#not in great condition. feeling. unwell. what is wrong with me? i've wanted to be friends with the sun for so long

[outlying-hyppocrate]

he has stood under the sun for so long that time begins to collapse into itself. she makes me experience the strangest colors. and how is everyone else today

[juszar2]

What is the condition that people grow resentment if you do not set aside your boundaries and let them all through your life. Being private, guarded and cautious causes them to want to be inside of the toilet while you disrobe and sit on it. Somehow stalking is their urge. They are so obsessive and really sick. This low life has certainly seen and witnessed just how stalker/hater/scorn people become over me. Could be minding My business and the tactics and stalking becomes severe. Resentment and jealousy. He has definitely seen.

Or I'd get folks, usually female to stand around and pray for an opportunity to see me or stand on the other side of a door where I am and speak.... Really to me, without speaking to me. What is that? I always thought that to be so unsophisticated, really stalker like and just low and child-like. Those females that do that are really common and lacking a whole lot. What were they taught. Not my type for friendship or company. Find out you're nearby and then stand on the other side of a door or close enough and try to get my attention desperately. It is really small of them. I remember some of the things those types have said when doing those performances and I wonder why they don't feel unwell. Or just stupid and lowly. If you have something you must in dire need say to me why not come ask to speak to me and say it. That way, I can take my turn and say some things. The answer is that your gripe or problem with me would reveal you and is really a problem with... You, because it is unwarranted and stupid. The truth is that your feelings regarding me being guarded and private cause you upset. You want to let me know of your scorn. But....... Isn't it ironic that your performances wherein you attempt to disrespect me as a dire attempt for attention really does reveal that Yes, there was absolutely the need for me to be guarded and boundaried. You are trying to harm me for..... Nothing. Because I have not served to let you get beyond my wall where I watch out for types.... Ironically like You that put on such opportunistic performances. You proved to be what I considered to be possible, but admittedly didn't lean toward you being. While still distant, I'd given you more credit than you actually deserved. You proved me wrong you really are one of those. But it's OK because that's why common means common, you are among many. Count me out though because I would never... It's beneath me.

Beyonce could be in the same room or building with me and never would I seek to look in her belongings or invade her in any way. I definitely do not want to see her nude. What is this surge in homosexuality with females. She wouldn't even need to be bothered by me. I am respectful, preserve dignity and there is not a sick nor obsessive bone in my body. I have met sick freaks with mental conditions lacking any real character. What is this whole "if you don't let me pocket you, I will have resentment and show how sick I am and how I was raised really wrong" I fear that even if you watch someone be raised, that does not mean it was done well and you only need to give them the opportunity to show you that. I have been shocked by what I have seen. There is something wrong with people. I am sure that there is what is not trash out there... I created some, but when I see the opposite of that, it is something to see.

I do love when God let's me meet and get to know great women to counter my experience. I thank god that I know some good, decent, dignified, respectful, real and practical, wise women. Women who would side eye some crap like that. Why am I so different and where the hell are more of me? If I spoke more of some of these garbage experiences that I've had in life, I wonder who or how many have encountered these same sick things. That would likely be my tribe. It might only happen to a certain segment of woman... Real woman