#najshfiabsjshdgsjhsbdjsns mental health professionals are great and a great resource and im glad ive had access to them. but also. screaming | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

teeforhee · 4 years ago

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would LOVE to know wtf is going on with my brain chemistry that made me think that I've had baseline good self esteem my entire life and that I wasn't just going through A Mood for those two weeks. would also love to know what was going on with my brain chemistry that made those two weeks happen like that but that sounds like a lot to ask so I'll settle for just "why do I always think that whatever mood I'm in is how I've always felt for my entire life"

#very concerning that i was like. yeahh ive never really felt fear ever. not beyond a shallow surface level awareness of danger ive never had #periods of consistent sourceless anxiety i was never anxious. i have only ever felt how i feel now #my DUDE you got referred to camhs FOR anxiety. I'm afraid you absolutely can feel fear and do often feel it #what Was that?? I'd love to ask a professional but they always brush me off as being idk. worrying over nothing when i come to them with #less than palatable autism or politely self-blaming PTSD. they like. literally don't offer other explanations they're always like why are u #pathologising a high mood to the point of disfunction and feeling unwell. why are you pathologising seeing and feeling and hearing #things that arent there and please stop talking about your derealisation i dont have a practiced response to that and i dont want to have to #acknowledge it can we please go back to talking abt something else.#najshfiabsjshdgsjhsbdjsns mental health professionals are great and a great resource and im glad ive had access to them. but also. screaming #mine

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