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I'm kinda mad that one of Canada's beautiful and historic national parks has nearly burnt to the ground and no one is talking about it like... at all. If this happened to an American national park I bet I'd be hearing about it.

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it's so weird that tumblr has become the least dystopian platform tbh. like there is no AI search bar and the ads are manageable... thanks @staff

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its haunting to think my blog might outlive me in the way so many blogs and channels and accounts have outlived their owners.

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I forget about you just to dream about you again in the morning hours. I haven't seen you in two years but my body cannot forget how we held each other and wept.

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First time!!! Thank you to everyone who got me to 100 likes! 🔮🕯️

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I think fondly about the alternate world where 2020 didn't happen the way it did. Where I get to graduate with a class full of friends, we all go to the conference together again, and I get the job placement I had lined up. The love of my life doesn't get sick, doesn't almost die, and we don't live on edge for two years. My brother doesn't get married and drift away. I am not shaken by fear or uncertainty and I don't accept scraps. I don't work 6 days a week, only to bring home poverty wages. I am not bitter.

I can imagine how it might be, how it might feel to wake up each day. Nothing like how it is now.

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everyone always talks about relating to Sophie... but what about Howl? A messy romantic adventure wizard? I'm Howl.

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Thank you to everyone who got me to 250 likes!

Since y'all liked the first one, I made another.

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it was never about making everything the way you wanted it, the customization, the aesthetic. it was about living. it was about the uncontrollable. that's where the story is.

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when I drink soju, I don't know... it makes me want to paint

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let me tell you, even while I really was a teenage girl in 2014, I was wishing I was a teenage girl in 2014.

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I'm toying with the idea of kinda live journalling my thoughts sometimes and being a little more interactive but,,, I don't wanna just be yapping into the void

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Sometimes I think about the way I felt at 16.

It wasn't that anything was possible, but I still felt a sense of wonder; that I could really end up anywhere. But in those moments, none of it mattered.

I was fated to end up somewhere, and I would never know where until I was already there. I was free to do whatever I could do in those moments, but haunted by the knowledge that life would eventually catch me and consume me.

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how would we know love if we did not experience the ache of having given something away, only to recall it and long for it forever.

we cannot fully love what we keep. humans take everything for granted, it's a byproduct of time.