#no i wont. who am i kidding lol. im so tired forever haha

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six sentence saturday

The streets are half-familiar now, as Gu Yiran walks backward down the path he’d run each day to work. Here is the intersection where the pedestrian light never seems to come on, and Gu Yiran glances quickly both ways and crosses against a red light. Down that street is the corner of the park where if Gu Yiran cranes his head to look in the mornings, he can see the elderly folks of the neighborhood gathering for tai chi. And this shop he’s walking past, closed now, is the one Zheng Bei had taken him to buy a jacket at, the first weekend after he arrived. Gu Yiran had only worn that jacket for a few weeks before the weather changed. He’s not sure if he’ll ever have much use for it in Huazhou, heavy as it is.

a snippet from chapter 4 :3 i'm sloooowly working my way through the revision and hopefully returning to public accountability will help

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100 q tag

no one wud read it but ima do it anyways cos fun tag by @dubblebubble

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk? more cereal than milk cos i love tht crunchy crunch

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day? LOVE

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books? receipts, pen lol

4: how do you take your coffee/tea? coffee=basic latte/hot tea, no sugar

5: are you self-conscious of your smile? sometimes, not too often tho

6: do you keep plants? no but i want to but ill be terrible at it so no

7: do you name your plants?

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings? digital art

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself? yes very it keeps me sane

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach? side/back, back esp nowadays

11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends? lots lol

12: what’s your favorite planet? earth? hahahah it used to be jupiter cos i loved sailor jupiter as a child

13: what’s something that made you smile today? friend + nct + fics

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like? two separate bedrooms, a balcony, good amount of plants, separate fridge for alcohol, sizeable kitchen

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is! it rains diamonds in jupiter and saturn $$$$

16: what’s your favorite pasta dish? bolognese hahahaha im boring

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair? i just dyed my hair a darker ash brown n i quite like it ive been light for awhile

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up. one came 2 mind cos we both recently talked ab it, a longtime close friend of mine n i used to have the biggest fight where he threw me a pair of scissors n i threw him a basketball in retaliation lmfaooo it still became a running joke more than a decade later...

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it? not really...prolly shud

20: what’s your favorite eye color? i actually like brown hahah, maybe a slightly lighter shade of brown

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces. it was a gift from my parents, a simple small messenger bag with a lot of slots, brought it with me literally everywhere, during my hookups, my night outs, been stained with questionable things (its been cleaned lol!).... almost lost it in a club only to be found by a friend... it has foundation stains tho lol

22: are you a morning person? n o

23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations? sleep, listen to music, watch stuff, not reply to messages

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets? no

25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into? nothing rly comes to mind but im p sure ive been somewhere like tht lol

26: what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit? LOL my adidas superstars

27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor? ermm the red colored ones?

28: sunrise or sunset? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm very good question

29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing? hmm what comes to mind is the way both of us sometimes exchange goodnight msgs w nct farm emojis heheeh

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared? lol ofc....

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks. unfortunately im rly basic on socks, u wud most likely find me wearing black ankle socks or black ballet(?) socks nothing more nothing less.......

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends. a lot has happened usually during that time lol. duno which story to pick honestly hahahah. i think a memorable one might be when we were drinking n played games and we talked and talked and joked n nek min one by one we fell asleep in the same room hahah... im sure there are other stories tht might be more eventful but fr the life of me my memorys fuzzy rn lol

33: what’s your fave pastry? i love strawberry shortcakes! or mille crepes

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it? i kept a LOT hahah. prolly named a few, but nothing was too special. i think it rly reflected how i managed my relationships then, n evn yrs aftwds, like i ws always lonely n my instincts were to gain quantity cos deep down i cudnt trust ppl n cudnt get too committed lololol

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often? i wish i was cos sometimes ppl wud make pretty colorful notes, but i usually just buy ones tht i wud use cos practicality.

36: which band’s sound would fit your mood right now? mmmmm is it cheating if i say nct cos they cover a range of genres lmao. but their ballads i guess yeah.

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean? i mean i prefer to keep it clean, but its always really messy HAHAHA ;_;

38: tell us about your pet peeves! 1. someone rude 2. someone who doesnt know how to respect others’ boundaries 3. someone self-entitled n takes themselves 2 seriously

39: what color do you wear the most? black on black on black on black baby

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you? an evangelion ring, its the black (lilith) moon with lcl gem in it, to me i guess symbolizes my struggle with human relations, n how eva as an anime illustrated tht n the fantasy of having everyone’s consciousness merged into one--n the fact that lilith in itself (in astrology) signifies the darker side of a human being? i guess n the fact that evn if u acknowledge ur darker side u cud still use it to further urself

41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving? hmmmm i guess last was a self help book, unfuck your boundaries, helped me support my need to strengthen my boundaries

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it! little rogue :) its in a small alleyway, a little quaint shop, easy to miss... small potted plants, with an amaaazing matcha latte

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with? siiigh a guy i was involved with lmfao i cut him off tho

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything? hmmmmm good question i guess lately ive been very thankful tht i could feel comfortable taking my own time and space, n accepting the positive energy others wn give 2 me. being single really, really does help evn tho id feel lonely sometimes, bc the only weight i carry is the weight of my own soul n i wn learn how to nourish that

45: do you trust your instincts a lot? very i think

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of. i have a lot HAHAHA if u were a friend of mine ud prolly get tired of them. a genuinely bad one wud be haha youre so punny lmfao

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe? nothing rly lmao if theyre healthy n someone derives happiness frm it i wudnt want it to be banned

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today? probably not lol, i mean i think i retained similar fears since i ws a kid but now obviously my biggest fear(s) would be more...specific to me

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought? its the digital age baby spotify ftw (in all srsness i wish i collected vinyls tho hh)

50: what’s an odd thing you collect? i used to collect ramune bottles lmaoooo

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them? hmmmm nah lets not do this right now lol

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far? LOL too many but i love shitpost quality memes tbh

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them? pulp fiction. i actually loved it, i think i still do, its entertainment value is kickass, havent taken the time to dissect it in any other way

54: who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face? oh man i think it ws the dude i ws seeing lmao fk him

55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point? a lot, n most of them im not proud of, cos some involves self harm

56: what are some things you find endearing in people? kindness n genuineness, someone’s courage in being vulnerable

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics? dont feel like it rn but everytime i do 10/10 will dramatically reenact the lyrics right to the guitar riffs

58: who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why? im definitely the wine (aunt) lmfaooo im already one tbh 

59: what’s your favorite myth? Eros + Psyche, Icarus and the sun

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves? i love poetry hahah...cant think of any rn

61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received? id love any gift given 2 me as long as they wont harm me or anything lmao n i dont think ive evr given anything too stupid. well.. idk if this is stupid tho like i sent flowers thanking my ex for ‘helping me live’ well aft we’ve blocked each other off cos the end to the relo was js daaamn toxic lmao

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind? nope

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be? music i do spotify n im pretty particular ab organizing my playlists i guess. my books im alright with as long as theyre just stacked properly no problem

64: what color is the sky where you are right now? prolly rly dark blue cos its 12 am

65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with? a lot tbh cos ive rly been focusing on stuff internally

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like? daisies, sunflowers, n baby breath here n there

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel? somber i guess maybe a tad bit nostalgic?

68: what’s winter like where you live? heeella cold not cos of the temperature itself but the winds thooo, if it drizzles evn in the slightest it feels like needles piercing through ur bones literally

69: what are your favorite board games? i like the game of life, ummm cards against humanity?

70: have you ever used a ouija board? no n never will lol

71: what’s your favorite kind of tea? the fruity kinds

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it? yea def lol

73: what are some of your worst habits? disappearing from people when i feel strong emotions

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns. they’re small but they’re so full of love, full of life, full of strength, and full of care for others, they’re the type of person who will seek their goals till the end despite obstacles and still be able to not lose their warm heart on the way. they put so much thought and care to every aspect of their life even when in the past they have been handed some bad things, and i adore them for that.

75: tell us about your pets! none :( wish i have a cat though

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t? hahahhaah

77: pink or yellow lemonade? pink!

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub? neither sometimes i think theyre weird sometimes cute sometimes weirdly cute lmao

79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you? write up 24 things they love about me to stop me from hating myself

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why? white. no but if i had to id say white anyways lol cos its a blank canvas

81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of. i dunno uhhhh her rounded eyes which seemed to at first glance, harbor plenty of wonder seemed to be weighted by many untold secrets, the traces of which could be found when she erupts into laughter where the wonder would manifest itself in the form of small stars in the dark of her eyes.

82: are/were you good in school? meh. i try

83: what’s some of your favorite album art? weirdly i like cigarette after sex’s one cos its so simple yet telling

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones? planning on getting an evangelion one, another heart one, a sunflower one, and prolly a ghibli related one

85: do you read comics? what are your faves? manga? naruto 4evr LOL

86: do you like concept albums? which ones? hmmm thinkin of dpr live’s IAOT

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives? lord of the rings, harry potter, one of ghibli movies lol

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy? i think impressionism is very cool evn tho i dont do it myself

89: are you close to your parents? eeeeee

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities. Melbourne is a wonderful city where many things could coexist in one--happiness and sadness, camaraderie and loneliness, hot and cold, quiet and full of life, productive and relaxed, bursting with unfocused energy yet incredibly organized, and for many reasons it’s become one of my favorite cities, and definitely my favorite to live in.

91: where do you plan on traveling this year? no plans tbh lol maybe home?.......japan? heheheh nahhh

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch? it depends lol mostly i guess drowns my pasta in cheese

93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most? i always wear it down, either straight or wavy

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday? a friend of mine

95: what are your plans for this weekend? stay in most likely, do stuff

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot? 100% procrastinate lmaoooo

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house? ISTG, jkjk INFP, leo sun aquarius moon cancer rising, ravenclaw

98: when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it? im alws meh ab hiking tbh lmao 

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them. Long Slow Distance - NCT 127, Four - Sleeping At Last, idontwannabeyouanymore - Billie Eilish, Stop This Train - John Mayer, Digital Lover - Crush

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why? 5 years into the past so she’d stop focusing her life around anybody else but herself

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I AM IN VIETNAM

First post in Vietnam!

Hello folks! IM SO EXCITED TO TELL YOU THAT IM NOW IN HUE CITY, VIETNAM! *horay*

I still cant believe that im here! Im breathing and stay in Vietnam woah I wanna cry just let me cry, *cry so hard*. Sorry, for my reaction!.okay continue to my post. Well in this post I would like to share you how I get here in Vietnam

My journey begin at 2 of February, that night my mom came from Palembang the previous day to make sure she always there whenever I need here to preprare everything. How sweet it is!. Also my boyfriend help me a lot a night before I go to airport. He came, have a dinner with us and help me to carry my things. My boyfriend surely so sweet to me. *I miss both of em.

Okay after Im done with all my lugages. Me and mom heading to the airport about 10pm.  Anyway I bring 2 lugage. One is bigger than another one, the medium size and normal size for each. For those who wants to have an exchange programe like me, moreover for a long period time (3 up tp 6 months or more). I really suggest you guys to bring all of the necessary things you probably hard to find in your host country and only plenty of your favorite clothes! Do not bring too much things and to much clothes! Trust me, you will thank me for tellin you this. I’ll explain you latter why.

My departure actually were arranged at 3 of February in the early morning, but since my dormitory wont let any cars enter the campus area to get in above 11pm we already leaving my dorm before that time. At the airport me and mom wait for about 5 hours. We are sleeping in the waiting room hahahaa. I might said. It wasn’t comfortable. Yes it is. Because anyone can see you sleeping and the room was so cold. So make sure if you wants to stay longer in the waiting room don’t forget your warm jacket! ^^

Finally it’s 5 in the morning. I already made some contacts with another share scholarship awardee from indonesia. (awardee: people that selected to honoured the scholarship). Couple minutes later, I found out two girl infront of me, and im sure that is the gurl from diponegoro university, kak putri and amal. Not so long, right after I go back from toilet. There are 2 girls gathered with us, they are kak yanti and maul. These gurl were my room mate in dorm. And absolutely crazy fun and kind as fuck. I LOVE MY CABE HEHE

Next, were heading to Malaysia. Of course after I hugged my mom so tight and listened to her advice as usually. The moment I check in before I finally reach the plan was so incredible. I bring to much things till I couldn’t take care of my luggage :’). Its like somebody always help me whenever my luggage needs to be check. LIKE I WANNA CRY. GOSH its really tiring, and also I need to transit to hcmc to hue sooner. God damn it. LUCKYLY, this gurl around me are so PEKA as hell. Waqaaa ee, whenever I need help, before I saidi it they are already put their hands behind my back saying im ready to help you. :’’’) LOL I compliment you guys, gw baikan? Ya iyain aja woi

Therefore, you have to know if my luggage weight was out of 20kg, so I have to pay Rp650.000 rupiah. You know, I have no choice. I cant leave my clothes out of nowhere. NO I CANT L. Not only me, this also happened to kak putri and amal. Their luggage was out of 20 kg. but luckily they have some totte bag so they open up their luggage back, and put some clothes to decrease its weight. And it’s WORK!.

 So guys, if you wanna go abroad make sure you always bring more totte bags or anykind of bags that light and can helo you carry things. And make sure (I just wanna remind you) only bring necessary things that u cant or find to hard in ur host country and don’t bring too much clothes!.

BEIEVE ME YOU WILL BUY LOT OF CLOTHES IN UR HOME COUNTRY, MOREOVER IF U GET PLENTY OF MONEY FOR YOUR MONTHLY ALLOWANCE. BECAUSE NOWDAYS I WANNA CRY, ITS BEEN A MONTH FOR ME TO STAY IN HUE BUT I BOUGHT SO MANY THIGS. GOSH

 After every obstacle that I pass during the check in prosses. We finally arrived in Singapore ^^. Yipiiii

Some of the officers are women, and I can say they are not really friendly to me. This is just my opinion guys, idk maybe they are on their period or maybe they just havin prob with his hubby L. I just don’t know or maybe they are hungry or dehydration so that they need aqu* (?)

So here I am with 4 girls that I never meet before out of nowhere stuck together and condition forces to smile everytime they are jokin even I don’t understand what they are sayin HAHAHAHA. No kidding, they are very kind, and its just me that being so quite. LOLS. We all wait in waiting room. I see a lot of foreigner in the waiting room. I wonder, why so many western people come to Vietnam? Well before I ever read some article that stated that Vietnam is very beautiful. Idk I haven’t arrived yet at that time, also I haven’t going out more in HUE. *ratapann anak baik-baik, pulang ngampus ke dorm, bocan*

Feeling bored and hungry at the same time. Me and anisah amalia (well her name remind me about the girl in my old junior high) just call her amal anyway, look around and try some food. But the things that happened was, we have no ringgit :V. LOLS. So we have to exchange our money first to ringgit. Its quite expensive I think T_T. 60 ringgits be like Rp100.000 rupiah (if im not mistaken). In the airport, I buy famous amous. Its kind of biscuit that is really delicious :’) I love it so much. But yeah it is expensive. I also eat some kind of roti cane :/

Finished with the food, we are going back to the waiting room and found out everybody has make a line to go through the gate ._. that was fast man!. So yeah I have to sit alone because me and my friend were not sit side by side idk why. Yeah I just sleep in the plan and look up to the sky and wonder am I dreaming or not, or how beautiful Vietnam is from above.

At first I was like, WOW THAT WAS HO CHI MINH CITY AND IT WAS AMAZING. I SEE LOT OF SKYSCRAPER AND ANYTHING SO BEAUTIFUL.

Finally we arrived in ho chi minh city. Kind of confuse to find the local airport, because after this we need to go to Vietnamese airline for the local flight. So guys, ho chi minh city and hue city is like sumatera and java island. Jaoh coy hehe.

AND FINALLY FINALLY WE ARRIVED AT HUE AIRPORT. YEEE.  The airport is actually quite simple and not crowded. After get our luggage we were greeted warmly by a man that is command by mrs. Huy (the one that responsible for share scholarship and the one that has a duty to manage the international relation in hue university) to pick us and help us to put our luggage to our dorm. He also take us to some places to eat some Vietnamese food.

IM SO HAPPY because my first day in hue at that time was amazing. Im so excited. And you know I never imagine my friend gonna be this awesome and funny. I hope we will always be friend forever *mulai baper*. And I start to think I don’t wanna leave Vietnam!! ><

Well guys if u want to know the truth, I just finished this post a month after I stayed I hue.so its kind of outdate. But later is better than not at all HAHA excuses.

I hope you guys enjoy my writing!

In the next post I will tell you some interesting facts in Vietnam and some photo of Vietnam!

SEE YOUU!