#needpositivethoughts

[thedissociativediva]

So amazing! My mental health has not been good so I’ve not been keeping up with my goal to post at least once a day. I lost my Mom to an untreatable brain disease and due to some crazy circumstances I never got to say goodbye to her. 🥲 I miss her so much and she didn’t deserve to suffer the way she did. All I can think about is that she died thinking her only child didn’t care enough to come and say goodbye to her. It’s not even close to true, but I don’t know if she knew that. It’s really messing with my head and I’m fighting to stay sober. Please send kind thoughts this way. 🫶 #mentalhealth

[coolyn]

Now when the ball drops it's only a powerful reality check of another year without my mommy. I know, I shouldn't look at it that way. But I do. I can't even get as excited as I used to about New Year's Eve because the past two years I've only felt more uneasy than anything else.