#new person same old mistakes started playing while i was writing this. tame impala you watch out ./ last warning fr

[v4nnyzzz]

sometimes i get sad that people interact w others and draw others as replies in reblogs. always causes a flashback to the days when i would be desperate for friendship and for people to look my way.

but then i remember i really don't like socialising or forced interactions. and maybe im not really missing out on much, just by being in my own corner.

[letithappeneverafter]

F**K - He’s moved to LA.

At the beginning of this decade Tame Impala were a beardy psychedelic rock band operating out of Perth, Australia, one of the more isolated cities in the world. Cut to this month and Kevin Parker, the frontman who it turns out was writing and recording the songs by himself all along, is unpacking his bags in his new home in the Hollywood Hills. His recent writing credits include songs for Rihanna, Kanye West and Lady Gaga. How did that happen?

“It’s the last world I would have expected to end up in but I’ve become more comfortable with it,” says the 32-year-old of this newfound glamour. Lady Gaga was the first person he wrote lyrics with collaboratively, on her 2016 single Perfect Illusion — a decent start. Rihanna’s Same Ol’ Mistakes, from her Anti album of the same year, was a straight lift of the music from his Tame Impala song New Person, Same Old Mistakes, with her singing instead of him. This month he even prompted a few news stories when there was some confusion over whether or not he had contributed to Kanye West’s surprise new album Ye.

“That was an absolute saga. It was uncannily poor timing,” he tells me as he attempts to explain what happened. It seems he was in the middle of giving an interview while West was premiering Ye with a live stream, and a friend texted him to tell him his song was playing. So he told the journalist. Later it turned out that his contribution had been left out of the song he thought he was on, Ghost Town, but he was credited on a different one, Violent Crimes. He found out at the same time as everyone else.

If that was hard to follow, it just seems to be how it works in the orbit of the biggest stars, whose songwriter credits can sometimes run into double figures. Parker says he had met West in person “for a chat” but sent over his musical ideas from afar. He still hasn’t met Rihanna.

“That’s the thing about being a rogue contributor: you’re not in the driver’s seat, so you don’t really know how things are gonna pan out. From working on it, to it actually emerging into the world, there’s a lot in between,” he says.

He sounds positive when describing the process with what seems to me like a particularly bleak metaphor. “It’s definitely therapeutic to let go of control and just be someone hitting tennis balls off a cliff.”

With his own music, it’s nothing like that. He has been recording songs completely alone since he was 14. When it came time to search for a record deal, he lied and said that Tame Impala were a band. “I think I was just shy. I thought if people saw a bunch of guys with long hair in the picture they’d enjoy it more. I didn’t think I had anything to offer as a solo artist.”

Some of that shyness has carried forward, despite the A-listers he mixes with these days. He’s a guarded interviewee, giving nothing away about who he moved to LA to work with or the progress of new Tame Impala music. He doubles back and corrects sentences as he talks, changing one word for a better one, which can make him hard to follow. And he requests that we speak using Skype, which is usually a reasonable way to make a visual connection with somebody when you’re in a different country, but he leaves his webcam switched off, so he can see me but I can’t see him.

In concert, however, where Tame Impala are a five-piece band, his success has forced him to become more of a showman. The group’s first experience of being festival headliners came last summer at New York’s Panorama weekender, and next month they’ll top the bill at west London’s one-day Citadel — their only UK show this year. Among a handful of gigs in 2018 they’re also first or second on the line-up at festivals as far afield as Pitchfork in Chicago, Treasure Island in California and Mad Cool in Madrid.  

“I used to be pretty withdrawn on stage a few years ago. I didn’t even stand in the middle. I was terrified to look anywhere other than my own feet,” he admits. “I suddenly realised that my career was going to go by and I was never going to have fun on stage. Since then I’ve embraced the part of me that loves attention.” Is he more of a star now? “Well… I wouldn’t use that word. It’s just having more of a presence, enjoying the energy of people in the audience who want to connect with you, because that’s why they go to the show instead of listening to the album.”

Listening to the album is pretty good too, though. Currents, the band’s third long-player, was released in 2015 and was the moment Tame Impala moved from making well-crafted, guitar-heavy psych rock to using more synths and embracing a wider range of styles. Yes I’m Changing is a dreamy trip-hop ballad. ’Cause I’m a Man is smooth soft rock. The Less I Know the Better, a silver-seller in the UK despite never entering the charts, is melodic, funky disco. The album went platinum in Parker’s homeland and hit the top five in the US and the UK, where Tame Impala beat U2 to take home the 2016 Brit Award for International Group.

“I’m actually a really poor judge of how successful Tame Impala is. I tend to underestimate it. But if it had happened any faster, it would have been out of control for me personally,” says Parker. “I think every time I’ve released an album it’s had this slow build. I think that’s the result of the kind of music it is. It gets under your skin.”

That unhurried pace looks set to continue. Currents went gold in the US only this month, almost three years after it came out. He says he won’t be performing any new songs at this summer’s gigs, not least because he hates people filming unreleased music on their phones. “I don’t want to say too much,” is all he’ll offer when pushed on his progress writing new music, but he does say that one of the reasons he has moved to LA is to do more producing for other people. “I’ve always wanted to do that. But Tame Impala is always the most important thing,” he says. “I like to think I can do both at the same time, but maybe I’m kidding myself.”

It’s a new chapter as Kevin Parker Aussie rock outsider becomes Kevin Parker bigshot LA songwriter and producer. Don’t dismiss the idea of him taking a leaf out of Kanye’s book and unveiling a new album with no warning. “I don’t like to play it up,” he says, with characteristic reticence, "but yeah, anything could happen.”

By DAVID SMYTH

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My life with depression

I don't know why I did start this blog. Meaby I think that it might help with somethings. To start I have to say i'm 18 years old and I would also say i'm depressed, I have been to a doctor and a psychiatrist and they have also said that I have depression. I think it all might have started during 1st grade already when I was 7 years old.

I was bullied for at least 6 years and I did not have many friends during that time I basically had 1 friend. All I can say to him is Thank You, I feel like I owe him my life and for sticking with me for those six years. My parents broke up when I was 9 or 10 but that did not bother me much as they were fighting all the time. I now see my father once a month or so. I mean I could see him whenever I wanted but I just don't feel like seeing him anymore. When I was 12 or so my father got into another relationship and I got a new sister in my life. (She is 3years older than me so we are not blood related).

Life was fine for a while. When I started 7th and 8th grade were meaby the best time of my life that I had in a while. The teachers in that school were supportive. all the bullies that I had went to the other school that we have here and I got new friends even if I feel like I abandoned my one and only friend from before but he also got new friends and we talk every now and then. In this new school I got 2 new best friends that I would hang with for a few years.

But then 9th grade started. Our old school where everything was fine got shut down because the part of the country where I live wanted to save on funds so they shutdown out school. Suddently I was back in the same school with all the bullies and people who got on my nerves. I was always an outcast in the school the silent kid who eventually just wanted to be left alone. At least there was no physical bullying but it was more on the mental side of calling names and I was the last person to be picked in PE. It felt like everybody hated me, luckily I had my 2 friends by my side who would hangout with me and also this one girl who I fell in love with but I'll tell about that later.

So after 9th grade I didint get to any of the schools I wanted to get in to, like the 3 schools that were in the closest city. So I went to a school that was in a smaller city and I could get there by bus. I really did not like anyone there. Here I realized the reason I was feeling down all the time was depression and I did not want to bother anyone with it so I just sucked it up and kept going and on the outside I would try to look happy and cheerful but I did not feel like it. During my 2nd year of studying there I lost contact with my other friend. I felt betrayed as I tought we were best friends and as before we would play games everyday and hangout but suddently he started to evade me and hangout with other people  and my other friend did not have time to hangout and he still doesn't have time as i'm writing this. So I felt and I feel like i'm alone.

My problem is I was raised to be to kind. I cannot be mad at anyone except my old friend. I don't feel like I have a best friend anymore and I have friends but nobody contacts me for anything. The few things that I fell like are keeping me going are my two cats and my mom. I never as for help with anything when I'm working on something but I always offer my help so feels like people are abusing the fact that I'm too kind. I don't blame anyone else for my shortcoming and mistakes but i'm scared in the fact that i'm not afraid to die anymore.

I got my drivers license last year and well I was in a small car crash on the 9th of January. Partially my fault for not evaluating the situation correctly but also for the driver in front of me for driving way under the speed limit. They were driving 50-60km/h in a 80 zone so I was my chance to pass and then they started to speed up and I got in front of them with a little extra speed and I lost control of my car, spun about 420 degrees onto the oncoming lane and on to the snowbank. The car had a little bumper plastic damage and I was fine. But the next day it hit me. I was ready to die and I was not afraid of death.

I have never been in a relationship but I'm not a virgin. The first time I was really in love was in 9th grade when I fell in love with my friend and I would confess this to her during the summer but she did not outright reject me but just we started to talk less and less and it didint go anywhere. I had a few more confessions but nothing notable as they all came to the same conclusion. That's about the time when I started to hate my own body and decided to do something about it so I started to work out a bit and now I'm in a ok shape even if I don't work out anymore and I might work out if I get that one good day out of a hundred when I'm not feeling like shit. After a while I fell in love with a person who used to talk about anime with me during some classes. For sometime it felt like we had a spark going but might have been just that we were really close friends. Turns out she also fell in love with the girl I was in love with during the 9th grade. So she is bi-sexual but as she confessed to her and got rejected I kinda felt like I dont have chances with her. Now I'm just mostly friends with girls like I'm that gayfriend of the group but I'm still heterosexual. I feel like I wont ever get into a relationship and I already feel like if I ever get into one someone will cheat on me. I have severe trust issues these days with people. I'm also afraid of another rejected

My suicide attempts. When I was 15 I tried to kill myself 2 times. First I tried to hang myself but then as usual I backed out and the 2nd time I tried to cut my wrists but I also backed out of that and this is the 1st time I have told this anywhere. I don't want to worry the people around me of my wellbeing as they seem to have their own problems. The 3rd time was when I was 17. Nobody remembered by birthday or anything related to me that year. I was the guy who nobody remembered even existed and I got pretty sad. I put a knife to my own throath and already pushed it until a bit of blood came out but then I backed out of it again. That's about it but I feel like now if I tried it I would actually go trough with it. I feel like a social outcast who just wants to die these days but I still have some people that trust me and believe in me.

In the future I want to be an English teacher and provide support to each person I teach as I feel like my teachers never have believed in me or nobody else. What people need for success is determination and help from other to believe in their goals and push trough. There might be some who quit on the way but with enough support they will also climb over every hurdle.

Another thing that keeps me afloat is music. None of that gangster rap or anything but actual music. Music from David Bowie and Queen and so many others that cheer up my day. I want to thank almost every artist and band that are on my spotify list but somehow the music of Tame Impala has helped me alot during my downtimes. That's the other way of stress relief. I do have a big habit of masturbating multiple times a day and I dont think of it as a problem, it just helps me get rid of stress so isint it natural? But is on average 13 times a day normal?

Thats about all I can say about myself for now or what I can remember.