I'm very very excited for my surgery (it's my second gender affirming surgery but this one is more significant to me since it'll be top and bottom surgery) and I'm obviously counting the days until it and I thought some people might be interested in my trans journey ๐ณ๏ธโโง๏ธ So see part 7 below the cut.
Part 1 here
As the summer was ending, I got really lucky! A lesbian hairstylist (who helped organize the drag show I went in the last update) gave my name to this sales lady who sold accounting work to like companies and she needed help with researching CEO and CFO types. And she paid me out of pocket and honestly it was pretty easy internet research using Google. I felt like a little rat scurrying across the Internet ๐ So, thank you lesbians ๐๐
(Picture taken Nov 6th, 2022)
Apparently I really impressed her so she got me hired full time as a sales admin for her company (I wouldn't have gotten with my lack of a college degree without her) and I've had that job since! And a lot of my transition wouldn't be possible without the pay and benefits of this job. Also this is my first job where I get gendered correctly and I'm slowly getting less anxious about going to the bathroom at work ๐ฅฐ
She honestly mom'd up on me and bought me a bunch of new business casual clothes for the job. And here's an example of one of my new work outfits ๐
(Picture taken Nov 14, 2022)
Bc of the new job I was able to afford a lot more things for transitioning! Like voice training. I remember when I first cracked I tried to just teach myself using videos but I wasn't good at it ๐ Also a friend during the summer of 2022 helped me and I did make some progress with her help. But, I started making a lot more progress once I started seeing a speech therapist. But, there was a barrier since I could tell she hadn't worked too much with trans people. I went to a speech therapist bc it was covered by my insurance but she moved and then I couldn't find anyone for insurance covered speech therapy. So, I eventually just paid for lessons Your Lessons Now. And, honestly it's going a lot better! It's really nice to be able to talk about my frustrations with voice training with another transfem. The biggest thing I'm learning from here is how to break the bad habit of pitching up my voice by squeezing my vocal chords.
(Picture taken Sept 8th, 2023)
I had also switched to injections and I highly recommend it! A friend even made my first two vials into earrings ๐ฅ
I also got a lot lazier with makeup ๐ I do eyeliner wings, mascara, and blush for when I go into the office. Which for a bunch of accountants means I do about as much makeup that is normal for the women in the office ๐คทโโ๏ธ
(Pictures taken October 31st and December 2nd of 2022)
These were two notable exceptions. I really love the makeup I did for the Halloween of 2022 bc I decided to go as a ghost-type trainer. And the one on the right is when I learned how to use concealer to cover my 'raccoon eyes' as my dad liked to call them ๐ฆ
Also this would be a good time to mention something I probably should've mentioned earlier ๐ I never learned how to use foundation. I know it's easy but I have a weird mental block around it ๐คทโโ๏ธ But, in the summer of 2021 I started doing twice daily skincare routine for my face. Which took me from a very acne heavy face to people being surprised I'm not wearing foundation. Also the routine is really nice. Would recommend to those who want to get rid of their acne (send an ask if you want to know specifics).
(Picture taken Aug 20, 2023)
Romance update since I've been doing that lol: Well, things ended with all the girlfriends I had so I am down to 1 partner. And I got caught in a romance scam for a few months ๐ญ However, I can't really complain because I got engaged!!! It was so sweet in cute. My partner and I had this date the night before Valentine's Day under a statue outside of a local art museum. We read sapphic poetry by candle light and then they popped the question ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ
But, I say another big part of this era was I made a lot more local trans friends. Went to a good amount of house parties which would've surprised pre-transition me! And I really love my community of queer people I've been building ๐ฅบ๐ณ๏ธโ๐๐ณ๏ธโโง๏ธ๐
(Picture taken July 21st, 2023)
Oh yeah!! I also started laser hair removal at the beginning of 2021 as well. Which was before this era but time is a lie. But the new job definitely made it easier to afford.
The biggest step for my transition was getting my surgeries set up!! And my FFS (facial feminization surgery) marks the end of this era. Below was the last picture I took before my FFS.
(Picture taken Feb 17th, 2024)
So, in my next update, I'll be showing my post-op pictures once most of the swelling went down. See you tomorrow!! ๐โ๏ธ
Read the camera series, and I had an idea ๐ what about a story where the reader is obsessed with Leon FIRST? Like, she watches him all the time and notices he kind of has an obsessive streak, and she likes him and decides that she wants him obsessed with HER. So she kinda leaves a trail of breadcrumbs to make him start liking her. She's sweet to him, does things for him, and makes notes of his preferences so she can match them perfectly. When he starts stalking her, she's all like "๐ฅฐ yay! Bf!"
thank you for your patience with this one <3
Perfect Subject
~Leon Kennedy x gender neutral! Reader~
Word count: 1931
Content warnings: shooting guns in a gun range, obsession, reader is a government agent, stalking, leon goes through your stuff and into your place without permission
!!!!!!MINORS DNI! GHOSTKENNNEDY IS STRICTLY 18+!!!!!
Leon Kennedy could never just casually enjoy things. You would never find him just appreciating a thing for what it was and then moving on with his life. Oh no. If he thought a song was good, he would replay the melody over and over again until he didnโt like it anymore. If he liked a movie, instead of him thinking, โwow that was a good movie,โ and then watching another, he would replay that movie until he knew every little detail about it.ย
This included his work as well. Anything he did, it had to be done perfectly. He crossed all his Tโs and dotted all his Iโs. When you were first hired on as a government agent, he was assigned to overlook your training. There were specific agents assigned to training fresh recruits, so he wasnโt training you directly, but he would always cut in if he felt your trainer was going too easy on you or wasnโt teaching you properly.ย
One day, you were practicing in the gun range and couldnโt seem to improve your accuracy no matter how much instruction your superior gave you. You huffed and threw your head back in frustration when you failed to hit the designated mark again. You were desperate to succeed and be good at your job. You couldnโt focus on anything else in your life. Everything you did, you had to do it well, otherwise it would eat you up inside.
Thatโs when you felt a strong form firmly press himself into your back, his arms wrapping around yours and guiding your hands to aim the gun properly. He used his heavy boots to kick your feet out into a better, more grounding stance. He slowly adjusts your shoulders and elbows and forces you to tighten your grip on the weapon. He stepped back from you and you felt stronger and more confident in this new position.
You fired the shot and hit the mark exactly in the center. You shook your shoulders, relieving some tension in your neck before getting back into the same position. You fired a second shot and hit the mark again. You spun around with a smile on your face ready to thank your trainer when you were met with pretty blue eyes and a blond fringe.ย
You stammered over your words, โOh, um, hey Agent Kennedy! I didnโt know you were here.โ You shifted your gaze up to meet his eyes, โThank you so much. I really appreciate it.โย
โItโs my job. Thought that would work for your height and stature,โ he said simply before walking out of the room. Your eyebrows furrowed in confusion at the sudden emptiness of the room once his overwhelming presence was gone.
And from that point on, you had become obsessed with the man. You wanted to know everything there was to know about Leon Kennedy. Once you discovered he had an obsessive streak that matched yours so well, you knew you had to have him. His face had those soft features, but still had a prominent sense of rugged manliness to it. The messy look of his hair, which you could see the effort put into it to give it that carefree look while still being just the right amount of tidy.ย
Donโt even start on the muscles protruding from his body. Itโs like he had been sculpted from angels themselves. You could see the outline of every ab through his tight shirts and the way his arms bulged against the fabric of his sleeves. His aura demanded attention and he always commanded whatever room he was in, he didnโt even have to try. You noticed the way everyone else stared at him with admiration as well. You had no right to be jealous, but you were hooked and anything standing in your way would have to be eliminated.
Youโd spent a lot of time trying to overhear gossip about the manโs love life, but he was so private that there wasnโt much actual information to go off of. Everything was pure speculation at this point. But what you did know was how many people had struck out with him. He wasnโt easily impressed by the flirtatious gestures, shyness or boldness. He was a case that no one had been able to crack, but you loved a good challenge.
While the other rookies threw themselves at Leon, you had to feign indifference. He genuinely cared about his job and the โgreater good.โ So you became the best agent you possibly could, rising through the ranks and becoming the perfect success story. You remained as elusive as possible with all of your coworkers. If Leon wanted to know anything about you, heโd have to do the research himself or ask you directly.
You were so relieved when your plan actually started to work. You could feel his stare on you when you werenโt paying attention to him. You never attempted to make small talk either. You discussed your work and would always thank him for any instruction or help he gave you, but that was it.ย
A significant moment you remembered was at a mandatory reward dinner. Every single employee was expected to attend, no exceptions. Of course, you had made sure to be sat at the same table as Leon while putting on the front of not caring about the arrangements. You had both remained relatively silent during the conversations about everything and nothing at the same time going on amongst the group at your table. Youโd speak and engage when called for, but avoided the small talk and gossiping as usual.
โWhat about you? No hot date either? Whatโs up with that?โ one of your coworkers nudged your shoulder. You snickered as you took another sip of your wine.
โQuite a few of us at this table donโt have dates either. Maybe we should go around and share all about our personal love lives. John, Sarah, Patrick, Leon? Anybody want to share some misfortunes?โ you said nonchalantly and were met with mostly silence, except for Leon who was grinning and trying not to laugh. โOh wow, the elusive mysteries continue,โ you cooed at John who was giving you a dirty look.
โSorry, I forget youโd rather die than engage in a friendly conversation,โ he spoke and huffed out a breath.
โItโd be wise of you to never forget it again, huh?โ you nudged him like he had done to you earlier. He rolled his eyes before a laugh slipped from him.ย
The following Monday, about an hour before it was time to head home, John pulled you to the side to talk to you.
โHey, youโre not going to believe this,โ he said excitedly.
โOh?โ you raised your eyebrow skeptically.ย
He nodded his head eagerly, โYeah! Leon fucking Kennedy was asking me about you. He wanted to know what I knew about you.โ You had to hide your excitement as you continued to stare at John. โI should totally set the two of you up,โ he laughed as he grabbed onto your shoulders and shook excitedly.ย
You laughed at him, โWow, agent turned matchmaker? Iโm super impressed.โ You pulled yourself from his grasp and went to turn and walk around the corner, escaping from the little space John had pulled you into.
You yelped when you ran into a solid object, or solid person rather. Your eyes looked up and came into contact with Leonโs. John came out after you and his eyes widened as he realized Leon was within earshot of the conversation.
John stuttered, โH-hey, buddy. Whatโs up?โ His nervous laughter had you fighting back a smile.
โBuddy?โ Leon asked as his arms crossed over his chest. John continued to fumble over his words. Somewhere in the word vomit, there had been an apology. You slipped out while they were both distracted and didnโt stick around to see how their conversation would play out.ย
After that encounter, you and Leon had built a bit of a friendship. You two were always joking around and helping each otherโs workload as much as you possibly could. You took advantage of every conversation you two had and utilized all the information and observations you had of him. Youโd bring him coffee when he started giving his sleepy cues. You knew his favorite places to get lunch and would conveniently eat at them regularly, always ordering too much and giving him the leftovers. He never had to run his own errands around the office, because you always offered to do them for him. You never ran yours either, he always jumped up and did your little tasks as well.ย
You noticed him also adjusting himself around your preferences as well. He slowly switched coffee shops to the one you preferred, attempting to keep you from noticing. But of course you noticed everything. You stopped being assigned the work youโd always complain about and tell him how you dreaded doing those meticulous little tasks. Heโd drop little references from shows youโd told him you liked occasionally. Always feeding you information on top secret topics youโd shown interest in.ย
You were so giddy when you noticed he had upped his game when it came to you. You started to notice things on your desk not being where you had left them. Logging onto your computer and the tab youโd left open not being up on the screen like you had left it. Your heart swooned when you noticed things in your apartment disappearing or being moved without your knowledge. You even noticed him tailing you on your errands, him in his unmarked car staying a reasonable distance as you went to the grocery store or to pay bills.ย
You noticed the unmarked car in your apartment complexโs parking lot early one morning. So, of course you went outside and lounged on the balcony in your short shorts and tank top that barely covered your chest. Biting your lip, seemingly lost in thought as you drank coffee and scrolled on your phone.
He started placing himself in your path as well. One Saturday, he coincidentally ran into you at the supermarket and you walked around shopping together. Heโd jog past your place, waiting for the day youโd be outside and he could recognize you. You let this go on for a few weeks, before finally deciding to get your mail from the office at the exact time he always jogged past. After talking to him for a few minutes, you invited him for some water and a snack. You spent the morning together, before he finally left to continue his run.ย
So far, itโd been a few months of this back and forth. Running into each other, sharing lunches and coffee, spending more time working together, and you both suddenly were showing up to all work events. Neither of you ever rejected the offer to go out for drinks when invited by coworkers. You always stayed near one another, no matter the outing. You longed for the day something would finally happen between you two. You knew he was basically stalking you at this point and you made sure to make this job as easy as possible on him.
The longer the chase, the better the end result right? As long as you kept Leon right where you wanted him, you could keep this up forever. You imagined all of the ways he would finally make his move, finally bridge the gap between you two and mold you together where you belonged. Until then, youโd be his perfect and oblivious subject.ย
*I know this isn't "technically" Team Japan Bokuto but it's close enough ๐ ๐ผ
Bokuto Kotaro featuring Team Japan x Gender Neutral Reader (they/them pronouns)
Warnings: NONE ! Pure fluff ๐ฅฐ
A/N: Only the best for our sweet angel ๐ฅฐ Happy Birthday Big Owl ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ
How you managed to become Team Japan's Manager still baffles you to this day
It's one of the many mysteries of the world honestly
When you interviewed for the job, you knew immediately you wouldn't get it
There were like 500 people interviewing!
Seriously the odds were not in your favor
Actually, come to think of it ๐ค you getting hired might have had a little something to do with a certain interaction you had by the bathrooms prior to your interview
You see, you were washing your hands when suddenly you heard a loud commotion coming from outside the hallway
You dried your hand and peeked out the door to see four large men arguing
"Keep it together will you!"- a tall, untoned blonde yelled
"Seriously Bokuto, what's wrong now? This is kind of important!"- a man with spikey hair said
"He's just upset because Kuroo teased him about not making the starting line up"- a red headed shorter man said
You figured you shouldn't interrupt their conversation so you wanted to quickly sneak out and head back to the interview
Unfortunately you opened the door and ran smack into the chest of the owl-haired man
"Oh my goodness, I apologize!"- You said, bowing to him a little
He was bigger than you but he was a professional volleyball player
The man looked at you, eyes wide and mouth open ๐ฒ
You ๐๐ป๐๐ ๐ฌ umm hi
The tall owl ๐๐ป๐ณ๐ณ๐ณ
"Bokuto for God's sakes! I'm really sorry about him! I'm Iwaizumi, the teams athletic trainer"- The spikey haired man said
"Oh its not worries! I'm YN LN, I'm interviewing for the managers postion!"- you ๐ฅฐ
"Damn you're hot"- the untoned blonde says as Iwaizumi turns, staring daggers at him
"I'm Hinata and this is Atsumu! I'm a wing spiker and hes our setter!"- the red headed man says joyfully
"And this is Bokuto, he's a wing-spiker as well"- Iwaizumi says, smacking Bokuto's back
Meanwhile Bokuto is still just standing there, mouth agape ๐ณ๐ฒ
"It's very nice to meet you! Again I'm sorry for running into you, it was very nice meeting you all!"- You said, sliding past them and waving a little
Bokuto is still staring ๐ณ
Literally, everyone starts walking away and Bokuto just stands there ๐งโโ๏ธ ๐ณ
"Oh my god, come on ya idiot!"- Atsumu says finally dragging Bokuto the other way as you laugh a little
You head back to the waiting room just as your name is called
You interview, thanking everyone as you head out to leave
Suddenly Iwaizumi appears next to you
"How did it go?"- He asks as you stare up at him
"Umm I think it went well? I mean I have some experience. I use to play volleyball in high-school and college"- you say as Iwaizumi nodds
He opens up Kuroo's door, the Kuroo you just interviewed with and says "Kuroo we found our manager no need to do more interviews!"
"Thank God! I'm exhausted"- Kuroo says as you just stand there ๐งโโ๏ธ
"Ummm what?"- You say looking at Iwaizumi ๐๐๐
"You will be a perfect fit YN, now come on let's go meet the team"- he says as you still stand there
Sir, YN is in shock you must help them
Iwaizumi ๐๐ป๐ come on YN let's go
And thats the story of how you ended up managing our precious Tean Japan ๐ฅฐ
Wait, did I say precious? I meant demonic ๐
Because YN, this job is not for the faint of heart
Seriously it's like managing a kindergarten classroom with the least cooperative kids
Kageyama and Atsumu are constantly fighting over who gets to be the starting setter ๐
Sakusa always has a complaint
Yaku and Komori are always rolling around on the floor
Hinata and Hoshiumi have a daily battle of "who can jump the highest"
Hakuba and Hyakuzawa are constantly teasing Hinata and Hoshiumi
Aran and Iwaizumi are stressed
Ushijima literally has said hardly two words to you
And most of all, Bokuto has been hanging on you since day one ๐
Literally this man has clung to you like glue YN
The first day of practice, he dragged you everywhere just to show you around
Then you watched him shoot liners and cross court shots for what seemed like hours
"Bokuto you are so amazing! Those are some wicked hard shots to pull off!"- You, praising our owl angel ๐
Please Bokuto is already smitten with you YN lay off ๐
Literally this man is already in love with you YN and you've barely started working as the team's manager
Everyday, he runs up to you and greets you with a big hug ๐ฅฐ
You love your Bokuto hugs because that man can hug like no other ๐ค๐ป
The other guys get jealous that Bokuto is hogging you all the time
"Hey Bokuto, let YN go!"- Atsumu
"YN, can you help Atsumu and Kageyama with their sets today?"- The coach asks
You ๐๐ป oh of course ๐ฅฐ
Bokuto ๐๐ป instant deflate โน๏ธ
"But- but YN always helps with spiking drills?"- Bokuto
"YN is really good at helping Kageyama and Atsumu adjust their sets so I want them working with the setters today"- Coach
Oh boy ๐ฌ
Iwaizumi sees it coming from a mile away and so does Hinata
Hinata develops a Bokuto sense ๐ not unlike Akaashi's but Hinata is way less proficient at reading it
"Bokuto I'll help with spikes"- Iwaizumi says, trying to save this
"Yeah! I want you to teach me that wicked cut shot you did last week!"- Hinata
Bokuto ๐๐ปโน๏ธ๐ฅบ ok ๐
Now, you've gotten a little use to Bokutos Emo modes, having seen one happen the week prior
However seeing Bokuto sad still hurt your feelings
"Come on YN! Let's go!"- Atsumu and Kageyama yell
"I'll be right there!"- You say running up to Bokuto, who is now standing in the center of the gym deflated
You literally run to him, and give him the biggest hug ever ๐ซ
You ๐๐ป๐ฅฐ ๐ซ
Bokuto ๐๐ปโน๏ธ๐๐ณ๐ฅบ ๐ซ
"I can help you with individual practice tonight Kotaro. How about that?"- You
Bokuto ๐๐ป๐ณ๐คฏ YN said my name ๐
"HEY HEY HEY!"- he shouts as he spins you around, you laugh and hug him back
Please Yn the team is so thankful for you
But honestly, you had no idea Bokutos love of you extended beyond that of friendship
The entire team could see it but you must have been completely clueless YN ๐
You actually become a topic in the locker room after practice ๐
"Bokuto! You need to stop hogging YN all the time!"- Atsumu yells
"I can't help that YN loves me more than they love you"- Bokuto ๐ ๐ผ
"No Bokuto, you just have a huge crush on YN and you only want them to help you"- Sakusa
"I DO NOT!"- Bokuto
"Do too"- Kageyama
"NAH UH!"- Bokuto
"Dude you are down so hard for YN!"- Hoshiumi
"Bokuto and YN, sitting in a tree!"- Atsumu
"K I S S I N G!"- Yaku, Hakuba and Hinata in tangent
Aram, Iwaizumi, Komori and Hyakuxawa are all like ๐๐
I present Team Japan Men's Volleyball ๐๐ป ๐๐ป ๐๐ป
"Why don't you just tell YN you like them?"- Ushijima ๐
"I CANT DO THAT WHAT IF YN DOESNT LIKE ME BACK"- Bokuto ๐ฅบ๐ญ
Please for the love of God ๐คฆโโ๏ธ
The next few weeks continue, much like they normally do
Bokuto occupies 99.99997% of your time in and out of practice
He's taken to making sure you get home ok, having coffee dates and even having dinner
However it's one night when you have a movie date that you "accidently" fall asleep on Bokuto
Please YN, he's dying ๐ซ
He's taking all the pictures and sending them to everyone he knows
Team Japan โ๏ธ Akaashi โ๏ธ his doctor โ๏ธ some random person he barely knows โ๏ธ โ๏ธ
Bokuto is so in love YN ๐ฅฐ
And what he doesn't know is that you are falling for him too ๐
That's right, as annoying as he might be, he's freaking adorable and WE LOVE HIM!
However you don't know how to tell a giant owl man you care for him
Like you don't know his reaction so it could go one of a few ways
1) he could literally just due on the spot
2) he could scream
3) he would cry
4) he would break you and/or himself
Literally the possibilities are endless
However it's a good thing you don't have to worry about confessing ๐
Because you see, a certain someone has been noticing Bokuto's feelings towards you...
A certain tall haired rooster ๐
At a press even for the olympics, you are busy running around trying to keep all the boys on schedule
Thankfully Bokuto is busy with an interview right now so it's giving you time to catch up
"Hey Yn! How's our favorite manager doing?"- Kuroo says, he's evil smirk crossing his face
"Oh hi Kuroo! I'm doing great just waiting for the guys to finish up!"- You, our clueless angel ๐
"Say I was wondering, I wanted to talk with you about another opportunity after the olympics, maybe we could have dinner?"- Kuroo
Ok he definitely put you on the spot there
You rn ๐๐ป๐ณ๐ oh ummm-
Luckily or Unluckily (?), a certain someone just happened to overhear said conversation ๐
"KUROO!"- Bokuto shouts going next to you and pulling you behind him ๐ฌ
Possessive men am I right ๐
"What the heck do you think your doing with my YN?"- Bokuto
Wait a minute ๐
"I was just talking with YN about an opportunity for after the Olympics Bokuto"- Kuroo ๐
"Yeah well, stop!"- Bokuto
Kuroo ๐๐ป stop trying to advance YN's career ๐คจ
"That's not what I meant! You know I like YN so stay in your lane rooster head!"- Bokuto ๐
You ๐๐ป๐๐๐ whet-
Kuroo ๐๐ป๐๐๐
Bokuto ๐๐ป๐ crap-
"Bokuto you like me?"- You
"Umm well- yes...."- Bokuto blushing and rubbing the back of his neck
You ๐๐ป๐๐ฅบ I like you too!
Please YN you literally give him the biggest hug and he all but dies on the spot ๐
We probably won't have to worry about emo mode for several weeks YN thank you for your service ๐๐ป
"You two crazy Kids!"- Kuroo says
Bokuto ๐๐ป ๐ what did you want to talk to YN about?
"Well I wanted to see if YN would be interested in taking over an manager for MSBY but if they aren't interested..."
"YES OH MY GOD YN WILL DO IT!"- Bokuto screams
You ๐๐ป umm sure ๐
Please YN he's so happy right now ๐ญ
Bokuto will parade you around to the team telling them how you returned his feelings
"YN LIKES ME ATSUMU SUCK IT"- Bokuto ๐
Atsumu ๐๐ป๐๐ whatever
Have we told you how thankful we are for you YN ๐คฃ
Your work is so good and definitiely brightens up my day!
How do you think personal trainer Dream would react to finding out that Hob has to leave the country for an extended period of time due to work?
Would Hob be limping on his way to the airport? and be spoiled by random care packages (and other packages iykwim) from his clingy and insanely horny boyfriend? Sexy videocalls with heartfelt longing?
ALSO AWAITING YOUR VAMPIRE AU WITH BATED BREATH. THE ROMANCE OF DREAM CROSSING OCEANS OF TIME TO BE WITH HOB
Aww, thank you! ๐ค I'm glad I made your day brighter. ๐
And omgggg the Vampire!Dream Soulmate AU (a.k.a. Lord Dimitrescu!Dream AU) ๐ฅ I said I'll post the first chapter this week, but RL happened, and...๐ But the first chapter is complete! (I had it typed down and everything before I even wrote the prologue ๐) I just have to find the time to edit it. ๐
Okay, so about personal trainer!Dream being informed by Hob that he has to leave for an extended(!!!) period of time because of work stuff.
Honestly, my first thought is that Dream would drop everything and go with Hob wherever he's going because he's insane like that. ๐ But no! He's an adult. He has responsibilities.
Watch him become a sulky mess anyway and be more clingy than usual. He knows Hob has to go, and he won't try to dissuade him from leaving, but that doesn't mean he's happy that Hob has to leave. He can be supportive and mopey at the same time.
Like, Hob is an amazing person! Of course he deserves all the best career opportunities. ๐ฅ In fact, anyone would be lucky to be in his presence. Dream is just sad that, for the next few weeks/months, he won't be one of those lucky people. ๐ฅบ
During this time, I think Hob would also be clingy with Dream. He's nervous about the job assignment, living in a foreign country for a while, and he's very much not looking forward to being away from his boyfriend whom he loves, and who loves him just as much.
The night before Hob leaves, Dream is going to fuck him so good and slow that Hob would always blush at the memory of it, even months later.
And you know Dream would personally drive Hob to the airport and stay with him until Hob's plane absolutely has to leave. The other people in the airport will know just how much Hob is loved by his boyfriend because Dream is going to be so schmoopy and give him sweet, longing kisses while cupping his face in his hands like he's something precious. People will think that they're filming a romantic movie, and highkey want what they're having. ๐๐
And Dream sending care packages??? Yes.
Hob will receive the sweet care packages like, every couple of days. They're filled with (healthy and delicious) energy-boosting snacks, scented candles for relaxation, tea blends that Hob likes...just, all the things. (Maybe even a couple of Dream's shirts, because Hob misses him so much and his bed in this foreign land feels so empty ๐ญ)
The other teachers in the conference/retreat/teacher exchange program(?) will see him always being sent care packages and be like, "Wow, your spouse is really going all out, huh?"
And Hob is like, "He's not my husband yet..." and then going blushy because Dream...as his husband... ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ
The other people in the room will notice him openly daydreaming and be like, "Professor Gadling? Hello? No, I think we've lost him."
And of course Dream and Hob will video call each other daily. And after the spouse comment, I imagine the call will go something like:
Hob: I received the latest care package you sent me! ๐ฅฐ The other teachers said you're really going all out, but they referred to you as my spouse.
Dream, fiddling with the engagement ring he bought ages ago out of sight of the screen: Imagine that. ๐ฅฐ
And Hob can't say, 'I did! I daydreamed about being married to you for like an hour straight, and I totally missed what everyone said during that time,' because that might sound too much for Dream to handle (spoiler: it's not), so he just says, "I'm so happy you're my boyfriend. ๐ฅฐ I never felt so loved in my life."
And then Dream will be totally normal about that and it will be all he thinks about until Hob returns. But he will return the sentiment, and add that Hob is the only one he wants to love for the rest of his life.
Dream: I...hope that's not too forward of me to say.
Hob, already crying: If you say that, then I should also tell you that when the other teachers said you were my spouse, I daydreamed for an entire hour imagining our life together. So...๐ญ Sorry if that's too much. ๐ฅบ
Dream, a feral bastard barely restraining himself from booking a plane ticket and proposing to Hob as soon as he lands: No, not at all. You know how much I love you.
Hob, crying harder: I love you too ๐ญ
And that's pretty much the only time they didn't have phone sex during this period, probably. ๐
As for spicy care packages, realistically, I don't think Dream will send them? ๐ Because the packages are inspected, and Hob could get in trouble. However, that's not to say that Hob doesn't have toys with him. It's just that he probably already had them in his luggage when he left. ๐
I think the toys that Hob brought with him are all very discreet and travel-friendly, though. And most days, they're definitely not enough, because he got spoiled by the size of Dream's cock and his scorching touches back home. But he can do nothing about it because he doesn't want either of them to get in trouble. So he just has to satisfy himself with what he has.
That doesn't stop him from whining that he wishes Dream were there to fuck him in person when they have video call sex, though. He would be plunging his own fingers in and out of his hole, tiny bullet vibrator against his cock, crying that it doesn't feel the same as when Dream does it to him. Hob does gets to cum every time they have video call sex, but it's mainly due to Dream's lustful voice praising him for being so good and obedient, and how he can't wait for Hob to get back so they could start training his hole again, which has tightened up considerably when they parted ๐ Can Hob even take Dream's cock when he returns? Or will they have to go back to thigh and titfucking?
Suffice to say, their phone sex sessions test Dream's self-control about booking a flight to where Hob is and giving him everything that he wants. ๐
Hob is gonna be so tight when he returns, and Dream is looking forward to training him again. ๐
When Hob is finally(!!!) scheduled to return, Dream clears out a week of his schedule. He doesn't fucking care. Hob has been gone for (what feels like) ages. And his siblings, having witnessed how mopey he became almost as soon as Hob's plane left the ground, are like, "Yeah. Have the week off. Heck, have two weeks off. Just get out of here with your sad cat looks."
(Dream takes the two weeks off.)
And then he's off to fetch Hob from the airport.
I don't think Dream would have a huge welcome banner or balloons, but he'll for sure have a bouquet that will mean something like, 'I went insane when you were gone and I'm so glad you're back because I can't live a single day without you.'
And once again, the people in the airport will think that Dream and Hob are filming a romantic movie because Hob will run excitedly towards Dream, and Dream will speedwalk towards Hob like he's competing in the Olympics, and when they collide, Dream will lift Hob up in an embrace as they kiss like long lost lovers.
Then, once they're home, Dream will prove to Hob (for two weeks) that actual sex is better than video call sex. ๐
And just when they're about to sleep, Hob would confess that this is one of the things he missed the most when they were apart: him falling asleep next to Dream. He'll say he missed being held safe in Dream's arms, and pressing his ear against Dream's chest to hear his heartbeat, while feeling Dream's breath ruffle his hair.
Dream will once again be extremely normal about this, and shower Hob with kisses. He's thinking if he should pull some strings with his academic contacts, to make sure that, in the future, Hob will have more control over where his work will take him, and for how long. Because while he wants Hob to be by his side 24/7, ultimately, it's Hob who gets to decide how much time he'll spend where.
(And of course, Hob will always choose to be with Dream. ๐ฅฐ)
Thanks for the tag, @rachelsversion1 and @reyestrandd ๐ซถ ๐
Are you named after anyone?
Possibly? Once when I was little, I swear I remember my mom saying there was a girl in her high school class who name Kerry was spelled like mine, in addition to it being the name of a county in Ireland. But in later years, she doesn't remember this and insists she chose the name off the county in Ireland.
When was the last time your cried?
Ehh recently... either Monday night or the time before that when I closed at work- our team trainer wouldn't stop harping at me to vacuum the underside of the case (when we were already behind) and she kept saying our manager would be furious if we didn't, and I was just getting so upset going home cause like I have actually closed with our manager more than she has, and if we are behind like we were that night, he doesn't care about that. Also it's under a panel so no one would notice! (as you can see, I've let it go lol).
Do you have kids?
Nope!
What sport do you play/have played?
When I was in middle school, I played softball, and was mostly terrible (I think in three years, I literally hit the ball once lol). But for some reason I was able to tell if a pitch sucked and so I got on base quite a bit from getting a "walk" from not swinging at a bad pitch.
Do you use sarcasm?
Sometimes, but I have a real trouble with understanding it in person, because I come from a very sarcastic family with someone who is sarcastic 90% of the time, but if you react to what she is saying like she is being sarcastic, then she will pretend to throw a huge fit, and if you act like the fit isn't genuine then boy are you in trouble... so I tend to be embarrassingly bad at understanding sarcasm.
What's the thing you first notice about people?
What they're wearing almost always. Like if I see women walk by at work I always want to yell out, "that sweatshirt is so cute! Where did you get that!"
What's your eye color?
Brown
Scary movies or happy endings?
Happy endings for sure; scary movies are for looking up the plot on wikipedia lol
Any talents?
No but I wish... I walk very softly and people always think I'm sneaking up on them but that doesn't really seem to count lol
Where were you born?
A city in Wisconsin, but different from the one where I live now
What are your hobbies?
Writing is the biggest; writing and watching shows and thinking about what I want to write about lol.
Do you have any pets?
Yes, my tortie kitty Pumpkin, or Punkin - she is a sass bucket ๐ฅฐ
How tall are you?
5'2"
Favorite subject in school?
English or History; anything reading or writing or non-math related.
Dream job?
THE dream would be a murder she wrote type thing; living alone in a cottage and writing my silly stories and getting paid for it. But having a job where I could go in the morning, leave at a good time in the afternoon, be able to sit down during the work day and just complete a project and move on to the next one without having to talk to customers, and make enough money doing that; that honestly is a dream worth dreaming at this point.
No pressure tagging: @dreamingofmickeywaffles @manicpixiedreamb0y @elevatehearts @ellena-asg @poppy-in-the-woods @baubeautyandthegeek @hydesjackiespuddinpop @paperstorm @tailoredshirt @draculakells @firstprince-history-huh @kiloskywalker @not-roman-and-not-a-god
@carlos-in-glasses @love-ivygrace
George wanting fictional matty when he hurt himself and Matty just being in the corner w the horse like ๐๐ง๐ป
But aaahhhh I wasnโt expecting that!!! Iโm so excited for where it will go next !!
Also you talk about horses so well you can really get a sense of like personality as youโre reading even though I know NOTHING about horses at all
Also the mix between fictional Jamie being overly harsh but still somewhat caring in this story is cool
LOL Fictional!Matty says getting hurt and being vulnerable is extremely embarrassing and uncomfortable why would anyone want to draw attention to that lol He's just going to hang out with Mars and let Fictional!George lick his wounds and pull himself together in private. Fictional!George meanwhile is like โน๏ธ where is Fictional!Matty?! It's not from a malicious place at all, it's just different ways that they react to hard situations.
I'm so happy to hear that I still managed to have some surprises up my sleeve! I know that I sometimes foreshadow a little *too much* in my writing, so I'm so happy to hear my plot twist was still a surprise twist! I am ALSO so very excited for the rest of this fic and how everything will unfold, especially since *Fictional!MATTY* is the one now leaving for the summer and Fictional!George will be home, with a broken shoulder while Fictional!Matty gets the ride on all those horses...
LOL I 100% was like what's my thought process while riding, how can I get into Fictional!George's head for this scene. Granted, my internal monologue is a lot more of "whats the next jump, knock it off Pop, look where you're fucking going, one, two, three, hey, rude, LEAD CHANGE good boy, HEY, one, two three, you're fine four, five, FUCK, okay, we're fine, good boy Pop, which jump is next fuck, TURNING, woops, we're fine, okay we're done, circle, WALK PLEASE POP, WALK, WALKKKKK" I decided to make Fictional!George's a little more sophisticated lol I love horses so much ๐ฅฐ
Yes Fictional!Jamie is a fun character, like yes, he's overly hard on them, but he's like that old school tough as nails trainer, it's a different generation and a different breed, and he does care about them and want what's best for them. Like, is yelling at Fictional!George for putting himself in a bad situation by leaving the jacket on the standard because he was distracted by oogling Fictional!Matty instead of paying attention to his surroundings valid? Yet, BUT yelling at him about it while he is physically laying in the dirt because he just broke his shoulder probably *isn't* the right time for such conversations. BUT this is also his business and his livelihood? Like this is his job and also these are 1,200 pound prey animals that could cause a lot of damage very quickly and very easily...
Sorry for writing the worlds longest response! I was very excited to read your message! I'm so happy that you enjoyed the new chapter and I am so grateful for the continued support! I hope you continue to enjoy ATKH and that had a wonderful Saturday and that you have a wonderful rest of the week! Thank you so much again!
Seb my love, my dear how are you !!!! Kricket here ๐ฅฐ The way that Iโm genuinely sad right now that I donโt have time to read your new jake and bob fics yet because Iโm on vacation with my family lmaoo ๐ญ Iโm so excited to read them when I get a chance tho ๐ฅบ !
In the meantime, I saw the alternative fuck/marry/kill ask you got and wanted to pop in with another one that I saw in a tumblr post and thought was really funny!!
So with Bradley, Bob and Jake: get them randomly assigned as your lab partner for a whole semester, get trapped with them on a broken elevator for ten hours, and they're your employee trainer for your new job at McDonalds
hope youโve been having a good week so far Seb!! ๐ฅฐโค๏ธ๐๐ - @sugarcoated-lame <33
@sugarcoated-lame hi my beloved kricket!! iโm doing okay thank you, just pretty bunged up with a cold rn. how are you doing?? the vacation sounds absolutely wonderful and i hope youโre having a wonderful time and you enjoy the filthy fics when you can read them hehe ๐ <33
ooh ooh!! ok ok ok!!
Bob. Get assigned as my lab partner for a whole semester. This man would be so organized and I know he would never flake on you. He would be so reliable and if you needed the notes from a class you missed, he would happily send them over.
Jake. Stuck in an elevator with. Jake would be calm, cool and collected in this situation and he would also be a human space heater if it started to get cold. He would also keep you entertained for the ten hours.
Bradley. Trainer at McDonalds. Bradley is definitely one of those guys when you start a new job is like, โyouโre not meant to do it like this, but do it like this.โ He knows all the tips and tricks and heโs terribly patient with you.
thank you so much for these my love and please let me know what you think!! ๐ฅน๐๐ซถ๐ผ
Not that I know of. My dad chose Alexandra randomly? My mum said I was nearly a Scarlet, and she also liked the name Clementine (imagine๐) I like my name, the gender neutrality suits me a lot more - I'm a cis woman but I'm defo an Alex more than an Alexandra. And typical that my celeb crush of ten years has my name lol
2. When was the last time you cried?
Last friday, I've been having stomach issues recently and feeling super down so it all got a bit much, I feel better now tho!
3. Do you have kids?
Nope, and it's currently not in my life plan at all to have them, for so many reasons!
4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
I can do, but only in a jokey way!
5. What sports do you play/have played?
Only sports I did were the compulsory ones in PE at school - netball, circuit training, etc. I did go to the gym for a while but that was just some cross trainer, bike and weight stuff.
6. What's the first thing you notice about people?
Someones face, hair, clothes I guess?
7. What's your eye color?
Bluey grey, sort of green. Everyone says something different lol
8. Scary movies or happy endings?
I hope for happy endings bc I'm a sap! I can't stand horror and gore unless it's done well or not too in your face. (I'm aware I just said I enjoyed the x files but shhhh)
9. Any special talents?
I'm an artist if that counts, and I'm also pretty good at accents?
10. Where were you born?
Don't want to dox myself but somewhere in the Essex/London area๐
11. What are your hobbies?
Music, art, I try to write and read but it's slow going.
12. Do you have any pets?
Not any more, my poor cat got put down a couple of years ago, I still miss him :( my boyfriends dog is the closest pet I have now and I love her!!!
13. How tall are you?
I recently learned I'm 5'9 and not 5'10 like I thought?
14. Favorite subject in school?
Art and Creative Writing!
15. Dream job?
The dream is to be in the art world but anyone involved knows its a very hard place to get into. I'm trying to work it out, I need a new job 1. to earn more and move out and 2. to take a step in the right direction?
lab/elevator/McDonald's: jin guangyao, su minshan, xue yang :)
fuck, marry, kill but instead itโs
get them randomly assigned as your lab partner for a whole semester, get trapped with them on a broken elevator for ten hours, and theyโre your employee trainer for your new job at McDonalds
yay i was hoping someone would ask about su she!! ๐ฅฐ
gonna start with xue yang because i'm not a big fan of his so will need to choose wisely when it comes to the circumstances under which i am forced to spend time with him. i feel like lab would be very stressful. he, like wei wuxian, is a mad scientist genius, which i've mentioned would be nonideal for me as a partner in a context where there is both grading and volatile reactants. plus he's a lot less concerned with the needs of those around him. wei wuxian would rein himself in from time to time if it occurred to him he might be endangering and/or upsetting me, but xue yang has no such scruples.
i'm also not feeling super pumped about ten hours in an elevator with him. he would be bored, and what's a bored xue yang's favorite thing to do? some sort of torture probably. and even though he might have some candy on him, he would NOT be sharing. so that leaves mcdonald's trainer. i'm not sure i would learn very much, but it would definitely not be boring, and i would be much less likely to be in mortal danger at a mcdonald's than in a chemical lab or trapped in a piece of heavy machinery. i think? probably??
i think either su she or jin guangyao would be good in the lab partner scenario. jin guangyao is extremely competent and a whiz at logistics - not a requirement in a scientist, but a huge plus in a lab partner. su she is a genius overachiever but he wouldn't be obnoxious about it. his secret is that he wants to impress you. if it seems that is on the table, he will move heaven and earth to do it; but if you've already written him off, he hates you with a fiery passion and will turn all his considerable intellect to inventing new ways to sabotage you. i am solidly in the first camp, so i feel like we would get along very well. any time i was struggling with something he would be so down to walk me through it both because a) it's a chance to impress me and b) it's a chance to do something helpful for someone who values him. not to brag but we would be soooo obsessed with each other.
i also kinda want to spend ten hours in an elevator with him though? at some point after sounding me out generally he might put out some feelers as to my take on abandoners and gatekeepers and people who deny you ways to contribute and be recognized and i'd be so sympathetic that he'd secretly devote himself to me eternally on the spot. basically i just crave su she's fervent loyalty, and for some reason i feel confident that i could inspire it in him given any one of myriad opportunities. but i'm leaning slightly towards lab partner for him, because ten hours is kind of intense for a rant. i probably need to parcel it out a bit over time.
jin guangyao in an elevator would be interesting. he's a charming guy, and he's good at disarming people. perhaps most relevantly he is very good at making himself seem harmless and nonthreatening and like someone you would like to protect, and i think i would respond well to that in this scenario. though i also think it's possible i'd be giving him teen nie huaisang (general incompetence and stress-is-bad-for-the-baby-what-baby-it's-me-i'm-baby) vibes and his own protective and supportive instincts would activate, and then we'd both be trying to mother hen each other. maybe we could take turns or something. do it in shifts. ten hours is a long time.
God damn it, Hope, when are the fanfics with you coming out, because holy fuck you look good ๐ฅต
Seriously though, because I'm new here, are you hitting the gym purely for bettering yourself, or are you training for something?
Have you ever shared some gym sets?
Omg I am FLATTERED ๐ฅฐ๐ฅน you are so sweet, thank you very much!
Iโm actually a personal trainer! So working out is kinda part of my job. But I really really enjoy lifting weights. Getting stronger and improving my health are both important to me, plus it helps with my mental health as well :)
I actually havenโt posted any workouts, is that something youโd be interested in?
(Tuesday, June 14th) Hey! Today was a good day lowkey. Not that I did any better eating food, but my coworker and me had a great interaction today! I had a good laugh, and that honestly brightened up my day ๐ฅฐ. Ok, so I thought I was gonna be able to eat more today because I would have more access to food, but my kitchen was closed off because my parents are getting the walls repainted. ๐๐ค๐พ. I did go out with my mom and sister but we didnโt stop to get anything to eat ๐. So overall I did really bad today. And i also over-exercised. I figured Iโm over exercising because Iโm getting stressed about my birthday coming up. I hate my birthday, not because Iโm scared of getting older, I just hate being the main focus/celebrated. It in two days, and my mom wants to throw a big dinner with my entire family too a few days after soโฆ. Iโm just very stressed, and the thought of it makes me want to throw up.
Ok so akneeways, for my results today. 1,200 (goal) - 760 (Food) + 751 (exercise) = 1,191 (remaining). I did have to stuff more food in my mouth when I got home for work, even though I really hate eating at night because of bloating. It makes me not want to sleep ๐ฎโ๐จ but i did it anyway because my food count was way too low! So i wanted to do it some justice atleast. I unfortunately only got 16.9 oz of water down. I tried to drink more but I honestly was too lazy and didnโt want to use the bathroom a-lot at work. For tonight I weighed in at 153.0 lbs/68.4 kgs (with my waist trainer). I keep dropping a POUND ๐ง๐ฝโโ๏ธ Iโm lowkey scared, but I feel fine. Like I donโt have a headache (anymore), I donโt feel fatigued, and I can get my job done easily and engage in conversations with people as I normally would. I think Iโm more scared of getting comfortable with melting this weight off like this. I keep telling myself that I shouldnโt be happy/upset that this is happening because my period is causing this and it wonโt last forever. ๐ญ but I caught myself smiling at the scale when I saw the number tonight. My stomach is just a tad bit smaller too. I have body dysmorphia so I still see the fat version of myself in the mirror, so I couldnโt observe myself for to long before ruining my thought process.
Anyways! Tomorrow Iโm going out to a restaurant to meet up with a friend I havenโt hung out with in years! Iโm super excited, and hopeful that this will encourage me to eat more than I have lately! itโs also my off day tomorrow too, so I donโt have to go to work. I can sit at home and eat happily! So I should do way better tomorrow with my calorie intake. AND MY WATER INTAKE!!! Definitely should be able to drink more water tomorrow. And calm down on my exercising before I hurt myself or something ๐๐ค.