#my siblings r always mistaken for white and IK thats a different battle they have 2 fight through

[elytrafemme]

you know i’ve expressed way more opinions about this today than i ever tend to do but. something i do find interesting is like, as an arab american it’s very odd trying to find community here because as my father likes to call it arab people are an “overrepresented minority” in the US but i meet very few arab people like me not in an im not like other girls way but. I mean like other Arab people who arent white (white passing / white IDK what u call it IDC you know what I mean). bc my whole family excluding my cousin can pass as white but ive never been able to and i think thats given me a VERY diffeerent experience but also like. I never think about the microaggressions ive received in the past as being those but when i think about it people can be both chill and weird as fuck about me being Arab and thats something ive never been able to talk much about bc even w other Arab people sometimes it feels different like different fronts.

anyway thinking about this rn because Im talking to my friend (she’s white) abt like trying to navigate topics of journalism surrounding current events hwile acknowledging that theres racism in how these events r reported and what gets considered worth to be talking abt versus what conflicts r written off as oh X country is brutal X country is helpless damsel needing the US X country is this and that and that. 

but its like for the first time in IDK a min I’m aware of the fact that im brown and in this conversation and Im messaging my friend like I know i dont NEED it but i would love ur backup b/c you are white & even if no one says a thing Im scared of being crazy brown person from america’s set of no.1 brutal countries like im scared of going into this w/ the Iraqi in me and talking 2 white people about how we talk abt journalism. & I never think about that ever. or enough. but it feels like thats never left my body like Ive never not had that