#my watching diary continues

[tippenfunkaport]

After the war, prolonged exposure to Swift Wind causes Melog to invent its own annoying catch phrase.

[ryuusea]

did the draw followers’ oshi request thing!

[oifaaa]

on god if its my happy marriage please keep watching if only to get to the fucking shonen anime super power reveal. the way my jaw DROPPED. I did not enjoy the anime but it did have my full attention by that point.

I'm sorry the what???? She has the powers of a shonen anime or does he have the powers of a shonen anime?? please I don't think I can continue watching this show don't tempt me with stupid anime nonsense

[laurmaus]

another one +uncolored ver (can u tell i skipped school today

[megaclubdiolis]

柄本 佑 || 「光る君へ」 (2024) · 第三十四回 「目覚め」 ​​​​​​

[choccorin]

good evening, everybunny :333 i'm going to spend two (or three) hours into studying circles :33

[girl-bateman]

In an attempt to explain my feelings I've used metaphors like; my spirit is infected, my soul is damaged, there is something rotten inside of me...etc

And then, when watching a video abt healing from childhood abuse the lady uses the EXACT same metaphors 😭 this is either a sign from God for me to stop being in denial, or its a sign that my use of metaphors is extremely basic

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

”I don’t want to give Jehovah’s organization a black eye so I have to suffer in silence. Oh the pain! The pain!”

Mhm. Have you ever considered that Jehovah’s organization has given you not one, but two proverbial black eyes, broken ribs, and a concussion over the years; and maybe you should expose them for the abusers they are, if only enough to get yourself help to heal from the abuse you’ve experienced? You’ve got Stockholm syndrome bad, and you’re making it everyone else’s problem. You cared about your abusers so much that you abused me in their name, just because I wanted no part of their organization. Even if I didn’t seek out apostate resources, I wouldn’t have needed them to make my decision to leave because of how much you vented about them to me since I was about five years old. Did you just expect me to stay here and take the abuse like you did? I’m better than that; I’m better than you.

[jdeanmorgan]

just remembered i stopped my rewatch of ftwd more than halfway through s2 to start my twd rewatch... and now i saw that the newest episode of ftwd is named sanctuary and i am 👀so ig its time to continue that rewatch while my s7 twd rewatch is on pause

[raamitsu]

so... what are you guys going to do within those two weeks break without jjk leaks?

[icewindandboringhorror]

Various images of things

[hauntingblue]

Hiyori is the most effective person to complete their kill so far

[mightnotfeelrealbutitsok]

I'm getting so out of my depth with the amount of things I want to read and reread and watch and rewatch and consuming new things feels more fulfilling while familiar things are easier but anyway I'm actually incapable of getting on with anything

[darkjusticiar]

This has been eye opening for my real life contacts, like who is speaking up and sharing information and who won't stop fucking travel blogging for five minutes to say something, anything. I feel equally heartened by the many people I know who are fighting and equally disheartened by all the people I know who are intentionally looking the other way

[merry-kuroo]

ahahahahhaha was I just asked out on a date?

Only God knows at this point

[blackvahana]

There's so much I don't talk about because I relegate it to being the business, chiefly, of the unincarnated selves... and yeah I do generally like to check with them anyway because talking about things is talking about both our businesses, plural. I won't get deep into it, but...

I'm really, really familiar with myself as a pink haze of psychosis inducing madness. And by that I mean (lull) would use me to fuck with people. I was used to poison people effectively. I've been used to create false realities, drive people fucking insane. I've had my own mind pried open like a lobster being cracked and displayed on its own exoskeleton so that others can be forced through me. I both know what they saw and don't know, I don't want to talk about it, I guess I half do want to talk about it because I'm talking

It's not an abstract fear I have of being dangerous. I was used as a slide show projector of trauma situations to filter through. So many things have happened I don't even remember, and you know, what I remember is already bad enough.

Talking as Dei, because that's who I am: on both sides of the selves I was used as power and control and a bunch of other things

I stand now feeling what I felt before: myself. I can't explain to an audience unless they already get it what it's like to come up against the energy and person who you've watched get effectively injected into people... You know when you smell a scent that was around when you went through trauma? Energy is like that. That's what I have to feel when I come up against myself because myself was there when people were making noises worse than screaming and as I was hooked into them watching what they saw because I was the experience itself.

The idea of being the dream is a messed up one, honestly, but it never had to be messed up. It still doesn't have to be.