#none of my tone is snotty or mean i am just trying to be blunt and clear and im actually really upset by this

[moroser]

About your human au - I just want to say Lilith was confirmed to be just aroace, not on the spectrum, and repulsed by romance and sex. I’m trying not to word this badly but you saying she would have one night stands is…not good or like accurate to who she is. Also it’s weird there seems to be so much importance on Hunter being her biological son, it kinda comes off as if him being adopted isn’t good enough. As an aroace person myself, knowing you’re also aroace, I just wanted to point these concerns out. I hope it doesn’t come off as rude or anything, and I’m not saying you meant for these things to come across badly either, just asking you to consider this.

i wasn't aware it was confirmed she was repulsed by sex (romance yes, but i just recall her being confirmed ace.) but, even so,

i honestly don't know how to take this ask because as an ace person who is repulsed by sex (physically almost all the time, but in stories and movies and whatever, not always), it took me a LONG time and many shitty situations to get there and realize this was the case for me and realistically there are ace people who also take a similar journey to reach that point in understanding themselves. i am almost 32 and i spent a lot of time thinking i could get over not enjoying sex and understanding that i didn't HAVE to have it, sometimes putting myself in uncomfortable situations for it to try and 'fix' myself. i am STILL struggling with the mentality that it's okay to be repulsed by sex.

i'd applied that to her for this au, because it's an outlet for me. saying she has one night stands was NOT meant to be taken like she'd been going out and having a bunch of sex all the time like at all. i perhaps could have worded it better to explain this, i apologize for that. but to be honest, it was very difficult to share and explain this au for This Reason. it's embarrassing for me to even talk about because i don't even like admitting how much i've tried to not be ace. like idk how else to explain this but i have had breakdowns to my friends about the concern of this and feeling guilty, when ultimately i probably shouldn't have to. people have different journeys into figuring out their sexual (or non sexual) identities.

as far as the biological son thing, it has absolutely nothing to do with him being adopted not being good enough, at all. i am a bit offended that this is assumed of me because i would never think or say something like that. this was just a situation i had created for this au. i didn't do it because i didn't want him to be adopted, i just wanted the situation where he wasn't and how it would go. it didn't feel realistic to me that she'd adopt a baby or she'd just choose to have one, so i wanted to explore a different route.

like i have thought a lot about this, i didn't just throw this shit together without considering a lot of things and this type of ask was why i was fearful to even share it. i don't think there is much i could say that will help you in particular feel better about this, but i have most definitely thought about it all and considered things. i don't like feeling bad for using a character that i really love and respect, as an outlet (as someone who is aroace who does want a child) that isn't harming anything. you do not have to agree with me, but i don't think you should be telling me that i'm doing something wrong and making me feel bad just because my aroace journey is different than yours. i really, really care about this and lilith. like in an autistic and very strong way.