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ENTM Tumblr Cycle 11

Round 8: Spring Fever

Hi folks! Our last round for this cycle - and on this platform - was a celebration of the warm weather and beautiful spring flowers. I asked our models to go out and take a pastel shot with some pretty spring plants. Our models all showed off their joy for the season, but the most joyous this round was:

Kota Tumet

Congratulations! The judges all loved how serene this shot was - truly the embodiment of a warm spring day.

Our guest judge this week was Twilight Dove of ENTM, the runner up of YouTube Cycle 2. Thanks Twilight!

The winner of ENTM Tumblr Cycle 11 will be announced in the NEXT POST.

In the meantime, for all our models, we have critiques and parting comments from our judges below the fold.

Judge Twilight

Adam Evershot: This shot feels a bit like I'm having a romantic spring stroll through a glade with a Prince Charming. I really enjoy the depth of the shot with you (or us?) walking toward the forest, but I wish that there was a clearer destination in those trees. The hint of the building just off to the side is a nice touch, but I wish it were a little less obscured by the foliage near the camera. I do think you've done a good job giving us a gentle action shot, and the overall feel of it makes your choice to be facing away from the camera work in your favor.

Kota Tumet: What a lovely screen shot! You look so serene, I can almost smell the flowers and feel the gentle breeze just looking at you! Great job, this shot really says "spring"!

Ni'ko Shae: I'm surprised you were the only one to take a photo in the rain! You're very on brand with your choice to take a photo with the purple flowers of the Sylphlands, I do feel like the background might be a bit too busy, and the lights behind you are a tiny bit distracting, but you placed yourself well in the frame and you lit yourself in a way that helps you stand out even though you're dressed nearly entirely in purple as well. Good job!

Peaceful Ursa: The softness of this photo helps make the bright, saturated colors feel more springy when they could have otherwise threatened to be a bit more on the summer side. I'm not sure how I feel about your choice to use the ripped paper border, it feels a bit distracting having such a jagged edge when everything in your picture is soft, it would be nice to have seen a version of this without the border or with a more pastel color filter to make the border a little less of a stark contrast. Your glamour is very pretty (My favorite glam of the round!) and fits in with your surroundings nicely without letting you fall into the background, nicely done!

Luma Lee: The colors in this picture are so nice, and I love the framing with the flowers and tree! My one gripe is that I feel that you're so far to the right that the left side of the screen feels a little empty. I really do like how this image feels though, like you're so happy to be looking at these flowers under a warm spring sky, good job this week!

Yojimbo Kasai: This photo is calm in a way that says spring to me, but the colors and the lack of any flowers or obviously green foliage make it feel a little cold. I'm torn between feeling like this image is early spring, or a warm summer's day, I really wish there was some more foliage around to really drive that spring vibe home for me. Your pose and the way you're framed in the picture are nice though, it makes me feel like pulling up a lawn chair and joining you in what I imagine is a very pleasant afternoon nap!

Yomu Kazul: Spring is the season of love, and that is what your picture looks to be all about! I love the concept of the botanist being seduced by the spring nymph, its a unique take on the theme and you did a good job with it. Your position is obviously front and center with your extra blending in with the scenery nicely without completely disappearing, the colors are nicely balanced, and you're both framed well in the shot. Nice job!

Haila Wetyios: The colors in this shot are very nice and vibrant, and your choice to use red was bold and sets you apart from most of the other contestants! When it comes to your pose and position in the frame, I like that it feels like you're welcoming the viewer to your spring garden, but I wish you'd positioned yourself in a more intentional looking way, right now you're inhabiting the space between center and 1/3d and it feels a little awkward to me. I like that you set up your garden for this shot and made sure it felt springy, and I feel like with a little bit of fiddling around with your surroundings and your position you'd have an even nicer image on your hands.

Judge Ona

Haila, my love! How beautiful you look in this image! Surrounded by such lush vegetation and greenery! You absolutely fit the role of Balmung’s flower lady! I absolutely love the variety of color and the outfit choice as well!

Things to consider: If you’re going to do a dead centered shot, make sure its exactly centered, otherwise it can just create just enough of a feeling of disquiet causing the image to appear weaker. Also, having the roses next to you with just a tiny bit of blurring, would have made you stand out much more.

Things I love: Your glamour is spot on for a spring scenic theme. I also love how you created a scene that highlights so many beautiful colors, and still allows you to be the focus of the image. The time spent to create the scene has helped to fit your own narrative, while also following the theme of the round.

Haila, it was wonderful to be able to be on this side of the table for this round of Tumblr and to be able to give you my critiques on your beautiful images.

Peaceful: You look absolutely adorable here Peaceful. I want to be sitting next to you smelling those wonderful flowers. I hate to say it, but you are the definition of Peaceful here.

Things to consider: When given the prompt of scenic, it is ok to include more of the background and have yourself be less of the focus. That being said, your use of the frame here, takes away from the overall image, and really the image would have been stronger without it. I would also caution you to use the sharpening tool wisely, as you are blurrier than the foreground flowers. This, unfortunately caused you to be less of the focus, putting the focus on the flowers and not you.

Things I love: I love how you dyed your clothes to match the color of the flowers. I also love your pose and expression. It really creates that calming feeling that I feel spring flowers deserve. Lastly, kneeling in front of the tree added an additional level of texture and dimension to the image.

Thank you for turning in such beautiful images this cycle and really taking a chance with your big Roe self. I have enjoyed following your progress and hope to compete against you in the future.

Yomu: When I first looked at your image, I was utterly confused. What is this 70’s show scene doing here and why is Yomu love drunk. Then I saw the girl in the background. I guess you’re taking after Bambi and are officially twitterpated.

Things to consider: Your extra blends in a lot. Because of this, I didn’t understand your emote. If the viewer isn’t analyzing the image, it may not be as strong as it could be. I would also try to keep all glam consistent, especially if you’re going for a theme in your image. Maybe try to put your extra in the same clothing style as your character next time.

Things I love: Your glam. You picked such a difficult theme to get right, but you pulled it off. And honestly, I have NEVER seen anyone use this hair style! The location is beautiful, and it definitely fits the overall Scenic Spring feel

Yomu, it has been so wonderful being able to see your images improve through the competition. I would love to see you try another cycle and continue to improve your images!

Ni’Ko: Another beautiful image Ni’ko, and finally a chance for you to use that signature color of yours. I would have expected nothing less of you then to find the most purple field and take the most purple picture you could get.

Things to consider: You have this very obvious purple theme, yet are wearing bright green pants. The blue butterfly seems a bit out of place as well. It blends too much, while also being this completely odd color that doesn’t quite match the rest of the image.

Things I love: Your pose is perfect for a cat who actually enjoys the rain. I also love that you chose rain showers for your image. Although we think of bright cheery flowers for the spring, we need to remember the importance of the rain through the spring and. I also love how you chose to do this image at night. It is definitely a different approach to Springtime then the other models. It was an excellent choice to say the least!

As you already know Ni’ko, it has been a pleasure to be your judge this cycle, and I cannot wait to compete against you in future rounds!

Judge Nadede

Adam Evershot: What wouldn’t be spring without a walk out in nature, taking in the fresh air of spring and seeing everything growing back anew. It is one of my favorite parts of spring actually. While a lovely shot, I feel that it is a bit on the overlit side, possibly due to a combination of outdoor lighting, filter and any extra lighting (if any) you used. You’ll just have to play around via trial and error to get the lighting to where it doesn’t look too washed out. That said, I do wish that there was some form of rim lighting used, especially around your head as it blends in with the tree and rock in the background. Nice job all-in-all and very glad to see you improving big time from last cycle to this.

Luma Lee: One thing that I enjoy about spring, all the pretty flowers that are in bloom. Not too bad of a job from you this week. The bottom half of your image, the lighting I feel is nicely done. The top half though is blown out from the sun being right over you, giving you that blinding flash of light in your image that is a bit distracting. From how your shot is set up, I feel as if though something should be in the foreground, like a minion or a bug that you’re trying to find in the flowers. Something like that would have given your image more of a story to tell. Just something to keep in mind, how can I tell a story within my image? Overall though, you’ve shown improvement throughout the cycle and feel that you’ve taken in from feedback given. Good job.

Yomu Kazul: Looking at your image, I was trying to figure out as to why you seem head over heels in love. Took quite a few times looking at your image and then I saw her, the forest nymph (?) in the background. It is an interesting play on the theme “Spring Fever” as it looks as if you are feverishly in love. Lighting around you I feel is pretty good. I do wish that your nymph had some lighting around her so that she didn’t blend in so well with grass. It took me a bit to even see her and wish I could’ve seen her sooner. Overall I think you did pretty well this week and throughout the cycle. You seemed pretty consistent in my book. Great work.

Kota Tumet: Such a lovely portrait of you this week. Your lighting, glamour, filter and pose compliments each other very well this week. Even the DoF (depth of field) is nicely done. This would be the epitome of what springtime means to me as it is something I try to do when possible (next to spring walks).Sitting outside, soaking in the sun with sketchbook, a good book in hand or have just music playing. I can say compared to your image from week 1 until now, all I can see is a vast improvement on your shots (I was blown away from last week’s image btw). Should be proud of yourself and keep up the great work.

Judge Terrini

Adam: This is a very pleasant stroll through the shroud and you have great framing here. I do have a couple of nitpicks here, one being the tower in the distance being a little hard to see, it would have a bit more impact if you could have had that a bit more prominent, the other thing being that your chosen filter seems to leave the shot's colors a bit uninspired. Something that made the colors pop more would have suited the warm colors in my opinion. It may have also brought out the yellow of your hair more instead of let your head fade a little into the background.

Haila: You seem to be all out into spring planting and I like that impression. The colors are really bright and bold but I would have liked to see you a bit more involved with the garden setting than simply being "welcome to my home." Also the choice of orange-red in your outfit makes the orange-red autumn trees in the background a bit more prominent and underwhelms the spring theme. A bolder red to match the roses or a more pastel or neutral color would have tied things together and downplayed the hint of autumn behind you.

Kota: Such a pastoral place to sit down and relax. I love the garden you found to take a seat in so much, but I think it might have been nice to have an outfit that was a slightly more pronounced pink or even a blue to tie in with the sky as you do fade a bit into the beautiful scenery. Besides that though, definitely a very strong shot overall. Lovely composition.

Yojimbo: I love this pose and the trees surrounding you are quite lovely, but the colors and contrasts do not leave me thinking spring. The abundance of white is more reminiscent of winter, the blue striped lounge is a hint of summer and the brown of your outfit seems more akin to fall. On top of this, your depth of field is focused on your torso when it would be best suited to be more focused on your face and arm in the forground. Individually I love all the elements here, but they do not come together well to fit the spring theme.

Judge Wulf

Well, you did it! You’ve reached the end of an ENTM cycle! I’m very happy and proud of all of you, and while I’m not fully able to give a personal message to each of you, I want you each to know how proud I am of you for following critiques, growing, and improving! You’ve made this another fun cycle for me to judge, and I can’t wait to see where you all go from here!

LUMA The first thing I really want to praise you for here how very in-focus the foreground is, and how much having those close-up plants really enhances the picture! The lighting is so bright here, and that’s a wonderful thing to communicate the feeling of spring. I feel warm and fuzzy all over just looking at this picture, and I’d say it’s one of your best so far! The up angle you have along with you crouching down makes me feel like I’m seeing this from the POV of a caterpillar or flower. I’m very happy with how far you’ve come throughout this cycle, and I want you to keep exploring new and creative ways to tell your story!

NI’KO You always have a knack for turning a theme on its head and showing me what I least expect, and this week is no exception! Yes, everything is dark and lacking the usual colors that one associates with spring, but in this picture? I am totally on board with it! The butterfly really stands out as a color contrast against everything else in the picture, including you! It’s a clash I can’t take my eyes off, and I’m willing to bet that’s the point! Also, after so much change, you’ve chosen to come to the final round in your signature Ni’ko look, which I certainly missed! Keep bringing your unique ideas to whatever you do I look forward to how you surprise us in the future!

PEACEFUL I love this frame – so much. It makes anything look like it was taken out of an old storybook. You do an excellent job with using this frame to create interesting edges to your photo. Your photo itself this week is also one of your strongest. You’ve clearly been listening when it comes to lighting, motion, and angles! One thing I super love about your photo this week is how you’ve made yourself compliment your surroundings – the purples and blues on you really serve to blend yourself in with the lavender around you! Peaceful, you’ve really improved over these past eight rounds, and I can’t wait to see you go further! Remember all you’ve learned this cycle, and make sure you keep trying new things!

YOJIMBO I can hear the soft piano and the breeze that accompanies this picture. I also think I hear the ocean, given a bit of your attire! Seriously, this picture is so relaxing! You very much take up most of the frame, but you’ve got a lot of little details on the edges that clue us into the full picture of what’s going on here. The blue sky, the corner of the umbrella, the tree branches, and the little bit of bench all come together and we fill the rest of it in with our mind. This is a good example of not needing to show everything, only what’s necessary. You’ve done an excellent job this cycle, and I hope you stick with us and keep showing us what you’ve got!

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zqwxce · 3 years

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Buti di ko pa nadedicate ang Sanctuary ni Joji and Die For You ni The Weekend sa mga wrong person. 🙏🏻🙏🏻

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crisjhamleico · 5 years

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How are we? Part 1.

I'm a little sad na hindi ko na update ang tumblr ko. Hindi ko na posts lahat from day one ng motherhood ko 'til date. So here it goes...

January 25th, 10:06pm.. a bouncing 3kg healthy Baby Girl was born, we named her Janin L. Baronia.

Ito yung pinakanakakatakot na part ng buhay ko. I was anesthesized because I ofted for Epidural. So wala akong maramdaman na pain. Sabi ng O.B ko, full 10cm na'ko ready for Delivery na.. lalabas na si baby. Ng nasa Delivery Room na kami, habang nireready nila ako sa position and all, nanginginig ako ako sa kaba at takot. At ginuide nalang nila ako kung paano at kelan ako magpupush. Ilang saglit lang lumabas na si Baby.

Then I heard her first cry at hinawakan ko ang ulo niya agad kahit di pa siya punas. Hehehe.

Like what I always tell her, na pag labas niya iiyak siya pero saglit lang. Ganun nga ang ginawa niya. Dalawang ngawa lang huminto na at nagtingin tingin sa paligid.

"Her birth is also my birth. Its a second life of me."

Dapat ibababa agad ako sa kwarto ko pagkawala ng anesthesia pero hindi pa kasi nilagnat ako. Again, natakot nanaman ako. Kasi baka manganib yung buhay ko. Pero kumilos ako at nagpunas punas ng katawan gamit ung pinatong na tela sa ulo ko. At nagdasal ako na sana mawala na lagnat ko. After 30mins or 1hr ibinaba nako sa kwarto ko. Hindi ko agad kinuha si baby sa nursery dahil hindi ko pa alam ang gagawin. Ng naramdaman ko na ung sakit ng tahi ko,iyak ako ng iyak kasi para akong tibe na gusto ko tumae at gutom ako sabi ko sa kapatid ko. Kinabukasan pinagalitan ako ni doktora kasi ang arte ko daw. Magkilos na daw ako at mag linis dahan dahan lang. Naalala ko si baby na gusto ko ng makita/maview sa nursery kaya kaylangan ko ng kumilos. Ng kaya ko na kahit papaano sabi ko ppunta ako pag pwede na sa nursery magpapabreastfeed. Ayun, duon nahawakan ko ulit si baby. Hindi ako makapaniwala na nakikita ko na talaga siya at akap ko na sya. Usually, kinabukasan dapat lumalabas na agad ng ospital. Pero hindi muna ako nagpalabas. Linggo nako nagpalabaa, kaylangan kayanin kahit ang bigat ng katawan ko ang sugat ko masakit.. ng lumabas na kami pumunta si Niño at ang magulang niya kasama ang mga bata. Heto na ung pinakachallenge sa relasyon namen, ung maging magulang na talaga kami at gampanan ung responsibilidad.

Aww.. I'm so happy nito, kasi it's like a dream come true.. having both of them in my life.. to have a family of my own..

Ayun, umuwi na kami sa bahay. Nag iiyak si baby. Akala ko,pag uwi namen yun na yun, pag naiyak papadedehin lang hindi ko naman expect na wala pala siyang nadede saken nuon sa nursery sumisipsip lang siya. Kaya no choice kundi mag formula. Naiyak ako, kasi natakot ako.. natakot ako, naoverwhelmed sa nangyayare at yung umiiyak siya na hindi ko alam anong gagawin ko sa kanya para tumahan siya. At take note pa na lahat naman kami magkakapatid walang alam sa baby at walang nakakatanda sa tabi ko na gagabay saken. Pinupuntahan lang ako ni Ninang. Hindi oa kasi nakauwi si mama.. Ang challenge pa e yung gatas ko, gusto ko siya ibreastfeed. Pilit kong pinalabas at pinadami ung gatas ko. Eventually nakakapagextract nako. And later on, nag BF at Formula na siya. Mixed. Ang bilis din ng mga pangyayare at nakaisang linggo agad kami..

Postpartum Depression - hindi ko expect na ito yung nangyayare saken hanggang sa ishinare ko sa mga kaybigan ko na nanay nadin ung nararanasan ko pag naiiwan kami ni baby. Dumating ako sa point na umiiyak si baby, umiiyak din ako kasi hindi ko na alam anong gagawin ko.. lahat ginawa ko na pero ayaw niyang tumahan.. plus pa ung puyat at pagod at nalilipasan ng gutom.. natatanong ko sarili ko, bakit nangyayare saken to? Ang aga pa saken nito.. nahihirapan ako.. at yung pakiramdam na connected ako sa Anak ko ay hindi ko maramdaman.. gusto kong magtago sakanya pero nakakaawa dahil hindi naman niya alam yung nangyayare.

Hanggang sa dumating na si mama, nakaluwag luwag ako at nakakapag pahinga na dahil natutulungan na niya ako. Dalawa kami gumigising, nagpapatulog kay baby. Tuwang tuwa si Mama kay baby at asikasong asikaso si baby. Unang apo e.

Ang bilis.. biglang lumubo si baby in just one month..

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miriammerin-blog-diary · 6 years

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Sinusubukan ko nang patulugin sya. Kaya Lights off na kami. Medyo inis pa ako kasi kanina pa sya nadede pero di parin sya natutulog. Yumakap sya sakin nung ginawa nya yan. Putol kasi una kala ko dumadaldal nya. Nung mapansin ko paghimas himas nya sa tummy ko dun ko narealize kumakanta pala sya. Natuwa ako bigla kasi ako kinakantahan nya para lumamig ulo ko. Mangiyak ngiyak ako sa "i love you" sa kanta nya.haha (kasi ang cute at yun lang naintindihan ko)haha awwwe i love you too @leonardwood.rarela my forever pride and joy. Thank you for the singing to mommi.😘 #leonardwood2019 #32ndbirthday (at Makati) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bve1m6IFizg/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1bh4dbemhz0nt

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arvoze · 4 years

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i make images

#orikero #nadede #my art #th r2nd one is really really good i love it sm

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ronnajean · 6 years

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"Yung ikaw NA nga Ung pinadede nangiirap kpa 😒 " ... Hahah Ang sama ng tingin sakin ng baby ishaa habang pinapadede ko Wala Kc mami Nya May inasikaso sa work , so dalawang bagets Ang pinadede ko 🌸🌸 🍼🍼 .. Habang nadede nagtitigan Kaming dalawa 😁 iniisip ko anu Kaya iniisip nito sakin ahaha .. Pag lapag sabay lalamutakin ko muka Nya para ngumiti NA sya at napakadali 💁🏻 Kc mukang bungisngis si aling Elisha 😊 Nangalay mga braso ko sa bigat mo ishaaang 😞 #titaAndIshang👸🏻👧🏻🍼 #liquidlove https://www.instagram.com/p/BqeMg1jBGfJnsbrDpDnm-XSnDgsdDNH1yhALNE0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1cchbd5v20vmx

#titaandishang👸🏻👧🏻🍼#liquidlove

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booksoficeandfire · 7 years

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Twenty Long Months

It has been twenty long months since I first saw her face, her rosy cheeks, her long eyelashes, and her sweet smile. It has been twenty long months when I started breastfeeding her.

Hailie’s been my pain reliever, stress reliever, my cuddle buddy, my bundle of joy since she came into my life. But it has been few weeks since it started to be painful... I’ve been asking myself what to do. What should I do? Should I give up or should I go on?

When I got pregnant, I joined different facebook groups that tackles on how to be the best mom. Hanggang sa dumating na ako sa puntong araw-araw, andun na ako sa mga groups na ‘yun para lang makakuha ng idea sa kung paano ako manganganak, kung paano ako iire, kung paano ako kakalma sa labor pains at kung paano ko successfully mapapadede ang anak ko. Dahil sabi ng karamihan, hindi raw lahat ng ina, may gatas ‘pag nakalabas ang baby. Which is oh-so-wrong. Lahat po tayo, merong gatas. Hindi lang tayo aware lalo na kung unang mga araw pa lang ni baby. Kasi colostrum pa lang ‘yun, malapot at konti lang - kasyang kasya lang sa tummy ni baby na maliit pa sa jolen.

I learned everything I need to learn - alone. Nagawa kong hindi siya patikimin ng kahit ano except breastmilk until 6 months old. Something I am really proud of. Pagdating niya ng 6 months old, fruits and veggies ang una kong ipinakain sa kanya dahil ayokong maging pihikan siya sa pagkain at ayokong kung anu-anong pagkain ang kinakain niya - and again, I succeeded. Kasi ngayon, paborito niya ang gulay (esp malunggay) at isda pati prutas. They tried to lure me on giving her formula milk para raw hindi laging sa akin nakadepende - kesyo konti na lang daw ang nutrients na nakukuha niya sakin dahil hindi naman na daw nag-engorge yung breasts ko di gaya dati (not knowing na hindi naman indicator ang pag engorge ng breasts sa dami ng supply; as long as may dumedede, may lalabas na gatas). They tried, but they failed. Wala siyang ibang ininom na gatas until 1 year old siya. Never siyang nakatikim ng kahit anong processed food at proud akong sabihin na hindi siya choosy sa pagkain. Hindi rin siya nag-vitamins pero hindi siya nagkakasakit except sa occasional na ubo at sipon. She’s strong... because of me. Because of my milk.

Some might think I am over-reacting dahil ganito ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. I am currently pregnant for 6 months. My mom is trying to introduce formula to her dahil kailangan na raw niyang i-wean. Hindi ko alam ang mararamdaman ko. Malakas kumain si Hailie. Ganado siya palagi at bukod sa breakfast, lunch at dinner, lagi siyang may meryenda. Pero sakin pa rin siya nadede. Kung ako lang, ayoko siyang i-wean. I want her to self-wean. I read a lot about tandem breastfeeding and I want both of them to breastfeed esp when I give birth to Ember. Pero parang di ko magagawa dahil sa mga taong nakapaligid sakin. I know, they just want the best for me... and ayaw lang nilang manghina ako kasi nga buntis ako pero sakin pa rin nadede si Hailie. I just don’t know what to do. I am torn in giving her formula milk and continuing to breastfeed her. Pakiramdam ko, mababawasan ang bonding time naming mag-ina ‘pag ganon. ‘Yung feeling na di na niya kelangan ang dede para lang makatulog. Na di na niya ko kailangang tawagan pag inaantok siya. Naiiyak ako naiisip ko pa lang.

Gusto pa siyang hiramin ng mga magulang ko at ng in-laws ko para daw pag nanganak ako, sanay na siyang hindi ako ang nakakatabi niya sa pagtulog. Pero iniisip ko pa lang, parang nadudurog na ko. I know, it may sound oa sa mga makakarinig o makakabasa pero yun ang nararamdaman ko. Hindi ako sanay na wala sa tabi ko si Hailie. Hindi ako sanay na hindi ako yung kailangan niyang makita bago siya matulog. Hindi ako sanay na di ako yung nagpapakain sa kanya o naghahanda ng pagkain niya. HIndi ako sanay na di ko siya nakikita at di ko siya nayayakap lalo na sa gabi. I think... I would go crazy without her. Sobrang nasanay ako sa presence niya dahil hindi naman kami nagkakahiwalay sa loob ng 20 months na to. ‘Pag umaalis ako, kasama ko siya lagi - kung hindi man, sobrang saglit lang kung maiwan ko siya. Natatakot akong dumating yung time na wala siya rito sa bahay at di ko siya naririnig.

I don’t know if I can let her sleep on her grannies even when I give birth to her little sibling. Kahit sobrang kulit na niya ngayon at madalas na siyang umiyak dahil hindi ko siya laging nakakarga, love na love ko pa rin siya at baby ko pa rin siya. Hindi ko kayang mawala siya sa paningin ko nang matagal. I don’t know if it’s just me but I want my children just around me esp when they’re little. Hindi ko lang siguro ugali yung iwan sa ibang kamag-anak or grandparents ang anak kaya ganon? O dahil yun yung mindset ko esp nung nagkaron ako ng pamilya? Ayokong may lumipas na araw na di ko sila kasama. Kasi di ko naman alam kung kelan ako mawawala. And I want to spend everyday with them.

I love Hailie. At ayokong mag-end yung bf journey namin ng ganito. Ayoko ring malayo siya sakin nang matagal. I don’t know if I can stand that. Feeling ko, dinedeprive ko siyang uminom ng milk ko sa tuwing sinasabi ng parents ko na i-wean ko na siya. Feeling ko, nababawasan ‘yung pagiging ina ko sa kanya dahil dun. Nalulungkot ako. Until now, di pa rin ako makapag-decide. Alam kong parang ang damot ko dahil ayoko siyang ipahiram, pero yun kasi yung nararamdaman ko bilang ina.

#bfjourney #journeywithatehailie

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