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sadlazzle · 2 years

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y r neurotypical ppl so rude and mean. they’ll say something unbelievably insensitive and mean spirited and then b like ‘oh i didn’t mean it like that tho :) it’s fine :)’ as if they didn’t just let u know exactly what they really think of u as a neurodivergent person

#im filling out some forms for some stuff at the minute n my mother decided to fill it in first without me #she asked me to read thru it today n add where i felt necessary #so i did. first issue she used PEN on the actual form to write a first draft which pissed me off #but then i notice she’s added some details of her own volition that i would not have approved of #n these little additions just get worse and worse and it’s rlly upsetting #like oh. okay. so that’s what u really think of me. that’s how u rlly see me #and now. bc she wrote it in pen. i can’t do anything abt it #i can’t change anything she’s written #n it jst makes me wanna cry bc i didn’t think she of all people would see me that way #i guess i was wrong. i guess i was wrong #i jst don’t rlly know what to do now. if she hated how i was this much why hasn’t she thrown me in a hospital somewhere yet?#bc after the shit she wrote it feels like that’s the next step #and that hurts even more bc she knows one of my biggest fears is being put away in some hospital #it’s rlly dragged my mood way down. i don’t rlly wanna speak to her #i tried to explain what was wrong w the forms but she started to get a bit defensive #and when she gets defensive she can be nasty n i don’t rlly wanna deal w that rn #plum.txt

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