#no seriously I'm driving myself nuts with key phrases trying to find this fic

[phoenixdown-and-fairydust]

Hey, Tolkien works fanfic side of tumblr I need your help finding a specific fic. Unfortunately, my old phone, where I had it book marked as well as the info for that account, is dead, so I'm SOL if no one else remembers this. It was a fairly short fiction focused on Finarfin, not sure if I initially found it under a ship tag for him and Earwen or not since it wasn't focused on romance. It actually was a platonic spin on the hanahaki trope(coughing up flowers due to love)which I haven't really seen before, the idea being Finarfin is such a loving person not just to his wife but to all his people, so basically he's never going to be rid of the condition, because there's no way everyone will always return that love. At some point the Valar offer to cure him, and he refuses because a king should love his people.

I thought it was called something like 'Flowers in his Throat', but I can't seem to find it under that title. Also I can't say 100% if he was referred to as Finarfin or Arafinwe anymore, unfortunately I'm too used to reading and using the names interchangeably.

...Also I'm like 99.999% sure it was in English. I will admit there were times where I consumed media while tired, thought a friend would like it, and then was confused why I couldn't find the English version when I tried to show them, only for them to point out that there was never was an English version, I was just in German mode when I heard it. In my defense, it only happened 2, max 3 times, and that was it with videos or audio skits, not text. I don't think I would have been able to translate text as automatically as audio, I'm pretty certain it wasn't a German fic.