#no beta we die like sidonus

[sepulcher666]

Does a Astartes ever enjoy the company of their serfs? I wonder.

I suppose it depends on the context. But I find myself unable to understand my situation, for I cannot read much of anything on my lord's face. If i did catch a change in expression, it goes away far too quickly. I do not know what would cause his sudden interest in me.

He had pulled me from my duties below deck and has had me attend to him! I took pride in my difficult manual labor! Others tell me I should be honored, but I feel offended!

I have asked him several times, but he has told me that is something I should not understand! It makes me clench my teeth in annoyance every time I think about it.

What drew him to me, I wonder?

He takes my hand in his massive, gauntleted ones and takes off my gloves with a unnatural tenderness.

His eyes, a stark, pale blue take in the calluses that had formed on my hands.

"Your hand is heavily callused. A thick layer of skin covers your fingers. Does it ever hurt?"

I jump, almost startled out of my skin.

"I-It used to peel and bleed a lot. It doesn't do that anymore. Y-you don't need to worry-"

Something like...concern sparkled in his eyes.

So he cut me off mid-ramble. "I could bring you to the apothecary. He could give you something to dissolve the extra skin"

I panicked. I wasn't sure how to deal with the full attention of an astartes on me. My face flushed at his words and the thought of special attentions i did not deserve.

"No! no..M-My lord, No need for that..." Maybe I should have accepted his offer. It would be better than trying to scrape my calluses off with a knife every now and then.

I cursed myself for my stupidity.

He sounded almost disappointed. "If you say so, serf."

My heart sunk so deeply to the bottom of my chest. I averted my gaze, not wanting to meet his eyes at that moment.

I squeaked feeling his hands run through my short, cropped hair. My heartbeat was fast enough to feel like it would burst out of my chest.

"You are quite adorable." One touch from that-that man bear paw was enough to completely unravel my composure! How embarrassing..

I hid my face in my hands as my face flushed even further.

That was a rollercoaster of emotions I am not sure i can handle again.

Oh he was going to be the death of me.