#myshinningstar

[christinamarisolhartel]

You & Depression

Hi friends whoever reads this... I have been struggling to find myself again. Currently I just got out of the hospital ( I will not tell sorry ) if you want to only know that sorry then do not read any further. Alright, right now i am tearing up by listening to the song “Feeling Whitney by Post Malone” I am realizing how much I have been battling with my depression the past years. I have had so many rough friendships and relationships due to my sadness. I have felt like depression defines who I am but I am realizing it does not. Some moments i will truly love myself and some I will truly hate myself. As you can probably see (hopefully) I am bipolar. Anyways, what i really want to talk about is my header I have up there in my title box. I am in a relationship. I love him so so so much, it is unbelievable how much i adore this man. Although, he is nothing like any my other relationships i have had with past guys. This guy helps me when I crumble, fumble, and stumble. I do not know how bless I am to have a guy like that in my life right now. Recently I did something very hard to see but he watched and saved my life. This guy sees me more than a broken depressed young woman. I don’t know how to repay him in any way. We both have struggled in life where many people have walked over us before. The day we met on the top of the parking garage I knew he was the one for me on the spot light. I have never met anyone in person especially at first sight in those cheesy romance movies. Usually, I have always met guys through social media but this guy I met was something different. Before him I was in a rough spot... I got out of an abusive relationship and another scary relationship after that. I thought I could never trust to date anyone ever again but the guy I met changed my whole perspective. Ever since we met we would never be separated. We always wanted to be together. At first I was a bit selfish and not always sober-straight minded and didn’t have the best influences around me but he changed that for me to see how I should be treated. We have been dating for 9 months now and i am so shocked someone has actually stayed with me this long because i am very hard to get along with. Unfortunately my depression has been taking over my mind and I have almost been ending our relationship because of it. I just want to put this out there never let your saddest thoughts destroy something you care and love for someone. Well, I hope you enjoyed this. He is forever my shinning moon.We do not like the sun (I will write about that another time).

[napkinswithasnap]

Daddy loves you to the 🌙 and back #staybright #myshinningstar #girldad #mandf3 #Snapnapz (at SnapNapz) https://www.instagram.com/p/CDTtHrAAxVa/?igshid=1xqocnp4n6jh8

[carlosmobg]

My baby girl #myshinningstar #CarlisieThandiweMafika @7years wish u many more... (at Harare, Zimbabwe) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4A4AJ8jZsI/?igshid=kdihzundvq8y

[lagranbichota]

Tonight, I’m writing like I’m on top of the world. #blessed #sunset #myshinningstar #dowhatyoulove #lovewhatyoudo #writing #isthisyougod https://www.instagram.com/p/B1dJGmXJ0AD_ER9BrbE73sYQehwDXb8MifSxrg0/?igshid=vengusl8imcg

[reebeel]

#myshinningstar #onherwayhome #leaveswithmorethanshebrought #flickfrombugslife #otter #lastyearthengraduation love her 😍😘

[laeyang]

@chibiirin thanks for tagging me!!

Rules: tag 10 followers you want to get to know better.

Birthday: November 15

Gender: female

Relationship status: single

Favourite color: Grey

Pets: i had two fish but they died

Wake up time: these days, around 9:30-10:00am

Love or Lust: can i say neither? But if i have to choose, then lust i guess. It’s more interesting than love.

Favorite food: i really like ramen noodles. I didn’t think it could happen, but that’s like my favorite thing to eat these days

Met a celebrity?: yeah, a few actors have shown up at our church in the past. And my aunt is a kinda famous r&b singer

Last song listened to: Tattoo by Elo, ft. Jay Park. That song is my jam, Elo is one of my biggest crushes rn you don’t even know.

First kiss: never had~

Tall or short: im gonna say short. Im 5'6 and taller than a lot of the people in my neighborhood/school/town, really but my family are all 6'2 and taller, so i feel short.

I tag… @ikje11 @sasaisllama @williamteaspears @bestabsolutemess @umji-up @myshinningstars @utachan @moksurideonew @7thsentido @hoseok-sunshine

[ladysuho]

I was tagged by @prettylittlexo :* I’m a exo, running man and snk trash♡ hahahaha

I tag @taesumandu @littlechefsoo @baekiexing @taemoshi @sovereignsuho @myshinningstars @oh-my-junmyeon

[gouravsoni]

@baarishrangoki was a dream. We wanted hardcore entertainment for all ages and the people of this amazing city to enjoy that dream. And then it happened. People enjoyed it. I can't have asked for a more beautiful team. Caption : @writebeyondwords #MyShinningStar🌟 (at The Cafe Square) https://www.instagram.com/p/BvcF5yCFtxI/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1cmx9v299il8q

[keepubegging-blog]

@divinedemonwolf

[tagstoriches]

What my days off consist of... I wouldn't have it any other way... #MayaYulaliRocha #MyShinningStar #OffDays #Thursday #MyEverything

[married2michaelinmyheart]

The Moonwalker ... . . . . #MichaelJackson #Moonwalk #Moonwalker #Star #MichaelJacksonisAStar #MyStar #MyBiggestStar #MyBrightestStar #ForeverShinningStar #MyShinningStar #KingofDance #KingofMusic #KingofEntertainment #OneandOnlyKingofEntertainment #OneandOnlyKingofMusicandDance #OneandOnlyKingofPop #GreatestLegendofallTimes #LegendaryMichaelJackson #ItsAllForLove #L_O_V_E

[twood118]

#StarStudent #MyShinningStar

[carlosmobg]

Our own Beautiful Model in the family #MyShinningStar #CarlisieThandiweMafika

[lovestruckeventsdesign]

#alyssasredcarpetbday #redcarpetparty #mybabysbirthday #fitforastar #myshinningstar (at Kabooms Amusement & Party Center)

[reebeel]

#myshinningstar #onherwayhome #leaveswithmorethanshebrought #flickfrombugslife #otter #lastyearthengraduation love her 😍😘

[wendy73]

My big guys first day of football practice. I was proud of him not being afraid never playing before and straight to tackle. #imstillscared #kareyouth #dallascowboymission #gomatty #gameface #helovedit #heholdsthekeytomyheart #ilovefootball #lovehim #mattywall #mylittleman #myshinningstar #nextdallascowboy #9 #wall (at Kahler Russell Park)