#no degree no job cant work because of chronic health issues and ptsd from all of the above

[handweavers]

in the last 6 weeks i've lost my dog of nearly 16 years and my uncle who i was close with and who financially supported me for years & now it's looking like i'm going to lose my grandfather who raised me and for all intents and purposes has been my father figure my entire life and my best (and when i was growing up he was often my only) friend. it feels like my entire world is ending and i'm not getting the chance to even process anything it's just happening over and over and over. it's also the 3 year anniversary of my stepdad dying, 7 year anniversary of my other uncle dying, the 9 year anniversary of my grandmother dying, and 16 year anniversary of my other grandmother/my "other" mother who raised me dying on my 10th birthday. the only person left in my immediate family is my mother and i have no siblings and no cousins on one side of my family. i can't even begin to articulate how i'm feeling and i don't think anyone i know would really understand either