#nelkey rambles

[nelkey]

My current psychologist thinks I can't have biological adhd because only premature babies can have it? And that the rest of the people with adhd have a sort of learning problem with executive function and that they can basically learn to not have adhd...

I'm really impatient to go talk to my psychiatrist about what my psychologist said, because uhhhh, WTF

[nelkey]

Might be because it's 2am, but I'm tired of being myself. It's not even self-hatred or anything, I just wish I was more.

[nelkey]

To my neurodivergent followers, I have a question.

After my psychologist said that she doesn't want to diagnose me with adhd because of all that bullshit she was saying about adhd being overdiagnosed, she asked me today about a lot of symptoms that fit with autism and she came to the conclusion that what I must have is Sensory Processing Sensitivity and that it's what causes literally everything.

Apart from all my sensory issues that are auditory, tactile, visual, proprioceptive and vestibular, she said that Sensory Processing Sensitivity would explain some of my other symptoms like having trouble adapting to changes and needing structure and routine, or having very specific and intense interests, having trouble managing my emotions, having trouble with social interaction, and my executive dysfunction.

The truth is, Idk if anybody else knows more about this than me and can explain how it would cover it? Because I don't see how it covers all that tbh?

The thing is that she specified Sensory Processing Sensitivity instead of anything that might be classified as a disorder because she's against diagnosing people.

She thinks it's limiting to diagnose patients and thinks that since SPS is more of a personality trait it can be fixed . Basically, my problem according to her is that I avoid sensory inputs that bother me, (which if you know me you know I've been putting myself through sensory hell all my life to try to be normal without success, and only recently have learned how to accommodate my sensory needs, so it makes no sense) so I haven't gotten myself used to sensory stimuli.

So I'm not very inclined to believe that she's right that it's just Sensory Processing Sensitivity instead of something else like ASD. While she explained my symptoms to me, it kind of dawned on me that it really sounded like everything I'd read about ASD, even though I kind of thought I didn't fit some of the symptoms, she basically accidentally explained that I actually do have them, and now I'm wondering if there's a chance I might be autistic.

So yeah, I'm not asking for professional advice, but I would love an opinion from any followers with autism, or any sensory processing disorders to see if this makes any sense.