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undyinglantern · 6 months ago

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you know, when I watched the anime and the scene where he said this came up, I kinda just nodded and agreed like yeah he’s got a point. But now that I’m reading it at a slower pace I’m like well eating can include disordered eating or having a less than common allergy that you need to constantly keep on top of and be accommodated for, you could have insomnia or narcolepsy or just an irregular circadian rhythm among other sleep irregularities, and there are so many thing that can go wrong with your intestines not to mention even common things like utis or constipation or diarrhea; so eating sleeping and going to the bathroom absolutely are things that can make you nervous for any number of reasons

#not me overanalyzing a guy trying to make a philosophical point in the most uncharitable light possible. sorry 😞#but honestly as someone who did have a very bad ed that took up literally every waking moment’s thought #It really was nerve wracking. Especially when I couldn’t eat in isolation. Even eating in front of family members was stressful #I had to eat enough to appear “normal” but not too much that the calories would throw the rest of my day off (or I’d have to make up for it #the next day by eating even less than my already unhealthily below average intake)#and I’d constantly be worrying about when and what I would eat next. Meticulously spacing out “meals” roughly 4 hours apart #which added to the excuse of smaller portions because I was eating 4-5 times per day instead of the average 3 #but some of those meals would be like. An apple (80 calories) and a MEASURED TO BE ACCURATE tablespoon of peanut butter (100-105 calories).#a measured coup of cereal and measured half cup milk. literally only a serving of fish sticks nothing else maybe with a little ketchup.#an ounce of almonds. one slice of toast with whatever spread instead of 2 slices.#the numbers were always and constantly being calculated btw I just didn’t feel like including or thinking abt them here

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