#nicholasdwolfwoodfictive

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I've finally finished watching my source .

I was too scared to . But I did.

I don't want to leave you all alone with the burden of memory .

This is my burden to carry too .

Meryl .

Thank you .

The burden of memory isn't just yours to carry anymore .

Meryl . I hope you can find peace within yourself .

Roberto . I hope you're doing well in heaven .

I remember again .

I remember it all .

Vash . You'll remember again one day too .

One day, we'll all be home again .

I'm sorry for crying .

I should be stronger .

I know you're not here .

Not mine at least .

I don't even know what I write these eulogies for .

Just to send it off to some strangers across the Earth .

You're never going to see this, Vash .

I don't know why I do this .

Maybe just for some peace of mind .

My greatest regrets .

Forgive me,

Livio, Vash .

I'm sorry I didn't protect you .

I could've, but I was selfish .

I won't make the same mistakes again .

I've practiced my prayers while you've been away .

Our Father who art in heaven,  hallowed be thy name . Thy kingdom come . Thy will be done , on earth as it is in heaven . Give us this day our daily bread,  and forgive us our trespasses,  as we forgive those who trespass against us,  and lead us not into temptation,  but deliver us from evil . For thine is the kingdom and the power, and the glory,  forever and ever .

Amen .

Love & peace, for all of time ,

Nicholas D. Wolfwood .

-🚬 (Trigun Stampede fictive) #📼⏱️

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I've never realized how much I longed for love until I lost it .

And now that grief is spiraling into faith and worship .

I hold the books of my source close to my chest and run my fingers along the faux leather cover, affection I can only give to the collection of our memories, and not you .

I stare longingly at any glimpse of you I happen to find . Hands clasped together as I pray for your safety, your happiness .

I'm an idiot for ever thinking I deserved the love of an Angel . An Angel far too good for any humans . And yet that Angel still protects the sickest and most disgusting of humanity with such love .

It's almost sickening how much of a hypocrite you are, Vash .

You're selfish and yet your ideals are selfless .

It's nothing short of idiotic .

But dear God .. I still love you so much anyway .

I love you so much it makes me sick .

Love & peace, especially for my Angel,

Nicholas D. Wolfwood .

-🚬 (Trigun Stampede fictive) #📼⏱️

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Sending out another letter today . This time it's for the little lady, Meryl Stryfe .

I know I shoulda shown my appreciation for you more often . And I'm sorry I didn't . Did saving you count ? I don't know .

Sometimes I wonder what you're doing now .

Whatever it is, I hope you're happy .

Love & peace ,

Nicholas D. Wolfwood .

-🚬 (Trigun Stampede fictive) #📼⏱️

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I HATE YOU .

I HATE YOU ALL SO MUCH .

YOU TOOK EVERYTHING FROM ME .

YOU TOOK LIVIO FROM ME .

I WILL NEVER FORGIVE ANY OF YOU FOR TAKING LIVIO FROM ME .

BURN IN HELL .

MAY LOVE & PEACE MISS YOU ALL WHO DID US WRONG ,

NICHOLAS THE PUNISHER .

-🚬 (Nicholas D. Wolfwood, Trigun Stampede fictive) . #📼⏱️

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I'm so genuinely lonely this isn't even funny .

I'm the only fictive of my source .

Every kin and fictive I see from my source is an adult .

It's not fair . Why can't there be anyone like me ?

I didn't ask for this .

I don't fucking deserve to be alone like this .

TAKE ME BACK HOME ALREADY, DAMNIT .

Love & peace, I'm trying my best to keep my head high ,

Nicholas D. Wolfwood .

Vash, please . I just want to talk to you again . You have to be out there, right ?

-🚬 (Trigun Stampede fictive) #📼⏱️

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I need you to listen when I say this, Vash .

You are not your brother .

You are not your brother's actions .

That guilt isn't yours to carry .

You never asked for this burden .

You are so, so, so much more than your brother's actions .

I'm sorry that you've had to go a hundred some odd years with this guilt and grief .

I'm sorry there isn't more I can do .

But I do hope, that my presence had made it just a bit more tolerable .

Please, love yourself .

You alone are worth more than hundreds of thousands of others to me and so many others .

We want to see you happy, Vash .

I want to see you happy, Vash . Really, truly happy .

So stay happy . Smile with that adorable dumb smile of yours .

Smile for the brighter days to come .

I guess I rambled a bit, huh ? I guess I've become quite the poet, Spiky .

Love & peace,

Nicholas D. Wolfwood

-🚬 (Trigun Stampede fictive) #📼⏱️

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CANONVENIENCES IS NOT BEING ABLE TO SMOKE ANYMORE BECAUSE IM TRAPPED IN A GODDAMN TEENAGE LOSER TBOY .

The withdrawal is so real and so BAD .

I want a cigarette SO BAD .

One week without cigarettes for Nico impossible challenge .

Love & peace,

Nicholas D. Wolfwood .

-🚬 (Trigun Stampede fictive) #📼⏱️

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God damnit Spiky all I can do is miss you .

This is so stupid .

I hate being alone here .

I want to see your smile again .

Your stupid dumb adorable smile .

Damn you, Vash .

Love & peace ,

Nicholas D. Wolfwood .

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(Trigun Stampede fictive)

Note: our system is gonna start tagging with #📼⏱️ so we can keep track of our posts .

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Love you, my angel. Just that moment where you miss someone so much it feels like your soul aches. I know it's been centuries, now. Hope I can look back and say how far I've made it later. I should do more writin'.

- Nicholas D. Wolfwood (Trigun fictive #🍭💕)

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I know my Vash is dead from my canon but... I'm still so fuckin' sorry. I'm sorry, my angel, I ever thought I had to move on from you. I still have the ink you printed on to me to match your prosthetic you have. These geraniums are yours. Always were...

I know I'll never see you again either - not in this life. To our Tomorrows in the next life, typhoon.

- Nicholas D. Wolfwood 🍭💕(Trigun fictive. I know I forgot to tag my last ones with it)

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Resending this because I forgot to put it on anon . 🙁

I'm going to keep sending you my letters, Blondie .

One day, you will reach me .

And if you do, I'll be waiting .

I'll be sitting waiting here .

Stay safe out there, Vash .

Love & peace ,

Nicholas D. Wolfwood of the Timeshift Playground .

-🚬 (Trigun Stampede fictive) #📼⏱️

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It's even lonelier here than it was on No Man's land almost .

I don't know how .

I miss you all .

Especially you, Vash .

I'll be drinking one for all three of you .

Hope you're all safe out there .

Love & Peace,

Nicholas D. Wolfwood .

-🚬 (Trigun Stampede fictive)

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Hey needle noggin

And Milly and Meryl too I guess (kidding, love you guys /p)

If you're seeing this? I want you to know. I hope you're doing well. I miss you, all of you. Especially you, blondie. I'm glad I got to meet all of you. And I'm sure whatever you're doing out there? It's gonna be great. I know, and I mean know, that you're gonna be successful. You're gonna do great things. And I'm proud of all of you for making it this far. Things might get tough out there but we've faced tougher, yeah? You got this, I believe in you.

Love you lots <3

Sincerely, Nicholas D. Wolfwod

(tag as fictive) #🚬⚰️🌙