#n i doubt im making any sense cuz idk what my point is either

[gen15gg]

so jackie died in 1996 right? n u could argue that it was partially shaunas fault (though ik they r two sides of the same coin)

what’s rlly freaking me out rn is that their football assigned numbers r 9 and 6. jackie died in 96”. as a result of her argument w shauna who is ‘6’

[yaboyspodcastpalace]

For the character asks: Jon, Peter Lukas, Annabelle Cane? (giving multiple suggestions so you can pick one in case you get the same character twice in different asks)

very kind of you to assume i get many asks :') THANKS ill do all of them u_u

[Send me a character and i'll tell you...]

(under the cut bc i love talking and this got long lmao)

Jon

First impression

he's a uptight prick with obvious favoritism for sasha and tim and i love him so! much!!!!!!

Impression now

my poor little mew mew hm................I've got a complicated relationship w/ jon bc i love him a lot, but i loved s1 him the most, and literally everything else just makes me really, brutally, sad ;_; The way he tries so desperately to cling to his humanity and how other characters just call him by the title imposed to him makes me wanna cry

...also he just cares so much ;_; i cry

Favorite moment

probably his interactions with georgie at the beginning of season 3!!! From s5 id say when he killed not!sasha, it felt vindictive ù_ú

Idea for a story

Dhfhdh im p basic when it comes to him ngl, either jon/tim/sasha friends to lovers or jon and desolation!tim or *something*!sasha trying to stay as human as possible, together 😔 (or just any of them living and coping together in s4 n s5)

Unpopular opinion

Im just not a fan of monster jon, at all! He's not the type of character that i enjoy seeing having a corruption arc unfortunately!! It just hurts!!! (and this Is from someone that Loves corruption arcs!!!)

Also i really hate moth jon imagery??? For not particular reason, moths are pretty, but i still hate it u_u AND THE ASSOCIATION OF GREEN W/ JON (or the beholding in general!) I CANNOT STAND IT!! i know its bc of the tma logo but guess what! Its wrong! Purple jon rights!!!

ALSO ALSO the so called pining he had for martin just.... didnt felt like that at all! i have Many feelings abt this!

Favorite relationship

either georgie in s3, or sasha!!! i love how he always praises sasha in her research in s1 and even thought he's at his driest & sharp Trying-To-Project-Professionalism-And-Skepticism she still rolls into his office, interrupts him mid statement to banter w/ him abt pronunciation n stuff and its just Normal, like that speaks volumes of how comfortable they felt around each other! they were friends gdi! the moment he realizes she died and then everytime the not!them mocks him w/ her death makes me wanna break smth q_q

im not even gonna mention tim bc even though i love their relationship It 👏 makes me👏 very 👏 sad 👏

non shippy and also staying strictly canon, i love his relationship with melanie!

Favorite headcanon

sometimes i think abt that one hc that hes really good with arcade games bc he lived near the coast and i smile bc thats cute :) also hes a trans man 💙💗🤍💗💙

Peter

First impression

Mystery evil captain man!!! Fog?? I LOVE him :)

Impression now

I STILL LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!!!!!!!! Hes an asshole and has a lovely voice and smile and hes not, hes not Dumb but also he's far from the whooooa evil lonely influence he think he is (played like a cheap fiddle). He also makes me sad in ways i cannot and wont describe, and its a shame that he died cuz he was the best part of season 4 😔 rip you beautiful bastard man i still miss you </3

Favorite moment

"It has blood on it" "thats Leitner's too :D". Also when martin was angry abt idk, breekon? Jon going into the coffin? Cant remember, but peter was like I said id protect the institute, that guys not my problem ¯\_(ツ)_/��

Idea for a story

dfgdfg i have..... a petermart story that dealt with the different flavor of loneliness they both had, half smut half genuine meta of both of them and theorization on the branching of an Entity & how their powers manifested in other people...

basically, peter thinks hes hot shit when it comes to loneliness but gets overwhelmed when martin accidentally projects his feelings abt *fic's plot stuff* on him, its fun stuff!

Unpopular opinion

people either paint him like an absolute devil or an incompetent idiot and hes neither of them! hes an asshole who loves being an asshole but far from the worst monster in the show and he tried to do a clever scheme TWICE on his life and 1. while it was established that any of the rituals wouldnt work singularly the Silence was still a pretty clever attempt if it weren't for gertrude! and 2. well... he tried to manipulate someone petty and formerly supposed to be a web avatar, again not his fault, cant call him stupid for trying dfgdfg

i Do think hes kinda pathetic in some sense considering his backstory, but more out of personal pity than anything else

Favorite relationship

Canonically speaking him and martin! The pull and push of them was The best thing about season 4! Peter being a quite dangerous avatar and martin, beautiful and scared and kinda feisty, confronting him every chance he gets, peter doing his best to manipulate him and martin letting him believe hes succeeding (even thought, he is, partly). They're fascinating characters to have side by side

Favorite headcanon

Partly canonically speaking him and mikaele salesa :) they do bets together! They're lonely sea men! What else could you possibly want?

Also non shippy i like thinking abt peter's and simon's relationship but thats entirely non canon ♡

Diversity wins! The heir of the lonely is a gay man!

Also I think as every rich household(?) the lukases had many paintings and peter as a kid saw the ones w/ sailing ships and imagined sailing far far away from his family. That and seaman aesthetic fucks, which is why he always has the same vibe going on as an adult. He does Not know half of the things he'd need to know to have a ship though but hey he's rich and thats all he needs

Annabelle

First impression

thats a horrible psychological experiment they're making there D:

Impression now

THATS STILL A HORRIBLE EXPERIMENT AND ANNABELLE DESERVED SO MUCH BETTER............. idk! she makes me sad in the same way jon (and to a degree, peter) does! to be a living puppet for the thing that traumatized you as a kid and that later kinda killed you / is the only thing keeping you alive, to be devoted to it scrambling to believe in a higher reason for all of it to happen bc to believe otherwise is............. anyway. i love her, and i feel so so sorry for her

Favorite moment

her "maybe ive never been to the beach" at the end of ehr statement (that i fully believe its bullshit but, yknow, i love that she adds that), most of her convos with martin, her "i told you this might happen" "you did, you did" with mikaele

Idea for a story

i think a lot about her having conversations w/ either mikaele (platonically) or sasha (shippy) and their different points of views and treat with her making her doubt the web a bit

Unpopular opinion

listen, listen, i know it sounds like im woobifying her i Know it but reading the scraps of her story how can i Not feel sorry for her? when the story framed her very similar to jon? the supernatural childhood encounter that gave them arachnophobia and the subsequential joining with an Entity against her will? the fact that both the story and the fans treat her like a spider woman always sat very very bad to me, and the fact that the story itself always framed her like a villain (considering All The Other Characters that get the benefit of the doubt) was extremely disappointing

Favorite relationship

her and mikaele!!!!!!! wish we could have seen more scenes of just the two of them!!!!!! *singing* he is her daaaaaad, hes her dad! boogie boogie boogie! (ok no but like... their offscreen friendship is my favorite thing of season 5 ;_;)

Favorite headcanon

Sigh i dont know...i still think she's scared of spiders which make her current existence harder but thats a sadcanon :/ umm...... i love the idea of mikaele and her cooking together from time to time! Mikaele showing her some plates he used to eat as a kid as he talks stories about his life :) and she listens and sometimes tells a story of her own! its been so long since he had a quasy normal conversation! its weird yet nice!

[survivor-iceland]

Ep. 12 - “Take these results back I don't fucking want them” - Timmy

Timmy

So I wasted my idol, but I'm not as sad as I thought I would be about it. If Maynor had gotten more votes and I didn't use it then I would've been devastated, so this is a much better alternative. We're both still here and we accomplished our goal of completing another blindside. The difficult part is towards the end game of differentiating my moves from his. This game I have tried to be more social and I think I'm doing well with talking to people. The bond is weak but at least I'm still making an effort so it can't be said that I'm not. I knew Dylan was the biggest threat currently and I'm the one who found the idol and held onto it during many stress inducing tribal councils. At this point, I doubt I'm going to make FTC but I would really love to because I finally think I have played a game that deserves a win. I've made moves, caused fights, won fights, and blindsided people when they needed to be, yet was also an underdog for a few rounds. There is so much game left though because F6 is my downfall and it's going to be F6 for the next two rounds...so fuck my life. If I have to sacrifice my game for Maynor's though I will because seeing him sad breaks my heart so much more than losing this game will and I know how much he wants to win.

Maynor

I can’t believe that Dylan Raffy Ellie and Jack split 2-2 and had Joseph as their ‘fifth vote’. During the beginning of the day and afternoon i was defeated because felt like there wasnt a way for me and Timmy to stay. Then when Joseph and I started talking. We figured that they might be splitting their votes and wanting him on their side to be able to. So i blew up smoke to Raffy about how i was mad on how Joseph ghosted me and was rude. So he thought i was voting Joseph. But me timmy n i voted Dylan. I was so nervous that they were doing 3-1 and using Joseph to make it 3-2. But they screwed themselves again which was amazing and now its a 3-3 but feel like elli or raffy wouldnt want to go home by a rock. So crossing fingers f6 tribal goes our way.

Maynor

Im doing the 12 hr check in and honestly its kinda hard to remember when i cant have an alarm going for me while im at work. But will keep doing it until i it. Having the idol on our side would be great. Ive done the challenge but i need to like keep playing it cuz im not that good at it. My best score is 3,120 skdhshs thats not good i know that for sure. Need to keep trying on that one. I just hope me Timmy or joseph find the idol and keep trying at the challenge.

RaffyN

either Jack nor I got anything from the idol hunt which means that someone else has to have it. I must win this immunity or else I will literally being going next without having a chance of EoE. But I feel confident in this challenge because I am great at flash games. I'm aiming for 30k, but the goal is 50k. 

Raffy

I think Ellie and Jack are the most frustrating people that I've ever worked with in that they are always so paranoid and make these grandoise plans that never work out. I mean that's me. But I never knew how insufferable I was. The target is obviously me, yet that continuously drone on in their self-centered views of the game about how they are going to be targeted because they are the goats or whatever. At the end of the day, I just hope one of us wins immunity because that shit is needed right now.

Jack

So Raffy won immunity and Zoe's back and also has immunity. I'm 98% sure that the votes are coming for me this round, but maybe if we can get Zoe to vote with us? ugh idols also, I might play mine cause yeah.

Timmy

Take these results back I don't fucking want them. The fact that Raffy is immune was bad, but the fact that Zoe is back is so much worse. So I'm practically fucked now and I hate it. So much for having a 3-3 split. Honestly they should get rid of Joseph or Ellie since those two are goats and at least one of them will be at FTC so there are really only two seats left. If people wanted to be at FTC, they should get rid of them.

Jack

Okay so like Zoe immediately private messages when she gets back like "hey i wanna work with you, Ellie, and Raffy cause Maynor and Timmy were the ones that voted her out. I feel suddenly way more confident on this vote but also like ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. what if they do play an idol and then they be voting for me since zoe and raffy have immunity and ahhhhhhh

Raffy

I am so glad that Zoe is back in this game with immunity. This is an automatic number for me which she proves because she is asking me to be a part of any alliance I am in and who to trust. She's basically eating out of the palm of my hand. She was immediately added to Path of Crack which is me, Jack, and Ellie. We currently have the numbers on our side right now, and it feels amazing to be a winner. 

Joseph sent a message in the tribe chat that was meant to be passed to Jay which was an idol question that was like how to "show" people the idol to gain trust, but that's not how this works honey. He wants us to believe that he has an idol so that we freak out. So, our plan is to make Joseph fully believe it is him while actually voting for Maynor or Timmy. Plus I like pulling him through the wringer. After all, he's the rattiest person in this game and it feels so good to fuck him over. 

JackO

kay so plans set up, and I’m actually p confident in it. So we’re going to go for Maynor, but act like it’s actually a go for Joseph. Also Joseph did a thing where he sent a message to tribe chat like “hey jay how do you show someone you have an idol??” And I’m like *squint* cause there’s no way that’s legit right? Like he does NOT have an idol and he did not just send that shit by accident. And if he did WELL then good thing we’re NOT voting for him and just telling him that so maybe he’ll play it randomly. 

Jack

Okay so plans set up, and I’m actually p confident in it. So we’re going to go for Maynor, but act like it’s actually a go for Joseph. Also Joseph did a thing where he sent a message to tribe chat like “hey jay how do you show someone you have an idol??” And I’m like *squint* cause there’s no way that’s legit right? Like he does NOT have an idol and he did not just send that shit by accident. And if he did WELL then good thing we’re NOT voting for him and just telling him that so maybe he’ll play it randomly. 

Ellie

ELLIE MIGHT BE DOING A BLINDSIDE??

Raffy

 feel like someone has the idol because I checked 2/3 of the remaining paths and there is nothing there in either of them. Of course it could always be in the third one, but I highly doubt someone hasn't reached the end of the one. So, I am just going to have to play around it which is scary. My alliance wants to vote out Maynor, and I do too, but I have a suspicion that, if they have it, they will use it on him. I'm not sure what I am going to do because of all of this, but at least I have individual immunity around my neck. I think we should subvert expectations and vote Timmy out just because we've been spreading Joseph's and Maynor's name only. Honestly, I'll leave the best plan to Zoe and the others because I do not want to ruin this chance. However, I do not want to be stuck in a 3-3 deadlock again.

Timmy

I really have no idea if this plan is going to work. I want Jack out so bad since I’m not working with him and he doesn’t talk to me. I’m just hoping Ellie is going to do what she tells me, but that’s a longshot.

Timmy

Maynor has an idol!!! I am so happy. The issue is, who knows who the other side is voting for, but I believe that he can make it to F5 now.

Maynor

I cant believe i found the idol. Sidhdhd like its crazy. Thinking of playing it tonight. I am. I will be upset if somehow Timmy goes. I will go all out to take them out. I hope jack goes so itll atleast be a tie next round. I just want to keep Timmy and Joseph in this game. So nervous. Tribal like in a minute. Ajdbhss

Jack

Imma play my idol if someone plays an idol on maynor, because i trust that zoe and raffy and ellie arent gonna back stab me, but jesus i hope...... also im sending this now cause idk if i actually said that in confessional tho

Joseph Collins

Lolol. This. Is. A. Confession. Words words words

Joseph Collins

I developed a ploy to cause some rifts between the alliance of dyaln jack raffy and Ellie. They have an obvious 4-3 advantage, but Timmy might’ve talked some sense into Ellie that would make her flip on them. And vote jack out. If we pull this off, I would be so impressed. If I go home, the trick I pulled was worth it. 

Zoe

I CAME BACK FROM THE EDGE!!!!!!

Immediately I messaged Raffy and Ellie who seemed super happy to see me, and I made Raffy make a group chat with me, him, Ellie, and Jack, and now we have a sick majority. I trust Ellie the most, and I honestly want to take her to the end with maybe. Maybe Jack too. Tonight we are hoping in a big way that Maynor is the one who goes home, though we told Joseph that it was him because he will likely use his idol and tell others that we told him it was him.

Jack

So APPARENTLY RAFFY BE PLAYING IT UP AND I HOPE THATS TRUE, but yeah he (hopefully) is hopefully just playing. but yeah so i still stand by my very definitely not wishy-washy decision of Ellie cause that gurl was like rando flipping when i'm legit thinking we a final 3. but wowowowowow idk ill make a better confessional tomorrow.