#nightblogging rock analysis. again

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@gymleadercheren read my brain (again) so i have to post my essay draft

if a tumblr sexyman is a conventionally unattractive man whose perceived sexiness is abnormally high due to having a certain collection of Attractive Personality Traits, rock is literally the opposite. tumblr unsexyman (name subject to change)

rock is a conventionally attractive twink who nonetheless manages to not just undo every bit of god-given advantage he was given but actually pushes into the negatives through his incredibly odd and off-putting behavior and wack fashion sense. which is ironic since the reason he gives for these — in his own words— is “I wanna be the ideal man”

of course, this is based on HIS concept of the “ideal man”, an ideal which no one but him seems to share. in this same dialogue he acknowledges that “chasing trends” (like idk allowing marvelous to give him a makeover instead of insisting on what they very politely termed his “unique worldview and aesthetic sense”??) might get him actual dates but ultimately would rather just kinda hope that striving for his vision of the “ideal man” will land him some interest… but it does not. he dies utterly bitchless unless rescued from his Free Man To A Good Home cardboard box by the player.

rock is this strange paradox of being chronically unable to just be himself while refusing to be inauthentic in his made up persona. a paradox where both of the contradictory things he decides to do repel everyone who might otherwise be into him.