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Birdie - Satoru Gojo | Chapter 09

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Summary: You didn't like him, at all. But due to your bad luck you would have to be forced to work with him and different circumstances end up leading you to the fact that perhaps the word dislike is not the one you would use to describe him.

ac: _3aem

Tags: modern au, college au, fem!reader, academic rivals, he fell first, fluff, old money Gojo Satoru, abusive parents, slight slow burn, Satoru is a softy, secondary couple (Geto Suguru x oc), a bit of angst, no use of y/n, eventual smut, Gojo plays basketball

Notes: we are getting into business with this new chapter. I haven’t written almost anything during the whole week, I was busy studying but hopefully I can finish the chapter I was writing and start with the new one. I’m so excited for all of you to read the next few chapters.

Before you read the chapter: i know this post will be seen by a lot of people and I wanted to share this gofoundme link, she is my moot on twt, her name is Noor and she is trying to evacuate her and her family from Gaza and she is still trying to raise money. I know not everyone can donate but if you can rt and share it’s very useful. Thank you ❤️

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Pinteres board || Birdie playlist || ao3

“Fuck me.”

You opened your eyes in surprise after hearing your best friend’s words.

“Sorry.” She covered her mouth. “But Jesus! You look so freaking hot.” She looked up and down several times.

“You think so?” You looked at yourself back in the mirror.

Kyoko nodded. “That red dress looks breathtaking on you. And your breasts look just so good with it and please tell me you are wearing the high boots.” She said looking around, searching for your boots.

“Yes.” You smiled.

“My femme fatale girl.” She joked. “Girl, I’m afraid I might come back home alone.” She cried.

“Pfff.” You rolled your eyes. “I’m not the one who has a boyfriend, you are!” You pointed at her. “I will probably be the one coming back home alone because you will be too busy with your lovely boyfriend.”

“C’mon girl, when was the last time you hooked up with someone, just anyone.” Kyoko said while stealing one of your lipsticks.

You felt silent, trying to think when was the last time you hooked up with someone. Last year’s New Year’s party? No you were working at the bar, so was two years ago with that guy?

“Oh god!” Kyoko gasped. “You don’t even remember it!”

“Shut up!” You took away your lipstick. “I was busy working and studying. I couldn’t go parting.”

“That’s why.” She positioned herself behind you. “Tonight, you will hooked up with someone.”

“Kyoko…”

“C’mon! The entire basketball team will be there.” She winked at you. “Satoru will be there.” She dropped it.

You tried to ignore the growing feeling on your chest. “And what about it?” You said with no emotion on your voice.

“What? You are going to tell me, that now you don’t dislike him, you haven’t imagine yourself hooking up with him.”

You rolled your eyes and shook your head. “No I haven’t.” That idea hasn’t crossed your mind. Yet.

“Whatever, but there are a lot of hot guys in the team. But the hottest is already taken and it’s mine.” She joked. “Oh…” She gasped. “Probably the hot guy, the one you used to crush on, the one with the face tattoo and piercings will be there, he is also part of the basketball.”

“That was back when we were in our first year.” You snorted. “And besides, I think he has a girlfriend.”

Kyoko grimaced and sat on your bed while you finished making the final arrangements. You had to say it, you looked hot tonight.

At first you were doubtful about going out, because you didn’t feel like it. But you were young, you were having an extra free day and you nailed your exam, although you still didn’t know your score. But it was going to be good.

You turned around and looked at your best friend with a huge smile on your face.

“Ready?”

“Absolutely!” She screamed and held your arm.

Exiting your room, you exchanged polite farewells with Kyoko's parents before stepping out into the cool night air. There, standing by the front gate, was Suguru, patiently waiting for both of you.

Kyoko let go of your arm, her demeanor shifted, and she moved swiftly into Suguru's awaiting embrace. She leaned in, pressing a tender kiss to his lips.

You couldn't help but feel a pang of loneliness as you watched the intimate moment that they were sharing. You put on a smile and greeted Suguru warmly, acknowledging his presence with a nod. You sat in the back seat, while Kyoko sat next to Suguru in the front seats.

During the trip, the three of you talked about various topics, creating an atmosphere of fluid conversation that never made you feel out of place, as if you were holding the candles.

You couldn't help but notice how Kyoko was watching Suguru with bright eyes and a radiant smile on her face. Seeing her like this only filled your heart with warmth and joy.

In love, reciprocity was comforting, but when only one loved, the result was heartbreaking for those left longing.

Have you experienced love? Maybe, if you could call it that. At fifteen, your understanding of love was as ephemeral as the changes of the seasons, based mainly on the representations of movies, series, and books you found in the library.

At that age, you embarked on a relationship that lasted almost a year with a boy from your town. He was two years older than you, knew much more than you and was more experienced. However, as quickly as it began, what you could feel for him faded, now with the years that had passed, you were aware that for him you had only been a whim and for you he had been an exciting moment at that stage. Dating someone older had sounded exciting, but nothing could be further from the truth.

But life hit you in the face, once again, when you were sixteen years old and the idea of ​​love was pushed aside. The last thing you wanted was to tie yourself to another in the middle of the chaos of your life.

After that relationship you had had one or another, more like attempts at relationships. In fact, when you were in first grade, Kyoko forced you to go on more than one blind date. I wanted to go on a double date one day.

But after breaking up with the prick he stopped insisting and you were never interested again. So the last time you had made out with someone, it had been during the New Year's Eve party two years ago. After that your life had been too hectic to have time.

Suguru parked the car in the crowded parking lot and the three of you stepped out of the vehicle into the bustle of the night. As you adjusted your dress, you looked at the happy couple, Kyoko and Suguru, who were arm in arm, radiating joy.

Kyoko caught your attention and made a playful gesture with her hand, motioning for you to join them in walking hand in hand towards the nightclub. His smile was contagious.

You took a moment to compose yourself, then offered a smile in return, nodding slightly as you closed the distance and linked arms with Kyoko. Then, the three of you headed towards the club where the basketball team had agreed to meet.

“I think I haven’t told you.” Kyoko said to your ear. “Shoko is coming tonight too.”

“For real? That’s great, she is nice.” You smiled. “I just hope you two don’t end up like last time.” Kyoko blushed a little bit.

“It was a one time thing.” She defended herself with a pout.

"Yes, but the one who had to drag your drunk asses around the house was me." You stuck your tongue out at him.

"Shoko and I will make it up to you, we'll invite you." Kyoko said still without erasing the pout from her lips.

"It's the least I hope for." You said jokingly.

“Girls, we are here.” Suguru spoke, moving his head towards the club.

You entered the club, being welcomed by the heat of the place and the music at full volume. Suguru began to greet his teammates, most of them were faces you recognized from the game you had attended, but others were new faces.

“Suguru!!” You heard the voice of the person, who had been embedded in your brain for some time.

He appeared in the crowd, with a smile on his face and a glass in one of his hands. He was wearing a suit, just like that time he showed up at your work, but this one wasn't as elegant, it was more casual. His shirt was unbuttoned, revealing part of his chest.

You wondered if it was his doing to unbutton those buttons or if he had already been having a good time with someone before you arrived. Maybe with that girl from that time.

You turned your head away from where he was and cursed yourself for thinking that.

“Hey Satoru.” Your best friend spoke.

“Oh girls!” He said happily. “You are here too.” You felt him approaching you. Shit.” Hey birdie, you are not going to say hi to me?” You were looking away from him.

You slowly turned to look at him and put on your best smile. “Hi Satoru.”

Satoru stared at you in silence, for longer than you thought he would. You could see his Adam apple moving up and down, as if he was trying to regain composure with that movement.

You smirked to yourself knowing it was the perfect opportunity to tease him. “What Satoru the cat got your tongue?” Placing a hand on your waist you spoke again. “Or I look so hot that you forgot how to speak?”

He closed his mouth, which was slightly opened and a small smile draw on his lips. “Yeah birdie, you look so freaking hot that I forgot how to breathe for a moment.”

Shit.

You should have prepared yourself knowing what Satoru Gojo was like and that he could come up with something like that. But damn, you loved it.

Trying to suppress the restless rise and fall of your pulse and chest, agitated by the impact his words and that hoarse voice had had on you, you forced a smile. You smiled as if it didn't matter, as if her words hadn't unleashed a whirlwind of emotions inside you.

But the reality was very different. Satoru's words had ignited a storm inside you, swirling with a tumultuous mix of feelings that you struggled to contain. Despite your best efforts to appear unaffected, the turmoil it had caused remained beneath the surface, threatening to erupt like a volcano.

You took a deep breath. Would it be that night? The night you'd finally accept something you'd been trying to suppress for weeks? Or would you just let it go and lock it in the deepest drawer?

Satoru Gojo pov

Satoru felt like his legs might give out beneath him, which is why he had held them steady when he saw you.

His gaze first saw his best friend Suguru, then Kyoko, and finally his eyes landed on you. And damn it. The word beautiful was not enough to describe you that night.

Seeing you in that red dress, accentuating every curve of your figure, along with those impressive high boots, took his breath away. Satoru felt helpless in the presence of your beauty, and tonight he knew he would be at his weakest point.

Unbeknownst to you, just like you, Satoru Gojo's insides were a whirlwind of emotions, he was reeling, overwhelmed by the sheer magnetism you exuded. He knew that tonight he would be at your mercy, completely captivated by just your presence.

“You want a drink?” He spoke pointing at the bar behind him.

“Yeah, sure.” You walked besides him. “I though you didn’t drink.”

Satoru looked at his cup. “It’s mainly soda with a bit of alcohol, but only from time to time. I am not a big fan of alcohol.” You nodded and turned to ask for a drink. “It’s good you came.” He got closer so you could hear him.

“And why it’s that?” You smirked, grabbing your straw and taking a small sip. “You would miss me if I didn’t come?”

Yes. But he was unable to say it out loud. “You deserve a break from all the stress.”

“That includes you.” You said teasing him.

“Don’t be bad birdie. I know you love me.” He joked but he secretly longed for it.

“Nah.” You shook your head , you approached his ear to speak to him. “When they called your name and then mine for the project I seriously considered leaving class.” Satoru felt offended by your words, did you hate him that much? “But now my dislike for you has gone from 95% to 35%.”

“A 35%?” He opened his eyes.

“There are times I want to kick your ass so badly.” You shrugged and sipped at the straw again. “You should be glad it went from 95 to 35.”

“Of course it went down, with this face.”

“Now it’s 37%” You said while rolling your eyes.

“Ouch.” He touched his chest as if it hurt his feelings. “Anyways, birdie, let me introduce you to some of our teammates.”

Satoru hesitated for a moment, contemplating whether he should reach out and take your hand. It wouldn't be the first time he did it, but this moment would be different. The last time he held your hand, at the lake, you were on the verge of tears, almost having a panic attack. Now, at this party, you were both having fun.

He looked at your hand and then back at your face, noticing the confused expression as you wondered what he was doing. Gathering all the courage he could muster, Satoru decided to act. He gently took your hand and led you in front of him to where his teammates were gathered.

As he led you through the crowd, Satoru's heart raced with a mix of excitement and nervousness. His hands were sweating and he prayed that you wouldn't notice.

Upon reaching his teammates, Satoru gave you a small squeeze and placed you next to him, still holding onto his hand.

“Guys!” Satoru's voice echoed in the space where the team was, causing the curious gaze of his teammates to rest on him and also on you. “She is…” Satoru said your name pointing his hand at you. His companions then began to murmur under their breath while his gaze remained glued to you.

“Captain! Is she your girlfriend?” Satoru swallowed hard and controlled himself so that a crimson red wouldn't stain his cheeks.

“No Yuji, she is not.” Satoru responded a bit irritated.

“Do you really think Captain Gojo would be able to get a girlfriend?” The vein on Satoru's forehead began to swell. It had definitely been a bad idea bringing you to meet these brats.

“Megumi…” Satoru snorted through his nose. “Don't pass or you'll be on the bench next week.” To which Megumi responded by turning around and sitting in one of the back chairs, without giving it any importance.

“I’m Yuji!” Yuji approached you with a smile.

“Nice to meet you Yuji.” You said finally letting Satoru’s hand go.

“You should meet the others too!” He said. “This is my first year in the team, well I just started college, but everyone is very nice.”

“Is Satoru nice too?” Satoru felt a small blush on his cheeks again after hearing you ask that question. “If you want we can get away from him and then you can criticize him.” You joked and Satoru smirked.

“Oh no, no.” Yuji shook his head. “Captain Gojo is truly an amazing player and amazing captain! I’m glad he is my mentor.” He widely smiled.

“Oh impressive Satoru.” You said looking at him.

Satoru shrugged and smiled. “What can I say, I'm the best.”

“You’re the best.” You said at the same time laughing.

“Captain…” A deep voice talked behind both of you, you lifted your head to be met with a tall blonde guy.

Oh Haibara’s friend.

“Nanami!!” Satoru happily shouted, to which Nanami reacted rolling his eyes. “Birdie, this is Nanami.” He pointed at him.

“Nice to meet you.” Nanami did a small bow.

“You are Haibara’s friend right?” He nodded. “I saw you a couple of times outside the store waiting for him.”

“You work with Haibara?” You nodded. “Oh so you’re the super nice coworker he always talks about.”

“I guess so.” You smiled. “You also play on the basketball team?” You tilted your head.

“Unfortunately.” You looked at him confused for his response. “Captain Gojo is a pain in my ass most of the time.”

“I understand what you mean.” You laugh recalling how you had Satoru saved on your phone.

Satoru coughed sharply causing you both to turn to look at him. “I think that's enough for today, Nanami, why don't you go get some drinks? I want the same thing as always, okay?” He said as he pushed Nanami away.

“Satoru, why was that?” You crossed your arms in front of your chest.

Satoru rolled his eyes again. “It’s just that…” But the sentence was left in the air when Shoko’s voice sounded louder than his, calling your name.

“I finally found you.” She hugged you, resting her head on your shoulder.

“Shoko!” You said as you moved away a little. “You already drank something?”

“Just a shot. I’m okay, I swear.” She raised her hands. “Now come with me, Kyoko and Yuki are waiting for us to dance.”

“Yuki?” You said confused.

“I will introduce you now. Now let’s go!” She started pulling you. “Let's leave these idiots here.”

Taking one last glance at Satoru and offering a small smile, you bowed your head before disappearing into the bustling crowd of people. Satoru watched you leave, a slight smile on his lips, before exhaling heavily through his mouth.

He walked over to the couch where Megumi was sitting and sank down next to him. Leaning back against the backrest, Satoru looked up at the ceiling, lost in his thoughts.

“Captain Gojo, you seem distressed.” He heard Megumi talking.

“It’s nothing, kid.” He shook his head. “And by the way how come you are here? You usually hate this type of place.”

Megumi sighed heavily. “That idiot brought me here.” He pointed at Yuji who was now grabbing snacks from a nearby table.

Satoru opened his mouth in o shaped form and nodded. “You two are really close aren’t you?”

“What do you mean?” Megumi inquired with a nervous look.

“Nothing. I mean if you two are close in that type of way then it’s fine by me. And if anyone in the team says something inappropriate, make sure to tell me. I will handle it.” Satoru explained.

Megumi stood up. “Thank you captain, but it’s okay… we are okay.” Satoru noticed the small blush on Megumi’s cheeks and smiled as he walked away to where Yuji was.

Satoru looked around the place and spotted you on the dance floor. He watched you from the side, he observed you as you danced and laughed with Kyoko, Shoko and who he guessed was Yuki, the one Shoko mentioned before. It was rare to see you so carefree, and he couldn't help but feel his chest swell with happiness at the sight.

As you moved gracefully on the dance floor, your laughter filled the air and Satoru found himself captivated by the joy that radiated from you. He couldn't look away from you, mesmerized by the way you moved, the way you laughed, the way you simply existed in that moment. It was as if the world disappeared into the background, leaving only you.

He looked at his drink and his thoughts returned to the conversation he had with Suguru last week. It had been a jolt of reality, to say the least.

Satoru had come face to face with the truth: the feelings he harbored towards you had been there for a long time. It wasn't a simple crush; he was deeper than that. The weeks of interaction had only intensified his emotions, revealing a deep feeling he had rarely experienced.

Reflecting on it now, Satoru realized that he had been in love with you long before he fully acknowledged it. He had fallen in love with you from a distance, watching how you interacted with others, listening to what people said about you, and admiring your dedication and diligence.

It was a realization that excited him and at the same time made him nervous. Satoru was used to being confident and self-assured, but when it came to matters of the heart, he found himself navigating uncharted territory. If he had had girlfriends, he had dated different people, but on the vast majority of occasions he had been without any deeper interest.

Sighing he looked back at your figure on the dance floor.

“If I didn’t know how you felt about her I would think you are a pervert or something like that.” Suguru sat next to him.

Satoru just rolled his eyes and took his cup once again. “I’m just watching her, nothing else.”

“Yeah like a creep.” His friend pointed out. “Why don’t you go and ask her to dance with you?”

“You think she will accept?”

“What’s the worst that could happen? You get your ass kicked? I will have my phone ready just in case.”

“Geez you are annoying.” Satoru said punching Suguru’s arm.

“C’mon man! Where is all your ego and confidence?” He challenged.

Satoru stood up and looked at Suguru. “Watch me.”

“Your legs are trembling Satoru!” Suguru shouted from the distance to which Satoru responded by showing his middle finger.

But oh boy, he was for real trembling. That was the effect you have on him after all.

Your pov

Your body swayed to the infectious rhythm of the music as you continued sipping from your second glass of the night. You were cautious not to drink too much, but Shoko's insistence that it was a night to let loose and have fun had led you to indulge a bit more.

Amidst the pulsating beats, you also met Yuki, she was older than you and she happened to be dating Choso, your old crush from your first year. Now, the four of you were on the dance floor, fully immersed in the music, letting the heat and energy of the moment wash over you.

The dance floor became a blur of movement as you all threw yourselves into the music, laughing and enjoying each other's company. The atmosphere was electric, the air filled with excitement and camaraderie as you danced the night away, feeling the warmth rising through your bodies with every step and beat.

You noticed Shoko giving Kyoko a subtle nudge, followed by a knowing smile and a raised eyebrow exchange between them. “I'm exhausted.” Shoko announced abruptly. “Let's sit.”

You nodded, ready to follow Shoko, but Kyoko halted you with a smile and a nod towards her side. Confused, you followed her gaze, only to find Satoru standing a few meters away. His cheeks were flushed, likely from the heat of the club, and his gaze was fixed on you with unwavering intensity.

Your heart quickened as Satoru began to make his way towards you, his eyes never leaving yours. Glancing back at Kyoko, you found that she, along with Shoko, and Yuki had vanished from your sight, leaving you alone with Satoru.

“Hey.” Satoru said when he was finally near you.

“Hi.” You said with a louder tone so he could hear you.

“You having fun?” He questioned getting closer, so you could hear him.

You nodded. “So much. I was dancing with the girls until now.”

“Is that your second drink?” He pointed to the cup in your hands.

“Yeah! Shoko insisted but it’s fine by me, so don’t worry.” You moved your hand around. “Are you having fun too Satoru?” You asked him this time.

“I am.” He smiled and took a deep breath. “Wanna dance with me the next song?”

Oh. You were caught off guard by Satoru's invitation to dance, you hesitated for a moment, the pulse of the music pounding in your ears. But the prospect of dancing with him, of being close to him, was too tempting to resist.

“Yeah, sure.” You finally replied with a smile spreading across your face. “But let me finish my drink.”

“Drink slowly, I don’t want you throwing up on me once again.” He once again teased you, so you decided to tease him back.

“Oh. It went up.” You smirked looking at him. “Now it’s 39%.”

“Okay, okay, I will stop teasing but just be careful.”

“Yes dad!” You said, rolling your eyes. “Alright.” You placed the empty glass on a table. “Let’s go!”

Satoru's smile widened, a sparkle of excitement in his eyes as he took your hand and led you towards the dance floor. When the next song started playing, you fell into rhythm with him.

In the dim lights of the club, surrounded by the pulsating energy of the crowd, you lost yourself in the moment, swaying and spinning with Satoru, as your bodies moved in perfect synchrony, as if you had been doing this for years, as if you were one.

And as you danced, the world started to fade away, leaving just the two of you, lost in the music and lost in the connection that existed between the two of you.

As the music hummed around you and the heat of the dance floor enveloped you. Satoru's hand rested on your waist causing a surge of electricity to course through you, igniting a fiery passion simmering just beneath the surface.

With every step, every movement of your bodies, the tension between you became palpable, the air thick with anticipation. Your movements became more fluid, more sensual, as they let themselves be carried away by the rhythm of the song that was playing.

As the song reached its climax, Satoru pulled you closer, his gaze looking at you with burning desire. And in that moment, with the music pulsing in your veins and the heat of his body against yours.

“Birdie, I swear you are driving me fucking crazy.” He said but only you were able to hear his words.

You wanted to play, you wanted to wrap him around your finger. “How Satoru?” You got yourself closer to him. “How am I driving you crazy?” You lifted your gaze, leaving both of your gazes connected.

One more step and your chest would be completely stuck together. One more step and what you would feel would be his heat mixing with yours. One more step and everything you have been trying to ignore would fall on you like a house of cards.

It was just one step.

Just one.

And you were about to give that step when you saw a silhouette in the distance, making your blood freeze.

“Fuck.” You muttered realizing who was in that club too, someone you had secretly hoped and prayed to avoid encountering him again ever since you quit working at that bar.

Final notes: itafushi and chosoyuki crumbs on the same chapter? exactly 🙂‍↕️ Also who do you think Birdie saw?

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[nanamistiee]

satoru gojo as your boyfriend. // headcanons

‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ satoru gojo as your boyfriend head canons ☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

✧ satoru's love language is definitely gift-giving. he's heading to a certain city on a mission and he knows your favorite sweets are there? yeah, the curses can wait, he's making a bee-line to the candy shop to snag a couple for you to enjoy when he gets home. he's not the type of guy to ever come home empty handed, either. even after a long day, he's 100% showing up with flowers or a bottle of wine or something to show his affection for you.

✧ as much as he'll never admit it, satoru is a sappy lover. you have the ability to turn him into absolute mush; he's putty in your hands. although he's the type to tease the absolute living hell out of yuji, megumi, and nobara for having crushes, satoru is 100x worse. he worships the ground you walk on and he's not afraid to show it.

✧ one of his favorite things to do with you is cook. let's face it, he's pretty much stuffing his face with something 24/7, whether it be sweets, savory snacks, or anything he can get his hands on. so this is a perfect date night for you two. except... he lets you do most of the cooking and he's there for moral support. he's like your perfect sous chef, nodding along to whatever you say and passing you whatever incredients you ask him for. he'll always slip in a cheeky little 'yes ma'am.' & 'yes, chef,' too.

✧ trying to get ANYTHING done with satoru is hard. you've got something cooking on the stove and it's about to boil over? he doesn't care, he needs to spin you around in the dining room and tell you you're gorgeous. you're trying to study? he doesn't care, you HAVE to give him a kiss because it's been an hour since you last kissed him and he's gonna die if you don't give him a kiss in the next thirty seconds.

✧ satoru is clingy. he needs to be holding your hand, burying his face in the crook of your neck -- anything. he's the type of guy to always ask you if you love him. the affirmation and reassurance is something he definitely needs, but, god, does he love hearing it from you. he will also abruptly stop whatever he's doing to pick you up, whether it's bridal style, over his shoulder, anything. he runs on pure impulse and dumb ideas, so throwing you over his shoulder and then onto the couch to force you to cuddle with him happens quite frequently.

✧ satoru is annoying, but in the best way possible. he loves to rile you up and make you all feisty. he'll never do anything to purposely upset you (and god forbid if he does upset you, this man is on his knees begging for forgiveness) but god, does he love seeing the fire in your eyes. he knows you can't be mad at him for too long, either. he'll always tell you this -- 'you can't be mad at me,' pouting at you, etc. gojo has you all worked down to a science, and in truth, you could never really be mad at him because he's so in tune with your emotions. he prides himself on being the best (and most annoying) boyfriend in the entire world.

‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ thanks for reading owo my ask box is always open !! ☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

[lostfracturess]

wow nici. wow. i really don't what to say, feeling empty. firstly, i want to thank you for this chapter, the wait was so so much deserved! secondly, personally i think you've surpassed yourself with this chapter, it's incredibly good and feels like a separate story within the story. 😭😭😭 you're truly a writing genius, the way you describe emotions is agonizingly good, the actions, the dialogues, everything is on spot. i am applauding to you and your hard work!!!

I've said it already but i KNEW he would be up to something like that! of fucking course he decided everything for both of them and now drowns himself in pity, what a loser 😭 (i still love him and he's very dear to me and i pity him as well, but satoru 😭😭😭 are you for real????) actually i feel all of these things will be like a cold shower to him, a point of no return, it's whether he finally decides to do something or succumb to the mess and drugs fully. I hope for the first one ofc. everything is for him actually, he just has to take it, have some courage and let it. lose control for a little bit and then he should understand it's not anything bad with losing control to a person he trusts. nobody will break him 😩😭 (those who love him ofc)

and my reader girlie...i love her so so much, she's such a strong bold fierce defiant woman, I totally understand why satoru likes her, because how he couldn't??? please stop torturing her and all of us!!

and now to the quotes i wrote my thoughts as i read i thought it might be funny😭😭 might send it in parts as well, sorry 🙏

"Me, who knows how to soothe the invisible wounds, the ones even she denies exist. Me, who knows the soft words she needs to hear after it passes" DAMN NICI FROM THE START? WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME I AM REALLY AFRAID

"I didn't want to breathe anymore.

Not in a world where every breath ached without her" what if i jump out of the window ❤️

i don't know what to say rn but the way you describe his feelings is agonizingly beautiful

"She is everything.

Oh, sorry. Forgot. Past tense.

She was everything" who are you telling this bullshit rn NO ONE GONNA BELIEVE THIS, SHE IS AND WILL BE, IDC. I STAND FIRMLY ON THE GROUND.

"Let them drag my name through the mud, tarnish the reputation I'd worked so hard to build." my poor baby boy (let's forget he's a grown up man HE'S A BABY 😭😭😭) i want to hug him so much

yeah now his office is the same as his soul and heart all shattered and broken i am gonna die

I pinned him against the door. Forearm across his throat, crushing his windpipe. His eyes widened, but even then, there was that damn flicker of amusement" what kills me is he fucking knows how bad gojo is feeling rn and still he comes into his office to mock him... this ass doesn't even have some basic human sympathy, he chose the most vulnerable moment and stroke gojo AGAIN

"And there he was. Sukuna" YALL GOTTA HOLD ME BECAUSE I WILL KILL HIS FUCKING "ASS

"Or maybe," Sukuna drawled, pushing the knife deeper, "maybe you wanted to see where this goes. Stain her a bit, make her just a little bit more like you." SEE THAT'S WHAT I MEANT SHUT UP YOU USELESS PIECE OF SHIT YOU DON'T COST EVEN A FINGER OF GOJO 😭😭😭😭

ahhhh girl !! firstly thank you so so much for your overall support, so glad to have you as a reader but also thank you so much for your messages omg !! and you saying i surpassed myself with this chapter ?? i'm fainting 🫠🫠💔

and you're absolutely right, this is a major turning point. gojo's been hurtling down this path of self-destruction, rationalizing and avoiding at every turn, and now he's face-to-face with the devastating consequences of those choices. it's that cold shower moment you mentioned, where he can either start swimming or drown.

love your insight about losing control !! gojo's terrified of vulnerability, of trusting anyone enough to let go. he equates control with safety, with not being broken again, even if that means breaking himself in the process. but what he needs most – letting someone in, trusting them with his messiness and pain – is the very thing he fights against hardest. he's really stupid 💔

also so glad you like the female lead !! she's force of nature, fierce and unwavering even when her heart is breaking too. their dynamic is so complex and messy and utterly compelling. you're right, she's everything gojo needs and more. it's just a matter of whether he can finally get out of his own damn way. he's really stupid, again 💔

and omg, sending your live reaction quotes is fantastic!! that's honestly so much fun, getting to peek into your thought process as you're reading. it's so gratifying as a writer to see the moments that hit hardest 😭😭❤️

DAMN NICI FROM THE START? WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME I AM REALLY AFRAID

lol sorry hehe. but this is really so soft i can't 😭😭

i don't know what to say rn but the way you describe his feelings is agonizingly beautiful

so glad you like it, i spend a lot of time to decide on how to write these things and change sentences like 500 times, it's really hard work, so i'm so glad you appreciate it ❤️

what kills me is he fucking knows how bad gojo is feeling rn and still he comes into his office to mock him... this ass doesn't even have some basic human sympathy, he chose the most vulnerable moment and stroke gojo AGAIN

yes yes yes !! wanted to make sukuna really a bad person like he is in the jjk universe, someone who just thrives on chaos and the pain of others.

and sukuna knows how satoru is struggling with his addiction for years !! and still he's a dick about it because it amuses him. what a loser.

see you in part two lol ♡

[linkspooky]

What was your inspirations for Michi-tonkastsu Michikatsu?

And will he show up again in your future JJK fics?

Art by @oakyvii

Michikatsudon has a lot of inspirations. The first is the character who gave him his name, Michikatsu Tsugukuni, otherwise known as Kokushibo from Kimetsu no Yaiba. 

I just copied the Kanji exactly for that, so it would mean: 

While his first name also contains the Kun'yomi/reading of the kanji for "sterness, severity" (巌みち michi?) and "to prevail, victory" (勝かつ katsu?). His father was the one who named him, as he believed Michikatsu would be strong and successful.

His backstory and name are based heavily off of Kokushibo because what originally captivated me about the Tsukiguni twins backstory was the strong emotions of jealousy, mixing in with love for his brother that he can’t give a voice or a name too. Basically Kokushibo can’t understand that beyond his jealousy at his brother for being more talented than him, the reason he is obsessed with his brother is because he loves him genuinely and it is the only emotional connection he has ever had in his life. For instance, he carries the flute his brother gave him years after the fact of their parting. 

I think there is a lot of powerful emotions in Kokubishibo’s backstory, however Kimetsu no Yaiba tends to be a little bit too black and white at times (like in any other manga a character like Akaza would have gotten a chance at a redemption arc) and so rather than exploring the emotions of both characters, Kokushibo is just one dimmensionally evil and his younger twin brother is practically a saint. 

Nietzsche recognized that envy is a big part of life, and yet we are generally taught to feel ashamed of our envious feelings. They seem to be an indication of evil so we hide them from ourselves and others. Yet, there is nothing wrong with envy, maintained Nietzsche, so long as we use it as a guide to what we really want. Every person who makes us envious should be seen as an indication of what we could one day become. 

I wanted to write a similar character conflict between two people growing up in the same household, with an interplay of both love and envy defining their relationship. 

There were a couple of lines especially for Kokushibo that weren’t even particularly evil, they were just natural jealsouy that anyone would feel. 

“How wonderful it would be if talent was given to those who wanted it.” 

“People who feel no jealousy towards others simply have good luck. They’ve never met someone like him. Someone who lives with the favor of the gods lavished upon them.” 

“The ugliness of not admitting defeat even though they took my head, chopped me up and crushed me. Living in disgrace. Have I lived hundreds of years for this? Was I so afraid of defeat that I became a monster? Did I want to be strong even if it meant eating people? Did I become this miserable creature because I didn't want to die? No. Yoriichi... I just wanted to be you. “

Basically, I wanted to write a backstory where it would be natural for Michi to be jealous of his clansmen Satoru, because basically the Gojo clan is a one man show, they only care about someone who can use the Unlimited Curse technique. The moment Gojo was born, Michi’s existence no longer mattered, so even if they grew close in the same household, the clear favor for Gojo would always taint their relationship. 

Michi is also designed around Gojo to foil him in a lot of ways. He was basically created to be Gojo in different circumstances. Gojo is albino with near all-seeing eyes. Michi is dark skinned with dark hair, and he goes blind after his youth. However, I wanted to avoid “darkness = bad” and “light = good” binary, so Michi has a lot of redeeming character traits that Gojo doesn’t have, essentially Michi has more empathy for people and regard for their interiority than Gojo ever will. Michi and Gojo both interact with children, but Gojo treats them as mini-adults whereas Michi knows that they are children and is desperate to be a good mother to them. Gojo is someone who was denied his homosexual relationship because Jujutsu Society drove his friendship with Gojo apart. Michi is pretty openly a bigender dudewife and is more comfortable being feminine then masucline. Basically the queer elements of Michi’s character is at the forefront, while it’s suppressed in Gojo, because his role in society will come first. 

Gojo and Michi are both extremely rude, they both talk at people rather than to people but it’s harder to catch on with Michi because Michi pretends to be polite and humble. They’re both very genuinely weird. They’re both really cerebral. The thing about Michi is he is smart, he’s just not a genius. Michi is like if he studied every day for the exam, and Gojo showed up drunk five minutes late to the test gojo would still score better. They are both really out of touch with their emotions. Gojo’s entire personality is built around the fact that he’s “Strong” however, and Michi believes that true strength lies in enduring weakness rather than having the strength to overcome every obstacle. 

They also both center their ideals around how children are treated, they are both very aware that Jujutsu Society is a bad place for children to be. Michi’s one and only rule he would never cross is he’d never hurt a kid or intentionally put them at risk. 

One more element of Michi’s backstory is his relationship with his mother, where he is an illegitimate child brought into the family from a prostitute mother because at the time they had no heirs. Of course, a year later Gojo was born which meant his mother’s value to the family became essentially worthless. 

This idea came from Ogata in Golden Kamuy, more or less I had a friend who once said that Ogata’s mom is actually a rare instance of positive sex worker representation because it depicts a man using a sex worker and then throwing away her child as a tragedy, and her subsequent mental decline in a sympathetic life. Wheras most of society treats sex workers as disposable, and they are not like given a lot of humanizing depictions. Basically that left me with a desire to write Michi’s prostitute mother as a strong character, who after being tossed aside and harassed by the clan is able to maintain her pride and dignity and continue loving her son. 

Michi’s entire idea of strength is based off of his love for his mother, which is why his pride comes from the idea of motherhood, and his values revolve around protecting children. He is also more comfortable with feminity then masculinity and wears feminiity as a sheidl, once again as admiration for his mother. Basically I wanted to write a positive sex worker even if just as a backstory character. Michi is who he is in part because his mother shielded him. 

This was also slightly borrowed from Noritoshi Kamo’s circusmtances too, he is also a bastard son forced to live with the clan and endure the harassment of his mother. 

Michi also has inspiration from the story “The Setting Sun” by Osamu Dazai. If you read the book, the main character’s admiration and relationship with their mother who is slowly dying over the course of the story serves as inspiration for most of Michi’s feelings regarding his mother. 

“This I want to believe implicitly: Man was born for love and revolution.'

Is also a quote I modeled his character around. 

As for if he is going to show up in future fics, yes! The plan is to let Michi have a cameo or at least a small role in every fic. The first three fics were basically centered around Michi at three stages of development in his life. Werewolf, Michi is going to show up in the epilogue I always intended that from the beginning. 

I basically have two fics planned as of now, and that is a fic about the Zenin Massacre Arc, and also a fic where Mimiko, Nanako, and Nanami all survive post shibuya. The second fic will detail Mimiko and Nanako’s journey in the Shibuya arc and how they survive, with Junpei there to round out the trio and will be mainly written from the perspective of Nanami who finds out that Junpei is still alive. The sequence of events are slightly different, they have to be because Nanami doesn’t die, but at the end Nanami chooses to stay outside of Jujutsu Society rather than return home, kind of like how the original plan for his character was going to be he was an office worker who snapped and became a curse user. 

Those are the future appearances of Michi that I have planned currently. He will probably cameo in the Zenin massacre fic too, but he’s less relevant to that plot thread. 

[junko-en0shima]

Ahh this is such a cool idea, I'd love a match up if you have a moment! With Attack on Titan (I'd prefer the veterans if possible), Jujutsu Kaisen, Stranger Things, and DC Uni (specifically Teen Titans or Justice League?)

My name is Sky and I'm 25. I go by she/her pronouns and I'm bisexual, I lean towards men but if the emotional connection is there I of course go either way.

My love language is acts of service and quality time.

My favorite hobbies consists of writing, watching my favorite shows, reading, playing video games, playing guitar/ukulele, baking/cooking, looking at funny things, and drinking more tea than I need to. I also like to be outside but I'm not a fan of physical activity. I like to listen to jazz while I'm doing background work.

I'm an ISFJ, and my enneagram is Type 6w5 (I think that's how you state that? I'm still kind of new to understanding them)

I like to think I'm chaotic neutral, and my Hogwarts house is Hufflepuff.

Your match for Attack On Titan is... Miche Zacharius!

He can smell your baking or cooking in your hair; like he thinks it's scientifically possible for the smells to impregnate into people's hair.

He can sing very well, but he sings just when it's just the two of you around and no one else; you playing the guitar or ukulele and him, singing very sweet words for you.

Sometimes he sneaks away from training with you, as he's not into exercise as well to spend quality time that you wouldn't be able to spend (careful Levi doesn't find out).

Didn't really like jazz at first as it was too loud for him, but he ended up liking it because of you.

Your match for Jujutsu Kaisen is... Gojo Satoru!

Idk why, but I think he matches your energy somehow.

If you sneak out of training, he will playfully yell at you and tickle you as punishment.

It's hilarious how he dances to jazz music; Nobara, Megumi and Itadori watch him like this -> 😮‍💨

I feel like you could be a bit jealous of Miwa at first as you though she had a crush on him, but then you found out she didn't because she was just fangirl and Gojo has many so you're okay with that... as long as they don't cross your line.

Your match for Stranger Things is... Eddie Munson!

He looked mean and scary to you, but one day somehow you managed to spend a bit of time to get to know him better and he wasn't as bad as you though.

You automatically became best friend with Chrissy, who sets all of your dates and helps you getting ready for them.

Watches your favourite shows with you; he doesn't look like he's very interested, but just wait a while until he starts asking questions. "So why did he cheat on her? What is she gonna do about it?"

You and Chrissy go to all his Corroded Coffin concerts wearing merchandising from head to toe and your eyes are focused on him all the time.

Your match for DC (Teen Titans) is... Robin aka Dick Grayson!

Since his eyes crossed yours, he promised himself to protect you, no matter what.

All other Titans (except for Starfire, who became your best friend ever) didn't like you at first, but since when Beast Boy and Cyborg saw you playing ukulele, they dance at all the songs you play now and Raven told you kinda look "cool" (you're gonna get used to it).

Enjoys jazz music and cooking/baking as well! It looks like the food you make is even tastier when he's around.

Never lets you go on missions with them as he's afraid to lose you rhough Raven tries to convince him that everything will be alright.

[tojisun]

Haha OH MY GOD gojo feeling love at first sight to y/n but being like “what the fuck is this?” and demanding to be seen by a doctor at a hospital is so HIM, what a diva. Will you consider making a one shot expanding on the short drabble you wrote on that scene? It sounds hilarious. Ur under no obligation tho ur probably busy.

No but just gojo trying to play it cool as he strolls out the diner while toji’s fuming and y/n is just like ??? “Weird kids, but they seem nice ig??”

And as soon as he leaves the diner he starts collapsing onto the pavement clutching his chest while getou’s trying to get him to calm down—

“It’s called attraction, Gojo-“

“—what does the most stunningly beautiful person I’ve ever seen in my life have ANYTHING to do with my heart attack, suguru?!”

(Meanwhile shoko’s just taking pictures of his breakdown and sending them to utahime).

[x]

HDPGAPJFPAO NO BECAUSE THIS IS SO FUNNT IM IN TEARS OH MY GOD THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED

like satoru got this big fake smile at seeing toji only to have his whole breathing capacity stolen when his eyes landed on you. (cue wildest dreams playing in the background). 

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whatever snide remarks that satoru prepared to say to the prodigal son of the zenins fizzles out of his memory when his eyes met yours. his brain has turned into a mush, leaving nothing intelligible.

his heart begins palpitating and satoru, for a second, is worried that you are a curse who managed to sneak up on him and attack him because why else is his heart running itself ragged? it’s going faster than satoru can conjure thoughts and that is so damn worrisome. fuck, is he sick?

“satoru?” he hears suguru ask from beside him, following up the question with a poke on satoru’s side. satoru is jolted back into reality where he meets your eyes again, causing all his organs to? collapse?

“uhhhhh,” satoru says unintelligently, pawing at suguru and clutching at his hand tight when satoru managed to locate it. suguru hisses, shaking off satoru’s death grip but satoru has his hand hostaged.

shoko finally looks up from her phone, and satoru can see her eyeing them in confusion.

“what the fuck do you want?” toji asks. 

satoru wants to ask himself that question. what in the ever loving fuck do i want? and follows it with a what the fuck am i doing?

satoru has no answer to both so he turns around, pulling suguru along with him and marches out the door. shoko follows quietly behind the two of them, eyes glancing back-and-forth between her two friends and her phone where she’s probably messaging utahime.

satoru catches toji go, “what the fuck?” again, and satoru turns his head around, preparing to stick out his tongue at toji when he sees you looking at him again.

satoru swivels forward, marching faster despite the complaints of suguru.

the moment the diner is out of sight, satoru collapses at the pavement, hand gripping at his uniform as if to clutch his thundering heart and willing it to fucking calm down.

“i need to go to the doctor. suguru call an ambulance, oh kami, your best friend is about to die young!” satoru says dramatically, waving his hand around as he spits out orders that suguru is not even following.

“what the hell’s going on?” suguru asks instead.

satoru wheezes out in reply, double clutching at his uniform now when he remembered you. “i’m having a heart attack!”

“no, you’re not,” shoko quips in before going back to tapping away at her phone.

satoru grumbles loudly. “no you don’t understand! when i saw that girl, my heart started going so fast and i think she did something to me because why else am i feeling this?!”

his outburst is met with a wide-eyed and suppressed smile look from shoko, and an unimpressed stare from suguru. clearly, they know something that satoru doesn’t.

“what?”

shoko breaks out in laughter while suguru heaves a very deep sigh before coming down to sit beside satoru. “you have a crush.”

"no, i don’t!”

“yes, you do.”

“my heart is thumping and you’re telling me i have a crush? are you out of your mind? i could literally be dying right now and you’re telling me this is a simple crush- do you know who i am? crush? crush? suguru what the–”

“it’s called attraction, satoru. chill out–”

“–fuck? like what does the most beautiful and good-looking and stunning and beautiful–“

“you said beautiful twice.”

“–person i have ever met got to do with my heart attack, which, by the way, is about to kill me and yet my best friends are not deterred at all– my god! you want me dead–”

"well, now i do.”

“–you want me dead! i’m surrounded with snakes, oh kami what did i ever do to deserve this–”

"fuck it– fine! fine we’re calling a doctor already! damn satoru, you just don’t shut up, huh?”

satoru finally stops with his rant, and he turns his bright and fake teary eyes to suguru. “when i die, i’ll give you my violin.”

suguru breathes in sharply as though restraining himself from whacking satoru, “i don’t need your violin.”

satoru whines pathetically at suguru’s refusal. suguru rolls his eyes at satoru again before turning to shoko. shoko’s laughing at them two, phone out and steady despite her uncontrollable laughter.

satoru doesn’t know if shoko’s recording whatever breakdown that satoru had to send it to utahime, or she’d been video-calling her girlfriend.

all satoru knows is that he’s not dying, but he is truly lost as to why he feels the way that he does when he saw you. he’s been around countless women before, and yet none of them ever made him feel this way. he is quite scared at what these feelings mean.

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“if you ever see those kids again, run the other way,” toji says, uncharacteristically serious.

“how come?” 

he half shrugs. “white hair despite being 18? that’s weird.”

“...right.”

[minerviewrites]

can you make one with the characters from Chainsaw Man that Reader who is as strong as Satoru Gojo and is a beauty in person? Please 🥺

Ofc! Thank you for requesting <3

Chainsaw Man with a strong and beautiful s/o

Sfw fluff with gn reader :]

Warnings: silight spoilers for Reze and Makima, fighting, trauma implied, descriptive words like beautiful, gorgeous, pretty, etc

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Denji- Constantly wonders how in the world he got someone as majestic and powerful as you. Of course Denji was around Makima all the time, who is super strong, but even she seemed frail in comparison to you. He's super curious about your abilities, but he understands the possible disadvantages that come along with showing it to people. Denji compliments you all day long; he wants you to know how much he appreciates your presence and beauty in his life

Power- Asks to fight you almost every day. She has a extremely high respect for you since you're so powerful, especially since you're gorgeous as well. Power prides herself on not being involved with human emotions like 'love', but she definitely falls in love with you after a couple of fights alongside you. She tries to impress you by bringing you pretty rocks and trying to make you food... which is actually kind of like poison...

Aki- Is a little wary of you. It's not because he doesn't like you; he's just very skeptical because no one can be this perfect. Aki tries his absolute hardest not to fall in love with you... but eventually he gives in. You've given him a reason to keep going- a hope of a better world with strong people like you. Aki loves that you are strong and able to protect him when needed, but he'll put you first in any scenario over himself

Makima- Power couple forever and always. She heavily respects you and asks for your input on things like Division 4 or what to do with certain devils. Makima tends to be protective over you and your abilities just like she is with Denji; she knows you can handle yourself in any situation that is thrown at you but she doesn't want you to be captured and used. Often gives you kisses on your muscles because she likes them a lot

Kishibe- Has a huge crush on you but won't let you in for some time. Of course he'll be his usual flirty self still, but he'll never go past the occasional comment about how beautiful you are. Kishibe is afraid of losing more people he loves; so when you finally break down his walls, he admits to you everything that he feels. His main concern with you is how you might attract attention- you are gorgeous and it doesn't help that you're strong as hell too. Just make sure to comfort him every once in awhile

Kobeni- Is very afraid of you at first because she thinks you're a devil. There's no way a human is that strong- right? Her thoughts are running miles a minute when you're near her, so sometimes you just need to kiss her to snap her back to reality. Kobeni is blushy and slightly clammy when she's near you; she wants to impress you so much but she's so afraid of getting hurt! She'll hide behind you during fights and makes sure to warn you of anything around

Quanxi- You were probably introduced to her through her agency work, and she immediately knew she needed to have you. You're strong, independent, and gorgeous; what is there not to fall in love with? Once she gets the other girls approvals, she quickly sweeps you off your feet with incredible dates and shows of strength. Constant compliments from not only her, but her wives as well! They love you- all of you- even your little quirks and habits

Reze- Asks you out immediately after seeing you. She doesn't even know how strong you are at that point- she just knows that you're hot and wants to get to know you. Once she finds out that you're not only incredibly good looking, but you're also talented and strong? You've stolen her heart right from her chest. Showers you with love and kisses- added bonuses of free coffee. Reze wants to run away with you- somewhere no one will ever find either of you- but she knows that isn't possible. She just has to live with the time she has now and loves you every single second of it

[tojikai]

Ooh boy, where do I go with this?

*crack knuckles

*open word

Firstly,… KAI! IS THIS HOW EVERY CHAPTER GONNA END UNTIL THE FINAL ONE? I mean, of course, this will be how you end it. How else are you gonna get your reader looking forward to the next one? It works on me tbh, but still… I swear every cliffhanger in PM always makes me rip my hair offLMAOSADKASKDASDK

Why don’t we start from the top to the bottom?

But when her sweet breaths lull his tired form to sleep and all consciousness and control leave his body, he again hears your name in the sound of his own voice, unaware of how he's crushing another soul beside him.

I just… like… *insert that gif of a woman trying to hold on to her laughter

I’m sick in the head bc I giggled sm at this part. You thought, bitch, you thought! Like at least, Satoru emotionally cheated on Y/N in secret, but this man just straight up slept talk her name while sleeping next to you like that? The yearning is REAL. And like, the “side hoe” part is actually true at this point. What goes around comes around, am I right? :))

Was the man sleeping beside her simply dreaming of his past, or is this his subconscious speaking out his heart's untold and disregarded yet truest desires?

*remember the near end of this chapter

Yeahhhhhh…… about that…… LMAO

Going on with his day, Satoru remembered the events that happened after he got home from the hospital. He considers it one of the major challenges in their relationship, and he could still remember how his thoughts were all over the place at that time.

*fast forward

If he takes it, then it's over between the two of you. If he takes it, then he'll never get the chance to earn you back. If he takes it, then you'll forever be gone from his life.

He won't take the necklace, so he took your hand and pulled you to him, kissing your lips fervently and braving the slam of your fists against his body and chest, drowning you with the over.

He cradled your head as he kissed your cheek. "I'm ending things with Rie. I'm coming home to you, Y/N." flowing emotions that you bring out of him.

“One of the major challenges in their relationship” Yeah, that and the day you broke up with Rie LMAO. Like he thought there would be more if their relationship lasted that long, but like, the moment he realized that he’s going to lose Y/N for real, all these relationship things with Rie went out of the fucking window. He just jumped back right in Y/N without a second thought. No hesitation whatsoever.

All I could do was shake my head at this. This shit feels like it’s mirrored chapter 1. He didn’t think twice about leaving Y/N and now Rie is on the receiving end. THIS ASSHOLE DOESN’T CHANGE AT ALL. HE NEEDS THAT CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT JUICE ASAP IF GOJO AND Y/N DO GET BACK TOGETHER. No one wants this manchild. He changes his mind faster than he changes his clothes.

Also, this chapter is probably the first in PM that makes me want to read it over and over again. Because it’s where Satoru finally makes up his damn mind about what he truly feels. It gives me so much peace. Like, you get it, Satoru… you get it… And since you understand now, will you fuck off for real? (we know he won’t) LASLDKASDKAAS;LDAS IM STILL SO MAD AT HIM OKAY?

She started out sobbing before it gradually increased to full-on wailing and crying.

"Why are you crying?" He asked, keeping eye contact, but his stare was glazed as he placed a hand on her waist.

"Satoru, I'm sorry." His disinterest didn't go unnoticed by Rie as she tried to catch his vacant stare.

Oh man, oh man, oh man! Anon strikes again!! Satoru just didn’t care or was afraid of Rie’s tears. AT ALL. You thought he would care more, like how he impulsively lashed out at Y/N at the party, but the indifference is kinda real here. He just didn’t bother hiding it anymore.

"The girl's really nice, Ma'am. I think her name's Y/N."

Satoru really believed that it was all slowly, steadily getting better. He thought that he was finally learning to completely detach himself from all the happenings surrounding you and him, just like how you must be doing every passing day too. But it was proven wrong when he found his heart punching against his chest, beseeching to be set free with just a couple of words. He really thought he was over it all, that he was keeping his promise to never see you anymore.

He really thought that he was over you.

I love how you gave Satoru a moment of false peace and allowed him to be lost in his dream world just to hit it again with the truck of reality. It’s so cruel yet so delicious. I imagine this moment as everything went slow-motion in Satoru’s POV when he heard her name and then *ting* a moment of realization. A realization that no matter how hard he tries to distract or lie to himself that everything will be fine, it’s really not, not until he acknowledges his true desire or that shit will eat him up for the rest of his life. LOVE IT.

He didn't think that his best friend would really go for you after only a few months of your break up with him. He shouldn't be the one to talk, but he felt betrayed.

This makes me want to use him as a sandbag and start going to town on him. The medicine sure is bitter now, huh, Hoejo?

"It's none of your fucking business-" Satoru could tell that Suguru's clenched fist was about to rise, ready to shake him out of his mind, but he saw you rushing beside him, hugging his arm before he could even prepare for the punch.

Okay, the Suguru and Satoru brawl almost happened here. It wasn’t a lie when I said I want to see them dug it out lol, but I like the way things turned out to be bc there’s no way Y/N or Rie would let it happen in their presence. Those boys can only do that in private tbh.

"Suguru, it's not worth the trouble." You shook your head to Suguru before looking back at Satoru with nothing but indifference in your eyes.

You weren't crying this time, but your hand was obviously trembling.

There was an anxious yet determined look in your eyes, and Suguru could tell that you were really trying your best and braving your way through this.

And so many more moments after this…..

IM SO PROUD OF Y/N IN THIS CHAPTER (of course that doesn’t mean it’s the same with a certain action of her). She does have the strength and the calmness to face Satoru. Yes, the wound is still fresh, but she’s trying. She’s trying so hard. AND I LOVE TO SEE IT. I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS THE ENTIRE GODDAMN TIME. I also love how it doesn’t matter if the people she cares about hurt or love her, she doesn’t make a decision concerning them out of spite but genuinely takes their feelings into consideration. Like with the way she understands why Satoru would feel betrayed and emphasizes how it will affect his friendship with Suguru overall more than their relationship. Her love for others always feels so pure to me, whether it’s platonic or romantic.

She had Satoru wrapped around her pretty, dainty fingers with just one kiss. Yet you couldn't even make him stay with your five years of devotion.

Kai, this part almost killed me dead and made me wail like a bitch. Stupid Satoru. Why are you like this? Why??? *beat him with a stick like a piñata

Even if she wasn't pleased about how Satoru had been acting, she couldn't help but think that maybe this could be the closure that the two of you need. Maybe this talk can finally set the two of you free. Perhaps this little event is the key to the peaceful, normal, and stable relationship that he wants with Satoru.

Or the thing that breaks it. Yikes. Girl, did you forget the way your man act just by listening to his ex’s name and how he stormed to his best friend’s house? And OMG, when Y/n suggested that she and Satoru talk at her place, is it also mirrored to that night Satoru brought Rie home? WHAT IN THE PARALLEL???ADSKDLAKDALDALKDAS Except unlike that time, instead of a make-out session, he FUCKED Y/N in their old place. I know I should feel bad and I am, of course, disapproved of both Satoru’s and Y/N’s actions, but the irony in this makes me cackling like crazy. Serve you right, bitch!

And once again, there’s also a parallel with the way both Y/N and Rie react to Satoru after his respective cheating. Rie felt bad for being the catalyst of their breakup, but she accepted Satoru’s advances anyway while Y/N does everything she can to block him out of her life and just move on.

"Call me if something happens," Suguru whispered down to you, kissing your forehead before letting you go.

At this point, Sugu x Y/N or not, I just adore the way he treats Y/N. It’s no doubt filled with love and actual care yet it’s still so respectful. The casual affection, the way they’re so considerate to each other’s feelings makes my heart melts. He’s a whole king I swear. I don’t think this ship is sunk yet, but I don’t mind if they stay friends. Y/N deserves to have someone like him in her life.

He wished this would be over soon so that you could finally be free from them all.

Unfortunately, God (Kai) doesn’t want the angst to stop just yet lol. I’m so sorry baby Suguru, but keep praying and maybe your wish will come true. (1/3)

i actually feel like the cliffhangers are aggravating some readers now 😭 im really sorry but dw these cliffhangers have a following event to them, i promise LMAO

the first point from the story, gosh. i would literally bawl my eyes out if my partner calls out their ex's name in sleep 😭 like that hurts a lot. definitely yearning for the ex :')) and yeah, something really changed after that party. probably bc he finally saw yn break down and he realized that he's truly weak for her but just wouldn't admit it. the slow-motion moment when he heard yn's name definitely happened. man was blind for a couple of minutes as he ran to his car 😭 he was beyond surprised when he heard it. AND the piñata beating is sending me LMAOO 💀 im glad that you caught on to the parallels tho 👀i wanted to make it happen in the car as well but that would be too obvious so i said, lets just go inside the flat😂

AND OHMYGOD that suguru x yn interaction before she left is just 😩💕I HAD TO TAKE A PAUSE FROM WRITING and i read it over and over again as i imagined it LMAO he's so sweet~ but that was like a moment before disaster LMAO

@my-arietta it's this one 😭IM SORRY i got multiple windows open LMAO

[elysianslove]

Hello! I know this may not be your thing but I decided to give it a shot, if not no biggy!

I was wondering if you would be interested in writing Gojo and/or Sakuna with an asexual lover? (One that doesnt feel sexual attraction but doesnt mind kissing and cuddling etc and loves physical affection but nothing beyond that?) And like, how a relationship with that kind of person would come to be?

Because Sakuna and Gojo both give off *he totally fucks* vibes.

So how they ended up with an asexual lover would be interesting, maybe the MC rejects their advances because fear of being hated for being Ase? Because they know that the other person definitely fucks.

How would their relationship work? How would the guy react/comfort the MC.

(Maybe it ends with a epilogue with no sex(as in penetration and blowjobs to be exact but mc later in a relationship would be willing to do things like handjobs and other hands on/Using toys to pleasure their partner because they cant in that way) but lots of passionate makeout sessions/kissing/sucking and worshiping the mc's body? Especially the collar bone)

If you arent into it that's cool! I totally get it!

This is pretty self indulgent after all ahahaha it's hard being an asexual in fandoms lmao.

hi my love!! okay to start off, i’m really honored you sent in this request to me. idk just the fact that you’re trusting me with it is really sweet hehe. i’m fairly knowledgable about sexuality but i don’t like to write about things i’m not 100% sure about because i don’t wanna risk doing anything wrong or accidentally offending you! but!! thank you for going into detail with the request, and i hope this is what you were looking for, and that i didn’t do any mistakes <3

i wrote headcanons so i can go into detail and write for both!! 

some nsfw under the cut, my loves! <3

ryomen sukuna 

i’d say, to begin with, it would take a small while for sukuna to even be accepting of his own feelings towards you. nothing having to do with your sexuality, just you in general, specifically that you’re human and so different from him. i don’t think sex ever crosses his mind, at least at the start, because he’s too busy being really angry over the way he can’t seem to control his reactions to every little thing you do. so he himself won’t actively work at starting a relationship with you.

but he will realize, over time, that you’re not doing anything either, even though he’s been noticing that you’re not pushing him or his advances away. like any act of protectiveness that involves him physically touching you intimately, you don’t reject, and you’re always ready to retort at any quip he had. he could tell that these feelings he had for you were mutual, he was just so confused as to why you weren’t doing anything about it.

sukuna’s a thousand year old cursed spirit. he does not know shit about sexuality. i think the way he’d look at it is fuck who you want and fuck who you like. i feel like nicki minaj’s said that before, has she? he doesn’t like thinking too much about it, you know? 

his confession would probably be a kiss because words? he doesn’t know them. when he feels you return the kiss he’s, deep down, elated, really, and this is simply because of his naturally sexual personality, he starts hinting at more, until you stop him. he’s really confused because you just kissed him back? you’ve been kissing him for so long why do you want to stop now? he can see the fear steadily growing in your eyes and he’s even more confused now he’s just. humans are so weird. 

when you cautiously tell him, “i don’t want to go further than this. is that okay?” you look like you’re waiting for the world to erupt in your face. he just frowns and shrugs like, “yeah but that’s not the point. do you not want me?” 

it takes about an hour and a half for sukuna to properly process what you’re saying. at first he’s so thrown off by it, not by you! he just can’t process the fact that someone doesn’t feel any sexual attraction towards someone or doesn’t crave sex at all. it’s not that he’s rude about it, it’s just a really foreign concept to him, you know? when you add that it’s just sex, and you’re okay with a lot of other things, the gears in his brain finally start working again and he just goes. 

*shrugs* ok. 

literally lmao. like i said earlier, sukuna doesn’t give a shit like whatever do what you want. 

because of the rush of emotions he’s feeling towards you, and the fact that this in itself, a relationship, and a relationship with a human too, he doesn’t really focus on the fact that he might want more from you. he’s easily satisfied with a lengthy make out session, and he admits it to you every time he sees you get a little anxious or unsure of yourself. 

however, his needs do grow with your relationship. it’s kind of clumsy, your transition into a proper long term relationship, especially with sukuna, but you two make it work. 

you agree to try different ways to pleasure him, even if he kinda rushes through them because he’s generally just excited to have your hands on him. at first he’s content with anything you’re offering, but it makes him feel kinda useless when you won’t let him touch you and you have to remind him that your needs are different than his and that you’re sated differently.

i see sukuna as a curious and experimental guy, so he would definitely let you use toys on him. nothing too extreme, because he still needs that sense of control, but you do use some toys like a fleshlight or a vibrator to rile him up. he likes using your hand too, because it’s always so soft against him and it feels a hundred times better than any toy. he learns not to overstep any boundaries though, and not to do anything that might make you uncomfortable even if it takes him a little longer. like i said, the whole idea is just different to him, so it takes him a while to understand, and he’s still learning as he goes!

he loves your make out sessions, especially after you establish your boundaries and your limits and what you’re willing to do for him. he absolutely adores leaving your skin a sky of blue, pink and purple it sends chills down his spine marking you like that. he’s always touching you all over, and just loves to grab and knead at your skin. 

in the proper long term, he doesn’t mind it at all tbh. the two of you develop a system, and he’s okay with it. the same way you would never cross his boundaries and force him to do anything he doesn’t want, he’d do for you too! it really never truly mattered, and it truly never will.

gojō satoru

different from sukuna, i think gojō would definitely be knowledgable about things like this. idk he just seems like the kind of guy that’s innately so aware of everything around him, and can read people exceptionally well.

he probably picked up on the fact that you weren’t comfortable with sex, or just didn’t experince sexual attraction, on his own, but never really brought it up because it was never his place. but the same way he picks up on that, he picks up on your obvious crush on him. he pays both details no specific attention until he starts to realize his own feelings for you, and begins on his subtle advances.

he tried to make his advances as sfw as possible, you know? just in case his suspicions were confirmed to be true. he was just extra flirty, sometimes touchy but never in an inappropriate way. very subtilely like always having your shoulders or knees touching or dusting of your jacket or feeding you a piece of his food. cute little things like that.

he gets super worried when he notices you start to distance yourself from him, because he can’t imagine what he might’ve did to push you away. he overthinks a little, worried that he overstepped his boundaries or made you uncomfortable in any way, but he isn’t afraid to approach you about it, to make sure he doesn’t repeat his mistakes, especially with someone like you, who he’s slowly growing more and more infatuated by. 

when you admit to him you’re asexual, he realizes he was right, but then he’s like, “and? did i do something?” and now it’s your turn to be confused because here you were worried about rejection but here he was worried about you? 

this specific incident is what makes you let loose and finally just freely admit your feelings for him. he’s ecstatic about it, seriously! all that’s on his mind is that he gets to go on a date with someone he really likes. sex is the last thing on his mind, and yeah, you’ll eventually have to talk about it, but not for now. it’s for later, when things get a little more serious. 

they do get serious, to both your delights, but the dreaded moment is approaching you. gojō definitely sits you down and says, “we’re only having this talk so i know never to do anything outside of your limits. everything about this relationship is 50/50, and i want to know ways to make you feel good, too.” 

please sir your hand in marriage.

i definitely believe gojō’s a kinky guy, and is more than willing to try out literally any sex toy you pull at him. genuinely, he’ll try anything you wanna try. if you ever offer a handjob, he’ll ask a million times over if you’re sure. usually, he likes to just do it himself, but have you there next to him. he won’t touch you, but your hands will be in his hair, and you’ll be kissing his neck, or just murmuring how much you love him in his ear, just spurring him on. he knows the last thing on your mind is anything sexual, but there’s just something about being under your watchful, almost bored gaze as he fucks himself.

anyways before i get too into it lmfao, he loves kissing you. loves loves loves it. not even full blown make out sessions, just gentle, serene kissing. he can kiss you for hours. 

he is also incredible at body worship and praise. paints your pretty collarbone pink and purple, whispers about how you’re perfect for him, describes all your features to you like poetry. he’s an incredible lover, really. nothing can make him fall out of love with you, absolutely nothing. 

[gojoscloset]

Stand Still.

Geto Suguru x F!Reader Angst!

Synopsis: Geto allows his insecurities to take over his mind resulting in him hurting your feelings when you show a little too much interest in Gojo.

Please read the notes at the bottom uwu ❣️

Warnings: ANGST! Swearing???? DIDNT PROOF READ LOL

PT. 2

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You stood in the living room you shared with your boyfriend, the usual loving and welcoming atmosphere was no longer there. The reds and oranges you felt when you spent time with him was now replaced with emotions that felt like muggy shades of blues and grays. *

Everything felt like it was slowed down, like you had just witnessed everything in slow motion.

You looked into Geto’s eyes filled to the brim with bewilderment. Chest heaving as the remainder of adrenaline rushed through him. You couldn’t tear your gaze away from him, You've never seen him this worked up. You have never seen him this...mean.

Every last word he spat out was Accusatory. Harsh. Unfiltered. All the words came from a place of insecurity, an insecurity even he didn’t know he had.

It took you a minute to process everything that was said, well rather spat, to you. It was like your mind couldn’t fathom the fact that your sweet boyfriend stood before you in the aftermath of an emotional bomb he just dropped.

You knew this would happen at some point. You knew that relationships came with obstacles that you would have to face together. You knew that, but you were so hopeful that you would be able to talk things through like adults.

You two were always so adamant about communicating, and speaking up when something is bothering you, promising each other to put pride to the side and speak up and compromise on whatever the issue may be.

All it takes is one to fuck it up.

You finally processed what he said to you, the weight of his words crushed you into a million pieces. The heat reached your face and the stinging in your eyes was what made you finally look away.

You plopped down on the couch giving yourself a moment before you looked back up at him.

“I...” You approached with caution as you spoke, afraid he would cut you off as he has been since the argument started. Spewing Words as sharp as a knife not allowing you to get a word in edgewise and raising his voice over your calm one in order to try to get his point across, and oh did he get it across.

“You……..it’s…….Uh….” You lifted a finger up. Silently asking Geto to give you a moment to gather your words. Quickly you looked away ,your tears beginning to flow, not seeming to stop anytime soon. But still, you couldn’t talk, the lump in your throat stopping you, words only coming out in hiccups.

You cursed yourself for not being able to hold them in long enough to explain how you felt about the situation. About his accusations. Cursed yourself for not being able to speak freely, or be upset without looking like a crybaby.

Getos anger diminished the instant he saw the tears roll down your face. His knitted brows relaxed and his eyes softened at the sight of you, shaking as you tried to speak your mind. Unaware of the weight his words had.

He has seen you worked up and upset like this countless times, but never because of him. To say the guilt hit differently was an understatement.

You took a deep and shaky breath and held it for a few seconds. You were quite surprised at the fact that Geto didn’t move or say anything to interrupt you the entire time.

How long have you two been here?

“I tried so hard to avoid this, Suguru..... I looked past my insecurities….pushed the doubts to the side and all of that so you could receive my love without obstacles….without me projecting my fears onto you and the relationship.” You somehow managed to speak shakily of course, voice cracking almost the entire time.

He internally cringed at the formality, the lack of pet names made his heart wrench in pain, reminding him how bad he really messed up.

“And to know that you feel this way about me...and to know that my efforts are evidently not reciprocated...hurts like a mother fucker..”

You covered your mouth, eyes on the wall beside you, still unable to look at him.

“But honestly Geto… what hurts the most is that I already know you could do better…” you rolled your eyes upwards, dropping more tears and shook your head, your own insecurities laying themselves out on the table.

Geto’s eyes widened then immediately his expression turned to a pained one, remembering the words he spat in the heat of the moment. **

‘If I would’ve known that you would turn into Satoru’s little cheerleader, ready to kiss his ass whenever he came around, then I wouldn’t have asked you to be my girlfriend!! I could’ve and should’ve done wayyy better I swear!’

For someone who was talking so much shit five minutes ago, he found himself at a loss for words.

There was a lump in his throat , and when did his mouth turn dry?

Was it when he recalled the things he said after that? Mentions of how many opportunities he had in the duration of your relationship in order to hit you where it hurt most?

Or was it when he mentioned that ‘Gojo wouldn’t date you anyway’ in attempts to mask the underlying jealousy he had at the very thought of you falling for the man who could quite literally do anything.

Who could have everything.

Who had the world crafted specifically for him.

“and I always wondered…” he snapped out of his thoughts and his brows furrowed once again, creating a displeased look. He was disgusted with himself, disgusted that he selfishly ran his mouth without considering your feelings.

“Like….what I could have possibly done to have been chosen by you? Geto Suguru….chose me? Of all people.” You wiped tears away from your face, you looked so small doing so, Geto wished he was the one wiping those tears, but he couldn’t move. His feet betraying his commands. Knees weak knowing he did this to you.

“And for you to even think that I would betray you and break your trust.” It was your turn to speak now, holding in so much up until this point, however you did not raise your voice, nor did you cause a scene. You loved him way too much for that.

“Geto Suguru, a man the gods have blessed not just with looks but with a heart of gold..dating me? And you think I would throw all of that away to be with your best friend?” You choked on a couple of sobs, continuously wiping your tears away, seriously wondering if you have ever cried this hard in your life.

The fact that you still somehow managed to praise him while scolding him made his blood run cold. Guilt through the roof, enough to make his fingers cold and shake slightly by his sides. A stark contrast compared to his words.

‘What have I done?’

It was no surprise to him that you were still somehow being kind despite your anger. You were kind, not nice. ***

The love was there and he knew it, he felt it. Because if it were anybody else the results would’ve been different.

“I’m...sorry if I make you feel that way...but please know it was not in my intentions to hurt you ..” You finally looked at him while apologizing, you made sure he knew you were being as genuine as possible.

You pushed yourself up from the couch and made your way to the bedroom. Geto’s eyes followed you, but still he couldn’t not move.

‘Move you fucking idiot!’

A Switch in his brain went off as soon as you were out of his sight. He sped walked in your direction, but he was a little too late. You locked the door behind you just before he was able to put himself in between the door.

“Y/n! Please let me in! I’m sorry!” The knob shook as he tried the door. He knew it would be locked but he’d be damned to let you go through this alone. He already did enough damage, he was determined to at least try and fix this.

The knob shook harder and soon the whole door shook. He slammed his hands against the wood and called out your name desperately begging you to let him in.

You ignored the cries to the best of your abilities, stepping away from the door. The sounds of his voice begging for you made you want to throw up, it hurt so much.

“Y/n please...I just want to talk..” his voice cracked and you began to sob quietly just at the mere sound. You wanted to open the door, you really really did, but at the same time you didn’t want to see him.

He was adamant though. He could hear you try to muffle the sobs on the other side and that’s what put him into overdrive.

“Move away from the door!” He commanded, kicking it down easily, startling you in the process. Thankfully he gave you time to step away before doing so, and his heart broke again at the sight of you.

Your eyes were dull but still streaming tears, but the duffle bag slung over your shoulder full of your items made him feel so powerless.

“Hey hey hey……what are you doing..” his eyes desperately scanned your figure, moving from the bag to your eyes then to the room, noticing drawers were left open and things tossed around the bed.

“...W-Where are you going…?” His voice was small but he stood his ground in the doorway, blocking the exit unintentionally but intentionally.

You didn’t look at him, but more so past him. Your eyes were on him but they weren’t on him.

“I’m going home for a little bit, until I’m-“

“What do you mean? Home..is here..”he cut you off. Again his voice was small, not matching with his towering form that slowly began to deflate when he noticed how the love in your eyes was nowhere to be found.

You sighed and placed a hand on your temple. He cut you off again, and you didn’t want to do this anymore. You didn’t want to fight him anymore.

“Suguru. You know what I mean. I’m going to my paren-“

“No!” He yelled, causing you to flinch. “You’re not leaving me!” Geto snatched the bag from your grasp and unzipped the bag, he made his way into the room and dumped the contents into an already opened drawer, a majority of the clothes and items dropping to the floor but he didn’t care. He wasn’t going to lose you.

His breathing was heavy again, and tears threatened to drop. Oh how you wished you hadn’t seen the way his eyes looked at you.

“Suguru...please…” you cautiously approached the bag he flung on the bed, and repacked the bag slowly, afraid of him snapping again.

“Can we Please just talk about this?” He forcefully grabbed you by the forearms, pulling you away from the duffle bag and pushed you up against a wall, not in a harsh way, but in a way that felt desperate.

“Please let me explain myself, I didn’t mean anything I said I-“ he tried spilling out what he had to say before you tried pushing him away, but now it was his turn to be interrupted.

“I know, Suguru…I know..but before we talk about this...I really need to clear my head..Otherwise I won’t be able to do things in a rational way...and you know I can’t do that if I have you around to influence my thoughts.”

Your eyes searched for his and you regretted it, you were feeling so many things but your eyes held no emotion. However, seeing the way he looked down at you, hair messy and in his face from going awol earlier, his face flushed from the raw display of emotion brought life back into your eyes.

Tears dropped on your cheeks when you looked up at him. That was enough to get the waterworks going again.

He never realized how afraid he was of losing you until now. It never occurred to him that this would even be something to happen in your relationship until this very moment.

He realized how much he fucked up, allowing his emotions to have snowballed into this big ass mess. You were always so open to talk about things, but he never took the opportunity because of his pride, and now the consequences of his actions are coming to bite him in the ass.

“I gotta go..” you whispered and easily got out of his grasp, he didn’t fight back, he knew he couldn’t change your mind once you had your mind set on doing something. Another reason he fell in love with you , another wave of regret.

He watched your form as you left, eyes never leaving your body.

You didn't look back and that was a sight that would haunt him in his dreams forever.

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**** notes:

* - in the paragraph where it talks about feeling colors

When I think of memories and how I felt, I associate them with colors, reds oranges, pinks, yellows green = warm/ happier memories

Shades of blue = cold, more depressive moments

So when it talks about y/n feeling the blue, gray atmosphere, it’s because the tension was so thick, the usual ‘red’ atmosphere was now ‘blue’ at the flip of a switch.

Lol super self indulgent

**- this fic is so self indulgent, I do this. Well used to, but when I used to get mad and things would get heated I won’t remember what I said or what I did because I was so upset.

***- to me, Being nice is superficial and being Kind comes from within.

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Hello! Welcome to my new blog!

I was GOJOSGLASSES

But something happened to my account and I think I’m being shadowed and I’m sooo sad cause I had a whole theme and master list (a short one but still) now I have to start over )^:

Anywho! Welcome! Requests are open and hopefully I’ll get around to moving the fics here or maybe just linking old ones but I think I may transfer them over here )^: big sad!

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Hello babies! Thank you for taking the time to read this!

This fic is super super self indulgent

I love Angst so much. I don’t know why LOL

Of course this is an Angst to fluff type stuff and I’ll get to part 2. When I feel like it

(Or if it’s highly requested) but I just felt like being extra dramatic.

Also LOLOLOL I love angst but please don’t leave your partner in the dark like this, communicate please. I’m just being extra dramatic because I love hurting myself with fics.

BAHAHA Also this Drabble thing was inspired by the song:

Stand Still - Sabrina Claudio

Very angsty and I feel like I’ll make more drabbles and stuff based off this song because I love love love it so much omg very sensual very sexy!

Thanks for reading!

[darkdevasofdestruction]

The guys from Death Mark reacting to their SO getting cursed (make it as angsty as you want have fun)

Ahh, let’s see, let’s see...I will have Yashiki, Mashita, Daimon and Shou, I guess x

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Yashiki Kazuo

Oh, no no no, not again! Not you, out of all people, not YOU!

Yashiki has terrible PTSD from all the ghosts he encountered, all the anxiety and adrenaline he had surging through his veins, and all the terribly heart-breaking stories that he had the misfortune to find out, so you randomly getting the Mark will affect him the most.

He will be absolutely heart broken seeing the mark on your body, and the desperate fright pooling in your eyes, he would have done anything to swap places and have that mark on himself, and you to be safe and sound.

Yashiki would be a chaotic mess and would call all of the people he helped, to help him back, so you would definitely live, without any ounce of doubt.

He knew very well the hopelessness of accidentally destroying a ghost, instead of purifying it, and thus, having someone die before his very eyes, but you will be the exception.

No matter what, he will NOT let you die.

He will go to the ends of the world, getting himself in life-threatening danger, against both real people, and the supernatural, just to ensure your safety above all else.

He won’t rest even for a second until the ghost is done for, and when it disappears, he will run to you, rapidly taking away the piece of clothing covering your Death Mark, only to pull you into a crushing hug and will start sobbing, finally relieved that you are okay.

After this whole ordeal is all over, he will get overprotective over you and will, subtly or not, check out every inch of your skin to make sure you don’t get the Mark again, and he isn’t there to save you.

Not to mention, he will have nightmares again, and will wake up in a cold sweat because of it, and the only thing that would sooth him would be hugging you, and having the lights on.

Mashita Satoru

You are kidding, right?

You must be kidding.

There’s no way in hell you’d have the Death Mark, that shit is long gone, and there’s no way you would have it too.

But...The way you drew the design on your skin...So perfectly...And it wouldn’t come out...

What kind of stupid sorcery is this?!

He will be in a bit of a denial at first, only to get violent and punch a hole into a wall ( if it’s a false wall, obviously ) , then will go out on the balcony and smoke a whole pack of cigarettes in one go to get himself in check, before going back to you and pulling you into a tight hug, one hand on the back of your head, the other on your back, and telling you that everything will be okay.

He already went again so many ghosts, what’s one more? And with the help of Yashiki, he’s unstoppable.

He couldn’t protect his mentor from being killed by the Cult, but he won’t make the same mistake again - He will protect you, even if it costs him his life.

Mashita knows he’s absolute shit at expressing himself and his feelings verbally, but at least through actions, he will make sure you know damn well he loves you to the moon and back, and nothing can stay between you and him.

He won’t even remember that he’s afraid of ghosts a little bit, or that could easily kill him any time - He’s just focused on saving you.

But gosh, he’d be a nightmare, especially with Yashiki - He’ll order him around, be more verbally aggressive, and will find any way to vent out his anger and frustrations if even the tiniest thing doesn’t go according to his plan.

By the end of it all, he will almost suggest the two of you get Yashiki to move in so he will make sure at least one person is there with you at all times...But he quickly dismisses that thought anyway, and will want to be the only knight in white-...Well, maybe more like a non-conventional Sherlock Holmes surrounded in an aura of cigarette smoke, but he will still protect you just as well, nonetheless.

“The thing you do with your own hands are the ones best done” is his motto.

For the first time since you’ve known him, he will decide to confess everything that’s happened in his life, and why he’s always so bitter towards the world, and how you are the only light in his life and would rather off himself than knowing you fell prey to those stupid ghosts.

You almost thought you dreamt it, but better remember what you witnessed that night, it will be the only night of vulnerability you will see from him.

Daimon Shuuji

Internally panics so hard that you thought his brain had a short circuit...Or he died on his feet.

His eyes look dead, straight into your eyes, but he doesn’t sketch any emotions...Nor does he move a muscle...Not even a single twitch.

You’d wave your hand in front of his face trying to catch any ocular movement, and even got the flashlight, and nothing.

Is he really not dead, though?

You started gradually worrying more and more, until you hear a faint, but really pained, “Fuck”, which shocked you beyond belief, since Daimon NEVER cursed around you.

He won’t even realise he said that, and would grab you and would start staring at your mark with a frown, having flashbacks of what happened when it happened to him.

Terrible time, would not recommend, 0/10 review.

Sighing, he took out his phone and contacted the Masquerade Squad, Yashiki, Mashita and Hiroo to help him out with this mess, since he knows very well he can’t do it all alone, but at least he’s thankful he can help sooth your worries and make sure you’re alright until they properly solve the ghostly mystery.

You know very well that his sickly predisposition usually makes him lethargic and cranky, enough to get a terrible reputation for the way he delivers news to his patients, but now, it’s like he’s a completely different person - So tender and gentle, only words of comfort and reassurance.

Daimon would cling on you like a baby sloth to his mother, as a way to keep you around him and make sure you don’t somehow disappear from him, just like how Hiroo got possessed while being alone, back at the Love Hotel, and then was set into a coma until those two purified the ghost.

After you’re all set and done, he will call his hospital and tell them that he needs a 1 month vacation, then talk to your employer for the same thing, and will get you to some nice resort, to relax and forget that such a horrific event ever happened in your life.

He will have a period of time during the beginning of your holiday when he’ll outright deny the existence of your Mark and that you virtually almost died, but then he saw that it was affecting you negatively, and decided to open up his heart and have a proper talk to you and explain everything that happened, why it happened, how he met everyone, his ghostly encounters.

He will admit to being scared out of his wits’ end and the fear of losing you kinda messed him up a bit.

Daimon knows very well that his health is failing, and if you were to die before him, it would crush him without fail, and there would be no remedy to mend his broken heart.

Nagashima Shou

Outright panic mode intensified by 100.

Would shriek and fall on the ground seeing the Mark on your skin.

What did you do? Where did you go? How did it happen? Do you still have all your memories intact? Do you remember who he is? Do you remember who you are?

Will pace in a circle around you, pulling at his hair and cursing constantly, forgetting that you are there for a second, before taking you by the shoulders and shaking you, his eyes glistering with tears as he desperately says that he won’t let you die, and will make sure the best ghost hunters will solve this issue, and -

- And will completely neglect to explain to you what the hell is going on, and really, you’re just super confused at everything going on and don’t understand the gravity of the situation, but will let him do as he pleases, even letting him take you with him on his motorbike to this big and ominous Mansion where a bunch of people were ready to help with this issue, but they all failed to explain what is going on.

In the end, you just kept treating it like some silly game, despite seeing the fright emanating from Shou, so you’d hold his hand and reassure him that everything will go fine.

You never believed in ghost, but shit, when you saw the monstruosity in front of you, all you could do was stare at it with your jaw dropped to the floor, shock and horror overwhelming the previous confusion, as you clinged on his jacket and tried to keep your composure.

When one of the detectives yelled at you to run away, he picked you up and breezed out of the haunted place, far away, until he got to the car, which is when he started panting and hugging you tightly, muttering “You will be alright” over and over again, almost as if to convince himself that.

All the time until Yashiki and Mashita came out of the haunted house, Shou held you tightly, almost to the point of depriving you of the much needed oxygen your lungs needed, and as soon as he spots them, he takes a look at your Mark, only to see it gone, then he clashes his lips on yours, so relieved that you were finally okay and all the drama was over for good.

When you return home, you make him a cup of hot chocolate and sit him down so he would finally explain to you properly - What the hell just happened - And it was only then that he realised he never told you about his own adventure with the Death Mark, nor did he explain that you were on the verge of death just now, so he feels really stupid, but laughs it off and says he was just too worried.

Shou will become just a bit more grateful to have you in his life, realising how short life can be, and how things work in weird ways, which will make him cherish and treasure you even more than he already did, if that’s even possible.

[r95irth]

It’s time for the...OC presentation time ! This week it’s Ume’s turn. If you want to know more about another character don’t hesitate to ask. If you don’t, then the next one will be a boy (probably Kyouji Kamino)

Now I present you Ume =)

Ume Sumamoto

Writer comment about his development : Ume had nothing except the image i had of her being thrown away by a robot during the exam, and her screaming ‘FUCK YOU” while she was thrown away. I just pictured her as the girl that looked so lovely and cute and fragile (and was) but had a wild/crude side that would surprise everyone. As i was drawing her i began to have a better picture of her in my mind and this oc presentation sealed the deal. Now i like her and i just want to write about her already xD

Her character in five words : hypocrite, hold grudge, caring, patient, stylish.

Her quirk : Flower touch, her quirk, allows her to make a plants grow on whatever she touches, control this growth and even control a bit of the plant itself. She needs to know about the plants though, and eaten the seed of the plant within the last 24 hours (time of digestion). Despite her strange hair, eyes and eyes leashes, she is not a mutation type. Her hair are like petals and and she always has a scent of flower that is sometimes hard to handle for people around her, but beside that, it does nothing special.

Likes : Gardening is her favorite hobby, she just loves taking care of plants and helps them grow without her quirk. Watching her gardening is always a sight because she is super aware of her clothes and her appearance most of the time, but she doesn’t mind being covered in mud or insects when she take care of plants. Sometimes you can even hear her talk to plants like they are her babies.

She also like theater a bit, especially costumes. She would have liked to be an actress to wear magnificent costumes on scene. She can sew a bit, as she learned how to do it when she was little, enough her own clothes. As you can guess from that she loves fashion and makes a point to be always stylish when she goes out. Though she never wears anything that is not practical, even if it’s fashion.

But what she likes the most in the world is her “granny” ; a old lady that is her neighbor.

Dislikes : People who doesn’t care about their appearance. People that are too aggressive. People who abandons their family. Rejection.

Her family : Ume is an only child, and very lonely in many ways. Her parents loved each other but they hadn’t planned to have her so soon, so she kind of ruined their lifeplan. They never said it out loud, but a child is very sensible to these kind of things. She felt it anyways. She always felt that they took care of her because they had to, not because they wanted to. They had little to no time for their child, too busy trying to get back on track with their original plan.

Ume’s father is a mutation type, who gave his features to his daughter. His quirk is to change the scent of his flowerhead depending of his emotion. He studied economic, but when he had Ume he had to drop university to find works. He became a part-time seller and tried to get back to university part-time but...life never gave him enough time, so he just kept being a seller and climbed the hierarchy of his selling company.

Ume’s mother has a quirk very similar to her daughter, as she is able to make plants grow faster. She had planned to be a pharmacist, but again Ume happened. She got a temporary job in a florist-perfumer shop to have a regular salary, and never got the occasion to return to study.

They both made sure that their daughter was calm, quiet, and behaved well so they would never bother anyone. You know kid that threw tantrum at the mall? Ume tried once and got slapped so hard she never did it again. She learned to be the perfect daughter that every parents wish to have and kept all her emotions bottled inside.

One of the reason Ume like the dormitory so much is because she can be herself (hence moments she is very crude) and now her parents can finally be free of her, and do what they always complained to never be able to do : return to university. She is very determined to pay for their college fees once she becomes a hero, so she can’t afford to fail. (of course her parents are unaware that their daughter has such a silly idea stuck in her head). They also are not very enthusiastic about their daughter’s career choice, but don’t want to restrain her. So they just always bring back into the conversation how dangerous being a hero can be, how fragile she is, a how it would devast them if she were to be hurt and couldn’t she see that they were plenty of heroes already? The whole market was full, maybe you should change your mind and find a stable, safer job?

Ume is not what you call close to her parents for all those reasons above. She does love them, she supposes. At some point. But globally they have nothing in common and to talk about. She is way more close to the old woman who lived in the apartment next to their. The old lady was the one always babysitting Ume when her parents were working.

She is the one who introduced Ume to gardening, as they spent hours and hours trying to make something grow on the little balcony of the flat. Granny, as she started to call her, was an ex-farmer. When his husband died she had to sell off the farm -since she couldn’t manage it alone- and tried to get in the city to be closer to her children and grandchildren. She missed her farm everyday and gardening was a way for her to not let go of her lifestyle. Ume loves this granny so much, as a grandmother, and the granny uses to say that Ume is almost like a granddaughter to her. As Ume grew up, and Granny got older, their relationship evolved but never faltered.

It’s the old granny who convinced Ume that she could be a great hero and teached her that when you do goods you’re always rewarded. Granny helped Ume focusing on the fuzzy feeling you always got in your chest when you did something right, something truly good, rather than the one you helped. Because sometimes people doesn’t want to be helped, sometimes they doesn’t say thank you, she explained, but this feeling of rightfulness, of happiness as you see them get better ; that feeling would always be there. Ume would never forget this lesson, even if she has a lot of trouble following it.

Secret past : Ume has no sort of secret past. She wanted to be hero because she admired a lot of heroes when she was little (Kamui, the Genjutsu older sister…) but the real reason is that she just loves to help people. She was never bothered by waiting hours in the hospital for her granny, and help the old woman taking a shower. The gross side of things never erked her out if it was for helping people. Part of her is aware that it’s probably because she needs to feel needed.

Saddest memory and Happiest memory : Ume’s saddest memory is very related to one of her happiest one. When she was around 10 she finally managed to make a plant grow -without her quirk- all by herself. Proud of herself she tried to show off her work to her parents, but all they said was :  “That’s great sunshine, but we’re busy right now, we’ll talk about it later.” They didn’t even look at the plant. Brokenhearted she decided to go and cry in her granny’s arms but she found the old woman collapsed on the floor and unconscious. Scared, she ran away and warned her parents about it, who called an ambulance. And for once, they missed their job to go to the hospital with the granny and Ume. They didn’t leave the old woman bedside and stayed with their daughter until they was sure that everything would be okay (and that the granny would be back home in a few days). It was Ume’s first trip to the hospital (one of many, since granny’s health had never been great). It was also the only time her parents showed that their girl’s happiness counted for them. So she both hates and loves this memory.  

Best friends : Ume tends to pick broken friends, it’s unconscious, but she does. She always finds those who needs it and get to them, listen to them, care for them, until they finally ask for her to help. She would never dare to act before they ask though. And once she helped, they are officially her friends for life, as far as she concerned. That’s why her best friend are Sei Shikatsu, Kussan Musaware, and Takashi.

Get along well with : Yume, Reika Genjustsu, Kyouji Kamino and Yule Makeala are also very close to get the title of best friend, but he is way more close to Satoru’s gang than her.

Other than that Ume is close to almost every boy. She is the kind of girl that they want to protect, since she looks fragile and cute. She never was very liked by girls, usually. And at the beginning of the year it was hard (especially with Kahei) but it’s okay now, ever since the festival. When she started insulting a robot, girls started to see that she was human after all.

Doesn’t get along with : Hana was her best friend during middle school, but then the girl did something that Ume could not accept and forgive. Since then she is rather cold with Hana, she never outstandly shows her disapprovement.

Probably Satoru, when she learns that he is not even trying to connect with his biological family. 

Tsubaki makes is a weird occurence because she can feels that he needs help but he doesn’t ask and react badly when people get closes. So she is not sure how to behave in his presence. She tried little things, little attention to make him understand that she would be there if he needed, but so far nothing came up. So she is just unsure. 

Crush on : Kino. She fell in love the moment she saw his costume, and the more she learns about him the more she likes him. She admires the way he always try to do his best. She is not going to do the first step though, because she is too afraid of rejection ; she can see that he doesn’t like her very much. She is hoping to change his mind by becoming a great hero in front of his very eyes.

She had a crush on Takashi when she was young but swallowed it up because he was Hana’s brother and Hana was her best friend. You don’t fall in love with your best friend’s brother, that’s a rule. 

Conclusion about her relationship in class :

Ume is an hypocrite and manage to appear as a perfect girl, a social butterfly, when she is not. She is never going to make the first step in a relationship, she needs to feel needed. She would never dare get into other people’s life unless they ask for it. She is too afraid of rejection for that. But when they do, there is no limit to how much effort Ume is able to give to make the situation better.  You know the saying “Give a fish to a beggar he will eat one day, teach him how to fish and he will eat for the rest of his life?” Ume is the one who is willing to give hour of her time in order to teach a beggar how to fish. Once you deceive her though, or betray her trust you do not count anymore. She will smile at you, treat you politely, and if you need help she will help you (because that’s the right thing to do), but she doesn’t care about you anymore. If you betray her trust and die, she would not be saddened by your death, she will probably only be moved by it because other people -those she cares about- would be. Not because of you. And there is absolutely no way to redeem yourself from it.

-Evaluation of her teacher Aizawa-

Potential as a hero : She has a lot of potential, her quirk is strong and can be used on all type of situation, and she is able to fool everyone with her features. That will be useful when she will face media.

Weak points : Her physically training is lacking, if you want to be able to help people, you need to be be strong enough to support their weight. Beside if all you care about is saving people, you might end up being manipulated by villains very easily. And you must stop running toward danger to save people without alerting your comrades on the field, you put them in danger when you do. Just stop. 

Strong points : She is the kind of people that has very good intuition. She always manages to see who needs helps no matter how messy the battlefield get, and she is stubborn when it comes to protect people. If she used even half of the skill she used when she has to protect someone, she would be at the top of the class. Now it would be great if she dedicated as much determination to actually defeat villains. 

Commentary : Stop looking for other and starts looking for yourself or you will end up being the one in need of saving. We get it that you’re good at saving. I know you managed to pass UA exam because of your saving points, but UA’s motto is being “plus ultra” we have a duty to make you get out of your comfort zone and starts getting action points now.