#my perspective might be wrong but let me be delulu

[skysglcw]

UMMMM…. IS NOBODY GONNA TALK ABOUT THE FACT THAT BLANCHE JUST GOT TURNED ON BY DOROTHY??? 💀💀💀 THE WAY SHE CARESSED DOROTHY’S HAND WHEN SHE SAID “how sweet”???? AND DOROTHY STILL SMILES AT HER AT THE END???? HELLO????

[icanseethefuture333]

REAL DELULU YELLIN OUT MY MAAAANS 😜🤪😝

Why are people so mad about the reading I did for Mark's ideal type?:

Oh lord 🙄 so it seems people had expectations for the reading and thought it was going to be what they thought it would to be (or even wanted) vs thinking from Mark's perspective. They are in denial of the fact that Mark could be sexually attracted to such women and are babying him??? They don't want to acknowledge the fact Mark could actually have an active dating life. The way they view him is like a child, they can't fathom the thought of Mark having sex or being with an "alluring" type of woman. It's as if they want him to be with the type of girl they think he should be dating (what are they his mother? The entitlement! I just have to laugh 🤭). Some people could even be disappointed that they don't fit his ideal type 💀. They're just choosing to fight with me *sarcastic baby voice* because they think they know their precious Markie so well 🥺! Sigh 🤧😪 Instead of going by the saying "take what resonates and leave what doesn't" they're lashing out due to having poor self esteem.

Is it multiple people or just one person that keeps sending me anons to my inbox?:

Ew 😂! It's literally just only two of the same people who can't get over it. Embarrassing. I have a feeling these two might know each other or are possibly mutuals. If not, they both share in common that Mark is their bias and they are upset and shocked to hear about his love life. They wish it could be them. How boring 😴🥱 One thinks they are tough shit but is actually scary as hell because they can only talk shit on anon 😂. The other one seems to be in their feelings. Upset about the reading perhaps? Or what I said as a response? Can't please everyone I guess 🤷🏽‍♀️

What does Mark's future spouse have to say?:

Channeled song is Twinnem by Coi Leray.

"That's my twinnem, go, best friend

We killin' 'em (Yeah)

No new friends

Get rid of them"

At the end of the day Mark's future spouse is here to stay and they do not give a fuck about how people feel about it. "OH MY GOD🤬! I am never leaving! I am never leaving, I'm in this shit forever! 😃🤞"

They are someone who is very beautiful, confident, and wealthy on their own. They could possibly be popular or famous themselves. The style and beauty of the girls in the cards is a loooot similar to what was stated in the ideal type reading 😂... but let me not trigger the masses again 😮‍💨.

Channeled message for the collective:

"Don't meet your heroes if you aren't going to accept what you see. Once people show you who they are, believe them." Phew and ain't that the truth! Let em know spirit guides 🙌🏽🙏🏽! People want to idolize and be infatuated with a projected image of a mask people in the media have to put on every single day. They would have to face the truth that they don't actually know the celebrities they love and adore, so that scares them. The reason it's so scary to them is because they'd have to be honest with themselves about what behavior they exhibited in defense of their precious idols. You guys are putting absolute strangers onto a pedestal. Everything that glitters ain't gold. These celebrities are humans just like you. Do better.

Should I piss people off even more by giving the baddies what they want for fs/ideal type readings 😝?:

The cards have spoken... It's a yes bitches 🥳🎉! Can't argue with the universe about what's my calling 😌😘☺️. By providing such readings to my followers I am making a larger scale of people happy and I am allowing them to have fun! Some of the viewers are enjoying the possibility of it maybe being them (and there ain't nothing wrong with being a little bit delulu, as long as its in a healthy manner 😌🥰 keep it cute, don't be acting crazy and obsessive now lol). I could be even awakening some of my followers higher consciousness or helping them with the ability to manifest their desire. Overall, there is a sense of community happening for myself and my followers 💖, we will be able to celebrate about it soon!

[becauseimanicequeen]

Pride Month Watch: Mama Gogo (ep 9-10)

My thoughts on episodes 1-4, episodes 5-7, and episode 8.

I'm currently going through my Pride Month Watch List and Mama Gogo is on my list of shows/films I haven't watched before but have wanted to get to.

It feels like things are about to fall apart bit by bit, and I'm here for the ride because I'm sure that Annie will fight with everything she has if it does (it most likely will).

Let's dive into the 9th episode!

Did Auto just…

Walk into enemy territory?

He’s there to be a spy, right? There is no fucking way I’ll believe this pretty thief would stab Annie in the back like that and work for her enemy willingly. I mean, Annie even bailed him out after the drug setup thing…

I don’t care if I’m getting into delulu territory, my ass is firmly placed in this clown car! You will not trick me into believing Auto is shady. I refuse to believe it!

This…

Is exactly why I don’t believe he's there to join Annie’s enemy. Just saying...

At least Annie saw how talented Auto was:

And I love that she’s standing up for him against Choke (even though he fucking robbed her in the beginning!) since Choke is too narrow-minded and hot-headed to not drop his animosity for Auto.

Will Choke turn out to be right in the end? Maybe. Will Annie get burned for her willingness to trust Auto? Maybe. But I honestly think Auto just needs someone to believe in him (which Annie does). And I don't think Auto will willingly piss on that.

I love Annie so much…

She knows this is a team effort. One for all and all for one. She’s the best boss/big sister/friend these boys could ever have asked for. I love Team Annie so much!

Dude!

She’s not old. And she definitely didn’t trick Chen to go out with her. Can’t you see how whipped he is?

The way I smile like a fool when I see these two:

I love them individually and I love them together.

You can’t convince me he’s not whipped…

It’s palpable.

Okay…

Let’s see how loyal the boys are to Annie and how many will fall for Tina’s tricks. Please, don’t disappoint me.

Of course, there would be something…

To make the one who is most loyal to Annie waver. Considering he would do anything for his daughter (as he should), he might be the first to quit. And if he quits, this whole thing falls apart.

Damn, I really wanted to keep rooting for my pretty thief (Auto). I’m still in my clown car believing he's not really working for Tina, but it’s getting harder defending him, lol.

Finally...

And look at this baby gangster:

He's so silly and I love him for it.

Look at this beautiful woman in purple:

And the fact that her earrings are yellow! (And the weights in the background.)

Oh, lord. She's vibrant in those contrasting colors! The colors are doing things to me, lol.

Your honor! I fucking love this woman!

The way she delivered those words with such a sweet tone and innocent face... She's my queen and I will love her until the end of my days.

You know, for a woman I don't really like...

I can't believe I'm relating to her. At least she has perspective and priorities. That's always something.

The fact that they're emphasizing that Chen's mom absolutely doesn't want Chen to know about this is opening up to someone using this against Annie, doesn't it? Will Tina find out somehow and use it against Annie? Let's see...

Wait...

Yes you can. Loyalty doesn't necessarily mean working at Mama Gogo for the rest of your lives. It just means having Annie's back and not betraying her trust. Gayu can take Tina's money to follow his dreams and still be loyal to Annie. Just talk to her about it. Doing it behind her back, though. That's disloyalty.

She might be upset (which she has every right to be). But she might also be supportive since she is just as loyal to them as they've been to her.

Please don't do any of this shit behind her back. Just be honest. Talk to her.

Btw...

Real, mature adults know to apologize when they've been/done wrong. Another reason for me to love Annie with every cell of my being.

The way Annie stands up for Yuth...

If anyone doubted her loyalty to her boys, they were dead wrong.

I just...

Love them all so much.

And then it was shattered...

I almost cried during this scene.

Like I mentioned before, if he'd just talked to Annie, she probably would've been fine with it. But hearing it from someone else... That feels like a betrayal.

Annie still took it like a champion. She hurt, but the show must go on. They had a packed club and work to be done. No point in wallowing in this shit.

And then it just got worse...

It's obvious that he would find this out sooner or later since secrets like this tend to come out. But I'm glad he found out like this rather than Tina using this info against Annie.

Let's see how they will work this out (because I'm sure they will). It will be hilarious if Chen's mom convinces him to make up with Annie after being against her and Chen's relationship this whole time. But I feel like she has a different perspective of Annie now, so it's possible.

I've reached the image limit again... So, let's start a new post!

[nightswithkookmin]

chile i'm so glad i came across your blog, the amount of "i'm not going to assume they're dating" or "we can only draw certain conclusions but i can't say for sure" "we don't know their sexuality, BUT" type blogs i follow is getting kinda wack lmao. while i appreciate their perspective and nuanced takes i need to strike a balance. like let's get a lil delulu every once in a while. 💀

lol the im-not-a-shipper-but-call-jikook-boyfriends-every-other-post blogs are the funniest to me. the shipping hierarchy, so to speak is so weird. maybe just because im not a "shipping real people is bad" person i don't see the big deal. gonna get called delulu anyway, might as well go full out. they is gay/queer and they're fucking. i'm so sorry.

*also can we touch on the fact that shipping in this type of fandom (kpop) is kind of inevitable and unavoidable??! these boys are the other people we see them with day in and day out, interacting with each other and no one else. i feel like it's natural to ship when there's no other people around to break up everything, idk maybe someone can articulate this better than me. and people who are made to feel stupid for thinking that 2 members could actually be dating is so dumb. like is it really out of the realm of possibility that two people (jikook, cause all them other ships are....😬) who spent almost every waking minute together for like 8 years could fall in love. really?

/rant

It's the delulu hat for me

Lmho.

I guess for me being queer, I feel it's gaslighting for these people to be saying things like that. As silly as it is, it inadvertently deny and invalidate the existence and queerness of gay individuals and so I struggle with it.

This is the consequences of straight people in gay people business. They like defining gay parameters for us and it's like who asked you?? I feel people who say things like that are just plain ignorant or tone deaf or willfully homophobic.

I don't think everyone in BTS is gay but it makes me feel safe to see half the community assume them to be and celebrate them in that way. They are not cussing at them and threatening to leave the fandom or cancel them for this assumption and that is huge inspiration to me.

Those parts of the fandom are a safe space to be in as a queer army.

When people assume a person's queer sexuality they are simply admitting to themselves at the very least that LGBTQ EXISTS. This is important to me because I grew up in a community where LGBTQ didn't even exist in the collective consciousness of the people and EVERYONE IS AUTOMATICALLY ASSUMED TO BE STRAIGHT AND EXPECTED TO BE.

People read people's sexuality all the time and have done so since time immemorial and a lot of the time when they have had a sexuality read it's in the lines of straight, cis, rich, poor, superior or inferior. And that is a problem for some of us too because that discrepancy in the assumptions is as a result of homophobia and heteronormativity.

That whole don't assume a person's queer sexuality debacle sounds to me like a boujee way of denormalizing and preventing the normalization of queerness disguised under care, disguised under intelligence and disguised under wokeness. Especially when straightness is the default setting in this giant blue bulb.

We need to radicalize that. We need to change the cis straight default setting and if you are perpetuating this narrative you really aren't helping the situation. SIT DOWN.

I'm rarely assumed to be queer in certain circles and while that makes me feel comfortable within those circles it often times make it hard for me to admit my queerness openly in those circles too because I fear I will lose that comfort and respect and love and privileges that comes with being percieved straight in those spaces.

When I started my blog, I noticed some people assumed I was white and would use certain black descriptors as slurs when describing other people to me. I quickly had to switch the formal way in which I wrote to a much casual tone so my blackness would show through. Don't get it twisted. She black. She blackidy black black.

Then on the other hand, I was hesitant to let my queerness be known too because being black, I was marginalized as it is- you is black, or sound black💀 you know how it is- it's that intersectionality of oppression at play. Double double homicide.

When certain people realized I was black POC minority, their attitude towards me changed. I had those who didn't so much understand what black language is or perhaps wasn't used to being in black spaces and were uncomfortable with my blackness- these would take offense at me saying certain things in certain ways. Like chilee relax Karen, all I said was these motherfukkers gay as shit and they gay. Why you acting like I called them twinks or sommin. Right there, I'm cancelled for calling Jikook motherfuckers. They get sirens and everything😭😭😭😭😭😭

Same vein, I struggle destraightening myself or correcting people who assume I'm straight because I fear they will treat me differently if they knew I wasn't.

Straight privilege exists in the same way as white or even pretty privilege may exist and because these exist there's that automatic conception of queer, poc, ugly, fat disemfranschismet to run along side it.

People treat you differently based on how they perceive you. That's a fact. And for queer people, perceiving us as straight is the only way we get to be treated as human by the masses. And a lot of us embrace that- straight until proven gay am I right 🤣🤣🤣🤣

It's the duper's delight for me. Untill you catch me with a 5'8 melanin skinned silk pressed auntie on my left nipple good luck proving I'm gay.

It can be fun, I akekeke when some people around me are totally oblivious to the fact and even sometimes defend my straightness with their dying breath when nasty friends throw them shades or try to out me unprovoked.

A lot of us don't want to admit we are gay because we don't want to be disenfranchised.

I speak for myself when I say this.

But 'Don't assume someone's sexuality' is a double edged censorship used for and against queer people. It seemly offers protection on the surface of it for queer people but underneath it promotes heteronormativity and standardizes straightness and it is also used to promote closet culture, under the disguise of care and concern for the autonomy of queer people but that is a fallacy because our autonomy has never mattered to anyone since the dawn of homophobia.

And I don't know where this interpretation comes from. Why do people not want to assume queer people's sexuality but it's ok to assume straight people's???

It feels like a hijacked movement to me.

THIS IS THE ACCURATE MOVEMENT AS FAR AS I'M CONCERNED.

Don't assume all people are straight. It's ok to assume some people are queer because queer people exists too.

It is wrong however to assume queerness based on how a person talks, walks, dresses or even on their body type. That is stereotyping. And stereotyping is wrong.

When it comes to Jikook, Jimin is often stereotyped as gay more so than Jungkook because they have different body structures. Jungkook is stereotyped too solely because of the way his wrists hang, or based on moments he's femininity shines through.

But I don't think shippers stereotype Jikook in that way at all. I dont think shippers believe Jikook are dating eachother simply because Jungkook applied setting powder to his face that one time. They assume they are gay only because they believe those two to be dating eachother. That is not stereotyping. If those two were heterosexuals I don't think people will accuse their shippers of stereotyping.

It's one thing to assume Kai is gay because he looks skinny and dances well. It's another to assume he is gay because in a relationship with Gdragon. And if people can't tell the difference between the two, they should get some education and stop talking about things they know nothing about or only know because they stumbled across user69 on Twitter. They are not helping.

Untill people get offended when people assume others are straight, that rhetoric doesn't matter in its inequality. If you ask me, everyone is gay until proven straight.

Yet how many people will take offense at that?

Assuming people can be gay is not delulu.

It's ok to assume people can be gay. It's wrong to stereotype them as gay. If you can't assume they are gay, don't assume they are straight and don't assume at all. Run with this sis.

Wait, they don't ship Jikook but they call Jikook boyfriends???????👀👀👀👀👀

The fake woke syndrome will kill people in this fandom with these mentally confused thought crisis bunch💀💀💀💀

Jikook themselves are shippers💀

Smh

GOLDY

[ackermanshoe]

Edited lmao: warning this is kinda pointless and alot of farfetched theory and a veryyy long post please read at your own risk 🤡

Edit again: my analysis when I started it 1 month ago: 👩‍💼🖨️📇✒️🖋️✏️

My post now: 🤡🤡🤡🕯️🕯️🤡

Edit: I started writing this like ages ago but I don't see my own point with this writting and I'm editing it after reading @nini14 's Ackerman breaking the cycle analysis and I feel like both of these go hand in hand. So without further ado:

Triangles

Let's see as we all are made aware that aot significantly revolves around trios of friends such as the following :

Although these are the main trios that is noticeable, other trios can be made out by taking some characters from their original trios to make trios based on looks / character and dynamics. And this is where my argument comes in with this trio:

Their dynamic has always been mother father and son. Now let me explain, idk if anyone has heard about the drama triangle but here

These terms can be applied to MLE trio, Levi being the persecutor, Mikasa is the rescuer and the victim being Eren. In the first 3 seasons at least, Eren was being taken away and his decisions constently put him in danger, Levi being the persecutor who always gives Eren what he deserves for being a pain the ass and Mikasa being the rescuer always siding with Eren and protecting him no matter what. Do you see it?

This is Mikasa to a T.

The following is an example of the dad being the rescuer and the son "junior" being a victim, and much like Eren, could possibly refuse the hand that is helping him.

So that being said now that we have an understanding of their dynamics in the relationship, let's get back to understanding a triangle. Did you know triangles are one of the strongest shape because it has three sides that rely on each other hence shifting their energies on to each side and it makes the perfect shape for a bridge, architectures favourite. Why am I tell you this?

Because these dynamics that every trio is made up of in aot is because they have strong relationships.

Someone mentioned isayama loves putting move triangles and I couldn't help but agree, look at how many times he has placed Eren historia and an angry Mikasa? And subtly he has always ( to me at least) hinted the love triangle between Levi Mikasa and Eren, outside of their father-mother-son dynamic. Personally this makes sense to me the most, fueled by mikasa's dream. A choice was there to make and she unknowingly chose Levi.

Now this brings me to the death of all the trios Levi has been part of, from Isabel & Farlan to hanjo & Erwin to where we are now. Our situation before S4 was EMA+Levi = 4 people but we all know that a square isn't as strong as a triangle so something shifted. Eren, even with him in it Armin and him were more connected as for Levi and Mikasa as a pair it was more obvious. Especially in the conversation EMA had in that stare place as depicted on @gilly-bj 's analysis on similarities between rivamika and Mika's parents. Not only was Mikasa placed directly next to Levi although being feets apart in reality but her lines "another conversation only you two understand" it. Visually and verbally divided Mikasa from Eren and Armin and connected her to Levi. Both alone.

Yet another triangle placed by isayama intentionally or not is Armin Mikasa and Levi.

Because a triangle represents the process of recycle and reuse it also represent the cycle of life, an on going thing that doesn't stop, a history that repeats itself. And going back to Ackerman finally breaking this cycle of tragic fate, will they?

The fact that the whole manga series start at chapter 0 is very suspicious in it self. Why does it isyamaa? A 0, a circle that comes back around? A 0 which represents both the ending and the beginning? Why is the 1st chapter called "to you, 2000 years from now"? ( That's such a fucking impactful chapter name gives me chills )

Before my theory start I just wanna add that the story started from a narrative perspective makes me wanna believe in rivamika even more. Did eldians share the same fate in 2000 years? Who knows, but I know for sure Erens and mikasa's dynamic as the impulsive hotheaded doer and their protective calm but strong friend thinker will continue forever just like the never ending triangles.

I forgot all these ppls names on chaoter 0 so PLS bare with me.

The main dude who heavily resembles Mikasa even tho he is a man, has a incredible power just like the Ackerman's as a human AND he can shift into a titan???? Last time I checked weren't Ackerman's the bio product of titans? Remember is science is on a ongoing journey and forever progressing towards the impossible ;)

Hmmm

The little girl who resembles Gabi, who has the same dynamic as Eren, the girl also looks up to his inhumanly powers, a little too much alike Eren's idolisation of Levi ( and looking up to Mikasa's strength I think )?

Lastly, chapter 0 makes me believe it was set in the future. Look at the buildings, 2 story buildings I don't remember seeing buildings like this in the pre time skip era have you? I could be wrong tho.

If Isayama is as smart as we think he is then he might have related this chapter to the whole plot of aot. 🤷 Or it could mean something. And here's where my theory comes in and it may not be the most favourable for eldians. Let me start with the good part tho, the guy who looked like Mikasa is could be a descendant from the Ackerman clan, but he isn't half and half like Mikasa and Levi, he's full blooded. Which might be why he has the power to shift ( idk this kinda don't make sense since Mikasa and Levi can't buy hush )

So let's say rivamika got married had a family they always wanted and had the peaceful life and 2000 years from then this guy^ existed. Oddly familiar to great great great grammakasa 💀💀.

The cycle never ended for eldians, the whole world could still be mad at them for Erens action and has the prejudice against them for a long time. And the fact that they can shift is never going to change even 2000 years in the future. And the guy ( omg I keep calling him the guy cause I literally can not be bothered figuring out his name ) who lives in a far more developed society with richer civilization within the wall. It could be possible that Ymir or someone erased the eldians memories ONCE AGAIN after the rumbling ended. Because Mikasa levi weren't effected they probably were excused and got to live as they pleased. This dude is also the reason why I believe isayama does not consider the Ackerman's as side characters at all. In the end the story might have actually started with them, alluding to "the ending is just the beginning" as said by kingsama himself. ( Wtf am I saying lol )

So yeah in conclusion as I said yes story is weirdly really influenced by a large amount of triangles and loops. And yes ackerman probably would break the cycle of death after all living through hell fighting hell all for what? If not recreating into a heaven, giving it new life. I do believe in rivamika living the life they are destined for with each other but eldians fate might just be too tragic for me to see them as truly free people who gets to roam around outside the walls as they please.

I guess my point is that everything that goes around will come around, that will bring good karma for the Ackerman's and maybe a repeation of the past for the rest of the world. 😩😩 I think I fully somehow believe Eren is gone for good. Unless isayama draws him waking up from a long dream on his bed then 💀👀👀 I will throw myself away.

Thank you for reading 💞 once again I'm so sorry this post isn't as good as I'd like it to be I am sleep deprived right now and it isn't worded as well as of like it to be. But hope my delulu ness was enjoyable at least. ✌️💀

[teudoongievibes]

Camren Goggles™ on: “Consequences”

Hola sweets! Here’s my first lyrics analyze/theory post of the album “CAMILA” - I’m starting by my favorite song of the album “Consequences”, because I had a lot to say about it, because it spoke to my Camren heart like no other song ever did, and I think the structure and the lyrics of this song are pure genius. 

If you happen to notice the name of my tumblr then you might have understood that those theories are gonna be referencing Camren. If you don’t believe in Camren, or are not familiar with it, then some part of this theory might not resonate with you, and before you go messaging me about how much you don’t agree with everything I wrote, let me tell you that I don’t care much about what you have to say. I’m completely open to discuss and debate with people who are part of the Camren fandom, but anyone who feels like trying to change my mind about whether or not Camren was real or feel the need to insult me anonymously, I won’t waste my time on, so I suggest you don’t waste yours. 

Now that that’s clear, let’s get this Camren party started!

Disclaimer : all that I wrote is pure theory based on my personal delulu thoughts, many other interpretations can be made of the song

“Consequences”

Dirty tissues, trust issues Glasses on the sink, they didn’t fix you Lonely pillows in a stranger’s bed Little voices in my head Secret keeping, stop the bleeding Lost a little weight because I wasn’t eating All the souls that I can’t listen to, to tell the truth

Alright, first verse, obviously Camila isn’t telling a fairytale, we understand real quick that it’s about a relationship that went downhill *cue Camren tears*

This very first verse is very interesting, a lot to say there, so I’ll give my thoughts sentence by sentence for this one.

“Dirty tissues, trust issues”  

To me this very first sentence is already making me think that she’s talking about a relationship that lasted a while. There’s history there, and apparently an accumulation of problems.

“Glasses on the sink, they didn’t fix you“ 

Okay the way I interpret that sentence is that glasses are supposed to make you see things differently, they usually make you see better, clearer. Maybe what Camila is trying to say here is that even though that person tried to see things differently and have a different perspective, it still wasn’t enough to fix whatever problem they had or how they were feeling about certain things, and most importantly themselves - that can be emphasized by the fact that the glasses are on the sink, what do you have usually above a sink? A mirror.  

If you translate it in Camren theory, and that Camila is talking about Lauren, then maybe it’s about the fact that even if Lauren wanted to see the world as a better place, where coming out would be a positive thing to change the world even just a little bit for the better, it still wasn’t enough to fix her insecurities and quiet her fears.

Update : someone pointed out that the glasses could also be empty glasses from drinking alcohol. And that’s also definitely a possibility, depending if you imagine a kitchen or a bathroom I guess 😂

Update to the update : I’ve seen that a lot of you see the glasses as drinking glasses because you think that somehow Lauren is an heavy drinker. I personally never saw Lauren that way, especially if we take in the fact that this song would be about events that happened more than 3 years ago, not yesterday. Back then she was barely 17, and although I know very well that being in the industry alcohol and drugs are around no matter if you’re of legal age or not, I have a hard time believing that while being on a tour, having rehearsal,  and living with 4 other girls plus having the management team always with them Lauren could have develop an heavy addiction. I’m not saying that she wasn’t drinking from time to time like any person of her age, but I don’t think she was an heavy drinker.

I understand that since we see Lauren partying a lot more nowadays (she did turn 21), it’s easy to jump to the conclusion that this could be about alcohol, but I’ll tell you why for me it wasn’t the first thing that came to mind. 

First thing that threw me off is the preposition “on”, had it been “glasses in the sink” there would be no doubt as to what kind of glasses she’s talking about, but “glasses on the sink” let’s the interpretation open. Also I personally always take off my eyeglasses when I’m washing my face or brushing my teeth so that’s the first thing that popped into my head 😂

The other thing that stopped me from associating it directly to alcohol is the word “fix” - usually you drink because you either want to numb yourself or liberate yourself, but I don’t really see people drinking to “fix” something, maybe if you think of it as liquid courage which somehow could make you stronger or fearless, but still the word “fix” here seems a bit odd to me. Whereas eyeglasses by definition are meant to fix your eyesight. 

I don’t know, even if the reference to alcohol is definitely a huge possibility, I like the eyeglasses theory better, trying to fix what’s wrong by changing your perspective on life, that’s a lot more poetic don’t you think? 😊

“Lonely pillows in a stranger’s bed”

Two different ways for me to interpret this, either the “stranger’s bed” is referencing to an hotel bed, which will never be your bed, and by definition will always be shared with strangers. In Camren theory she could be referencing being on tour, and feeling lonely, maybe because Lauren couldn’t or wouldn’t share a room with her for fear of being discovered.

Or, the stranger in question is the lover she’s talking to, Lauren if you will, and the relationship has gone so bad that it feels like she doesn’t know them anymore -  “Lonely pillows” could refer to the fact that this other person already left the bed, leaving Camila alone. Which for me makes a lot more sense.

“Little voices in my head“

This is a pretty classic image to illustrate internal conflict - those voices could be telling her anything and everything. I’ll let you use your wonderful delulu imagination on this one. 

“Secret keeping, stop the bleeding“

It’s not the first time that the theme of secrecy comes up in one of Camila’s songs. Obviously it fits perfectly any Camren theory you could have. 

Again, “stop the bleeding” makes me think about something that has been hurting her for a long time, about a wound that won’t stop bleeding. The fact that she associated those two particular themes in the same sentence is interesting - is the secrecy what’s making her bleed? And if she’s addressing the person directly then is she asking them to stop that bleeding by ending all the secrets ? 

“Lost a little weight because I wasn’t eating“

Proof that this relationship really fucked her up, cause the creator of the Volcano Rooster wouldn’t pass up on a good banana unless she really felt bad.

“All the souls that I can’t listen to, to tell the truth“

There are different ways to interpret this particular sentence, but for me the “souls” are the people who always encouraged her to be herself and potentially to come out - people that encouraged her to tell the truth and that given the situation she was in, she couldn’t listen to. Again Camila is still in the theme of truth, lies, secrecy, honesty, and obviously having some kind of internal conflict about wanting to be honest but at the same not being able to because of the other person in the relationship. Well this perfectly fits in my Camren theory that Camila wanted to come out but Lauren was too afraid to. 

Then comes the chorus that fucks me up so good.

Loving you was young, and wild, and free Loving you was cool, and hot, and sweet Loving you was sunshine, safe and sound A steady place to let down my defenses But loving you had consequences

Those lyrics are pretty self-explanatory, Camila lays out how amazing it feels to be in love and the thrill of it. The fact that she uses the words “steady place” may refer to the fact that the relationship was something of a constant, a place that was safe for her - that would be the case if the relationship in question started out as a friendship. 

She ends the chorus with the title of the song, now we all know that loving Lauren had and could have had many many consequences on both of their lives. It had consequences on their friendship, it had consequences on the way the fandom perceived them, it had consequences on the dynamic of the group probably, it could have had huge consequences on their careers and basically their whole lives if they ever did came out or were discovered back then, and of course the biggest consequence was that it changed Camila forever and left her with a lot of scars.

Hesitation, awkward conversation Running on low expectation Every siren that I was ignoring I’m paying for it

Second verse, you can tell that it’s constructed the same way as the first one, and she’s basically telling us how slowly the relationship deteriorated. That all the things that she enumerated in the first verse led to this, that those are also the consequences of the secrecy, the trust issues and all the problems they accumulated.

“Hesitation, awkward conversation“

This sentence might be about the fact that she didn’t know how to act around this person anymore, that what used to be something natural is now something that she hesitates on. You know when you fight a lot with someone and you end up being scared of actually talking because you’re afraid that it’s gonna end up in another fight, so you end up talking about neutral stuff or not talking at all? This is what this sentence makes me think of.

And we all know there was a period of time where things were really awkward and tense with Camren, when they would stand 100 meters apart in photos, and didn’t even really look or talk to each other on camera.

“Running on low expectation“

She’s not expecting anything much from the relationship anymore, she’s not hoping that things will change, because she’s tired of being let down.

“Every siren that I was ignoring I’m paying for it”

She knew that things were gonna get worse but she chose to ignore all the signs, she chose to stay with that person up to that point, and now she has to suffer the consequences. It’s the first time Camila uses the present tense, implying that she’s still paying for it to this day.

If I think in Camren mode, this could also be referring to the fact that she also a lost friend, that the price to pay for risking this romantic relationship is her friendship with Lauren.

Loving you was young, and wild, and free Loving you was cool, and hot, and sweet Loving you was sunshine, safe and sound A steady place to let down my defenses But loving you had consequences

Once again the same chorus, she’s still reminiscing, until she says “no” in the next part.  No, ooh-ooh-ooh Said no, ooh-ooh-ooh I, no, ooh-ooh-ooh, mhm

I guess the relationship got to a point where she had to say no, no more of this. Loving you was dumb, dark and cheap Loving you still takes shots at me Loving you was sunshine, but then it poured And I lost so much more than my senses ‘Cause loving you had consequences

The last chorus is obviously the breaking point of the song, when she finally let’s go of the idealistic image of that love story to tell us that sometimes even the most beautiful connection you can share with someone can deteriorate and turn bad. 

The parallels with the first two chorus is pure genius. Let’s associate the words shall we? 

young//dumb - usually youth comes with immaturity, impulsiveness, you go right in without thinking, that’s the beauty and the dangerousness of it.

wild//dark - I associate being wild with thrill, and somehow having a secret and taking the risk of being together, of being discovered, can be a bit of a thrill at the beginning of the relationship, but then comes a time when the secrecy becomes a burden more than anything else. The fact that she used the word “dark” emphasize even more that theme, it has the double meaning of “being in the dark” as in being lost and “being in the dark” as in being hidden and having to stay in the shadows. 

free//cheap - this one is my favorite parallel. On one side you have freedom, a feeling you can embrace when you finally let yourself fall in love, let go of your fears, when you’re finally accepting your feelings for the other person - and if we’re thinking Camren then also finally the freedom to be completely yourself with someone, and finally begin to accept a part of yourself that might have been hard to deal with. And then on the other end the word “cheap”, what a harsh and yet so meaningful word to use there. The definition of cheap is this one : “of little worth because achieved in a discreditable way requiring little effort.” Basically any relationship can be beautiful and intense and full of love, but if you don’t put in the effort, if you don’t put in the work to make it sustain and last, then it slowly loses its value and becomes something cheap. 

Camila Cabello, you’re a godamn good lyricist.

“Loving you still takes shots at me”

Here Camila uses present tense for the second time in the song, again to tell us that even this relationship might be over, she’s not yet over it. The fact that she uses the word “shots” makes it feel like something almost violent, like a bullet in the heart. But “taking shots” can also refer to a verbal attack, if we go into Camren theorizing she could be talking about the part of the fandom that is still constantly coming at her about Lauren.

“Loving you was sunshine, but then it poured”

Pretty self-explanatory, not all good things last.

“And I lost so much more than my senses”

I’ll put that sentence in parallel with the first chorus “A steady place to let down my defenses”

There she illustrates amazingly how her perception of that person changed over time. The relationship used to be a safe and steady place where she felt secured but then it ended up making her lose all her senses. Different ways to interpret the word “senses”, she could be talking about the 5 senses, and without them you would be completely lost and in the dark, and she could also be referring to losing her mind. 

The fact that she says she “lost so much more” could again refer to the fact that she lost a friend. And that would be confirmed by the next sentence:

‘Cause loving you had consequences

Because I loved you, I lost you. That’s the consequence. Other possibilities would be that she lost other things, I don’t know, her confidence, her trusting abilities, her hopefulness… it’s up to interpretation.

Loving you

The song ends on those two words, I find it interesting that she chose not to put any tense there, letting open the idea that she might still love this person…

Alright that’s it sweets, my first analyze/theory of the album. I hope it wasn’t too much of a drag to read 😅  But I guess if you read that far then you made it through! I’ll add one more time that all of this is just pure personal theory and that there are many other interpretations of the song, which I think is what Camila wanted. 

Tune in soon for the next Camren googles™ lyrics theory : All These Years

I’ll end this post by saying that Camila is a fucking amazing songwriter, and that’s the gospel truth.

[jaeurus]

That post you reblogged about Jimin not knowing how big the billboards are, makes me want to rant about something that I've been thinking about for a while. It's not directed towards anyone and nothing inspired this thought other than myself. Here goes... BTS don't think about things that we obsess over. They don't google things and spend their time on social media seeing what's new in the kpop world... some of us as fans do that, they as a HUGE part of kpop don't. Rant not over, one more ask.

okay i’m gonna reply to all your asks in this individually. please don’t think i’m judging you but since you dropped this in my ask so i get to tell my perspective, right? don’t get me wrong kay.

okay for the confused people reading, this ask is about this post.

‘BTS don’t think about things that we obsess over’ - well that applies for everyone in this world honey, no two people think the same nor do they feel the same. one might think, in fandoms people obsess about the same things but again, that is hardly ever the truth. people like and think about different aspects of everything in this world and bts are no exception.

‘They don’t google things and spend their time on social media seeing what’s new in the kpop world.’ - frankly, do you google about everything? for me, i don’t look something up unless i see like a lot of people talking about it. and by ‘people talking about it’ i mean my tumblr feed mostly. similarly, for bts it’s the people around them and that’s their staff, managers, the rest of the members. they look up stuff which they are talking about. also, in every industry, every artist is busy with their own stuff and unless the other artist is their personal favourite they won’t be having day to day release information about them. same applies for you really, you know and are talking about bts cause they are your personal favourite. 

part two : llollofagirl said: When I said that I inspired this thought, I meant it. I say this to myself as a reminder before I say it to any of you out there. They have a schedule that we will never in a million years understand. They are actually busy and quite honestly I think they don’t care about most of the things we think they care about. Whenever something is released in kpop I wonder if BTS have seen it and if they are watching it on repeat like I am. As time went on I realized that they aren’t. Not done, sorry 😅

everyone cares about different things in general. it’s not possible for anyone to keep track of everything. just like you can’t name every kpop act out there, they can’t tell who recently had a comeback (unless they’re also having a comeback). but i bet the rapline will know if epik high release something new work, gguk will be blasting iu’s new song through every speaker he owns and so on (but them knowing about their favourite artists too is subjective to a lot of factors which applies to all of us, a lot of us miss award shows every day cause everyone has things to do also timezones should ch0ke).it’s so evident from the music they recommend to us too. you can’t tell me that you’d heard already of every single artist they have recommended till date. 

part three : llollofagirl said: They don’t sit around and talk about the latest twice/BP/RV video like some of us believe. In one award show one day after the release of “Yes or Yes” most of them didn’t know there was a new song. I just watched their reaction to Chungha from the GDA and only Jin knew some of the lyrics to her new song and Jungkook seemed surprised there WAS a new song. I was surprised because for some reason I was sure they had seen it and was waiting for a killer reaction. Which brings me to shipping.1 more.

i’m not sure why you only mentioned girl groups. hey they might be talking about them or not. your post is kinda self contradictory. you made this post to talk about how we always overanalyze everything they do but you’re doing the same really. and i’m not saying it in any kind of condescending tone bls bby.

part four :llollofagirl said: After realizing this which I’m sure a lot of you have realized way before me, the way I view kpop life has changed, which again brings me back to shipping. I think a lot of us think that idols are just a bunch of teenagers waiting to date the new big star. What if they’re not? What if they really do want to focus on their career and don’t care about dating? What if they do care about dating and are dating right now? We will never know because we don’t understand that life… las one I promise.

i’m a pre- law student and although i shamelessly hit around on hot guys but i don’t have time for any relationship so them not wanting a relationship is literally the most normal thing ever. if you’re talking about twt stan, yes some are really wild but most people here on tumblr are old and mature enough to understand the different natures and possibilities of relationships. and if any of them are dating, i only wish them a happy time with each other because they deserve it.

part five: llollofagirl said: I don’t think we should try to understand that kind of life. I mean I can barely understand mine! So let’s just enjoy kpop for what it is… music, and try to lay off of analyzing idols and their love lives because it’s not what we think! I am not trying to belittle our bond with our idols, but let’s not act like we have them all figured out, because we don’t. And believe it or not we have an impact! We make videos that sometimes gain millions of views!! Let’s realize that! Sorry and thank you ❤

honey no one can ever understand the hardships you’re going through in life. it might look easier to an outsider but only you truly know what an obstacle in life puts you through - both good and bad things. everyone has it harder and so do the kpop artists. there will always be people who overthink every little move, and take the smallest thing seriously (the jimin and jeongyeon thing, i swear till date i never found what the fuck they talking about like what is it that you delulus are seeing and am not and i absolutely love twice). about creators writing fiction or making videos which garner a lot of views, you cant filter it out completely at the thought process you know. both good videos and bad (negative) videos gather millions of views, it’s all newton’s third law.

in conclusion, i’m not really exactly sure why that post induced this response in you XD XD but it was a nice debate haha. i mean i ain’t american so lmao i gotta laugh at that post. 

have a great day / night ahead of you bls, stay safe and hydrated