#nafru

[ffreyolxiv]

Day 5; Color

"What colour better suits the Warrior of Light than the purest, shining white money can buy? I think it looks ravishing on you, my friend!"

[ghastimafrix]

when mods are reenabled its over for all you bitches

[ghastigiggles]

“You’re not trying to stop me” w/ zero? And whoever else you want :3

Mischievious Prompts [Still Open]

“Hm. How curious.”

Zero tilted her head to the left, her eyes drifting up and down from the Viera woman’s face – contorted with a grin as she hiccuped back giggles, flushed brightly and trying to use her hair to hide her features with little success – to where her own hands rested on her victim’s sides. The claws built into her gauntlets seemed to be able to tease through the padding on Nafru’s coat with ease, digging in just enough to get her to jerk and splutter.

Yet, even so – even though the Warrior of Light was certainly stronger than her, and definitely taller, and entirely able to shove her away if she so wished – she simply threw her back against the wall and squirmed in place, resting her arms against her chest with her hands balled into fists, trembling from the tension.

And, of course, Zero wasn’t dumb. She was also growing quite fond of teasing the mortals of the Source while they assumed it was simply blunt observation and naivety. (No, she wasn’t that clueless anymore, but it was infinitely more humorous to her if they continued to think that way.) So she paused, lightening her grasp to let Nafru recover her breath, slowly opening her eyes with a confused, nervous glimmer within.

“Hah… Haah, what?”

“You’re entirely capable of protecting yourself, yet… You’re not trying to stop me.”

The way Nafru’s face burned ever-brighter made her pause well worth it, and she very nearly cracked a smile when the Viera began to stutter, her ears flagging.

“Oh, well, that’s – I mean, that is to say I – it’s – thahaHAHAAA –”

Neither woman was quite sure if it was a mercy or a cruelty that Zero chose that moment to dig back in a little more voraciously, making Nafru jump and devolve into a far more panicked flood of laughter as she crumpled down the wall ever-so-slightly. This time, Zero did let a small smile slip upon her face, tilting her head to the right as she admired her handiwork.

“... It wasn’t a question. Just an observation.”

[mister-intru]

Feeling ko nanakawan ako ng smart today.

Warning: long post ahead.

NakaSmartdata lang kasi ako kapag andito sa apt and yung inaavail ko na sulit na promo na swak sa need ko ay yung promo na alldata599 for 601php sa Maya with 72GBdata for 90days (3months!!!) in which nacoconsume ko lang ng 1month. Takaw ko sa data. Tapos nung nagexpire yung subscription ko ngayon, syempre hanap-hanap ako sa same promo dun sa maya para magavail, nakita ko naman pero nagbago na yung terms. Same promo, same price, pero from 72gb for 90days to 48gb for 60days (Actually yung pagless nila sa data ang problem ko. Kasi, uulitin ko, matakaw ako sa data - maunawaan nyo sana ako sa part na to na magisa sa apt). Pero bonak ko rin, ngayon lang ako nagbasa ng spam messages ni smart and nagadvise pala sila month ago na mageend na yung terms. Hays. Hindi lang talaga ako emotionally prepared ngayon.

Panibagong isipin naman: diba may bagyo ngayon na likely this weekend (nov16-17) ang landfall pero based sa forecast mga sunday night pa magmamanifest sa metro manila - tho anticipated na may mga pagulan na mararanasan. Nagkataon kasi na may running event kami na sinalihan sa UPdiliman sa sunday. Yung mga same day running events from other areas ng metro manila, nagcancel na at nagresched. Pero itong event sa UP ay matigas ang buto at wala pa ring advisory. Last post sa fb page ay nagaadvise pa sila na agahan ang arrival sa event para hindi maipit sa traffic. Hindi ako tutuloy sa event kung uulan na may hangin dito sa area ko. Nafru-frustrate lang ako kasi parang walang pake sa weather or sa mga participants kahit andami ng comments dun sa socmed posts yung organizer or kung sino mang decision body nung event.

Anw, keep safe and stay dry guys.

TGIF!!! Dahil may chance na hindi ako matuloy sa running event sa sunday, nagbadminton na lang muna kami ngayon. Ayun. Palo-palo lang. Tamang panggap. Daming sakit sa katawan- sign of aging. Pero hindi na ako hinihingal (thanks sa running).

Bonus vidclip nobody asked:

CorpoSlave - Late and Coffee

[ghastimart]

Hi! I'm wondering what is the little snippet of a song that plays in the beginning of your YouTube video "Nafru -「DOKUHEBI」+DL"? Right in the beginning, lasts for 10 seconds! It sounds so beautiful.

Hi! That's Resolve from Okami! I use a lot of Okami music in my videos passively, if you haven't played it before / listened to the OST I greatly reccomend it!

[jocolatemousse]

Noong may mga dumaan na drivers na BBM supporters na sumisigaw sa amin ng "BBM", naaawa lang ako sa kanila. At nafru-frustrate. Pero when some drivers passed by silently with an L sign out their car window... naging emotional ako. Kasi kahit para sa taumbayan ito at hindi specifically para kay Leni, it was a nice contrast. Na tahimik sila, pero halata sa mukha nila na nakikiisa sila sa galit.

[dandanieeri]

Secret That Is Not Secret Anymore

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*Please ignore kung hindi interested, personal blog. This is me trying to reason out why I am like this.

And maybe hindi lang ako ito na nakakaranas ng kawalan ng confidence sa sarili. I know madaming tao na walang confidence but yeah, this is all about me.

First of all. Sobrang conscious akong tao.

I'm REALLY afraid kung anong sasabihin sa akin ng ibang tao. Kaya out of sa lahat ng kaklase ko nung HS, 2 lang may alam ng tunay kong personality (yung mga imperfections, kapangitan ng ugali ko and my mistakes)

Tbh ang tawag sa'kin nung HS ako Mama+myname dahil ng Mama - motherly figure ako and Mama Mary po yan dahil kamukha ko raw si Mama Mary /nauso yung movie ni Tony G. at Piolo. My friends among my classmates in HS actually called me that and that I am truly kind kasi lowkey lang ako. (Di po kasi ako nakikipagkompetensya sa academics sa section namin at walang nakaaway buong HS life ko. Kaya tingin nila mabait ako.) Pero like nakaenclose na sakin yon, buong HS life ko, dito lang ako sa Mabait. Nobody really tried to ask me about things. Di ko na lang din maalala. What I know is ako lang yung naiimpluwensyahan. Si J lang talaga yung sinabayan ako sa gusto ko, sumali sya sa Art Club para kasama ko sya kahit na hindi sya masyadong magaling sa art katulad ng iba.

It's not that peke yung pinapakita ko sa kanila... Ako pa rin naman yon eh. Kumbaga yung alam nila ay yung mababaw na ako, and wala pa sila dun sa malalim na ako. Yung 2 ko lang na bestfriends nung HS are the ones who really knew truths about me.

And now pagdating din ng College, ganun pa rin ako. I really thought magbabago ako and gain more confidence sa art ko and sa sarili ko. Unfortunately, konting improvement lang AT nagsimula lang yon nung nakasama ko ang 3 lukarit.

Still, sobrang conscious ako sa sasabihin ng iba kaya all smiles ako sa lahat /tho sanay na ako and smile brings positive energy/ Tbh ngayong College lang ako nakarinig ng compliments. Among my relatives, none at all. Among my HS friends, well they always told me I'm kind.

Kaya sobrang awkward kong magtake ng compliments. I mean, yas I LOVE compliments /sa mukha ko, sa art ko, sa utak ko/ BUT di ko alam ang irereact ng mukha ko at sasabihin ng bibig ko. I kept on thinking "Okay lang ba kung magte Thank you lang ako?" "Ibabalik ko ba sa kanya yung puri?" "Sasabihin ko ba 'Luh mas maganda nga to kay ganern o mas maganda ka'" Kaya if makakausap mo'ko, even sa chat, medyo matagal ako magreply kasi iisipin ko pa kung di ka maooffend sa sasabihin ko.

Tbh 4 na tao lang yung as in magrereply akong straight, (3g1b) and minsan din iniisip ko pa rin lahat bago magreply sa kanila. Maaari sabihin nila "Di naman siguro maooffend yan," well yeah they might not get offended but they will get AWKWARD. This is one of the main reasons why nagtatagal din ako magreply... Even kapag may kausap talaga ako or in a group /not in chat/ magsasalita ako and then matitigil na yung convo na ako yung huling nagsalita, sobrang nakakaawkward potek. Lmao.

Kaya I mostly stay quiet or just laugh with them kapag may ganung scenario. So ganun, no confidence, no good communication skills. Magrereact lang sa story ng classmate na maganda, ang natakbo sa utak ko, "Luh ngayon lang ako magrereact, baka maawkward/magulat sya kung bakit ako nagreact."

Yup, I hate my thoughts.

So I created another account in Twitter and IG just to freely express myself without minding kung sino mangja judge. And there nasasabi ko ang thoughts, rants ko, nakakapagstory ng mukha ko at mga ginagawa ko sa buhay. Unlike them na sa mismong real account nila nakakapagstory ng mga gusto nilang ishare.

Naiisip ko rin kung anong mali sa ishe share ko, alam kong wala, pero if magstory ako, daming magrereact and I don't effing know how to react/what to say to them. AND if magstory ako, I'm bothered and I will keep on thinking about that story for 24 hrs "Luh baka may manghate saken or ganon." Nafru frustrate rin ako sa sarili ko AHAHAHAHA.

So ganon na lang din, minsan nakakakuha ng confidence, okay post sa real account sa IG ng matino, pero like if random ding napasok minsan ang confidence ko na gusto kong magpost/magstory sa IG, todo hanap pa ng mga magandang quotes and everything... Kapag andun na sa 'Share,' nabackout na lang ako. Nasa isip ko "Bakit ko to ipopost?" "Ano ba pake nila saken?" "Ano kaya sasabihin nila rito?" Ganuuuuunnn I hate that.

At honestly, gaya nga ng sabi ko kanina, nagka confidence lang ako nung nakasama ko 3 lukarit. At konting praises and everything ng friends at classmates. Simula nung nagkasama kami, nakapaggawa ako ng art account ko sa IG kasi nakikita ko sa kanila na ginagawa nila gusto nila. After thesis lang ako nagkaron ng art account... Si A magaling mag edit ng vids and aesthetic, Si L magaling magcompose at kumanta, Si D magaling magluto, and everyone knows that. Ako ba, ano bang alam ng iba sa akin.

Yan naisip ko rin to why I started that account kaya sobra sobra ako magpopost don ng ginagawa ko sa buhay. ALTHOUGH hindi pa rin alam ng lahat na may ganun ako and hindi ko balak na ipaalam purposely sa kanila. If they like my art kung mapadaan sila sa account na yon, then follow me. Kasi I'm bothered na halos araw aeaw ako nagpo post, baka makulitan sakin at may kung anong masabi pa. Sobrang overthink ga. Ganern. Hadya nako nagkaron ng followers don and I'm proud din kasi di ko sila kilala so baka nagustuhan nila ang ginagawa ko. although yung iba support accounts but yeah hilahan lang to pataas. They support me and ako rin sa mga art accounts.

Nalaman ko na lang din ang pagsusulat at pagdo drawing nung 3rd year HS ako dahil ng aking bestfriend. Though ang dami ko pa nasulat non bago dumami ang views. Syempre pag nagpost ka ng art mo, eexpect mo madaming magkakagusto non, pero nuong HS, pinost ko na sa lahat ng sites na alam ko, wala pa rin. But andun na yon e, so hayaan ko na lang, kung sino makapansin, happy reading lang ganern. Naboost lang din non confidence ko sa pagsusulat after 4 yrs na nakapost sa wattpad yon, madaming viewers and comments, pero busy busyhan na nung College, hindi nako nakakagawa ng magandang istorya katulad non. Parang shet, nangalawang nako, so nag poem na lang ako. At tsaka rants. 🤣

So ngayon, bago ko sinimulang sulatin tong blog na ito, inisip ko kung bakit ako ganito. Like kung dahil ng environment or what. I know malaking parte yung confidence ko so ako ang rason kung bakit ako ganto. But I tried to look at my parents at yung kinalakhan ko hanggang HS na they never really had complimented me. I mean i know na better yon kesa sa fake support and smile di ba /pertains to HS classmates/ But sa isip ko, ang laking impact nung sa parents ko. I know hindi expressive parents ko tas si Papa nasa abroad. So I take on my mom, ni isa naman saming magkakapatid wala syang binigyan ng "praise." BUT DON'T GET ME WRONG, kaya yan naka air-quote ay dahil alam ko naman sa sarili ko na proud sya saming lahat and I don't really have a big problem with that. Ganun sya eh, at naging ganun din ako. I rarely compliment a person. Kasi iisipin ko, pagkatapos ko sya icompliment, ano sunod kong sasabihin. 🤣🤣

What bothered me dati sa mga relatives ko ay "Sayang chuchuchu." "Sayang gandang babae di nagsho shorts." "Sayang katangkad haba ng legs di nagshoshorts." At ngayon napapatawa na lang ako dahil ng mga sayang na yan. Ang dami ko kayang stretch marks non sa tuhod (dahil ng pantal na allergies) tas ang itim pa ng tuhod ko, kaya di rin ako naniwala. Tsaka if magshort ako, jusko pupunahin na ng buong kamag anakan ko at himalang nagshorts ako. Nang aamboy ganun, kaya never never ako nagshorts hanggang makatapos ng HS, hanggang pedal lang ako.

And siguro dahil nakalakhan ko na rin na si Ate yung nape praise, then pagdating sakin, joke na. "Yun si Ate Top 1, quizzer, Valedictorian." Pagdating sakin "Yan si M tomboy, chess lang ki-chess, are panuorin mo tong anime na are" So don nagsisimula ang kwentuhan at jokes /like everytime na may get together./ But I didn't take it in a bad way kasi may honor din ako nung elem days. And alam ko rin kung ano kaya kong gawin, magaling akong magchinese garter nong elem, maayos nako magdrawing at sumulat nung HS, mas umayos akong magdrawing nung College, tsaka magrant CHAR. GANERN. Ganon ko lang kino compare sarili ko until now. Magaling sya sa ganto, at least magaling ako sa ganto. So I do my own business lang ganern.

So I do think na I have confidence sa sarili ko, na hindi ako mas mababa sa kanila, kumbaga ibang kategorya lang ako, the problem is, hindi ko kaya ilabas yung confidence na yon nang ako lang. i just do that for academic reasons but when pertaining to my own art and myself, talo ako dyan.

Tsaka siguro maiisip din ng iba, buti ka nga, may alam kang gawin, matalino ganto ganyan. Pero yun na nga, matalino nga ako, madaming drawings, madaming published stories, pero bakit wala pa ring confidence. I invested so much on these things, sobrang hirap na ikimkim nang ganito yung art ko na gusto ko nakikita at naaappreciate rin ng iba. Sobrang hirap na feel ko ang ganda ko ngayong araw, feel ko ang ganda ko sa picture na to pero di ko maishare kasi takot ako sa sasabihin ng iba. So please don't think na buti pa ako, don't say "Ikaw na magaling. Ikaw na ang madaming alam. Ikaw na ang madaming kayang gawin," /yup may nagsabi na sa akin nyan./ Have confidence? I've been trying to have that since the time I realized the things that I can do. And it's hard.

___

P.S.

I'm still trying. I'm not closed to improving myself. And again, this is a rant.

And (6)STINSA po ito sadya kasi I have the (5) STINSA that I can't or won't(?) publish.

- ERI

[dumparchivesblog]

I think I really need to seek help and advice from a professional... lately I've been feeling a little lost. It's not the first time I've felt this way. Pero parang 'di ko na talaga siya kaya on my own this time. I live in a world of make-believe. I'm such a good faker that I've managed to make people believe that I'm living a happy life and that I've got it all figured out when the truth is its the opposite.

I'm in deep shit right now and having a hard time leaving this hell hole. I feel anxious most of the time and can't help but ask myself when will this all end? Sobrang nafru-frustrate ako in life ngayon. Ayoko ng ganitong feeling, I want it to stop but how? How do I make it go away. I always felt like I could save people and help them from whatever shit they're in when the truth is I'm the who needed saving. I feel so empty right now, hindi pa naman totally ubos na ubos pero malapit na. Nandun ako sa point na isang hibla nalang bibigay na.

I used to be the person telling other people that things will get better and that everything's gonna be okay. Pero hindi e, hindi siya nakukuha sa ganon lang. I don't need for people to be telling me that everything will be fine or to just think positively. It doesn't go that way. Natatakot ako. Sa mga susunod na mangyayari, at sa mga posible pang mangyari. I don't know what's next. What I'm feeling right now is eating me up, it's getting the better of me and I'm letting it get to my head so much.

[themakatiscandal]

Alam mo tung feeling na parang nafru frustrate ka or nadedepress then after mong magbook ng hotel accommodation, airfare at Figure Skating tournament, biglang sobrang masaya ka na? Ilang nights na akong di makatulog. Gusto ko talaga eh. Gusto kong maexperience ang Winter Olympics. 😊. Ayan, feeling ko may peach of mind na ako. Iba talaga pag gusto mo ang isang bagay. Pinagisipan ko ang Singapore, Palawan at Batanes pero parang balewala. Ayan, okay na ako. Hindi na lang muna ako gagastos. Walang iinom. Walang maglunch out sa mamahaling resto. Maglalakad ako pauwi lagi. Excited na ako! 😊 Excited na akong mag birthday! 😊

[dar-joyce]

Nafru-frustrate ako sa sarili ko ngayon. Ktnxbye

[ffreyolxiv]

Day 2; Payment

"And what on earth is this for...?" "I'm sure I have more than a handful of IOU's to repay, so just pick one and enjoy the muffin."

[trilotechcorp]

New Post has been published on PBA-Live

New Post has been published on http://pba-live.com/tim-cone-expects-jervy-cruz-to-play-bigger-role-in-game-5-for-ginebra/

Tim Cone expects Jervy Cruz to play bigger role in Game 5 for Ginebra

After missing Game 3, the undersized forward made a brief appearance Friday night, scoring just a point as Ginebra suffered a 94-85 defeat andfalling into a 1-3 hole in the championship series against San Miguel.

“Naiilang ako kasi baka tamaan, di pa talaga 100 percent eh,” a disappointed Cruz told FOX Sports on Saturday.

“Sayang, nafru-frustate talaga ako kasi nagkataon pang Finals. Nakakahinayang kasi di makatulong sa team,” added the soft-spoken big man.

The hard-banging Cruz is easily one of Ginebra’s biggest contributors off the bench before hurting his shoulder during a collision with San Miguel’s June Mar Fajardo in Game 2 in Lucena.

Against Star in the semifinals, the former University of Santo Tomas stalwart averaged a decent 8.43 points and 4.29 rebounds off the bench—quality numbers Ginebra exactly misses in the title series against San Miguel.

As he watched his team helplessly for a big chunk of Game 4 on the bench, Cruz could only wish he’ll get better come Sunday.

“Sana mas okay na talaga. Kasi may movement talaga ako na hindi ako kumportable pero gusto ko maglaro,” he said.

Ginebra coach Tim Cone, though, hopes Cruz will be much better in Game 5 after several days of therapy and rest.

“I expect him to play a bigger role,” said Cone, whose team hopes to draw a massive support from its legion of fans come Game 5 at the Smart Araneta Coliseum.

Source: http://www.foxsportsasia.com/en-ph/basketball/news/detail/item633022/tim-cone-expects-jervy-cruz-to-play-bigger-role-in-game-5-for-ginebra/

[ffreyolxiv]

Day 3; Wish

"I still remember sneaking up here with you when we were little. You really were a bad influence." "Haha, believe what you want! I think it worked out for the better; every wish we made up here eventually came true."

[ffreyolxiv]

Day 8; Relinquish

"M'am Freyol said this was your room when you were little... Is it really okay for me to use it..?" "I've got plenty more rooms all across the realm, Rhoe. I'm more than happy to give this one to you. Make it yours."

[ffreyolxiv]

Day 7; Pause

Hanging upside-down from high places simply doesn't strike fear into her heart anymore... Rather, the blood rushing to her head seems to help her think clearer.

[ffreyolxiv]

Day 6; Victory

Her greatest victory...? Well, that would be the hearts she's won - some more dear than others.