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[nickywhoisi]

Attempt1ng-to-post-someth1ng-real-qu1ck-and-1-am-so-sorry-1-st1ll-have-to-type-l1ke-a-fuck1ng-homestuck-character,-because-1-am-not-stand1ng-for-th1s-ev1scerat1on-of-corners-on-l1terally-all-of-the-1nternet’s-v1deos.-1′ve-been...see1ng?-1t-lately-and-1t-1s-also-1mposs1ble-for-me-to-see-1t-cont1nuously-l1ke-th1s.-1t-1s-dr1v1ng-me-up-the-goddamn-wall.-Every-searchpage-1-use-so-far-has-been-ut1l1z1ng-these...new-and-ugly-look1ng-forms-of-v1deo-thumbna1ls,-and-1-am-suffer1ng-some-k1nd-of-w1thdrawal-or-dement1a,-just-by-look1ng-at-th1s-unrecogn1zable-unfam1l1ar-terr1tory.-My-bra1n-cannot-and-refuses-to-reg1ster-1t-and-process-1t-as-1s.-1t-feels-l1ke-1-am-try1ng-to-see-a-new-unknown-colour-on-the-spectrum-that-no-human-can-actually-see.-Am-1-no-longer-allowed-to-have-my-sens1ble-scope-of-real1ty-w1th-everyth1ng-1n-1t’s-proper-place?-1t-1s-1nherently-wrong-for-the-1nternet-to-have-changed-th1s-much.-1t-1s-1nherently-wrong-that-some-1 dent1t1less-tormentor-or-tormentors-beh1nd-the-screen-are-so-unapprov1ng-of-people-l1k e-me-gett1ng-to-catch-a-fuck1ng-break-and-w1nd1ng-down-w1th-anyth1ng-1′m-used-to-that-they-would-see-such-a-t1meless-prescense-as-CORNERS-OF-A-V1DEO-THUMBNA1L,-someth1ng-that-has-always-been-a-th1ng-on-the-1nternet,-and-just...and-just-k1lled-that.-Took-1t-away.-A-perfect-th1ng-that-noone-has-ever-once-had-to-th1nk-so-hard-about,we-all-l1ked-1t-and-1t-never-once-was-supposed-to-be-or-expected-to-be-on-the-chopp1ng-block...and-then-chopped...and-now-1-have-to-suffer-a-super-strong-need-of-m1ne-to-be-a-no-longer-th1ng?-A-d1stant-memory?-A-th1ng-of-the-past-that-w1ll-never-come-back-to-me-or-get-rect1f1ed-over-the-trouble-th1s-caused?...No.

1-say-no.-To-all-of-th1s.-1-am-aut1st1c,-and-1-requ1re-the-th1ngs-1-get-attached-to-to-rema1n-the-same-as-1t-ever-was,-because-there-1s-alle1v1at1ng-rel1ef-that-comes-from-know1ng-there-are-th1ngs-on-the-1nternet-that-1-can-always-rely-on.-Because-1t-1s-a-truly-pa1nful-n1ghtmar1sh-cogn1t1ve-d1ssonance-that-occurs-whenever-someth1ng-1′ve-come-to-know-or-am-st1ll-busy-com1ng-to-know-suddenly-proves-1t’s-not-someth1ng-1-can-always-rely-on.-1t’s-all-a-betrayal.-1t-changes-shape-1t-1s-l1ke-a-suddenly-new-and-separate-ent1ty...but-1t’s-also-scary-because-th1s-new-ent1ty-1-don’t-recogn1ze-1s-also-wear1ng-the-sk1n-of-what-1-recogn1ze-and-1t’s-l1ke-be1ng-held-hostage-by-a-murderer-who-sk1nned-my-beloved-fr1end-and-1s-try1ng-to-masquerade-as-them-1n-front-of-me.-1-don’t-want-to-see-that-sh1t.-1t-1s-far-too-much-betrayal...and-haven’t-1-suffered-enough-of-that?-Yes.-1-have-suffered-more-than-enough.-More-than-anyone-should-1n-fact.-1t-gets-harder-and-harder-everyday-a-s1ck-and-d1sturb1ng-change-happens-l1ke-th1s-to-be-able-to-w1nd-down-and-enjoy-anyth1ng-on-the-1nternet.-1-could-tell-you-so-many-other-examples-of-th1ngs-1-always-w1shed-would-stay-and-NEEDED-to-stay-onl1ne-for-me-to-be-able-to-recogn1ze-1t-1n-my-bra1n...but-we’d-be-here-for-a-long-t1me.-1-have-not-been-putt1ng-up-w1th-any-of-1t.-1-just-want-the-corners-the-goddamn-CORNERS-of-the-1nternet’s-v1deos-back!-So-1-can-look-anyth1ng-1n-the-eye-aga1n-and-not-feel-surges-of-horror-and-headache-whenever-1-so-much-as-try-to-1ntake-anyth1ng-that-appears-on-the-screen!-Oh-my-god-1-cannot-bel1ve-1-have-to-be-here-today-d1scuss1ng-v1deo-corners-as-1f-these-staple-th1ngs-were-ever-to-be-made-obsolete-out-of-nowhere-and-1-feel-nauseous-hav1ng-to-even-type-that-such-a-th1ng-1s-be1ng-forced-to-be-obsolete-when-1t-was-l1terally-NEVER-A-PROBLEM-ANYWERE.-1-hurt-and-your-detestable-soc1ety-and-all-of-1ts-1nsane-asylum-ways-can't-keep-your-gr1my-claws-out-of-the-one-th1ng-1-need-to-properly-enjoy-the-1nternet-and-keep-my-peace-of-m1nd?-1-don’t-want-to-be-trapped-w1th-th1s-1nternet-1-don’t-recogn1ze-wrench1ng-my-fam1l1ar-stomp1ng-grounds-1nto-shapes-1t’s-not-supposed-to-go.-1t’s-all-wrong...1t’s-all-succumbed-to-dement1a...1t’s-all-pa1nful-and-1ncomplete-and-unsat1sfactory...and-1-w1ll-not-stay-to-be-kept-1n-torture-wa1t1ng-for-what-1-was-always-supposed-to-keep-back-1nto-my-lov1ng-arms.-1n-the-meant1me,-1-am-st1ll-afra1d-that-1-ambe1ng-bottlenecked-1nto-be1ng-d1strught-and-so-stressed-that-1-d1e-faster.-Where-do-1-go-now-that-1s-st1ll-recogn1zeable...?-Someone-help-me-out-here.