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[jezungies]

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𝒩𝒶𝓂𝑒: 𝐉𝐮𝐧𝐠 𝐉𝐚𝐞 𝐇𝐲𝐮𝐧

𝒢𝓇𝑜𝓊𝓅: 𝐍𝐂𝐓 𝟏𝟐𝟕

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They say that the first relationship was always going to have an affect on you, they never said if it was going to be good or bad. I just wasn’t ready for it.

It was never easy for you or him, you both tried your best, but for some reason it felt like you were the only one who wanted the relationship to work.

It was just getting harder and harder for you to handle. At first you guys took it slow, followed the flow of your waves, followed the breeze as they say, you two were just so in love nothing could get in the way, but they were wrong, they were dead wrong.

You tried to understand, but you couldn’t it was just too much to handle. You tried talking it out but it would end with yelling, screaming, and tears.

Could it get any worse?

Y/n POV

As I sat on the ledge of the window staring into the starry night, I begin to shiver, the thoughts of the past week haunted me. I pulled my leg into my chest  still looking out the window. The emptiness devouring me in. That’s when I saw it, it was like I was being stabbed in the chest a million times. It felt as if someone was pulling my heart out. The pain I went through to see him with someone else. Seeing him laugh, smile and kissing someone else. I couldn’t take it anymore. I just broke down, not caring the the tears on my my face would sting more and more. I closed my eyes and remembered the happy days.

*flashback*

“ Baby I love you, I love you so much. You mean so much to me, I could never do anything to hurt you, I could never do anything to make you cry. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want to hug you so tight that you tell me you can’t breath. I want to be under the sheets with you for a life time. Will you be my girlfriend?” Jaehyun said taking my hands in his

“Yes, yes, I love you too” I said as I jumped into his arms

“ I promise I won’t hurt you.” He said

*end of flashback*

My thoughts were interrupted by the door swinging  opening.

I got up from the ledge and went straight to him.

“WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU DOING WITH ANOTHER GIRL?” I yelled as I pulled his shirt to face me

“What do you mean?” He said laughing

“Are serious? You don’t need to lie anymore Jaehyun. I know you were out with a girl.” I said

“So what if I was? I can hang out with people. Your so clingy.” He said, his words like a sword driving through me with ease. It was like this meant nothing to him.

“ if you weren’t happy with me then you should have just told me som-

“ THATS RIGHT I’M NOT HAPPY WITH YOU ANYMORE, IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT TO HEAR CAUSE I CAN SAY IT AGAIN.” He said yelling at me, at that moment my anger took control over my body. My hand clashing onto his face as I slapped him.

“Your such a jerk, you promised me, you said-

“Said wha? I’ll stay with you forever, I’ll love you forever, I want to be with you? DO YOU REALLY BELIEVE THAT SHIT.” He said, I couldn’t take it anymore I started to hit him harder and harder my fist driving into his arms as he tried to defend himself.

“You know what, I HATE YOU I want you out of my life, I never want to see you anymore at least those other girls don’t expect much.” He said, my tears now pouring out of my eyes. I didn’t say anything but stare at him, I took my keys and wallet and walked out on him.

How could we end up like this?

Jaehyun POV

As I saw y/n’s silhouette disappear into the dark abyss, that was when I realized how much I had lost. There was no winning in this, no matter what I did, no matter how I looked at it I would have lost y/n in the end. I was a jerk, I was an idiot, I was an asshole. I ran out of the apartment to look for y/n, but they were gone, there was no way to come back from the things I did, the things I said. They were out of my grasp, the scent of their hair no longer lingered in my head. The way their soft lips would touch mine every morning I could no longer recall. Everything about them forgotten, because of me, and my idiotic decisions.

“Please come back.... I need you.”

I’m sorry, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.. please, please

I still want you. Come back to me.

There was no turning back, nothing I could possibly do, I had crumbled your world, and my heart with it. I-I’m sorry.....