#mythal does not deserve the amount of hate she gets she is a victim too

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no one asked but i will write about it bc of the mythal post. idk why i am afraid to post anything that can be labeled as My Thoughts but its 3am and I have slept poorly for days so I am just going to... do it.

PLS NOTE that this is just my personal take of my fanon. not forcing my beliefs on what you should think abt her or establishing this as canon.

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Mythal's first and foremost thing is that she wanted to be loved. She herself was a lover, she loved Elgar'nan, her children/"children" and none of them reciprocated her love in the similar way. Either they saw her inferior or superior.

Eventually seeing Andruil growing close to Ghilan'nain she reached her breaking point bc she saw even clearer what she was missing. Not necessarily like she longed for romance, there was really no labels or societal norms for feelings since they're essentially spirits themselves. But she yearned for intimate closeness.

So she turned her attention to her closest spirit-friend with whom she shared mutual respect (possibly ever since they were both spirits) and what she thought could carry over and become love if only that spirit would come to flesh and be with her and see for themselves.

Of course it would not work out. She made Solas for herself, at this point in desperation, as a last resort. (note: Solas kinda even resembles Elgar'nan – he has the chin thing and just overall similar features, at least in my opinion. subconscious or not since she did want Elgar'nan to love her like she loved him. i really think mythal made his body and not Solas himself.)

But she did not know it was a folly. She tried to take everything she knew about love, the companionship she wanted with Elgar'nan, the love for her children, the innocent romance of Ghilan'nain and Andruil, and throw it all into blender and thus Solas came to be. With vallaslin, bc she wanted him to belong to her only. And of course that was one fatal mistake.

And yes. Solas did love her so very much, but it was not right either. None of it was and it was Mythal's tragedy. Solas loved her like a dog loves his master and it was not enough for Mythal who wanted an equal partner then didn't know how to be one. She ended up hating that kind of love and felt terrible for inflicting it all upon Solas who did not even want to have a body. But because he loved her, he did anyway. And now he could not go back.

So yeah, the whole relationship was ofc extremely toxic from start to finish. Is Mythal immoral (on our modern standards that didn't even exist back then) and deeply traumatised and fucked up: yes. She is a slaver. She can be cold and ruthess. But is she evil and malevolent? Not really. At least not when it comes to Solas, bc he is everything to her and she tries to live with the quilt and wrong kind of love. And then Solas betrays her and its worse than anything she has endured before.

Goddess of Love who could not be loved or even define what love meant. I think she is tragic af.

Justice becomes vengeance, love turns not into hate but indifference. I LOVE MYTHAL SM. A character ever.