#normally i watch this show with a very merlin focused lense but this was such an interesting episode for gaius

[aliveaudiencegang]

what if i was kidnapped and tortured into confessing the man’s, who’s practically my son, biggest secret to someone who definitely wants him dead or worse. but it’s ok because it turns out my torturer is now on our side. but what if a few years later said torturer gets kidnapped by the person who wanted the information in the first place (someone who also hates me for legitimate reasons but i’m not going to think about that) so my son is back to being in danger again. which is different to most of the other times he’s in danger because this is directly related to the fact that i broke under torture and couldn’t keep his identity safe. but he promises he’ll stay out of trouble but a defining trait of our relationship is that we lie to each other, so i don’t believe him. in fact i go behind his back and most likely make things worse for him all in the name of trying to protect him. and turns out he was right but i know i’ll probably do something like that again if i had to make the choice