#needed a vibe switch after lenny boy

[polygamyff]

31.

I really want to kick Thomas out of my hotel, he’s a dickhead to me everytime. I can’t even get peace, he’s always on the war path. I haven’t done anything to him, only Robyn which she forgives me for but I don’t want to whine about it to Robyn because it’s her dad. He literally judged me on how I fed Reign, it’s annoying me so much. I don’t even want to go downstairs, I’ve kept myself up here to stay away from him, I need too. I’ve just been doing some work which I said to myself I wouldn’t but I’m bored, Robyn went to explore Dubai but I’ve seen everything and she says I bring attention so I stayed back here with Reign, she’s asleep so I’m bored. She should be back soon actually, we have the yacht event with my dad, Reign is meeting my family, I’m excited the most for this. Nalah has given me my log in for this Instagram page I got, I mean I never post anything it’s always my team that do but I wanted to see Robyn’ page so I needed it. It’s cute to see that I’m actually on her page, she loves me a lot “so what are you going to do!?” The door flew open, looking up from my MacBook, so here he is. The dickhead of the year “step into my office, I could have been naked. I mean I am under these covers but what is it?” Closing my MacBook slowly “they are saying things about my daughter! Talking about how drunk she was, she was a mess and saying things” placing the laptop to the side of me “my daughter is asleep so I would appreciate you not shouting, I am going to be nice because it’s respect but. You’re invading my personal space, and nobody has said anything mean to her. It’s life, she was drunk. And she was having fun, nothing wrong. Just the people that did record her are being dealt with, now what? Thomas, I know everything that goes on in my life and Robyn’ and I won’t have people like you ruining it” hearing footsteps running “dad! I said don’t!” I sighed out shaking my head “y’all going to need to learn how to handle yourselves” they don’t know how to act.

Robyn is staring at me but in silence, I’m not angry but annoyed because I’m being treated like shit by her dad “I want you to learn Robyn, how to handle yourself, people around you. They are watching constantly and I’m not speaking on being drunk, the way your dad stormed into the room so I can only imagine how he was out there. You’re carrying my name into this, the reason why I ain’t thrown your dad out because the public see and hear everything. My dad works this way, he hasn’t thrown his brothers because he knows the outrage. He can only move in silence. But also, I feel like your dad is disrespectful towards me, and I feel like I don’t want to kick off because I look like the bad one. I don’t want him at this Yacht event, but with your permission, can I tell him no?” Robyn nodded her head “my mom and dad have been arguing a lot about this. She’s happy for me and he’s being negative about it. I don’t get it, he’s been such a good dad to me but has switched on me. It’s hurting me because I will end up disowning him. There has been issues with my parents since, remember my mom stayed with us. And it’s because of conflict in interest and they are both grown to see that they are not getting along. My dad needs to get out of that sunken hole he got himself in, he feels powerless than I am with you. I think he feels that another dominant man has come, and then he sees your dad being another dominant male. My dad is a very much a dominant male but you are actually more than him, he feels powerless but to pick on your old issues. You call them men weak and I hate saying this about my dad but he is being weak, we have relied on him so much, not anymore but you can tell him no” I have her blessing “you think I am dominant?” I had to go back to that “oh god yes, when you are in your mode of business, your make me wet. I love it, you are goofy but you know how to overpower someone” I will take that as a compliment “but you make me weak, I ain’t like that with you” Robyn smiled at me “you know your place with me” I laughed walking towards the bathroom.

Women and their outfits “momma said you got to wear these on your feet, I mean if it was me I would have you in sweatpants and top but no, you have to wear white dress, just like momma” these little shoes are so cute, holding them up “Reign, these are cute” pulling back the strap from the front “your tiny little feet, look at you girl. You flexing on me with these sandals, floral too” placing her feet in the sandal “awwww Reign, you look so cute. You really do, and daddy dressed you! Yes I did, daddy did it all” Reign’ eyes widened and gurgled something “you’re so beautiful baby” placing the strap back on “that is one foot done, next one” picking up the next sandal “Maurice, tell me please. How do I look? I am leaving my hair open and straight, please tell me I look good” before Robyn even stepped out of the bathroom I had to say it “you look beautiful” Robyn scoffed as she stepped out in a white thigh length dress, cut off from the shoulders “you look beautiful, Reign and you are matching, that is cute” Robyn cheesed “you better not be saying it, I am nervous seeing your parents and I didn’t know what to wear for such a thing. Please tell me your dad will be ok me?” nodding my head “he will be ok, trust me he will but Nalah will be there. It will be just us. You look beautiful. Honestly” Robyn looks so excited and I feel all excited too.

Placing the car seat on the floor of the living room, Reign is all ready “Jay, Lenny” they have arrived on time “boss” Jay said, Thomas is sat waiting for what “can you boys do me favour and wait outside for me, Terry you look beautiful. Just like Robyn, are y’all going with the white theme?” I laughed “she copied me” Robyn said as she made her way down “excuse me daughter, I am the original. You copied me” Terry and Robyn both look beautiful, watching the boys leave onto the elevator “I want you to stay here while we go, I don’t want you to ruin a moment for my parents. You seem to be on this power hungry rave where you want to control your daughter having sex, it’s odd but you are odd. I am not taking you to my dad’ Yacht because I am telling you now your ass will be out in the sea because I won’t have you disrespecting my dad on his own Yacht, you can be disrespectful to me or whatever, but my dad. Nah” I won’t have that on my watch “so you want to take my family to your cult family” I paused, in my heart wanting to beat him but that is not it “I want you to leave, I want you to go home! I can’t do this, Thomas! You leave, Go!” Terry spat, actually took me by surprise “you have been awful with me, ever since she did what she did! As soon as my daughter left you have been awful with me, blaming me! I want you gone! Robyn is old enough now but you have never been right with me! I put on a fake smile for my daughter. I am whore like her, so you say” Terry really broke “I am trying to fix this family” Terry leaned over “I said! Get out of his hotel and you leave! You go home, you have done nothing but upset people, including me. You promised! I am done with you!” she shouted in his ear, I kind of thought Thomas would hit her with the look on his face but he just mean mugged the ground, looking over at Robyn and she is upset, I know she is, that is her parents and I hated seeing mine go through that “let’s go” Terry got up from the couch.

This seven seater ride is awkward, it’s even worse because we are facing each other “so uhm, I am sorry Terry, I just didn’t want him to ruin the day. My parents are really excited about meeting Reign, their first grandchild. He wants to meet the family behind Robyn too, I didn’t want to cause trouble” Terry smiled at me “I met you and I didn’t see bad in you, I am very much in touch with my spirit and I would have felt the bad vibes with you and I didn’t. I saw the troubles you both had but I saw you loved my daughter so I knew you would do right by her like Terry and I did, we stuck by her together. Thomas and I, we are no troubled but I feel we are and it’s conflicted with what he wants and it’s always been what he wants, I felt as a mother I needed Robyn to have a father, he is great with her” this is awkward, just because I see the troubled look on Robyn’ face “but we do love you Robyn, ok?” Terry placed her arm around her “stop” Robyn moved away from her mother “just please” I don’t like this, I don’t like Robyn upset anyways.

The door closed which left Terry and I face to face, Robyn has gone to get my mom flowers. She wanted to get my mom flowers, I didn’t want to say no so Lenny has gone with her “Thomas is not Robyn’ dad” I froze just staring at Terry “he called my daughter a whore for getting pregnant and I couldn’t forgive that, he has taken care of her like his own for years. He was there for when she was born, she had such a good upbringing and I loved it. Just when she got older, I felt the bad in him. He was protective of her and me. And honestly it was like he didn’t want us to do anything. But yeah, Thomas is not her dad, she doesn’t know and I feel bad for not ever saying it but I was happy, she was happy and I didn’t want to break that. She is a real daddy’s girl but just recently, I mean we have had our ups and downs but he kind of hates me not for not making him a dad, but I can’t. I lost my womb after having Robyn so I couldn’t and I felt that also strained us. He was there for it all but as time went on, he wanted his own kids but I couldn’t, we instead gave back to kids, helped kids that needed it but it was never enough. He feels he lost Robyn and he has nobody, and I am sorry I told you this but sometimes you need to just talk to someone other than my own mother and sister” Terry laughed, I was not expecting this “I was jealous of Robyn, perfect life and parents” Terry laughed “don’t judge a book by it’s cover, nothing is perfect but if I felt you was bad for Robyn I wouldn’t let you be near her, not the only child I could have. She is my everything. It broke me when she left, it still kills me because I am nothing without her and she doesn’t notice it, but praise the lord my daughter got a man that loves her” I feel so sad for Terry “I am so sorry to hear that, does Robyn think that? I am sure she said she wanted you to have another” she shook her head “she thinks mom and dad just didn’t want anymore, her real father got shot and in a stupid drive by. So stupid, I didn’t even get to tell him, we fell out and it was just that one night. I only knew him for four months and we both liked each other a lot, it was new but just like my daughter I got pregnant” Terry chuckled “he died but that is why I always tell Robyn, be nice and you go to Maurice and make up. It’s too short for this” the door opened “I am not sure if your mom likes pink and white?” Robyn said, smiling at her as she got in “mom I am not angry at you, just dad. It makes it so hard for everything, also I got you flowers” Robyn sat down “Lenny give me!” Lenny held out some purple and white set of flowers “for you because you’re like my number one fan” Terry cooed out “see you know I love purple, it’s ok. We will deal with your dad” I looked out of the window all wide eyed, why did I need to know this.

[rcfcel]

*  /  𝔰𝔲𝔯𝔭𝔯𝔦𝔰𝔢  𝔟*𝔱𝔠𝔥𝔢𝔰  !  bet  you  thought  you'd  seen  the  last  of  me  !  lol  apparently  i  like  to  challenge  myself  and  just  haD  to  bring  in  my  new  man  so  yeah  hi  ,  meet  raf  /  rj  !  i'm  v  excited  for  y'all  to  meet  him  —  fair  warning  ,  i'm  starting  from  scratch  with  him  cause  i  got  #inspired  so  i  apologize  if  the  info  below  is  a  mess  !  pls  love  us  .

( tommy martinez, cis male, he/him ) i just saw RAFAEL MICHELENA walking down the streets of provincetown the other day playing CHATEAU by BLACKBEAR out loud. rumor has it that the TWENTY THREE year old is GENEROUS, but can also be AGGRESSIVE — overall they’re a MAVERICK. they remind me of LEATHER SEATS IN BLACK CADILLACS, CIGARETTES SMASHED TO ASHES IN ASHTRAYS, & MALT WHISKEY POURED OVER ICE. ( lenny the pooh, 5, antarctica, she/her )

—— * / 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔟𝔞𝔰𝔦𝔠𝔰 :

full name : rafael johan michelena

nicknames : raf , rj

age / dob : twenty3 / february 14 , 1996

gender : cis male ( he / him )

sexuality : openly bisexual

occupation : firefighter

hometown : provincetown , ma

label : the maverick ( an unorthodox or independent-minded person )

—— * / 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔰𝔱𝔬𝔯𝔶 :

so dear rafael here was raised by a single father after his mother passed away shortly after he was born due to complications during labour . raf’s father never really wanted kids as he’d been wanting to focus on his paramedic career and was worried he wouldn’t be home enough to be with his family , but his beloved wife had assured him everything would work out in the end — which , of course , it didn’t really because he was left alone with a baby boy he didn’t know how to take care of .

his dad struggled for most of raf’s childhood , having to juggle both his demanding career and an even more demanding child , but with the help of close family and a very generous family who lived next door and took care of raf whenever his father worked night shifts , it all did work out in the end , just as his late mother had promised .

despite his father being away so much , raf developed a very strong relationship with his father . when he was young , his father was away a lot because he was just starting in paramedics so he got stuck with the less desirable shifts — but as rj grew older , his father moved up the ranks of his career and finally made it into a position that didn’t keep him away from home as late , allowing the two to spend some actual time together .

from a young age , raf knew he wanted to save lives like his father . fun fact : one night when he was young and staying over at the neighbour’s house , he drew a little picture of his father in uniform and then drew himself wearing a little uniform too — the neighbour showed this to his father when he picked him up and the grown man damn near cried .

raf has always been super proud of his dad for chasing his dreams and taking on each obstacle that came his way . 

at first , he wanted to follow in his father’s footsteps and become a paramedic — which he did , for a short while . after his school graduation , he went to school to get his emt ( emergency medical technician ) certificate and then worked to become a paramedic , by the time he was twenty one he was working the same job in provincetown his dad had been when he was young .

after about a year and a half , raf realized he wanted more . as a paramedic he worked closely with the provincetown firefighters and had always found their bravery inspiring . he got along with the crew well and one night over drinks he confided in them about possibly following along their career path instead . of course they all jumped to say do it , while also giving raf good advice and facts about the job , but nothing they said scared raf away from it — if anything , he was even more excited .

so fast forward a few months , and a very gruelling entrance exam and training period , and he switched out his paramedic uniform for a firefighter uniform and joined his buddies in the station .

it’s been about a year now since he first put on that uniform and rj truly hasn’t looked back since . the hours are rough and the job is laborious , but it’s also super rewarding and he wouldn’t change it for the world .

currently , he lives in a cozy ass apartment in provincetown on his own , although he spends many nights at the station when he’s on duty so i have this headcanon that his apartment is like .. hotel raf lmAO like need a place to crash and get away from shit ? there’s a spare key under the mat .

—— * / 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔦𝔫𝔰𝔦𝔡𝔢 :

labels(s) : the maverick , the hedonist , the contingent

maverick : due to his father’s extraneous job , raf grew extremely independent at a young age . when he was finally old enough to stay home and take care of himself , he honestly thrived .

hedonist : working in such emotionally challenging jobs has taught raf to really live life to its fullest and treasure every moment . he never takes anything for granted and is almost always looking for a fun time during his days off .

contingent : while his independence is clear in how he can take care of himself and make his own decisions , raf is incredibly dependent on those around him for support and companionship . he struggles with being alone and is in constant need of company and friendship .

traits : generous , charming , aggressive , protective , passionate , diligent , indulgent , short - tempered .

aesthetics : leather seats in black cadillacs , thick ringlets curling around chiseled features , black jeans with a lighter in the back pocket , cigarettes smashed to ashes in ashtrays , malt whiskey poured over ice , callused hands stuffed in the pockets of a leather jacket .

soundtrack : honestly , i’ve been listening to blackbear during raf’s entire conception so you can literally just listen to his entire discography to get a feel for his vibe .

personality : while he inherited his father’s passion , drive , and general kind demeanour , raf definitely made a name for himself with his slightly mysterious aura at first glance — maybe it’s the mostly black wardrobe , the cigarette that usually dangles from his lips , or the way his brow creases whenever he listens to someone speak like they’re the only person in the universe , he’s a little intimidating at first — but honestly , anyone who really knows him would laugh at people who comment on his mystery : “ yeah , i thought he was gonna be a total asshole at first , could not have been more wrong though ” has definitely been said numerous times about him .

raf’s actually probably the biggest teddy bear in ptown . his heart is somehow bigger than his hair and he welcomes everyone into his life with open arms ( after a short trial run to make sure they’re not gonna fuck with him of course )

he truly loves his friends more than anything . i’m not kidding when i say his apartment is hotel raf cause legit if u need a place to crash , even if it’s 4 in the morning , you can knock on his door and he’ll likely even give up his bed for you .

wears his heart on his sleeve , probably a little too much for his own good , but thrives off of honesty and trust so he’s definitely your go to guy if you’ve got shit going on .

also your go to guy if you need someone’s ass kicked . he’s a firefighter for crying out loud , he drinks preworkout like it’s water and could probably bench the entire snack pack lbr .

he’s a big old hopeless romantic too — he was born on valentine’s day after all .

—— * / 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔠𝔬𝔫𝔫𝔢𝔠𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫𝔰 :

once again , let me scream into the void that i am open to pretty much anything . lay it all on me , give me your worst and just rIP my heart out why don’t you . but ! below is a list of ideas i brainstormed up for raf 

i really want someone from the family that helped take care of him when he was little !

neighbours , childhood best friends , childhood crush / first kiss

gym buddies PLS give raf a buddy he can call up to go play basketball or challenge to a weight lifting comp LOL

past / present hook ups ! raf’s an emotional guy but his job is stressful as fuck and he def needs soME sort of way to unwind .

exes ! mayhaps they dated in high school and broke up cause theY went off to college while raf stayed back in ptown .

brOS OHMYGODPLS give me joey and chandler , jake and charles , troy and chAD

a brother / sister friendship pls ! someone he can be way too protective of .

platonic soulmates ! my fav !!

an angsty flirtationship / skinny love type deal .

—— * / 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔥𝔢𝔞𝔡𝔠𝔞𝔫𝔬𝔫𝔰 :

his apartment is suPER masculine . like exposed brick walls , brown leather couches , stainless steel appliances , dark oak tables and shelves , probably big windows all over the place cause he loves natural sunlight . and the whole snack pack 100% knows where the spare key is in case of emergencies ( insert that one scene of friends where monica’s like “ i gave you that key for emergencies ” and phoebe’s like “ we were out of doritos ” )

he’s got a lil grey pit bull named lily that he saved a few months ago ! she’s his pride and joy .

like .. rarely uses his phone . he’s got all the social medias , but only really checks it when someone tags him in something or whatever . prefers to call over text cause texting annoys him , he’s an impatient fuck .

definitely is the pack’s lil doctor . he’ll always unwind and have a fun time , but will 100% be on alert at all times for accidents or anything bad that could happen . and if it does happen , he’s first on the scene — i mean , why wouldn’t you want a licensed paramedic that looks like tommy martinez icing your sprained ankle right ?

he’s never really travelled much , aside from the times he’s been called to neighbouring towns / cities during big emergencies and such with his crew . he’s got major wanderlust and really wants to travel to venezuela and such , but he’s also perfectly content staying in ptown for now .

he’s a celiac — idk why , i just wanted to give him some sort of weakness cause he seems too perfect rn .