#my voice is really low and my periods were irregular and painful before the pill

[watersshed]

I really want a babie one day but I’m worried about being infertile

[hoe-doroki]

Between Fear and Guilt

pairing: Shouto x American cisfem!Reader

wc: 2.5k

genre: light angst, comfort

warnings: sex is mentioned? rated pg-13

summary: You and Todoroki only started being intimate a couple months back, but somehow you’re already experiencing a dry spell—not by your choice. Today’s the day you’re going to figure out what’s up with your boyfriend once and for all.

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Getting Shouto alone in your room had been your favorite sport in your third year. First of all, it was generally easy and, secondly, you were good at it. 

It was that generally that made things tricky, though. At first, it had been easy almost all the time. The two of you would separate yourselves from the class to do homework—and you always would!—but then you started kissing. And over time that had turned  into petting and, as of a couple months ago, the evolved into the whole shebang. But lately, Shouto had started hitting the pause button preemptively, often wanting to actually get your studying done before the evening would devolve into debauchery. And it really was your studying, since you always had to do more than him. Naturally smart, native Japanese, handsome bastard.

You’d been at the tail end of your English homework when you’d pounced tonight. The two of you had been sitting on the floor, leaning your backs against your bed when you’d set down your pencil and started running the back of your hand up and down his arm. He’d glanced at you, expression blank before turning back to his work. You, of course, always got easy grades in English. Shouto always did just as well, if not better since he never made the mistakes a lazy native speaker would. So you’d calculated it as a good opportunity to get frisky. English was the subject the both of you could finish—or bullshit through—the quickest. Since Shouto knew that too, you were hoping that he wouldn’t insist you finish before he let you touch him. 

It seemed you’d bet right. When you started kissing his jawline he caught your lips with his, dropping his pencil as well. You hummed happily as he gave in, his cold hand coming up to the back of your neck to bring you closer. Taking that as an invitation, you pushed his work off his lap and swung a leg over to his other side, quickly situating your lap in his and grabbing both his cheeks in your hands. You were careful of escalating things too quickly, so you sat back a little, comfortably resting on his muscular thighs instead of slotted core to core. Your hands traveled up to his hair, marveling in the slightly thicker texture of his red locks to the white ones. He breathed into your mouth as you closed your fists, not quite pulling but giving a soft scratch and tug to his roots.

His hands were traveling under your thin shirt, feeling your bare sides and grabbing him, and you shivered under the different temperatures of his hands. Neither one was too hot or too cold, but the contrast was always sharp enough that your body would react at first touch. You pulled him closer to you, whispering, “I’ve missed you,” pressing a soft kiss to his neck.

He stiffened and you knew you’d misstepped. In the past few weeks, the two of you had kissed, touched a little, but that was as far as things had gone. It wasn’t like you were dying for affection—you knew your boyfriend wasn’t the most sensitive guy out there; it was what you had signed up for and you were happy with what he could give you—but come on. You’d only started having sex a couple months ago and already you were in a three week dry spell despite being two of the lucky few to have rooms on the only floor without any pervs (Mineta or even Kaminari or Mina), and no one who would yell at you (Iida or Bakugou).

You tried bringing your lips up to his mouth, but it was a lost battle. Already, your boyfriend was far less responsive, his hands coming out from under your shirt and his mouth hardly impassioned as it met yours. You already knew what he was going to say when he pulled away and stated, “We should finish our homework and go to bed.”

You sighed. “I don’t suppose you mean the same bed?”

Shouto wasn’t really one for euphemisms so you didn’t wait for an answer as you pulled your leg back and slumped back beside him, your heated cheeks suddenly more pronounced now that you weren’t as close to him. You wondered if his cold side was putting a chill in the air—it certainly would have made ironic sense.

“I’m sorry,” he said, and it sounded like he meant it. But you didn’t understand why. All you could do was try to push down the toxic answers your brain was feeding to you—that you weren’t good enough, not pretty enough, not talented enough. If Shouto actually thought those things, you had no doubt he would have broken up with you.

“Let’s just finish,” you said, every ounce of your strength going into sounding casual instead of bitter or pouty. You could finish this in ten minutes, five if you didn’t double check your work, and then you could go to sleep and forget about your failures in seduction.

“Y/N,” Shouto said, a hint of insistence coloring his otherwise low monotone, “could you go on birth control?”

Your eyes widened as you turned to Shouto, his long, white bangs hiding his face from you. There hadn’t been a stutter in his words nor even more than a breath of hesitation, but he wasn’t meeting your eyes either.

“Do…Do you not want to use condoms anymore?”

The both of you had only ever been physical with each other so, technically, it should be safe to rely on birth control without an external barrier. But you couldn’t imagine why Shouto would have been withholding sex just because he wasn’t a fan of condoms. It’s not like he had anything to compare them to.

“No, it’s not that,” Shouto said, his breath heavy as he kept eye contact with his kneecaps. “I’ve been looking into the effectiveness of condoms in preventing pregnancy and they can have an eighteen percent failure rate. Meanwhile, the pill, the patch, and the ring are nine percent, the shot is six percent, and an IUD or implant are less than one percent.”

Honestly, you hadn’t even heard of all of those methods before—what in the world was the ring? You’d thought that you and Shouto had been prepared and careful your first time—and all subsequent times, few as they had been—but you suddenly felt that maybe you hadn’t done enough research. Surely some of that failure rate had to come from condoms breaking, right? And if that happened, you could always buy an emergency contraceptive*, right? Although, you’d have to go to a drug store for that and you’d need permission to leave campus, and you’d heard those pills worked the best the sooner you used them…God, maybe you really hadn’t planned enough.

Shouto continued, “I understand if you don’t want to because almost all of those things involve hormones and some necessitate medical procedures. I would do it myself if I could but it seems male birth control research halted when quirks appeared and is only just now making progress again. I’m really sorry to even ask but…eighteen percent? Isn’t that terrifying?”

The last words came out more like a whisper and you could see that your boyfriend really was terrified. His hands were clenched and you could see all the pronounced muscles on his arms flexing with tension as he tried to keep the worst of his feelings in. He didn’t seem embarrassed, but he was obviously caught somewhere between fear and guilt and you wanted to kiss it away, but you kept your distance, not wanting him to pull away from you again.

“And then if something did go wrong, you have irregular periods, so we might not know until it’s too late,” Shouto said. “What would we do then?”

You could see the cycle he seemed to have been putting himself through these last many weeks, the catastrophic thinking. You weren’t sure if he’d imagined that since you’d started having sex every intimate encounter had to go all the way, but maybe it didn’t matter. If you’d been having these kinds of thoughts, you probably wouldn’t want to be touching anyone intimately either, even in ways that couldn’t cause pregnancy. If you’d been that scared.

“Shouto,” you said, your voice low and soothing as you could make it. “You’re right. Okay? You’re absolutely right. I’ll make a doctor’s appointment as soon as I can. You can even come with me if you want, so that you know what’s happening.”

“You’re not mad?” he asked, finally looking at you, and you smiled.

“Of course not,” you said. “I just wish you hadn’t kept this fear so bottled up. I mean, I don’t want to get pregnant either!”

You cupped his cheek, turning his face even more towards yours so he could see exactly how not mad you were. “I know that,” he said. “I guess I was just nervous. Some of these methods can be really hard on people with internal genitalia. I read about side effects with mood swings, more painful periods, weight fluctuation, possible ectopic pregnancies—”

“We just might have to try a few different things then,” you interrupted. “We have time.”

Shouto cracked his first smile of the night. “Of course.”

You put a hand on his leg, giving his cheek a smooch. You didn’t try for more than that, though. If Shouto wanted to hold off on sex until after you were better protected that was fine. It didn’t mean you couldn’t do other stuff, but you didn’t think the moment called for it. You were content to stay connected hip to hip, shoulder to shoulder, glad he’d finally filled you in on his fear.

But then a little thought wormed its way into your brain. It started small, probably the way Shouto’s had before he’d dived into the apparent ocean of research he’d done. But it was already growing, creating a million what-if scenarios in your brain. You glanced over at Shouto, who now looked at peace as you rested next to each other. You didn’t want to ruin that just after he’d gotten something hard off his chest. But, at the same time, now was the time to ask. You didn’t want to wait another three weeks or however long it took for the conversation to come up naturally. No, you had to ask. You had to know.

“Shouto…do you…” You weren’t quite as good at being straightforward as Shouto was. You were honest and always said what was on your mind when the moment called for it, but sometimes getting the thought out was still hard, even with your boyfriend. “Do you…ever want children?”

It wasn’t a question you really wanted to ask. You were both eighteen and this wasn’t something that should make or break a relationship at your age. But you liked Shouto so much that you couldn’t help thinking about things in terms of forever. Maybe it was an immature byproduct of this being your first relationship—you were sure it was, actually—but you didn’t care. For you, what felt real was real.

“I haven’t really thought about it,” Shouto said. “I just know that I don’t want them right now. Do you want children?”

“Like in ten years, but…yeah,” you admitted. “I’ve always imagined having children.”

Truly, ten years was a minimum. A pro hero career would not be made easier by pregnancy or children, so you wanted to wait at least ten years, if not until you were comfortably in your thirties. After all, you were realistic. Your twenty-four-year-old sister had given birth to her first baby last year and, though happy, her life had been totally upended. You couldn’t imagine that being you in just five years.

But you did want them. And even though there were no guarantees that you and Shouto would be together in ten years, the idea of being with someone who wasn’t imagining that same kind of future as you were saddened you. What would you do if he decided he didn’t want them? And with the childhood he’d had, he had every reason not to.

“Hmm,” Shouto hummed. At some point, his arm had slung around your shoulder and he was idly rubbing your bicep. “How do you know that?”

You shrugged against him. “I don’t know. It was always a given. When I think of my future, I see children. Probably just two, not a litter like our families. And I know it’s probably a societal thing, but I don’t care. I still want it, even though it will make being a hero hard.”

“It’s really hard having one parent as a pro hero,” he said. “I couldn’t imagine having two.”

“It’s really hard having one parent as Endeavor,” you corrected. “Iida’s parents are heroes and he has a good relationship with them.”

“I suppose that’s fair,” Shouto said. “But his brother.”

“If fear kept people from having children, no one would ever have children, Shouto,” you said. “I’m not saying it’s not a valid reason, because it definitely is for some people, but every parent fears for their child and every hero fears death. When combined, those things are compounded. But that won’t stop me.”

You didn’t want to have to sacrifice your career for having a family—that was too painful a cliché to live up to. You wanted the other cliché, the cliché of having it all. You already knew you were unlikely to ever be a top-ranked hero—your quirk was just too specialized for that. So you were already working on a side-career to have on top of that, one that would work better with having a family down the line. But Shouto’s dreams were that of being the number one hero, so it was probably harder to see. Harder to see past anything but his father, the actual number one hero.

“I don’t understand how you’re so sure,” Shouto said.

“Because I’ve thought about it for a long time,” you said thinking of your plans of being a therapist, all your life goals—the specific way that you would save people. “You don’t have to decide today. But it would do you some good to work through the fear and find out if there’s anything underneath it.”

“Okay. I’ll think about it.”

He said it like it was easy, but you knew that he wasn’t taking it lightly. He was squeezing your shoulder tightly and when you glanced at his face, his eyes were thoughtful.

“But for now…” you said, bringing him back, “doctor’s appointment. I’ll make one tomorrow.”

“Thank you,” Shouto said.

“Of course,” you replied. “You should feel safe with me. All the time.”

He pulled you towards him, but the only way you could get closer was by resting your head on his shoulder. Which is exactly what you did.

“I already do.”

*PSA: Emergency contraception (plan B) is mentioned but, since the reader is of an unspecified weight, this is a great time to remember that plan B doesn’t work for all weight classes! Read that fine print before use—you might have to take two doses or buy a more expensive product (horrible, I know!) We don’t want any unexpected pregnancies around here!

[easyweight101]

Harmony Balance Review (UPDATED 2017): Don’t Buy Before You Read This!

What is it?

Harmony Balance is an herbal supplement aimed at helping women maintain a healthy hormone balance with regular use. Harmony Balance is intended to help relieve symptoms associated with PMS and period pain.

Harmony Balance is made from a formula that takes advantage of the benefits of chasteberry and other supportive ingredients. This product is designed to reduce breast pain, cramps, mood swings, headaches and more associated with hormone changes throughout a typical menstrual cycle.

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Harmony Balance Ingredients and Side Effects

Harmony Balance made with a variety of herbs known to help restore a sense of hormone balance. A couple of these items may be useful for menopausal women, but it’s important to note that Harmony Balance is meant for women dealing with menstruation issues, rather than menopause.

Chasteberry Dong Quai Bupleurum Falcatum Peony

Chasteberry: A tiny berry used for a variety of women’s reproductive concerns, chasteberry can help with the symptoms that show up during a woman’s menstrual cycle like painful cramps, headaches and more, as well as PMS and acne. It may also treat fibrocystic breasts and reduce the size of uterine fibroids.

Chasteberry is also thought to be effective during menopause, as it activates the pituitary gland, stimulating the production of progesterone, which tends to drop off during this time.

Dong Quai: A plant used to treat a number of conditions like menstrual cramps, PMS, infertility and menopause symptoms like hot flashes and mood swings, dong quai is thought to have an effect on the way estrogen acts inside the body.

Dong quai may increase users’ sensitivity to sunlight with use, particularly those with light complexions.

Peony: Peony may work to block the chemicals in the body that cause muscle cramping. It is thought to be a natural treatment for a number of menstruation issues like cramps and PMS, as well as fatigue and PCOS.

Peony may cause a skin rash with use.

Bupleurum Falcatum: A root with a wide range of medicinal uses, bupleurum may help with menstrual and muscle cramps, joint pain, epilepsy, high cholesterol and more. Some women use this ingredient as a natural treatment for PMS symptoms or painful menstrual periods.

It may also have an effect on strengthening the immune system, though more research is needed to prove if this claim actually holds up.

Side effects may include diarrhea, drowsiness, gas, and in some rarer cases, lung problems or trouble breathing.

Click here to read our full guide to the herbs that best support hormones during menopause.

EDITOR’S TIP: Combine this supplement with a proven menopause pill such as Femmetrinol for better results.

Harmony Balance Quality of Ingredients

Harmony Balance contains a few ingredients used in a number of menopause products—dong quai and chasteberry, both of which are thought to have an effect on the hormone inside the body. Because these ingredients are present, it could be a somewhat useful solution in women experiencing menopause or perimenopause, but it’s not really intended for this group and there are likely better solutions out there.

Overall, this product may work for women dealing with painful periods or any form of hormonal irregularities. Harmony Balance does target a younger audience, women who have not yet begun any part of the menopausal transition.

In may have some benefits for all women, if it truly works to achieve the balance advertised on the marketing materials, but this company does make a couple other products designed for the menopausal demographic, which may be more useful than Harmony Balance in helping with the usual effects during this transitional period.

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The Price and Quality of Harmony Balance

Harmony Balance is made by an Australian company, so it seems to be a bit difficult to get a hold of in the United States, though not outright impossible. This company has been around for a while and is widely distributed in Australia, and many of these retailers do sell this product online.

The manufacturer, unfortunately, does not sell this item direct to consumers, but it looks like the average price on this is $25 (Australian dollars) for a bottle containing 60 tablets and $40 for a 120-count bottle.

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Business of Harmony Balance

Harmony Balance is made by an Australian women’s natural health company known as Harmony. Their contact details can be found below:

Phone: +61 3 9427 7422

Address: 7 Rocklea Drive,

Port Melbourne, Victoria 3207

The Harmony website is informative and has a feminine aesthetic that echoes the voice of the brand. Users can watch a short video to get more information about each of the active ingredients and will find plenty of information on the website regarding the formula and intended use for each of this company’s products.

This company also keeps a rather nice blog—there are several articles dedicated to talking about menopause, signs and symptoms of perimenopause, how to deal with weight gain and more.

Unfortunately, Harmony has not included much information about the science of the products featured on their website. There’s nothing that suggests there are any issues with the product, but users who want more details before they commit to buying this item may want to do a bit more research beforehand.

Customer Opinions of Harmony Balance

Because the makers of Harmony Balance are based in Australia and primarily sell to Australian retailers, there weren’t too many reviews available for this product. Here’s a look at some of the reviews we were able to track down on various platforms:

“I was skeptical about how well Harmony Balance was going to work for me. I don’t have terrible PMS, but it’s enough to make me dread my period each month. I’ll try it for a few more cycles and see how it goes.”

“My period is horrible. My naturopath recommended I try this product. Harmony Balance has solved most of my issues, sore breasts, mood swings, upset stomach bloating and more. This has been a total life saver.”

“I don’t know if this works for sure, but my last cycle was much more bearable. Things like grogginess and moodiness went away and it does work pretty well for PMS—will keep using to see of results are consistent.”

“Entering perimenopause, but still getting periods. Gave this a try, as I heard vitex might help ease certain symptoms. Seemed to help a bit with hot flashes, but I’m not sure if it’s the best solution.”

Harmony Balance is designed for women still dealing with a menstrual cycle, not those in the throes of menopause. For that reason, we don’t know much about its use for combatting the symptoms associated with loss of hormones at this stage in life.

We also didn’t have access to a huge pool of reviewers, so we don’t know how well this works, if at all, for those in menopause. A couple of the reviews we came across did say this helped with libido and provided a reduction in night sweats, but again, there were very few reviews available for our evaluation.

The company that makes this product also sells a couple supplements aimed at addressing menopausal symptoms, which may prove more effective in users looking to restore lost estrogen and progesterone.

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Conclusion – Does Harmony Balance Work?

Harmony Balance isn’t exactly designed with the menopausal woman in mind, and based on that alone, we wouldn’t recommend this solution for women suffering from menopause symptoms. Harmony Balance is designed to balance hormones in women who are dealing with issues related to their monthly cycle and have yet to enter menopause.

Harmony Balance could potentially have an effect on women who are looking for a menopause product, but there are better options out there specifically designed to address night sweats and hot flashes, along with things like brain fog or mood swings that typically come along with menopause.

Ingredients like dong quai and chasteberry have been shown to have an effect in women of all ages—helping to regulate hormones, but a supplement containing phytoestrogens may prove more potent during menopause.

After looking at the contents and the effects of several types of menopause supplements, we have come to the conclusion that Femmetrinol is best solution for combatting night sweats, hot flashes, irritability, fatigue, low libido and more.

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