#ness' brainvomit ⋆⭒˚.⋆

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!

to my favorite favorite people ever <3 I am so happy to have gone through this year with all of you! I love to look at how far this blog has gone and coming to the realization that essentially everything I have built up for myself so far has happened within this year it feels so long ago 😭😭but I have accomplished so many things this year including actually completing several fics (which I've never been able to do before) and meeting so many wonderful people!!! so I just wanted to take a small moment to individually thank anyone who has ever interacted with me <3 to all the people I've had countless interactions with in the replies, to all of my anons, I love you all so very much and am so grateful for your support <3 while fics like love notes and cold kisses are how I found most of my base and they do indeed hold a special place in my heart, I think overall try again is actually the work I am most proud of this year because it has brought me so close to so many of you. seeing how other people related to many of the struggles mentioned in that fic really made me have an appreciation for writing and the ability to convey emotions and empathize <3 I am so thankful for my base and all of my followers and I think it's kind of nice to see how we are all going through similar struggles; I hope that try again along with any other fic I've written that you've felt a connection to has helped you know that you are not alone and so very loved <3 happy holidays and happy new year!!

HERE'S TO MORE LOVE NEXT YEAR!

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fighting for my life in a barnes & noble not just because I hate every single stuck up white middle aged person and adolescent couple in there but also because why are books so shit these days like brother 😭 what is the day dimple met ritsi

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all my homies and i get seasonal depression in the cold months of winter but trust that we will rejuvenate as the flowers start to bloom again

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if i start mass posting a chuuya fic no one question me

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hello i also went through my entire aesthetic pinterest board to find pictures for all your smaus (minus inked bc it's on hold 😔)

CALLOUSED HANDS

inner child healing, DEF vintage core, lowkey 10 things i hate about you "do you like the girl? is she worth all this trouble? either she is or she isn't" type beat in my very humble opinion. big grunge vibes. throwing rocks out your window. sneaking out of the house. the kind of couple to pack their bags and run away from home together/just leave everything behind to start a new life. definitely a kind of looks like they could kill you and would kill you (yn) and looks like they could kill you but won't (bc he's kuroo i'm in love with my girlfriend and everything i have is her's and i will only fight for her tetsuro). cigarettes after sex (sunsetz) for sure and CURRENT JOYS (honorable song mentions: kids, new flesh, my motorcycle, you broke my heart). ALSO ALSO other really specific kind of references they give me lockwood and lucy (lockwood and co.) vibes except for y/n is lockwood with her kind of i'm not living for anything vibes before kuroo comes into her life I HOPE SOMEONE GETS THIS. OR they're nico and libby "you're a fire hazard. stop apologizing for the damage and just let the fucker burn" (which i interpret as "i'm going to love you no matter what. just be yourself") nico and libby (atlas six) kind of dynamic I DON'T KNOW

35 MM

FREDERICK BHAER AND JO ALL THE WAY I KNOW LAURIE IS IN HERE BUT ONLY BC THE SCENE IS LITERALLY JO LOOKING SO HAPPY OVER WATCHING A PERFORMANCE AND LAURIE IS GIVING HER THE LOOK OF LOVE. WHICH IS ANOTHER AESTHETIC KIND OF POINT THAT NEEDS TO BE MADE. the kind of both people are independent but lean on each other dynamic. like they could be by themselves (at least akaashi could) but wants to be with the other and the other person only. the kind of "i can do it" "i know you can but let me" dynamic. going to the gas station together at 3 am because one of them wants ice cream kind of aesthetic (totally not based off of when they were eating takeout together at his place). late nights and domesticity. yn and akaashi are the epitome of the quiet life people dream of, living in an apartment with their significant other. just them. that's their world. definitely dark academia like someone else said. definitely library dates. the couple that's helping the other study for their assignments or go to cafes together to work on homework (and one of them might end up pushing their homework aside just to look at the other person) i'm feeling fade into you and like real people do

ON REPEAT

ONLY THREE PHOTOS BC I FEEL LIKE THEY SUMMED IT UP REALLY PERFECTLY <3 the actual definition of domesticity. just pure love. definitely love languages are in this aesthetic. i'm getting a lot of gift giving vibes. BUT AGAIN DOMESTICITY!! just kageyama being in love and a sucker for y/n. he's behind her at every moment in case she needs anything, holding her bags for her and always there to be a scary guard dog to anyone looking despite being a sweetheart and melting the moment y/n is looking at him or asking something. the kind of people who would both come up to a grandma and help her cross the street or carry things for her <3 they're happy as long as they're together. they remind me of this one video i've had saved for years in my phones that goes along the lines of "when you're a kid you think your parents are soulmates. my kids are going to be right about that." (ik that isn't always applicabale to family dynamics like i would rather die than have kids but i personally think it's even more impactful thinking about it as "my parents were so messed up but i'm going to meet my soulmate. i'm going to be with someone that people see us together and think that we're soulmates. i'm going to find someone that loves me.") songs that come to mind are the cuco's wannabewithu and songs4u albums but also work song simply bc of how lovesick it is and loverboy

SYRUP

if tumblr wants to weirdly shape my images then they're going to do that bc i couldn't make them all 1:1 so I'M SORRY but they're definitely the vibe of if laurie had got jo in the end </333 he's lowkey more of a pathetic bf than kageyama bc at least kageyama's got a cool quiet person aura on the outside but oikawa looks like a bottom twink anyway (said w/ love i love him sm). definitely something that happened in syrup but definitely the kind of love/aesthetic of visiting each other at work. y/n and oikawa come in a pair, neither one is never very far from the other. a super chaotic dynamic. the kind of people who are always out driving late at night, their friends are getting notifications from them asking if they want anything from a random fast food joint before they remember to mention that they're coming to visit and crash at said friend's apartment (does this make sense??). another dynamic that's happy and content just with each other and nothing else. the kind of couple that will both stare you down bc they know what they're doing and what they want and we're all just living in their world. (again, if u don't agree with y/n, oikawa will be beating u up even if he looks like a twink)

i have kind of a silly question that i’m very curious abt. do u guys associate any of my fics with any particular aesthetic??? if u do ur legally obligated to tell me which fics and what aesthetic

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woke up at 2am unable to sleep so I wrote my 5k word chuuya manifesto instead

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i'm cooking up suna ideas on the bus

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I feel like a dragon slowly being woke from my sleep

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ALL OF US TOGETHER OMG 😭😭 praying for u all i am manifesting these 5s

if my ap scores r good tmrw i’ll triple update mezzo forte

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anyway I apologize for being sporadically on here!! 😭😭😭 allow me to give the court my justifications for absence:

1. I accidentally landed myself the job of stage managing another musical and on top of that am designing + running lights for another play that goes up next month + after that one I will be doing the same for another play all the while continuing to stage manage this musical on the side bc apparently doing it once didn't kill me enough

2. school 😔

3. tired and sad

4. I thought my hours would decrease after December at work but it sure doesn't feel like it so fuck me ig

5. tired and sad

thank you for reading this rendition of ness' lore drops!! I love you guys I'll be more active asap <33 take care of yourselves mwah <33 if it makes you guys feel any better there's a little causenessus dot com tumblr blog inside my head that I post on like 24/7 those posts and thoughts just don't actually make it to the real rendition of the blog 😭😭 BUT I THINK OF YOU GUYS ALL THE TIME AND MISS U ALL <3

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I have fall break next week so I will hopefully be a little bit more active then!!! also just gonna leave this here but :)

mango anon and ness meet up soon??? real not fake??? not clickbait??? not telling u when?? but maybe we'll do a cutesy shoe pic??

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OKAY NEW PLAN I come back around/on/before Thanskgiving with a fic but it may not be miya osamu it may be dazai osamu 😭 sorry chat

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my irls keep trying to look at my PHONE PLEASE LET ME LIVE MY SILLY LIFE AS A SILLY LITTLE HQ SMAU WRITER WHO DOESN'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT SOMEONE FINDING THIS 😭😭😭

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been thinking about the suna smau all day. I have five different notes going for it + an entire brainvomit document. i've also gone through like 10 different versions of this text <3

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EVERYONE SAY HELLO TO MITCH <33 NAMED AFTER THE GREAT @sandwhitches !!!!!! HE IS A WHITE PENGUIN - DUCK HYBRID BC HE CAN BE WHATEVER HE WANTS TO BE!! HE WARDS OFF SCARY OLD MEN AND DEAD CAR BATTERIES <33

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dyslexic moment on my part i am so sorry @dodgeryaps (it's even worse bc i re read your post five times thinking of all the animals i knew)