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[yasashiiku]

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[hospitalterrorizer]

diary481

1/20-21/25

monday - tuesday

no movie today either...

too busy, had to walk to the store to buy a couple things, toilet paper, toothpaste, and trash bags... i also bought those annie's cheddar bunny things from target. they are good and we don't have a lot of food. but now that we have all these things, the trash bags will last us most of the year if not into the next... i think about 80 bags lasted us most of this year? this was 100 so that'll be a bit longer probably. and i think they hold more? idk. it's not a big deal really, that it's more or that they might be better, it's meeting the mark of what we had last time at minimum so that's all i really care about.

the walk wasn't so bad, i got to listen to music, it always seems like i end up listening to jerome's dream walking around here, when i do walk around here, which is never... i miss walking... especially without reason, when i have a reason it becomes kind of painful. the walk back did hurt a little bit, it was a lot of stuff, it was rather heavy, 24 rolls of toilet paper + 100 trash bags is decently heavy. toothpaste and crackers are not so heavy but they're in boxes too so it's all awkwardly shaped and in this giant blue ikea bag i have to bring back all this stuff from when i do go and get things from the stores around here.

today i wrote something else... for music... i also wrote for a story which is good, and some lyrics ideas. all very very nice feeling, right now. everything's subject to change though. plus a guitar sound.

i made a little demo that sounds different from everything else i do too, and the sound too, it has the tremolo effect on it here so it's super different also, so i'll share that here, but i think i might do a thing where i do some noise outro that fades into this? then back out, that came to me upon the completion of this little loop:

kind of a depressive post rock-y thing.

god, today, despite me doing a lot, sucks, because my throat has gotten so sore, going out to get stuff today, it was windy, which triggered my allergies and now my throat is much more sore because of post nasal drip... i'm worried this sore throat will go on for weeks like that one time. i will be so miserable if that's the case.

here's 2 jerome's dream songs:

this second one's so odd, and special, it's not my favorite song by them but it's genuinely surreal, how it moves between riffy stuff, and then this kind of indie rock thing. nothing else quite like that.

oh, here's a couple interesting things i found today, looking at bands related to maniqui lazer on lastfm, or bands 'like' them, i found these two:

i wish this whole thing could be downloaded, this isn't even all the songs off their demo i think, this is exactly what i'm into, screechy freak-core, love the synths here, super holy molar-y in ways, but also a little bit like maniqui lazer in their garage-y-ness, at times. maybe in the bass? and then the guitars and synths are just doing synthy screamo things kinda, weirdo hardcore gestures.

and then this band, who aren't related at all to this sound but were pretty fun, i like how her vocals being recorded cheaply and sent over msn comes across here, apparently these two used to send eachother files over msn to finish tracks...interesting kind of internet music example:

and then last thing, some stuff that came to me around sleep:

approached by someone on discord, they ask if i want to be their "friend" and i say no, fragmentary and lost dream, intimations of more people, visions of everyone, never coming, not a party but masses of people, meeting people, a big receiving room? i can't tell. it never comes, i said no to the person asking me because i love my girlfriend. another fragment follows, around waking: 3 women in a large room, grey and black at the edges of the room, walls are painted in an old way but the color escapes me, something with little saturation, peach tones, greys too, one woman sat on the floor, a lamp in a corner threw three leaf shaped beams up the corner leaving the room a gentle shadow and the floor is simultaneously wood and carpet. the view, it is as if the 3 women are being shot from chest height, a wide shot, held at my chest maybe, everything is visible except where the room ends on either side of the frame. it is a dark place. a second woman tends to the third woman in a rocking chair, old brown thing, tracery resembling a lion's face of a vine in perfect symmetry with itself upon the head/crest of the chair, where shoulder lie. diningroom chairs of my old family, a bicycle wheel laid against the one side, spokes cast finger-rays across the room, the wheel makes the chair a wheelchair. the wheel shifts as she rocks back and forth, a loose wheel with no creaking, or maybe an echo of creaking plays in your heart but nowhere to be heard, total silence.

what an odd image. anyhow it is late and i need to rest to deal with this pain, whatever it is... good luck actually sleeping god fuck i hate this...

oh well,

so,

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!