#my year of pilgrimage

[solar-eclippse]

Innocence died screaming Honey, ask me, I should know

[blujayonthewing]

pitched battle inside my brain between the part of me that's desperately shaking myself by the shoulders going "YOU HAVE GOT TO ACTUALLY LIVE THE KIND OF LIFE YOU IMAGINE INSTEAD OF JUST SITTING AROUND IMAGINING IT UNTIL YOU DIE!!" and the part of me that's clutching my face going "is this allowed? is this allowed?? is this allowed???"

[son--of--the--south]

[i-am-the-oyster]

Do we know what beach in Tenerife Paul nearly drowned at?

[andreaphobia]

P5 vs RL: SHIBUYA

(see more + trip report)

[luckydicekirby]

fun thing I'm enjoying this go round of replaying ffx is like. the fact that braska's pilgrimage was considered a joke at the time, but he's known in the present as this great iconic figure. and in fact you only really learn he wasn't well liked from one of the optional jecht spheres. braska and auron are famous and beloved and remembered as heroes! no one seems to remember that braska's wife was al bhed--it's at least not common knowledge enough that it's news to wakka. no one remembers auron being in disgrace for refusing to marry some important guy's daughter either! (i had also forgotten this and was really knocked over by it. really really forgot that auron is just gay like absolutely for real.) it's just like, yeah, of course that's true—a summoner is more useful to maintaining yevon's power when they're dead, and then anything inconvenient about them can be erased.

[pilgrimagesource]

Diarmute Week Day 1: Sanctuary

"I would walk for miles, miles, miles just to find my sanctuary." — Sanctuary, Jake Wesley Rogers

[kaleidoscope1967eyes]

i wish there were a guidebook or something for "how to reconnect with a culture that is almost completely extinct"

[artandpunishment]

certain books nailing how uncomfortable it is to be in public, but also let go of anxieties to just be a person out of your house is amazing. all ottessa moshfeg's works (aside from lapvona), the tatami galaxy novel, the hour of the star, colorless tzukuru, after dark, and anything by mieko kawakami are perfect examples of that. humanity is so beautifully demonstrated in their works. even if we were villains and the raven cycle grapple so well with drama in a way that comes across as tense and realistic.

anytime i am reading something and a certain compulsion to write, or a wave of recognition washes through me, it has to do with that emotion. in my year of rest and relaxation every time the narrator went to the bodega got me. in all the lovers of the night, when the main character lost her purse at the activity center and was walking around there drunk during the day, the main character in tatami galaxy despising ozu and going out despite the indifference he feels, is all so compelling.

i don't know how to explain this feeling. there is a vitality that it gives and it simply feels alive. nothing particularly striking occurs, but the fact that there is character voices going while they are doing something normal, and being unashamed while doing so, is painfully alive. political issues going on while they are going to get coffee or ramen or heading to class. they are uncomfortable living but it's all they can do, they can't help but live even though they are unhappy with how it's going.

That emotion and position is something i find myself in quite often. reading it in literature, in books from authors of different genders writing in different genres, with characters of ages different from my own and genders different from my own, displays how universal of a feeling this is. perhaps it is close to kant's sublime, but i don't really want to talk about kant.

[jiwoonhyung]

happy birthday beloved anna!! 🥰💞💕💗💓💞 i hope u had a lovely day today and that the world was especially kind to ur for ur bday 😊 thank u for all the beautiful gifs u make 😍🫶💓💓💓

it was very kind to me, thank you, liz! and now your man is winking at me???? 😳🫣

[momonokopan]

i have many, many feelings on the recent underverse

[courting-trouble]

i’m fighting demons* rn

*the urge to reread if we were villains

[blujayonthewing]

'lemme just do a little preliminary research before bed for that trip I wanna do, nothing too deep I don't wanna stay up too late' but the research involves SEVERAL OVERLAPPING AND LONG-DORMANT SPECIAL INTERESTS AT THE SAME TIME

[caraecethrae]

IM GOING TO IRELAND IN LESS THAN A MONTH😳🤯

[steevejr]

my favorite non canon Margo joke is she has 3 big beautiful toucans and Emily hates this joke so much they roll their eyes every time I bring it up so now I have to send them funny toucan videos to soften their jaded heart

[memecatwings]

every time i drive past the tampa bay downs i wonder why ive never been there