#nobody let him turn on autocorrect i like the way he spells !!!!

[bobmckenzie]

selfshipvember day 13 ⇢ favorite AU

long(ish) distance AU with Bob!!

texting a few nights before my first time going up to visit him in Canada so I can see one of his hockey games 🥰 we talk every day and he's come to visit me twice, but we're still both too shy to say ily yet :')

[heyyylittlemo]

Ask game

1. Where did you hide the body??

Me: *pause* No, where did you hide the body—

*police stare at me with disbelief*

Me: there’s no—there’s not a single body here—well stop looking at me like that, you’re the cop! You should know! Why are you asking me for! Body? Whaaaaaat. Ahaha.

*cops shake head*

*whispers to my friend* Guys I think I pulled that one off

Police: you know we can hear everything you’re saying

me: 👁👄👁

2. Favorite rock? The 1975. Dominic Fike. Arctic Monkeys. Bad Suns. The killers. Pale Waves. Etc. That good good shit 👌

3. Most aesthetic season? Fall. Love them orange colors. The leaves falling. Though spring is also neat if you have a bunch of flowers bloomin in shit and winter is only aesthetic when it’s snowing. Boring ass summer tho just be heating me up.

4. When texting do u shorten words or spell out? I used to write stuff out all the time mostly but now it’s like half and half bcuz its just faster and nobody got time for it 🤣🤣

5. Vintage stuff? Hell yeah, but maybe not anything too expensive since some old stuff IS hyper expensive.

6. Colors that pop or blend? Not sure I understand what u mean abt them blending ahaha u mean like when they’re so similar to another?? Well I think it’s nice but honestly I prefer a pop and a bang, y’Know?

- At this moment I realized I was answering the last few questions from a completely different ask and felt like a dumbass 😂 anyways the actual number we’re on is three so imma just kickback

3. Worst dream u have ever had? I had sleep paralysis but was imbetween that and a lucid dream. At first I was paralyzed and could see my bed but my eyes felt closed and open at the same time?? A giant dark demon looking dog had towered over me and began to tear at my neck. It looked and felt very real I started to try to scream and it felt like a scream was coming out but no sound exited. Then I went into a lucid dream where I was being chased by this dog and running for my life I was running by and nobody could save me nobody in the dream when it caught up to me I was back in my bed and it was trying to eat me again. I was so terrified I couldn’t sleep for a whole week.

4. Lyric that comes to your mind? “And I don’t think I can be there. I’m paralyzed,I’m terrified of being alone. When you said I deserved what had happened.”

5. Blood make u uncomfortable? Yes, I passed out once when getting my finger pricked and a VERY small blood sample and another when dissecting a fish.

6. Even or odd numbers? Well I like the number 5,7,9, 3 so odd. (Like me 🤣🤣)

7. Something I hate that I love? Anything I’ve ever loved becuz love can be frustrating. Bruh.

8. 1st initial of someone I hate? Hmm...do I hate someone tho? Not that I can think of...

9. *Skipping down the lane* NOPE

10. Corn dogs? It’s funny cuz when I think of corn dogs my mind will always go to when we first moved to our current house because at our initial town we never had Sonic and while we were getting the house fixed up and moving stuff we use to always get Sonic since it was the closest to us most times to eat and that was a bunch of corn dogs and hotdog days 🤣 so thnk u corn dogs for ur service

11. I’m not a huge movie person so...I looked up movies from 2005 and movies Inlike from this time are Brokeback mountain bcuz it’s gay af, Shark Boy and Lava Girl damn I rewatched the shot out of it when I was younger, Narnia and the Chocolate Factory(although it low key creeped me out as a kid, and idk why).

12. Least fav music genre? Most country, most EDM, dubstep, screaming/really hard rock, some pop music, mumble raping.

13. As someone who waits on tables, my job is my least favorite restaurant experience 🤣🤣 just dealing with ppl...like ok, I’m half Hispanic right?? But I look white. Well, I work at a Mexican restaurant and so sometimes racist costumers will say shady shit just bcuz I guess they think it’s appropriate to say it to me just bcuz I’m not Hispanic in their eyes?? But it pisses me off and I feel like I can’t say anything without causing a drama which I hate and when the “costumers always right” it can be hard to budge and stand up and say “bitch wtf did u just say??” And there’s just folks who take things the wrong ways or ask too much at once or give u a hard time or just say something that sticks onto you for the whole day. One bad move can turn my whole day upside down.

14. 3 things never come near me? Cockroaches, Needles, and close mind ppl

15. Worst way to die? With regrets. Something really brutual, random, or where something just happened to go wrong (accident). Being killed by someone u love.

16. Unusual habits? Doing a Michael Jackson esque “hee-hee” after every sneeze I make, being extremely clumsy and making every task 100% more difficult, having the ability to talk as if I have an accent that comes from nowhere in particular just stupidity also I can’t speak my own language half the time 🙃getting words confused or misusing them in a sentence so I sound dumb having a very weird imagination and thoughts, I swear it like I never went to school and don’t know how the world works, plus many many more

17. Clothing style u want? I want to dress in a way that screams who I am and is a blend of both femininity and masculinity. A little vintage. Grunge. Urban maybe?? What do I know abt fashion 🤣🤣

18. Song or artist that deserves more? Dijon, hands down. I love his stuff. He’s like Frank Ocean meets light-singing beautiful lyricist with a more rock vibe?? Hidden gem. I also think Durand Jones & the Indications needs more love along with BadBadNotGood they sound like old-times but are new!! Oh, and Pale Waves is like a female The 1975 and kicks it. Bad Suns is a good alt rock band that no one seems to recognize :,D Toro y Moi too! His song with Flume “The difference “ is a banger!! Kid Cudi is my man when I want a blend of rock and rap. Also Dominic Fike,King Krule, and Roy Blair, who are all amazing!! Ok I need to stop 🛑

Duck I answered the past questions from a different post I’m sorry 😐

17. Emoji never used? There’s a bunch since I reuse the same over and over again. Lmao

18. 3 sentence Gatorade horror story? A faint quiver overtook the small freezer the Gatorade lay in; no one had come by in days, hours, weeks; when was the last time he met the lips of a thirsty body? They’d forgotten about him, as his last sips remained glued to his hollowing entrance. ‘Help, ‘it wanted to say, but it’s frozen lips could not be moved; It’d stay here, die here...just like the rest.” What am I doing with my life 🤣🙏

19. Do u know what an old bay is? A bay that is old? And old ocean? Idk!!!

20. Can u dance? Sometimes I dance when I’m alone but nothing spectral lol

21. What first comes to ur mind when u see ropes? 2 extremes. Sex and death. Hm. Ok. Moving on.

22. Make an obscure reference. “Even a bra couldn’t hold these nipples” *Holds a water gun to chest*

23. Fav balloon color? Pink or yellow.

24. If u were in court would u be innocent or guilty? Depends, what am I in court for 🤣 lmao jk honestly idk bcuz I don’t think I’d wind up in there

25. Are u hungry ? Nope

26. Unlucky number? Hm I don’t think so but I have a lucky number “123”

27. What’s “JMD”stand for? I’m guessing...Jamming my d—- 💀lol jk ahaha why am so dirt

28. Random inside joke? *chirpy squeak* I’m making a double batch of cookies

29. What sends chills up ur spine? Seeing disgust food or smell disgust or talking abt disgust things like gore

30. How many questions are in ur inbox? A pathetic zero ahaha no one want to ask me anything 😂

31. Someone real who scares u. 2 of my ex friends. One when I was 10 said disturbing things and I was kinda forced onto the friendship and everything they said make me fear for others lives...and then a different ex friend who seemed normal at 1st but became both low key psychopath cult leader type stuff and I booed out of there—-.

32. Run or hide? Uhh probably hide because I’d say even if ppl say “u can run but u can’t hide” u CAN just hide! that’s the point of hiding they not find u xD also why not combine them? Hide then run somewhere far away once I got them off the trial.

33. Last person who made u angry? A frickin beetle that flew at me and pinched me in the middle of singing in the shed xD also my autocorrect

34. What’s going on in ur head? I should probably pee soon—

35. Little thing that makes u Smile? A lot of little things bruh.

36. Are u a descisive person?

Not sure.

*pAuse *

Ok, I guess I’m not then 🤣

37. Would ppl say I’m paranoid? Hm maybe about certain things social situations, singing in front of others what ppl think abt me etc etc

38. Store least likely in? Any southern clothes shop, Abercrombie & Finch types shit, lol

39. Do I like hats fave type? Hm not wear many hats but I think they’re cool any type is cool for different ppl and their aesthetici just can’t rock a hat.

40. Bow ties or ties? Don’t really care but now want to see more bow ties

41. Who? You.

42. What? Reading this shit

43. Where? In ur ass

44. When? Now.

45. Why? Not even u know why.

46. How? We all want to know

47. Do u collect anything? Vinyl records.

48. What tome is it? Time to get a watch

49. Fav transportation? My car or walk is possible

50. Would u ever kill someone to save someone? Don’t want to think about that

51. Make a joke. Yo, it’s time to make a joke—so the other day I was working. And I was practicing my Spanish, yes? Anyone whose trying to learn anew language k n o w s that sometimes words can be so close to another u just confuse then! So apparently churros in Spanish is a desert but if u say it more harshly (it literally sounds almost the same) it makes a whole different meaning—diharrea, but like I didn’t know that so I legit just walked up to this person and asked if they would like some shit to eat. So yeah, that was great. Let’s not forget that I mixed up blood, watermelon, and sangria which is a wine. I legit once said I had mixed wine in my vines and another time watermelon 🤣

52. I’m really confused so I skip

53. Would ur dash be confiscated SFW? By dash do u mean this account? Um not 😬

54. Do I like to cuddle? Hell yeah and manhandle ppl all the time it’s my affection

55. What makes u angry? Close minded ppl or ppl who jump too fast to conclusions, strict schedules just dumb stuff that people try to force when I just want to be carefree 😭✌️

56. How many voices are in ur head? 😐

57. Do U consider urself mentally stable? 😐

58. Are u easily offended? Well U just called me mentally unstable and asked it there was voices in my head!!

59. What’s wrong with taking the backstreets? Uhm...

60. Any questions u want ppl to ask u? Nothing in particular but it’s be nice if someone care to ask me something abt me from personal question to my opinions on shit to 19 days fandom related junk 😌

Woooo I’ve finished this game! Thanks to @seiji-amasawa for introducing me to this ^^

[tumblunni]

BUNNI WATCHES RANDOM OUT OF ORDER SINNOH EPISODES THAT WERE LEFT ON THIS HARD DRIVE I GUESS

Today is diamond and pearl season one episode 28 "Drifloon On The Wind!"

Huh this one had a cold open showing the climactic moment from the end of the episode before it actually happened. Thats the first time i recall the anime doing that? I thougjt initially it was a flashback and i missed the first of a two parter.

Such a cool neat weird premise! A traditional pokemon centre out in the countryside! That adds so much worldbuilding to the setting! They never state it in the english dub but it seems to be a joke on a japanese onsen? (An inn built around hot springs) the archetecture just seems to be very similar, and from what i've seen in anime the "my mum and my mum's mum and my mum's mum's mum worked here" thing is a common trope. The nurse joy family is probably a joke to exaggerate it? Also i loved the scene where Brock is like "wait what the fuck this identical nurse joy is actually old enough to have a daughter ash's age and also OH NO A WEDDING RIIIIIING" And then he thankfully,blissfully GAVE UP and we had one nurse joy centric episode without him being a fuckboi. Seriously, the older you get the less funny you find brock, it sucks that the stuff that's meant to be over the top jokes is now barely more exaggerated than how some dudes act in real life. All you real life brocks, nobody finds you as charming as a fictional goofball! You're just rude! AND REAL BROCKS DONT HAVE A CROAGUNK TO STOP THEM

Anyway i LOVE the cute cottagey aesthetic pokemon center/hotel place! It seems the family mostly treats wild pokemon in the forest and they were actually so surprised to see customers that they thought they were burglars at first! And then daww ash and co help out doing chores to pay them back for the meal and bed even though the family is like 'no dude thats the duty of a pokemon centre'. I think that was a really mature moment for ash? He realized that this pokemon center gets less business than usual ones and figured he should give them a hand. And its so nice to see him being so super excited and wowed by the chores?? Like i mean its CHORES but for him its all so new cos its learning how to work in a pokemon center. Ash's best characrer trait is how his enthusiasm really has no limits, he'll go 100% be the best choremon master ever! Or maybe he was intentionalky being all THIS IS SO FUN because the joy daughters were fighting and he wanted to help cheer them up? In a lot of ways i prefer season 1's bratty egotistical sarcasm ash just cos he had more of a visible personality and you didnt have to sorta sleuth it out like this and always be left wondering whether they really meant to write nice-Ash this way or you're just imagining it. But when nice-Ash has monents like this he's way better and i just wish it hapoened more often and was 100% confirmed, yknow? Most of the time in sinnoh he feels less like nice-ash and more like nothing-ash or changes-every-day-into-whatever-the-plot-requires-him-to-be-ash. But in sun and moon season they have all those more slice of lifey and emltional plots and he's the more nicer ash that i always wanted, and i love it!

Anyway lol im going wildly off topic. Also fun fact i spell "the" wrong so much that "tge" is the first result in my autocorrect now...

Another thing i like is that these Joys seem to be a ghost type specialist family? The kids have a big pile of drifloon cuties and when the gang first arrived they saw a bunch of happy gastlys enjoying their stay at the inn. I like to think maybe all the ghosts they have are "drifty" types like that? I feel that the writers ppicked gastly cos the pokedex entry saying they blow away on the wind like drifloon. Cos this is actually the valley windworks adaptation episode! That was such a nice surprise when it turned out momma joy's husband was the windmill electrician guy!! He looks SO cute in the anime too! He's really chubby and has such a nice round face with a button nose and big anime eyes and a cute turquoise jacket electrician uniforn thing. And he's funny and goofy with his kids and very caribg and cautious about letting them ride home alone in the bad weather, and also he's a GIANT BADASS with an ampharos that thunderpunches the shit out of team rocket and defeats them before ash can even get there lol! Actually they never show what momma joy's main pokemon is? I like to think maybe its a gengar cos thats the most chansey-ish ghost type. And also itd mean the chubby guy has a tall and thin pokemon and his tall and thin wife has a chubby pokemon. Theyre such a cute couple so itd be even cuter!

Oh and i forgot to mention that everyone travels around via drifloon??? Thats so surreal when you consider their pokedex entries saying them carrying children is a bad thing that means theyre kidnapoing them. Like, they domesticated a very dangerous pokemon and now it uses its dangerousness for the powers of good instead! Maybe its just the anime censoring a scary thing or maybe it was intentional to show how badass this momma joy is that she could tame so many spoopy ghosts that everyone thinks are pure evil? Seriously i LOVE how they show this family working to protect and heal the local wild pokemon and them all being super friendly to humans because of it. And it makes sense theyd be ghost tyoe trainers cos if youre befriending all the pokemon in a forest youre bound to find a few lost souls. Mountains and forests are like the deadliest areas for travellers so mountain forests especially so! Everyone's lucky they have this badass family team watching over the area like guardian spirits~

OH SPEAKING OF WHICH

I forgot to mention that the main conflict of the episode is that the joy sisters have a fight because the older sister is a bit overprotective and dismissive of her little sister, causing her to be reckless and get lost trying to "be grown up and help mommy". And in the end the big sister rescues her with the help of the guardian spirit of the hot springs and they reconcile their differences and have big cute hugs! Its all very well written and dramatic actually.i really felt for the older sister's determination to save her, and i felt it was a good case of a conflict where both of them were wrong and both made mistakes and it was just like they coulda avoided those mistakes if they talked it out better. And both of them had a point at the same time, yknow? So it didnt end with either of them losing the argument or anything, it was more like the lesson is just to appreciate your siblings while theyre there and also talk about your problems in clear language with younger kids instead of using excuses like "you just cant, cos im older and i said so".

Oh also SUICUNE!

The super onsen spirit is suicune?? The little sister just casually mentions her biggest best friend in the forest is suicune and is surprised when ash says its a legendary! Wow thats actually a really cool idea? You wouldnt necessarily think of it cos you kinda think of hot springs for the hot part but theyre also a sort of super clean water like how suicune is meant to be able to purify polluted lakes. Maybe it came here to make its nest cos places that are already purified are comforting to someone who wanders the earth blasting stinky water with its powers every day. I like to think maybe this is the same suicune from Generations where they said the legendary beasts are roaming legendaries because humans treated them as demons when they first walked out of the ashes, and now theyre still scared of us even centuries later. Itd be sad if they literally kept running forever, so i like to think they all have a comforting spot to sleep in, somewhere. And for suicune its this little isolated lake in the sinnoh region which used to be super far away from human civilization. But then this family's ancestors built this hospital here and suicune was initially like "oh no my house is ruined" but then it saw that these humans were helping protect tge forest pokemon too. So its like "ah fellow coworkers" and theyre the only humans it trusts. And whenever theyre in trouble it sneakily helps them and dashes away before it can be seen, but one day it got unlucky and the kids saw it and now OH NO it is stuck havibg CUTE TINY FRIENDS! I bet the littlest joy just treats suicune like a big puppy, and this great noble beast of legend plays along because it loves her so much. But if anyone else sees it demeaning itself with a game of fetch, it would be Total Social Death In The Legendaries Club

Anyway there's some cute moments of Emotionally Wise Kind Ash The Best Of All Ashes where he finds the lost little-joy and he tries to cheer her up when she's scared by the storm and keep her dry from the rain. And he has absolute faith that his friends will come to save them both! The only thing i think coukd have maybe made it better is if the big sister joy didnt beleive in suicune? Cos it just ends with her going to ask suicune for help and then suicune helps. There's a lack of tension cos you know suicune could easily resolve all this and you already know suicune is real cos the lil sis says that big sis told her to keep it a secret cos its a Big Deal and Bad People Could Take Suicune Away and stuff. Like it might have worked better if the big sis thought that little sis was just making up rumours to be all boastful, or playing with an imaginary friend. Then her going to ask suicune for help would have symbolized something, yknow? And the audience might have been tense about whether it was real or not.

But even without that added suggestion it was still a great episode! Lots of cuteness, emotionalness, familyness and a few great jokes along the way! Also i just loved them giving unique character designs and a full backstory to these minor npcs from the game. Whenever i play it now i'm totally gonna headcanon this all as true! I mean all we know about the daughter character in the game is that she says "papa youre stinky but i still love you" and that feels very in character for the slightly mischievious little sis joy that we meet in this episode. Though you only see the one daughter and she acts like she hasnt caught a drifloon yet and dreams of seeing it if you can fix the windmill problems so it'll come back. So maybe the game version takes place a little before the anime? Like, that daughter is the engineer dad's daughter from a previous relationship and the older daughter is joy's daughter from a previous relationship. And i dunno maybe lil daughter's hair colour actually is the generic npc brown from the games but she begged her momma to dye it so she could match. Like she just loves her new momma and sister so much!! And now the struggling mountain poke-center is doing better because both parents work difderent jobs now and have enough money combined to be able to keep the family in a better quality of life. And maybe the team galactic incident at the valley windworks got it a bit of publicity as a tourist destination? and after the daughter caught that drifloon everyone who visited was like GOSH ITS SO CUTIE and the dad was like "yes our special windmill attracts these pokemon that are normally only found high up on the mountains, speaking of which my wife runs an inn up there and you can go on pokemon wildlife tours to see them in their natural habitat!" And just I LOVE THESE GUYS AND I WANT THEM TO HAVE ALL THE SUCCESS IN THEIR LIFE!! There is NOTHING better than "hey we're adapting this gane what should we do?" "Add MORE FAMBLY" Like oh my god whoever had that wonderful idea should be promoted!

Thus ends bunni's disjointed review of FAMBLY EPISODE

[tessalivesandbreathesbooks]

Love at Last

I hope you like it!

Love as Last is an AU set in the human world where you're going to find characters from both, ACOTAR and ToG. You'll learn the life and struggles of the characters as the story progresses.

Chapter 7 (AO3)

Feyre's POV

Feyre tilted her head back to enjoy the brightness of the sun on her skin and the warm breeze blowing through. She was sitting on the grass with Tamlin's head resting across her lap. Feyre had been fairly surprised when Tamlin had suggested they could go have a picnic in the forest located close to the school grounds right after class. She had been exhausted, but she hadn't been able to say no.

She simply loved the forest. If you looked up you could see the sky vanishing almost completely, only a few fragments of blue piercing through the tree branches and leaves. The air was rich with the fragrance of wood and soil and there was absolute silence, broken only by the occasional chirping of nearby birds or a squirrel dashing up a trunk. Forests were places full of mystery and a magical feeling that seemed to vibrate in the air, something ancient and eternal.

Feyre exhaled softly, feeling at peace for once. Right now she felt happy, untroubled. More than she had been in a while.

It had been already two weeks since the group projects for the assignment came up. Two weeks of endless agony and misery, of never-ending despair because her boyfriend was still paranoid with the idea of her getting hurt.

She was aghast at how much everything had changed in the spam on two weeks. During the first week, Tamlin had only been slightly aggressive towards those who tried to speak to her, but now he didn't allow her to talk to anyone or anyone to talk to her. When he wasn't with her, he had friends controlling her at every corner and if they saw her doing something out of the ordinary, they would tell Tamlin immediately. Afterwards, he would confront her about it and they would argue. She would beg him to back off, to let her breathe, but to no avail. There's no room for argument, he would say, this is for you own good. He never listened to her ... and it broke her heart.

It was in those brief moments when she considered ... ending it. But she never did, she couldn't. Maybe it was because of moments like this, these quiet moments that made it all almost worth it. If only there was a way to make every single moment as perfect as this one ... what she wouldn't give to achieve that.

Feyre run a hand distractedly through Tamlin's hair and he opened his eyes and looked sweetly at her. His eyes were a vivid green and they were gleaming with delight and joy. She smiled softly. "Hey."

He covered his eyes with his hand, a small smile on his face. "You look beautiful."

She laughed quietly. "Thanks."

His smile broadened. A few seconds passed before he whispered quietly. "I wish we didn't have to go back, I wish we could stay here forever."

Feyre's smile faltered at that. "Yeah, I wish we could."

"Are you doing something tomorrow? Maybe we could go somewhere."

Feyre's smile disappeared. "You know I can't. I have to study, I told you."

Tamlin sighed. "Tomorrow's Friday, Feyre. One shouldn't study on Fridays."

Feyre gulped. "Well, I do."

Tamlin shook his head. "Fine, whatever." He rolled over and got up, brushing the dirt of his jeans. Feyre looked at him sadly while he started gathering his things.

Not again. Please.

"Tamlin -"

"No, Feyre. It's whatever. If you don't want to be with me, just tell me straight ahead. Don't lie."

Feyre shook her head. "I'm not lying, Tamlin."

"Oh really?" Tamlin looked, anger gleaming in his eyes. "Nobody ever studies on Fridays. If you are it's only because you don't want to see me." Tamlin gave a dismissive wave of his hand and started walking away. "But it's fine, Feyre. Do whatever you want."

Feyre just stared at him as he walked away. She could feel the exhaustion and sadness finding their way back to her chest, where they had been for days now. Whatever spell they had been in was broken now, her spirits down once more. He managed to destroy every little progress they made, every hint of happiness she was able to find in their relationship. And that made her sad ... and somewhat disappointed.

Sometimes she couldn't help but wonder ... how could he not see it? How could he not see her pain, her struggles, her agony? How could he not realise the way he was acting was killing her from the inside?

Maybe ... maybe she should walk away, but how? It always came back to that question: how could she break up with him when the thought of never seeing him again broke her apart? How could she leave him when she loved him so much?

But is love worth it in the end, if it ends up destroying you?

She closed her eyes. She wasn't ready to answer that question. Not yet anyway.

Suddenly her phone vibrated in her pocket. She picked it out and saw a new message popping out in her notifications.

Rhys: Still up for Friday night?

Rhysand.

She hadn't been lying when she had told Tamlin she was going to study, but she had forgotten to mention him with who. It was incredible how much her relationship with Rhysand had improved in the course of these two weeks. She had realised she hadn't known him at all. He was so different from what she had thought: considerate, merciful, understanding, sweet, funny ... etc. It still amazed her how well he had hidden it.

They didn't talk at school for obvious reasons, but they talked on WhatsApp on almost a daily basis and that troubled her because she liked talking to him.  Probably more than she should.

It had all started innocently. A simple message written late at night.

Unknown number: Hello Feyre darling ;)

Of course, she had thought. It had to be him.

Hello prick.

Rhysand: As charming as always. And here I thought we were friends ;(

She had laughed a little at that.

*this is me rolling my eyes* whatever, Rhys. What do you want?

Rhysand: *sighs loudly and dramatically* I just wanted to talk to you. Why do I always need to want something?

Feyre had just blinked at the screen. She had considered his words for a second before typing back.

Okay, then talk.

They had talked for hours that night. And the next one. And the next one. And now ... they've been like this, talking about everything and nothing for almost two weeks. And it felt amazing.

She had told her about the death of her mother and his father's inability to take care of her and her sisters and he had told her about what happened to his parents, how they had died in a car accident when he had been ten years old and how he had been forced to live with his uncle and aunt from that moment on. She had admitted how often she thought about her mother, about the way things would have been if she had lived and he had told her how much he missed his own, how much he had cried over her death because even though his father had been an utter jerk, he had loved his mother with all his heart. He had told her the kind of music he liked, how much he liked animals and how Amren, his first crush, had sent him packing when he had told her about it. Feyre had told him which food she liked and she had explained to him about her desire to become an painter someday. She talked to him about Tamlin, about her problems and he corresponded her by telling her about his.

She had never felt more understood by a human being. She'd always had a deep connection with her sisters and now than she'd made up with Nesta, she could talk to her about almost everything again, but whatever this was, with Rhys ... it was different. Those messages with him were a bliss in the ocean of darkness she was living in lately. He understood her, even when Tamlin didn't. And that scared her because she was feeling things she knew she shouldn't be feeling towards him. Tamlin was her boyfriend and she loved him, but with Rhys ... it was a special, rare thing what laid between them. And she didn't know what to make of it.

Feyre shook her head. She stared at her cellphone for a while before typing back.

Yeah. Although Tamlin is a little bit mad.

Rhys: Has he said anything mean to you?

Not really. I think. I mean, you know how he gets.

Rhys: Like a needy bastard?

Don't be mean.

Rhys: Sorry, the autocorrect. I meant, "Like a considerate boyfriend?"

Feyre laughed and shook her head.

Prick.

Rhys: XD

She stared at her phone and smiled. He made her smile ... while her Tamlin -

"Feyre, are you coming or what?"

Feyre sighed and got up. She gathered her things and went to straight to Tamlin's car. Tamlin was leaning against it and when he saw her he racked his fingers through his hair and bit his lip. Feyre knew he wanted her to talk to him, to maybe even apologise and beg for his forgiveness, but she wasn't in the mood. She went directly to the passenger's seat, but as soon as she passed by his side she felt him grabbing her arm. She turned her head to look at him.

Tamlin was looking at him intently, his gaze slightly narrowed. "You look ... different."

Feyre simply asked. "Different as in?"

"I don't know. Just different, you carry yourself differently." He shook his head and looked right into her eyes, his stare piercing and ... slightly angry. She gulped. "Are you hiding things from me, Feyre?"

Feyre paled slightly and said, "of course not."

"Are you sure? Because if you are lying to me, Feyre ... if you lie to me, I will -"

"You will what, Tamlin?"

He simply shook his head and said. "We are together, Feyre. I thought you loved me. I thought what we have is important to you."

"It is important to me."

"Well, it doesn't look like it." His gaze was burning with fury and the pressure on her arm increased. Feyre felt fear, real fear, gathering in her gut.

"Tamlin -"

"All I've been doing, all I've done is for you, Feyre. Because I love you, because I want you to be safe, don't you see it? How can't you see it?"

"Tamlin, I know. I love you too. Please, let go of me."

"The hell I will." Tamlin pushed her against the car until their faces were inches apart, his lips barely touching hers. "You are mine, Feyre. And you will always be mine."

Feyre's breath was coming in short pants, fear curling up inside her and clinging to her ribs. "Tamlin, please -"

"Say it, Feyre." Tamlin's breath was hot in her lips, anger vibrating in every word he said. "Say it."

Feyre felt tears of incompetence and pain gathering at the back of her eyes. She whispered softly. "I'm yours. I'm yours, Tamlin."

At that, he growled and kissed her roughly. Feyre responded, revulsion stirring inside of her. She felt his tongue pushing its way inside her mouth and she just let him, like she always did. She let him kiss her, she let him have her once more. She felt weak in his arms, disoriented, impotent ... and scared.

When he was done, he drew back and exhaled quietly on her lips. He pressed his forehead to hers and whispered. "I love you, Feyre."

Feyre shivered and she felt disgust in spite of herself when she answered. "I love you too."

Tamlin opened his eyes then and looked at her. His eyes no longer vibrated with anger, but with care and love, something that made her hate herself. Maybe this was her fault. This situation, the way things were between them. Maybe he was right and it was her the one who didn't understand, who didn't value everything Tamlin was doing for her. But ...

She felt sick.

Tamlin suddenly kissed her brow softly and said. "Let's not get mad at each other ever again, alright?"

Feyre nodded, defeated all of a sudden. She felt empty inside, as if there was a void sucking the life out of her steadily.

"But ... Feyre? Look at me."

Feyre lifted her head, her eyes void of emotion. He was looking at her with love in her eyes, but she felt nothing in return. He will destroy you, Rhysand had said. Maybe he had been right.

"Try not to make me angry, okay? It seems all you do lately is trying to get a rise out of me and that's not nice."

Feyre felt anger stirring up in her chest. Me? Are you serious, Tamlin? I haven't done anything. It's you who's out of control, who behaves like some maniac. And this has to end, Tamlin. Because if it doesn't, it will end me, it will kill me. Can't you see it? I thought you loved me, but this is not love. It can't be.

She wanted to tell him. She could feel the words in her tongue, but ... what good would it do to tell him? He wouldn't understand. He never did. It would be useless, as always.

So she just nodded and complied once more.

Tamlin smiled sweetly and kissed her once more. "And you will go out with me tomorrow, won't you? You owe me I think, after everything. We will have fun together."

Feyre felt numb. She felt the need to say something again. I want to be with Rhys, not with you. I want to talk to him and be me. I want to be with someone who understands me. I don't want to be a locked animal anymore. I just want to be free.

I can't keep going on like this.

But she solely said. "Fine."

Tamlin's brow creased subtly and she felt scared again. His voice had taken a serious hint when he said, "you don't sound convinced."

She made herself smile softly and look up. "I am. I am just tired, today was a rough day."

Tamlin shook his head. "You are awfully tired lately, are you sick?"

Maybe she was. But Feyre only shook her head, kissed him and went to the passenger's seat. She just wanted to go home.

Feyre opened the front door of her house and got inside. The house was quiet, assuring her none of her sisters had yet arrived. Elain had told her this morning she was going to be out until late studying with a friend for a test she had tomorrow and Nesta ... she was likely doing grocery shopping. Or maybe studying at the library. She wasn't sure.

Feyre knew that if she told her about Tamlin, Nesta would explode. She would go straight to his house to kick the life out of him. Or worse. Nesta wasn't one for delicacy.

That was why she couldn't know what Tamlin had done to her today. Ever. She couldn't tell her, not until she figured how to deal with the problem herself. She didn't want to add more burdens to her sister's back, she already had enough on her own.

Nesta hadn't yet told her about that mysterious boy at the restaurant. She was still surprised by her sister's reaction to him. It was odd to see her so unsettled when she was normally so indifferent to everything and everyone around her. She might have insisted to know once upon a time, but ... now she just didn't have the energy left to care.

Everything seemed to drain her lately. She felt so tired all the time ... and upset.

All at once, she felt her phone vibrating in her pocket and she picked out.

Rhys: Bored out of my mind. I want to hear about your wonderful evening. Lift up my spirits, darling.

She considered not answering for a couple of seconds, but then she simply typed back.

Not in the mood.

He didn't reply immediately. Some seconds went by before he wrote back to her.

Rhys: Is something wrong?

It doesn't matter.

This time he answered right away.

Rhys: It does to me.

She could not answer. She could choose not to tell him, to let it go and she knew ... she knew he wouldn't push it out of her. Because he was her friend, because he understood her ... and maybe that's why she told him. Or maybe it was because she needed to let it out, she needed to tell someone at least, someone who wouldn't judge her, someone she could ... trust.

When she was done telling him, she just stared at her phone, waiting for his reply. She just stood there, willing him to send something, to talk to her ... but she received nothing in return.

She waited and waited, but ... nothing. He didn't reply. Rhysand had left her, alone in her pain, just like everyone else.

Feyre felt her heart constricting. How could he leave her? She had thought he was her friend ... but again, she had thought so many things lately. She wondered what she had done to deserve this. To deserve having everyone leaving her when she needed them most.

Something inside her cracked and she collapsed. If she hurt herself on the fall, she didn't feel it. She felt nothing as she laid on the floor, letting everything sink. She was alone. He had left her alone. And for some reason that hurt her even more than Tamlin's behaviour.

She took in a deep breath and was about to sleep, scream or burst into tears when suddenly the front door rang. And rang. And rang. Feyre straightened herself as she went to open the door. She didn't know who could be at this hour since both her sisters had keys. Maybe it was Tamlin, but ... no, he would never come to her house this unexpectedly.

Feyre opened the door and her heart skipped a beat when she saw who was standing there. Rhysand was looking at her, concern shining in his beautiful violet eyes. He whispered quietly, "I know you are wary of us seeing each other, but ... I just couldn't help myself. I needed to see you were alright and ... well, I think you shouldn't be alone right now."

Feyre couldn't believe what she was hearing, what he was saying. "Rhys ..."

Rhysand looked over his shoulder before looking at her again. "Can I come in?"

Feyre Just nodded, unable to talk. He had come. He hasn't left you, he's come for you. She wondered why that mattered so much, why the mere thought of him disappearing of her life hurt so much.

Rhysand came into the house and she closed the door behind him. Silence stretched between them as he drank her in. He was looking at her with such raw emotion it made her knees tremble. Then he muttered, "you look pale."

Feyre shook her head. "I thought ... I thought you didn't want anything to do with me anymore."

Rhysand blinked and shook his head. "Why would you think such a thing?"

"You left my messages unanswered and ... I don't know. I worried I guess."

Rhysand shook his head and smiled softly. "I guess I should have answered, but once I read your message I couldn't think straight. I went for my car and came right here, not even stopping to think about the consequences. Sorry if that made you worry."

Feyre shook her head. "Don't. I'm glad you're here."

Feyre and Rhysand looked at each other and Feyre, in spite of everything, smiled.

Rhysand laid on the couch with Feyre's head against his chest. He was telling her about a time when he and his friends had got lost in a mountain during a camping trip and how they had managed to survive for a week in the wild before anyone had noticed they had disappeared. He was playing with her hair, twirling a curl around his finger while she just laid there, laughing quietly at his story.

They had talked about Tamlin at first, but something about her gaze must have told him enough and he had quickly changed the subject. She knew he didn't like it, any of it. He wanted her to break up and maybe she should, but ... he also understood she needed time and ... she couldn't even thank him enough for seeing it.

Tamlin was a gorgeous male. He looked the way a prince would look in a fairy tale. His eyes were a startling green and his hair the brightest shade of sunlight. That was why every single girl at the school love him. But Rhysand ... he was more than beautiful, but in a less apparent way.  You had to bother to look to notice, something she hadn't before. Never had she realised just how much his eyes caught the beauty of the night, glittering as if they were the moon and the stars. And at the right angle ... even the darkest shade of onyx couldn't hold against the electric fire that burned within them. Never had she noticed the way his dark black hair shifted in the wind, like twirling smoke in a fire nor how soft his voice was, almost like a purr. From the outside, he looked mysterious and dark, but from the inside ... he shone as bright as sun.

She enjoyed his hand moving through her hair, the steady rhythm of his heart, his voice filling the room. Somehow he managed to make everything else disappear. When she was with him, nothing troubled her. She felt invincible, brave and herself once more. He was the fuel to her fire: he made her shine, bright and endless.

And that scared her because what she was starting to feel towards him ...

She loved Tamlin. She was sure she loved Tamlin.

But maybe what she was starting to feel for Rhysand couldn't even be measured in words.

Because he felt like the other piece of herself.

Because he made her want to keep moving forwards.

Because when she was with him she was no longer afraid.

Because he felt like home.

Suddenly, Feyre felt Rhysand lift her chin. His eyes were vivid and of an endless violet colour. He cocked his head and smiled. "Are you even listening to me?"

She blushed and laughed nervously. "Ehhh ... not really."

He chuckled. "If I am boring, I pray you to tell me. Wouldn't want you drooling all over me."

Feyre rolled her eyes and pulled herself into a sitting position. She looked down to find him smirking at her. When he saw her glare he chuckled and said, "I was saying we should go out tonight. Together."

Feyre's breath caught in her throat and she looked at him wide-eyed. He noticed her stare and cleared his throat before saying, a hint of nervousness in his tone. "I was thinking ... since tomorrow you're busy with other ... plans, we could go out tonight. Some friends of mine are throwing a gig in Velaris, a bar close to my house. I think we'd have fun if we went."

Feyre shook her head slowly and said, incredulous. "Tomorrow we have classes."

"I know, but I'm not talking about staying up all night. It's only a 2-hour thing so by 9 PM you ought to be at home. I could drive you if you want."

Feyre felt her heart beating wildly in her chest. They both knew she didn't care about the hour, not when she had spent entire nights talking to him. They both knew what the real reason behind her worry was about. She gulped and whispered. "Someone might notice."

Rhysand's gaze darkened. "By someone you mean Tamlin, I assume? He won't be there."

"What about his friends?"

Rhysand considered her question. "I ... well, I don't think they will. I have never seen them."

Feyre made a face. "That's not enough reassurance."

Rhysand sighed and rolled over to face her. "You can't stay locked up in your room just to please him."

Feyre shook her head and didn't say anything. Silence stretched between them before Rhysand said softly. "Mor is coming too."

Feyre blinked. "What?"

"Mor, my cousin. Her crush is going to be there replacing the guitarist who fell sick a few days ago. So she's coming to see him."

"I didn't know she fancied anyone. She ... she didn't tell me."

Rhysand gave half a shrug. "Probably because you don't know him. They met last summer when we went to visit my old city. His name is Azriel. He's ... he's like a brother to me, one of my closest friends. We met when we were little and when my parents died and I was forced to move here we kept in touch so we never truly lose contact. He's recently moved here with his brother Cassian, the most loyal jerk in the planet, so now we'll be able to see each other more." Rhysand smiled softly at that, making his features soften. "I think you'd like them."

"I ... I don't know, Rhysand."

"You could invite your sisters too. He wouldn't ban you from going out with your sisters, would he?" He cocked his head and smirked. "And if someone sees us, we could pretend we met there. An upsetting coincidence."

Feyre sighed. "Elain can't come. She has a test tomorrow."

"And what about Nesta?"

"I could ask, but ... she will probably say no."

"I beg to differ. If there's anyone who hates Tamlin more than me is her. I think she would agree just to piss him off."

Feyre laughed at that. "Maybe."

Rhysand smiled and took her hand. He asked full of hope. "So ... are we doing this?"

Feyre considered. She could always say no ... in fact, she should say no. If anyone found out about this ... Tamlin wouldn't care her sisters and friends had been there, he would only care about Rhysand's presence, the threat he represented. But then ... Rhysand wasn't the threat. He had never been the threat and he was right, she wasn't going to stop living her life, stop doing what she wanted to do, only for Tamlin. She was her own person, it was her choice.

Feyre felt a weight lifted off her chest when she said with a smile on her face. "We are doing this."