#nasty comments with leni

[gracemyheart]

Lmao I was checking something in my former account @gracemyhearto and found this anon hate from yesterday 🤣

Wtf. I mean firstly: I wasn't active there since months, secondly what have I done and thirdly why are you a coward like that hiding behind an anon?🤭

[isalabells]

#Leute ich bin zu alt für den ganzen 'omg I just discovered these (seemingly) queer coded Tatort teams' Quatsch der hier so abgeht (via moonstark)

Da guckt man seit Jahren wie ein Boomer jeden Sonntag Tatort und auf einmal ist ganz Tumblr Deutschland dabei

Seid ihr okay?

[cosmicdaya]

lost in japan | tom holland

{summary} : a small fic based on shawn mendes’ songs that i wanted to write since it ever came out. listen to it here !

{warning} : hella lot of fluff and some mentions of sex

{word count} : 1393 words (cool)

{pairing} : tom holland x reader

{requested} : no one

{type of story} : imagine

{author’s note} : hello ppl i was too lazy to continue my series so i wrote this sorry hehe (don’t worry, it will be up soon!) plus this is a cool song! i recommend it!!!!! send me an ask to be added to my taglist! plus, #thanosdemandsyoursilence ( I AM GONNA WATCH IT TOMORROW AHH)

{ permanent taglist} : @alimaawilliams // @mrsmouthymerc // @leni-lion-luke-larb-logic // @definespidey // @shookspudey // @amagicalpieceofshit

(tumblr didn’t let me to tag those usernames which are striked)

All it'd take is one flight We'd be in the same time zone

Tom wanted to see you so badly. He was very busy travelling around the world for the premier of Infinity War, that he didn’t have time to see you, his best friend. Yeah, his best friend. He did have a major crush on you but was afraid to tell you that thinking that it might affect your friendship with him. 

Looking through your timeline Seeing all the rainbows,

He whipped out his phone, looking at your Instagram page. Just looking at your pictures made him smile like a stupid dork. 

Man, I wish I can eat pancakes with her, he thought when he saw a picture of you eating pancakes.

His heart exploded with joy when he saw a picture of you and him holding your passports, when you guys went to Hawaii last year. He wanted to see you so badly and he had to think of a way.

Wait, maybe this will work, I hope?

I got an idea And I know that it sounds crazy I just wanna see ya Oh, I gotta ask

He opened the messaging app on his phone and texted you, his thumbs moving at a speed that no human brain can comprehend. His face lighted up as soon as he saw the three little dots at the lower left side of his phone screen.

Tom

Y/N can i meet you??

Y/N

tom, are you kidding me? you are at japan

Tom

ya but can i see you?

Y/N

you know you can barge into my house anytime you want, but how?

Do you got plans tonight? I'm a couple hundred miles from Japan, and I I was thinking I could fly to your hotel tonight

Tom

do you have plans tonight, love?

Y/N

...no, as you know im just gonna watch some gossip girl and make myself heppi

Tom

then await my arrival darling.

i will be there soon!

Y/N

wait what...

how...

ARE YOU GONNA TAKE A FREAKING FLIGHT? QHAT

THOMAS STANLEY HOLOGRAM

'Cause I-I-I can't get you off my mind Can't get you off my mind Can't get you off my mind (oh)

Tom was grinning happily as he sat in his seat in the plane. He couldn’t wait to see you, hug you, feel you and tell that he loves you. His smile turned upside down to a frown as his mind flooded with thoughts of you saying no to him. He sighed deeply and tried to divert his attention to the magazine that was in his bag. Despite his attempts, he was futile in not thinking about you as he can’t get you off his mind.

I could feel the tension We could cut it with a knife I know it's more than just a friendship I can hear you thinking about it, yeah

You were walking around in your living room. You were half expecting half not for Tom’s arrival. You did have feelings for Tom but you didn’t want to ruin the friendship between you guys.

You guys are unbelievable...

You wore a crop top and a pair of black leggings and put a minimal amount of makeup to look good and also to cover up the fact that you have binge watching movies since the day Tom left for Japan.

There was no one to cuddle with and to play with your hair and even to comment on the nasty pancakes you did every morning. You loved the way his nose scrunched up whenever he smiles at your not-so funny puns. You always loved the fact that his arm always ends up at your back, unconsciously drawing patterns no matter where you guys are.

Gosh, I am madly in love with him, you thought to yourself.

You glanced at the clock and noticed that the time was 12pm. You were convinced that either Tom is coming tomorrow or he was playing a prank on you. You cleaned up and wore your favorite Spider-man shirt and shorts. As you were going to open your room’s door, you heard the doorbell ring.

You walked briskly towards the door opened it to find Tom standing there. You were knocked out of breath as Tom hugged you so tightly. You laughed, throwing back your head and hugged him back.

“I am not going anywhere, headass,” you sighed as you rested your head in the crook of his neck.

You released yourself from Tom’s embrace and signaled him to take a seat on your couch. You quickly made two cups of tea and made your way to the living room. You gave him his cup and sat down on the couch.

There was a very awkward silence between the both of you now. There was a very heavy tension in the room, that you can even cut it with a knife. Both of you acted like strangers who just met and fell in love but afraid to tell the other about their feelings.

Do I gotta convince you? That you shouldn't fall asleep It'll only be a couple hours And I'm about to leave

To end this silence, you cleared your throat and made Tom look at you questioningly.

“It’s quite late, Tommy. I should go and sleep. I have to work tomorrow,” you said, with a sadness in your heart that you have to leave him.

“Y/N, work can wait. I will leave soon to Japan as I have a fan meet. I came all the way here to see you. Don’t disappoint me, darling,” he said with his puppy eyes, making you melt at his words.

You sighed and sat down on the couch. His face lighted up like a little child and you giggled at him.

Do you got plans tonight? I'm a couple hundred miles from Japan, and I I was thinking I could fly to your hotel tonight 'Cause I-I-I can't get you off my mind Can't get you off my mind Can't get you off my mind

Both of you ended up watching some random movies in order to pass some time. Halfway through a movie, Tom nudged you and sat facing you. You tilted your head and adjusted yourself so that you were facing him.

His fingers were lightly ghosting over your arm, back and forth. His nimble fingers slowly went down your leg and stopped at your upper thigh. Your whole mind was fuzzy as you couldn’t understand what was going on.

“What are you doing, Tom?” you asked him, breathlessly.

“I have been wanting to tell you these words all these while,” he looked up at you and the sight of him like that blew you away.

“I would love to be more than just best friends, Y/N. I love you,”

Do you got plans tonight? I was hoping I could get lost in your paradise The only thing I'm thinking 'bout is you and I

You stared back in disbelieve at the curly brown haired boy in front of you, not realizing what was going on.

He likes me?! Tom Holland LikEs mE?!

Tom looked back at you with a glimmer of hope in eyes, waiting for your answer. Even though you were freaking out in the inside, you steadied your nerves and kissed him. It was a slow and steady one, much in a romantic way.

Let's get lost tonight (oh) Let's get lost tonight (oh) Baby, you and I can't seem to get you off my mind

Both of you pulled away and looked at each other. The light from the television made Tom’s face looked heavenly and it made you sigh deeply.

“Why? What’s wrong?” Tom asked you, his voice sounding worried.

“Tom, can you give me a map?” you asked him, playing with his curls.

“Why?”

“’Cause I am lost in your eyes,” you said, before laughing uncontrollably. Tom joined in the laughter after a moment of staring at your dorkiness.

“Its has not even been a minute since I told you that I love you and you are making a pun,” Tom shook his head, chuckling a little.

“But you still love me, baby,” you winked as you moved closer to him.

“And I do not regret that,” he said before pulling you into another kiss.

GUESS WHAT I LOVE TOM HOLLAND

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[fathersonholygore]

Shadow. 2009. Directed by Federico Zampaglione. Screenplay by Federico Zampaglione, Domenico Zampaglione, & Giacomo Gensini. Starring Jake Muxworthy, Karina Testa, Ottaviano Blitch, Chris Coppola, Emilio De Marchi, & Nuot Arquint. Blu Cinematografica Not Rated. 77 minutes. Horror

★★★★ A lot of genuine war movies are made in Hollywood and otherwise, about every battle imaginable, from more obscure foreign wars to the World Wars themselves and everything in between. The horror genre’s not exactly a stranger to depictions of war, though the list of great war movies which cross into horror are few. Perhaps it’s because the horrors of war are bad enough, and amplifying any of that with the genre of horror itself can be tricky, so as not to fall into utter exploitation. Either way, there are some movies in the genre which have depicted war, its consequences and effects, and especially PTSD in a new light that’s more psychological than visceral. One such example is the 2009 Italian horror Shadow. While it’s not perfect, Federico Zampaglione’s movie does a great job of taking the nightmarish world of war into a more personal space of horror without becoming needlessly exploitative or disrespectful to victims of wartime atrocities. Instead, Zampaglione crosses a backwoods horror with a PTSD allegory laden with symbolism and heavy imagery. Above all, Shadow functions as that PTSD allegory concerned with its mental terror, and exactly how torturous war becomes emotionally on those affected by it, as well as those who’ve participated in it. The journey of soldier David (Jake Muxworthy), who’s returned from the hideous Iraq War and heads out mountain biking in Italy, is a brutal and terrifying one which strikes direct at the heart of war’s mental and visceral damage(s).

“I’ve never seen anyone fight death so hard”

Horror’s always been a fantastic way for audiences, and creators, to confront their fears and the terror of real life issues such as PTSD, trauma, rape, violence(etc) in a safe space where there’s no actual danger. Here, the focus is on atrocity and torture. David, along with a few others, gets trapped by an eerie, mysterious man called Mortis (Nuot Arquint), whose fascination and dedication to torture is totally unnerving. The captives are subjected to a variety of nastiness, such as being fried like bacon, having eyelids cut off. Because David’s also a soldier, one who fought in the Iraq War, the concept of torture brings parallels to the American government and its use of torture. This is revisited on David, an American. He unwillingly took part in a wider, more brutish war than he even knew – as is fully evidenced during the movie’s finale, when his past in Iraq is revealed. The torture itself becomes a corporeal, visceral, and literal symbol of this veteran’s PTSD and mental trauma, the shadow cast over all those who survive war. Zampaglione does well with positioning war v. real life in this story. The horrors people commit against each other in everyday life are no less tragic or disgusting than in war. However, we’re conditioned to see war as a separate space than supposed real life whereas war affects life/lives, though it does not happen in a vacuum. What Zampaglione accomplishes with a parallel between ‘real life’ and ‘war’ is a merger of the two, so the audience becomes wholly incapable of separating the two – what ought to be the case, anyway. The inextricable links between life and war come out thoroughly in the subtle ways Zampaglione and his co-writers weave nightmare and reality together through the plot, plus the heaps of war-related imagery and symbolism which draws on all sorts of military connections in the 20th and 21st centuries.

“Even here they were touched by war”

A significant moment later in the movie sees David shuffling around by candlelight through the bunker-like facility where Mortis has been keeping him and the others. He passes several important images, but one that lands with a deft blow is a shelf filled with old reels of film. Each is labelled, including the following references: Abu Graib, Saigon, Cecenia (Chechnya), Beirut, Sabra and Shatila, September 11th, Pearl Harbour, Hiroshima and Nagasaki, Ethiopia, North Korea, Kosovo, and many more. These are all references to either general wars and their laundry list of atrocities, or specific massacres involving genocide, torture, rape, and other horrific acts. But then Zampaglione throws a lot more at the viewer. Such as a photograph of German director Leni Riefenstahl, autographed, sitting on Mortis’s desk; pictures of Holocaust victims; a jar of Zyklon B; ash-like sculptures symbolic of the victims caught in the nuclear bombing of Hiroshima and Nagasaki. There’s almost more symbolism and imagery than a single viewing can handle. It all goes to speak to the major themes of the story, and also the trajectory of the plot. Mostly, it says that war is a perpetual cycle, and nothing changes, it only repeats, gets bigger, gets worse. Father Gore’s favourite image is wrapped up in the character of Mortis. He represents the shadow of war, looming everywhere, over everyone – definitely those who’ve taken part in war, on any level. He transforms into a living embodiment of death, as if the Grim Reaper himself. Near the end, Mortis even dons a black hood and wields a small scythe to try killing those left. His lair is packed with all forms of relics from all the major wars, massacres, and other violent military events throughout history. He’s a combination of an Italian fascist and a Nazi doctor. It’s this last connection that’s so compelling. Angeline (Karina Testa) makes a comment about war coming to the Shadow, the area where she and David are both biking and exploring, and how war touches all places, even the more obscure ones. She reveals a horrible event occurred there involving rebels and people being burned alive in the nearby caves. What’s of note is that Shadow was filmed in Tarvisio, Italy. Why’s it noteworthy? Tarvisio is on the border of both Austria and Slovenia, which was very relevant during World War II. And so, the atrocities of Italian fascism and Nazism are alive in the geography of the movie alone, allowing for the themes and the intensity of the plot to take on even more significance. The events in Shadow are like war purgatory for David – a crazy yet more palatable version of events for a soldier to bear, so that he doesn’t have to accept his responsibility and complicity in the horrors war inflicts on its innocent victims. He has to come to terms with his taking part in a civilian massacre during his Iraq tour. So, his mind invents a Grim Reaper figured, one symbolic of war and violence in general, to whisk him away into a nightmare dreamscape that’s somehow less vicious than the realities of war. Zampaglione offers up some horror cinema which plays like a bad dream in a dark war memorial. Ultimately, what’s worse – a psycho in the woods capturing a few bikers and hikers, torturing them, or whole nations engaging in torture, murder, rape? Neither are good. Regardless, reality is worse than any fiction. Shadow deserves more eyes than it got on release. It becomes more relevant every year, as the United States of America keeps pushing its imperialism everywhere it can, to the corners of the Earth. It’s no small thing the main character of this movie is an American. Because throughout the 20th century, and slouching along into the 21st too, America has been a catalyst for war and terror, despite presenting itself as some guardian against the two. While the characters in danger from Mortis make up Allied Forces – one Frenchwoman, one British lad, two American boys – and Italian fascism is clearly in the cross-hairs at times, there’s a huge implication about America’s role in the Iraq War, and its shadow looms over many frames throughout the movie.

SHADOW Casts a Heavy Darkness Over the Horrors of War Shadow. 2009. Directed by Federico Zampaglione. Screenplay by Federico Zampaglione, Domenico Zampaglione, & Giacomo Gensini.