#no stone of repression is getting left unturned after that

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I genuinely honestly think however absurd is one of his saddest songs, between that and 'do not mock me when I say this is not a lie' and 'nothing is for keeps' like he was really going through it :(

Wait sidebar I just realized 'wide awake we go to sleep' isn't that what he did during his first trip with john??

REAL right??? like not only is it devastating (even just musically honestly the build-up at the end always Gets To Me) its also probably one of the most revealing of all his songs in terms of defining their relationship.... like "it's a funny thing, half-serious, with our hands on our ears" tells you SO much

I've always interpreted "wide awake we go to sleep" as similar, like "we know there's something here, but we have to close our eyes and pretend not to see it" but YAH now that you point it out, along with the previous line "living dreams with mouths ajar", its definitely reminding me of that particular incident between them.....hmmmmm

A line I fixate on is "when we made love the game was over", which I tend interpret as evidence that they only fucked for real once or a few times at most, and once it got that physical they were so far past the point of plausible deniability that they had to talk about it and their inability to actually do that eventually broke things. but I'd be interested to hear other thoughts on that line

but yah. what a song.

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I'm not sure if this has been covered yet, but I wonder what kind of "ordinary life" Saeran, MC and Saeyoung led after the events of the AE.

I thought about this a lot, but also thought it would be nice to hear another opinion about this, so I decided to drop an Ask here hehe

I definitely don't think that this is one of those things that you can figure out because there is no right or wrong answer. There is a possibility for anything you can imagine because of how much the boys want to be able to do with their lives now. There is not a stone that is going to be left unturned. Anything that you can imagine is going to be a possible answer for you to think about. The idea of what is ordinary and normal is not the same for everybody. 

Every single family has a different perception and idea of what it means to be together. That means that they have to carve out their own sense of self and identity. To be able to decide what your family is focused around involves a lot of patience and exploration. You have to be willing to try everything at least once if you want to be able to see what sticks. You have to throw everything at the wall and just go for it. It means that you have to be willing to explore, make mistakes, and get messy. 

These two haven't been able to experience anything. They have spent their lives being locked away for their own safety and now that they are free, they can choose to do anything. That means that anything that they imagined before is now open to them. There are things that they haven't even imagined or something that they can access, as well. For the first time in their lives, they're going to be super overwhelmed by the number of choices that they can make.

What do you mean I can have anything for breakfast?! I can have pancakes, waffles, toast, eggs, bacon, sausage, milk, water, juice, etc? There’s a hundred things they can have and you’re telling them to pick one? Even something as simple as deciding what to make for breakfast in the morning is going to be a challenge. 

It can be overwhelming to go from 0 to 100. You go from having no choices to having every choice. That is something that is hard to put into words for somebody that has been repressed that much. There is certainly a level to it that you'll have to think about. Sometimes it's good to lay out safe options first, and then slowly work in the new stuff as you go. It makes it feel less overwhelming that way.

I think their new life is going to be about exploration. I think it's going to be built on trying new things every day. There is always going to be something that they can try that’s different from what they did the day before.

That means that nothing is going to be set in stone and everything is going to be different. They could have started the morning with a movie one day, but the next? They’re outside working in the garden that Saeran started… or maybe they’re working in Saeyoung’s new garage! Hell, they could be doing something you love to do the next day! There’s just no right or wrong answer here! There’s so much to do and try. No matter what you imagine, it’s possible.