#not even kill myself. i just wanna feel the pain bc i deserve it yk? | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

nightmare8-420 · 6 months ago

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hg im so sorry, idfk how to even tw this. uh. tw venty bullshit idfk goodluck does anyone read these if so like. why????? im not judging just who wants to read whats essentially a kid being depressed over nothing

whats the point in living if i cant be happy anyways

whats the point in living if i always ruin my own happiness

whats the point in living if i cant make them happy?

whats the point in living if i will forever remain in the background, even in my own life?

whats the point in living if it will never change?

whats the point in living if i am a disappointment to them?

whats the point in living if i am a failure to them?

am i just living for them at this point?

is it selfish to have a will to live?

is it selfish to unknowingly place that will on another?

what am i to even do about it?

i really wish theyd tell me how much they hate me.

i cant do this.

i know they hate me. they have to at this point. they wouldnt notice if i disappeared right? who really would. i am nothing to no one, i am no one significant, ive done nothing for anyone, and that cant even be argued with can it?

haaa im truly an excuse for a human being.

#j’s a bloody mess #its gonna get better or worse #if i ask them for help itll be better if i dont itll be worse #and man. when the one person who can actually get you out of this shit is the person youre worried hates you #man it really isnt fun!#btw this is literally over the fact i felt weird last night and i feel like i accidently cut them short #idc how illogical it is i hate myself for it #lmao i hate myself so goddamn much rn #words can’t describe how much i want to kill myself.#not even kill myself. i just wanna feel the pain bc i deserve it yk?#im the definition of worthless! hope this helps!

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