#no promises there! but I do love swap Payton

[rainbowsans]

I'd love to see more swap papyton content...

I just love seeing fluff! X3

Also your art style is nice... :3

Aw thank you!! I try to draw enough content for them but my brain be like “hahah swap napstasans brain go brrr”

[ryanmillermu]

Falling || Self-Para

Who: Ryan Miller When: Father’s Day (June 21, 2020) Where: Ryan & Bryce’s place Triggers: suicide, alcohol, mental health, Alzheimers, religion Summary: Ryan has struggled with Father’s Day since her dad’s diagnosis, however, this year, she finds herself unable to cope with her own emotions.

It was just before eleven in the morning and Ryan could already feel herself headed towards self destruction. Her beach day with Emery couldn’t come quickly enough. She’d started off her morning bright and early, and naturally, on Instagram. The blonde figured she’d avoid the many Father’s Day posts that way. Boy was she wrong. 

Next came church. She never realized how alone she’d felt sitting amongst the rest of her congregation until today. She’d gotten to know most of the others in her ward but, they all had families. Many had even grown up within the ward. Ryan was an outsider. It became even more evident today as she glanced around the room, fathers surrounded by their children. Each held a craft in their hand that they’d put together in Sunday school. Ryan remembered doing the same when she was younger. She’d always convinced her teacher to let her make two for her dad. Her dad was special, after all. He was her daddy and her mommy. She’d quickly learned that none of her Sunday school teachers could say no to that. Today, she found herself trying to find some sort of distraction to avoid listening to the sermon that so fittingly revolved around fathers. All the while, she wondered how she’d gone from having a dad who was a father, a mother, a superhero and a best friend all at once to not remembering she even existed. 

The moment services ended, Ryan was on her feet, making a beeline for the door. She offered excuses to those who tried to stop her, insisting that she was late for a school group project. No one commented on the fact that finals had taken place weeks ago. 

Upon arriving home, she went through her usual routine of taking off her high heels, swapping her dress for sweatpants, tying her hair into a messy bun and, of course, stuffing her face with fresh donuts she’d picked up on her drive. The blonde climbed back into bed and pulled the blankets over herself. She reached for her phone, opening up her messages and clicking on Emery’s contact name. Ryan was about to hit send when her phone began to ring: Incoming FaceTIme from Aunt Michelle.

Ryan hesitated. She could come up with something. Church ran late. She was taking a shower. She’d left her phone in her car. But, it was Father’s Day. While she might have tried to avoid it, she knew that there would be few years left where she’d have a father to call. She was sure then that she’d be willing to do anything to hear his voice. With a small sigh, she plastered a smile on her face and accepted the call.

In a matter of seconds, her father appeared on the screen, staring blankly back at her. “Hi, Dad,” she waved at him, awaiting a response that never came. “It’s me,” Ryan added in. She heard her aunt murmur something to him in the background, eventually earning Ryan a warm hello in return. “I’m glad you called. I wanted to wish you a happy Father’s Day. I’m sorry I can’t be there with you.” She was met with more silence. 

“Brianne,” he smiled back at her after a while, and Ryan’s heart sank slightly. She didn’t know too much about her mother. She knew her name was Brianne, and she knew that she’d looked just like her. Ryan always told herself that it was his disease. The confusion was what caused the common mixup. Still, a part of her wondered if maybe her dad felt like Ryan left him the same way her mother had.

“That isn’t Brianne, Derek. That’s Ryan.” “Who?” “Ryan.” “Who’s that?”

The blonde bit her lip harder, trying to keep herself composed as she spoke again. “It’s me, dad. Ryan. Your daughter,” she offered gently. “I’m away at school. I’m studying so I can be a doctor, remember? I’m going to become a pediatrician and then you and me are going to go back to Brazil like you always wanted to do and serve a mission together and set up a clinic for them.” 

He was silent again, and Ryan was sure he’d never respond. And then, he said it. “Minha filha.” It meant my daughter in Portuguese--a language her father had become fluent in before serving his mission in Brazil. He’d called her that often growing up. 

“Yeah, that’s me,” she confirmed with a nod and a smile--a genuine smile this time. “I’m going to come home soon. For your birthday. Maybe we’ll go to the lake and see the sunset over the mountains by the water.” Ryan suggested, hoping he might remember that as well. 

“Okay, I’ll see you tomorrow, Brianne.” He nodded, turning away from her. 

“No, dad, not tomorrow. It’s Ryan, remember?” She corrected him, though, he already seemed distracted, no longer looking at the video camera. A few more seconds passed before her aunt appeared in the frame. “Uh, I guess I’ll go.”

“You know he gets confused. It’s still morning. Maybe we’ll try calling back later.” Her aunt tried to comfort her. Ryan knew that the time of day wouldn’t change much.

She offered a simple nod in response. “Bye, Aunt Michelle.” Ryan hit the end button on the phone before tossing it across the room. She pulled her knees up to her chest before burying her face in her knees and bursting into a fit of tears. 

Ryan allowed herself her time to breakdown before pulling herself back up, as per usual, and pushing everything aside. She made her way into the kitchen, pulling out the flour and sugar. It was muscle memory by now. It was all apart of her coping mechanism. And yet, the bags somehow felt heavier. When she popped a handful of the chocolate chips in her mouth, they tasted bitter. No matter how many times she tried to remember how much butter the recipe called for, she simply couldn’t. There was no space in her head for anything but the racing thoughts.

Wiping her hands on her apron, Ryan’s gaze fell on the liquor bottles Bryce had placed on the countertop. She didn’t know what they were but, she found herself collecting them up and hurrying back into her room. Ryan sat back on her bed, placing the bottles in front of her. 

Her gaze stayed on the bottles as she let her mind wander. She thought back to third grade, when the entire class worked to compose a poem for their mothers in honor of Mother’s Day. Payton Johnson had teased her for making one for her aunt, telling the other kids that Ryan’s mom didn’t want her. It’d taken over ten years but, Ryan was finally realizing Payton had been right. She reached for one of the bottle’s, unscrewing the cap, taking a large sip for Payton. The blonde coughed at the taste, making a face as it burned her throat going down. Then, she took another sip to clear her throat. 

She thought back to the day her dad had sat her down. How they’d pitched a tent by the lake and watched the sun set. They’d roasted hot dogs and marshmallows over the fire. And then he’d told her. She didn’t understand then where it would lead her but, she knew enough to know her life had changed that day. He’d held her as she cried. He’d promised her everything was going to be okay. It was the first promise he’d ever broken. Things hadn’t felt okay since. She drank to that. 

And then she’d found her ex-boyfriend, and things did feel okay again. She’d found the person who held her when she cried, made her laugh when she was having a crappy day, listened to her talk for hours on end when she needed and loved her for being nothing other than herself--or so she’d thought. Then one night, he wasn’t. One night she needed him. She needed her person. After many ignored texts and calls, she’d showed up at his apartment, having been let in by one of his roommates. She waited hours before she heard the door open. And then there he was, his lips on another woman’s as the pair stumbled through the doorway in front of Ryan. She forgave him, only to have it happen again. How could she be mad at him? He’d asked her. What did she expect? He was a man. He needed things. He loved her but, she had to understand. And she did. She understood then that she simply hadn’t been enough. She drank to her ex. 

It’d made her question everything she’d ever been taught. She’d been faithful. She’d saved herself. And in return, all she got was heartbreak. She had finally began to question the God that had been her safe space. The God who was to blame for her broken heart. The God who’d taken her dad from her. She drank to Him.

Here she was now. Monarch University. She’d come here to escape it all. No, she’d come here to pursue her dreams. She’d become a doctor. Just like she and her dad had always spoken about. That would be Ryan’s gift. And she would vow to use that to make a difference. Her dedication to her goal had always made her dad proud. He may not have been fully aware of it anymore but, the blonde held onto that promise to him. But her grades told a different story. The longer she held onto the promise, the harder it became to break. She drank to failed dreams and broken promises.

But then she’d found Alec. An unexpected light in what felt like a university full of darkness. He’d fallen for her. For her stupid jokes, her sugar addiction and even her decision to save herself. The happiness she’d felt with him had been happiness she hadn’t felt in a long time. It was happiness she was unwilling to lose. She vowed to make sure she was enough for him. Ryan gave herself to him completely. In trying to be enough for him, she realized she would never be enough for her God or her church. She felt dirty. She felt unworthy. She felt unloveable. She drank to all three of those feelings.

As for her relationship with Alec itself? Well, clearly not even sex had been able to save that. She wasn’t sure anything would have been able to. She fell short again. A victim to her own naivety. Ryan had blinded herself with the lust, the need to find happiness and the desire to be wanted, she hadn’t even recognized the lies. She drank to Alec. 

Then there was no one but Ryan herself. And that was the worst of it all. The one who had refused to make anything for her aunt for Mother’s Days to come in fear of Payton Johnson commenting. The one who had brushed the topic of her father’s condition off instead of admitting that she wasn’t okay. The one who had blamed herself for the breakup with her ex instead of telling herself she deserved better than a man who wouldn’t love her because she didn’t spread her legs. The one who blamed God for her problems instead of making any sort of attempt to better herself. The one who believed a twenty year old promise was worth more than her own success and happiness. The one who let her purity define her worth. The one who still loved a man who would probably never love her back. The one who didn’t have the courage to confront any of her friends after each one had forgotten her birthday. The one who didn’t even have the courage to walk into a counseling session and admit she needed help. The one who was nothing but a coward. The one who was a disappointment. The one who was better off dead. 

Her head felt heavy now. She could hardly focus enough to see how much of the alcohol she’d managed to get down. Her tolerance was low, that much she knew. She’d only drank on one occasion before, and that had been an accident. However, she’d managed to get it all down quickly. She knew her body had little chance of processing so much in such a short period of time. She knew it was unlikely her body would bounce back from this. 

She felt herself shiver and pulled the duvet over herself, much like a body in a morgue. She figured she’d save someone the extra step. Ryan felt her breathing slowing, wondering if it was happening already. She did her best to relax, settling back against her pillow. The blonde raised a shaky hand, deciding to take one last sip for good luck, but, before she could manage, the world went black.

[survivordivergent]

EPISODE 1 (PART 1) - “WHY U NO MORE ACTIVE DO U WANNA DIE” - PAYTON

Are you really giving me another tribe of 4??? These Hawaii teas, I'm not here for it!

So far Eliza is chill I like them. It is really refreshing to be able to straight up talk to people about being a catfish. It is nice to not fully hide it because idk if I could. So casually talking about the perils of being a fake person with other fake people is pretty nice. But as I said before also ironic that we are on Candor and we are all dirty liars. SPEAKING OF WHICH I totally can see how I am a candor, but I did not fully expect it when it happened. I am really excited to see how this season will operate and if there will be a choosing ceremony and I can jump ship and join Dauntless and get a bunch of tattoos because they do that there

Alright Eliza is the only one who has spoken to me so far but it's literally only 8:16pm so I can slow my roll. Also 10/10 definitely guessing who certain people are... whoops. But they're only guesses!

Not sure which name I'm supposed to be putting... guess I'll put both!

For those wondering, Ed Creegan is a portmanteau of the first name of the Barenaked Ladies' guitarist and the last name of their bassist. I've been on a huge BNL kick lately and I'm a bassist myself. The Ed was just to make sure Google searches didn't pull up anything if anyone tries digging too deep.

Uh, I think I'm gonna try and play this one in the spirit of an alias game. There's no fun in trying to figure out who everyone is, because that takes out the mystery and encourages pre-made friendships. I'm sure it'll come out eventually, but right now I'm looking forward to playing with Kyle Burton, Betty Goldman, Will Cannon and... wait, four person tribes? Shit. This is gonna be tricky.

http://prntscr.com/dfffeg 

yall really put me on a tribe with three ~girls.........and two of them picked avatars that were in ....... iconic...female-centric......alliances................................ im out.

Omg I'm so nervous! A tribe of 4?!? Are you kidding.

This is gonna be the death of me I'm telling you now. I could be teamed up with my mortal enemy

Anyways I'm aligned with Geo. that happened. He doesn't know it yet but I do.

BYE I FUCKED UP IT'S BEEN ONE HOUR AND I'VE ALREADY USED A GILMORE GIRLS REACTION GIF, THERE'S NO WAY THIS IS GOING TO LAST

Confessional #1 Abnegation Day 1

I was excited coming in here, it's a season full of aliases and it means a fresh start. People don't have any preconceived notions of you, which is great.

However, I'm a little worried that because we don't know who we are, that people are going to be relatively quiet around camp, and that's got me sketched out. I might be paranoid, but I feel it in my gut.

From my first impressions, Carolanne is, in your face, a loud personality. I personally feel like I may have a rocky time trying to connect with them. Melissa is a chill individual, they crack jokes, and I'm all down for it. Lake gives off this... aura about them that I think they might be trying to downplay. They come off as super smart, I don't if it's the name, but I can feel it. They're going to be someone to keep my eyes on.

It's going to be scary trying to manage these new relationships, because I do want to know these people, maybe again. Woof, let me tell you, this is going to be an interesting season. I hope at least.

Confessional #2 Abnegation Day 1

It hasn't even been three hours but we won reward. Uh, icons truly. I think that me and Melissa did really well together, it was the two of us that basically did the challenge, mainly Melissa, but we killed it. Amity had won reward before us, but we still managed to get second.

This is great, it's a morale booster, and it unites our tribe. The only thing is that the reward, is the freaking idol. Oh how I hate them. Apparently we get a chance to look for them or something of the sorts. We're getting reward tomorrow, so there's no specifics.

Having an idol is a target on your back, you don't know exactly what to do with it, and it's hard to find them. This is all from my opinion. If I don't end up finding it, it won't be that sad, but there is a risk that the person I would like to go home plays it and screws up the plan. I'm not saying that there is anyone, at the moment, but it's a fear you have in the back of your mind.

Confessional #3 Abnegation Day 2

If i had to pick my favorite on the tribe so far, it's definitely Melissa. They're the most active person, and they killed the challenge. We bonded really well so far, in my opinion, so maybe there's potential to become an alliance in the future.

Even though I am on the Abnegation tribe, a.k.a. the selfless tribe... I'm pretty sure, I do want to play a more, selfish game. I have to play for myself, I've been dragged along before because I have cared a lot for my allies, but I end up getting stabbed in the back. If I have to cut people off or break promises, I'll do it, I want to get the title of Sole Survivor.

The idol system was announced to us, and it's got me freaked out, there's something about it. In the post it exclaims, "But be warned, to find each idol you will have to embody the core values of whichever faction the idol corresponds to." I might be overthinking, but I feel like it may give opportunities to visit other tribes or even swap. I'm not sure, but there's definitely something fishy going on with the idols. You have to expect the unexpected in these games.

Speaking of the other tribes, there's three people that I feel I may know. Ed from Amity, I sense something about him. I think I know him. If there's somebody that I have to guess, it's Erudite's Percy. Seamus is that you? It sounds like him, even though he's in Wonderland, I know that they will allow players still in the series play again. Otto Apollo, has this air about him that reminds me of someone. We'll have to wait and see.

By the way, I'm just putting this out there, but I do believe that Eddie freaking Bracco is playing in this game. We talked before, and he mentioned this series, saying it's an interesting idea. You know who's hosting this season too, Jenn, winner of his first tumblr season. I was with him, and he was saying stuff about applying, but that was like two days before the game started. Plus, he hasn't been replying a lot to me <.< I thought you loved me Eddie!! I talk a lot about other things, and have long confessionals, so Imma be annoying to the hosts I bet. BET!!

Day 2? I think

I've still talked the most with Geo but we got our first challenge and I wanted to quickly contribute something before they all did it without me again and Geo completely shot down my idea!! And then he says ahhh we could be called altitude because we like to get high and the weeed.  I don't think that's actually what he said but that's how I read it.

I've already sworn my alligience to Mr. Geography Man but it's not too late to slit his throat.  

Geo will be sinking to the bottom of Lake Harper if he doesn't start playing smart.

Confessional #4 Abnegation Day 2

We have our immunity challenge, and I'm like, we should try to get an idea on what to do guys. First we're talking about the name for our faction, and Lake immediately says Fides. WHAT?! That sent immediate red flags to me. The fact that they would just say the name of a tribe that is going on in the community. Now I'm thinking, Lake is connected to Lazio, they're either a player or a host. That's really sketchy to me and if they think I didn't notice that, they must be insane.

Carolanne, rubs me the wrong way. I was talking to them, and all they said was, "I agree" in two different chats! Okay Carol, thanks for caring. I must've drinken some paranoia juice during the challenge because my radars are going off the charts right now.

Okay! So let's look at the Grade A passive aggressiveness that's happened on Candor tonight.

Example A, done by me: On 12/5/16, at 8:13 PM, Payton Rodriguez wrote: > be there or be medevaced, probs

Example B, done by Eliza: On 12/5/16, at 9:16 PM, Eliza wrote: > by avoiding tribal, perhaps??

More to come, probably.

So it's Day 2. I feel like I could do better socially but the tribe is generally quiet so I'm not too worried for now. We got first in reward which is great. I'm giving myself a little tap on the back because I pointed out the one thing our tribe was doing wrong. Right now, I think my closest connections are Will (who I already have my suspicions about) and Ed (but again, it's only day 2). Betty doesn't seem to be around that much from what I've seen in the chat. But who knows. She could be chatting up a storm with the other guys and leaving me on the outs. I feel good about the immunity challenge, I'm working on some ideas I'll share either tonight if people start becoming more active tonight, or just tomorrow morning before I leave. As far as my strategy goes, right now I just want to get to know the people on my tribe as much as possible, and use that social connection to leverage some deals. There's 5 idols too, so I want to see if I can get my hands on one this round, just for that extra safety. It never hurts. Anyways, I'm supposed to be getting a new laptop soon, so hopefully I can start doing video confessionals because my fingers hurt. Bye!

I think I may have low-key started some Peter discourse. I didn't mean to do that. Well... hopefully that doesn't go badly for me.

More low-key passive aggressive savagery (no offense to the people in Dauntless I'm just going by the books), from me:

On 12/5/16, at 10:18 PM, Payton Rodriguez wrote: > we’re candor, not dauntless, we’ve still got our intelligence

Passive aggressive, via Eliza: On 12/5/16, at 11:32 PM, Eliza wrote: > Peter can help us out with the rest tomorrow

@peter why u no more active do u wanna die

I'm panicking just a bit bc I couldnt be here to help with the very first challenge because of hosting duties.... I'm really hoping to be able to bond with Jill and Payton more. ITS SO WEIRD because I know that I know these people. I just don't know who they are! Its crazy and it's going to drive me nutso

Lake......doesn't.......drink....... THANK GOD I THOUGHT IT WAS GOING TO BE HARD TO FIND THE FIRST PERSON I WANTED TO VOTE OUT but now WHEW

[survivordivergent]

RITES OF PASSAGE

It is now time for the Rites of Passage!

The Final 4 were asked to use this time to reflect on their journeys in this game as well as the people who left for them to be where they are now. They were told they only needed to write about those they had ever been on a tribe with. Even more so, some initiates disappeared so far into the factionless, we couldn’t track them down for any last words. Please play the audio and enjoy your experience. 

It's hard trying to stay on top of school and do good in survivor along with remembering to get on skype, it just wasn't in the cards for me this time!

Ed - I guess we were on the same tribe?? Would have liked to play with you. Our day one chat was pleasant, but then you vanished.

Ed - See Betty, minus the day one chat.

Lake - The only Abnegation to not make the final 5. I was surprised when you were voted out tbh because you seemed like one of the more social players.

Melissa - A fallen legend truly. If we could have had all four Abs make merge what kind of icons would we be. Still the best faction though easily.

Ed - You were at least somewhat active! Wish you'd've hung around longer, though.

Hello, Huns! I was cut at my first tribal council due to jealousy… but It’s not my fault that everybody can’t be blessed with huge assets like me. My survivor experience described in one word could be wet. I had a lovely time and I’m gonna have an even lovelier time scissoring with Danielle Kane on the Pre-Jury vacation.

Jill - You were very interesting to interact with, definitely brought in a level of entertainment to the game, but not much else

Lake - idk if you made me laugh or drove me crazy more. Wondering if you got breast reduction surgery yet 

Melissa -  Whoops

Yooooooooooo sooo I've never flopped quite this hard but it was an interesting experience and sorry for... bowing out!

Ed - You should consider becoming a magician... looks like your vanishing act was top notch.

Jill - All I remember is you were really against Amanda and we chatted a little, good dude but you got hella inactive

Lake - you were removed. I honestly remember nothing about you. 

Melissa - Tbh choose a better time to go inactive next time?? Riley didn’t have to be done like that, it should have been you.

Well I will say playing under an alias was interesting! It was fun playing with people I didn't know and not forming opinions on others because of it. I don't know why I was voted out, but whatever it's all good lmao.

Ed - The first person I really, truthfully, believed was a threat to me. Much love, Percy, you played a good game.

Lake - you were the first person to message me when I arrived on the Six tribe and I thought we would make a good team. I got bored of you fairly quickly though. 

Well it was a lot of fun not being me but I also think real me is great. Kudos to the hosts who did a great job and put together a great season. Too bad Riley is a flop.

Jill - I really liked the time you were on Four before you were voted to be swapped to six. Unfortunate that you were medevacced but you stopped being around at your end

Lake - I'm me making an alliance with you on the day you were removed

Melissa - Tbh choose a better time to go inactive next time?? Y’all could have DONE THAT on Six like you did with the Percy vote but oh well.

This was probably the most frustrating game I've been a part of. Also, who the hell is Geo?

Ed - Just at the wrong place at the wrong time, dude. But it wouldn't have killed you to swing by a bit more often, I know I enjoyed the moments where you were around and we could chat about things properly.

Jill - Peter! Fellow Candor that died first. You were a cool guy and It was sad to vote you out but you had to go

Melissa - Will and Riley need to look to you for the right time to go inactive, handled like a dream, right when there was one last vote before merge so there could be no tough casualties, fallen king

I guess blindsides can happen to anybody, even someone who isn't even real! I had a ton of fun playing this, I hope everyone else kills each other, and I can't wait for all of the horrible things complete strangers have to say about me.

Ed - The first person I really, truthfully, underestimated. If your shot against me had worked out, I think you'd have been in a fantastic position. Sorry I had to return the favor.

Jill - Whew! We talked A LOT when we merged but I don’t think we every really thought we were going to work together and you had to go. You had potential to really shake things up and this merge would have been 100% different if you stayed

Lake - We talked a lot on the Six tribe and I really thought we would be working together for a while. Didn't take you long to start targeting me even though I never actually voted for you. 

Melissa - It sounds like you did everything premerge and that idol play was badass, we never talked game at merge, it was just banter, but I love burn bright die young queens

Coming into this game, my one goal  was to make the jury. And I did! So I'm satisfied with the way I played, this twist was super fun to work with, and overall, no regrets with how I played.

Ed - Ack, this vote sucked. Nothing but love to you, my man. I meant it when I said we could work together. I think we could've been unstoppable.

Jill - We bonded a lot on Four and it was a good time! I was sad when you were taken by Riley to join NuSix but I was glad we were able to reconnect at merge, but unfortunately our games were no longer in line

Lake - you were one of my first real alliance members yet I still feel like I never really got to know you. You always seemed a little sheltered. Voting you off was definetly the toughest up until this point. 

Melissa - We were ready to run the game on pre-swap but it never felt right at merge so when your name came up, I didn’t fight it. If Ugli Fruti could have stayed together in swap, this could have all been different. Also fuck Ed, we deserved that Erudite idol.

Ed - Boring. ;)

Jill - Otto, all I have to say is I really can’t believe how interesting the game got after you left. #dontbeboring is the movement that you started, but were not able to see it through. Payton definitely delivered and the game changed after you left

Lake - seems like you came alive the round before you were voted out and I kind of loved it. I loved hearing about your plans and just joking around with you. I think it would have been funny to vote for you one last time but alas I was a true friend. 

Melissa - I respect the wake-up call you had at merge but too little too late to make a difference. Sorry we’re all so boring, I promise watching the real me play is no more exciting.

Hold on to your idols and never trust someone with an Arthur character as their avatar. That’s all.

Ed - Payts, my dynamic duo. My partner in crime. Miss having you around so much. Can't wait to find out who you really are.

Jill - I was SO happy we got to reconnect for the second swap after being separated. I feel like the bond of being on Candor brought us close and I was happy we worked together, only for a short while, during merge. You definitely shook this game up

Lake - you don't like me so I don't know what I'm supposed to say here. It was nice when we were friendly 

Melissa - I’m thankful your betrayal was so flaccid and your comeuppance so swift. Pro-tip, if you’re planning on flipping, don’t tell the people you’re flipping on about your idol ahead of time. Never goes well. Oh and also, flippers never win. 

Survivor Divergent was great fun. I'm not even mad about being voted out. I got to spend this last week with my family rather than stressing over this game. I'm really just upset that Eliza has to die in a few days. Anyway, can't wait to find out who everyone is!

Ed - Smashing. A wonderful friend and ally... right until you came for me. You were by far the most social player in a game that lacked social game at times. 

Jill - You. Did. THAT. My last fellow Candor, who reset the sim and revived Melissa. I was with you this entire game until your demise and honestly all I could ever think about were Otto’s words that he would vote for you in the end and I just couldn’t risk other people feeling the same way and you had to go. Still love you girl <3

Lake - my heart broke when you were voted out.  You know how important you were to me and I always felt comfortable with you. I hope you're keeping everyone in order at ponderosa. You would have won this game by a landslide if you made it to the end and I think that's something to be proud of 

Melissa - Eliza I loved talking strategy with you, we think in very much the same paths, but it reached a point where you got too social and scary and your win was just inevitable, and I’m not about that life. I was asked to choose between two of the only friends I had left and I made that choice, and it was the right one. Thanks for resetting the sim and saving my life though, you the real MVP. That would have been a shitty way to start a vacation, I’m glad it worked out for me. :P

Ed - What went wrong, Luce? We seemed poised to work together at a few points in the game but we never seemed to be heading in the same direction. I miss seeing DW in my notifications.

Jill - The coolest cucumber of all! Best wishes from Sandy Shores, stay

Lake - thank you for never voting for me. I know I voted for you twice but I really enjoyed when we got to work together. I wish I would have had more faith in your game savyness

Melissa - THE ROCKIEST OF ROADS like honestly between the closed flower incident, running into your idol twice in a row, and never really having a heart-to-heart moment, I couldn’t see keeping you.

I am now in deep depression thanks to you guys, thanks for the experience

Ed - I don't know what I can say, man. I'm sorry. You played well for a while, and if you won that FIC I think you'd have stood a very good chance of winning it all.

Jill - Geodude! One of my faves in the merge. The CALSS will never forget you and cherish you forever. I loved talking to you and it was really sad to see you go

Lake - we were probably closest at the beginning of the game, I talked to you more then anyone. After we got split up we were never really on the same page again.  I'm glad you were there to take the shot at final 5.

Melissa - How fitting that my ROP begins and ends with an Abnegation icon. I loved talking about the Abnegation F3 so bluntly like “We all know we’d never stick to it, cute thought though” like bye that was one of the best moments of the game for me. I spent all day before the last vote thinking about those five seconds in immunity, boy would you have flipped the game. Oh well.