Some of the Students Don’t Feel Safe. This Will Reassure Them: Drew, forgive me if I don’t take your word for it on how ‘reassuring’ security cameras are.

Mr. Turner, Your Vote Was Not Valid/If Ms. Porter Won’t Resign, She’s Fired: Wow. Glad it’s not a sure thing yet.

Why Are You So Dressed Up?/I’m Not/Why Are You So Dressed Up? Twins! Also, Jesus and Callie spoke for like the second time ever!

It Wasn’t My Idea. Aaron Told Me to Wear a Dress: Sounds like Aaron’s making a lot of decisions for you, Callie...

Miss You. Can U Video Chat?/Sorry. Working on Bot: Ouch. And Emma’s not even keeping Jesus in the loop about World’s at all...

The truth is, people can and do pull away after you become injured. This is realistic. And it sucks - especially as Emma seems to be the only person outside of his family that Jesus has been able to see, given Moms’ nonsense school ban.

That’s Right, Your Ex-Girlfriend’s Coming to Dinner/Dressing for Tess, Are We? Okay Brandon and Lena, back off of Stef a little bit.

Can You Put That in the Dishwasher? Because Brandon was right there, and it’s his plate, but Mama needs to put it in the dishwasher.

Didn’t You Guys Steal a Car?/And I Get Grounded for Stealing a Garden Gnome/You Stole a Garden Gnome? That’s Hilarious! Oh, we’re learning all kinds of things at this dinner party, aren’t we? Stef and Tess stealing cars. Logan stealing garden gnomes. (That sure was a knee-slapper, wasn’t it, Mariana? LOL. I love her.)

You Like Seafood? We’ll Start With the Shrimp Fritters and Patatas Bravas: Wow, Aaron. You ordered for Callie, too.

I’m Sorry. I Didn’t Mean to Scare You: Though I definitely did appreciate him apologizing to Callie for taking her picture without her knowing.

I’m a QB/It’s Good You’re Tall. You Can See Over Your Lineman: Hahaha! OMG, Mariana, so awkward, but so funny!

You’re a Big Guy. You Ever Play?/I Used to Wrestle, But--/We Didn’t Encourage Football: Seriously, Lena. Can Jesus get a word in?

It is so frustrating that Moms will not allow Jesus to complete a thought. And the way it is playing, it seems as if it is because they are constantly worried that Jesus will flip the table over and rip his shirt off in a rage at any moment.

I wish they would attempt to respectfully hear him out, however Moms seem prone to dismiss his concerns or shut him down.

As a Doctor, You’re Not Concerned About Concussions?/Absolutely: Valid concern. One of our brothers got three in a row playing high school football. Doctors still cleared him to go back and play. He made the decision on his own to quit for his own safety. But perhaps not dinner conversation, Lena? (Also, I’m mildly annoyed that that Tess keeps being addressed as if she’s a neruosurgeon instead of an orthopedic surgeon. She works with bones, Moms, she’s not an expert on the noggin.)

Why Are Girls Always Left Out of the Contact Sports?/Because Girls Channel Their Aggression Through Tweeting/Jesus: Oh I love how even this back and forth comment to Mariana earns another warning from Moms. <-- Sarcasm

Moms are seriously monitoring every single word that comes out of his mouth. Let him speak.

Oh. My. God. Does Your Girlfriend - Who’s on the Wrestling Team - Know How Sexist You Are?/I Was Joking/You Better Be. She’ll Dump Your Ass: But Mariana threatening Jesus that Emma will dump him just skates by unacknowledged.

Mariana knows Jesus has been feeling vulnerable about his relationship with Emma, so this comment was extra crappy. Made more crappy by the fact that no one called her out for it.

We Like Football/We Just Don’t Want Our Kids to Get Hurt/You Don’t Have to Play Football to Get Hit in the Head and Screw Up Your Life, Right? Watching this now, it’s obvious that Mariana’s comment about Emma touched a really raw nerve and has Jesus feeling insecure all over again about the state of his relationship with Emma. He can already tell she’s pulling away, and she likely wouldn’t be if not for his brain injury.

This is a legitimate statement. Why must it be treated as an outburst?

Can I Be Excused?/Yes, You May: Tell me again how Jesus is so irrational and angry.

Well, I’m Sure Your Neurologist Told You That Damage to the Frontal Lobe Can Cause Sudden Aggression. Sometimes Unprovoked: Okay but you’re not a neurosurgeon, Tess. So you really don’t need to keep feeding into this idea that Jesus’s logical reactions have no basis. And also, Moms, what is up with outing all of Jesus’s private medical info to the brand new neighbors? Whatever Jesus wants them to know, he’ll tell them himself.

I’m so over this Aggression Is A Symptom storyline. Make it stop.

He Seems Like a Sweet Kid/He Is. He’s Such a Sweet Soul. He Just Can’t Control These Outbursts of Anger: Thank you, Dean! But seriously Lena, what outburst of anger? You weren’t dismissing Mariana’s reaction to Jesus talking about her tweeting as an outburst. Or Stef’s reaction to being teased about dressing up for Tess. Just because Jesus has a brain injury does not negate the validity of his feelings. (And I wish Jesus could hear Lena say he is such a sweet soul, instead of what he overhears later on...)

Why does Jesus need to stuff his feelings in? To spare yours?

From What You Guys Have Told Us, His Physical and Cognitive Functions Have Improved and That’s Huge: Holy God, Moms. Just how much have you overshared with Tess and Dean???

I’m assuming that Stef also shared every excruciating detail about her double mastectomy as well - Tess is a doctor, after all... <--- Sarcasm

He Really, Really Wants to Go to School. Just, We’re Not Sure/I Think He Should: Except feel free to give advice here, Tess. Seriously. Jesus deserves an education.

THANK YOU, TESS!

[School] Can Create Added Stress as Well/Have You Thought About Getting Jesus an IEP?/Yes, Of Course, We’ve Thought About It. We Will Have Him Evaluated When We Feel He’s Ready: Lena, you can’t keep Jesus in a bubble the rest of his life. He needs to go to school. Yes, there’s going to be stress there. But the point of an IEP is so that he’ll have the accommodations he needs in that environment. No, it’s not a cure-all, but that is literally what it exists for.

And when exactly will Jesus be “ready” for school, Lena? When his brain injury magically goes away? When he acts the way you want him to act? You can’t use school as a bargaining chip. It’s just gross.

If, at the beginning of the series, we heard that Jim Pearson was not allowing Jude to attend school? The viewing public would overwhelmingly see that as abusive. This is abusive as well.

One on One Classroom Aide/Definitely Something We Can Look Into/Yes, I Know: If you know, Lena, then what the heck is up with all of your defensiveness? Sorry these words aren’t coming from someone you’d prefer them to come from, but you and Stef need to hear it.

(And while I know aides serve a purpose in school settings, they also do a heck of a job alienating a kid socially. I speak from experience. I hope if Jesus does get one, that they’re respectful.)

Lena, you do not get to use Jesus’s right to an education as an excuse to be petty.

I’ll Make You a Deal. One Week. You Don’t Play Video Games. I Don’t Get High: I did like this scene between Jude and Noah, though. They have some good chemistry together. (Though I wonder if they still will when Noah’s not stoned? Has he ever not been high when he and Jude are together?)

Look at Jesus’s Photoburst. He Didn’t Even Bother to Narrow It Down to One or Two/That Sounds Like Jesus: Maybe he wanted you to have a lot of options, Callie. But my gut says it’s probably easier to hit a button and send them all at once than it is to look at each one and try to narrow it down...

Wish I Was This Girl/You Are/Wow. Harsh/You’re That Girl, Too. You Have a Lot of Layers. That Other Picture is Just You With Some of Them Peeled Back: Brandon, so nice of you.

So Resting Bitchface Callie is Just One of My Many Layers?/It’s Not a Bitchface: Hahaha! I loved the commentary on resting bitchface Callie.

Is That Why I Haven’t Heard You Playing Music?/Well, For One, Jesus Smashed My Keyboard, So.../We Have a Real Piano: Tell him, Callie.

OMG Brandon! I’m glad Callie finally stated the obvious!

We Find No Grounds on Which to Fire Ms. Porter. She’s Still the Principal of Anchor Beach: Thank goodness...

You’ll Never Get Another Job in Education. And You? One False Move? And You’re Next: Wow, that’s bold, random school board lady. Threatening Lena...

What the Hell is This?/Vive La Résistance: Yes, Lena! (And yes, Mariana! Fly your drone and drop those papers! So cool!)

Property of ABCC STEAM Club: Oh no. So sad your drone crashed, guys!

I’m Sorry I Didn’t Want to Jam/So I Got All Weird: OMG Brandon and Grace, look at you two dorks, hahaha! Clearly you’re made for each other the way you sing to each other about your feelings.

We Can’t Do The Paper Anymore/Why?/Because Drew Will Cancel Prom and Everyone Hates Me Enough as It Is: I’m loving getting to see more of Mariana and Jude’s sibling dynamic.

I Don’t Like Surprises. I’ve Had Too Many Bad Ones. So I Need to Know the Plan, Even If You Make It: I loved this conversation between Callie and Aaron. I love how respectful it is. And I love that Callie did mention that Aaron took a bit too much of the control, telling Callie how to dress, what to eat and picking the movie.

Hey. Thought You Were Gonna Call Me Today? Totally been there. Where you want to send the text, but you’re not ready for the response you’ll get...

I Was Wondering if I Could Try Out For the Team?/Is It Cool With Your Parents? Yes, if cool means I’m Mariana and I foraged my mom’s signature, then totally. (Also, I love Mariana’s green nail polish, and I really am hoping for a strong friendship / mentorship between Ximena and the Adams Foster girls.)

Have You Given Anymore Thought to What Tess Suggested? Getting Jesus an In-Class Aide?/Suddenly You’re Ready for Jesus to Go Back to School Now That Dr. Tess Medicine Woman Thinks It’s a Good Idea? Every time this scene starts with Lena on the phone, I always think, “Oh, good! She’s talking to ABCC about what needs to happen to get Jesus evaluated for an IEP!” But nope! I get that the timing of Stef changing her mind about Jesus going to school is suspicious. (It is. She’s shown zero indication that Jesus going back to school was even something she would consider prior to this conversation.) But the bottom line is? If Jesus were in any other minority group, holding off on sending him to school would be ludicrous. Why is it okay here?

It is not okay. There is no reason he should not be enrolled. Lena (apparently Jesus’s official caregiver) has been back at work since roughly 4x15. About a month has gone by since then by my calculations. A month of Jesus sitting at home alone all day - apparently so stable medically that he does not need constant supervision.

Jesus’s visual disturbances subside enough that he is able to read in 4x18. It has been close to two weeks since then from what I can gather. I can see putting off school up until this point, but after that? I can see no reason that school is not part of an ongoing conversation. Accommodations and IEPs take time to be drawn up and put in place, but they cannot be utilized until the appropriate meetings and appointments happen.

I Honestly Don’t Know What to Do About Jesus. We Can’t Be in Denial About The Fact That He Is Unpredictable. He’s Potentially Dangerous. And We Don’t Know If He’s Gonna Get Any Better. I Mean, He May Be Like This For the Rest of His Life. Stef, Sometimes, I’m Actually Afraid of Him: Wow, Lena. Seriously? I can’t tell you how many ways this devastates me. First of all, because Jesus overheard the whole thing. Secondly, because your ableism knows no bounds! Jesus literally was not out of bounds in any way this episode. So I really wish the harmful brain injury representation would stop already.

Because you know what that leads to? Fans commenting with remarks like, “I’m scared of him, too.” Comments like, “He’s violent and scary.” “He’s a monster.” “IDK why they ever messed up his character. This isn’t the real Jesus. He’s like a whole new person now.” “Thank God Emma loves him,” and “Jesus is going to think he is better off dead.”

How does a portrayal that constantly dismisses the legitimacy of a person with a brain injury’s feelings help that part of the population? It’s only alienating them more and putting them in more actual danger, because if people are going to watch this show with zero experience with a brain injury themselves or as a family member or friend, they’re going to see a stereotype (that people with brain injuries are violent and need to be put in their place or handled violently before they can become violent) and a damaging disability narrative (which is that when you become disabled, you become a burden to your family. And the only validity your experience has is how it effects them, because all of your own feelings are “just a symptom.”)

Please let Moms and the family become aware of the harm they are doing. This is beyond damaging and has real consequences for real people.

Your son has a brain injury. His brain is altered. He will make improvements, but yes, he will be “like this” for the rest of his life. So start seeing him as a human being, not just a list of symptoms. Start talking with him, and more importantly, start listening to him. Network with other TBI survivors as well. Send him to school. And please, check your ableism. Because your harmful disability attitudes will hurt him far more than the injury has.

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